do you enjoy being hurt? ā r. cameron
a little self-indulgent bc why do the people in my life always act up when i'm already stressed over finals š
ā baby, i just don't get it
do you enjoy being hurt? ā
pairing: bsf!rafe x fem!reader
context: after another break up with your boyfriend, rafe finds you.
words: 1.3k+
warnings: reader's in a toxic relationship, overprotective!rafe, insecure!reader, a little fluff, angst
"y/n, what the hell?" rafe comes bursting through your bedroom door without warning, and you quickly wipe away the tears that have been caused by your boyfriendāor ex-boyfriendāwho had just broken up with you. again. "i've been-"
the look of frustration on his face switches to one of concern in a single second, rushing to crouch down beside you sitting down on the floor, leaning back against your bed. "woah, woah, woah," he says, picking your face up in his hands and making you look at him. "why you crying?"
"it's nothing, rafe," you push his hands off your face and stand up to look at yourself in your vanity mirror. pieces of your hair were sticking to your cheek from dried up tears, and your eyes were bloodshot red and puffy.
"it's not nothing," he argues, looking at you through the mirror. "you're fucking crying, y/n! what happened?" his concern slowly morphs into anger, frustrated at the fact that you wouldn't tell him anything. "it was evan, wasn't it?" he spat, beginning to pace around your room in an attempt to calm himself down.Ā
"that fucking motherfucker," he muttered, not being able to stop the words that fall out of his mouth. "what'd he say or do now? fuck another bitch? tell you you're not hot enough for him? accuse you of cheating? i swear to god y/n, if-"
when he realizes that you've broken down again, tears flowing out of your eyes as you leaned your hands on the vanity and stared down at it, he stops and rushes to your side.
"i'm sorry," his voice is soft now, a hand gently coming across the small of your back as a sob fell from your mouth and tears continued to trail down your cheeks. "i didn't mean toā hey. hey," he turns you around, his big arms wrapping around you in a comforting hug.
your sobs and sniffles only double in amount, as you melt into him and cry against his chest. "why am i like this, rafe?"
"shhh, shhh," he caresses your hair with his hand and rests his chin on top of your head. "it's okay."
"no, it's not okay," you reply, wiping at your tears. "i know that, i just don't-"
"hey, hey, hey," rafe separates himself form you, just enough to cup your cheeks in his hands, thumbs wiping at your tears. "just tell me what happened, a'ight? can you do that?"
sniffling and wiping at your nose, you nod at him, and he pulls away so you can both move to sit on the bed.
you pull your knees close to you chest, while rafe waits for you to speak. "he broke up with meā¦ again," you say. "told me i wasn't doing enough, that i didn't benefit him in anyway. that there were other girls who did more for him, who were better." you just stare at the ground, refusing to look at him, knowing that the second you did, you'd break again.
rafe brings a hand up to rub his chin, heat rising in chest as a scoff left his mouth. that motherfucker.
"do you think he's right?" when you finally let your watery eyes meet his, the band that kept him in control snapped.
"oh fuck no," he immediately stands from the bed and charges towards the door. "i'm gonna give that son of a bitch-"
you scramble to your feet and follow him, stopping right in front of him to keep him from going any further. "rafe, no," you say, placing a hand on his heaving chest. "you can't."
"fuck you mean, i can't?" he asks, fuming. "that idiot made you cry. and not only that, but he made you feel as if you weren't good enough for him. you can't just tell me something like that and expect me to-"
"please," you plead, eyes only on his. "if you say something to him, it's only gonna make it worse. i don't want him to-"
"to what?" rafe cuts you off, his muscles tensing. "has he laid a hand on you?"
"not on purpose," you mumbled.
"what?" rafe asks through gritted teeth.
"we were both really mad," you shrug, no longer meeting his eyes. "i got pissed that he just started saying all that shit to me so i told him to calm the fuck down and got in his way soā¦"
"soā¦ what?" you could tell by the sound of his voice that the next words you spoke could either have him snap or keep it together.
"look, it doesn't even matter, alright?" you push past him and head back into your room.
"the fuck you mean it doesn't matter?" he immediately follows after you, gently grabbing your wrist to make you look at him. "hey, look at me. did he touch you?"
cowering under his strong gaze, you mumble quietly. "it was an accident."
seething, his posture straightens and his hand drops from your wrist. "i'll see you later."
he turns on his heel without letting you get another word in and walks out of your room.
against your better judgment, and afraid of what he might do, you follow him down the hall and down the stairs.
"rafe," you call after him, but he ignores you and proceeds towards the foyer. "rafe, wait."
you jog to catch up and walk ahead of him, stopping him in his tracks by placing a hand against his hard, heaving chest. "where are you going?"
"get out of my way, y/n," he tells you, refusing to have his angry eyes meet yours.
if you thought he would just stand by while you told him your boyfriend "accidentally" laid a hand on you, you obviously didn't know him at all.
"where are you going?" you repeat yourself, and he finally looks at you.
"where do you think i'm going?"
you shake your head at him, your shoulders going limp. "please don't."
"for fuck's sake," he mutters under his breath and turns away from you to run a frustrated hand across his buzzed head. "why are you defending him?"
you wince at the tone of his voice, and shrug. "i'm not. itās just-ā
ājust what?ā he stops pacing and closes the distance between the two of you, taking both your hands in his. āi mean seriously, y/n. why do you stay with him? help me understand.ā
looking into his pleading eyes, you couldnāt do much more than shrug. āi donāt know.ā
and it was true. maybe youād gotten so used to the toxicity that it was normal to you now. how fucked up is that?
a scoff leaves his mouth as he glances down and fiddles with your fingers, but it wasnāt bitter or disappointed. you really couldnāt quite place it.
āi justā¦ iāve gotten so used to it,ā you admit. āi donāt know anything else.ā
ādonāt you know you deserve better?ā his eyes meet yours again, but theyāre no longer angry or searching for answers. theyāre just sad.
youād be lying if you said it didnāt cross your mind. every time your āboyfriendā had broken up with you, you swore to yourself it was the last time. that you couldnāt let him keep treating you the way he did, because heād only take advantage. but that was much easier said than done.
āiām not perfect, rafe,ā you shrug, tears threatening to line up against your bottom waterline. āand love isnāt either.ā
ābut it shouldnāt hurt,ā he tells you. āi mean, is this what you really want for yourself? some guy who constantly belittles you and makes you feel as if youāre not enough for him?ā
ābut what if heās right?ā you ask, causing rafeās heart to shatter a little. he couldnāt believe that you, of all people, could really buy into that shit. youād always been so perfect in his eyes. āwhat if-ā
āoh, doll,ā he drops one of your hands to caress your cheek. āthere are so many guys out there whoād kill to just get an hour of your time.ā
you lean into his touch without even thinking about it. āyou think so?ā
āi know so,ā he nods, thumb swiping under your eye to wipe a new tear away. ālet him go.ā
this isn't even the draft i was suppose to finish but fuck it, we ball. this was the one that my creative juices wanted to write. look out for that ex-bf!rafe smut soon tho š
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saw ur recent post and thought
lets all stereotype the tmnt simps like theyāre animals at a zoo together chaotic
[insert funny picture of us staring at the funny ppl in the cage with their desired turtles (i lowkey couldnt find a meme that would suite this š š š )]
raph simps ; either fiesty gremlins whoāll bite ur toes off if you go near them and spray them with water or sweet little souls whoāll tuck you in bed and give you forehead kisses. both simp types arenāt rare and are commonly found together as a pair, explaining their view on the himbo buff boy raph and how they can either āfix himā or āmake him worseā.
leo simps ; traumatized beings, it doesnt matter if youāre a cocky and mean in a loving way or a iāll do anything you say because youāre so great kind of leo simp, youāre traumatized in some sense, whether it be through fiction or real life. you guys lowkey ENJOYED giving ur ocās or self inserts loads of angst when it came to the future and movie. man, you guys have so much love for this one turtle his ego is literally thru the roof.
donnie simps ; a true simp. let me guessā you like nerdy men who are also queer as hell, who is also straight as hell at the same time, who is also the type of man youād expect him to do nice things for you to only throw you under the bus. listen up you simps, i understand that the few of you ādown down badā simps are into that and might sans fangirl your way into thisā but let me explain and introduce you into the āilovehimsomuchiwoulddieforhimandhisbigforeheadā simps. youād be an awesome duo trust.
mikey simps ; now i KNOW you guys got something beneath those precious and fluffy oc and self insert moments. there has gotta be SOME SORT OF EVIL ANGST AND TWISTY MOMENT YOU GOT GOING ONā much more worse than the leo trauma, FARTHER WORSEā teehee you guys got such a cute puppylove selfship going on teehee ššWELL WHABAM!! the moment mikey gets his mystic powers n angsty moment in the movie out comes the freaking angst beast and comfort waves following behind it >:))))
ā š¼ļøšļø (guess whooo ššš)
Not me looking at the way you signed and going "Who's Keyframe?" I AM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME FIGURING THIS ONE OUT.
Also, I love psychoanalyzing peopleš
In my opinion, from what I have seen at least, most Raph simps I've interacted with are like really sweet and anxious people that REALLY NEED A HUG just like my boy Raph.
The Leo simps, as I said earlier, enjoy bullying him so much- and with that I mean, they're most times the kind of people that tease or bully their crush, but they care so much about him and love adding so much depth to his character.
The Donnie simps I know can't drop the color purple for ONE DANG SECOND, the color is everywhere all the time all at once, they seem very curious and are some of the ones that I see the most active in the fandom.
And Mikey simps are freaking wild, one minute they're the sweetest and the next they're jumping around the walls and scaring you, I love those.
*Sips on coffee, staring at the cages*
Ah yes, what a wonderful and interesting set of specimens.
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