#cannot believe i am finally responding to these memes ugh happy day

[shadowedvales-a]

@roshale : you'll always have a place here.

quietude concocts environment and mentality; relief harbours diligently on wounds of pastimes — perchance it wasn't so horrid being a ghost of yourself. sometimes you're witnessed by benevolence, eyes befallen from those craving to know you, heart and soul and mind alike. girl exhumes concentration, odd feeling of something akin to tenderness healing ridged spine. relaxation wants to properly awaken, although tension in the skin shan't cease so easily. there is no harp - pluck of misery sung — for the moment she is no child stained in prophecy or expectation; she is jane ives and nothing more, certainly nothing less. peers neath curly tresses beginning to lengthen, posture hunched with an all - too prominent conflict. " i understand. " softly spoken tone filters an otherwise hard atmosphere, genuine smile perking corners of lips, applying dimples upon pale complexion.

since discovering an origin tale bathed in bloodshed; meeting her mother and aunt; understanding whence she came and the possibilities of doors opening in her favour — jane was at a complete loss of prepared futures. the cullen's were her family in every way which counted. rosalie especially; beautiful, fair, flawless rosalie whom jane adored more than words conveyed or actions justified. left hand clasps over the right, toying fingers together as provoked uncertainty practically consumes her whole. nervous habit of old breaks free through perception of her hands, (the foot may begin tapping in a minute) as she releases a final, ragged sigh. " i would miss you if i... if i go to mama. " admits gently, innocence drapes itself in the glisten of hues, but jane still promises a sight of savagery, even if hidden way down low.

" you will not be upset or — or mad if i go? " tender conversations under moonlit skies endured between herself and carlisle each night the past week: it was up to her, she'd find support no matter what. need not settle an answer this instant, and it can always change later, albeit weighted pressure bubbles further and further throughout her system. never thought she'd have one home, now she's contemplating amongst two. the concept of decision making is harder than anticipation foretold. " and i can still come back if i leave? my place will also stay here? " such important questions, jane needed to fathom it all now, in crystal clear vision. because if she could only decide one home to call her own — she wouldn’t dare leave the bunch that took her in when nothing was truly owed. her mother existed in a lost life, closure may never rise; this was forever.

#i. private verse with roshale. #feat. roshale. #OKAY HYPE FOR THIS. #cannot believe i am finally responding to these memes ugh happy day #thinking this be around when she's contemplating staying w her mother or the cullens?? #like a lil while after rose takes her to see terry and becky and there are some visits back and forth #you sent two other memes and i thought they'd be best set earlier on in their timeline like straight post-lab and early cullen days #but yeAH!!! #also thinking at this point they'd know one another for at least a year and a half #and that makes me emo but in the best way #cause we said rose spent about five months in the lab #and jane spends over a year with the cullens before she starts getting interested abt where she came from #and rose goes to the library and brings back some documents and stuff for her #also we did decide that ultimately she stays w the cullens but visits becky and terry a lot #but i was thinking about jane initially having to make a decision?? #because in her mind its either the cullens or the ives. she cant do both #so she be panicked <3 #when shes really just gotta chill #shes a lil dramatic u know #just a confused child lbr

[imagine-loki]

God, but my Angel of Music

TITLE: God, but my Angel of Music CHAPTER NO./ONE SHOT: Chapter Two: The Schedule AUTHOR: xllizette ORIGINAL IMAGINE:

Imagine you are at Avengers Tower for business with the avengers and find yourself unable to sleep. You leave your chambers and wonder aimlessly when a beautiful melody attracts your ears. You begin to follow it until you reach a room and find Loki playing a piano graciously and flawlessly.

RATING: PG NOTES/WARNINGS: Mentions New York incident and Loki’s doings that led to New York; Loki is mentioned in this chapter but he doesn’t appear yet, patience my dears; the conversations between the characters since this day will be separate chapters and on the characters’ POV so stay tuned!

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After my time out wondering the area, I came back 30 minutes before dinner so I can check out my room and make sure all my stuff was there. As I’m walking in, Captain Rogers is walking out. I couldn’t believe it. I might as well get used to seeing everyone any time. He didn’t seem to notice me but no big deal. I got on the elevator and took the trip of a lifetime, or that’s what it felt like. Finally, I reached my floor, which by the way was entirely for myself. I enter my room and so far it all looks like it’s here. Wait. My piano. Just great. Tony probably decided to pawn it or donate it or something. Oh well. I might as well just have dinner; it’s not like it was working anyway.

As I’m headed to the dining hall, I can hear them all which will probably be the only time I will hear and see them all together.

“There she is. The girl of the hour,” Tony excitedly says raising a glass to my arrival. All I can afford is a whimper, but of nervousness. Shrugging my shoulders I just wave and take a seat. “Well, as you all know, Y/N will be joining us from now on as your trainee. I know it’s Thursday, but the new schedules you all received will take effect on Monday. So, Y/N enjoy your three day weekend because you’re in for a big surprise.”

“It’s surprising already,” I chuckled along with everyone else.

“Indeed. Which by the way, why did you not tell us you played piano?” Tony sounded almost upset.

“I can see you truly didn’t read my background. I have a Masters of Music degree and I practically had to practice the piano everyday. Where did you place my piano though?”

“Yours wasn’t working so I sent it to get repaired and I’ll be donating it.” I knew it.”But I bought you a new one and it’s in the floor where the library is.”

“Oh you didn’t have to, but thanks.”

“You’re welcome. I’m not going to introduce the team, since you probably already know who they are. Please, let’s eat.”

Natasha wasn’t happy about that and she confronts Tony, “Come on, Tony. She can at least talk a little about herself.”

“It’s okay, really. I’m going to see you all pretty much every week. We will get to know each other better then,” I said with a smile. Nobody argued it and we proceeded to eat.

After dinner I headed to my room to take a warm bath. For some reason I felt truly worn out and I think it was all this overwhelming event. As I’m prepping my bath I hear a knock at my door. I left the water running so I can cut the conversation short since I’m still super nervous. “Coming!”

“Yes?” As I open the door there was nobody there. I checked both sides and nothing but on the floor was an envelope. What is this? It was blank. Going back into my room, walking towards the bathroom, I began opening the envelope and it had one simple question: Would you play us a song?

I wonder who wrote this. I moved on to take my bath with some Beethoven playing in the background. I tried to ignore the letter but I hadn’t introduced myself personally to anybody except Tony, Pepper and Happy, which only Tony was in the room. Ugh, I shouldn’t think about it too much. I finished my bath and just rinsed off for another minute or so. I decided to look at my schedule to see who, when and what time I was training with everyone. And this is what my schedule looked like:

Monday:

9a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Captain Steve Rogers

Tuesday:

9a-12p: Clint Barton

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Tony Stark

Wednesday:

9a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p:Natasha Romanoff

Thursday:

9a-12p: Tony Stark

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Clint Barton

Friday:

8a-10a: Tony Stark

10a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-4p:Clint Barton

4p-6p: Captain Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff

I can understand why the schedule this way, but a two hour lunch? I’m not complaining; I just hope I don’t fall asleep! Let’s see now, what should I do in this three day weekend? I can catch a movie tomorrow for sure. Treat myself to a good fancy dinner. Take a walk in a park in the cool breeze. Oh no! I sound so lame. Like the single memes! I need to make friends! Fine I’ll take Saturday to find someone from the team who isn’t busy so I can start getting to know them. Okay, okay. Friday for me. Saturday for them. Sunday for me again. I have to rest up for the following months. I do hope it goes by fast, but I will enjoy every single bit of it.

The next day I woke up, brushed my teeth and headed to the kitchen. I would want to say it was 10am presuming everyone was busy. WRONG.

“Hey, hey, hey. Did you have a fight with your pillow?” Natasha teased. And all I managed was a, “What?” I saw my reflection on the fridge door and yup, I looked like the pillow won.

“I know I said feel comfortable. And if this is your comfort zone, we won’t judge you,” Tony said almost dying of laughter.

“I’ve never seen him laugh so much. I think he’s taken a liking to you,” Natasha teased.

I didn’t think everyone would be feeling this loosely around me already.

“What plans do you have this weekend?” Natasha curiously questioned. “If you don’t mind me asking.”

“Oh I don’t mind and I wanted to go out today and treat myself. Then tomorrow, hopefully I can catch some of you and talk to you guys. And Sunday rest all day, you know, be lazy in bed.”

“That’s it? Well I’m free tomorrow. We can hang out. Talk about everyone,” she said with a smirk on her face.

“Oh that’s great! Yeah!”

In the background you can hear Thor storming in, “That is what Father said. This is the only concord he can give Midgard. Loki must stay here and learn the ways of the midgardians and help in any way that he can.”

Tony very displeased responds with, “How can I speak to him directly? Surely he’s a man of honor and tell me this to my face.”

“He is a man of honor. But I am the medium between this world and ours and this is his final word.”

“His final word?! I’ll have to remind you how many innocent people your brother killed. How he almost destroyed half of this city!”

“You will not understand, especially in rage, if I explain it to you. Do we have an agreement?”

Tony thinking silently gives him an answer, “I have to think about it. I’ll give you answer by tonight.”

“Why not now?”

“Because I have to think for an entire planet that was almost destroyed by a god!”

Thor nodded and went to his room to await for Tony’s answer.

“I cannot believe this,” Tony began. “Loki has to come and live with us so to ‘repay’ for what he did.”

Natasha quickly tried to defuse Tony, “Well, think about it. We will all keep an eye on him. We have the technology to defuse any of his magic. And for the most part Loki won’t feel comfortable besides anybody else but Thor, so he will be by his side a lot more than we think.”

“You’re right. I still need to run it by Fury.”

“You should get going then.”

I am in bit of a shock. Loki staying in the tower? What if he gets us when we’re alone? What if he tries what he did last year? I have faith in the team, but Loki almost succeeded. What if he thought about a better plan and perfected this one and finally take over earth? I’ll put my entire trust on the team, but I won’t say I’m not scared. I wanted to leave the kitchen area so I ate a small bowl of cereal and decided to get ready to go.

Once I finished getting ready, there was a knock at my door. As I open it, it’s Miss Potts. “Hello, Pepper, how can I help you?”

“Y/N, how are you? I came to give you your new schedule since Thor and Loki will be joining us from now on.  Everybody is already aware of the changes and if you have any questions please let me know.”

“Oh, uh, okay. Thanks!” Thor and Loki will be joining us?! That means that Stark already gave Thor an answer? Or maybe it’s a ‘what if’. No, Miss Potts would have told me so. Ugh! It’s probably definitive. I’ll try not to think about it too much and enjoy my day. I mean what can go wrong.

New Schedule

Monday:

9a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Captain Steve Rogers

Tuesday:

9a-12p: Clint Barton

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Tony Stark

Wednesday:

9a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p:Natasha Romanoff

Thursday:

9a-12p: Thor and Loki

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-5p: Clint Barton

Friday:

8a-9a: Tony Stark

9a-10a: Thor and Loki

10a-12p: Dr. Bruce Banner

12p-2p: Lunch

2p-4p:Clint Barton

4p-6p: Captain Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff

#Loki #Imagine #Submitted fic #submission #God but my Angel of Music #chapter 2 #xllizette #avengers tower #sleeping #tune #piano #flawlessly #stumble #dark #apologising #pins #threatens #miserable #promise #request

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode # 12: “I Can’t Shut Up to Save My Life” ~ Dana

i am actually trembling. will is so mad at me but it's okay. this feels okay. I'm literally the biggest rat in this series LMAO fkasdjh fuck I feel so bad for Ali rn but I also am....fkadshf really kinda happy idk. I just know a lot of heat is coming my way and Cameron's idols are going to make me pay for this

Everyone is mad. Everyone is crying. Everyone feels fucked over. But um. Everyone is me merge vote and I am everyone merge vote. So. I guess we’re even.

im so sorry

Hi im drunk and im here to say that I almost cried in the club tonight because of how much i miss Will.   I just feel really alone and I think everyone hates me, especially owen, and im just trying to be friends n have fun and make it to the end of the game and also win is that too much to ask. IDk I played myself.  Also I actually just started crying now writing this yikes. I dont know what to do, I'm never in the minority because usually I just get voted out over all my allies because i'm upsetting. I don't know what to say to people, I don' trust anybody, why is kevin in the game. Does Ashvika actually like me? WHo knows. I'm just happy I wasn't totally blindsided. I knew Will might leave, I knew he was getting votes and I let it happen so I wouldnt get any which makes me a snake ass bitch. I just couldnt believe his vote out stayed so air-tight with the exception of Ashvika letting me know what happened. Idk if this means she wants to work with me, probably not, who would, she didn't respond to my pms after the vote, but i'm trying not to stress. Hopefully I can just continue to be a meme and appear non threatening but I just want some tea im getting thirsty nd also i love to strategize i crave it. Remember... I'm the village idiot? Like I will photoshop as many lizard hidden immunity idols on these people as i need to if these snakos dont vote me out thank u so much. This is the first time in my life where everyone hates me more than I hate myself and i just cannot handle IT. 

I...can't believe that worked??? I can't believe I voted in the majority??? ???????????? I'm really happy about this and I hope the Soup alliance (??? where did soup come from) can stick together even if just for one round. The biggest problem is if Cameron or someone else has an idol. Owen told me an idol had gone missing in one of the areas which means someone has already gotten it so we have to tread very carefully if we don't wanna get fucked.  

I love filming a 30 minute confessional about the game, where I get upset again over Will hating me and crying over how much I love Owen and Emily. I'm a mess sakdjhfa

You know? No matter what I do in this game, I’m going to be deemed a threat. Even if I don’t do shit. Even if I just sit and take orders. Hm. Well. Here’s to proving people right! If anyone’s upset with me, just know that they woke me up! Threat Emily is here and she’s ready to fucking win.

I love Ali. I love that he's such a good friend and that we're so able to move past things like this - I really do want to go far in this game with him. It's what we deserve. Wouldn't it be cute if Owen got 4th again too <3

this would be a better challenge if we could discuss xo but I think like....there isnt any way we shouldnt win unless someone is intentionally messy. two groups of people, four A's and five B's. no matter how it gets cut, whoeveer starts, one A and one B should end up in the final two with three As and four Bs voting, so someone from B SHOULD win, I think. It just alternates who starts each time, A, B, A, B or B, A, B, A, until yeah one from each is left. and it'll be easy to see who a snake is bc we directly see the lists. I'm more worried about Ashvika and Kevin at this point....but oh well. I also need to be on high alert of getting idoled out this round. Cameron is denying that he has two idols which like....yeah I'd way rather have Ashvika or Emily have one and be lying than Cameron have one, but at the same time I'm just gonna like assume  ksadjhf that Cameron has two :) worst case scenario :) so I like?? would think he uses both of them this round maybe unless he is worried more about himself, and also ugh idk like ashvika or kevin could flip or even emily/ali although I think the three of us can trust each other rn. idk yet.

I came in second... again. Woohoo! I love immunity challenges yes I do! :—————) ________________________________________________________________

(This was filmed like 7 hours before the immunity challenge)

The soup alliance is hopefully sticking together!!!! Unfortunately we can't get Cameron out so we're playing some 4d chess mind games tonight. The plan's to vote Ruthie, and then we tell the others...Zach or Cameron, I'm not sure I already forget. Not like they'll approach me about this but you know. My ass will scream if things flip on us because people are rats, double the screaming if it's me who gets flipped on butttt things are looking good so far, but then again I've found that it's when I'm most confident in our plans that I get blindsided. 

Welcome to my roundly long confessionals where I, Zachary rae, gives information on the past few days. Before we begin, I should put a disclaimer - this may be the last one! --- Hello fans! So where do I begin. Last vote Dana and Will called me in paranoia and, frankly, they were right! However, on that call I suggested that if the idea of them having majority (or half; 5) was accurate, we may as well just not split and pray for no idols. Dana didn't like that idea, and in hesitation, asked to split the vote 3-2 and... yeah. Bye Will. I was like crying afterwards though cause I genuinely love him and he's a great person and ugh it sucks cause I really wanted to continue working with him and i'm just so disappointed. Moving forward, I made an alliance of four [Ruthie/Zach/Dana/Cameron], entitled "Will's Puppets".  In this immunity, it's common sense by any mathematical logistics that one person from each "side" will make final two, and one of them five will win immunity. However, Cameron adjusted our views and just saved Ali and maybe it was because they didn't comprehend what a proper strategy was, or perhaps to build bonds with Ali. In the end, I voted (once again, wow) in the minority and for Emily to win immunity, but Ali came out victorious. Good job for him! Going into tribal it's kind of like... there are 5 people on one side, vs us four. Dana and I talked and it's kind of like... we needed a plan. Ideally, everyone knows that Cameron (and Ali) have an idol. They want Cameron out, I believe THAT part of their expression, but they know he isn't easily struck as he's likely playing his idol tonight. Dana and I realized a good way to escape, since it's probably better to take out one of us, is to get in the good graces of Emily and Owen. I like them both as people, I genuinely do, but in this game they are two of the biggest threats to win. What we are suggesting to Owen is that in the event we take out Ruthie this vote, and then Cameron next, it's final 7 and that's when you need to start realizing who you want to be with in the finale. Dana called with Owen for so long suggesting that if me and her are safe (we're trying to separate ourselves slightly but like saying we both think alike), then we can help him take out Emily at 7. He needs the numbers since Emily is a powerful player. I don't know if he sees value in me but hopefully he likes me cause he thinks i'm funny and I love him. I go to Emily and I say that I will make sure Cameron plays his idol as my piece of leverage to keep me safe. They vote out Ruthie, Cameron flushes his idol and goes next, and then it's FFA at final seven, and I think at that time Dana and I are safe for one vote. Do I want to go to the end with Dana though? HELL NO!! Originally I was thinking I would love to sit with Kevin and Ruthie. If Ruthie goes, then I think i'd want to go with Kevin and Ali. Maybe Ashvika but... i'm not sure. She's just so adorable and likeable but she's not playing strategically amazing like other people. Neither am I though so I can't talk. Do I think Emily's being honest with me though when she leaked that "Ruthie's the vote and she wants to clue me in"? Not at all. I would not be surprised if I leave tonight, and she better be able to justify herself when she lies. She's manipulative and a liar (IN A GOOD WAY I STAN!!) but like I don't vote bitterly, I vote who I think I connected with more and played better, and if you can't justify why i'm the good vote this round (which I truthfully disagree i'm a good vote this round), then you ain't getting my vote. I also think if I survive I can easily go final 4/5. Dana's a bigger threat than me, which is my strategy to align with physically bigger threats so i'm able to slide by like a little snake, and say Ruthie/Cameron leave next, then Dana, one of Emily/Owen and Ashvika even are the big threats. I don't see how I will go unless it's final 4/5 but who knows. I'm not being cocky but that's how I see things, and if they let Dana make it further than me, which is possible, i'll be shocked. I really will be. Also can I just say how much I adore Owen. Dana said he talked about how funny I was and he pmed me saying that i'm funny and hilarious and despite the occurrences in this game, he'd love to be friends and I agree. Though this is a message reassuring i'm probably leaving tonight, I adore him and he has my vote 100% if he makes FTC and I leave. I don't want to leave, but that's the fact. Weirdly - well not weirdly but just... I don't know. I'm troll. I'm just trying to play fun but I really don't want to leave tonight like i'll cry. I've had so much fun and i'm not ready to leave and... ugh. I really want to be here and prove myself because I don't think I have and I don't want to see myself as a flop. Not saying 10th+ is a flop, but saying that I haven't done anything or utilized my All Star spot yet, and it's just... ugh. I'm defeated. I hope I can stay to keep going further in this game but... I don't know. I hope this isn't my last confessional. I really hope I get to stay and... elaborate on my amazing gameplay. Joke, of course, but I do hope I get to stay. please!!! :(

This could be my last confessional. When I go home tonight and become the long suffering 4th juror I have waited 8 games and lots of failed strategy to become, I just want to say it’s been a fun game and I genuinely love everyone. Tribal is in 3 hrs and I just don’t know how i’m Voting. The biggest meme of all is that I implicitly trust Owen, who I feel is far and away the best player in this game. I told him I don’t think he can get to the end with goats, because they’ll all flip on him, and I think that’s true. He needs other key players as buffers towards the end. Inevitably when the Emily v. Owen power struggle for power, glory, and stardom breaks out, I’d LOVE to be a spectator still in the game. I will vote how Owen tells me tonight, and even though he has promised me i’m not going home, i’m Not sure he’s in the position to promise that. I just dunno. I had such a good talk with him last night and tbh if nothing else that was amazing jury management. He knows I can’t shut up to save my life, and he just let me talk for hours. So thank u for validating my goblin personality. Also he told me he thought I was smart which honestly... my kink thank u. I also talked to Ali for a while this morning, and he says he’s doing his best to keep me and Cameron safe, I believe it idk. Like why lie to me i’m On the bottom and everyone knows i’m an idol-less sad snake, so like no point tbh. The hardest part about playing with him is that I feel like I want him to succeede more than he wants himself to succeede. Like I can’t want it for you, and had so much to work with, I just wish he would own it. He’s like a defenseless almond and I just want him to be a bad bitch ya know? Finally, I’m trying to play with Ashvika here and use the fact that she game me info last round that I “kept quiet” as a bargaining chip to show I can be trusted. Will Ashvika end up as my target or my closest ally u be the judge. Overall I’m so prepared to get voted out i’ve all but made total peace with it. Hopefully I can push through tonight wih my sparkling personality and some wheeling and dealing. ________________________________________________________________ Owen stopped talking to me about the game which means i’m going home. I love watching my own death occur in real time. 

thanks for reminding me about the way zach pronounces mario. I know what I'm writing on the parchment tonight.

I..... have no idea what's going on tonight.

THAT WASNT MY LAST CONFESSIONAL BECAUSE.. OWEN AND EMILY ARE SNAKES! (mario)

iiiii feel really uneasy about ashvika for some reason??? idk she keeps asking if we're voting for ruthie, so she could be planning to #flip on us which would be a dumb move, or maybe she's just confused and if that's the case then me too. Owen and I kinda talked about this the night before because we know she's somewhat attached to Dana but like we ain't voting Dana so I hope that's not a problem. And I mean we both voted for Ruthie at the Duncan blindside so like??? I hope she wants to do it again?? I just think any of us flipping now especially would be bad for us and for them. I have secure trust in everyone else in this alliance so like...let's make it through please??? If anyone goes home I hope it isn't Emily because I think her vote negator can play an important role in f8, no matter who goes home tonight. Iiiii just don't want things to get fucked up tonight!!! and i haven't talked to anyone from the other side (i mean they could approach me but yknow two way street and all that) and idk if i should??? bc being too pushy and saying oh yeah we're voting cameron could be a big miss steak??? 

I can’t be the only one who sees that Owen is aligned with Cameron right?? I thought I would have been one of his closest allies after the duncan voted but he didn’t save me and later chose to save Cameron over ali even though he’s supposedly in the minority, and now he’s vying not to vote Cameron out? I understand he makes some good points but  it’s sketchy 

im going home bye ________________________________________________________________ I LITERALLY FEEL WHAT IS HAPPENING DSAKSJHF I AM GETTING FLIPPED ON BY EMILY PROBABLY EITHER THAT OR LIKE???? IM GETTING IDOLED TF OUT OF HERE AND I JUST WANNA DIE WHERE IS ALI I NEED TO TALK TO ALI I WAS SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM FSDHAFHJ GOD

Day by day, I get closer to voting Kevin as the sole survivor of Athena All-Stars. Congratulations, I played myself, but Kevin played me better. 

ali is rlly acting sketchy why :'( i think I'm going home ugh ________________________________________________________________ I dont think ali will idol me and I want 2 scream dfskajhkdjfhkjsdhfjkhsdkjfhkjsdhfkjds

so I won immunity and literally am confessing at tribal and am a mess

Ruthie becomes the 12th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-4 vote, and the 4th member of our jury. You can see Ruthie’s preseason interview here. 

#NotAllFunAndGames