#cuz i feel pretty today

[chrismcshell]

i went out and bought groceries today are u proud of me 🥺

#ray speaks #i actually had a pretty good day today :) #i had to walk 20 minutes in -14c weather with the wind in my face to get to the store. which was not the best. but i feel great now #i did catch a bus on the way BACK from the store so i didn't have to walk BOTH ways. so that helped #but im glad i got some exercise sdjhsdkfg #feeling invigorated now that im safe and warm at home #and i have food now! yippee #and oh boy im glad i got that out of the way cuz we're supposed to get hit by a big snowstorm tonight/tomorrow. now i can stay home yaayyyy

[ambalambs]

Here's some pics of the goober too

#trying real hard to feel better so stares at miko for an hour lol #also threw his bard portrait in there too cuz i think its pretty #i wish i could make him holding a harp or something in it tho but its good enough lol #kinda just going through it today feeling like the universe just does not want me to play this game anymore and it sucks #lambs plays ffxiv #miko jinjahl #final fantasy xiv

[artbyace]

help im gay panicking

#yesterday he was staring at my eyes and i was trying to avoid looking cuz i could tell and then i just Glanced #and he goes. your eyeliner looks super pretty today #i am not normal about it #any then today i walk in and he’s like WOAH u look so pretty #like stop it right now #he called me hot i cant function #he said he was in love with me today #and ranted to the guy he’s talking to about me #how mean is that #my feelings #txt

[varilien]

Do not freak out BUT....

I absolutely adore your Vash and his hcs and you're honestly in the top section of my tier list for trigun artists 🥺

I'm absolutely also a sucker for how pretty vash is, have you ever seen a man so pretty?? No I have not and wolfie is blessed everyday by waking up to him 🙏

ANYWAY I JUST REALLY LOVE YOUR VASH AND YOUR HCS FOR HIM ARE SOMETHING I THINK ABOUT TOO....

YAAAAAY IM SO GLAD U ENJOY!!!!!

#THANK YOU SM!!! #asks #anonymous #sorry i'm really out of it today dhfgkjdfk #i'm glad ppl have generally enjoyed the handful of times i've been able to talk about some of my headcanons in earnest #cuz a lot of them exist in like. webs. these interweaving threads of ideas pulled directly from canon #+ implied stuff + stuff not necessarily implied but easily extrapolated from what info is present #with a healthy sprinkling of ''this is nothing except personal to me and therefore i'll include it for personal reasons'' fhkghd #so i rarely feel like i can actually get into something cuz then i'm busy explaining everything else that goes tangentially with it lol #<- does not know how brevity works basically #anyways vash being So Pretty occupies so much of my brain in fact i'm gonna go think about it more right now good bye dhfgkd

[indiangp]

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#sorry ranting again but #tw weight #i shouldn't eveb have checked my weight yesterday #i feel so disgusting doing anything today #like everything that i generally donr associate w weight is now reminding me like oh youre doing your daily walking but ur still overweigt #i cannot do anything normally without thinking about it #and its been so long since i hated myself this much this is so annoying #im scared whike filling uni forms because i think oh they will reject you cuz youre fat #even though it has nothing to do w my appearance at all #i didn't feel like cleaning my room today but then i was like oh youre ugly and disgusting at the same time ??? atleast clean your room #im trying to reason w myself but it's just not working #i skipped class today but i have to go tomorrow and im so scared cuz i dont really have friends there #but theres some nice girls i talk to once in a while and they have told me things like 'youre so pretty' 'i love your hair' etc #and i know because i usually do well in mock tests and dont annoy anyone... nobody really hates me #theyre pretty chill #but im still like oh these guys are gonna laugh at me or talk like did you see her today she couldn't have gotten worse #thankfully our break time bw classes is shorter now so i wont be eating during break because i always refuse when someone else offers me #i think the one girl i do share food w and talk to quite often is skipping tomorrow so im extra scared #i dont eveb know anymore #og

[allergic-to-four-leaf-clovers]

it's minecraft time bitches

#i feel pretty today so now it's everyone's problem #well it kinda isnt cuz you. cant see my face #idk why i cover it up at this point ive showed parts of my face so many times in the past its unreal #if you do some digging you'll find my Mask Era™ #idk im just paranoid that people wont like me cuz of my age (im really self-conscious of it because like. i act super mature for my age and #What If My Moots Dont Like Me™) #all i can really say to assure y'all is that im not 12 #idk.. ANYHOW MINECRAFTIN TIME #i am but a silly little guy #im above 12 but below 16 so.... oopsies #idk i feel really bad for things i cant control

[sapphicautistic]

Guess who got a referral for a tilt table test!!!

#i feel stupid for not having asked before cuz it was SO easy #she did warn me they're pretty booked up and if this place doesn't work she said she'll refer me elsewhere #ive been aware of this problem for a v long time but i worried no one would know what it was & that no place nearby would have a tilt table #and ive been too exhausted to fight for a diagnosis so i put it off #but i asked my neuro today and she was like sure! i'll refer you! #my heart rate was 109 at her office today bc i was sitting up lmao #updates on my boring life

[paladincecil]

Over the last few days I've been procrastinating the infinite wealth story because I feel like it's coming to an end xD I've got hundreds of pictures at this point but most of them are story related so I don't want to post them like I was doing in the first week to avoid spoilers

Though today I finished wrapping up pretty much everything I want to do. Sujimon story is all done, same with the island, all substories that are available atm are done, max personality and [REDACTED], 1st place on all karaoke songs, sicko snap and crazy eats complete, and all drink links and bingo boards are done. Oh also everyone has at least 2 jobs at rank 30 and halfway through a 3rd.

I have a couple things left over like the photo hunt but the rewards for finishing it are only 4-5 star items and I'm already close to getting 6 star stuff for the whole team. Tomorrow I need to finish the final 5 floors of dungeon and that's about all I can do before I have to continue the story and potentially finish it within a few days T_T

#It's been 2 weeks of playing it pretty much constantly #but it still feels like I just started and there needs to be more #I'm the person they were talking about when they said not to devote your entire life to the game because you'll get sick xD #I don't dare look at my playtime but if I had to guess I'd say I'm at around 80 hours #I dunno what my trophy situation is cuz I avoid looking at the list for games like this #but I did get a fair number of them today from finishing up various things

[girlwithfish]

Feel so bleh and icky sometimes cuz i dont dress cute or wear makeup or look cute larely bc wheneber im at work i am Mid its just the Work air like my skin feels all dry my hair is gross by the end of the day i was sweating from being outside during their play time nd from being in my car during lunch bc theres no break room to eat inside etc and all i wear is work clothes nd dont look cute then i wear my inside clothes aka my sleeping clothes once i get home i am nawt cute latelyyy. i want some cute lounge clothes to wear inside like i kind of luv the brandy melville esque style lounge clothes pjs im sorry for likimg the coquette core aesthetic sometimes </3 its cute tho..

#anyway bleh. #i wasnt even that cute on saturday aka my day off cuz i didnt like my hair veru much . #and i didnt go anywhere today bc i woke up late asf and just did chores nd ate dinner etc. but #now im gna shower nd wear pjs its nkt that cute... why do i care sm abt looking cute.. i just want to feel good abt mself and also b pretty #and desirable to my bf and feel good abt myself for myself ETC idk .

[somelazyassartist]

Wishing a Merry Christmas to any other lonely folk out there who celebrate it, hope your day is going well <3

#I'll at least get to video call my mom and girlfriend in a few hours but it's been really lonely today #and it's not anyone's fault for it or anything. just conflicting schedules or getting sick or any other last minute drop outs #but I've been pretty much alone all day and since i don't know what else to do I've pretty much spent my Christmas exclusively doing chores #i don't even really celebrate Christmas. it's not a part of my religious beliefs but it's a really good excuse to hang out with family #idk it's just felt really weird. i might delete this later cuz i still feel weird posting this #i should be working on art if nothing else but my heart just isn't in it right now. maybe after my calls I'll feel better and can draw again

[mrs-kelly]

Good morning ❤️❤️❤️ just. Reminding myself that Charlie loves me like a mantra today ahdjfl

#I’m feeling pretty down on myself today you know #but. I’ll feel better in a little while #I think it’s just cuz I’m a little sick and it’s cold and I’m rly hungry #when I feel bad like that it gets easy to say I’m feeling bad bc I feel bad abt myself #I just need to finish up my work and get home so that I can clear my head a little #in the meantime I’m just. trying to hold on to Charlie to get me through ahdjfl #when I feel this way it’s hard to remember that he loves me but. I’m trying #ren speaks #renlie

[vampirebutterflies]

listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart

#vent in tags etc etc #aim losing my mind over here #it’s fine #see the thing is I’m so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to #smth and then once I’m out of that moment and even slightly distracted it’s like nothing ever happened ?? #so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and I’m meant to be starting emdr tomorr #tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks I’ve overall been fine regarding that?? instead it’s the ed and other traumas flaring up so ?? #idk how Specific emdr is I honestly don’t know much about it yet but like yk now I’m wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of #talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and it’s only just #like. hit me and started biting and it’s ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand I’m pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain #is spiralling hysterically to the point where I’m very glad I’m already in bed and like I know [redacted] won’t help but it’s like my brain #is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so it’s just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently #thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasn’t even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which #are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just #yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can #ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience #of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No #Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and you’re a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that #one situation and yeah okay I’m gonna go sleep #ugh

[tequatls-favorite-spoon]

[@sunsrefuge] Re: your tags about Onyx & Aurene; it sounds like their relationship develops very slowly but interestingly!! reading your tags on Onyx’s conflicted feelings about her being a dragon but also so innocent was a super good read!! <3

would you maybe wanna share more on how their relationship develops over the course of the story?? 👉👈 Are there any moments you’ve written in for them to bond extra??

AH TYYYYY!!! i love thinking about onyx and aurene i love them sm

ok so ngl, i kinda. just came up with that stuff? like, as i was typing on that post lol. but anyway, i do have more thoughts to ramble about!!!

so first off i think onyx’s caution comes from her having seen the worst of the dragons so far. so many people died to mordremoth and zhaitan, and so she’s determined to destroy every last one, both as revenge and bc she’s lost people close to her, with trahearne being INCREDIBLY recent. (onyx was in love with him and i haven’t decided if they got together before he died) she doesn’t want anyone else to go through what she has.

so she has a lot of reservations and is currently going thru a lot, but also aurene is just a baby! she’s so little and curious and sweet, and onyx doesn’t really know what to think at first. like i think she was surprised when aurene hatched that she was so… little. so fragile. so innocent. mordremoth’s magic caused her to hatch, but how can something that’s so small be just like the monsters she’s faced?

she isnt like mean to her tho. she treats her like, cordially at first, bc she knows that having aurene on their side is good practically and strategically, but then she gets Attached. having the telepathic connection helped a lot too! i think onyx could feel aurene’s general emotions a lot, like when she was having fun or how much she cared about onyx

i think onyx stopped by to see aurene more than in canon? like i’m pretty sure you only go to do the tests and stuff in game, but i think onyx liked to go and just. be there with aurene. like holding her in her lap as aurene slept and stuff. she probably said that she wanted to keep a close eye on her just in case, but i think she used a lot of this time to process trahearne tbh.. she’d sit there petting aurene, and just thinking. (probably also crying tbh)

it didn’t take very long for onyx to think of herself and aurene as mother and daughter. like i think she realized that she felt that way before pof. but i don’t think that onyx has like. verbalized that to aurene? like i think aurene kinda knows cuz of the whole mental link thing, but i think onyx doesn’t want to overstep. like, glint is aurenes mom! absolutely! but. she didn’t get to raise her, onyx did. but at the same time, she doesn’t want aurene to like. forget glint? (kinda a side note, but now i’m just thinking about caithe telling aurene about glint and agh my heart ;-;)

still, onyx feels like aurene and her are family, no matter what. now, i haven’t actually finished eod yet (i am on the last bit i know i should just finish it but also i changed onyx’s hair to look accurate while i finally play lws1 and i don’t want to use my statuettes on more hair kits :/ ) but! i’ve seen some of aurene and soo-won’s dialogue after the dragons end meta! and i think aurene feels lonely? cuz she’s the last elder dragon, the last of her kind. onyx’s heart breaks when she feels that from aurene. because she can imagine how painful that must be! (and also feel it from aurene…) but at the same time, i think onyx is going to want to sit down with aurene for a bit, maybe hold her head in her lap as best she can, and tell her that she will never be alone as long as onyx can help it. onyx and caithe are her moms and they love her! and onyx really wants aurene to know that!!! she may be big and sparkly and powerful now, but she’s still onyx’s baby, her daughter, and onyx will do whatever she can to be there for her.

#gw2 #guild wars 2 #aurene #onyx velazquez #my writing #kinda? whatever it counts lol #idk if this actually answered the question much lol but hey #i just took it as a chance to think and ramble about onyx and aurene :) #like i hadn’t thought about onyx feeling conflicted about aurene at first until today! #but MAN do i love it #i also think caithe and onyx talked a lot during those visits to aurene #onyx was pretty quick to forgive her #(maybe mostly cuz she was too tired to care about it at that point) #honestly i’m kinda playing with the idea of onyx/caithe? but i’m not sure lol #i’m also playing with the idea that onyx gets aurene to brand her eventually #like so that onyx doesn’t die? and can be there with aurene past a normal human lifespan #idk tho #i think it depends on stuff like what kind of family she might have someday #like if she marries somebody and has kids #but also idk if she’d want kids anyway! tho if she did she would absolutely count aurene as the oldest #again! that’s her daughter!!! her darling baby girl!!!! #but yeah i think onyx and caithe both being branded and being aurenes moms forever sounds really cute #so i’m Thinking about it #then again i feel like who i ship onyx with changes based on who’s currently involved in the story #cuz she has cute moments with braham and then she has cute moments with caithe and then there’s yao suddenly and #i’m indecisive #and onyx has inherited that from me

[magical-girl-04]

Am I aroace or have I just been awake too long?

#rav speaks #its 2am and im listening to a mix of twice aqourus and J-metal girl bands while questioning everything in my life #anyway do people actually feel the way they describe in romance songs?? #like idk ive had like 3 crushes in my life but like i dont think i could actually see myself in a relationship? #so either im aro or like I just have trouble imagining a relationship becuase ive been single my whole life #its like how sex is pretty interesting to me and id be down for it in theory but i cant see myself actually doing it #interesting in a im curious if its really all that people make it out to be #cuz it seems prettyyyy boring to me lol #specially since lesbo sex apparently takes agessss and i know for a fact i would not let a dick get anywhere close to me #anyway off topic #im trying to figure out if the way i feel about romantic relationships is the same way i feel about sex #like in theory id love to have a gf and like do datey things but like it seems like so much effort to get to that stage #got a dating app and im barely on it because ive realised i dont really want to actually talk to anyone #and like i was meant to meet up with someone today who when i first started talking to on said app i was like kicking my feet and blushing #but i noticed that im starting all the convos and decided i was just like fed up of that whats the point of trying to get to know someone #if they arent interested yknow. like they were meant to get a bus to my city and i was hoping they would just like tell me a bus time #and we'd go from there but nothing. so im just like. over it #and i feel like thsts probably not really how crushes really work? #its like i had a bit of a crush on a girl in my classes but once exam season hot and i stopped seeing her so regaually i just kinda forgot #i think she might be in 1 or w of my classes this term so maybe talking to her again will relight that but im prettyyyy sure shes staight #so prpbs better to loose the feels anyway #this is just a rambling mess now i really need to sleep #Maybe I'll figure myself out eventually but for now im gonna stick with grey aro cuz i think thst makes the most sense? #unless there are other micro aro lables i dont knoe of (very likely) #at least i know I'll always be an asexual lesbian even if i dont know if ill ever actually date girls #honestly life would be so much easier if i jsut loved my bestfriend it wojld be so cool if we could be in romantic feeling together but #alas we tried dating for lkke a week and i avoided her the whole time cuz i felt a deep deep sence of wrongness lol #its like again in theory i could see us as a great gf duo like if i was watching our lives as a show id be shipping us #but in practice its njst wrong #if anyone actually reads all of this you get a reward of uhh 🦎 goodnight!!

[pagesixlovers]

I had a good day which is cool considering I spent the past 7 days detoxing from benzos and came the closest to killing myself that I have in my entire life. Powered through my Anorexia and forced myself to eat well today and I already feel so much better... good food heals all <3

#diary #i also also have done no drugs today so that's like awesome #which like... it got pretty bad last night so me being fully sober today is wildddd I'm proud of myself #also cried at the grocery store cuz Anorexia but I powered through and ate 3 whole meals today and I feel so much better already

[kexing]

i just think that

#feeling pretty gay today #i mean. i always do but somehow feeling gayer today #if possible #maybe cuz it’s pride month #🤔 #mj talks