#depression has won

[billford-dump]

lmao sorry for the confusion

There's this poll on twitter, the tumblr sexyman poll, y'know the jizz. It's in pair now, and Bill is paired with Wheatley. I am asking about your hc on how Fordsy and Bill reaction to this. Idk i just think it's funny if they were to be aware of this fiasco.

Ohhhh, okay! I'm not on Twitter lol, had no idea.

Bill thinks it's great. People are calling him sexy, as they should. He is entirely confident in the fact that he's going to win. Loves the publicity and attention, loves how his most devoted followers get so mad when people vote incorrectly, loves the drama. He definitely brags about it.

Ford on the other hand is mostly confused. To him, Bill is neither sexy nor a man. Attractive, sure, but sexy? And Bill doesn't have a human-relevant gender in the first place, he's a triangle and identifies as such! The whole thing is ridiculous and makes no sense. He still votes for Bill.

#ask #thank you for clarification lol #bill also votes for himself and if he starts falling behind makes a bunch of new accounts to “correct” the number of votes #he gets soooo mad if/when he loses and promptly becomes depressed #nobody likes him. hes not sexy. he lost to [person who won]. how much more of a loser could he possibly be. #ford has to comfort him

[llycaons]

imply women might like each other romantically to see celibacy defenders and 'stop being horny' warriors crawl out of the woodwork I guess

#the poll has exposed me to a lot of really depressing mindsets that I never realized we re so popular #in my little insulated bubble of being into dunmeshi with 12 other people the majority of whom are also wlw #like. damn these people really scream and cry and throw up at the idea of femslash #dont even get me started on the fact that the mithrun kabru ship won over them last year I am so fucking mad #at least there's plenty of support for the girls too for every disaparagibg comment #cor.txt

[hplonesomeart]

HEY. HEY SO UH. SO UPDATE ON THAT SNATCHER ANIMATION I WAS MENTIONING UH JKSJKSJSP

#guys I’m shaking #quivering and convulsing #the grip this man has on me is coming back full swing #he fr said ‘make me an animation’ and I was powerless to stop myself #sir is back to living rent free in my head and I’m starting to think the hyperfixation has won over the depression this time lol #like I’m ACTUALLY ANIMATING??? AGAIN??? AFTER MONTHS OF STATIC NOISE AND INTERNAL SOBBING??? #what is this curse bound spell the song has cast on me and how do I keep it #anyways I’ll be returning to the lurking and working away on this #it’s been four days progress so far I believe #but I sort of took yesterday off from animation so that doesn’t count #anyways enjoy the crumbs and the illusion that I’m always this productive with my time lol #hplonesome art #animation wip #wip animation #snatcher animation #AHIT snatcher animation #AHIT animation wip #reblog

[amarguerite]

The Barbie movie’s got me digging back into Roland Barthes

#something about the sign and the signifier and removing #and how an image divorced from its original context and placed in a new one can have completely different meanings #a French flag in France has a totally different meaning and narrative than a French flag flying in Algeria #was I think the example he used #and I get that gerwig was pulling Barbie out of the box/ her context and just playing with her the way weird little girls do #to work out their understandings of the real world and building one they prefer #but CAN you divorce Barbie from a corporate capitalist context?? #like I get why you don’t want to include issues of class in a Barbie movie #but feminist statements about patriarchy and it’s creation and its maintenance CANT exclude class #I think it was de Beauvoir who pointed out how patriarchy and private property are entertained #and I know steinhem wrote about how her middle class existence was sold to her as an American ideal but it made her and all her college #friends completely miserable #like they’d won the class lottery #but even still the system was actively oppressing them #but these aren’t really coherent thoughts #I did enjoy the depressed Barbie commercial so much I howled with laughter

[spagheddiediaz]

nothing like snapchat memories to remind me that 6 years ago today i was at the lowest point of my entire life and had a drunk lil menty b and sent the worst thing i could have sent to my entire contact list :)

anyway it gets better friends don’t give up :)

#when in doubt get a dog or two #it helped me so much #i get the notification every october 3 and i feel better about myself every single year bc so much has happened since then #i drank SO much all the time and i was so anxious and depressed and on the wrong meds #but now???? now i have 2 dogs and a triple A membership (the gold one) #and a master’s degree?????? #who won? me i won!!!!

[bright-eyed]

The Road Not Taken 

BY ROBERT FROST

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.

#i remember reading someone say once that this is one of the most popular poems in the english language despite being the most misunderstood #if you ask someone on the street what they remember it means they usually say it’s about taking the road less traveled and being independen #not taking the traditional way and forging your own path. at least that’s what culture has taken from the poem #but it’s actually about how no matter which path you take you always think back with regret that you didn’t take another #and that you think you can see what each path will lead to but you can’t and at the end of the day they’re not that different #when the older version of the narrator says ‘i took the road less traveled by and that has made all the difference’ that’s how they’re #contextualizing and giving meaning to their decision and their life but one can never know the ‘difference’ that was made because #we can’t live more than one life in order to find out if there really is a difference #we make ourselves promises that we’ll live every version of life and take all the paths we cross but we get older and we realize we can’t #not only that we can’t but we didn’t and we never will have done #when we say that choice made all the difference we’re not talking about how we won because we were independent or started a new trail for #others to follow we’re just saying that that choice made our life what it is and that can never be undone and we can never know what could #have happened #i think that take on it is more depressing for people so they stick with the other one #it’s more inspiring to think of it as a poem about making your own way rather than as a poem about how we are forced to make every decision #that will determine our fates without knowing what might happen and with our eyes closed and ears plugged and no matter what we do #we will probably live to regret something about it #anyway enough rambling #did you know robert frost was a march aries #w #robert frost #kennapost

[reactionimagesdaily]

#this one has big 'I won but at what cost' vibes and I dig it #reaction image #reaction meme #daily reaction images #image mood: depression time #submission

[sule-skerry]

Me walking into the Arctic Adventure exhibit at the Science Museum: this is just like in The Terror (2018)

#especially insofar as it was about depressing and horrifying things (habitat destruction and bad exhibit design) #my coworkers and I had a contest about who could touch the ice block longest and I won #that self injury has to be good for something (pain tolerance)

[fantasticwolfpenguin]

Dear gods I am so perplexed. What makes a tumblr sexy man???? Because I thought Robert Sheehan would be one in like 2014-15 after looking at all his past stuff [I see there was a big Misfits and Love/Hate fandom on here, Jamie Bower I can count as one for Mortal Instruments and now Stranger Things] before The Umbrella Academy but I have not heard of him before TUA.

Like Klaus does not seem like a TSM either. [or is he? Actually tumblr matured past TSM by now]

This thought has been these past three months obsessing and the almost 8 years I’ve been on Tumblr in the making…

#tumblr sexy men #Robert Sheehan #Klaus hargreeves #i have so many questions why I haven’t heard of him before tua #my personal theory is that he gave people too much depression #not enough sex appeal just the big sad #some dumb thoughts #maybe he’s just too ??? #tumblr #the umbrella academy #tua #I’ve been on tumblr for that long? the mental illness has won and just keeps going #context I was also on this website when Sherlock was airing still so

[anachronistic-falsehood]

good god dreamstuck is driving me fucking crazy. i just thought "bloodswap dreamstuck" and i've been going crazy over cerulean alexis quakty bard of blood for the past ten minutes

#whiskey yelling into the void #dreamstuck #LOSING MY MIND #instead of gambling online and being kinda behind the shadows he owns a casino and gambles for real #he won the fight at the banquet. instead of bad taking out his eye he took off a good chunk of bad's horn #as a teal he has a sense of justice and plays fair as a blue he fights dirty #bad prince of light tealblood. he has so much depression #instead of avoiding the topic of skeppy and trying not to talk about his issues he talks about it with EVERYONE #he has no moirail anymore but now he's desperate to have that connection again #instead of defending the egg he knows full well that something's wrong with it but he abides by what it wants anyway #he KNOWS it's wrong but he's stopped giving a shit #DO YOU HEAR HOW INSANE I AM. #ds bloodswap

[permanentreverie]

Dong kyung the second she meets Myul Mang after they get their memories erased of each other: I am GOING to FLIRT WITH A GHOST and you CANNOT STOP ME

AND SHE WAS RIGHT TO DO SO!!!!!!!!!

#I mean have you SEEN seo inguk I would do the same thing skdjshdb #no but sis didn't waste any time #but like you mean all she had to do was be depressed and hate life to get a literal diety to fall in love with her???? #and I've been doing it for FREE!? #me acting insane when my mutuals watch my shows as if it's niche and not like days has won like multiple awards or anything aksjsbd #answered asks #mutuals tag #Gracie tag

[aliteralgrizzlybear]

I'm tired.

#why yes I am in fact broken #why yes I have no hope for a better life rn #why yes I will continue living without any belief that the world can get better bc I know it's not necessarily true #but the depression has absolutely won.

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

.....i need to get therapy again

#like in general yes. #but lately ive been struggling with a very specific issue. and i have no idea how to seek out support w it #bc like. a lot of my trauma is stuff my family went thru together. even the not whole family stuff me and my brothers went thru together #like most of the Big Shit i can at the very least turn to ky dad or brothers or even my gma and be like 'do you feel this too?' but with thi #s specific traumatic issue. i... i cant. they may be able ti see where im coming from and sympathize and validate the struggle. but they won #t have the same specific struggle due to our shared trauma. and its kinda terrifying??? bc like. the people around me can support me and lov #e me but. no one has actual solutions on how to cope w the fear of it. i just. i dont know. #the problem is. i have no idea how to find support groups. so i dont even know if thered be some sort of. like. therapist type.or specialty #id look for? tbh i should just look for therapists who can help w depression and trauma and hope they can help w the specifics

[sillymonsterman]

i need more people to comprehend the tragic life haymitch had

like

-reaped into the 2nd quarter quell along with twice the amount of tributes and half the chance of winning

-refuses to participate in the games and hides at the border, ends up getting pulled back in watches his only ally die. he tried to avoid playing the capitols game but ends up winning it. through a trick.

-since the capitol doesn't like how he won everyone important to him is killed, he is 16 alone in the victors village

-a year later we can assume he's sent to mentor the next set of 12 tributes and that goes poorly. he is 17 trying to teach children how not get slaughtered but they will.

-then the year after that. and the year after that. again and again

-at some point he turns to alcohol, because that's what twelve has to offer in terms of substances. and he's got the money to develop a habit, it certainly helps with the annual watch a bunch of kids die and maybe try help two of them not trip.

-his house is in pieces. dirty, smashed furniture from drunken nightmares, full of mess but empty really. it's just him there. we don't see him interact with people outside of other victors and effie. we can assume he's a regular at the hobb but he doesn't have people who care enough to check up on him.

-by the time it's Katniss and Peetas turn he's watched 46 District 12 tributes die. the other victors are the only consistent figures in his life that might understand what he's going through but they have other victors to go home with, tributes with a chance in the games.

his life is so utterly depressing but the way he manages to pull himself out of it enough to help Katniss because he realised she actually has a chance. The fact that 24 years later he managed to put effort in after so many tributes failed. and it worked. she won.

#thg #the hunger games #hunger games #haymitch abernathy #legally had to

[asukiess]

THAT ADRIEN & CLAW SCENE..... that steals my breath honestly. adrien has the courage to face himself--pretty much the most side of him that could have won him over: full of grief and misery and shutting himself up inside and putting up barriers. like that's his vulnerable beauty!! is that adrien claws and digs and tries his BEST to be optimistic, to move forward, to move past all that which could crumble him. we've seen him in kuro neko and jubilation (I think? depression nest adrien you know?) where he succumbs and lays in bed and curls into himself.

and the fact he is looking at Claw through all of this, but looks away right when he says "I can't say I haven't thought about it" because it's shameful! ladybug is his partner and the love of his life and STILL he's thought about different scenarios. probably multiple times. that probably leaves him feeling so guilty for even entertaining the idea. he can admit many things to himself, but this one is hard.

and we know it will STILL plagues him after this, when he talks about the idea directly to ladybug in passion.

and that gentle little nod he gives himself... like yes, our mother. yes, I know every horrible thing that's in your heart because it is mine, too. he's just so gentle with himself, it's so endearing to me. it's a kind of fragile care with yourself when you've had the same conversation over and over again and it's tired and it's a bruise that you keep going back to, checking on it, tending to it, and yet that's just how grief is.

"I'm as well as I can be, anyway" HELLO? I mean we already thought of him as coping in multiple ways, but this means everything to me?? our adrien decides every day to try again, try to be happy as emilie wanted him to be.

(will he always settle? will he always feel there's a baseline? as well as I can be, anyway.....)

this is art, to me. hang this up. core adrien moment for me.

and then I realize that he has ALL this hope for himself, all this acceptance of that hate and grief and sorrow could manifest through him like this...

and then how by the end of s5, he's TERRIFIED of becoming the chat noir in his nightmares.

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ML PARIS #ML PARIS SPECIAL #autumn watches #miraculous ladybug

[wecantalktomorrow]

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#depression has won today #i feel so lonely but i don't want to bother anyone #what a time to be alive i guess #mayhaps i will cry my eyes out