#don’t get stuck in the loop

[the-chosen-half-of-one]

You’ve heard of “rotating blorbos around in your mind,” now get ready for “rotating just the most random phrases you’ve ever heard or seen.” Now with the added bonus of: the broken record function, which lets you experience the magic of repeating the phrase internally on loop forever with no clue as to why and no way of stopping it no matter the relevancy to current circumstance or situation!

#I can’t get would that this hoodie were a time hoodie out of my head all of a sudden #I don’t know why why would that phrase stick?? of all possible phrases #I keep repeating it to myself and like ??? #is this an adhd thing? #it reminds me of what Brick does in the Middle repeating things he’s heard kind of involuntarily just getting stuck on them #like the you’re gonna love our pizza ep #one of the other phrases currently on endless loop mode of rotation in my head is just that post that says mental eelness with an eel photo #so make of that what you will #Idk what to tag this as #rotating in my head #neurodivergence #probably #I remember as a kid the end of the emperors new school theme would just go kuzco kuzco go go constantly on the bus

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[solace-seekers]

okay picture this. it’s 3pm on a saturday. just got off work which i’ve been at since like 9 am. i go to leave the building and im stopped by three ppl trying to ask me a question. i say sure, what’s the worst they can ask? bad idea. very bad idea.

ithey asked me at what moment i thought human life began. and i noticed as they were asking that they had shirts with small church logos on them. and i did not want to go back and forth arguing and not changing each others mind. so yknow what i did?

then i panicked cause i didn’t wanna answer so i just said “bye!” really aggressively and ran away 😭😭😭

#my social skills astound me sometimes #like miss girl. you will not convert me i promise i’ve heard all your arguments before #i will not convert them. it’s 3 to 1. actual grown adults vs barely adult me. not a situation i wanna be in #and i am notoriously not elequent during improvised speeches #i just did not wanna get myself stuck in a time loop so. fleeing it was #i am truly amazed at the amount of time ppl have to just come shout church stuff at college students. don’t yall got jobs or other hobbies??

[notjanine]

people have assumed i’m queer my entire life, but nowadays i’m getting they/themmed on the regular and it’s fine, but it’s also interesting bc gender has always been the one fundamental aspect of my identity that isn’t constantly misperceived, so now it’s kinda. oh i am just not being Seen at all huh.

#see i am a 31 year old cishet disabled autistic black woman and now. well #i may speak with someone who does not clock any of those things #and i am stuck in this loop of constantly having to remember who knows what about me and is this something i need to disclose and #what will happen if i do disclose something how will the person i’m speaking to react #idk it’s all just. interesting. and ngl tiring #bc people will question or even argue with me about these basic things! #even people who are not strangers! #and it’s also a little extra complicated dating a nb person so now in a given situation either or both of us may get misgendered #and doing THAT social calculus is a little extra stressful (esp factoring in when *i* have to misgender them in certain contexts) #like i get it for me like i have a ~man’s name~ and i don’t try to perform gender and i purposely dress to be less appealing to men #but anyway idk this is just new and interesting and i don’t have a therapist to process it with rn lmao #anyway. me 🤝 misha collins. having to come out as straight

[jaxthedragon]

Can’t wait until the rodent predicts the the changing of seasons tomorrow

#it groundhogs day baby #don’t get stuck in a time loop #jax rambles

[the-maladjustedjester]

The inherent eroticism between a condemned and their executioner

#I’ve been playing raging loop nonstop for the past four days #god I fucking love mysteries #I love going through a story over and over with new information every time #learning from each previous loop and seeing things I hadn’t seen before #I fucking love mysteries !!!!!!!! #I love murder mysteries I love supernatural mysteries I love horror mysteries #I love being introduced to a religion and then getting every. single. detail. about the belief system #I love putting pieces together and having the main character realize it ten minutes later #I LOVE MAIN CHARACTERS WITH FLAVOR #I love main characters who aren’t blank reader-inserts #I love when they have unseemly traits that make them human #I love the tropey stuck-up anime man with glasses who gets his shit handed to him in the most devastatingly development ways possible #i love characters whose secrets don’t fully come to light for FOREVER constantly teasing you with info just out of reach #tfw the tags contain the real post #I just needed to rant about this game bc my gf wants to play spoiler-free #which is fair but I NEED TO GUSH ABOUT IT

[obstinaterixatrix]

air was telling me about that ultimatum reality dating show thing & that’s crazy. I know it’s probably mostly the aromanticism but I can’t imagine clinging to someone when you’re at the point of making an ultimatum. I’d just leave.

#my ramblings #well I don’t want to fight to be in someone’s life #we’re all busy and of couse I’m gonna try to stay connected to pals #and there are some friends where you don’t talk for a year and then you have a nice convo and part ways again for another year #all chill #but there are. some things that can happen. [resentful] #wait I need to kick her out of something brb #OH MY GOD!!! THAT FEELS GREAT I can’t believe I’ve been waffling on that for like three years #BYE!!!!! #oh I also can delete her contact she probably doesn’t even have the same number #LMAO I ALREADY DID #BYE!!!!!! I KIND OF HATE YOU NOW BYE!!!!! and with that I can release my one-sided resentment and get on with my life #I think it’s also been 3+ years since the other situation as well #there wasn’t any dramatic fallout but honestly? cooked in the oven for a while but now I know: I’m mad as hell #they didn’t do anything wrong I’m just pissed and our ways of navigating relationships is incompatible #almost wish I didn’t block him months ago it would’ve felt great to block him now #wow this is great. #I should get stuck in another one-sided resentment loop so I can block them in 5-7 years and feel this rush again. #lmao

[death-and-the-codein-scene]

Girl who’s stuck in a time loop but doesn’t want to leave because she’s mastered 4 new languages and many new crafts and is having the time of her life just being able to relax without the pressure of modern society. One day she decides to hang out with her friends because it’s been a quite few loops since shes hung out them only to find out she’s now unrecognizable to them and think she’s pulling a bit. Now she has to decide between leaving the comfort and security of the time loop where she can’t have any more meaningful relationships or leaving the loop and having to start over because she can’t possible continue as things were

#I would fuck in a time loop #I would absolutely love it for a bit #but then ultimately I would become a completely different person and I would have to start over #and there is a very good chance I know way too much about my friends that they don’t remember telling me #so they wouldn’t remember any bonding moments we had in the loop #god I love the implications of time loops #story about the aftermath of a time loop that’s a tragedy #cuz in Groundhog Day it makes sense that when he goes back things are better because he was an asshole to begin with #but just like some guy gets stuck in a loop and eventually gets out #yes he’s definitely a better person now but the girl he pursues and now knows everything about #has to try and live up to all these memories of her where they had bonding moments #all those key moments where she gets comfortable enough to tell him something is set off by the fact he knows already #and she Knows he’s not a stalker she knows about the time loop #but it’s just every moment in their relationship feels wrong to her #like if I was that girl I’d have to break up with that guy simply because the relationship was actually built on remnants of moments that #never happened to me #and if I someone stuck in the loop I’d seriously consider staying simply because I would not want to start over with my life #I’d have to quit my job and probably find new friends #don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t hold it against my old friends but it’s like getting different friends in collage because you don’t have #much in common with your highschool friends. no hard feelings just people change #hell i probably finished my degree while I was in the loops and studied other stuff too #now I gotta go through it all again because I would need the official credentials to get the job I would want #like the girl in Palm Springs is an expert in quantum mechanics #but has absolutely no credibility past the loop to show people #also I’d have a hard time explaining to everyone how I became an expert musician overnight #HAHAHAHAH #the time loop movie I’m watching right now basically has a right of passage for each family member to get stuck in a loop #they don’t tell anyone about though lmaooo

[navysealt4t]

falls to the floor

#do u ever get invited to a server or someone dms u or smth #and u don’t respond bc u forgor or scared #and then sooo much time passes and ur scared the offer isn’t open anymore #and it’s weird to join or dm back now #but it’s weird to pretend it never happened or ask for a different invite and ur just #stuck in a loop of feeling like ahit and like ur missing out #bleeghhhh i hate hate hate hate my anxiety i hate my brain

[ectoplasmer]

FINALLY FINISHED NIGHTMARE TROUBADOUR!!! IT HAS BEEN OVER TWO YEARS!!!!!! anyway marik

#are you really sorry though…. are you. #also i don’t think that is healthy but okay!! you do that or whatever!!! #eugh the decks i have saved are all over the place #i really need to sit and just make one from scratch that actually works but. hhhhh reading card effects >_< #very happy regardless that i got to finish and experience this game lol #now to see if i can do that with capsule monsters. probably not #i got stuck on ishi’s stage and dropped it but i should really try playing it again!! #and then i gave up on forbidden memories after i kept losing against haga ahdkfhdksns #i’ll get around to them againnnn. eventually. maybe. >_> #anyway time to duel marik on loop so i can get him on my friends list ^^ #also i finally get to duel ryou again!! yaaaay!!! i missed his silly little occult decks on this game #delete later #rainy.file

[tangledstarlight]

confused the people at starbucks by ordering a different drink today and i will be thinking about the awkward apologising we all did to each other for the rest of the day lmao

#don’t know why they were apologising and don’t think they did either so we all got stuck in a loop fjdkdk #i’ve been getting an ice caramel mac for 6 months and today i got a pumpkin spice latte djdkdk #gotta get ready for the month and half where i only order gingerbread lattes tho so

[jackwynands]

The Monkollywood monkeys, after the they’re freed from the time loop (?) and they realize they don’t have to make shitty movies for Solomon anymore. 

#i don’t even it was a fucking time loop just that they kept getting stuck by that ghost train??? solmfaooooo #i like the middle solomon the most #eastward #eastward game

[kicktwine]

Every time someone asks me to reopen reblogs on that 10k post i let you reblog it even less

#i don’t want to deal with the notifications #you can screenshot it I don’t mind #kipspeak #every time I see someone ask for notes or say LOL could not withstand a simple many notes I go cool #but I am made of wet paper #and I have to get rid of notifications when they arise so I get stuck in a notif loop

[salsflore]

#going back to school tmrw and i obviously have Feelings™️ abt that #warning this is a vent? post? idk not really cuz i'm not sad nor do i need comfort and theres nothing for me to really vent about but #well! i suppose you can just call it a way for me to talk about my feelings a little. but the way i am right now? i'm actually fine so if #anyone reads this then don't worry! ya know but. anyways this morning i woke up and overheard something i shouldntve #and for a moment (and what feels like the veryyy first time in my life) i considered if it was worth it to kms LOL a bit overdramatic right #to clarify i WOULD NEVER. i do not want to die but just! very briefly‚ i thought it’d be better if i did #(only for that short short short moment) did i consider if it was truly the best thing to do. like there was a possibility i really would #but i know i would never actually #and now i just wonder what i should do! i guess. like where do i go from here? what am i supposed to do to cope? #how do i get better? very obviously i don’t wanna get stuck in the same sad loop of self pity or anything! #so when therapy isn’t an option‚ and school (an unavoidable) seems to be 85% of the problem‚ what CAN i do if not just tolerate it? #what option is there for me? reach out to my friends? i feel like talking it out doesn’t do anything for me anymore #my calendar is littered with small events and reminders just so i can get by. when does it get better? where do i go from here because it #very much feels like i'm going to be stuck in this cycle forever. i know theres good intentions but i am Very tired of hearing #people say they're there for me and articles telling me to go outside and touch the flowers i! #i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i think i'm going to have to live with this feeling forever actually #but i really do want to get better. i suppose i just don’t know how #⠀mika’s chatroom !⠀

[honeysucklethornsandalligtrhorns]

vent in tags😋

#so…. MORE FAMILY DRAMA!! #yippeee we love older sisters☺️ #not gonna say everything here but holy shit I feel awful #never been happier to go to therapy istg #people at school don’t like me #I’ve convinced myself that people just generally dislike me #I think I have some abandonment issue #maybe trust issues too?? #I’m just tryna vibe bro #vent #I’m not livin la vida loca today #I love my mom tho #shoutout to mom #y’all remember to love urself #don’t get stuck in a depression loop #and keep on top of ur homework #and clean ur room and urself regularly #and get support if you cannot do this alone #time to write fanfiction to deal w my problems

[xumoonhao]

okay everyone im gonna try and go to sleep now…wish me luck 😔

#i feel so horrible rn. like genuinely i haven’t felt this bad due to lack of sleep in YEARS #it’s miserable oh my gooooooood 😭 #i just hope i fall asleep soon and don’t get stuck in the endless loop of insomnia due to paranoid thoughts. please. im so tired . #🎆.txt