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Chapter 7

Spencer reid x male reader x Derek Morgan

Genre: Angst

TW: mentions of mental illness, yelling, cursing, suicide.

A/n- sorry for the long wait guys here is chapter seven I will try to have chapter 8 out way sooner this time!!

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It's been three days since anyone at work has seen you. No one wanting to overwhelm you. Your presence was missed by everyone who ever worked with you. Everyone knew you would be coming back today. Excitement was filling the full office that had been filled with silence while you were gone. The only noise was the sound of agents bustling about and the sound of pens on paper. Your desk had been empty, but not for long. Penelope had filled it with cards expressing how much she cared for you. Her heart was hurting from the events of the past months. She was angry. You deserved better then what was being given to you.

She had a hard time maintaining her happy personality as she watched you go through everything. She remembers when she found out Spencer cheated on you it was the first time she felt anger towards him. How could someone so smart have such an empty head? How could he possibly think any of this would play in his favor? You were a gem to be treated carefully and he didn't handle you with care. She was angry with Hotch for not telling you Emily was alive.

Deep down she knew it was his job but sometimes there were more important things then protocol. He could have saved you from so much pain. Everything that happened could have been avoided. She knew she would have to come to terms with everything and move on. For now she sat in front of the doors waiting anxiously for you to walk in.

It didn't take to long to see you and Derek strolling in hand in hand. She couldn't help the excitement that flowed out of her as the two of you walked in. She didn't hesitate to wrap her arms around you as well as scolding you for your choices. She noticed the smile that was usually plastered on your face was no longer the same as it was. You hugged her tightly but your brightness has been severely dulled. Looking to Derek for answers, she was met with silence, he would never air your feelings and business out without your permission. She knew he was looking out for you, however, her worry for you only grew.

Her and the others watched as you walked past your desk, Derek knew the happy moment you two shared days earlier would only distract you fer a short period of time. He knew the emotions would swirl back around and he wasn't going to tell you to handle them any other way then how you wanted to.  All he could do was prevent others from adding onto the stress that was already there. His eyes stay trained on you as you walked towards Hotchs office.

You knew a reprimand was in your future and you wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. You weren't angry for getting in trouble you made your own choices and they have consequences. You hated the fact you had no nerves bubbling in your stomach as you stood in front of your boss the feeling of numbness had taken over.

"M/n did you hear me?" His deep voice brought you out of your trance "no sir I'm sorry" you hated the habit you developed of dissociating from your reality that was tearing you apart. " I asked if you had anything to say about your actions" shaking your head in response he continued "well this is your first reprimand so it's a written reprimand on top of the verbal but I would like you to take leave for a few weeks" you unfortunately heard that part.

"What? No I don't need a vacation Hotch I'm good" the tight lip smile he did told you there wasn't a question in his statement "M/n you put yourself and your team in danger because of unresolved issues you have been dealing with the past few months" he was right but you wouldn't admit that " okay and I have been reprimanded for that! You didn't send Rossi on leave when he worked a case by himself or when Elle shot that unsub!" You didn't mean to raise your voice  but you were frustrated other then Derek this was all

you had and you didn't want to lose that to. "I know I didn't and I should have and I refuse to make those same mistakes with you. I will not lose another person I care about by not trusting myself" you heard where he was coming from but once again emotions can cloud judgment "this isn't fair Hotch"

The look in your eyes was the same one he had seen in Elle before she murdered someone. He would not repeat his mistakes " during and after your leave I'm setting up mandatory counseling session that you will attend if you want to keep your position on this team" he knew you would be angry he had expected it. He also knew later down the road you would thank him. He wanted you on the team, but he wanted you at your best and right now you weren't at your best. How could you be? For months life has thrown things at you left and right and you have not had time to process and heal from these events. He didn't feel comfortable sending you back in the field until he thought you were ready.

"When does my leave start?" He could hear the hoarseness in your voice a sign you were holding back tears. By the way your fist were tightened he could tell you weren't sad but angry. "It's effective immediately a minimum of three weeks, after that you are free to return upon receiving clearance from your counselor" he hated you being upset with him but he knew it was what's best for you. So he didn't take it personal when you stormed out of his office without saying another word. He could only hope he was doing the right thing.

Confusion rose in the bau as you stormed past everyone trying to make it to the door. Unfortunately you bumped into Spencer on your way out before he could say anything your words spilled out "just shut the fuck up Spencer and leave me alone" you didn't mean to snap but you were tired "I was just going to apologize for bumping into you" shaking your head "just move out of the way!" He was taken aback by your tone. He had been with you for years to know that you were on the verge of a breaking point.

"M/n are you okay?" Snapping your eyes up at him the coldness behind them scared him "am I okay? No Spencer I'm not okay and god I can't believe you have the nerve to even ask me that!" All you wanted to do was go home "I just noticed you seemed stressed I wanted to help" his words shouldn't have never left his mouth "help? You know what you could do to help? Stay the fuck out of my life Spencer. I hate you. Everything about you makes me sick to my stomach I wish we never met."

Rationality Spencer knew the words you threw at him were untrue, but it still hurt to hear them. He knew he hasn't done anything to deserve your love and respect but words still hurt him. Instead of replying he simply stepped aside as you walked away from him. He knew you needed space but he feared what you were capable of if you were on your own. So instead of following you he went to the only person who could keep you from doing stupid things. "Morgan we need to talk it's important"

Derek couldn't help but raise his eyebrows at Spencer's tone "what is it Reid I'm looking for m/n" mentally he rolled his eyes but that was unimportant at the moment despite things between him and Derek being rocky they could agree on one thing, you shouldn't be alone.

Once stepping into your home all the pent up anger had resurfaced. The anger you had tried to overcome wasn't gone it was only overlooked. You hadn't moved on and that was certainly coming out as the place you now called home began to look more of a mess. Glasses were shattered on walls, plates smashed on the floor, pictures of you and Emily broken, walls now bearing new holes. You hated how upset two people could make you but you knew deep down this was all becoming to much. How do you overcome something like this? All you wanted was to escape. So you did. Putting your phone on the counter you left. Leaving behind anything traceable you walked out the door with no plan of returning any time soon.

It didn't take long for Derek to rush home to check on you after hearing the news of your mandatory leave. He expected you to be upset this was the last thing you wanted. He did agree with Hotch that you needed time to heal properly. He worried for you, you were in a downward spiral and he was trying to pull you out of it. He knew when getting into a relationship with you that you had a lot of healing to do. He didn't get with you only for the good parts he wanted to be with you through the bad parts, be there to pick you up when you were down. He knows you would do the same so he would give you nothing less.

Walking into his home he was surprised to see the state it was in. The broken glass, broken frames, none of it mattered. The only thing that mattered was your phone and belongings sitting on the counter. He knew you left them there and that scared him. You never left home without your wallet, keys or phone. Picking up his own phone he called the team hoping they could find you before you did something they couldn't fix.

The team stood on the other end of the phone each of them holding back tears. Deep down they knew why you left everything but they wouldn't let you get that far. As much anger was held towards him Spencer was one of the people who did in fact know the most about you. Emily followed behind as she had known you forever.  "Morgan I know it's hard but I need you to profile the scene, I'll send Emily to help. We are going to have to treat this as a case nothing else gets touched until we find him" holding back his own tears he agreed to help by profiling everything he knew about you.

Soon Emily arrived at your home, walking in she tried to hold her tears back. Seeing Derek with tears in his eyes she couldn't help but feel guilt as she looked at the broken home "morgan I~" shaking his head he didn't want to hear any of it "don't, just don't I don't want to hear the excuses"

"Morgan I had to go into witness protection for everyone's safety" he had been hearing the excuses since she got back and frankly he had grown tired of it "that's not the problem!" She knew everyone was upset with the situation but she also felt like this shouldn't be held against her as it was what was best for everyone "then what is!" Shaking his head in disbelief it amazed him no one could see the real problem.

"If anyone had the Right to know it was him! Not JJ! Not Hotch! Him! You have known him since you two were kids! Do you know how long he blamed himself for your death?! He never stopped!! He watched you die! He cried with your parents! Then after lost his relationship! So no the problem isn't you leaving it's that none of you understand some things are more important than this fucking Job!"

He was right you should have been the one to know she was alive. " I understand that Morgan but I had to Grieve all of you too" once again his head shook at her "no you knew we were all alive and safe. It's not the same kind of grief. He called your phone everyday to hear your voicemail and leave messages because it felt like talking to you. While he was grieving you he was being cheated on by someone he spent six years with he was just tossed aside. So no Emily it's not even close. You were living in Paris a whole new life while he was stuck picking up the pieces of the old on you left behind"

Before he could continue his yelling and shouting he noticed the broken pictures that laid on the floor. All of them were of you and Emily. None of the other pictures were touched "prentis this about you he is grieving your death. He only recently accepted you were gone it's possible he isn't accepting you're alive." She couldn't deny she was the root of the problem. In a way she blamed herself although she tried to convince herself it was for everyone's safety she knew that was untrue.

She did what she did best in situations where she got to uncomfortable. She would run in avoidance and convince herself it was what was best for everyone but truthfully it was what she thought what was best for her. She knew of you're past, the things you told her she knew the trauma that was hidden from others. She wonders if you ever told Derek or Spencer what you went through as a kid. She wonders if they knew you were battling depression since childhood. Do they know you're on medication? Do they know everything like she did? The answer was probably no.

See the thing about you was you would let your life dangle by a thread while holding someone else's up. You put everyone before yourself and never let anyone in on the emotions swirling within your own mind. You were such a good actor sometimes she forgot herself that you struggled with mental illness. It made herself questions whether or not she was a good friend for leaving you behind.

She stood in your home watching the flashing lights surround it as your lover profiled it. She looked around the room you occupied for majority of your time here. Going through your drawers she didn't realize how quickly she was throwing your things around. She was searching everywhere for a certain thing that she didn't realize the mess she was making. "Emily!" She ignored the calls of her friend as she continued searching. It wasn't until she found the full pill bottle that she let the tears slip.

You stopped taking your medication. Turning around she showed Derek the pill bottle "what is that?" Just as she thought you didn't tell him. She couldn't blame you it was something you weren't proud of. "His antidepressants. He hasn't been taking them" Derek had been confused. He knew you were struggling how could you not be? But why did you need pills for the months he had seen you were doing better. Right?

"Why does he need those I know the past months have been hard but I don't understand" shaking her head she tried to get the words out "M/n has severe clinical depression and ptsd he was diagnosed when he was a kid" Derek was trying to understand he really was he loved you "explain it please" he just wanted to help "he went through a lot as a kid and because of that he struggles with depression it can get really bad Derek" he didn't Like what he Was hearing "how bad Emily?" She didn't want to tell him how bad it could get. That answer was something she wanted to ignore "how bad!?" For once she was genuinely scared of what could happen. "It's bad Derek!" Both of them knew the meaning of her words. Neither of them hesitated to call the rest of the team to inform them on the news.

"Emily where would he go?" Derek didn't mean to sound accusatory but she would be the only one to know "I don't know!" He didn't mean to tell but this was very time sensitive "yes you do! You're supposed to be his best friend where would he go!" She thought back to all of your conversations, the late nights driving around town, the phone calls where you would rant to her, the late drunk nights in college, everytime you said the bridge showed the most beautiful view to sleep to. "He's at the bridge off of 4th street"

It didn't take long before the sound of rubber burning echoed through the streets. The whole team was rushing to you again. Some of them not knowing how dire the situation was. Without knowing the facts they could put pieces together as they could smell the burning of the tires as Hotch drove.

Arriving they quickly searched for you but it didn't take long to see you. You weren't standing on the ledge but sitting. No one questioning as you say there, it wasn't until they showed up people started to clear the bridge away from you. You never turned around to face them as you ignored the calls for you. You heard his voice the only source of peace you had the last few months. Your brain only told you the negatives about your relationship that had barley begun. Was it real or were you just trying to make yourself better.

Standing up you enjoyed the view of the sun setting as you stretched your body out. You could hear the commotion behind you but decided to ignore it. You're eyes focused on the sunset. You're mind went over the traumas you went through as you pictured losing Emily "m/n look at me" the images of spencer hitting you that night "m/n look at me!" The feelings of him cheating on you resurfacing "look at me damnit!" Then there's him. Finally your eyes locked as he stood behind you. Turning your body to face him you could only give him a small smile. You thought back to all of your time spent together "m/n please come down we can talk I can listen we can get through this"

The scene was heartbreaking as they knew the difficulty as you knew every strategy in the book. It felt like life was constantly testing their love for you and it has been at a constant road block to get to you. You couldn't hear any of their words you just listened to their voices as you felt your feet slip from the concrete holding you in place. For the first time you felt completely peaceful and comfortable as your eyes stayed locked on the sky before letting the ice cold water embrace you. The pins and needles numbing you quickly as you closed your eyes letting the water fill your lungs. Years of pain were finally being let go as you finally felt relaxed.

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Chapter 6

Spencer Reid x Male Reader x Derek Morgan

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Warnings: mentions of violence

Summary: emotional mess of feelings

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Fear. Fear held power over the human body. Offering three natural reactions, fight, flight, or freeze. Fear comes quickly as it courses through your veins causing the brain to panic. The brains panic leads to one of the three responses, these responses can be the one thing keeping life inches away from death. As of right now the bau stood around you the last instinct running it's course. Frozen in their stance no one dared to move, fear they would set you off. They knew none of their strategies would be effective as you knew them all.

Hotch felt his heart sink when his eyes landed on you. His pain coming from one as a father. In his mind he didn't protect you, he watched from afar as you struggled mentally. Now you stood in front of him reminding him of the mistakes he made with Elle he was now making them again. Only this time he caught you before you threw your life away. He watched the tears fall down your cheeks as they did the same to him. He never wanted to be in this position again all he could do was hope this went well.

Rossi stood next to Hotch his mind in the same place. He wasn't prepared to lose another person he cared for. He blamed Reid for majority of your mental downfall. He was your partner his job was to love you and care for you as you did him. He failed. He blames himself for not stepping in when he realized. He should have brought your state to the attention of the others. He is your superior it's his job to point out concerns and he didn't. He regrets his mistake

JJ stood between Emily and Reid. Her love for the team stood on high ground. She loved you all like she loved her family. She would go above and beyond for any member. She wishes her relationship with you didn't dwindle after Emily leaving. Her mind racing with the thoughts of what if. Would you have been happier if she tried harder?. Would you and Reid still be together? Or would you be with Derek and be happier then ever. She couldn't let the thoughts of her past actions distract her but the what if never fails to bother her.

Penelope sat in her office fear causing tears to fall away. She worried for you everyday since Emily left. She should have been there for you. She should have saw the signs. Your internet life fell flat after Emily left. You were an avid poster. She would look forward to your daily uploads. When they stopped she should have raised red flags. She should have pushed further. Now she sat in her office without sight of the situation praying to whatever god she thought their could be that you would come home without handcuffs.

Spencer stood next to Emily replaying your relationship in his head. He was never good for you. He didn't love you the way you deserved to be loved. He wanted you to be like him and you weren't. That's what he should have treasured in you. The difference between you two. He should of held you tighter at night, kissed you more during the day, hugged you longer, listened to you more he should have loved you harder then he did. Then maybe your relationship would have been stronger. He now blamed himself for not loving you right.

Emily knew deep down you weren't angry you were hurt. She knew you didn't blame anyone for the things that happened. You were just caught up in your emotions but who could blame you? You were in pain she couldn't imagine thinking your best friend died and just when you were almost okay again they show up alive. After all you grieved she understood the shock you held. The one you put all the blame on was the man at the end of your gun. She only hope your pain wouldn't cause a lapse in judgment.

Derek had tears brimming his eyes scared to let them fall. He saw the pain written on your face as you stared at Doyle. The hurt he caused he can't blame you for that. He just wants to hold you. Wrap you in his arms for protection. Keep you from experiencing anymore pain from the world. He wants to love you as hard as he can until you get sick of him. He wants to cry with you when you're sad and scream with you when your angry. He wants to see you evolve as a person and be there every step of the way. He would give his life to protect yours. Looking around him he could see the fear in his friends eyes unsure of the next steps to take.

His mind wondered to the past months he shared with you. The way you woke up in the morning hair messy as it fell in front of your face. He remembers the first night you stayed with him how drunk the two of you got together. He remembers when you told him you liked him, the feeling he got knowing he had a chance with you. The feeling he got when he saw you every morning working it's way to help him now. He waited so long to be able to love you the right way. He wasn't ready to let go of you now. 

Putting his own weapon down he watched your body as his feet slowly moved forward towards you. Silence still filling the room as he laid his hand softly on your shoulder. His other hand reaching for your extended arm as your head turned to meet his eyes. You didn't need to say anything as you looked at him. Your feelings had been visible as he lowered your hand from its aim. The gun falling to your side as Derek pulled your head into his shoulder wrapping his arms around you. He held you right as the sibs escaped through your lips he could feel the tears soaking through his shirt. Holding onto you tightly as Hotch came around to arrest Doyle. No one bothered you two as Derek comforted you he wasn't going to let anyone make things worse.

Once Doyle was in custody Derek felt it was only right that he could take you home. He ignored the looks of his friends as he guided you to the car. Buckling you in like he did that one night he soon followed suit. The drive home full of a comforting silence. Once again you dozed off from all the tears you let fall that day. Derek didn't want to wake you so deciding to carry you inside it brought the memories of that night you confessed back to him. He watched you as he carried you inside taking in every detail of your face. Each something he loved about you.

Walking inside he couldn't help but smile at how much this place had become your home. At just a glance he could see several things that belonged to you scattered around the house. Walking into your room he could see more of your things thrown around. He laid you on your bed and pressed a soft kiss on your forehead as he made his way out of your room. "Don't leave" your voice startled him slightly. He looked over to see you looking up at him tiredly and he just couldn't bring himself to say no to you.

For the first time Derek crawled into your bed wrapping the two of you in your covers. His arm instinctively wrapping itself around you. The warm feeling of you pressed against him as you drifted off into sleep again will be engraved in his memory forever. Derek knew sleep would consume his soon and he wouldn't fight it. He just wanted you next to him and he had you.

Waking up you felt a warm feeling behind you. Turning your head you could see Derek asleep. His arms still holding on tightly with no chance in budging. Looking at him sleep you couldn't help but smile. For the first time in a long time you felt loved. Someone cared about you the way you always cared for others. Someone wanted to love you just as hard as you do. Someone understood you and your feelings. Someone who didn't want you to pretend, you could be yourself.

Looking at him sleep you thought back to all times the two of you shared these past months. He never left your side only pushed you to be happy. His patience was strong as you were scared to fall in love again. He never made you rush into things. He always pushed you to be better for yourself. Loved you harder on your worst days. You didn't think you would have these feelings after Spencer but here they were. They were strong, stronger then they ever were with Spencer. So caught up in your thoughts about the man next to you you failed to notice his eyes flutter open. "Hey hey what's wrong?" Looking at him you were unaware of the tears falling down your cheeks until his thumb wiped them away. All you could do was smile as he looked at you confused "I love you"

You watched the smile spread on his face after the shock settled. His mind working a million miles an hour as he fought to say it back. You couldn't help but laugh as he said it back. His words came out quickly as he pulled you on top of him. The two of you laid in bed laughing together the troubles that awaited you outside forgotten. You knew you were going to have to address them soon but right now your attention was focused on Derek as the two of you wrestled around in bed. Your laughs could be heard for miles as you felt pure happiness for the first time in a long time.

Soon enough the playfulness had calmed down as you rested under him as he held himself up his smile never leaving as he looked down at you. Staring at each other you could compare it to the best movies you seen as he leaned in. Your lips touched that feeling of butterflies reappearing as you shared your first kiss together. It felt perfect it's as if your lips fit perfectly together. You could feel your heart beat quicken only to be met with laughter as he pulled away showing off his cocky smirk he shared with you quite often "I love you to Casanova"

The day ended fairly quicker as you and Derek went to bed together for the first time. Excitement filling within you for the next day to come to officially move into his room. The two of you let sleep take over fairly quickly awaiting all the things tomorrow will bring. You'd handle it together.

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Chapter 5

Spencer Reid x Male Reader x Derek Morgan

Genre: fluff/Angst/idk

Warnings: Spencer still being a dick, violence, mentions of death, cursing, etc please message me if I missed any

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It was a hard case for everyone. Ian Doyle was the reason your best friend was no longer here. He took her away leaving nothing but memories. It was part of the reason your relationship with Spencer failed. It was part of why you went through so much pain and heart ache. The anger you hurried so deep within you had made its way to the surface. It was the most the team has seen you angry in a long time. Spencer had noticed and wanted to comfort you but that was no longer his place. Instead it was Derek whispering things in your ear to calm you down. It helped but not enough to keep you from snapping.

The thought of him being free to run around on the streets while your best friend was six feet under was enough to make you snap on anyone. No one argued with you while the team chased down Doyle. This was a soft spot for you and they knew that. Penelope hated seeing you like this. She loved you and wanted the world to hit you with sunshine but that wasn't the case at the moment.

Jj knew you were angry and tried to help as much as she could without being in your way. She did not want to be between you and your goal. Everyone was just upset about this as you were just not as vocal.

Hotch was trying his best to keep the tensions from rising. He was well aware of everything that had been going on with you, Reid, and Morgan. It was a personal issue and he never wanted to overstep his boundaries with the three of you. He made it clear he was there if you guys needed anything. It bothered him to see you so upset, which is why he never bothered to correct the pda you and Derek would show sometimes. It was never over the top so he never had reason to complain. He loved you and everyone on the team and would always go above and beyond for any of you and that never changed. Which is why he knew what he had to do and it was going to be hard to face everyone but bringing her home was the right thing to do.

Derek was doing his best to keep you calm, he knew where you were coming from. He knew how upset you were which is why the two of you stood in the briefing room, he was standing against a wall with you leaning on him. He was just comforting you so you could work the case. Anger can cause mistakes and that's the last thing they wanted. No one had any issues with the two of you standing like that as they knew it's what was best for you at the moment. The team already knew what was going on between you two as it didn't take a profiler to see the chemistry.

Spencer watched as you stood in Derek's arms as he calmed you down. The case was at a stand still and he was loathing the scene in front of him. He felt so confused about his feelings. Although the past months with Maeve have been nothing but wonderful he still hated the idea of you being with Derek. With the case at a stand still it was hard to focus on anything but the scene before him. He watched as your shoulders visibly relaxed. The way your breathing evened the tone in your voice calming from its previous state. It was agony to watch. His mind was filled with thoughts of your previous relationship with him. How much you were always there for him. He remembered all things you did for him through your own grief. He missed having you as his, he missed sleeping next to you and kissing you in the morning.

"I wish you guys would chill out with the PDA" he didn't mean for the thoughts to be said aloud. It was supposed to stay in his thoughts. He seen your head snaps up "excuse me?" Unaware he even said the words he was confused "huh?" He watched as Derek let go of your hands and back away from you defeatedly. "I didn't quite hear you what did you say?" Your frame was now walking over to him "I said I wish you guys would chill with the pda" it was as if someone pulled a trigger "did you mind when you fucked Maeve in my bed? No? I didn't think so, mind your fucking business pretty boy"

Spencer didn't expect you to speak that way as you never have before. It brought anger out as you mentioned his lovers name in such a disrespectful way "at least she isn't her exs best friends fuck toy"  before you could say anything Derek's voice cut you off "woah woah don't disrespect him like that Spencer that's not true and you know it" Derek stayed on his side of the room to avoid escalating the situation which didn't last very long "it's true right after we broke up you swooped in to take your chance with him you were supposed to be my best friend but being a whore comes~" before the words could leave his mouth, a loud crack filled the room as he fell to the floor.

Blood filled his hand as you stood above him holding your hand as it started to bruise "watch your mouth and keep my boyfriends name out of it" silence filled the four walls surrounding them as you walked out. They knew you would have to get in trouble for hitting another member of the team but it didn't matter right now. Despite being angry with him for how he spoke to you Derek decided to help. Holding his hand out to Spencer who laid on the floor his nose on the floor he tools he helped him up.  Handing him a rag to stop the bleeding he walked after you "Derek wait" his feet paused at the door to hear What he had to say. He was angry but he just wanted this case to end "I'm sorry" he nodded in response before making his way to you.

When he found you sitting in his office he could see the emotions swirling in your mind. Sitting against his desk he couldn't help but laugh. Looking up at him confusion written all over your face how was he laughing? "Watch your mouth and keep my boyfriends name out of it" his mocking tone caused you to let a few laughs escape as well. It didn't really process to either of you until now that you had called Derek your boyfriend. That cocky smile took place on his face as he processed what you said. It didn't take you long to figure out why he was smiling like that. "Am I your boyfriend now?" His question came with the wiggle of his eyebrows causing you to laugh again "I don't know after that maybe not"

Smiling he guided you to him and wrapped his arms around you. "Okay I guess you can be my boyfriend" he laughed while planting a soft kiss on your head. Silently cheering he just enjoyed the moment you two were sharing before a knock on the door brought you out of the enjoyable moment. "Hey love birds we need you two in the briefing room" Penelope's voice rang through your ears. Excitement laced her voice as she held her self back from bombarding you with questions.

Walking into the vulpine with Penelope fallowing you brought a smile on your face. She could light your days ablaze with her questions. You were walking backwards answering her until you seen her stop in her tracks. An audible gasp left he lips as she stood frozen. You watched as Derek followed suit and remained still. Their eyes drifting behind you as the tears filled their eyes. Derek's eyes followed back to you as he knew what was going to come. He watched as you turned around and he felt thankful he never had to see your face change.

Turning around there stood your best friend. Her long black hair sat beautifully on her shoulders. The tears in her eyes ready to fall on her fair cheeks as you looked into her eyes. Your brain was unable to process her standing in front of you. It didn't make sense to you, she died. Your eyes trailed to the rest of the team as their eyes remained focused on you. You could feel their worry as your body was unable to move. "M/n I~" her voice shook as she called your name. The sound of her voice triggered all the emotions you worked so hard to repress resurface. The pain and suffering you went through came to a head. "Don't, you are not real you are not here! You are dead! I told your parents! I carried your casket! I gave your eulogy! Read your will! I buried you for fucks sake! You are not here anymore!" The tears you tried to hold back had let themselves fall. Your cheeks began to soak from the tears of your heart breaking.

"M/n please~" shaking your head as she stepped towards you "no" her heart broke as you stepped back "no you don't get to do that! I grieved months! I didn't get to when you died because I had to deal with everything else going on! I had to be okay for them! I needed you more then I ever have these past months and you weren't here! I watched you die! When you died so did I" you wanted to scream, break everything in sight. You were angry, hurt that everything you went through could have possibly been prevented. You could have had her shoulder to cry on. You could have been her shoulder to lean on. You knew it wasn't anyone's fault for how things happened. She didn't have a choice in the matter however emotions can be powerful.

You knew you were acting irrationally but right now the way you were feeling was to strong to overlook. No one stopped you as you stormed out. They all felt your pain. No one blamed you for your reaction. They watched you fall to the lowest point in your life and they'd be lying if they weren't angry for you. Emily was unaware of all you been through since she has been gone. Hotch felt extremely guilty for keeping this from you but he had no choice. He never wanted you or any of his team to be in so much pain caused by his choices.

Everyone was at a stand still unsure of whether to run after you or give you space. Everyone was quiet unsure if they should even speak. The silence had been broken by Hotch informing everyone the case needs to continue. Derek had decided to give you the space necessary knowing you would ask for comfort when you were ready. No one rushed you to come back as they understood the emotions you were feeling could be overwhelming. They only grew concerned when they found Doyle and you were no where to be found.

Derek had called you with no answer, they all called you even Spencer. Not single one answers as they found your phone sitting on your desk. It wasn't until they realized your vest had been gone that they knew you set out on your own. It didn't take a profiler to know that emotions tend to cloud judgment and given the opportunity you would very likely Kill Ian Doyle. They had to get to him before you did and it was of no concern to him. They only cared about you and your career.

With Derek and Hotch behind the wheels the rubber on the tires was sure to dwindle. Emily sat quietly as they rushed to find you blaming herself for the events of your life she had yet to know. She often wondered if she had been honest about Doyle from the start maybe things could have played out differently all she knew was getting to you was important. She wanted you safe, happy, she wanted you to have everything you ever wanted. She wanted you to have the family you dreamed of in high school. She knew nothing of what you went through but it was clear something had transpired while she was away.

She loved you and she loved Spencer she was never a fan of the two you together. In her head the differences never made a good match but she held her tongue as she loved seeing you with that goofy grin whenever boy wonder was mentioned. However it broke her heart to watch the years pass by with the goofy grin fading over time as Spencer never lit up the way you did when his name was mentioned. Spencer never understood your love for art it was never appreciated by him. She loved you like a brother because you were that to her her whole life. She always had you to count on and she had not been there for you when you needed her the most. She was scared you wouldn't forgive her, she would do anything if it meant being close to you again. You were her soulmate she needed you in her life.

The silence was loud as they pulled into where he was hiding. It didn't take long to spot your vehicle as they all rushed inside without a second thought floating into their mind. It didn't take long to find you. As they thought your weapon was drawn pointed at Doyle's head. The anger and pain visible in your face as they heard the safety turn off. None of them felt comfortable pointing their weapon at you but as much as it hurt they did. Everyone of them aiming for a non fatal shot. Silent debating was happening as to who would speak to you. Who would walk you off the ledge?

No one knew what to do or what to say, the only thing everyone had in commons in this moment was fear.

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Chapter 4

Spencer Reid x Male Reader x Derek Morgan

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Warnings: cussing, Spencer still a dick, idk

Summary: Spencer starting to realize he fucked up

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Spencer woke up to sun shining through his curtains. The hotel sheets cold on his skin, the feeling of the empty spot next to him causing a rush of memories. Your hair peaking through the covers hiding away from the light of day. He hates that he misses the sound of you singing in the shower. The sight of you running out of the shower singing to him causing him to laugh like never before. The times you two shared were never replaceable,He loved Maeve but that didn't stop him from still loving you. You were his first and now he is stuck in his hotel room coping alone. The people he was close with now distant. He could only blame himself.

The sound of his phone bringing him out of his pity party. They needed him for this case and that meant he would have to see you and Derek. It was hard to see the two of you. Two weeks ago he lost a friendship that lasted years. Now he was forced to see the two people who were the cause of his pain now. He forced the clothes on his body and dragged his feet to meet everyone downstairs to get back to work.

Despite the obvious tension within the team they never allowed it to hinder their work. Personal issues were out aside as this job was to important to let them get in the way. Spencer watched as you interacted with everyone. It was nice to see you be happy, he just wishes he was a part of it.

The case went faster then expected as everyone found themselves back on the Jet ready to head home. Spencer sat to himself as he watched your head fall on Derek's shoulder. Your sleeping form letting out small snores. Derek soon followed as his head rested on yours. He watched as his eyes fluttered shut, JJ couldn't help but snap pictures. He remembers when that was him. He needed to stop thinking about you this way. He chose to leave you, he chose Maeve and he was happy with his choice. He wanted to look away but the way Derek wrapped his arm around you made it hard to tear his eyes from you. He tried to ignore the two of you and get some sleep, but that was proven difficult without the comfort of another person.

You woke up to the feeling of someone nudging your shoulder. "M/n the plane landed we are here, let's go home" Derek's voice rang in your ears as you stood up. The walk to his car exhausting, he let you lean on him as the two of you walked. Unknown to you Spencer watched as the two of you walked, his heart cracking slightly at the sight. Once in the car your eyes began to close again, you didn't realize until you felt Derek lean over you to buckle you in. It was times like these where it was hard living with him. He treated you like royalty, always catering to you. You hated how fast your own feelings were aiming for him. You didn't want to move on so fast especially not with Derek. He was to good to be a rebound, if you entered a relationship with him it would be for the right reasons. With all the thoughts flooding your head you failed to realize that you had dozed off.

When you woke up you jumped at the feeling of you moving without your feet moving. Looking up you noticed Derek was carrying you into the house, he didn't even bother to try and wake you. "I know you're awake" he felt you jump again and couldn't help but chuckle "you didn't have to carry me you know" nodding at your comment the smile crept on your face "I know but I didn't want to wake you" you wondered if he h

Had feelings for you. Part of you knew he did, the other part was scared of him having them. "Derek can we talk?" He nodded at you and the two of you took a seat on the couch he gave you his undivided attention. The look on his face made you think he knew what you were going to say. "Do you have feelings for me?" You didn't mean to come across so bluntly but the nerves made you slip up. You watched as his face changed shock written over the once calm expression. You didn't rush him with his answer but he didn't take long either "I'm not going to lie to you, yes I do but that has nothing to do with my actions toward to M/n" a small smile formed on your face as you listened to him explain to you "I never doubted your intentions Derek it's just that I've noticed I'm starting to develop feelings for you and that scares me"

He didn't need you to explain what you meant by that. He knew it would be hard for you to go straight into a new relationship which is why he didn't plan on telling you any time soon. "M/n I don't expect you to be ready for any of this yes I have feelings for you and I'm so happy you have some for me but we don't have to worry about that right now we can wait until if and when you're ready" this is what made it hard to live with Derek. He was an amazing person and you never wanted to hurt him he deserves so much more then you can give right now " I'd appreciate if we can take this extremely slow. I want to make sure if we end up together it's for the right reasons so neither of us are hurt"

Derek couldn't be happier then he was now. At the moment you weren't his but it was extremely warming to know that it was more then possible in the future and he could live with that. Pressing a kiss to your forehead he stood up " we can go as slow as you want let's get some rest we have work tomorrow"

Once again you felt comfortable with your situation. You knew it might take a while for the pain of your relationship to completely go away but you were ready for whatever is coming your way and with that you were ready for bed.

TWO MONTHS LATER BITCHES

Today for once you felt completely at peace with yourself. Genuinely happy with your life and situation. It was a new feeling and you loved it. Their was no stress eating away at you as you worked, no feelings of being a burden on someone, no insecurities yelling at you through your head, it was utter peace and you were at the center of it.

Your mind filled not with stress but the calmness of music playing through your ears. As you filled out paperwork you couldn't help but think of the the last three months you have let yourself heal. The pain you felt from Spencer had faded away completely. It didn't hurt to see him anymore even if he was with Maeve you felt happy for him. Then it flashed over the last three months with Derek. As promised your relationship was taken slow. You two weren't even official but that didn't stop Derek from remaining loyal to you and vise versa. He never did anything that you weren't comfortable with which made it harder for you to take things slow. The time you spent with Derek was incomparable with anyone else. He accepted you for who you were no matter what.

You felt relaxed when you were with him. The last couple had been filled with thoughts of your own debating if you were ready to make it official with Derek.

Spencer had been watching the relationship grow between you and Derek. It bothered him to see the feelings and chemistry develop. He wanted to step in and say something but he knew better. You weren't his no more he had no right to say anything to you about your love life. He loved Maeve she was great, she was sweet, caring and smart and loved him. She just wasn't you. He had seen the way Derek looked at you, admiration in his eyes. Their friendship has still not recovered. He didn't think it ever would, and that's what hurt. He lost the both of you over his decisions. His mind was clouded with thoughts of you and his friend he didn't hear the commotion going on "Spencer!!" Hearing you tell his Name brought him out of his trance "yeah?" He noticed the frantic sense in your voice "we found Ian Doyle"

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Chapter 3

Spencer Reid x male reader x Derek morgan

Genre:angst/idk

Warnings: Spencer being a bitch✌🏽, swearing, mentions of death

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The weeks you had off had passed fairly quickly, today you would be returning to work. You haven't seen anyone other then Derek since your first night in your new home. You took the time off to focus on yourself, you had let Spencer redefine you as a person and it was time to take it back. After cutting your hair you got rid of many articles of clothing that didn't bring confidence. Derek had been with you the whole two weeks helping you find yourself again. He made sure everything you bought and did was solely for yourself as you tended to be a people pleaser. Derek enjoyed watching you explore yourself again, it was as if you were becoming a better version of yourself.

Since it was your first day back he had been ip early making breakfast with coffee. A habit he developed only in the last two weeks. He had picked up many habits revolving around you in the past two weeks. You haven't noticed some of them but you caught on to most. You never failed to express your gratitude for Derek as he made reality les damning. He was working hard to break the shell that was rebuilt by Spencer that molded you into the perfect person he wanted you to be.

Derek knew two weeks wouldn't be enough time but you made a lot of progress in the time you had. He waited for you to come out of your room for breakfast and coffee with two scoops of sugar and a splash of cream. He made sure it was vanilla creamer the way you like it. He served your plate of bacon with eggs that were scrambled and wrapped in a tortilla the way you preferred. His patience was wearing thin the cause of excitement of you returning to work. When you finally walked out the smile on his lips widened "well damn Casanova you look amazing" he could tell you were letting your shy nature take over. You held a smile although small it was there. Your hair was slightly styled but left mostly in its natural state. You had gotten your ears pierced again, the shiny studs peeking through your hair. The light brown eyeshadow on the line of your eyes made them pop.

Feeling his eyes on you made it hard to look at him. He was being to good to you and that scared you. You flashed a small smile at him as you thanked him for the compliments and breakfast. Conversation naturally flowed between the two of you as you ate, Before you realized time had passed and it was now time to go. That's when the ball of nerves formed within you. Today was the first time you would be seeing Spencer in two weeks. You weren't sure how you felt about it. Was he mad At you? Would he even talk to you? You're mind was filled with possibilities. You were beginning to let your thoughts overwhelm you "hey it's going to be alright we got time before work starts we can make a stop" you had no idea of what he was talking about but you trusted him and followed him out the door.

The car ride was silent as he drove through the streets of your town. The trees passing by gave you comfort, you loved the view of trees and scenery that you were very grateful to have. Unsure of where your friend was taking you, you found comfort in the scenery and comfortable silence. When the car came to a stop it became clear you were at your destination. It had been a long time since you last came here, it was difficult knowing what laid underneath your feet.

Taking a breath you let your feet lead you to her grave. The beautiful stone that held her name written neatly across it. Fresh flowers surrounded the scene, removing any dead ones to keep it clean. Trying to keep your tears at bay you sat next to the lonely grave of your best friend. The person who had been the only family to you since high school. Her name was a reminder of the times in high school when her place had become your home. Knowing you had limited time you had decided to just let the silence comfort you. It wasn't until you felt a hand on your shoulder that you knew it was time to go. The drive to the office filled with silence, a hand on yours drawing on the feeling of safety and comfort.

When you arrived it felt surreal seeing the agents flowing in out of the entrance. Taking a deep breath you followed Derek inside walking towards where you friends were waiting. You had seen your friends gathered by door ready to welcome you back with open arms. One by one they expressed how happy they were to have you back in the office. Surprised to hear there was no case you took your seat at your desk. It wasn't until you sat down that his frame came in to view. His hair shorter then before, his smile wide while he spoke on the phone. Deep down you knew he was talking to her. She was the reason for his happiness, he was happier with her.

During your two weeks out of office you dealt with your feelings. The anger, heartache,pain, happiness, and love had disappeared and been replaced with nothing. Unsure of whether it was a phase it was hard to cope with the fact you had no feelings for Spencer anymore. Seeing his face, seeing his smile, hearing his voice brought no feelings forward. It was a weird feeling to have no emotions towards the man you spent six years of your life with.

Finally hanging up the phone with his lover he noticed you at your desk. You looked different, your hair, clothes, even wearing a light liner on your eyes. He saw you interact with the others a smile on your face he hadn't seen in months. Noticing the lack of interest when it came to him bothered him slightly. He held a sense of security as he had made amends with his friends unknowing that it was you who had asked them to. No matter what happened it wasn't worth destroying the team. He took a moment to himself before returning to his desk. He had been on okay terms with everyone except Derek. He had tried to talk to him only to be shut down, if it wasn't work related Derek ignored him. Spencer understood the anger towards him for what he did, he knew striking you was wrong. He had planned to apologize for leaving you with a mark that night, but he had not planned to apologize for falling in love. It is out of his control who he loves.

Spencer couldn't help his eyes wander to you as you talked to JJ who was helping you fix your hair. It didn't take long for Penelope to follow her antics and help you with your look. He couldn't help let a chuckle slip through watching the two mess with you like siblings. He seen as the lines under your eyes began to crinkle as you laughed. Still loud as always, he took notice how when you laughed you would wrap your arm around your stomach. He watched as you interacted with the people who made you happy. He wanted to be angry with you for getting him in trouble but he knew better. He knew it was his actions that got him benched.

He tried to pull his eyes away from you but when he spotted Derek coming up to you with a coffee they were stuck. He couldn't help but wonder if there was something between the two of you. It had only been two weeks since the assumed breakup have you moved on already? And if you did was it Derek? The idea of that bothered him, Derek was his best friend how could you go for him? He wanted to talk to you alone since he felt it was between you two. He waited for you to walk to the break room where he followed. His feet moved quicker then he would have liked as he caught up with you his mouth even faster "Hey M/n can we talk?" Your body jumped back from his sudden words. He could still see the slight bruising on your face "um sure I guess" you let him lead you into the break room which caught the eyes of your friends.

"What do you need Reid" it was weird hearing you call him anything other then Spencer "I just wanted to apologize for hitting you, I was angry but that was no excuse for what I did so I'm sorry" he waited for your response only to not receive what he wanted "is that it?" Was that not what you wanted "yeah?" With a nod you grabbed a cup of water and made your way to the door "wait you're not going to say anything?" Turning back towards him he just wanted you to say something "what do you want for me to forgive you? Cause I don't" the monotone voice  "but I apologized" why did it bother him "yeah Reid your words mean nothing to me anymore, so you apologized for hitting me great do you want a medal? You're still a piece of shit who I want nothing to do with"

He didn't understand he apologized, how could you still be upset "how am I a piece of shit? Cause I've moved on?" He refrained from yelling this time "no Reid you're not a piece of shit for moving on, you're a piece of shit for moving on while we were still together" there it was you were still upset about that " I'm not apologizing for my feelings M/n" "I'm not asking you to Reid I'm not asking you for anything but to leave me alone unless it's about work okay?" He tried to stop you but it was to late you were gone. He watched as you walked over to his best friend. It's bothering him to see how close with Morgan you are.

He wanted to follow you but was informed there was a case. Before he could comprehend what happened he was on a plane to a new city. Where he sat alone you were sat with Penelope. She was showing you something on her phone. Your attention remained on her for the majority of the plane ride. It only strayed away when it was time to discuss the case.

Arriving at the police station you were quick to give your attention the case, no one bothered you with anything else. The thoughts of everything didn't matter when you worked. Your mind was focused on saving the lives of the girls who needed you. For hours you worked, looking through case files, going over theories, you had be dragged to the hotel to get some rest. JJ had to scold you multiple times before you retreated to your room. Spencer had thought he would be sharing with you as he always did, but when Derek followed you to your room his assumption was proven wrong. He was informed he would have his own room since JJ was sharing with Garcia.

He had a room to himself, that was new. It felt weird being in a room by himself, he was used to having you in the room bouncing off the walls. It was hard to try and be comfortable, his mind was so caught up in his thoughts he didn't hear the knocking. With the knocking getting louder he finally opened the door to see Derek "hey I just wanted to talk" letting him inside the door he was happy to have company "what's going on?" Sitting on the bed he let himself listen "I heard you apologized to M/n?" He nodded in response "yeah he um he didn't forgive me, which I don't understand" his friend only nodded "Spencer you cheated on him, not to mention hitting him and treating him terrible you're lucky he even spoke to you" he just didn't understand why everyone couldn't move past this "look I'm not here to debate with you on right and wrong, you should know that, I'm here to tell You to leave m/n alone unless it's related to work alright?"

"M/n already told me that" once again a nod "well now I'm telling you, I want you to do the same with me. After what you did I don't see it being possible to be friends with you outside of work" why was he losing a friend over this? "I don't understand" he was upset losing his best friend broke something inside him "look maybe one day we can be close again but it's going to take time for that" he didn't want to cry he didn't want to show how much it hurt him to lose Derrick as a close friend. He never meant to hurt you the way he did. He knows he could have handled things better and he would have he just didn't know how. He watched as Derek left back to his room. He was going to have to cope by himself now.

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Chapter 2

Spencer Reid x male Reader X Derek Morgan

Genre: Angst/IDK

Warnings, spencer being a dick, depression, drinking, cursing.

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The next morning your eyes fluttered open as the bright sun blinded you. The memories of the night before flushing in violently. You noticed Derek's body asleep on the floor as you stumbled into the hotel bathroom. Looking at yourself in the mirror the bruise had become darker in color. You didn't realize he had hit you that hard. Looking at yourself you couldn't tell what you were feeling towards Spencer anymore. You stared at yourself longer then you expected until you heard Derek calling you "M/n we gotta go" he knew you were still having a hard time. He wasn't going to let you be uncomfortable which is why the two of you walked to the Jet together.

When you walked onto the Jet you could feel the stares of your friends. One by one they hugged you tightly expressing their love for you. You sat between JJ and Derek your body was still tired. The mind was blank as you leaned on JJ who was running her hands through your hair. She loved you like a brother, you and her had been close until Emily passed. She was upset with herself for not seeing how much pain you were in. She knew holding anger against herself would do no good but she couldn't help it. They all held themselves together while you slept peacefully against JJ.

When Spencer boarded the plane he could feel all their eyes on him. No one spoke to him not even Hotch who would have a word with him when they made it home. Then he seen you, the bruise on your face made him cringe. He did that to you? Guilt stung at him a bit. He doesn't even remember much of the argument let alone what happened after. He made his way toward you, he's wanted to apologize for striking you but his way was blocked. "Nu uh you gotta leave him alone Spencer he's been through enough" he wanted to argue with Morgan but the look on his face told him otherwise. There was a lot Derek wanted to say to Spencer. There were words that he knew had to wait until the plane ride was over.

The plane ride was filled with uncomfortable silence. Everyone was upset, seeing you in such a state was dreadful to watch. You were such a good person, you loved and when you loved you loved hard. They can't remember any instance where they had been upset with you. They couldn't find Any reason that would justify Spencer's actions towards you. They thought long and hard about what happened. JJ couldn't help but let a few tears escape as she wondered how long this abuse had been going on. Was this the first time he hit you? Even so the emotional abuse had been going on for a while. How did no one notice how bad it was? They were all your friends they should have been able to tell something was wrong. No one wanted to speak, no one had a nice thing to say towards Spencer.

Derek sat in silence as he watched you sleep, he was worried about you. He remembers you coming to the BAU. He remembers when you started how Shy you were. That only lasted for a week because Garcia had did her thing and found out your interests. After that you were like a firework. You ignited, your personality had become apparent. When you found out Emily worked on the BAU it was like seeing a child light up on Christmas. He remembers you giving her piggy backs after cases. He remembers JJ mothering you as you would be to excited sometimes. He remembers that grin never leaving your face when you and Spencer got together. Now pictures of you the past few months flooded his brain. The grin you had was gone. He knew the person you needed was no longer here so he made it his mission to be what ever you needed.

It felt like the scene of a movie while everyone pictured flashbacks of you and how they all failed to notice you in need. It felt surreal seeing you in such a state, knowing their friend put you in it. If Spencer had any remorse he wasn't showing it very well. They wanted to believe he could be better then that. They hoped that he would come to his senses and fix the behavior he had displayed the past few months. They knew losing Emily hurt Spencer they were close. But no one was as close to her as you were, you two were soulmates. When she was pronounced dead no one could forget the sound of your screams echoing the walls. Now to see you broken again due to your lovers action broke their hearts.

Waking you up after the plane ride was difficult as you were exhausted. Derek hated himself for enjoying the feeling of you clinging to his arm. He knew it was wrong but it felt nice being there for you. He felt guilty for not being there he could finally make up for it. After letting you awake fully you agreed to stay with Derek until you were able to get your own place. As you were leaving you noticed Spencer walking into Hotchs office. The thought of him getting in trouble hurt but he made his own choices.

The drive to your apartment was quiet as you were afraid of the changes to come. You never thought you would find yourself packing your things to move out of your shared home. Walking through the apartment the place you once called home now drew tears to your eyes. The pictures of you and Spencer on the wall showed the happiness from previous years. Packing your things anything that was a gift to you was left behind. You knew holding on would keep you trapped in this loop. It was time to set yourself free from the pain you stayed trapped in. Double checking to ensure you got everything you opened the drawer in the dresser when you saw it.

A picture of Spencer and who you assumed was the girl he was cheating on you with. They were smiling, her brown hair fell gracefully down her shoulder, her eyes resembled a beautiful honey color. Their smiles were wide, the way he looked at her was how he used to look at you. This photo gave you proof he was in love, it just wasn't with you.

You felt betrayed by him. Why didn't he just break up with you? You would have preferred that, to have just ended things rather then find out there was someone else. To think he was with her while the two of you were together broke something inside of you that weren't sure you could repair. It bothered you that once again tears streamed down your face because of him. Putting the picture down and grabbing the rest of your stuff and made your way out with Derek. It hurt he cheated but what hurt more was that he wasn't sorry.

You stayed quiet during the trip to Morgan's house. The math in your head told you it had probably had been going on for a while. You just refused to let yourself see it. Morgan knew the healing process for you would take time. This wasn't just a break up you and Spencer had been together for six years. You two grew as people with each other. You two seen the best and worst in each other so you thought. Showing you your room he left you alone to give you space. This was a big change you had to process.

You couldn't bring yourself to unpack. All you did was lay there. Time was of no importance, you didn't have work for the next two weeks. What was the point of Eating? Showering? Breathing? Living? Was there a point to any of it. You didn't believe there was.  You felt alone.

You didn't realize hours had passed since you arrived at Morgan's. You were in the same spot he left you in. You let your mind wonder to Spencer the years you spent with him filling your thoughts again. Only this time all of them weren't great. You now thought of all the times he never comforted you. The times he simply didn't show you appreciation. How you never failed to be there for him but he left you alone on multiple occasions. You had been grieving your relationship for months without realizing it. You didn't want the feeling of depression to take control of your life. He wasn't worth the thoughts you held for yourself.

Dragging yourself out of bed you forced yourself in the shower. Washing away the memories, the pain, the heartbreak. You let the soap cleanse you from anything that would hold you back. You knew time would heal but you didn't want to wait for time. Coming out of the shower you looked at yourself in the mirror. You never noticed how much you let yourself go. You deserved better then what you were giving. Deciding it was time to do better you grabbed your clippers and got to work.  When you were done you smiled at yourself, that felt good.

You decided to finish unpacking and get dressed. We're you going anywhere? No but you deserved to feel handsome. You deserved to fall back in love with your self. You were going to treat yourself better then he ever did. While unpacking you found a bottle of alcohol you had stored away for a special occasion. Today was a special occasion right? Even if it wasn't you didn't care. Walking into the kitchen you spotted Derek on the couch watching tv. His eyes followed you to the kitchen before his body trailed along. He looked surprised when you handed him the shot which was held in a big glass since you didn't know your way around his kitchen. "To new beginnings and getting drunk with THE Derek Morgan" a smile spread across his face as he downed the shot with you following suit.

Sooner then you thought the two of you were completely shit faced in the living room. It was just the two of you but so far you were having a great Time dancing with Derek while he sent videos of you to the Team. Pictures of the two of you flooded their phones each one making the others laugh until one by one they arrived at your new home to enjoy the night with you. When they arrived none of them could deny the smile on your face made the hangover they would have worth it.

The night went by fairly quickly soon one by one as the came they left. Videos of the night would be shared in the morning as it was doubtful any of you would remember. Once again it was only you and Derek as you both laid on the floor just talking. You didn't know it but the person lying next to you couldn't help but stare at you the way your ex lover used to. He knew it was way to soon to let his feelings breakthrough his barrier, but one day he would. For now he listened to your drunken rant which made no sense but he entertained it. Derek couldn't understand how Spencer could leave you. You weren't perfect but that's what he loved about you. He enjoyed listening to your senseless conversations. The way your eyes lit up when someone mentioned your favorite band. He loved how you dressed, a new style every week. He loved how affectionate you were with everyone including him. He even enjoyed your drunken nonsense.

He remembers the feeling of his heart cracking when Spencer asked you out. Spencer had simply beaten him to the punch but the way your eyes lit up he couldn't help but be happy for you all those years. Love is never a simple concept meaning through the way you will be hurt but if it meant seeing you smile he would go through any pain necessary. Derek didn't even notice you had dozed off into sleep. Deciding the floor was okay enough to sleep on he covered the both of you before letting sleep take over.

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Masterlists

I’m still learning how to do stuff but here is all my writings I’ve done jumbled in one post

Bts

Namjoon

Namjoon x male reader

Jin

Jin x male reader

Yoongi

Love him like that

Hoseok

Hoseok x Male reader

Taehyung

Jimin

Moving along

Jimin x Male Reader

Jungkook

Sober

Lover creation

Poly BTS

Copycat

Criminal Minds

Spencer Reid

Spencer Reid x Male Reader

Derek Morgan

Criminal Minds Series

Young and Beautiful

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

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A new series!! This is a Criminal minds series hope you enjoy!

Chapter One

Spencer Reid x Male Reader X Derek Morgan

Genre: Angst

Warnings: Cheating, spencer is a shit person, death, depression

Summary: you loved him for six years he threw it all away in a few months.

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Your life as an FBI agent was a dream come true. Hard work led to a job you loved to do. It was everything you ever wanted. When you met Dr Spencer Reid your world fell into place. Time would be non existent with your lover by your side. Cases would be easier when he was with you. The team loved watching you two together as you grew as a couple. JJ had been the one to set you two up seeing the common interest you had for one another.

You and Spencer were together through many rough patches. When he was taken by Tobias hankel you were there to help him overcome his addiction. You stayed by his side on nights when he went through withdrawals. You never let anyone know what was happening as you loved him to much to watch his career slip away.

When Gideon left Spencer had you to lean on. He was having a hard time adjusting with him leaving. Meeting Emily made it a bit easier as he felt comfortable around her. When Dave came to the team he found himself feeling comfortable in the team again. The love around the people he worked with made him love his job even more.

When Emily "died" it brought hard times again. His days were spent locked in the prison of his own thoughts. Everyone felt worry creep inside of them when Spencer showed his face. His grief had been the center of his mind. Grief could be the darkest of clouds and Spencer was lost within them. You and Emily were as close as it gets. She was your best friend, she knew everything about you. In high school when you met you two were attached by the hip. When you seen her being wheeled away on the stretcher it was the first heart break you ever felt. Your grief had been short lived as you put your attention and mind on your friends and your boyfriend who needed you to be strong .

You always felt yourself falling harder for Spencer everyday. Hearing his voice as he rambled about statistics and facts brought a newfound joy. When he would talk about his interest it was like heaven to you. His smile could light up your world. You knew losing Emily would be hard on him as they were extremely close. You could see the way Spencer's pain had taken control over his mind. He would often distance himself while going through things. Often times you would just sit back and be there for him when he was ready.

The team was certainly aware of the chill coming from him while he was mourning. Everyone made their best effort to cope, even though it was difficult. Who could have ever imagined that she wouldn't be around anymore? Those intense days were incredibly gloomy, not to mention the unusually hushed conversations in the workplace. Home was no longer a relaxing atmosphere, as Spencer had become quite irritable since the funeral. Tiptoeing around him had become a daily chore.

Lying in bed, he was scrutinizing his paperwork and dreading the gathering tomorrow, which would introduce the new colleague - an occasion that had everyone mostly anxious. Replacing Emily didn't seem fair and no one was exactly keen on the idea. You sunk into your thoughts, feeling sorrowful for the loss of your friend that you still haven't properly mourned.

You had woken up unaware that you had even fell asleep. The bed next to you has been empty which was unusual Spencer would always wake you before leaving. Your body felt weak, heavy, everything in your mind was telling you to go back to bed. Your feet ignored your brains thoughts and carried you to the bathroom where you started your day. The reflection of yourself didn't look like you. He held dark bags under his eyes, his skin was slightly pale, his hair was messy, there was no ounce of happiness in his expression. You ignored the pleading eyes of yourself telling you to do Better and hopped into the shower. The hot water streaming down your back taking the pain away from your muscles. Getting out of the shower and putting clothes on were harder then usual.

It had taken you almost an hour to get fully ready for work. The drive to the office felt long and tiresome, the walk inside painful as you seen the empty desk of your best friend being filled by another. You didn't pay attention to anyone as you walked in but they noticed you. Derek had seen the bags under your eyes from the moment you walked in. JJ noticed the paleness of your skin. Penelope noticed you missing that smile. Rossi noticed Spencer was not by your side. Your eyes scanned for your lover in the office. Eventually they landed on him sitting at his desk on his phone. A smile was on his face something you missed seeing.

Gathering up the courage you made your way to him hoping to just receive an ounce of comfort "Hey Spence i missed you this morning, is everything okay?" His eyes remained stained on his screen "yes everything is fine you should be able to wake yourself up" well that hurt "that's not what I meant Spencer I just missed your presence was all" his eyes finally trailed to focus on you. You're eyes begged him for his understanding of your current state. "m/n I can't always be with you every second of the day! I have more important things to worry about right now" his words had struck a nerve. They also struck the ears of your friends.

They all knew you and Spencer had issues, every couple does. It was usually handled outside of work, even then, they knew you two never yelled at each other. They watched as Spencer sped away from you as you stood in place watching his tall frame get smaller with each step he took. You fought the tears away and put your things down at your desk. You took a minute to collect yourself before introducing yourself to Agent Seaver. She was extremely sweet and you couldn't hold a grudge about her replacing Emily.

You two didn't get the chance to engage in a conversation as there was a case. It was important for your feelings to once again be set aside as your team needed you.

On the plane Spencer sat next to Hotch, his eyes roamed across the screen he held in his hands. You sat next to Derek who let you use his shoulder as a pillow. Spencer never glanced in your direction. His eyes stayed focused on the screen as he typed back. When you landed he ignored your presence and continued his work. Everyone could feel the tension between you and Spencer which led to you being partnered with Derek during the case. Which would go by smoothly and quickly.

You still shared a room with Spencer who hadn't spared you a second glance. Tonight was the last night before you all went home, you decided to try and make things right with your lover. Everyone had decided to go out for the night to explore the city of New York.

The room was silent while the two of you got dressed. His name escaped your lips with a breath, only to met with a sharp “what.” A simple question, it was a simple question "did I do something to upset you?" Simple right? Well simple can be complicated "sometimes your just to much for me." He wouldn't even look at you. What did you do to deserve this treatment? You didn't mean to snap but you did. The feelings you kept bottled inside could no longer be kept contained. You tried holding back but it was impossible. Your body and mind were weak. A conversation quickly turned into arguing, his voice raised while yours was barley above a whisper. He yelled and yelled until his voice was gone, all while you had seen the message pop up on his phone.

He didn't seem to notice the tears fall from your face as he berated you. The yelling voice in your mind telling you unspeakable things. You wanted to ask who they were but you couldn't. You felt frozen in place as he continued his rant about how awful you were. How you never were there for him when Emily passed. Her name, being used against you how could he stoop so low? You couldn't respond, feeing frustrated and ignored Spencer's hand moved faster before he could think. When it happened is the first time he fully stopped to see the red print forming on your face. He noticed the tears that had been pouring. You didn't even look at him again before leaving out the door. He wanted to go after you but she was waiting for him. His new lover was waiting for him to come to her, she needed him more right?

The team waited for the two of you to arrive, they had grew concerned with the state you were in. Tonight they had planned to treat you but all they seen was Spencer walking out the lobby without you "hey kid where is M/n" with a shrug he left ignoring the calls of his friends as he went to meet with the lover he is replacing you with. They all tried calling you only to be sent to voicemail. It wasn't like you to ignore them, their worry grew as no one could reach you. After what felt like hours they finally had Garcia trace you to a local bar. Derek decided to go as they knew it would be the best option incase something was wrong.

When he arrived at the bar he wasn't expecting to be fully packed for a week night. He ignored the glances of men and women as his eyes scanned for you. When he did find you sitting at the bar you were obviously drunk. He sat next to you while you spoke to a random man. It didn't take much for the man to leave once he seen the look on Derek's face. That's when you turned around to see him, the bruise on your face now visible "M/n what happened to your face?" A smile spread across your face "ask pretty boy he gifted it to me" he didn't want to believe Spencer would hit you especially after the years you two spent together. He also knew you wouldn't lie about it, he had no idea what to say. "It's okay Derek, I forgive him." How could you forgive him so easily "M/n how could you forgive him? Look what he did to your face" he wanted to understand "cause how can I hold a grudge against someone else's lover?" Derek didn't understand he was confused until your eyes finally looked into his.

He could see the tears falling then he understood that Spencer had cheated. He then took a moment to fully scan over you. The weight loss, paleness, bags you've been struggling and been dealing with everything alone. He knows you haven't grieved he knows your hurting. So instead of giving you advice, or a talking to he took you back to the hotel. He let everyone know you're okay and led you back to his room. You expected him to lecture you but instead you felt his arms wrap around you. A feeling you haven't felt since Emily passed. You couldn't hold back anymore the pain, grief everything was to much to hold in anymore. Your body had finally gave in as you fell into his embrace. There was no talking while Derek held you as you sobbed into his shirt. As he held you he tried to contain his anger. Spencer should have been the one comforting you, you lost your best friend and your lover within the span of a few months. That's more then any of them could handle.

The two of you sat on the bed as he let you grieve properly. He let you grieve Emily, Spencer, and even yourself. It wasn't until you fell asleep that he filled everyone in on what happened. To say they were angry was an understatement. He knew you weren't going to be okay but they got you. You didn't know the support that would be in your face the next morning.

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Spencer Reid x Male Reader

Genre: angst/fluff

Warnings: mentions of violence, lying

Summary: being the nurse of Diana Reid brough s lot of joy into your life while getting to know her son

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Spencer knew he would need help with his mother. He loved her so much and wanted her home with him. He would go to the end of the earth for his mother. She brought him into this world with love. Spencer felt the weight bringing him down managing work with his mother. He was thankful for Emily being so understanding and letting him take time off. He knew the time had come to get help when he felt himself starting to get frustrated with his mom.

He searched through many resumes and applications to find the perfect fit. He grew frustrated with anyone he hired quitting soon after their first week. He grew hesitant when a male nurse came for an interview. Seeing you he was surprised you had soft features. He started to profile you without hesitation.. he took note of the way you sat, relaxed and calm. He listened to your voice as you calmly and confidently spoke to him. He decided to give you a chance after Penelope gave him a clear background check.

From then on you showed up on time everyday lol to work. You were always on call when it came to Spencer and his mom. Due to his work sometimes you would be there in the middle of the night. You were always there when he called. Spencer was expecting you to quit after the first week, but you didn’t. You had patience and took your time getting to know Diana. She fought against you for a while until she started to trust you. It wasn’t until you sat on the floor with her and listened to her rant and ramble before comforting her and explaining what was going on. After that night she slowly began to love you.

Spencer and you grew pretty close over time. He would message you during cases checking in on you and his mom. When Spencer took his trip to Mexico and got arrested he immediately called you. You were devastated at him being in prison for something he never did. You ended up staying in his home with his mom while he focused on getting out. Some of his friends and team members would stop by and give you updates on his case. Once Spencer was transferred to an American prison you took his mom to see him.

Seeing Spencer in such a situation broke your heart. He was such a sweet person, had a good heart. Spencer was the light in the dark. He brought you out of the rainy days with his rambling and statistics. The team took notice of the fondness you two had for one another. To them you had brought Spencer out of his head. Spencer called you as much as possible while he was in prison, talking to you made him forget where he was.

He looked forward to the weekly visits you and his mom made. Spencer felt guilty not being able to pay you while he was locked away. He knew everything his mother needed was coming out of your pocket. You would constantly wave him off about the money. You weren’t going to take from him when he needed help the most right now.

It was rough seeing him go through so much during his time in prison. The crack in his voice when he told you what was happening and what he had to do. It broke your hard but you reassured him it was okay. When you heard from Emily they would be bringing Spencer home your world lit up. I light soon darkened when you heard the door burst open. A women entered the home, you were scared.

She began demanding to know where Spencer’s mom was. You were quite small compared to an average guy you knew she could easily take you. When you refused to answer it got physical. Blood spread over the floor, you felt your face begin to swell. Diana came out of the room after hearing the loud noises. When you understood the woman would take her you begged for her take you instead. You felt tears stream down your face as you pleaded with her. You couldn’t react in time before your body hit the floor. You lost consciousness everything around you went black. When you woke up you knew you were in a trunk. Fear burned through your body, you just hoped Diana was safe.

The team had brought Spencer back to his home. The car ride he was itching to see you and his mom. The ride felt like hours long. All he wanted was to hug the both of you. When the car had finally parked he sped up the stairs with his friends following behind him. Opening the door he didn’t expect to see blood spread everywhere. His home had been trashed, books threw across the floor, glass shattered, broken furniture. His mind couldn’t keep up with his body as he searched his home. Ignoring Emily telling him to wait he ran to his room where his mom sat. She sat on the bed her mind trying to process what had happened. By now her medication had kicked in keeping her mind clear.

Seeing Spencer brought her out of the trance she broke down in his arms. The fear she felt was released as her son held her tightly. He sighed in relief as he knew she was safe. His mind ran as he tried connecting the dots on whose blood that was. After his mom had calmed down it clicked.

He fell his world spin when he found out Lindsey had taken you. The guilt intensified when his mom told him it was supposed to be her. You had given your life to the hands of a murderer to protect his mom. He was coming for you.

Once it was figured out cat was behind all of this he had to play her game. He had a hard time focusing with the thoughts of you filling his mind. Cat of course caught on to him and his worry. She picked at him, getting into his head. After hours of playing her game he was growing restless his anger was getting the best of him. After talking to JJ and calming himself down he tried to think of what the answer could be. Once he figured it out the team found where you would be.

You had since been moved into the house as Lindsey set up the bombs that could kill everyone within a five mile radius. After what felt like hours you freed yourself from the restraints. Before she sat in her chair to wait you took your chance. Coming from behind you hit her as hard as you could. As expected a fight broke out. With what strength you had left you fought for your life. You fought until you felt yourself being pulled away. Feeling yourself being pulled away you started fighting again until you realized it was Emily.

She had forced you to see an EMT to get stitches as you refused to go to the hospital. She drove you back to quantico where Spencer was waiting for you. He paced the floor as he anxiously waited for you. Penelope and JJ sat with him trying to calm him down. It wasn’t until he saw you walk through the doors his heart started to slow.

He felt his world around him disappear as your eyes locked with each other. The feeling of a never ending high racing through him. Then his eyes focused on the bruises and blood taking over on your skin. His body moving without hesitation he ran to you and engulfed you in his arms. Falling into his arms you wept as he held you tight. Spencer couldn’t bare the feeling of you shaking in his arms as you cried. You had put his family above your life how would he repay you for this.

Time would eventually heal your wounds inside and out. Spencer knew you would never be the same after this traumatic experience. He stuck by your side through your healing as well as his mothers. The relationship between you two formed into a romantic one with time.

The team watched you two grow into a loving relationship. They knew they no longer had to worry for him as you two had each other.

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Just adding that I will start posting more then just BTSxmale reader content I will write for other people as well I’ll try to post who I’ll write for soon!

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Copycat

Pairing- Poly Bts x Male Reader

Summary- People who didn’t know you would consider you mean. Those who did know you loved you dearly. How does it go when you have to spend the evening with your seven boyfriends and the one guy who gets under your skin.

Warnings: Mentions of violence, reader is considered an asshole.

Notes- I apologize if your name is Jesse. If it is imagine another name. Thanks for reading!!

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You wouldn't call yourself spiteful, but you would always give back what you received from people. People who knew you dearly would call you blunt but never rude. You never held back for anyone even when you should.  Some would consider you cold, you would agree. Despite your stand off attitude, you pulled seven men who would lay down their lives for you.

Everyone who knew you on a personal level loved you, those who didn't despised you deeply. Assuming you weren't good enough for the seven men, they would act rude to you. You never batted an eye towards these people. They don't know you and they never would. For their sake you would always hope they knew the lines and not to cross them. Man or women it never mattered, your hands were rated E for everyone.

Many tried to get under your skin, none succeeded. There was only one man who would cause your blood to boil. You respected your boyfriends to never cause a scene, he would tempt you though. His name was Jesse although you never referred to him by his name. It was obvious to you and your boyfriends he had a crush on them. They have remained polite, you have remained corral. Jesse watched you like hawk, waiting for anything he could use against you. You've noticed the changes in his style, following yours. His vocabulary beginning to sound a lot like yours.

The boys noticed the changes as well, they were smart enough to ignore the advances. Despite all seven, including Jimin, being taller then you, they knew you could beat them with your eyes closed.  They loved you nothing would ever come between that.

Today had been one of those you dreaded, Jesse would be coming over. He played nice in front of you, but you could see his crazy from miles away. Jin had been cuddling with you on the couch while Jimin sat on your lap. Jimin was watching you play games on your phone as he usually does. His legs laid across yours and Jin's as Jin's head laid on your shoulder. The knock on the door moved their attention away for a second, it returned when Yoongi opened the door. You snickered when you heard the greetings. You let a smirk tug your lips when yoongi denied his hug.

You felt his eyes on you, waiting for a greeting which you happily ignored. The two remained in their seats as they greeted him. You could sense his anger at the sight of you three on the couch. Everyone made their way to the living room and took their seats. "Do you guys want to watch a movie?" His voice sounded like hell in your ears. "Or we could go to the mall?" He looked towards Namjoon for an answer "actually M/n took us to the mall yesterday" you could see his face twist at the answer. "Oh M/n that reminds me, can you take me to the store later?" You looked for the sound of Hoseoks voice "sure baby, what do you need?" Before Hoseok could answer Jesse spoke up " I can take you now if you need to go"

You could see he was smiling ear to ear, trying to convince hobi to go. "Sorry Jesse M/n and I like this to be our personal time"  once again a smirk tugged at your lips. Jimin decided to get up to go the kitchen "anyone want something to drink?" Everyone spoke up and asked for something. You ignored when Jesse glared at you, following Jimin into the kitchen "I'll help you hyung" As they were in the kitchen Taehyung stole Jimins spot on your lap. Jin also removed himself from you to let Yoongi cuddle with you as he requested.  When the two came back Jimin let out a gasp and a pout "M/n how could you let tae steal my spot" the pout on his lips caused a chuckle to escape your lips.

"Sorry baby first come first serve, plus it's your turn to sleep in my bed tonight remember?" His pout quickly vanished as he remembered he got you to himself tonight. "Why do you call him baby? Isn't that disrespectful since he's older then you?" The small smile you held vanished as Jesse spoke to you "watch your tone, I'll call them whatever I want if they are okay with it" you could see the huff he let out when you spoke to him. "Why are you being so rude? I haven't done anything to you" you glanced up at him. Taehyung noticed the glare and out his hand on your chest. You listened as he whispered in your air to calm you down. You felt the anger fade slightly as yoongi also held a grip on your arm as he cuddled into you. It was his way of keeping you at bay.

Jungkook had been silent through out the day as he also had a hard time being around Jesse. Jungkook would be considered his favorite out of the seven, and Jungkook hated it. He despised feeling uncomfortable around someone , especially in his own home. He was cuddling into hoseok and Namjoon as Jin scrolled through movies. Jesse decided to take a seat next to Jin as he was the only one sitting alone at the moment. Once everyone agreed on the movie it was a discussion on take out "how about pizza?" Jesse suggested and was turned down "m/n doesn't really like pizza" Jungkook spoke up. "Oh well everyone else does it's easy as well" Jungkook shook his head "no let's get something everyone likes." You sent a smile towards jungkook, which made him want to melt in his seat.

"How about we order from that restaurant down the street? We've all been there before." Namjoons voice spoke from across the room, and everyone of course agreed. You were the one who usually did the orders, as you remembered what everyone liked. You already had the orders in your phone. "I can start the order does everyone want the same thing as last time?" Everyone nodded and you looked at Jesse "what do you want?" He shrugged "anything is fine"  you didn't care what you got him it was some type of chicken.

Once the food arrived everyone got comfortable to watch the movie. You decided to use the bathroom before it started, when you came back you felt your blood begin to boil. Jesse had taken your spot next to jungkook who obviously looked uncomfortable.  The boys were staring at you, they could tell you were ready to snap. They would rather have you going off then be quiet. You simply sat on the recliner chair that was open and looked at Jungkook. "Jungkook" his head snapped towards you as you patted your lap. He smiled wide as he quickly took his place on your lap.

You felt daggers aimed towards you as you looked at Jesse who was pissed off. The rest of the night went by quickly without any other incidents taking place. Everything was going great until a loud boom. Darkness spread throughout the house as you guys heard the rain begin pouring down. "Jungkook, can you get the candles baby?" He nodded although he forgot it was to dark for you to see. He quickly grabbed candles and began to light them. Soon you could see and began putting any food away so it wouldn't go away. " do you guys mind if I stay the night it doesn't look to safe to drive" Jesse asked as he stood from the couch. The boys all looked at each other nodding. They then looked at you asking for your input. You gave a small nod.

You didn't like Jesse, but you wouldn't be the cause of his death by letting him drive home in this weather. "I'll go grab extra pillows and blankets " hoseok said as he made his way down the hallway. When he came back the pulled the sofa bed out for him. "Thank you all I really appreciate it!" You didn't respond, you started making your way to your room. Before you made it to the door you felt a heavy presence behind you, turning around all seven men stood behind you. "M/n can we all stay in here, the storm is kind of scary" Yoongi decided to be the voice of reason. You opened the door and they all piled in. Your room wasn't as big as the others. Having a house with multiple rooms was for everyone to have their personal space when needed. Living with seven people can be a lot for anyone to handle. Having all seven men piled into your room was in your opinion adorable.

The night was spent with arguing of who was going to share the bed with you. Jimin had won as it was originally his night. The rest of them spread out through your room.

Sunlight came fast through your blinds, signaling it was morning. It was your turn to cook breakfast today so you did your best to sneak out without waking them. Closing the door quietly, you made your way to the kitchen. Deciding on waffles, eggs and bacon you got everything you needed. You brewed coffee and tea for everyone as you started cooking. Your mind had forgotten Jesse was sprawled out on the couch. You didn't remember he was there until you heard him greet the others Loudly. "M/n you left us in there" this time Namjoon held the pout "sorry baby I was making breakfast for everyone, I brewed your favorite coffee" he smiled and kissed your cheek while pouring his cup. 

"M/n do you make your waffles home made?" Once again his voice dampened your mood "usually I do, I didn't have enough stuff today so they are frozen." Your tone never changes when you speak to him. "Oh I usually make them home made too much better that way" you just hummed in response. Ignoring him was your only way to prevent a scene.

After serving them you were caught up in your own thoughts you didn't notice Hoseok trying to get your attention. Hoseok said your name a few times before he realized you were spaced out. He wasn't upset he knew sometimes you would zone out and never meant any harm by it. Focusing on washing the pots and pans you used it caught you by surprise when you felt a sting on your arm.

"Hey your boyfriend is talking to you, you should pay attention" you were unable to hear his words as all you were thinking about was him laying his hands on you. The boys watched stunned as you gripped the counter top, your knuckles turning white from your grip. You had just looked at him the stare cold, the anger visible. The boys watched as you stared at Jesse they could see fear start to take over. The it happened, before they could process what happened Jesse had red dripping from his face.

The crimson red began to stain his shirt as he held his nose. All seven boys rose from the table immediately going over to you.  They were worried about you and your hand more then Jesse who had been dripping blood through their kitchen. Jungkook was making his way to get the first aid kit when he was stopped "Jungkook oppa your not going to do anything? He just hit me!" Jungkook pulled his arm away from him only for it to be grabbed again. Jungkook tried to stay calm once again pulling his arm away and getting the first aid kit. He quickly made his way back to you although you were trying to calm down it didn't seem to be working.

"You guys are taking care of him when he hit me! I knew he was trouble I tried telling you guys you deserve better" Jesse expected you to say something to him, he didn't expect the others to. He stood shocked as they told him off, before he was escorted out by everyone. He was shocked that they kicked him out, all he wanted was their attention he wanted them to look at him the way they look at you. He stood at their door with blood dripping down his face and shirt, how could they like you so much? You were so mean, quiet, rude. He never understood why they love you. After a while of standing there here finally left debating in his head if he should try again.

Meanwhile the boys focused their attention on you and calming you down. They knew you didn't like Jesse, they only tolerated him because they didn't want to come off as mean or rude. You finally calmed down and explained you would never blame them for this. The rest of your day was spent in bed squished between seven giants who loved you dearly.

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Hey everyone I have some stories written and I’m sorry for not posting unfortunately I got into a car accident recently and I have some injuries that are severe and it’s taking me some time to heal. It’s been a week since the wreck so I’ll be trying to post soon

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[kjsnugget]

Jungkook x Male reader

Genre: fluff

Warnings: violence, mentions of death.

Summary: the world you created had been treated so poorly your family decided to wage war, your time on earth meant to destroy the very thing you love but how can you destroy it when the one you’re destined to be with lives there

A/n: let me know if you guys would like a part two

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Shades of green bled through the worlds lands, billions of blues bursting through its skies, plants providing oxygen with beauty, oceans as deep as the dive into love. All of the worlds creations laid in the palm of your hand. You had provided everything  necessary for their survival. Being the god of all creations, your brother providing them with the warmth of the sun, your sister giving them the blessing of the moon and gorgeous painting of stars at night. Animals littered the earth which was their source of food. No one could deny Humans had everything they needed with lack of appreciation.

You had watched for billions of years as they tore your creations to shreds. Everything that you gifted to them was treated poorly. Animals, becoming endangered for money, trees and plants being torn apart for buildings, the sky turning dark due to pollution, oceans becoming empty due to carelessness from lack of compassion. The years you spent watching your world crumble has broken your heart. Working hard to give them such a gift only to go unappreciated and it was not cared for.

You spoke to your parents about your concerns seeking their advice. It was a simple solution, you had been to gracious, to understanding it was time you put your foot down. Wishing not to go alone you sought out your brother and sister asking them to accompany you to your war against those who habituated your world. Agreeing with you ,you made your way to the planet you loved dearly keeping your form natural to ensure they would take you seriously.

Your arrival was spread through the village, many traveled to see as you and your siblings arrived. You stood in front of the millions of people who had disrespected you, your family and the life you created. "Humans have I not provided enough? Giving you these gifts to help you survive? I'm turn you betray me by compromising the life I have laid on this planet? Your greed has left me no choice but to wage war on the planet I created. You no longer deserve the gift I gave. At this time tomorrow I will return and this planet will no longer be in existence. Your only hope will be to surrender your beloved possessions that destroy my loved planet." You watched as they stared. The fear radiated off of the millions of people in front of you.

Under the recommendation of your parents your brother set their town ablaze. Showing the seriousness of your threat. They began scrambling to come to a solution. You watched as they began discussing the current events taking place. Scanning the scene in front of you, your eyes met his. His features showed fear, compassion, pain his hair lightly falling in his face. His eyes locked with yours in that moment you felt the sting in your heart, your simple armor turning into its full form showing off the powers you possessed. Your siblings stared at you as your true form was now visible as you had met your mate. The person you were destined to spend eternity with was in front of you.

His eyes showed slight pain as he felt the sting in his heart grow bigger. His body fell to floor the pain becoming far to much for him to take. Indicating he was in fact human, for now at least. His back arched as he let out a shriek, turning the heads of onlookers in his direction. People rushed to his aid, trying to help him as much as they can. The only thing that would take his pain away was you. "Brother you must help him, you know he will die if you don't follow the treaty rules" your sisters concern for your mate was voiced as you stated at the scene "yes I know the rules" you made your way to the man who was on the floor screaming in pain. "You, you will come with me if you wish to live as I am the only one who can help you in your predicament" he stared at you the pain evident on his features "I would rather die then go with you" his words came out stumbled. "If that is what you wish but so you know your death with end with suffering as you will not make it into the after life. The pain you feel now will intensify after death and will get worse as the years pass. For breaking the rules of the treaty you will suffer for eternity" walking away brought that stinging feeling back as you joined your brother and sister once more.

You watched as the pain became worse for the young man "Jungkook stop this! Go with him so he can heal you!" A friend of his you presumed was trying to convince him to leave. The said friend made his way to you " please don't let him die I know your angry but please he is my best friend" you never planned on letting him die as it would affect you as well. You made your way back to the young man and pressed your hand against his head "Here i the god of all creation stand before you, the wishes of the gods before I have destined our lives to be together with the powers I hold I bestow an ounce of them upon you freeing you from the pain that takes ahold of you" soon after you finished his body relaxed, the dirt that had built up on his skin slowly dissolved. His hair formed neatly as he tried catching his breath.

When he was able to stand he was able to see he was no longer covered in dirt and mud, his clothes were no longer torn. "What did you do to me?" Turning away from him to depart from the planet he grabbed your hand "what did you do!?" His voice was raised as people watched from afar "let go of me or so be it I will kill you myself" his hand fell from yours at your words "you are alive because of the misfortune of you being my mate, due to a treaty made by our parents billions of years ago I am required to grant you immortality so you could spend eternity with you. But you have made it clear you wish to stay here so tomorrow I will be back to carry out the end of this world" he watched as you left with your siblings.

His friends stared at him as you left the planet. "Jungkook you have to do something, you could save us" he listened to his friends words "I must figure out what all of this means" he started heading for his home but was blocked by the people of the town they looked angry. He could sense he was in danger as they had witnessed the scene take place "you could save us, and yet your still here! The rest of us are going to die and you won't" they began crowding him anger and fear as they all grabbed him shouting obscenities at him.

You had made it home with your siblings, stepping into your home your parents had noticed you're true form had taken place indicating you had met your mate. After answering their questions they begged you to go back as putting him in danger would put you in danger. You refused as you were not going to let your world suffer any longer even if meant life alone forever. Deciding you've had enough of the long day you had you went to bed to prepare yourself for tomorrow.

As you prepared for your upcoming battle you were unaware of the situation the man was in. Jungkook had been taken by people of his own town. People he thought to be his friends. Through the night he was severely beaten, his body became weak. He his clothes were stained dark red from all the blood he had lost. They wanted him to suffer like they would, unknowingly making their situation much worse.

Before you had arrived they brought Jungkook out and had him kneeled in front of the place you would be. Thinking you would surrender with the thought of him dying. They were sadly mistaken, when you arrived to see him standing there it only proved your point. "What do you think this will solve?" One man spoke up his confidence booming with each word " surrender now or we kill him! We know who he is to you!" Holding a cold blade to Jungkooks neck waiting for your response "do you think killing him will solve anything? If you kill him nothing keeps me from killing all of you. However keeping him alive won't keep me from doing so either so either way nothing changes" his tough demeanor never changes pressing harder against his neck "wait! I agree with him killing me changes nothing as I won't die in the first place, and he has every right to be angry for what our people have done let me reason with him please"

Jungkooks choked voice had let the man release him to you "I understand why your angry, I myself am guilty of taking this for granted but please don't kill all of these people instead I offer another solution." Nodding your head for him to continue "take me with you and I will help you create another planet, one that will have everything you wished for this one. There are people here who cherish the gift you have take them to the new planet. Leave the rest here and destroy your gift and let them fend for themselves or seek forgiveness from you. I will stay by your side forever to save those who deserve it"

Jungkook didn't want to admit that being away from you was hurting him he hated that his heart was hurting without you but he wouldn't allow the love to form unless he could help in some way. He waited as you spoke to your siblings about the offer that was made. "Very well I have decided I will take your offer and those who have not betrayed me and my creations will be allowed to move to the safety of my choosing. However the rest of you will stay here and all things created by me will vanish and you will be on your own. Those of you who harmed him will perish either way" Jungkook was happy he could save the innocent people at the least. It saddened him that some were still going to die, but forsaking a god has consequences. Even with you killing many people he couldn't help but want to be with you, but he will still try to change some of your ways as long as you are together.

"At this time I will depart with those worthy of a second chance, you will be taken to one of my newest creations to have a chance to redeem yours selves the rest of you good luck" Jungkook watched as people disappeared to their new homes, many were left behind. "Jungkook please tell him to spare me!" He turned to see the man he once thought was his friend begging to be spared. He felt no ounce of empathy for him as he had been one of the men to harm through the long hours of the night "spare you? I have been nothing but good to you my whole life and you repay me by harming me? You are no friend of mine and I will not help you" the man cried and begged but Jungkook would not change his mind instead taking your hand and leaving with you as your siblings finished your work for you.

When you had arrived at home he was met with your parents who had welcomed him to their home. When you showed him your room he absolutely loved it, it was filled with beautiful plants and flowers. It was as if you were living on a gorgeous island " I apologize for the events of yesterday I am glad you decided to come with me, I've run you a bath and dinner is being prepared now. I have laid out some fresh clothes for you" for the first time he had seen a smile form on your face as you kissed his hand "please if you need anything else don't hesitate to let me know I will wait for you in here" Jungkook was moved by your kindness, he made his way to the bathroom to clean himself. He was actually happy to be here with you maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all.

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