#don't go anywhere im not done

[verstarppen]

GUYS thank you so much for this incredible birthday gift 🩷 i can't put into words how much this community means to me and how comforting it is to see your comments and reblogs and asks. uni is grilling me like im rotisserie chicken but knowing that im making you laugh has been the one thing keeping me sane. thank you for everything and i hope all of you have a lovely day

#3K BABY #don't go anywhere im not done #verstarppen has spoken

[solomiracle]

i think it'd be interesting if the brothers' comments on solomon acting more like a demon than human actually went somewhere. it's really only used for comedy, but even then, it kinda falls flat since it seems to only stem from him being immortal and shady or whatever. if they focused on it and made it have some weight, i think it could be a really good source of angst and character development for solomon.

solomon prides himself on being humanity's protector, the one who will keep his fellow humans safe from unnecessary otherworldly interference. but if demons started comparing him to themselves, denying him his humanity, his entire motivation for doing what he does, how would that make him feel?

#tho tbh #this whole 'solomon is a shady evil wizard man can you believe he's even human' #is just a case of some early draft ver of him never making it to the final cut #but there's some traces of it in dialogue #even if it doesn't go anywhere #another case of this would be satan's 'he's lying and using you' thing #and aside from how he got into a pact with asmo #(which i don't know all of the details about) #what shady things... has he done exactly??? #this game loves to tell you he's evil #as he's slotted next to the guys that literally started the trojan war #threatened to kill you multiple times #and ACTUALLY killed you #it's just. very hard to take it seriously man #ok im shutting up now #from me #sol #obey me solomon #rambles

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

someone walked into me having what i thought was a private but very loud breakdown at work about the family cruise my parents are requiring me to go on for my dads retirement next may bc i have never ever wanted to go on a cruise in my life and the cheapest solo room for the one they picked is fucking $1600 for a 100sq ft closet and that's not even including airfare to get to miami OR wifi YOU HAVE TO BUY A WIFI PACKAGE to have reliable internet access what if i just fucking kill myself instead <3

#like this is such a fucking stupid problem to have but my mom won't even let me complain about it bc like #my parents have done so much for me for SO much longer than they needed to and they ask very little of me #and i have like 18 months to save the money to do this but like #thinking about what i could be spending that money on instead things i actually WANT to do??? #i have no fucking desire to go ANYWHERE this boat is stopping like at all !!! #thousands of dollars for something i ACTIVELY DONT WANT TO DO #and my mom keeps pestering me to try to find someone to rope into going with me #so i can have a friend bc ill be honest im not super close with my family !! #but i also don't have any friends im close enough with to ask them if they wanna like #spend sooooooo much money to accompany me on a cruise with MY family as essentially an emotional support animal

[n7punk]

a techie i know got me the orient express for christmas and it's so fucking sexy i know 0 things about trains but goddamn do i love them so much it's definitely going up there in top 5

#the lego set. i mean. if you don't have every lego set memorized #i need to ride a fucking train again so i remember even the basics of them i haven't done it since i lived in ny #i wanna go on that trains that spans america so bad but im not near any of its stops #mylife #also when building it a full ass bag just. fell under my bed and i lost it and i was Convinced they forgot to put in half the wheels #for like a full 30 minutes. it was ridiculous. i started cleaning trying to find it. cleaning! #UNRELATED but im mourning the coliseum so bad. i never got the money to buy it and i never really thought i would #but that didn't stop me from wanting it so bad. i love the architecture sets #i didnt have anywhere to put it but that DOESN'T MATTER i cant believe they got rid of it #did i mention train au. i have no plot yet but. trains

[anaalnathrakhs]

i'm going to be honest i have no idea what i'm going to do. i messed up my choices for higher education and now i have barely a couple days to pick between a cursus way too difficult for me, a highly specialized cursus with shit outcomes, and a leap of faith into whatever kind of gap year alternative can get me out of my parents' hair for the time being. note how i have no fucking idea what that alternative could be, or what path i'd like to take ideally. fun.

#yeah yeah i know happens to everyone #anyway im. not happy abt the future outcomes rn #on one hand i know if i never choose the path of challenges i'm never gonna get anywhere #on the other hand my mental health is always a dumpster fire and i'm honestly not sure what's the way to fix it #if i have to waste my parents money being their vaguely adequate enough lapdog six more months i'm going to spontaneously die i think #but education costs money and takes efforts and i dont know what to do #i don't know what's my goal #i don't like anything anymore. i don't have any particular skills. i suck at anything actually useful. #please just assign me anything that needs to be done and pay me a living wage #i just don't want to choose #the only thing i think i'd feel alright doing is healthcare but. yknow. huge phobia of anatomy. not a science type. #and the crippling fear of inadequacy doing anything not the EXACT way it's meant to be done #i couldn't switch mid-year i just couldn't i don't fucking want to live that kind of feeling again #broadcasting my misery #vent

[sodrippy]

i love you waking up at 5am 🌄🌆

#getting into the swing of it when im back off work next week is the most useless thing ive ever done #but yaaaay i got to actually take a walk OUTSIDE bc its not frigid anymore 🥰 #and i cooked and cleaned a real wifeboss morning 😌 #p.s why dont they have early morning boxing classes anywhere don't they respect the office workers of the world :/ #i cant go at 6pm brother i finish work at 6 😭

[weed-cat]

#I'm tired as hell of being sick #the magnitude of the boredom that comes with being sick with a chronic illness is crazy #i have between 0.5-6 hours out of bed per day. usually around 3 or 4. i spend almost that whole time cooking and shopping and cleaning #and taking care of what needs to be done before time is up and i need to lay down again #when I'm in bed i don't have the energy for anything except watching easy to digest shows or youtube videos or scrolling on tumblr #maybe some writing or drawing if the brain fog isn't too bad #my life is just a haze of one million meds and supplements and doctors visit after doctors visit #and smoking weed so I'm not debilitated by nausea 24/7 and sleeping. so much sleeping. I'm so bored. I'm so desperately bored. #i miss having a shitty retail job and going out with my friends after work and going to events #and being able to go anywhere more than 20 minutes from my apartment #:( :( :( #im just so bored and tired on such a deep and painful level and i want to be well enough to feel like a real person again

[robotpussy]

woke up from my sleep angry because I take too long to do anything like I'm so fucking annoyed rn I genuinely cannot comprehend how ppl have full time jobs and go to school and also fully indulge in their hobbies and get them done in timely manners because if I'm doing anything I have to either finish it in a day or it will take a year to complete it

#anyways im not working on that hobie thing anymore its stressing me out that its taking me a month to make a fucking collage 😭😭 #u thought i could have real progress yesterday but after 3 hrs of working on it i got tired and wanted to sleep #*i thought #also the reason why i barely ever make videos im either too tired or it will take me 5 months to edit because #i can't focus on more than 1 thing at a time. if im editing something don't fucking ask me to go anywhere i need yo finish this shit #or it will never be done #been trying to edit my Beyonce and spiderverse vlogs and its just taking too long i just abandoned them #and then like. school. #that fucking university has done nothing but waste my time. wasting my time travelling for 6 hrs so by the time i get home #i cant even do anything but eat and fall asleep because if i stay up to work on what i want to do i will basically get no sleep #cant even indulge in my hobbies without wanting to kill myself because even those stress me out OH MY GOD

[the-cookie-of-doom]

i miss traveling and seeing new places and trying new things and journaling about it

#cookie speaks #i am SAD and filled with WANDERLUST #just one more year #one more year until I can travel again #i can't fkn wait #my travel journal is like plz feed me #I plain to go to thailand next spring #in celebration of finally graduating #since i can't go this year #if I can i want to spend at least a few weeks traveling around there #maybe a month #maybe even make i tup to china like i've always wanted to #i couldn't before bc my ex literally wasn't allowed to enter the country or go anywhere near it #(yay government work >_>) #but now im free to go ;_; #hopefully by then I can find someone to travel with too #i really don't want to go there alone #i mean i will #bc im done waiting for people to come with me when i want to do things #and ive gotten better about talking to strangers when i travel alone #but ahhh the language barrier intimidates me #obvs people manage to backpack all of asia w/o learning the languages all the time #but I Have Anxiety #and there's a non-0 chance I would panic and shut down and never make it out of the airport lol

[k66-official]

Greetings, Pekoponians, and welcome to the official web log of the Keroro Platoon, yessir! I'm the amazing and awesome Sergeant Keroro, and I'm sure I could do a better job introducing myself, but I'm just so, so excited to meet you all that I just couldn't wait to open up shop! As your friendly neighborhood alien invaders, we've opened up our "ask box" so you can communicate with your future overlords, yessir! So, please, drop by and say hello, yes, yes!

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #keropost #kerrooo i'm so excited!!! #we'll try to post pictures if we can! don't you want to see our fearsome yet adorable faces? #don't lie i know you do kero :) #me and tamama are excited anyway #i haven't told the others yet but i'm sure they'll have fun too yessir! #thank you tamama for helping me with this social media stuff btw #couldn't have done it without you private <3 #-k66 #and now a word from our host: #hi guess who it is :) #thats right its gem! from neardaily frogposting! yippee! #ive never run an askblog before so im jus. im doing my best here #i tried to run one once before for my fantroll it never went anywhere #but keroro is an existing character and literally me so i should get at least a little more out of this yippee #im too adhd to organize this properly from the start which is why keroro is the perfect host heehee #anyway im going to bed goodnight. keroro hopes he will have fun asks to answer in the morning :) #sorry i didnt really give you much to work with. just go nuts in the askbox doesnt matter if its silly or simple #uhh okay signing off

[queer-crusader]

Funny. Work hasn't been like. BAD per se. I've really been coming into my own esp now that I'm a coach, so I was like you know what? Work's alright. I'm doing alright. Life is pretty decent.

And now I have two and a half weeks off and I've been writing more than I have in like a year, I've picked up my paints again, I've gotten bored of gaming, gotten back into yoga (oh how I've missed thee without realising)... Hmm. Funny that

#i feel more creative #and like. im not dreading going back to work or anything. like i said i don't mind it #but also i fear i will lose all this progress #im gonna try and cling to it as long as i can #also i made a planning on getting properly into writing my book again so!! here's to me trying to stick to that planning!! fingers crossed! #anne speaks #also like. yes ive had breaks before! of this length-ish! #but you know the difference? those breaks i used to visit friends abroad #and yes i ADORE my friends and will use several more breaks this year to do that again. those are good holidays dw #but this break period im not doing anything. im not going anywhere. ive had three days of going out on wee trips and thats IT #ive done fuck all and i feel like ive blossomed to life again it's so fucking wonderful

[reserwrekt]

But what if I've felt like I'm too traumatized to have friends, practically since I was born?

#ptsd #cptsd #being afab and constsntly yelled at for everything especially my autistic traits #being given away and given up on like a puppy that ppl view as an object #never living anywhere longer than a year a constant chsnging school environment #never knowing where i was going to be next year or what foster family I'll get this time #foster parents were shitty towards me #ive been kicked while i was already down so many times. every big life trauma from kidnapping to csa to best friend passing away #people used my brother passing away as a reason to leave me? because they did fucking nothing and although i never pointed it out #they knew it. they abandoned both of us and saw one die and then abandoned me too #ive literally never done anything but stand up for them and k myself for them and im tired of finding people #who say they can love me and they treat me like i don't exist. oh im not your vacation friend. or your craft friend.. or holiday friend.. #i just feel like this is the rest of my life #and i feel truly alone and i haven't known how to cope. i don't know anyone else who spent their entire childhood in foster care and hospita #and the people i did know are in a different place than me as in violent and acting out and refuse to process things #last time i felt like this i started acting in a way i didn't like- not violent but just in a way i didn't like. #i feel like the only way to avoid reverting back is to isolate #personal #vent

[lightnersdream]

#WHY DOES IT ALL HAVE TO BE SO MUCH #i don't usually get like this. im usually a kind of person that just lets stuff happen around me and not care a lot in terms of like social #behavior and relationships #you meet people. sometimes they go #that's how it is #there's people that we just drifted away or they vanished and it wasn't hard feelings #and normally i get over it. i miss them alot but it doesnt hit me this hard #and the thing is i haven't even lost anyone #it's just ive been so angry and low energy and pissed off by everything all the time that ive been distancing myself #and even when im not like that.. im just tired. my brain is clouded i just don't have anything to say #i want to say something but there isnt anything #so i havent been talking to a lot of people #and im like really afraid by the time im done working over whatever this is. that people will have found more other people they #prefer to talk to more or are closer with or we just find out its been too long and we dont have anything in common anymore #because i know ive been away from my friends more and more of late of late ive barely talked to anyone at all beyond 1-2 message exchanges #sometimes not at all .this isn't abnormal #but i happen to the kind of person who crumples if i don't get some kind of interaction daily #so as much as im empty-headed and angry and bad at conversation i need to be around people constantly #at the end of the day i don't have anything going on outside of drawing and talking to friends. i have nowhere to be in real life #i cant go anywhere. i don't know anyone and i hate my family #i don't know. im scared and lonely and it feels like i can be kind of a nothing person to talk to #dib noise #some of this is problems with myself which i do work on and i work on them hard. i don't want to be like that #i'm bad at meeting people too. i don't like taking risks or new things its all so much #I SHOULD CLARIFY. i am happy for poeple i am close to when they meet new people. i love hearing about them #and meeting them. i just have a horrible fear of being replaced or forgotten

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#srry to be all vent posts and no art but the stress is high rn #i feel a little better now. i forgot how much i love working with the culture collection #i go in when theres no one there and i just spend a few hours listening to podcasts as i move slime from tube to tube #it forces me to do one thing bc once i start i cant stop. i just like it a lot. i havent done for like the last 2 semesters bc we had the #money to pay a student to do it. and at the time i was in the thick of taking photosynthesis measures and it was causing me a lot of pain #and transfering was like the one lab task i liked to do so it felt like i was being punished. i could no longer do the thing most aligned #with my interests. and i just let it go bc in my brain im not allowed to do things that i enjoy. if i enjoy it its not hard enough. #so i just let it go. and let myself be crushed under the weight of things i don't enjoy and now here we r #a little light has returned to me #and its not all bad. i am looking forward to giving a lecture next week. i like communicating info to others and deciding what to talk abt #ill try to make it fun. if i have the time. and im looking forward to my meeting tomorrow morning. everyone ive met with so far does really #cool research. id be happy to wind up anywhere. but if i get into the big scary uk uni then i have to go there bc the project is so perfect #i dont dare get my hopes up. and tho my interview today wasnt the best i learned some really cool things by talking to the guy and im more #prepared moving forward. #however i did agree to make both my sisters sticker sheets for xmas and that is gonna take so much time i might die. so ya kno rip #but like i said. not all bad. #unrelated

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

who did you blocked if you don't mind me asking

man i don't remember. i block someone and they are immediately deleted from my brain. im not even sure what the context was i just remember someone sent me an ask like a year ago and i was like "that's fucking stupid" and blocked them and then the ask became invisible

i'm going to take a wild guess that it was someone salty about one of my ace positive posts though, i think that's what 99% of my askbox police have been whining about

#the nemesis answers #the nemesis speaks #anonymous #will never not be funny to me how absolutely devestatingly effective my spam ask response was #like it doesnt have anywhere near the notes of Let Us Make Jokes but oh my god it got so many people upset #boo hoo what you'll suicide bait ace people for existing but you can't take a little gentle ribbing?? cry me a FUCKING river #no really please do. my glass is running low and i don't feel like getting off my throne #ok im done answering asks for a bit gonna go play some dh

[calpicowater]

Week 48/52: November 28th - December 4th 2022 | Back in Vancouver... 🍗

Day two of road trip went well too. A long day in the end because of unloading and shit afterwards. My first time back in main studio in like 2 months lmao. Had performance review meetings the day after and then the bullshit started.......... At least I got to eat Nene Chicken with bf. Hot spicy chicken is sooooo good. I love them. 

#365 #52 #sun emoji #chicken nugget #this was a very bullshit week lol #one of the toughest weeks in a LONG time #i just want to say........ being a lying psychopath won't get u anywhere....... no one will love you in this life EVER #u live and u will continue to live a very sad life because u r a selfish bitch with anger issues #framing me for mistreating/being unfriendly/bullying when YOU are the one doing those things??? lol........ #don't fuck with me what the hell i will defeat all evil #i have done it before i'll do it again #was gonna go into details abt this on here but it's rly not worth it #im over it! #bye!