i miss the pre-bl3 days when most of the fandom on tumblr was on the same page about they/them Zer0 and most of the people who insisted otherwise just were always actively transphobic shitheads I could block.
Like nowadays people using he/him are reasonably just going with what the game says, completely unaware that Anthony Burch ever suggested he was going to do otherwise
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i have to go off of hrt for the first time in three years because i ran out of syringes and i dont have insurance anymore so im going to have to order bulk online but its going to cost $100+ for everything i need. which i dont have because i live paycheck to paycheck. i literally got paid TODAY and it was one of the biggest paychecks ive seen since ive started this job and it immediately had to go to bills.
i cant switch jobs either because i dont have transportation and it's my best option for keeping myself afloat. i cant ask for a raise because it's a retail big box store. like they might give me 10 extra cents to pity me if i don't start a fight about it but it'll never get better than that. every time i look on indeed or whatever it's all stuff thats a 20+ minute drive completely off the bus route like ????
im extremely unmedicated too (not including the hrt lol) so that just makes everything harder to the extreme. im ready to give up. like what else is there for me. there's nothing left. im at the point where i keep thinking i mind as well just move back in with my dad and rot in my old bedroom because im losing faith in myself that i'll be able to get out of this hole. the absolute last thing i ever want to do btw. but if things keep getting worse i dont know if i'll have a choice. and im really really really dreading that outcome. i need to fix my life asap but the system is making it INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT to even plan it out.
if anyone knows how to build a budget id really appreciate some help because i have dyscalculia and it sucks to be talked down to about my inability to comprehend numbers, but im really not THAT bad with my finances its just that i made some bad decisions when i had a higher paying job and i'm having trouble pulling myself out of the hole. i can follow a budget if i have one set but i've been really struggling with making it myself. idk. im mad at myself okay im just really upset and i want to fix my life.
this turned into a rambling rant but im in a really bad mood rn and i needed to just. unload. its either this or ugly cry for an hour
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had a dream last night about AMC’s The Terror where it was mostly the same except it was a smaller crew and it kept swerving between somber horror and deep emotion to a Big Brother style reality show where the different crew members would have to win challenges. idk to what end bc Tuunbaq was p much doing just like in the show and occasionally showing up to do some murder.
there was something about how they didn’t see some guy called Hodgeson or Jopson and then Crozier was creeping around this real dark part of the ship with broken glass and stuff on the floor and inspecting a little pair of glasses. He was grumbling that it better not be Jopson and then it cut to various crew members having to put in votes between Hodgeson and Jopson but idk what for specifically
I woke up around the time a guy who was apparently Jopson showed up looking kind of ruffled and Done With Everything. Dude was walking into the ship and with no eye contact or change of expression high fived first Crozier and then Goodsir
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look listen OK hey listen to me, look at these words. I've never seen anyone down bad for Shimano but now that I have I gotta say I respect your hustle. respect your energy. your VIBES, even
I NEVER SAID I WAS DOWN BAD FOR SHIMANO HEEELP i looked at him OBEJECTIVELY with my TWO SCIENTIFIC AND ANALYTICAL EYEBALLS an said' yo know what ??? all things considered ??? KINDA bad.'
BUT thank you for respecting me ..... BIG LOVE bro. im honored even if i think its not apppropiate.
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