#dwelling on it was not that purpose!

[bandtrees]

ONE: ok guys here’s an arc about mob, in his growth as a person, being confronted with an ideology he’s unfamiliar with, and he has to learn from it but also understand why it’s unhealthy and bad to properly grow from it and choose kindness in the end, albeit in a more nuanced way than before, and this will make mob more able to confront later problems in the season that can’t be solved with mere kindness and require a deep understanding of loneliness and solitude, something he hasn’t had much room to speak on until now. To express mob being shown this villain’s ideology we have a sequence where we see how mogami views the world and by extension how he sees mob, by putting mob in the kind of sad fucked up world he thinks exists, but mob will overcome it with the knowledge that in the real world he has people he cares about and that even the people who make the world bad sometimes can change and nobody is a static evil and kindness and courage when you’re going through hardship goes a long way. despite the darkness this is ultimately a very uplifting experience for him and a show that life is always more than its darkest moments, and also how picking yourself up instead of wallowing in your own suffering and trauma is hard but a very courageous act and what makes mob stronger than mogami

mp100 fans with tunnel vision: Oh so mob was tortured for six months and is sad? He’s literally so sad and traumatized and nobody is talking about this?

#babbles #mp100 #decided to nab an old discord message for Post Purposes #BC i love mogami arc but god the Fandom Mogami Arc™️ where it’s all just #Evil Mogami Sad Mob Whump Look How Sad Why Aren’t We Talking About This!!! #makes me SEE RED. MY GOD #fandoms when characters experience trauma and get takeaways from it that aren’t looking into the camera to go #Wow That Was So Sad I Am Traumatized And Sad Now #I Am So Sad And Must Acknowledge My Trauma By Suffering And Never Growing #and of course coming back to one of my biggest fandom pet peeves which is viewing characters exclusively as People #like mob is so so so dear to me he’s one of my top ccs i care about him so so much #but he’s not a real child being bullied who needs like. counseling. his trauma served a purpose in the story and #dwelling on it was not that purpose!

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

[brokenmachinemusings]

sorry for the changing artstyle idk either

#pokemon #pokemon bw #pokemon black and white #ill redraw this to better quality someday #my art #text #<- for tagging purposes #this is probably the only artwork im actually posting on tumblr dot com #i like to think n thinks about numbers (in this instance pi) parallel to thinking about how to solve a problem #(or just. physics equations) #also tjis isnt accurate to his actyal thought process but i dont feel like dwelling on it for an hour

[clits-and-clips]

Since writing the affirmations and starting manifestation again, I've actually been in a much better headspace. It's crazy how things align, and you end up where you need to be, especially through pain

#txt #have been reading the affirmations every day twice a day sometimes #doing my intentions and manifesting what i wsnt #which is mainly independence #also a good relationship with my ex from here #mainly stuff for me tho #and the full moon on Wednesday which is in scorpio which is his sun sign #will be a big release and maybe i can let go a bit or a lot lol #i need to move on and focus on myself and what i want in life and doing it all on my own #with support obviously but ive never been fully independent and im so ready for the blessings and the open doors #i dont know if ill truly ever be over him but i have to try for my own sanity at this point #i dont want to manifest anything selfish like him coming back to me because it probably wont happen anyway lmao #i hope i dont sound crazy lmao but coming back into my spiritual journey is definitely what i need #connecting with myself and my purpose feels like the only thing i can do rn #have a driving lesson tomorrow but in all honesty i could just go do the test and pass cause ive been driving forever and im good at it #just need to practice certain things but im nearly there! so close i can feel it and see it #anyway i hope i can keep this energy up and continue to head in a positive direction because it feels really good #if i need to cry about him and the loss then i will but im not going to dwell on it too much #i just need to take it as a lesson and let it go :) #cause at the end of the day i really did lead myself here whether it was his choice to end it or not #blah

[eddis-not-eeddis]

Dealing with newcomer's embarrassment gets easier if you are surrounded by people you have no respect for.

#oh this other professional saw me do something stupid that messed up my paperwork? #but she does shady things worse than the mistake i just made on purpose to make a buck #oh i just said something dumb to my boss #give him a few hours and he'll say something even dumber to me #oh no the guy who has been working at this job for twenty years just saw me make a rookie mistake #agony abounds but he just did six other things a lot worse than I did all in one day so i'll live with it #oh no the manager is a little disappointed with my performance? #so what he's a pushover and he won't say or do anything about it anyway i'll do better next time #oh no my one coworker hates my guts #she hate's everyone else's guts too and literally never shuts up about it #i'm not special #it sounds kind of depressing--and it can be #but i have a lot of affection for these people regardless of their issues #i just don't really let my failures around them bother me too much anymore because i honestly don't care what these people think of me #i'm not going to make the same mistakes ever again #but i don't have to let this stuff keep me up at night because i did something wrong #if i'm not going to go to them for advice why do i care what they think about me? #it was something that i realized a few months ago and ever since it's made things a LOT easier to deal with #plus #these people aren't dwelling on my failures either #they all have their own stuff going on #yeah they might harp on it for a while bit new things will come up and eventually they forget #they aren't thinking about me that much anyway #XD

[unloneliest]

okay also fuck ex friend for REAL for real for misgendering me on purpose in the twitter rants about how much i suck. even though he's also not cis

#i don't dwell on this often but i looked back at my screenshots at the start of this month to remind myself i'm not imagining how bad it was #and realized it was actually worse than i remembered it. the level of treatment i experienced was worse than i remembered and i'm not #exaggerating and it makes sense that i'm still processing. start of the month was 3 yr anniversary of knowing how bad it was. ANYWAYS #jam posts #vampire pit #the only other option besides 'got misgendered on purpose' is. that he was over a year behind on what pronouns i used #and he may honestly have been self absorbed enough for that to be what happened. which also fucking SUCKS considering how much i poured int #that relationship 💀 #was one of my friendships i treated like a partnership without having the internal framework or label to apply to it that it was that. but.

[alltimefail-sims]

I haven't opened my game in a few days but I watched the new trailer and I can't stop laughing at how hard they're pushing being a landlord as the main feature and only highlighting property owning in the trailers when I have yet to see a single person actually excited about that part of the pack. Lmfao

#What do the damn radiators and water heaters do? Are they cross compatible with Seasons or Eco Lifestyle? #Are they just decor that breaks from time to time? What is their purpose? #What does the damn world look like? What about the festivals? #The repo-ing tenant's stuff and evicting them has caused many a Simstuber to cringe (as they should) and it's hilarious to me #Like they really just do not know their audience and it's so funny. Poetic almost #You know it's bad when the simstubers are like 'yeahhhhh maybe that's not it' lmao #But the build features look great. Excited for new gameplay items and making multi-family dwellings #Currently I'm in full lazy holly jolly online shopping mania though. Very little motivation to do anything else #Might put out a winter/holiday lookbook though just for funsies #This was just an excuse to ramble to you all and to say... I'm alive. Just tired #okay that's all! #personal #just shitposting

[digitalbeachrave]

it’s not something that bothers me anymore but it is a specific and deeply isolating feeling, when you’re someone who already feels alienated from the general culture, to feel that same way in places where you should fit in

#I’m not just talking about gay bars but also subcultures or hobby/interest groups #and it’s often not anything purposeful or anyones fault #working on an art piece about feeling like a ghost in gay bars #but also I don’t wanna devote too much time to dwelling in and overanalysing negative/depressing shit lately #all my art ideas are backlogged so there’s stuff that I’m unsure whether to actually make/continue #coz I’m in a different (and healthier) mindset now than I was when I came up with the idea #blogshit

[radioves]

there needs to be a way to refer to someone without using pronouns but without using their name either [because neither of them have one] but without constantly using descriptors but witho

#help me #GSHFNFFK #okay well im fine with using it/its for one of them because its deliberately dehumanizing #i mean. its not human but You Get The Point #the other one though. hoo boy the other one #neos wouldnt work because that implies putting effort into choosing sets that would fit #they just kind of … exist. yknow. they have one purpose in life and they dont need to dwell on identity #especially when theyre actively trying to avoid being around others so whats the point of having labels if no ones gonna use them #no im not using my ocs as fodder so you wont acknowledge that this post is about me and my relationship with being percieved as a concept #haha woaahh who said that #[.txt]

[eithernich]

#i hate adhd man i set out my stuff to do my tshot like 12 hours ago and i still haven't even drawn it up #i have however done 2 loads of laundry listened to 3 brian eno albums and watched secretary #and probably spent a good half hour staring at the wall dwelling on e edward grey and our unfortunate many similarities #. emotionally speaking . at least. for i am not a lawyer #i should hire a secretary for the sole purpose of doing my shot actually #or i should get an adderall prescription #Spotify

[murdermeadow]

figuring out a way to bring Malos back is so great until you realize that now he has to live on without Jin (now I am sad)

#leechies rambles #him dying was almost a mercy like holy shit #he has so many guilts to deal with now 😭😭😭😭 #but tbh..... he's a very straightforward man so i don't think he'd dwell on it for too long #despite how angsty and terrible it feels for me #once you give him a purpose he's basically good to go #(which is why ive been thinking of having him help out with Origin on the Alrest side of things) #(that's also how he finds out about Ontos!) #(still need to figure out how the trinity processor siblings actually meet though.... hrmhrm)

[unofficialadamtaurus]

I’m sorry to bother you, but I read “Broken Young Thing” and it’s a masterpiece. Between that and your “Wilt and Scatter” fic, you really know how to make a loser Ruby fan like myself into an Adam fan too lmao.

In my review, I said I never thought of Adam as a prodigy, but after scrolling through your blog for a while, I absolutely see it now. It honest-to-god fits him imo, and really adds onto the tragedy that his life. For example, I saw a really great post of yours that went into an idea of Sienna birthing both Adam and Blake’s faults as they grew up (I’m on anon so can’t link it, unfortunately ;-;), and you explained how Adam thought he was “uniquely correct” due to his past. I had to pause for a bit and dwell on that. It makes his downfall all the more gripping, honestly, even if it isn’t actually canon.

Basically, I came over here just to praise you more lol. I don’t follow your blog too closely (unlike your Ao3 account lmao), but I definitely will now.

Oh and sorry for the silly name on my review on Ao3. I didn’t feel like logging in at the time.

Silly reviewer names are a highlight for me lol. I’m glad you liked both fics! Writing Ruby is fun for me since she’s so different than Adam in how she sees the world and reacts to it.

If you want more Adam and Ruby, the only option left of my fics is I think Hollow People, and that’s…a commitment lol. Do check out the rosy friends au tag in the tags masterpost linked in my pinned post, though!

#anon #unofficial adam answers #happy tag #making people pause and dwell on Adam is the true purpose of this blog /j #one of us one of us one of

[afieldinengland]

looking back on what i posted last winter

#you can’t understand. i can’t explain it to you. #but to have been so full of it at such a significant point. well #the stone floors i crossed and the stomach i sanctified all for impassive and hunger-horned Him #staircase-hungered one. i don’t think we’ll ever forget one another #crushing taskmaster frightful lover dreadful starver now a chastised hound at my ankles. Dear sweet winter god don’t you know you and i are #sworn brothers? i saw you at the stones and you were briar-crowned and laughing— long before your true reign ended #fierce one to dance (un)knowing your own purpose. i could have a beast to my bed tonight harsh one it’s cold and my radiator won’t work #feel my ribs furred one and dwell. we saw that flayed man on the cross together that day and neither of us winced. ‘to burn and not to die’

[heyitslapis]

#sometimes my mind wanders & i find myself indulging in the thought of us reconnecting someday #im never doing it on purpose. its like i walk in on myself wondering like that & it startles me every time. maybe its just me. #maybe you never have that thought. maybe its just me who after everything is still struggling to move on. maybe im just silly for thinking #i find myself sometimes hoping that you think the same from time-to-time #i guess its a comfort in a way. to sit around & fantasize that people that once had such strong grips on you often truly miss you #comfort. indulgence. escape. either way what hell & what bliss #i just...... really cant get you out of my head lately. even as i spend time on others. you are still somehow in most of my daily thoughts #at times i'd swear i'd been cursed to think of you always & forever.....other times i almost forget about you completely #but alas you always come back #idk. im done rambling. no use dwelling on the past #right...old friend #sad boi hours #emma vents #emma rambles #music tag #personal tag #journal entry #personal journal #Spotify

[evermorecountsastherapy]

a few months back, I decided to paint my nails a deep red and went to work with them like normal and my (now ex) manager was like "those are a lot better than the black" out of nowhere while I was typing away at one of the computers and I am... still thinking about it. for some reason 🧍‍♀️

#i knew he meant it as an insult #and honestly that was one of the milder backhanded comments he used to give me #like bro #im not painting them for your pleasure #ive been thinking a lot about times like this where he'd purposely try to make me feel bad about myself #or second guess myself #or make me feel small and insignificant #and looking back i get so angry with myself for letting that go on for as long as it did #honestly thought it would be so hard after I'd left but #i just feel relieved that i ended things the way i did #and the funny thing is: #he knows how much of a dick he was to me! #bro actually went out and bought me a whole ass kindle because of it 💀 #i might just be dwelling on it #but i needed to get it out nonetheless

[that-neurodivergent-gay]

(not so) friendly reminder that a non-exaustive list of war crimes that isreal has committed is:

Wilful killing

Torture or inhumane treatment, including biological experiments

Wilfully causing great suffering, or serious injury to body or health

Extensive destruction and appropriation of property, not justified by military necessity and carried out unlawfully and wantonly

Intentionally directing attacks against the civilian population as such or against individual civilians not taking part in direct hostilities

Intentionally directing attacks against civilian objects which are non-military

Intentionally directing attacks against humanitarian assistance

Intentionally launching an attack knowing that it will cause loss of life, injury or harm to civilians or civil properties

Intentionally launching an attack knowing it will cause significant damage to the natural environment without necessity

Attacking or bombarding, by whatever means, towns, villages, dwellings or buildings which are undefended and which are not military objectives

Intentionally directing attacks against buildings dedicated to religion, education, art, science, charitable purposes, historic monuments, hospitals, and places where the wounded are collected, assuming they are not military objectives

Employing asphyxiating, poisonous, or other gasses, and all analogous liquids, materials or devices

Employing weapons, projectiles, and material and methods or warfare which are of a nature to cause superfluous injury or unnecessary suffering

Intentionally directing attacks against buildings, material, medical units and transport and personnel

Intentionally using starvation of civilians as a method of warfare by depriving them of objects indispensable to their survival

If you still think this is isreal defending itself, you're ignoring the signs. This is a genocide. These are war crimes. More than 25,000 civilians have been murdered. This is not okay.

Edit:

For all the people asking me for a source, here is a list:

https://www.hrw.org/news/2023/12/18/israel-starvation-used-weapon-war-gaza

Any of Bisan's videos/writings. There are so many people on the ground in Gaza who are documenting this. Stay safe and stay educated

#from the river to the sea palestine will be free #free palestine 🇵🇸 #this is a genocide #isreal is a terrorist state #immediate ceasefire #these are war crimes #ceasefire #ceasfire now