#each and every one of them has moments

[turtleblogatlast]

Every day I’m haunted by the fact the boys happily swim in sewer water

Even if it’s filtered somehow there’s no way it’s not still nasty 😭 Bet they can defeat any of their villains just by accidentally giving them diseases I swear

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #bless their hearts but they’re nasty #it’s funny because like #each and every one of them has moments #where they’re a typical disgusting teenage boy #and then the next they have STANDARDS #can’t blame Leo for being so determined to go to a spa #even if he nearly licked his own foot that’s prob cleaner than anything else the boys have been up to in years 💀 #thank you shelldon for all your hard work cleaning after then 🙏 #they’re all gross teenage boys!!! #even Donnie he is NO exception here #bro was DRINKING A BEVERAGE while wading through sewer water he is just as gross as his bros #bro also talks with his mouth full he is no more refined than his equally gross bros fr and I love it #but yeah no way that water isn’t disgusting even filtering it would still leave grime on the walls of the sewer for yearsss #pros of them moving into an abandoned subway system is fixing their sense of smell enough to not be as gross #100% that’s part of why they didn’t mind being so filthy pre shelldon #because I mean they were literally raised in the sewers and they’re teenage boys like that’s a double whammy #THEY ALSO DONT WEAR SHOES #the few times any of them do the shoes are discarded before heading home 💀 #I love them tho they are endearing anyhow #April’s immune system must be godlike just being around them fr #honestly no joke Mikey’s probably the cleanest of them all #just by virtue of being a chef #Leo I see as a mixture since he no doubt loves to pamper himself so he’s clean like #a percentage of time before he goes out and ruins his own hard work #Donnie is similar in that he’s just VERY SELECTIVE about what he thinks is too gross #Raph may be more on the stinky end but it’s not his fault he has his stinks and eats things of dubious origin(esp since his bros ate poison) #Donnie and Leo really have the gall to be sick about Raph eating the origami salami but they have no room to talk #all their villains are prob like please stay away from us we have salmonella now

[introspectivememories]

too many of you guys think nico is the loser and not lewis for letting the divorce go on for so long. like they're both losers about each other. emotionally constipated idiots who can't talk about their toxic homoerotic friendship that imploded on itself like 8 years ago and are now making it everyone else's problem. yeah nico's on television or in beer gardens talking about lewis all the time but like every other month some reporter is like "lewis, what's your favorite moment in your career?" and lewis no hesitation is like "oh man, karting, y'know? everything was simpler then" and then spends another six months skirting around nico's name. like this whole thing they're doing in the media isn't some kinda extended foreplay for them. they're both still pressing on the bruise to make sure it's still there!!! every few months, they're literally just asking on public television, does it still hurt for you like it does for me? and like clockwork, someone will release new information about them or one of them will say something about each other (in my heart, he's still my best friend/yes... and teammate) and the answer will remain the same, yes, of course, always.

#lewis is unarguably more famous than nico. like i feel like this a fact. and yet every other day nico is in the press saying some crazy shit #about lewis. if i was famous i woulda shut that shit down soo long ago. my ex-bf is in the press talkin bout me constantly??? that feels #like such bad pr and yet!!! lewis has not done anything. why? cause he likes it!!! cause they've never moved on from the 1st moment they #broke each other's hearts. like this is genuinely insane. #im always so nervous to post my thoughts on brocedes cause so many of you were here b4 me and have a better understanding on them #and like being a wrong is like a death sentence to me but still please tell me if i got them completely wrong #i have a lot of thoughts on lewis and his reluctance to talk about nico... most of them being that one quote from emma #if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more #ok obligatory disclaimer: a lot of this is hyperbole. i don't think that they're asking lewis that ? every other month #but there are like at least 5 interviews where he talks about karting like they're his most precious memories #so make of that what you will #and obv i don't know these people but as someone who's brain chemistry has been permanently changed by them #i think i'm allowed to not only project onto them but also make stupid little posts analyzing them #anyway yeah #f1 #lewis hamilton #nico rosberg #brocedes

[zabiume]

I get sad thinking about how during ichigo and grimmjows fight in hm. Particularly the moment when he see sees orihime's terrified reaction to his mask. I think he considered her previous trauma with acid wire ofc, but how must he have felt when orihime looked at him like that? She was the girl who managed to make friends with everyone and empathized so deeply with even her enemies, let alone her closer friends. And she was looking at him, completely frozen with fear, and he hated being the source of it. It just makes my feelers hurt so bad for some reason :(

i think the great thing about this fight is that it lets you empathize with both ichigo and orihime without diminishing either of their feelings, which is just. good writing. i'd go so far as to say this fight is also superb because of how it manages to address many overarching themes at once: a) ichigo's human-hollow struggle that keeps rearing its head every now and then b) orihime's complicated relationship with violence c) grimmjow's twisted desire to feel validated by ichigo, who he sees as his own mirror d) ichigo & orihime's long-term struggle to cross the chasm that separates them and meet in the middle.

a lot of people focus on orihime's fear here, but the truth is, ichigo himself was afraid of his hollow and was NOT confident about his ability to control it. when he tells orihime not to be afraid without his mask on, he looks at her and smiles. with the mask, he doesn't even make eye contact. when he accidentally does make eye contact later on in the fight, it crushes him, and the beauty of this fight is that it's all carried out through body language. his heart sinks, and so does yours, if you're invested in the fight. ichigo's entire arc so far has been about mastering this side of himself that he's desperately afraid of losing to, and now the person he's protecting is afraid of him, too. he begins doubting himself: what if grimmjow is right? what if he really did just come here to fight?

if you look at orihime's side of things, she's not wrong either. orihime's entire arc was about self-doubt at this time. she was never really sure of her worth to others, so how could she be sure that ichigo, who's reiatsu is rougher and darker than usual (just like her dead brother) was fighting for her? she does eventually realize her effect on him with a little help from nel. but in the end, nel's testimony doesn't matter much either because orihime realizes she would love ichigo even if he wasn't fighting for her. she just doesn't want him to get hurt.

lucky for us, grimmjow isn't right and it's obvious that ichigo did indeed come to fight him—if only to protect everyone and take orihime back home. fighting is ichigo's means to an end. his reaction to orihime is our indicator of that. the great thing about this fight is what it tells us—that if ichigo was this affected by orihime's face, then it means he truly didn't come here just to fight. that nel's cheers did nothing to grab ichigo's attention, but orihime's first broken whisper did. that having orihime nearby reminds him of what he's fighting for, which is something that literally saves his human life when he's in vasto lorde form. he left his heart with her, just as she did with him before she left. if we began this journey with rangiku saying ichigo needs orihime, this arc shows us how. this fight shows us how. yes, orihime's fear caused him some pain, but none of us can deny how cocky he got when she cheered for him, either, so it goes both ways :D

#i loved this volume very much & now that we have lust & horn of salvation their arc is complete :)))) #each ichihime moment has got to be seen as a conversation with other ichihime moments #and that's when you realize how nicely their romantic subplot has been fleshed out over arcs #personal biases aside i dont really understand calling IH rushed when they're the one part of the story that WASN'T rushed #every arc gave them a new status quo to navigate and among all the canon married couples #they're the one we spent the longest time with - even compared to ren&rukia #like sorry for waxing poetic about it i'm sure everyone feels this way about their favorite ships but i loooove IH <3 they're so good #asks #ichihime

[pepperpixel]

Playing more rune factory 5,, and,, all of the events that r focused on Lucy and Priscilla just make me want them to get married… like how is this a romance event for me??? Clearly these two are in fucking love… destined to be together… how could I possibly fucking intrude???? On these twos beautiful thing they got goin on??

#rune factory #rune factory 5 #rf5 #pepper words #also it’s… very interesting to me that events are visible on the map now… #like on one hand it DOES make it easier to find them and kno where ur supposed to go.. #but on the other hand it makes the map like a fucking minefield lmao #like there’s been several moments where I get into an event and don’t progress it just so I don’t have to worry about #running into a cutscene every 5 minutes #like I like the events!!! I like getting to talk and do fun stuff w the characters but… like #sometimes u just wanna do video game shit lol #it’s just funny #but anyway yeah!!! Priscilla and Lucy are in love I’ve decided lol #more like the game has decided honestly tho like. this doesn’t feel like I’m reading too much into it these two like???! #they love each other dude! they do….

[sainz]

a closeted 20 year old that comes from a conservative rural family falling in love with a openly gay 18 year old on spanish prime tv

#a bit of background: #this is operacion triunfo a spanish tv show about sing! there are 16 contestants and they have to sing every monday a song #so they live in like a school academy where they have each day classes related to music (and they also rehearsal the song the have to #perform the mondays) #okay and like they have 0 connection with the rest of the world (they have phones but with no internet) so they know nothing about #what’s happening outside #SO there’s a youtube channel where they show each day what these contestants are doing (like big brother but related to music) #so um u get really attached to them cause u see them 24h!!! #so one of this contestants is juanjo (the one with the 🧢) and comes from a rural village and his fam is a bit conservative so he never #speaks about his sexuality - all the opposite he’s a bit ashamed of what he is bc he’s now used to act like himself #and then there is martin who is 18 and openly gay and like super open about all this topic super comfortable with himself etc #so this show has been going on for 3 weeks now okay? and in the first week u could see something was going on between these two #but since juanjo is so ashamed of this he rejected every type of touch that came for martin #martin got all ☹️ and he kinda told his friends there that he was having something with juanjo and he wasn’t receptive #(WE WERE SCREAMING IN TWITTER) #well since that moment it has been a fucking rollercoaster but juanjo is now a chiller and they cuddle and flirt in from of everyone #(they even have showers together cause rip they have 0 intimacy) #okay but today has been!!!! PUNTO DE INFLEXIÓN #juanjo has fallen in love so deeply with martin that oh god he needs to be by his side all the time omgomg #and yeah this vid happened tonight while their friends were singing and all twitter cried

[simplydnp]

very excited to see fellow Dan and Phil fan in stem

i know that i have a degree in dan and phil studies but genuinely my true passion is actually mathematics and i am So sorry

#like. i must be so clear: i am a Nerd. with pride #like. ya girl has never cut any class ever in her life. and i watch math videos for FUN #i am helping my sister with a university math class that i never took. on a subject i intentionally avoided (geometry my beloathed) #and i am doing her homework with her without reading the textbook. for FUN. and i get them right. #i am Built for mathematics okay i love her dearly #you teach me a math concept once. show me it *one* time. and i understand it. #i will Ride for my girl math okay. she's awesome. and cool. and useful. #but i do totally understand if she scares you. but i promise she's actually really nice. so dont be mean to her #my last ever math course. was an advanced proofs class. that has a rep of being difficult. it had 2 midterms. a long final. not openbook. #i finished the course with over a hundred percent. 108 and 110 on each midterm. 100 on the final. 110 on assignments. #and i fucking adored every moment in class. and the homework. and studying. such a cool goddamn course. #i just. really like math okay. #dnp #c.text

[itspileofgoodthings]

me to Nina yesterday: explaining how due to a headache and exhaustion I wasted away the end of my afternoon just watching Ryan Gosling interviews

Nina, instantly sympathetic: and I completely understand that, a valid thing to do

#the thing about Nina is that most of the time she not only hates my coping mechanisms she also plain doesn’t understand them #one of the many tensions of our relationship #but she was just 100% like yeah. I fully get it #and it made me feel so much better #my relationship with Nina the work of a lifetime because the moments of mutual understanding are so rare #but so powerful when they happen. and it takes years to discover that sudden gold #(my mom is often so troubled by our relationship. she’s just like (whisper voice): do you guys even like each other) #because we’re just SO sparks fly (antagonistic version) in many of our interactions #and it’s just like. YEAH. We’re just going to have an intense altercation and clashing of opinions viewpoints values and perspectives #at least every other day. LOL #but we will navigate it! #no one on the planet I smooth things over with as fast as Nina. it is lightning-speed reconciliation #because we both move on so quickly in the same way. in that the mood will just lift #we got in a fight the other day. Nina left and stormed out. 10 minutes later I get a text going #‘I’m sorry Maria. I should not have said that about your mother’ #which made me laugh because we weren’t fighting about our mom. She just likes to quote Jacqueline from ever after sometimes out of context #and my mom was on the couch watching me like ‘you’re reconciled???? It’s over?????????’ #because my mom a) is so different from both of us in the speed she processes in and b) has no sisters #0 sisters. 4 daughters. and she still isn’t used to it lol. because my mom’s strength and weakness is that she never gets used to anything! #ALSO Nina told me the other day that I’m the one that taught her to apologize because I would just make her do it when we were kids #not to me but to other people! I would just sit there and explain how verbal acknowledgement of wrongdoing would make things better #and she was always like ‘ughhh I hate it so much. FINE’ because she always does want to make things better #anyway this SHOOK ME TO MY CORE. Because I never thought Nina actually internalized any of the things I’ve said to her ever lol #and she was like ‘yeah you gave me that good habit’ #(I love apologizing. Love to put it into words and I have an intense need to do it immediately and thoroughly) #(tbh it’s only with time that I’ve come to see that other people do not work that way. and need more time. and are not just — #instantly comfortable putting everything into words especially the hard things) #(because it’s not like I’m always driven by more charity and compunction. I just ducking HATE unresolved things not put into words) #(so it helps me feel better. and sometimes you just gotta learn to not say it right away if it’s only going to make things worse #(or learn to say it in different way without words. that actually communicates the sorrow. And that can sometimes look like giving space!)

[imaginarypasta]

i’ve been trying to get through hoh for literally like a week now but it’s so hard bc the way my fave nico is treated is absolutely ABYSMAL and i know it only gets worse

#personal #even hazel being like ‘yeah he’s hard to get along with’ or whatever she said #every single non-tartarus perspective has had at least one reference to this #and like i understand the reasons it’s not that it’s that it highlights this issue i have with a lot of the characters in that series which #is that i don’t like them. and that’s so different for me bc i actually usually find that my two favorite characters in anything are the tw #that don’t like each other? unrelated to that dynamic usually mostly but still within it #but that’s not even what the dynamic is yk. #and it’s just the whole thing overall like in the last book there was one part where these two characters who are supposed to be good #friends are separated and one makes a comment about how annoying (or something along those lines) she finds the other which. #i’m vaguely aware of what happens in toa so i think you could argue something about that but read on its own bc i don’t want to make that #argument without fully grasping where her character goes #it just kinda reinforces this… vibe to the whole series that was not nearly as present in the first series of like. really overemphasized #like gender roles/heterosexuality/etc. i can’t think of the word to use to describe it. i’ve seen other ppl talk about the parts that add u #to the whole that i’ve seen but never synthesize them. and it really varies between actually insidious and simply not my taste which is par #of the reason i hesitate to make a full critique out of it. but suffice to say i really don’t like it #with that being said the pacing of this book is really good and i am compelled to finish based on the themes i do find interesting #autonomy being a huge one #but anyway those are my thoughts on it after a few days of a break. i’ve been playing a video game instead :3 but i start work on wednesday #sooo i won’t have as much free time boo #looking back maybe ‘insidious’ is a very strong word for it. i’m talking about like when percy complains about the bag and similar moments

[hella1975]

choked up in my room rn bc i was sat in the car with my mum completely lost in thought and she out of nowhere went 'are you okay?' and i was like 'yeah? why?' bc i was totally fine i was literally just thinking and she let it go and then five entire minutes later she goes 'are you sure? have i done something?' and she sounded so genuinely anxious and i could tell she'd been thinking about it the entire 5 minutes while id been completely oblivious and i spent so many years as a child letting everything bottle up until it all burst out in a messy and ugly breakdown that took her down with me and despite that she never hated me she only ever blamed herself for not seeing the signs and she's never been able to see my signs because i keep everything to myself and it terrifies her that she might miss something and she handles things poorly when she's scared and she gets too angry but fundamentally she's trying her absolute hardest to be a good mother and it wasn't always enough and i know i have to hold her at least partially accountable but also she's my mum and im her daughter and she always just wants to know if im okay and most of the time im not and somehow that feels like ive betrayed her

#like my mum is such a loud powerful force of a woman that these little moments of vulnerability where she's just HONEST with me #and she shows me that she's worried or scared or unsure instead of just constantly putting up a strong front #always always bowl me over #like ive literally said to her time and time again that i'd find it easier to communicate with her if she wasn't so strong all the time #like of course i hate crying and being emotional in front of you when youve made it v clear my whole life that you hate doing that #when it's you that's the one being emotional like that's not fair #but also being strong all the time is literally a survival thing she had no choice but to implement bc her own life was so hard #so how can i just ask her to lower those walls for me? even if keeping them up is to both our detriment? #and like ive talked on here before how she's openly admitted to me that she finds my temper harder to handle than my sister's #even tho mine is quieter and significantly less messy. but she's also said to me that in general she finds my sister easier to deal with #bc my sister's so open and if she's angry she yells if she's sad she cries if she's happy she talks ur ear off etc etc #i just insist on handling everything myself and the worse i feel the more i deal on my own and it TERRIFIES my mum #BECAUSE it's led to mistakes in the past but also just bc i have never ever doubted that she has so much love for me in her heart #like even when our relationship was at its worst it was never ever a lack of love and she just does genuinely care and worry about me #it's just if she's scared she just gets ANGRY and her angry means her hurting my feelings and my feelings being hurt means i shut down MORE #and it's literally the worst combo but we love each other so much that we're both clawing through it anyway it makes me want to cry #and because she's always so strong i FORGET that there's just a scared vulnerable person behind those walls #that has no idea what she's doing bc her own mum never taught her anything good #and my mum blames herself so completely for every bad thing like she says things like 'i feel like ive failed' and idk how to tell her #that she IS messy and incredibly flawed and she HAS done things that have hurt me beyond comprehension #and there are bad parts of my personality that exist because of her and her alone #but ive also done terrible things to her too like not even considering the fact our responses arent compatible and that hurts her #i also did some DUMB shit when i first started tackling ye olde mental illness that had a HUGELY negative impact on everyone around me #but she is still my favourite person in the world and my best friend and i love her and i know she loves me and i just want to hold her #girls when their mum isnt an all powerful being but instead a flawed human trying their best: SKJDGHKDJSHGJKSDHGJKSH #hella goes home

[paimonial-rage]

I was thinking about this while helping my friend beta something yesterday like… I vaguely remember that at one time, I felt (punctuation) periods were too harsh. They had a sense of finality about them. They were too loud and vibrant. Commas were more comforting to use. They felt softer and not as exact. And then I look at my writing now and there's nothing I love more than a period. I love how sharp it is. I love its finality.

Like I can't understate enough how much a period makes a statement. Like that's what it's supposed to do, yes, but it's more than that. It tells the audience that what precedes is true. It's a fact. And when you yield a period properly, it emphasizes and highlights what is stated. It stands out. It's final. It has weight. It's such a powerful thing that it's addicting to use.

#thoughts #personal #writing #i should be putting this in the main post but the main post has a vibe that i don't want to interrupt #the way to properly wield a period is by varying the lengths of your sentences #a good key to remember is that long sentences are meant for providing information #*long sentences are not meant to stand out* #when you want to highlight something that is key you use a short sentence #making it short makes it clear to the audience that the statement is meant to hold weight #however it is important to keep variety in the lengths of your sentences #a short sentence after a short sentence does not stand out as much as a short sentence after a long sentence #think of it like this #if you have two short people standing next to each other they look normal #if you put a short person next to someone really tall it makes the short person look shorter than they actually are #their shortness really stands out #this is called juxtaposition #i can make a whole essay based off of the importance of juxtaposition too HAHA #periods can be loud but i highly recommend trying to learn how to use them #one of you said you like hearing my thought process when i write so i hope you find this one interesting!! #now i'm gonna speak more off the top of my head but i feel that ppl that dislike periods are very sensitive to the flow in their stories #there is a flow to a sentence when you use commas and periods tend to disrupt that flow #a period/short sentence is too abrupt and jarring #at least that's what i assume they feel #however imho i feel ppl that feel this way are overly sensitive to the flow they perceive exists in their sentences/paragraphs #i have to tell myself this constantly that things that flow seamlessly aren't always a good thing #imagine your writing like an orchestral piece. are they always flowy and legato? or are there moments where the music jumps or changes? #and what do those sudden jumps do? they wake the audience. they catch the audience's attention. they add variety and interest #imagine an orchestral piece that the tempo never changes. the volume never shifts. every note bleeds into the next #you get put to sleep! #so a period may seem abrupt in the scheme of the sentence but look at it from the view of the whole paragraph. it may be better than u thin

[gl1tchxr]

i didn't realize until recently how little fantasy stuff is in my world. sure they're all animals or dragons and they've got magic but there's no actual gods and i didn't even think about including magical artifacts or beings made of magic until a month or so ago. everything could've been so much cooler this whole time lol

#ghost post #well i can fix it now #i only have one idea for a magic being so far and its that one of the gods (not technically gods but thats how people see them) had so much #magic that part of it flaked off and gained sentience #the god's name is october and they founded a prosperous city but they eventually turned into a tyrant #and the people of the city fought them to gain control and won #and october was driven away and left severely weakened #but during the conflict that's when part of their magic broke off and became its own person #it took the same form as october (just smaller) and terrorized the city for a while but then it discovered Free Will(tm) #and now its much happier doing whatever it wants instead of what october wanted #and since its made from shapeshifting magic and its original form was mimicing october after it denounced them it has no set form and just #is whatever it wants to be in the moment #it doesn't even have a name and i'm attached lol #anyway my ideas for magical artifacts are much more boring lol #the dragon who rules over elemental magic made a set of staffs that let anyone use magic (one for each element) #that was a long time ago and none of the dragons are very involved with mortals anymore #but the staffs are still very powerful and floating around the world possibly getting into the wrong hands #:) i'm sure none of the main characters will ever have to deal with that :)))) #another one is a set of two books and when you write in one the text appears in the other (like sunset shimmer's book in mlp) #and my last idea is a mask that can absorb people's appearances then if you put it on you look exactly like them down to every detail #truly an imposter amogus moment #anyway if anyone has reached the bottom of these tags tysm for reading and please let me know if you have ideas for more anything

[lisbonsteresa]

going unbelievably insane over this

#tm #i i'm like i'm short circuiting #the way - when they both carry so much pain and trauma with them; where they deal with death and the worst of people every day; #when they've lost so much; lost each other more than once - #one of the most pervasive themes in their story; woven throughout it from the very beginning is happiness #wanting to give whatever happiness they can to others - #comforting families and getting justice for victims and jane's gifts and pranks and lisbon's supportive leadership and understanding - #wanting to be happy themselves; and maybe most importantly wanting the other to be happy #like just off the top of my head (and i'm so tempted to go right back and rewatch and actually write down every one) there's so much of it #and it makes me crazy because of how it's expressed on both sides #lisbon doesn't SAY it much - most of the 'i want you to be happy' kind of lines are jane's - but she SHOWS it #from the day they met and she helped him up off the floor she's there in support of him; #her quiet comfort when he's low; her eye rolls and indulging grins when he's pulling a silly trick on the team; #her soft smiles in the background when someone genuinely thanks him and he doesn't know what to do #with the pain she has in her past; in growing up; with the tough skin she's wrapped herself in to get through what she has #she appreciates the quieter moments; the moments where her big bombastic partner lets down his guard and #stops putting on so much of a show and she can see the joy he can still find in the little things even with all the darkness he carries #it's jane that has the big loud moments - the confessions and the spoken words - where he states outright (and repeatedly) #how much he wants her to be happy; how important it is to him and that makes so much sense because that's who he is #(not always of course but more often than not and that's how he presents himself) #he's dramatic and he's bold and his grief is the same; this giant unavoidable yoke that's never going to completely fall off his shoulders #and idk there's just something so beautiful to me about this man with the more obvious burden of pain being so doggedly - and vocally - #committed to the happiness of this woman who tries to hide her pain and shies away from comfort more than she's able to accept it #and that through everything they've been together the ways both of them approach happiness and each other have also come together #where he can say something like this and not only can she be happy for him but she can know just how much of that is because of her #'for the first time in YOU know how long' and she does #they just make me crazy

[dcviline]

will you guys still love me if I say that I do not agree with how fanon likes to portray a.lysanne and j.aehaerys' relationship. like . . . not at all asfddjkljlkdsf

#᯽ ooc. ⊱ ── ❝ 𝘖𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘪. ❞ #᯽ muse ⊱ ── 𝐀𝐥𝐲𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞 𝐓𝐚𝐫𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐲𝐞𝐧 #inc*st tw #LISTEN #I feel like since we only get these historical events told from the perspective of history itself #fandom tends to romanticize a looooot of the targ history #and I think their relationship is one of the things that gets romanticized a lot more than it probably really was #because you gotta stop and think about the characters that are writing about these events #and how they have every incentive to WANT to portray certain beloved members of house t.argaryen in the most positive light #these are very biased partial viewpoints and we're intended to read between the lines a lot more than if it was all written as a novel #do I think they were absolutely crazy about each other in their younger years? for sure #but j.aehaerys becoming a ruling king in more than just name is the worst thing that ever happened to them #because I feel like there are a lot of natural conflicts in their personalities and view points that were easy to ignore #UNTIL those ideals became mixed with power #because j.aehaerys did a lot to support misogynistic and patriarchial standards and practices #meanwhile a.lysanne (by the standards of her time) was a very progressive feminist #and I think the moment j.aehaerys started pushing to pass over their daughter d.aenerys in favor of a son #was the moment that years long honeymoon period began to wear off for aly #because also if you look at the circumstances under which they became so close in the first place #there has been a lot of pressure for them to depend on each other since they were children #not to mention they were LITERAL CHILDREN when they eloped like that's just insane to me #like she was around 12 and him 14 #and growing into independent adults *after* being married . . . things start to not match up to those ideals of their younger years #but of course this gets whitewashed by history because of course the king and queen *had* to be seen as endlessly in love #because anything else would conflict with the legacy j.aehaerys had been carefully crafting for himself #I absolutely *do* believe he had mistresses and the idea that he didn't is said to be because of 'his love for a.lysanne' #but I think the true reason for him trying to portray himself as faithful is to feed into the pious image of himself he wanted #and pander to the faith of the seven ESPECIALLY when he needed to play into his doctrine of exceptionalism #and I do believe aly had an affair with a.laric s.tark because there are so many details about her trip to the north that imply this #that I will never change my mind. there's just Too Much there.

[skullisbones]

secret life is my favourite life series. 100%

#secret life #i just finished up to episode 5 #look i've enjoyed every life series. but if i had to rank them #1. secret life #2. last life #3. third life #4. double life #5. limited life #(honestly double life and 3rd life is a tossup too) #but limited was definitely my least favourite unfortunately and i can say that for sure since i watched it semi recently #and caveat all of this is from a bdubs watcher #i watch scar too and for a time i watched etho and mumbo but it got a bit much #no but the tasks on secret life are some of the most interesting things to me AUGH and some tasks have created such good moments #and the way they combine sometimes? chefs kiss #secret life is the one series that makes me want to watch every pov just for context #each of these series just makes me think of more people i love to see bdubs in groups with #limited life has bdubs and mumbo which is rare and i really love #and bdubs and pearl of course #(and bdubs and etho again cause he can't stay away) #but i loved him with cleo on 3rd and limited #and impulse on 3rd and double #and scarr i love bdubs and scar together #and team best changed my life part of why i'm so excited for skizz hermitcraft is i love his and bdubs' dynamic sm #(honestly skizz has great dynamic with everybody)

[marcusagrippa]

becoming more invested in one random side character who is fucking dead by the time my main plot starts than the actual protagonist is just a rite of passage for my writing process at this point

#big oc ramblingin the tags warning u h. #save me melisadd...... isa............ #a horrible ugly name for a horrible ugly guy #however. every lover is a soldier. etc etc. #yes he gets killed because of his own ambition but he also gets killed because of his devotion to his city. and by extension his paradoxica #devotion to rhys (who has become the city itself in a weird parasitic sort of way). he hates what rhys stands for and he hates his idealism #and his tyranny andsuch but they have such a fucked up (literally) cannibalistic relationship going back to faustus and the ivy war #that neither of them can function without the other. rhys' fate is sealed the moment he kills isa because theres no-one left to balance him #out and challenge his plans. and he spirals from this genius up-and-coming ruthless commander willing to do anything to keep his home safe #into a lazy power-hungry beast relying on the prestige of his ancestors and the fear of the people to keep him fed. and he misses isa #as much as he hates to admit it #and he misses argent and he misses what they all had and as he gets older he starts losing the ability to distinguish between the past and #the present. hence the public display of argent's innards and isa's rotting corpse being dug up and given a seat at the table at the feast. #but back to isa. isa doesn't want to fight rhys - he believes there's good in him up until the last second of his life. #his execution is the death of any hope of redemption rhys might have had. #noneof that makes sense but anyway you get what im trying to say right #<- what a late republic hyperfix does to a mf #they are based loosely on the first triumvirate and should all eat each other !! #i can make my own narrative ghosts god dammit #dyrposts #r. a. bicinius #m. f. voscium #i made these guys like. two days ago??? but i cant stop thinking about them #if anyone is interested. i will say more things about dr #writing #augh #rhys isnt technically a main character either feel like i should clarify that he. dies in the first chapter #story focuses on eos furi and gabier !!! yippee !!! #jase writes #FUTURE ME EDIT: THIS IS ALL WILDLY OUTDATED :DDDDD OH WELL

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

the push and pull of MSR in the cancer arc

Louise Glück, from Marathon / The X-Files 4×14, Memento Mori / Phoebe Bridgers, Moon Song / 4x17, Tempus Fugit / I've Been Thinking Of Ending Things, dir. Charlie Kaufman / 4×18, Max / Sue Zhao (@beamusing) / 4×22, Elegy / Lucy Dacus, Historians / Ocean Vuong, Into the Breach

#the way every time i do something cancer arc i end up deep in scully's pov... #i had room for one thing but it didn't work out so i want to mention Bag of Bones by Mitski which i had on loop while making this #i just... they go back and forth so much #being so soft and yet so tense and holding each other a little apart even though they want to be close #the way they hurt each other without even meaning to but comfort each other without consciously trying #it's simply so much. #there's so much they want to but can't won't say that they're scared of saying and it SHOWS #both in the moments they snap or push away and in the times they hold each other close #scully says it in elegy! ''he's been a great source of strength for me'' but when karen asks if she's told him that fhe truth is she hasn't #and that's so much of their struggle is that they dont know if they can say all they mean to each other #so you end up with the tension and pain of wanting nothing more than to be together and have that safety and comfort #but not knowing if it's allowed and okay and how much it might hurt in the end #they need each other but they're losing each other but they're also becoming closer in an agonizing new way #he's the ONLY person she called #you ever think of that scene in memento mori where they're on the phone and she says ''right now the truth is in me'' #and mulder immediately replies with "i will be right there'' so soft and certain because in that moment #she IS the truth and she is the only thing that matters #and then how she starts to pull away throughout the arc and isolate herself and that causes pain for both of them #and is part of why mulder is a bit of a jerk in gethsemane #but he never fully lets her pull away and she still leans on him she still has him and that doesn't change!!! #it's the push and pull of it all #Lu rambles #txf #the x files #msr #dana scully #fox mulder #usermoody #userscully #usermulder