Helen Hyde, Feeding the Bunnies, 1912. Color woodcut on paper
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being 23
turning 23 is an interesting feat. not a kid anymore but not an adult. too much is expected of you but you feel you don't have enough to offer.
I can't really agree with "I didn't think I would be here at this age" because I didn't really think I would be here at all. not necessarily because I thought I'd be dead, I just didn't ever imagine or think about getting older. maybe it was because I was too preoccupied with a debilitating psychological imbalance or I have absolutely zero ambition. I did have "dream careers" growing up; vet, dentist, (brace for total originality) youtuber, but I never pushed myself to do anything to put those ideas in place.
I dropped out of school early. I couldn't hack it, it was H E L L. even walking back into the building four years after leaving threw me into a spiral so, college was a no go. I agree that "education isn't for everyone" it wasn't for me and whilst I'm happy with my decision and I know it was the right choice, I still have that feeling buried somewhere of, "I did nothing." "I'm going nowhere" and it still pops up sometimes, like when a friend is telling me stories of her job as a solicitor and I have absolutely no idea what the f*** she's talking about. I've worked full time since I was 16, I've done a good variety of jobs, I've put in the time and I've "climbed the corporate ladder" but is that what I want to do?
I get "you won't stay in this job forever" but where will I go? what will I do? what I want to do - raise motherless neonatal kittens - pays nothing at all. so do you stay in a job where you don't want to be and make it work because that's what you're told you have to do?
I can't even get started on money at this age - but I will. Your parents were moved out at 19 but, back then a two bed house cost 20cents and a loaf of bread. the 20 year olds from tiktok are living in mansions and you can't even get out of your overdraft. it's relentless.
I think my point here - if I can get to one - is that it's easy to let yourself feel like you're underachieving at this age. being hard on yourself is much easier than giving yourself a break. BUT, (and it's a big but) that's all you need to do - as long as your feet are on the ground and your head's above the water you're doing alright. YOU are the only comparison for yourself. making an effort to fill your life with things you love and surround yourself with genuine people and good memories - that's all you should be aiming for at 23.
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NO I THOUGHT OF THAT EXACT POEM TOOOO girls when last years' leaves are smoke in every lane 😭😵💫💀
posting this as an ask so that I can unleash Edna on EVERYONE, truly one of the sonnets of all time, I cannot think of a person who has not felt this in some way, about some loss of some person in some kind of relationship. AAGHCK.
“Time does not bring relief; you all have lied”
— Edna St. Vincent Millay
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go,—so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, “There is no memory of him here!”
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.
©️1931, via Poetry Foundation, but in my heart it's always via this very small book i had of ESVM poems when i was 16
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Considering her willingness to incorporate historical figures such as Sir Arthur Conan Doyle into Kuroshitsuji’s universe, Yana really missed an opportunity by not featuring Beatrix Potter—hired, of course, by O!Ciel to write and illustrate a series of stories about Bitter Rabbit’s adventures as a means of advertising Funtom products to children.
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women's hip-length jacket and trousers of indigo-dyed cotton, unlined, patterned in eight-trigrams octagons and fish and floral motifs. the jacket closes with five gilt buttons on the right-hand side. republican era.
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the perils of not being thoughtful about race-bending casting is like, ok. so unity kinkaid is now black. but she is also still an extremely wealthy british woman who was a child in 1919, and no one is like, do we need to maybe revisit this aspect of the story that's already being amply reworked to consider that the casting we have gone with has made the previous set-up somewhat implausible. i mean i am not an expert on race and class in pre-war england. maybe i am bringing my american bias to this. but. so then they're like, we need to have a line explaining why she is rich though, because, and kudos to @unbornwhiskeyy for this observation, nothing on this show (about dreams. it's a show about dreams) can ever just Be or Happen, it all has to be Explained and having a reason Why (in a show, to reiterate, about dreams). and the explanation they go with for why this person who was a black ten year old in 1919 england is very wealthy is that: her family owned a sugar company. and then my head exploded and i couldn’t watch anymore because i was dead
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“If ghosts had telephones, I should think they’d sound rather like that,” says Rose, the early chill of after-sunset driving her quite easily to a morbid sort of cheer.
“How the times change,” says the girl, with an odd, but not entirely unhappy, look in her eyes. “No, my dear; ghosts use the same telephones as you and I, as you well know.”
here's something from this year's seasonal spooky story!
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Frances Gearhart, Twilight, c.1930. Color block print on wove Japanese paper
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Whatever goodnight. states the obvious in so many words
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exclusive secret origin of the world they don’t tell you about
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One person on Twitter makes a bad faith thread and suddenly everyone is calling Frida Kahlo white
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On the whole Waverley was not the most interesting hero in the world, but I loved that Scott describes him as reading voraciously as a child and then mostly giving it up as he got older because his daydreams were more entertaining and because he wasn’t prepared for the hard work to master more difficult literature.
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“My arms shall welcome you when other arms are tired”
— “The Dark Cavalier,” Margaret Widdemer (1918)
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Elizabeth Childers
Edgar Lee Masters
DUST of my dust,
And dust with my dust,
O, child who died as you entered the world,
Dead with my death!
Not knowing breath, though you tried so hard,
With a heart that beat when you lived with me,
And stopped when you left me for Life.
It is well, my child. For you never traveled
The long, long way that begins with school days,
When little fingers blur under the tears
That fall on the crooked letters.
And the earliest wound, when a little mate
Leaves you alone for another;
And sickness, and the face of Fear by the bed;
The death of a father or mother;
Or shame for them, or poverty;
The maiden sorrow of school days ended;
And eyeless Nature that makes you drink
From the cup of Love, though you know it's poisoned;
To whom would your flower-face have been lifted?
Botanist, weakling? Cry of what blood to yours?---
Pure or fool, for it makes no matter,
It's blood that calls to our blood.
And then your children---oh, what might they be?
And what your sorrows? Child! Child!
Death is better than Life!
Spoon River Anthology, 1915
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just the first hair dryers!
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#history #photo #history #photo
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