#especially for how I treated you lmao

[b4kuch1n]

done with the current dip pen comm queue (just in time for another Nib Accident too lol. I’m learning how to take care of the tools as well) so uh! it’ll take me two days to get a replacement and get some other stuff done. which means slots will be available again this saturday!

#bakuspeech #thank you my first pen nib (in all manners that count really). you've served me extremely well #especially for how I treated you lmao #you know what. gonna pin it to my corkboard later. it deserves a place on there #I think it's specifically because I'm using a pretty thick non-water-based ink I got a Long time ago #for brush inking when I was doing that. and boy oh boy does it dry Thicque #and it dries really fast. so by the time I get to wiping my pen it's already caked there lol #so I might have to try using other inks as well. knowledge! learning! #I'm thinking opening for comm at noon instead of night like last time? so folks with different schedules can see it lmao #but yeah. I'll take my time! I'll mess around with it. its been real #I wanna start drafting the comic proper and stuff... Im so glad I'm still so excited about doing this after over a week lol #really kinda what I needed after the March Madness (adhd induced nonsense depression) #hope folks who've got a comm from me so far enjoyed what I drew!!

[spitblaze]

I will say this once because I'm tired of seeing stupid discourse: anti-transmasculinity is not about being treated bad because we clock as men, it's about being treated as stupid little girls because transphobes think we've been tricked into this.

It's kind of the opposite of transmisogyny- instead of fear and revulsion, it's constant condescension, the implications that we've been whisked away from femininity by scary bad guys, that we're going to cause 'irreparable damage' because we don't know what's best for ourselves, somehow. People fearmonger a lot about the "ugliness" of transfem people, but for transmasc people that 'ugliness' is used as a warning- you'll look like THIS! You'll go BALD! Your top surgery scars will leave you MUTILATED! A lot of aesthetic concerns. Worry about our 'beauty'. Because it comes from that same stupid reactionary 'we gotta SAVE the WOMEN' shit, but this time they have to save them from getting 'stolen away', as if we're being seduced or pressured into this. As if we can't make our own decisions.

For TERFS specifically, they're losing one of their own. We're 'gender traitors', willingly aligning ourselves with the half of the population they consider unilaterally dangerous and evil.

We aren't REALLY trans, we just want the benefits that men get. You don't actually want to transition, you're just trying to avoid misogyny.

You aren't actually a man, you're just a self-loathing lesbian.

Why can't you just be a butch girl? Why can't you just be a tomboy?

Why can't you just be something that I don't think is icky?

Anyway. Like all things, it boils down to misogyny. Women stupid and gentle, dont know what best for them, evil men trick into taking man juice, must save because lady stupid and dont know what best for them (having babies and being Feminine).

Theres like. Obviously more to this but I'm just a Transmasc Rando explaining this from my perspective, and I'm not the best with words. Anyone is free to hop in and add on to this

#long post #transphobia #spitblaze says things #anti-transmasculinity #several disclaimers #i do not think misandry is real. #i think stigmatization of masculinity is real with a lot of women and terfs specifically #i think a lot of people whether they know it or not consider men to be inherently 'bad' #i think men are very often treated as emotionless and 'tough' by default which causes a lot of issues #but thats not anywhere near the level of misogyny. its a separate issue and not related #im not trying to say that trans men somehow have it 'worse' than trans women?? what would thay even accomplish. this isnt a pissing contest #and even if it was I'd lose #and my wording isnt the best bc this is a Midnight Rant and not a scholarly article #if you want to pick a fight about semantics consider that theres a good chance that i genuinely didnt realize what i said #anyway uh. yeah. this discourse is dumb i cant belive its happening #and i especially cant belive how bad people are at articulating the actual point of the matter #(not that im one to talk lmao) #doin numbers

[joseigamer]

Patalliro! is fascinating to me because of stuff like this. It's unapologetically gay - even within its anime which aired during primetime hours in 1982 - in a way that many later BL manga would never be, like the ones from the early 2000s which would never dare to call their characters actual homosexuals. Patalliro has actually aged quite well in this regard, there's something comforting about how campy it is.

#i still dont really understand how they got away with this kind of thing honestly #female VAs i get that - but first m/m kiss in an anime in episode THREE????? #theres also the maraich/thomas episode where they are *Both* voiced by women....advanced yuri #patalliro #i love how bancorans gender expression is pretty much explicitly to attract only bishounen #you blushed - so you must not be a girl #etc #i also love how joyful it all is #theres never anything sad or tragic about being gay - only that bancoran is forced to kill the bishounen spies/assassins/etc #when bancoran finds out that gay sex feels good after demian; in the manga he is elated. its basically a positive thing #he awakens to his true power...lol #also notable is that while bishounen youth is glorified maraich is still 18. #besides making the show more palatable; this means it portrays being gay as an adult as normal #according to the NYT japan's psychiatric body called homosexuality a mental illness until 1995 #im not going to say patalliro changed that or anything lmao but its just significant to me that banmara get to live their lives happily #especially contrasting that with kaze to ki no uta and other manga of the time (no shade intended) #yaoi #<- for tagging purposes #obviously it also got away with a lot by being a gag manga. but still! #months later edit: want to say im not intending to moralize BL manga from the 2000s either. like gen. no hate on them. #as a gay person i just appreciate when characters who act gay are considered gay textually #and its kind of disheartening how gay-as-identity was treated as something incredulous in those manga a lot of the time #even the mere suggestion of attraction to men as a whole and not just the other male lead...yknow

[shannonsketches]

Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#silly hours #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind' #and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life' #toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned' #and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit' #girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!! #Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??' #now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader. #and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play. #You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

[seasideoranges]

guys i gotta be honest whenever people call the live action avatar “darker “more serious” and “less childish” then the original show i just think of this meme

#natla #netflix avatar the last Airbender #probably gonna be my most critical natla post lmao #before i continue i don’t hate the show i give it like a solid 6/10 #there’s actually a lot of stuff they changed/added that i like like IROH AND ZUKO OH BOY #especially iroh it’s so good #but is it controversial if i say i don’t think this show is all dark and super duper mature? #obviously on a surface level it is with the violence and such #certain parts got to me #but beyond that I don’t think it is? #the show is very tell don’t show and it kinda treats its audience like we need to be spoon fed? #idk…. imo maturity is a lot more then violence it’s how you treat your audience and how you approach certain subject matters #and I feel like in that department the show kinda flopped #plus with how they handle certain characters (katara…) #THATS ALL IDK MAN ITS JUST MY OPINION #natla spoilers

[n7punk]

i hate scalpers so much fr

#it's not even scalpers technically since theyre treating it as an out of production ''collectible'' & probably consider themselves resellers #but when it originally retailed for 15$ and they're charging hundreds and it's fucking *play dolls* #it sure feels like scalping #yeah you can technically charge that much because it's a limited supply but what's the BENEFIT? #i mean even for fans of the show when they manage to get their hands on them. they might feel like they have to keep them NIB #because of the loss if they open it & destroy a NiB when these dolls are meant to be played with & displayed & enjoyed #(and by 'might' i mean ''do'' and by 'fans' i mean ''me'') #they straight up aren't worth what people try to charge! its so stupid especially when they share bodies with the DC line & those go for 8$ #this has been an idea ive theoretically come across before with like amiibos but this is my first time dealing with it first hand #mylife #a catra got listed for 200$ again -_- which seems to just be her default price. and is more than EIGHTEEN TIMES RETAIL #okay vent post done. god #anyway fuck ebay resellers lmao #im not paying that but i Am gonna complain about it #unrelated but someone dug up the mass effect post again. how does that keep happening #people's tags are always fun on it though

[monstermoviedean]

hi! i actually would liek to hear your thoughts on the whole "health" = "care" thing but i dont want to subject you to my followers on that one post so i'm asking you about it here instead 👀

oh i didn't want to subject you to a rant! but thanks for giving me the opportunity :) I just can't stand the idea that if you "take care of yourself" you will automatically be healthy, and that if you are unhealthy it's because you didn't do a good enough job taking care of yourself. side note that i think the concept of "healthy" in and of itself is an issue because it's predicated on a set of ideas that cannot and do not work for everybody.

but in this particular case what pisses me off is this common fanon construction: sam eats vegetables and runs = sam cares for himself = sam is healthy vs. dean eats burgers and doesn't run = dean does not care for himself = dean is unhealthy. also at play is dean's drinking, which i view as a serious disease influenced by social factors and his mental state, but which others view as a personal moral failing (dean drinks = dean doesn't care about his body = dean is unhealthy). i'm not saying either of them is healthy or unhealthy, just that i really don't think it's up for us to decide how healthy anyone else is, and especially not based on how much care we think they are or should be taking.

#cw alcohol #can you tell i've spent what feels like years of my life working on a definition of 'health' at work lmao #I also think the sam healthy dean unhealthy characterizations have a lot in common with sam smart dean dumb #which other people who are smarter than i have pointed out is rooted in a lot of classism #i think there is some classism at play here too #and ultimately is it a huge deal to decide whether fictional characters are healthy or not? no not really. #but that shit can easily translate into judging real life people and treating them differently based on your perception of their health #and especially with statements like dean can't be trusted because he's an alcoholic #which is how I read that ask about trusting sam vs dean to possess you #spn

[vamptastic]

it's kinda weird that when you look at health recommendations for various medical conditions associated with fatness it's always 'just lose 10% of your body weight to see a risk reduction' (so like 20-30 pounds for the average overweight or obese person according to the bmi) but then in day to day medicine there's not really a way of like, removing obesity as a diagnosis on your insurance paperwork for example, even if by a certain standard you've lost enough weight to reduce the risk of health conditions that insurance would be concerned about. if you're an average height weighing 300 pounds and lose 30 pounds, which seems to be the amount that's considered reasonable to lose and maintain if you want to like, reduce your cholesterol, you've gone from morbidly obese to morbidly obese.

#beyond like the more pervasive stigma that i think has been around for a lot of history around fatness #i think the biggest reason behind the current concern over obesity in the US especially is uh. capitalism #there's always this addition about look at how much money these people cost us!! and its like who's us. insurance companies? #idk one one hand it's nice to see that medical science is maybe being kinder now than when i was an overweight 11 year old lmao #like when i was a kid it was hey this index that is not accurate for your age and sex says you need to lose 15 pounds #and then constant badgering about it until i got sick dropped 5 pounds and fit the graph better or whatever #and then i continued to gain weight for the next 7 years until i treated my insulin resistance #but i genuinely got worse and stricter treatment as overweight than morbidly obese because i think now that I'm 250 and an adult #they're like yeah you're just fat we're not going to bother beyond the legally required warnings #also when i was 11 it was uhhhh 2016 so middle of the obama admin when fat kids were the topic du jour #but the way they talked about it was like if I didn't stay under 130 pounds for the rest of my life i might as well drop dead #so seeing hey if you lose like 25 pounds you're good and you don't need to drop over 100 is. Comparatively better #still shitty advice for insulin resistant people IMO but whatever

[cervinelich]

"Everyone always leaves/abandons/rejects me =C" is such a huge red flag for me. Saw someone saying this on social media the other day and knee-jerk instinct was "blockblockblock"

#like I understand it can feel like you are constantly being abandoned or rejected especially if you have rejection sensitivity #but in my personal experience this often comes from assuming the worst of the people around you due to anxiety #and often translates into not communicating your needs and wants to friends and assuming they should behave a certain way intuitively #and this has been used MANY times to accuse me of being a shitty person for not... knowing exactly how someone wants to be treated #and then being accused fucking constantly of not caring enough because I didn't know??? what someone wanted??? #I also was kept on the hook with SEVERAL different people saying “everyone always abandons me =C” #to put me in a position of never settings boundaries with them bc then they would have an extreme fear reaction I was “leaving them” #and I'm talking about like if I tried to tell one of them to please not call me at 1AM every night when I had work the next day #I tried to ask one of my friends if we could spend *slightly* less time together bc we were attached at the hip and he had a MELTDOWN #asked one ex if I could go hang out with friends without her and she called me sobbing in the middle of the hangout to get me to come home #idk maybe this is just a particular trigger for me afjvbsdklfj LMAO but if someone says “everyone abandons me” #I am immediately suspicious that they are expecting too much of their friendships and not communicating and allowing boundaries #LONG RANT SORRY

[clownattack]

Fr tho why are people reading the dorian tales.

#im sorry i will never get that app #the people who crafted the story are gone and i do not care #thank you fanfiction writers who actually care about the characters and do them justice #ik fic gets much less recognition than pictures and im eternally mad about it #bcs writers??? you are the backbones of the society and fandom #the SOCIETY #ppl who draw are like the ribs #we need to be attached to the SPINE BABY #i can excuse fanmade tales tbh #just bcs i respect the fact theyre a labor of love #but still i would rather. watch a *video tale* than get Dorian #especially knowing how dorian is exploiting their artists #i wouldnt give my money to jkr #shein #or disney #and i wont give it to dorian #if youre treating your artists like sh*t im not supporting u THAT EASY #there are other IPs that i can fixate on ✌️arcana #im taking the courtiers and putting them in another setting lmao #d0rian #nh #when i talk abt dor exploiting creatives i mean their actual employees #fanartists with benefits - well they arent EXPLOITING ME! #ok sorry but i will take the word of a person who worked in the industry for years over yours #leaving the job over what OTHER people are getting paid is pretty telling imo

[paigemathews]

@fullybeautifultheorist replied to your post “I know I have some drafts that at least mention...”:

Tbh the fact that Cole was possessed doesn't really change much. Cole was egoistical and obsessed murderer in season 3 as well as in season 5. There is literally no meaningful change in his behavior during all 3 season. And even un season 7 he is playing peeping Tom

​Hmm, honestly, I see your point, but I think I would disagree. I’m not a fan of Cole’s, by any means, but I think knowing that he did not purposefully become the Source of All Evil and he wasn’t in full control would change things for at least Phoebe. I don’t want to whitewash his sins, because there are many but there is at least some kind of inherent tragedy in his loss of agency and autonomy after he tried to redeem himself. He really was trying to become good, even if it was for flawed reasons. I also think that it could bring either more pain or comfort to Phoebe and the sisters, because on one hand, they hadn’t been tricked so badly that Cole had never actually changed sides but on the other, they’d still been manipulated enough that they thought he never did if that makes sense.

#fullybeautifultheorist #abi speaks #cole turner #anti cole turner #charmed #i have a LOT of issues with cole and his storylines and ESPECIALLY the way his fans treat him #but at the same time i do think that it still mattered. do i necessarily think he's redeemable? ehhh #but i still think that the fact that he did not voluntarily betray the sisters and try to take power #is something that would be important for the sisters to know #like yeah he was a bad person and abusive and it was of his own volition #but at the same time i dont really think its fair that what they see as one of his biggest betrayals was something he had no agency over #or even limited agency over. i dont really know how much agency he had over the source tbh bc they dont really show us but #but it's like. maybe you fail but your choices still MATTERED yknow? #idk if that makes sense #my original post is more about how the sisters deserved to know more than it really changed anything for cole tho like #idgaf about him like sticking the happy ending or whatever but i think that phoebe (and the sisters) deserved to know #idk man i have a lot of thoughts about cole and phoebe and s4 and 5 and they change all the time so #bc i actually never had that much beef with him when i first watched the show (at like fucking. thirteen lmao) #i only started actively disliking him bc of his fans and tbh a decent portion of it still is how so many people act like he was an innocent #when he still had that blood on his hands #and i also havent really rewatched like s3 thru s5 for a hot hot minute especially not consecutively so like #my opinions may do a complete 180 in either direction once i actually. do that #(we're ignoring that i've been saying that for literally two or three years at this point life is time consuming) #annnnnd we're back to tags being longer than the post whoops lmao

[senseiwu]

"Whys lloyd nicer to harumi than his dad"

I think you just answered the question right there. His dad.

Meant to love and support and be there for him

But Lloyd's whole life has been marked by things his father has done. And then s8 onwards kicks it up a whole bunch of notches.

He doesn't have to accept any changes, after all his father has done.

He's also like a thousand/s of years old.

It's probably easier to think that someone around your age, who's only been doing bad things the past few years, who you know is hurt too, can change more. That might hurt less.

...there's also the whole thing of. Manipulation having lasting effects lmao

#just to be clear #i dont like the ship #and i dont know where people get the idea that theyre together #i just wish people in this fandom would TRY and understand complicated relationships with parents #do you know how much it hurts to have a parent be nicer to other kids than to you #now imagine those other kids are someone who tried to kill you and your friends. #and. #a fucking plant. #my basic point is #stuff hurts more from your parents than other people #maybe im projecting too much but... i dont like how some people treat lloyd in crystalised #hes allowed to be angry with his dad #especially when he tricked him into thinking he was dead so hed do something that he was terrified of???? #hello??? #imagine if wu had done that. youd never hear the end of how awful he is. #anyway. #ive only seen the season once but i dont think its as ooc as people seem to think #...i think a lot of them are wearing... shall we say... purple coloured glasses lmao

[the-hype-dragon]

if we can't tell how much of the desire to have children is socially influenced how can we tell regretting parenthood isn't also socially influenced?

#especially for women who constantly get told if you do this that and the other thing you're a terrible mother lmao #I read a study once that many women hate their babies at some point (because they are loud and unable to communicate like adults) #and I can't help but feel like the normal emotions women feel as mothers are just ignored or downplayed or treated as unnatural #when they're not really. so it's like. how much of regretting motherhood is just regretting how you're treated when you become a mother? #because the testimonies I've read seem to revolve around that more than just regretting the act of having a child lmao #anyway American society doesn't treat women well but most people overlook that and blame women and their babies for their own #mistreatment. tale as old as time! #and then you get called a “baby cultist” or “natalist” if you think women and babies need good social support :-s