#even if in very small doses

[brattysapphicstuff]

so horny its not even funny, i just need someone to grab my hips and eat orgasms and orgasms out of me asap pls

#just had a very small dose of thc gummies too and they make me even more horny... #need to turn my brain off #need to be used #send asks maybe #? #or dms.. #lesbian nsft

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all! Weird question time again So I have kind of a lot of emergency/as needed medications that I have to have with me in my purse whenever I leave the house, and a few more that I have to take with meals, so if I'm going to leave the house for longer than a quick errand I need those too. The problem: I have two nieces that live nearby-ish, one of which is an absolute bundle of chaos of a toddler*, and the kidlet I babysat is going to visit next year. He's nine. If I spend time with any of those kids, how do I childproof my purse full of medications without making it difficult to access emergency medications I could need at very short notice while potentially pretty significantly impaired, like my rescue inhaler? *her parents babyproofed some doors with those latches high up on the door and she figured out how to take a broom and unlatch them

#the person behind the yarn #medical mention #medication mention #harm to children mention #not like specific actual harm it's hypothetical harm I am trying to stop from being an issue #but I know that can be a big issue for people so I tried to tag for it #but like some of the meds I am on can be REALLY BAD if overdosed even a little #one of my meds was used as the murder weapon on a tv show! #and that's the one I (a fully grown not-that-small adult) take 0.05 mg of daily #my nieces are not fully grown and even 0.05mg is probably a dangerous amount for them #but I have to have that pill with me when I leave the house because sometimes I need an extra dose #and if I need an extra dose and don't take it I can get very sick very fast #the benadryl I am less concerned about because A. it's a children's dose and B. it tastes terrible #but I reaaaaally don't want to risk making them sick but also. I HAVE to have those medications with me when I leave the house #and I HAVE to have most of them very easily accessible #because it is difficult to think or do some fine motor skills (like undoing child locks) when wheezing really badly

[thedisablednaturalist]

Last time I went through withdrawal I ended up in the hospital. I can't do it again. I've basically been forced to semi withdrawal every two weeks bc of how the refills are spaced. My legs get so restless I can't sleep. My brain is fuzzy and I can't think. After a couple days the vomiting and headaches start. I'm terrified. I need to work, how can I do that while being forced to go through hell. Yeah maybe I shouldn't be on constant opioids at 26, but can we at least get me off them safely? Can we pursue alternate methods? You're taking away my scuba gear and refusing to help me get back up to the surface. She told me this in one sentence: "I am referring you to the clinical pharmacy for dose optimization and tapering". The pharmacist didn't know anything about that referral. She gave me basic advice that will only work if my doctor agrees to give me more than 10 days to taper. Everyone in the reddit post I made is telling me to save my meds cause I am not getting more. Fuck she didn't even mention referring me to pain management like she's supposed to.

#wrenfea.exe #like even now my legs are restless despite finally getting my normal dose #im still affected by the small withdrawal from a couple days of rationing my meds #someone on reddit actually had to go to their fucking news station who did a story #on how they were suddenly taken off meds cold turkey #a worrying amount of people told me to try kratom #a lot of people on reddit love that stuff #even tho its very dangerous rn #i cant wait to get my new job and drop kaiser #wrenfea.vent

[queer-deoxys-jizz]

LILITH!?!?!?!

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #like serious major spoilers #okay so starting off small finale wise #Adam is dead #Lute's in charge now #LILITH IS IN HEAVEN? AND POSSIBLE BIG ULTIMATE BAD??!!??!?! #I mean I heard theories #especially with her 7 year absence correlating with Alastors #dose Al's deal have something to do with that???? #ALSO WHY TF IS LILITH IN HEAVEN????? #yeah no even if not big bad she has a VERY important story #I highkey think Al has something to do with it but idk what

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[psalmsofpsychosis]

on a scale of 0 to I'm Unsalvagable Nobody Touch Me, how well i'm doing with calboba is, i've been writing about Boba as god's angriest Eve and Cal as his softest serpent of hell, both trapped in a myth not of their own making, and neither of them knows who is damning who for eternity ✨️

Cal buries his hands in his hair, soft and serpentine he slithers into the cracks of boba's bones, rings around the hollow of his heart reverent. He feels soft and certain to the touch, as if this is the way they are, this is the way they've always been; right by the knowing roots of the tree of life, taking a bite of each other's breath and then they both fall, forever.

#no really it makes sense to me #like who harbors the very particular kind of almost delicate stinging grief of being robbed of heaven like Boba does? #who's got Eve's sincere innocent rage and immeasurable punishment like Boba does? #and Cal is such good catalyst he dissolves under people's teeth and works like anti poison #but we must never forget that an antitode is just a small dose of the poison itself #and it will kill if you let it #nobody panic i even get Boba to slice an apple and put it on Cal's tongue #Vibroblade edge under so it grazes Cal's tongue juuuust so and gets bloody #and gives Cal force echo visions #these assholes really write themselves i dont do anything over here #CURSED CALBOBA HOURS CURSED CALBOBA HOURS #Cal Kestis #boba fett #calboba #kesett #Farimah writes

[geddy-leesbian]

think my christmas day plans will be taking an edible and watching silly shit like the Don Quixote movie maybe and listening to the Rush records I got last night

#my mom works that day so won't be doing anything with her #and while it surprisingly hasn't hit yet im pretty sure I'll get rlly sad #from this being the first year im having a christmas visit my sister/BIL/nephews #we never did christmas day with them but me my mom and my other siblings would always go to her place at some point in the season #to play mario party. trivial pursuit. other miscellaneous games #and like ive said my sister's always been a shitty person who was very difficult to have a close relationship with #but she was fun in small holiday doses like that #and i don't feel like getting into all of it rn but what happened with her this year is absolutely smth that can NEVER be fixed #even if she ever apologizes (which i doubt she will) and tries to fix it i still wouldn't feel comfortable having Any contact w her

[toonfinatic]

"Energy" drinks are such bullshit. I drink a can, have energy for maybe 4 hours max, then get so sleepy that i nap for 8 hours and lose all sense of time

#my dad gets annoyed if i drink anything caffeinated during the evening because he wont believe that it makes me sleep #i was on a strong sleeping medication once because i have sleep issues #they gave me a smaller dose to take every evening because they were certain that because im very small itd knock me tf out #did Nothing #they raised the dose to the normal one. the one that has made every single person ive talked to into zombies #did NOTHING again #i quit that medication because it did something once and that wasnt Making me Sleepy but Making me Derealize for a few hours and have #very vivid dreams #posts inspired by the can of battery im drinking knowing full well im the sleepiest bitch alive before 6pm

[thesnacken]

I really feel like people don't take my sensory limitations and sensitivities seriously.

I'm not just being picky, actually! Strong scents cause my respiratory system to flare up!

I actually CAN'T tune out stimuli. Its just A Thing. I've never been able to do it in my whole life because my brain Just Isn't Wired Like That

So when I say "Can you not smoke here?" or "Please only get unscented trash bags" or "I really need you to be using headphones, please" I am expressing a Very Real Need and if you're just going to ignore that I have to resign myself to the fact that I just can't trust you.

#it just... fuckin happens a lot #hey Autistic Bitches website y'all get me right? #but like #essential oils of basically every variety make me wheezy like I'm being forced to breathe cotton balls #menthol is TOO STRONG it makes my nose run and my lungs itch #cigarette smoke even in very small doses makes my lungs flare up #that's before even getting to the stuff that makes me just 'a pussy' #get accused of being lazy or a wuss or whatever when I say “No its below 0°F I physically cannot haul cargo outside or shovel or w/e” #and like I can handle people thinking I'm a huge pussy that's fine everyone has always thought that about me #but frankly nobody takes me seriously and then they get all butthurt about me taking the necessary steps to protect myself #sorry I got born with a Catastrophically Defective Body #believe me if it could help I'd peel this motherfucker apart with my bare hands #Catch me with robotic parts just ripping shit out without disconnecting a damn thing #so I can spot solder things back together or shave a gear or whatever #I'd do it with the meat suit too but it doesn't work like that

[syncrovoid-presents]

YOU CAN HIT A TAG LIMIT??? My ramblings in the tags have been conquered and squashed by the 30 tag limit. How silly!

#syncrovoid.txt #delete later #maybe?? #ANYWAYS if i continue the story it wouldn't make much sense so i will wrap it up by saying #sleep deprivation isnt actually rhat bad and you really have to work to get bad symptoms #anyways on a totally unrelated note i have to take 2 to 4 times the amount of pain killers or sedatives for the to start impacting me #when my wisdom teeth were removed (rude! they are mine haha!) i was given 3 sedatives and full legal dose laughing gas and i was like. #just there. in the room chilling. they did local anesthetics and i remember that whole thing moreso than the average day! #even though the sedatives were supposedly supposed to make you forget or hazy? #anyways near the end of the surgery my dad is walking in the hallway and opens the door but before he fully came in i was like #“hey dad!!” and waved. but when you are supposed to lay still with your mouth held open by tools and filled with blood you are NOT #supposed to sit up and welcome people in. and because my face was covered it was by the sound of his shoes? #i dont reember that bit as much but my dad told me it after and when i went for the follow up the dentist said he'd never been #jumpscared in such a situation by someone who should've been conked out #after the surgery i got up and the dentist gave me my teeth in a small bag (i kept it as a test to see if my memory would get messed up #since how often does that happen?) and i just walked away. freaked out a bunch of people though and my parents lol #anyways it is a joke for some people i know that i am simply Built Different. i think i am just too silly to contain by mortal rules <- #i joke in a very silly way!! i am soso sleep deprived right now #dhould i be saying any of this? is my typing making sense? my fingers are numb and my brain feels three shades ourple from forest deep teal #time to sleowly pass out and time travel! farewell all ye who read this! i hope ye have wondrous days ahead of you and a lovely life!!! #@:P

[wheresernie]

Psychotic people with chronic pain how do you use weed for pain relief without everyone and their mother believing you can't make your own decisions about risk and reward

#it's legal weed too is the thing #and i have to hide it from my parents even though it's legal because they'd be very ableist #if they knew this was a decision i was making for my pain #because they don't take my pain that seriously #also don't worry it's a small dose I'm very stable right now and indica doesn't super affect me unless i abuse it

[annoyinglibra]

Living in a state with recreational weed is so nice :)

#however I think I don’t like smoking too much tbh I’d rather try a really low dose edible because I don’t like how it makes my chest hurt #(I have a small degree of asthma so even if it makes other peoples chests hurt/tighten it does it for me more than the average person) #like the effects are plenty nice aside from the throat and chest closing sensation #but that goes away after around 45 min #but it’s just such a deeply unpleasant 45min that I’d rather try edibles #edit: I only hit it once but I did so reaaally deeply this time and it’s been ages but I still feel silly and calm 😋 #like it’s been a few hours but I’m just feeling ‘:3c hehe’ rn #according to the internet 27% thc content is pretty high so pair that weed lasting long in my system and it makes sense I guess 😋 #I’m guessing I’ll probably sleep well tonight which is exiting!!! #but only after I’m done watching my brother play videogames #also he’s so great he says since I don’t smoke much that I don’t need to pay him anything for either time. #still insane that he let me hit the bong a few times and then his pen for my very first time smoking and thought I’d be fine #<- physically felt horrible but mentally was very entertained #but hitting the bong slowly and holding it deep only one time has been wonderful :) #yay for aerobic health I can hold that shit in for so long before exhaling #but I still want to try an edible next time instead

[prehistorictriforce]

i love finding drama in fanbases im not a part of. i love reading online drama abt things that dont pertain to me. i am a nosy little bitch first and foremost 

#one of the very few reasons it will suck when twitter falls off entirely <///3333 #where else will i get my necessary dose of ridiculous fandom drama that doesnt impact me <///333 #currently knee deep in kp0p drama on twt and wooo buddy #ppl argue abt these groups like its the fucking olympics??? #'my group won x amount of awards in the past two months and your group hasnt' ITS MUSIC?? #LISTEN TO THE MUSIC???? IF THE MUSIC IS GOOD TO YOU THEN THE GROUP IS DOING IT RIGHT??? #sounds like sports twt out here. yall it aint that deep. if they do cool dances and you like the way they sound then thats all they need #am i fuckin missing something. #does the sound and cool dance moves of the group directly relate to the amount of arenas they can sell out in a row #hell some of the best concerts ive ever been to were standing room only #some didnt even have a stage or barricade they were too small #just enjoy music what

[femme-malewife]

hm.

#i am. quite annoyed when i tell my family i do not wish to eat unhealthy very often #and when i explain nutritional value i get ignored #even mocked and laughed at #the internet has ruined humanity. if you eat unhealthy foods it will cause an influx of issues like diabetes and high blood pressure #and other various sort of issues. like obesity as well. #i am. Literally. a former fat person. i used to be big. i used to take low dose aspirin often bc i was scared id have a heart attack #i Had sleep apnea. eating unhealthy here and there in small doses is fine but if thats all youre eating you WILL have issues!!!! #when i began eating healthier my body and health improved. /I/ feel better. i cant work out rn bc of my ankle #BUT ive been making it up by eating extra nutritional foods. sure. i had an unhealthy dinner on friday and even some alcohol. #but i do not make that a habit. #im not telling people that they HAVE to eat healthy or anything. im just annoyed that voices like mine get shut down and labelled as bs #aka ''ftphbia'' and then told im intolerant and WRONG abt health #when I MYSELF EXPERIENCED THIS SHIT AND FELT BETTER WHEN I BETTERED MY EATING HABITS #im not ''blessed'' for my thin/curvy body. i had to WORK to get it. i gain weight VERY easily and STRUGGLE to lose it #im proud of how far ive come. im proud of how im not as big as i used to be. im proud that im much healthier now. #and yet despite my mom formerly telling me i needed to lose weight? now shes scoffing at me pointing out nutritional value in food??? #bruh. #ill delete this later i just need to vent

[theloveinc]

this is v v random and you dont have to answer if you dont want to bc it IS personal, but i wanted to ask abt ur experience on wellbutrin? in terms of like, getting energy or feeling tired, sleepy? im worried about it making me sleepy/tired/brain fog (im 26 n BUSY as heck) again, dont have to answer at all, just asking bc i know youre quite open n honest on stuff so i thought id give it a shot and ask about your experience n like. ur pros & cons if thats okay. anyways thank u lub u legend bye <3

🥺Legend, of course u can ask!! I'm probably not the best choice, given I've only been on it since early June (and some people, much longer)... but honestly, in terms of brain fog and sleep... I have had almost literally NO issues and am all positive reviews here (...kinda).

One of the reasons I was prescribed it actually was for excessive sleepiness and brain fog (I get horrible, horrible brain fog normally and I have for years.)... and even though the results have been somewhat inconsistent since I've switched dosages like three times (and was off for a bit), literally it's helped SOOOOO much.

Obviously, people's reactions are going to be different, a moot (who I can tag but don't want to like... expose)(edit: @ace-of-books in the replies of this post!!!) on here told me Wellbutrin actually keeps her awake to the point where she needs mild sedatives to sleep... but I've honestly found I have no trouble actually going to sleep once I actually decide to (I like to use my phone in bed so I partially blame some sleep issues on that, but... you know) and waking up has gotten way, WAY easier.

(Also, with my new dosage, I take it twice a day and it's the NON-time release pills, and I've noticed that actually I haven't been as tired getting into bed usually... but someone told me this would go away once I fully adjusted AND I didn't have that problem on the time released capsules I took initially. Also it could just be that I've been taking a lot of naps at 8pm LMAOOO AND it doesn't actually bother me since the brain fog has been very reduced! *skips and jumps and claps feet together like a little leprechaun*🤩🤩🤩)

So yeah. More issues with... not being able to sleep than with being sleepy in the daytime. Thought when I was taking my more concentrated dose, if I had caffeine with it, things would get a little WoOoOooooOOOOooo funny🤡!!! at first.

As for cons... it's so funny because when I switched dosages the first time, I was like "omg these pills suck they stopped working after like, a month..." THAT WAS NOT TRUE LMAOOO. I HAD JUST GOTTEN USED TO THEM, and when I moved on to a higher dosage (150mg once a day to 150 TWICE a day🥶😨😱), I literally went insane (crying over mild inconveniences IN PUBLIC. I could think too hard and I would cry. Keep me awake over anxiety literally non-stop type insane).

And then, when I subsequently stopped taking them and it faded(?) from my system, it became very clear I actually was... worse off without them and I was extremely happy to go back on

I could always get used to it again, but right now I feel GREAT and literally kind of spring out of bed when I need to be up. No more lazing about waiting for my mind to work, it just does for the most part.

(Though I do get tired in the day because my schedule is awful, and also still crave sleeping a lot when I am in bed, it's just when I do wake + get up the adjustment period from sleepy time to being awake is almost... instant. So that, I would say, is fantastic).

ANYWHOOOO, this is kind of a long-winded answer that I answered sort of... backwards (talking about lack of sleep vs. excessive sleep), but... my experience has been so positive, even despite the dosage changes and the fact that it obviously hasn't cured my depression entirely. I just haven't had any issues with it making me tired at all, and it's FIXED my brainfog, which I guess is the answer to your question!

BUT, and I'm just gonna say this for legal reasons cuz I'm sure you already know, talk to your doctor/a medical professional first before making any decisions! Don't base taking it entirely off of ME because I also know people who experienced nothing positive on Wellbutrin at all. Not me, tho. But that can be common.

Thanks for reading this all (and being sooo sweet I lub you too + am kissing you), if you did! And no worries if you didn't, but good luck with whatever ends up happening!💕💕💕

#me and wellbutrin are besties #except if theres too much of her... #(i had a very public breakdown) #then i need a break. but me and small doses?? THAT'S MY HOMEGIRL #would literally make out with my pills if i could (thats gross sorry) #and ig some other things to consider: #i really experience nothing negative from birth control pills either so... idk if that changes anything #but it could be i'm just okay with medicine #and also i tried uhhh prozac and even tho nothing bad happened really... actually my grades tanked BUT... #it really just didnt work #so those are my other experiences with medication and idk if add or take away from this #but yeah!! i'd really recommend it for issues like preexisting brainfog and tiredness #not sure if it will ... make things revert for you #but yeah! #i'm super super busy too and it really didn't affect me much except positively #like when i started taking it i was on a break.. BUT when i started it a second time ... i had no problems adjusting with my schedule #which was nice #anyway i'll go now and im hoping this is helpful!!! #and not confusing #BYE. #<3333 #caitie answers #anon

[jooyeone]

ok do i buy a copy of time is a mother by ocean vuong even though i don't know if i can bring myself to read it ...

#the major themes are grief and motherhood which. i would not be able to touch right now with a ten foot pole #that being said he writes beautifully and every little snippet i've read here and there from it has felt like a punch in the gut #i Want to have a physical copy of his poetry collection to reach for whenever the heart demands it #...even if that means reading this in very small doses probably months apart #but do i. do i do it