#four months and two days

[imminences]

TOP 10 BOOKS. ALL FOR THE GAME

hope was a dangerous, disquieting thing, but he thought perhaps he liked it.

#litedit #aftgedit #aftg #all for the game #storyseekers #usermin #usersi #userluc #invention. #report. all for the game #v. #two edits in two days is my applogy for no edits in two months #nvm it was four months 💀

[spywhitney]

How I sleep knowing I'll never trust anyone that hates Sydney but worships Richie:

#the bear #the bear fx #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #richie jerimovich #jk kind of #well on days I don't see or think about Sydney haters #under every damn comment section in this fandom is someone saying Sydney didn't take accountability #like I know we all have our biases but yall are really shameless about it #Sydney scored A LOT of Ws for The Beef AND The Bear #but one time she makes a mistake and justifiably walks away from a toxic work environment she's the devil #Richie worked at The Beef for years and Sydney did more for it in what less than four months than he did #on top of being a prick to Sydney in particular because she was changing things he wanted to keep the same #to the detriment of the restaurant but also everyone #and overall being unpleasant to Carmy #Nat and anyone that didn't find him funny or interesting or like his bs #pre-Forks Richie reminds me of those types of people that only listen to people that like them #and I love that because it's realistic to some ppl #I do like Richie #it just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth knowing there are people that hate Sydney #ignore her accomplishments only to raise up Richie #in the same breath when the actual show is showing you what's up #like you'd think there were different versions of the show with how these two are perceived #I get this weird need to defend Sydney when people shit on her because I wonder how often said people treat the Sydneys of the world #but that aside #In Fishes Richie mentions something about wasting potential at the beef #In Ceres it's implied he called the popo on the dealers after Sydney deescalated a situation Richie previously dealt with #in an unorthodox manner #he recognised he needed to change but still was an arsehole to the one person who was facilitating that change effectively Sydney #this show is great but people denying what they're seeing on their own screens is crazy

[sincerethoughtsblog]

Happy Women's History Month

and she looked good doing it too 😋

#love quinn #victoria pedretti #you season four #you season 4 #you season three #you season two #you netflix #love quinn did nothing wrong #international women's day #women's history month

[yeelincolnha]

I remember my first introduction to serirei came from a comic I saw on Twitter with these very lovely gay men in business suits that were so sweet to each other but one of them clearly had issues (I now realize they both do).

But do you know how shippable they have to be in order for a complete outsider (me at the time. I literally knew nothing about mp100 at the time except that the new season had just come out) to ship these guys? I WAS CONVINCED WITH A TOTAL OF FOUR DRAWINGS.

THATS ALL IT TOOK.

#now thats either a sign im weak or that serirei's gay coding is REMARKABLE #mp100 #serirei #it was reigen i assumed had issues at first LMAOOO #i also saw that man and went: why tf is he moving his hands like that #and then i saw Seri and went: AWWWWWWWW #it was wild #this experience led me to watch mp100 when my sibling and i were scrolling crunchyroll one day #“Wasn't there two gay dudes in this show?? eh. might as well watch” #*BOOM“ #HYPERFIXATION FOR FOUR MONTHS!!!! #WOE #WOE BE UPON YE

[mattodore]

finally updated my game for growing together and the first thing i did when i opened cas was make this guy... say hi to rajan 👋

#river dipping #my sims #simblr #ts4 #ts4 edit #basically mia for two days bc i was updating my game and cc hunting for infants and fixing mods and i come back w/ this #WHO is he? you ask #...............................idk just some guy kdjfngsjdnkjnsdgk #literally no refs no aesthetic board just made this guy from scratch after i realized i forgot to update stand still in cas #which meant the infants were all glitched and i couldn't do anything with them #like i was annoyed so i just started fucking around in cas instead of fixing the problem jfgkdjhg #i've fixed it now tho (i think) so i'm loading the game back up as we speak!!!! #i actually wanted to check on some sweaters i recolored and then i'm gonna make a baby for the sole purpose of putting them in theo's arms #>:) #also yea i went through the trouble of updating everything knowing that horses drops soon <3 #i'll just wait another four months to update again 😁 #...........also seriously this is just some guy i don't really have anything i need him for #i gave him outfits for all the categories too like....... why? idk but he was fun to dress #i'll probably throw him in either attilio's legacy gameplay (...pour one out for our forgotten men) or the new !! casual oc save #ALSOOOO need to edit the sim lush made me so it suits my sim style more and i'll put the sim in my saves too #i'll probably bring her back out whenever i DO update to horses kdjnhkjgnh i think her and attilio could be ranchers together

[alexturner2005]

i had to put my dog down today 💔💔💔💔💔💔 worst thing i have ever experienced

#he went downhill so fast in the last two days :((((( #couldn’t breathe couldn’t walk wouldn’t eat #he paced from 1pm-1am yesterday without laying down even tho he was so wobbly :((((( #and he was so bad today 😥 #he was the best dog he didn’t deserve lung cancer 💔 #sweetest cutest dog in the world and i have the credentials to say that as someone who worked at a pet store for six years #and met thousands of dogs #we got three and a half extra months with him after we initially were gonna put him down but he bounced back #and then we almost put him down two more times #he tried so hard for us 💔 #living this day four times (with this time being the worst obviously) has been so traumatic #i’m grateful for all the extra time we got but it didn’t make me any more prepared #miss him soooo much already no dog will ever compare 💔💔💔

[caterpillarinacave]

y’all I just got the MOTHERLOAD of all pastries

#I have not eaten this much in months #My aunt found a cool bakery like an hour away so we made it this whole thing #I stay over at her house we leave at 5:30 #We buy donut for her students (12 or 15) #then the following: #Two homemade pop tarts two tag-a-long Girl Scout cookie donuts 2 thin mint GS donuts a French cruller with vanilla frosting a caramel role #3 plain cake donut one cake donut with chocolate frosting one chantilly cream mousse cake four macarons in espresso chocolate rasberry and #Black berry (I wanted lemon but panicked and said rasberry) a ham and cheese croissantFollowed by two loafs of bread and an orange spice te #And McDonald’s Hashbrowns #To be clear this is all being shared and my aunt planned to spend a decent chunk of money #It was something like 112 bucks? #Not as bad as I thought tbh #We had four boxes of baked goods. Four. Boxes. #You know what I eat every other day of my life? A bowl of yogurt in the morning and a bowl of veggies with egg at night #I don’t usually consume the amount of calories I just ate in a week #Mutuals sending you pastries #So early morning roads showing up at peoples doors and handing them treats + tea? Pretty much perfect

[lich-slap]

Guys. I SWEAR. I know I've been saying it for the last two years but this time the new season is going to be Fantasy High Jun- *Brennan Lee Mulligan shoots me*

#i be putting on my clown makeup every two-four months at this point #AND ONE DAY I WILL BE RIGHT #dimension 20

[basaltbutch]

evereyone pray for me i have an interview with one of the conservation corps tomorrow snd im so scareds about it. shaking like a little wet dog.

#it speaks #this one in particular is like. if i get accepted it means i get to move in with a beloved #and its also a four day week guaranteed #and its only 9 months long compared to the year #and i can still be like. social and have a social life outside of it and continue to occasionally post deranged shit #but there's only two positions open in this location n they prefer residents of that state over non-residents #and i am a non-resident. so .

[jupiter235]

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#finished day four of a seven day straight stint at work #and I am so fucking exhausted already #on top of being the one responsible for most of our cats #I've also been charged with caring for two puppies who have been fighting parvovirus #and an eight-month old juvenile dog with a bullet fragment in his spine who may never regain the use of his back legs #and my supervisor as well as one of my co-workers who I'd normally be able to split some of this work with will be off #which is only going to leave me and another co-worker covering cats as well as the three dogs we've been assigned to #and this co-worker flat refuses to work with dogs at all and will only work one area of cats #he won't even handle giving out any medications or anything #which means I'll be doing the majority of the work in cats #my one saving grace is that I can get someone from dogs to help me with the dog with the bullet in his spine if need be #since once I've had contact with the puppies that have parvo I won't be allowed contact with any other dog there #I have some PTO time #I'm seriously thinking about taking some of it

[arctic-hands]

I have joined the society of bluetooth earphones

#refurbished for the record #i have been dragged kicking and screaming into the future #my phone doesn't have a headphone jack. my mp3 player does but it also has bluetooth capability. my ereader only has bluetooth for audio #so I figure since I'm going on the eclipse trip in a few months I should get some wireless buds for the train #went with some used skullcandy sesh because they were like twenty-two dollars had had a twenty hour battery life #I ALMOST went with some used Hesh headphones that looked really cool and had fifteen hours but were also forty-nine dollars #which combined with the other things I needed to buy would have put me thirteen dollars over my seventy-five dollar walmart giftcard #I was very tempted if just for the aesthetique~ but realized if I bought the cheaper earbuds I could have enough money for some instax film #and the cheaper earbuds and 2 pack of film plus the household objects I needed put me at a tidy seventy-four dollars and fifty-six cents #so I didn't have to spend any actual money on anything woot woot #the earbuds are blue. which is my favorite color. but they're like a pastel blue. which is like my least favorite shade of blue #ah well I'll sacrifice looks for function and affordability any day #*stares in slight dismay at hideously pink refurbished and thirty dollar instax mini 9* #what I REALLY wanted was some of those urbanista solar-powered headphones/earbuds #but even used/refurbished both were out of the total price range of the gift card(s) #I actually had two giftcards which together totaled seventy-five so that was pretty sweet

[oldestenemy]

spider dad says i’m his favorite thing in the spiral 🥺

luckily for him i appreciate his more overt manipulations.

unluckily for him i am still bound to the whims of his ex wife.

#still tapping. less murder. #lark is still playing funky wizard game from their childhood #nightshade adventures in polaris #wizard101 #i beat polaris in two days #that is a hell of a ride after taking FOUR MONTHS TO DO KHRYSALIS

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

[bonojour]

my best friend: i really admire that you work right now just so you can study

me, internally: thanks i feel like i am drowning right under the surface & i can get just enough little gulps of air to get right back to suffering again

#it is manageable because i know it will be over in a couple months #i attended a graduation ceremony and got stupidly internally emotional #i know a bachelors degree is not That Much but i have struggled my way through two failed degrees before getting here #and i could tell my parents were sad to see me so lost #and i just know when i look them in the eyes the moment after signing that stupid paper (hopefully) next year that i will be sobbing #i love my study currently a lot (even if travelling four hours a day is... extensive) #and i am planning to go for a masters degree after this #but just.... that feeling of finally having that degree #and knowing my parents can be there #and that i am finally worth something #and the second person in my whole family with a university degree #i do not live to make my parents proud but it brings me great joy that the route i am on will bring them pride #and even if they will never understand #and probably wont be able to cross that gap from a small farm to uni life in the city #... then we will at least have a very meaningful memory that we can both understand in the form of graduating

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once??? #idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

[steampoweredskeleton]

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#delete later #i have three medical appointments in the work day in the next three weeks #one on Thursday then two mid/late January and i know that its good bc i need these appointments but i get so #anxious that ppl ay work are mad at me for having so many #im also scared about thirsdays one bc its for my ankle and hand pain and ironically the hand is way better and the ankle is also #more stable. something clicked again a couple days ago and fixed the pain in half of ky foot. no idea what happened there but #the click itself hirt like a bitch which is new. most of my pain doesnt start with a click and most clicks are painless #so fun #im just in a permanent state of being afraid i wont be taken seriously. my physio wanted a scan on my foot so om gonna #relay that but like idk what theyre gonna say. also if they do want to swnd me for a scan that's gpnna be ANOTHER appointment #so fuck me i guess. at the very leasy its not like severe psin any more so they wont send me to a and e for an x ray like they did #with my hip that one time. that would fucking suck to explain tp my manager #hey julia im fine but ive been sent ro rhe hospital for a scan so i guess ill be back when im back? #fuck me im anxious. and i hace so much apprenticeship work tp do i want to scream #also was distracted by my aching hands bc often they just ache abd successfully triggered myself so bow time to play what #is actual acge and what is remembered ache oh joy #one of the other appointments is gender clinic appointment abd im hoping to get referred for top surgery now ive been on t #for 9 months. waiting list gonna be like four fucking years but debating saving like mad abd going private bc jesus Christ #i cant bind bc of sensory problems and constantly aching ribs and last time i taped i ripped chunks of skin off so kinda #think i shouldn't do that again but like it sucks. not as bad now that my voice is dropping abd shit but still not fun #we'll see!