#got winded way too much

[zoppzoop]

worked out today after quite a while!!! felt good to know that even after all the cracky bones and long days spent sitting at my desk, I haven't lost too much of my flexibility, although my stamina has dropped down WAY too much. hopefully I can wake up early and go for a run tomorrow and slowly build it up!!

#didnt work out too much today. just a little bit of warm ups for the whole session #got winded way too much #stretches were good #need to work my way up on the weights again :') #this time im gonna build up my back and shoulders hopefully #i saw a few fanarts of jay and got reminded of the episode where they were getting dresses for the grimm ball and how the lady there was #fawning over jay's goddess-like shoulders and yea #buff fictional women being my workout inspration never stops #last time it was shimura nana and miruko and i got my legs strong. couldnt lose the fat tho so I had to keep hearing mom say things but #oh well I like them this way ^^ #i hope im more consistent this time though

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[devotioncrater]

"no hints were dropped" ok not to be that person but here are the hints that were dropped regarding Colin and Trent being gay:

1. Colin mentioning Grindr in a joke

2. Trent touching the arm of a man in the background

Here is one of the hints that Keeley was bi (even though I do believe she's been canonically bi since season 1, but not everyone sees it this way)

1. Her desktop background was in the colors of the bisexual flag

Here were some of the hints that Ted was bi:

1. Bisexual flag colored triangles above his head in the hallucination sequence

2. Inverted pink triangle next to him in that same sequence (and you can't tell me the creators didn't know, when the Homomonument is based on that symbol)

3. Countless (countless!!!) comments about men's physiques ("huge muscular thighs all caked in mud", whistling at a picture of Pep, "look at that head of hair", "he's strong", "he looks like a Rodin sculpture in cleats", etc.)

4. About a man (Higgins) and a woman (Rebecca), he had to say: "that's a crowd I don't mind being smack-dab in the middle of"

5. Him checking Trent out in the pub in 2x07 (his eyes are up there, Ted!)

6. "It could go either way", "I contain multitudes" and other comments in this vein

7. Bi lighting as he entered the Yankee Doodle Burger Barn

8. Giving similar looks to the female waitress and the male waiters in that restaurant (including a waiter in a cowboy costume that looked like he belonged in a gay club, who tipped his hat at Ted when greeting him)

9. "That's cause you were put into a box", "That box ceases to exist today", the box in the hallucination sequence breaking into triangles (as in the bi triangles and the inverted pink triangke), "we've been playing too rigid", "our guys need freedom", "fast, fluid, free, with full support", the "box that one needs to break out of" being a prominent motif in season 3

10. Wishing Beard called him pet names ("Honey, is that an ingredient or something you just called me?")

11. His crush on Pep

12. The connection between Ted and Colin: "my whole life is two lives, really", both wearing orange in Sunflowers, "I just want to kiss my fella" (Colin doesn't say "fella" , but Ted says it all the time), Ted just needs to get inspired and Colin's play is "inspirational" after he comes out, as per the commentators

And so much other stuff that, had Ted not self-identified as straight (*cough* put himself into a box *cough cough*) , you could make the case that he was canonically bi.

Here are some of hints that there was a romantic connection between Ted and Trent:

1. They hit a lot of romantic beats, and not in the jokey self-aware way in which Roy and Ted hit them in "Rainbow", but in an organic and sincere way

2. They both checked each other out: Trent checked Ted out when Ted was changing in front of him, Ted checked Trent out when Trent came up to him in a pub and hit him with a pick-up line while his date that looked a lot like Ted waited for him outside

3. Did I mention that Trent was on a date with a moustachioed man who dressed in a similar style to Ted? Let's mention it again

4. In that very bar, during a 50 second long conversation, Trent managed to say the word "love" three times. I searched the word "love" in the transcripts of the episodes. There's no other instance in which its frequency is this high

5. "Love our chats" incomplete rule of threes

6. "Sport, it's quite the metaphor" (implied: a metaphor for love; see also "love's a beautiful game" from the song Ed Sheeran wrote for Ted Lasso), "Also makes for a heck of a nickname", "Good night, Ted", "Good night, sport"

7. The soft, romantic, melancholic song playing in the background of this scene, while Ted and Trent are the last ones left in the office, with lyrics such as "When your words begin to crumble like the sidewalks all around this crummy neighborhood / From the chalky cliffs of Dover / I'd come over, I'd start over if I could"

8. Trent wearing sunflower colors in the episode "Sunflowers" and in the finale; sunflowers symbolize Ted's home (it's not subtle). He's the only character dressed like that. I'm still looking for any other explanation other than "Trent is Ted's home"

9. Their constant flirting and the way they look at each other with incredible fondness

10. The entire episode "The Strings That Bind Us". It's structured around Ted and Trent's relationship, and the way Trent changed because of Ted (in season 2, Ted defined a soulmate as someone who changes your life forever). The red string metaphor. Ted points out that soulmates are connected by a string tied to their little fingers. Ted and Trent both extend their little fingers out in similar shots. They are connected by a huge block of red in their last scene of the episode. Ted makes several comments about other men that apply to Trent ("Look at that head of hair", "Frames his face nicely", "My favorite one, he was clean shaven"). Many more details that lead back to Ted and Trent: Nate tells the restaurant owner to tell Jade he said "Hello". Immediately after, Ted and Trent say "Hello" to each other. The map that Nate's father used to ask out his mom has the number 1.3 written on it and an illustration of two people at a table in a restaurant. Ted and Trent went to a restaurant together in season 1, episode 3. The last scene of the episode mimics a "Race for Love" scene from a romcom, with Trent chasing after Ted. Trent also does not say a word to anyone other than Ted in the entire episode. He is completely focused on Ted

11. "Trent, what do you love? Is it writing?" and Trent ends up writing a book about Ted and naming the manuscript after Ted and he only cares about Ted's opinion on it (he leaves the room when Beard starts reading, but stays in the office after hours just to watch Ted read. "I just wanted you to like it.")

11. Trent's crush on Ted, confirmed by Jimmy Lance (and also obvious in the show, if you ask me)

Now, why would I believe that none of these hints were intentional? Maybe some could be explained away, but all of them? The hints we got for Colin, Trent and Keeley were so much smaller than this, and those turned out to be intentional.

anon i wish i could offer you the response you deserve, but i cannot stop rereading this masterpiece & focusing on the portions of evidence you provided that i didn't even pick up on until you laid them out. holy shit

#IM LOSING MY MIND????? HOLY SHIT #anon you provided a THESIS STATEMENT #kissing you on the forehead & sending you flowers & baking your favorite bread #ted lasso #tedtrent #tedependent #trent crimm #there's also the casablanca references between them #& the way in amsterdam trent says there's a van gogh museum night. and where does ted wind up? at the van gogh museum looking at sunflowers #their arcs are foils too. both got divorced around the same time. both have one kid (ted has a boy and trent has a girl) #trent left his wife meanwhile michelle left ted #trent is happier post-divorce meanwhile ted struggles with the loss #there's the wizard of oz motif too and who wears red shoes? trent. it's subtle but he wears what look like red heeled shoes #speaking of shoes....the cheetah print motif is also present with trent #'hes our dork' and ted's fond gaze as he watches trent disappear #there's SO MUCH there dude SO MUCH

[bluntloyalist]

#posts #wind breaker #they are eating my brain up so fast like im laughing but its not even funny. i was supposed to replace my groceries today 😂😂 #smoking and dont even got shit to eat due to Thinking About Media And Characters too much like 😂😂 im laughing but 😐😂😂😐😂 #anyway these guys are hilarious and their sibling energy is off the charts. squabbling immediately then locking in immediately 😂😂 #w a side of annoying tf out of eachother either way for the hashtag realism 😂😂😂 #im not tagging their names this post will reach who its meant to reach lmao.......godspeed #if u saw me edit this. no u didnt :)

[vynnyal]

Turns out Sunlit Trail isn't quite done just yet, so after all that they just send you to a dead end 😂

#rain world #comic #rw chasing wind #sunlit Trail #Hunter #Art #Chasing wind spoilers #I can't imagine anyone filters that tag but just in case sksksks #ANYWAYS turns out mod is way better than I expected and it's super well made. #So far made the trip as hunter (first time) then riv and now working on arti. #For arti I realized that howling rifts led to sub and sub led to dar shore so I was like sweet! A shortcut! #Now imagine for a sec trying to get through a parkcore + miros bird gauntlet with a corpse and a worm within 5 cycles #before the scav ran out of karma and you were stuck inside forever. Yeah #Besides that tho I've been messing around and been very tenderly modding the game. #Turns out you can have a bit of fun with most sprites without too much effort by simply cloning the MSC mod in your files #Then changing the copy's mod info so it doesn't clash and simply swapping images out for whatever you want #As long as you have the sprite name you can do this. You can also change region names and decals and music all sorts of stuff. #In short I've been brewing a custom mod for a friend to make her suffer as much as possible <3 #Thanks to a buddy on the rw server for showing me that trick btw lol. The best cesspool I've ever participated in #Oh before I forget- the symbol on CW's head is completely made up. They just looked so... Bald. #Tbh I wasn't expecting their personality to be so... bright? Most interpretations make them kinda solemn and gloomy #But nah this CW is what NSH should've been 100%. I like them. Not gonna spoil too much but their situation is somehow so... chill. #Still bad tho! #Other fun news! There's a scammer going around on discord that's basically like ''bad news I reported you for fraud'' #And they're getting a lot of people. My buddy that owned my home server got hit and we lost everything. It's all OK tho nobody was hurt #I keep trying to ask them questions on my alts but they're ignoring me... I kinda wanna bait them into doing the scam with me #to see how far I get before they catch on 😜 #Wasting a scammer's time is never a waste of time #Ah I had more to say but I reached my tag max. Till next time- hopefully my animation project will be done by then!

[summertimemusician]

*downs coffee like a shot* Before we go back to our regularly scheduled Linktober/Linktober Shadow (because I don't leave things unfinished if I can help it), I gotta get the idea of Revenant First out of my system and y'all get to suffer with me until it eventually ceases being an idea and it turns into an actual story. For some reason we talk a lot about First already being alive or already a ghost by the time the Chain meets him, but I don't think I've ever heard someone talk about him actually coming back to life and so y'all get to suffer with my insane ramblings like I'm an 1800's psychic ward patient who believes themselves to be a witch.

Can be x Reader or not idk just an idea that won't leave my mind.

Might expand on this later so Part out of I/?

Revenant First, who died for his people and in the name of his Goddess. All alone on the surface, fighting, fighting, fighting, always fighting. Just to make the land a little safer before the next hero arrives, just to contain the Imprisoned for a little while longer with likely nothing than a ordinary, common sword to his name and a slowly rusting armor.

Always giving so so so much for his people, always doing his best to protect them, though they scorned him, loathed him, didn't believe or support him, rejected him.

With a spirit so strong and lovely that a Goddess fell for him, hated herself for having to manipulate and put him through such horrid experiences just to save the many, just to turn the diamond of his soul into an unbreakable lonsdaleite blade agaisnt a mad deity.

Someone whose will would be enough to keep him going, just one more fight right? Just one more kill right? Forward, forward, ever onward, it doesn't matter if the flesh decays, if the blood drips drips drips until he is dry of it, if the liver doesn't process nutrients, if the lungs don't draw air, if the nerves feel nothing but the cold cold numbness of the winter of his final years, if the heart doesn't beat. If the armor rusts or the sword breaks. He must keep going, he must keep fighting.

To keep them safe he must have faith, faith that he can keep going, to grasp onto that one.single.thread of purpose until the day that fiery, indomitable, determined will finally burns out. Even if his Goddess may have forsaken him knowingly or unknowingly, even if his people have rejected him to the point he isn't even human anymore, even though they reviled him, even if that rejection should by all intents and purposes chained his spirit to the land or ground the jewel of his unbreakable soul into dust, he still loves them, still adores them, still wants to protect them.

No matter how long he must keep going for it. He wishes to see those he holds dear happy, though they cursed and imprisoned him once.

The Chain getting dropped into a completely empty, desolated and undeniably dead version of Sky's Hyrule, only to find the only living thing besides monster is a single man, with rusted gold armor and an old sword, a faded tunic of green with a long, crimson scarf like a bloody banner. With hair and eyes like theirs, undeniably a Link. But so very frigid, so very silent they almost didn't notice him, that they can't help but wonder just how many years he has spent there, eroding away, ruined but still kind, kind, so very gentle. A shadow of his former self, yes, but still himself, still so so so good, doing all he can until Sky's Era comes and maybe, just maybe, he can finally rest.

Or maybe not, after all, someone has to keep the land safe until the Hero after Sky comes around, no?

Just Revenant First in general.

Or maybe we give him the House in Fata Morgana treatment, the House in Fata Hylia Au if you will- *collapses from sleep deprivation*

#linked universe headcanons #lu first #lu fic idea #Revenant First #lu first x reader #maybe? it's mostly just an idea lol #might expand on this later lol #Also knows as what happens when Summer is sleep deprived while doing essays takes a break by listening to The House in Fata Morgana OST #and suddenly gets First in the brain lol #still have way too much First Hero on the brain that man deserves the world but at the same time I want to put him into Situations lol #Feral Revenant First being protective of the Chain my beloved #Sky being so confused because Fi at the same time recognizes the man and has just started lowkey crying and screaming in chimes #Twi Wind Hyrule and Time not knowing wether to be morbidly intrigued or horrified because he registers as both dead and alive to them #Meanwhile First is just chilling #doing his own thing and probably bonding with Wild over 'Being Dead but Got Better' #Probably doesn't even register he shouldn't be moving anymore after taking a stab to the heart or something lol #if we want to make an X Reader kind of thing then it's literally his love for Reader which also allows him to keep going #alongside sheer force of will and determination #Michel and Giselle vibes ya know? lol #Wait would that make Hylia Morgana? Or could it be Demise or something? Eh #I dunno might expand on that later/write out that Au later on as a self indulgent thing #Anyway for now ya'll get this until I am finally not swamped with literature/language essays and fistfighting sleep deprivation #Summer Writes #Summer Writes Linked Universe Headcanons #Summer's Sleep Deprived Headcanons

[bigcryptiddies]

It might just be that I’m a little dumb but I feel like jjk has the most convoluted ability system to the point where the creator can have their characters explain what’s happening every single time and yet I don’t understand it even once

#watching jjk #and like I’m really trying but this goes over my head #and I don’t know if I’m at fault or they’re just not…very good #like in Naruto they explained the chakra system and I got it #in tg they explain the difference between types of kagune and I got it #in demon slayer it basically all comes down to breathing #but jujutsu…the way it’s set up and everything…I don’t think it was well thought through lol #I think there’s too much variance between each character’s ability and not enough foundation to explain how it’s all different #styles of the same medium so to speak #I feel like the foundation wasn’t explained well enough and that’s precisely WHY the manga and anime both get so wordy and long winded when #explaining each new technique every time a character does something rather than like getting on with the actual fight #watching jujutsu kaisen

[zestials]

zestial's wardrobe is heavily inspired by social status & occasion ( as was so prevalent in the time period he lived in , something he has carried over in death. ) he certainly is capable of looking the part of a horror , with raggedy clothes that befit a ghost rather than a man. but it is all curated , it's the appearance he wants others to see ! the web he's weaved to ensnare them.

he doesn't care much about what anyone else wears --- it's hell , he's gotten used to it & seeing how fashions have changed over the centuries. this is to say : his attires just his personal preference , don't knock his style & he won't knock yours ! but he will definitely take note & like you more if you dress up for certain occasions as he sees that as being proper.

i compiled a bunch of outfits i could see him wearing ( just pretend there aren't .. crosses on some of them. xo ) as to be expected it's a lot of old(er) timey fashion , loose poofy sleeves , frills , accessories , capes , etc. always tailored impeccably though there are times where he wears more boxy silhouettes to evoke a certain image. not included but he'd be open to corsets & obviously dresses , they were both worn by the wealthy in his time ( & he thought the weird stigma of later centuries around it to be utterly absurd. quite literally would've taken someone's tongue for a snide comment about it. ) so depending on the event , he can be seen in either !

** he doesn't personally wear makeup but if a partner or friend wanted to put it on him , he wouldn't mind all that much.

he does have different hats though his patched one is his favorite & various feathers & skull ornaments are changed out depending on the day. zestial most notably dresses up for events like parties , especially those that might have those he holds in high regard in attendance. ( basically anyone in hell's hierarchy above him lucifer / lilith / charlie , sins or the ars goetia ) or dates. he still dresses suitably for business meetings but far more casual ( as casual as zestial gets lbr ) like what we see in the show.

occasionally adapts styles from later time periods but heavily prefers to be more dressed up , you will never see him touch a t-shirt or jeans. ( but he could be talked into like a more modern three piece suit. )

& lastly , yes he sleeps ( if he does sleep half the time ) in scrooge pajamas unironically definitely has a nightcap & gowns / robes but occasionally will sleep in a nightshirt or simply undergarments as well. functionality over style for him in that department !! i am so sorry.

#* ── a haunting curse. : headcanons. #this is a long winded way of saying zee's just a goth from the 1600s #extremely detailed. so many accessories #his shoes r always classy too. i already had to look up so much abt fashion don't @ me #just know .. he Is Capable of being in more than rags i promise #but he's still got those on deck for the aesthetic of being a horror :pensive:

[beeduoo]

would u try

#i would take a bite #ctubbo #ctubbo fanart #i will never use the main cc tag thay is so scary i feel like im way too early 2021 pilled my username is gonna get me on a list somwhere😭😭 #it is 2024 #sorreyyy no big pieces lately i am in School and actually that has nothign to do with it i just like to spend 3 hours walking around my Park #IT WAS BEAUTIFUL TODAY LIKE OMG.insanw ir was 80 degrees perfect weather i Trained to school and Back it was so nice and oughgh when i went #to the park after it was LIFERLALY THE PERFECT WEATHEE like all that crazy wind from the day before GONE i was so happy and the clouds were #so beautiful i love the park i lovvee my town i literallu]t live in heaven im so serious]d #tomorrow i will make zucchini bread.....i need to write this essay too but then IM FREE i can lock in i literally finished my part for this #history project in like an hour i am a Pro Procrastinator i got that😅😅 #thays it for tofay i think nothing crazy ok good night #read gourmet hound on webtoon its SOO GOOODDS every time i think of sweets i think of thay damn Webtoon #omg i need to write a rant abour that but not today.....Tomorrow maybe i have so much to say about that ok bue

[diarrheathingwhenyoushit]

Fem!Ryusae magical girls 💯

#bllk fanart #blue lock #art #blue lock shidou #shidou ryusei #bllk sae #itoshi sae #ryusae #shidou x sae #bllk shidou #blue lock sae #fem ryusae #magical girl #I know Shidou looks very fire elemental coded but he’s actually water #gasoline water specifically #sae is Wind #I have like a whole power system for this au #its composed of element and fighting type #actually designing the clothes was hell tho I’d much rather spend years creating power levels #I got way too into this

[dutybcrne]

Thunderings are happening, my brain has funneled off into hcs mode

#//Aka; guess who am I gonna ramble on abt rn lol #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #hc; kaeya #//That's right; babes! #//Anywho; Kae is NOT a fan of thunder #//If it's not tales of the Electro Archon from his father; then it's the circumstances in which they'd parted #//The moment the storm rolled in; he was terrified esp of the sound and ran himself ragged trying to find a place to escape it #//Damn near ran himself off a cliff had a strike of lightning not made him stumble back from it #//Managed to find his way to the winery where he hid for a bit before Tunner found him and Crepus managed to persuade him to stay #//After damn near running the man winded bc he thought he was trying to chase him off or worse #//The fear lingered and festered more the longer he stayed in the Land of the Anemo Archon; out of guilt for 'deceiving' the Ragnvindrs #//For letting him stay there; for not telling them why he was here. Grew up half expecting to get Smote or smth at any time #//Esp whenever Luc dragged him into mischief or he went to the Church with them for whatever reason #//Mostly the former; but bc it was Luc asking him to clown; he didn't mind the 'potential risk' #//Even as a knight; he tended to get extremely skittish and quicker-tempered when it came to patrol during storms. Still does #//Tho at that time; thinly veiling the fact that he very much felt like a cornered animal every time he had to go and couldn't get out of i #//Esp if Luc was the one who asked him to come with; bc like before; he really didn't ever want nor like to say no to him #//The aversion got worse bc thundered the night of his Confrontation with Diluc too; absolutely increased how much he hated it #//His aversion tends to manifest in a drop in temperatures or frost formation; as well as him pausing and quickly glancing about #//As if he's half expecting a threat of some sort; really he's quickly locating things to distract himself with #//If he's with a trusted person; he'll tend to wordlessly press against their side; then either brush it off like he just wanted to #//Or mutter a quick 'thunder' and Not Elaborate whatsoever. Either they get it or they don't #//He WILL get annoyed if he's teased about it. And it will take him AWHILE before he lets the person comfort him during bc of it #//Bc from that point; he will assume it's done mockingly or bc they feel they HAVE to; and he hates that #//If they let him be or even support him more instead; he will make a passing mention abt how much he hates thunder to start cuing them in #//They just gotta show they are a Safe person--bonus is this opens up a LOT of doors when it comes to trust later #//It doesn't help that he already hates dealing with loud sounds as is; even the blasts from Klee Jumpy Dumpties set him on edge #//But the bad memories he has to thunder make it the worse by far to him

[nachosncheeze]

Sending lots of asks today, but I was curious:

I don't think you've written XF fic (which is my exclusive fic wheelhouse, usually), but if you WERE to write XF fic, what would you focus on? Friendship, RST, UST, casefile, MOTW, in-between scenes, or just a drabbles (LOVE me a good drabble.)

Hah! Well, I guess now is as good a time as any; you've outed me! Or, I'm outing myself, since you asked. I actually have written some X Files, but I've never posted any of it. I got back into writing fiction fairly recently, being wildly inspired during lockdown by a tv show called Blindspot (which my original blog @nachosncheeze is based around - I later made @nachosncheezies for other fandoms). I was encouraged by a writer I really respect, and recklessly gave it a go.

I started dabbling with XF a few months ago, when I found myself getting lost in the details on a couple of my Blindspot WIPs. XF has characters I can connect with, but I'm not too much in their heads, if that makes sense. Playing with the Spooky Squad is giving me some practice (especially with dialogue, which I've felt weak at - the ways they talk to each other [and the ways they don't] are SO interesting) and a bit of distance from my other WIPs. The original goal was just to be able to come back to those other ones fresh, but I'm finding I'm enjoying it now, too!

To answer the hypotheticals I suppose it's easiest to look at what I've written in the past. In general, I'm a sucker for angst, I do introspective sorts of character things a lot, and so far everything has been canon-compliant fill-in-the-blanks/extra scenes. At this point AUs, casefic, etc feel a bit too ambitious for me. I've done some ship work but no smut, so not much you could call UST/RST. I think the lion's share of it has been one-shots around siblings and different iterations of [found] family.

When it comes to XF, anything I have/can imagine doing probably fits a similar pattern. My first exercise was an extra Scully/Bill scene for the Reduxes. I wrote it before I knew there was a deleted scene for Memento Mori and I was delighted to find some overlap because it kinda felt like I must be on the right track. 😆 Mostly, I've been playing pretty extensively with season 8. It hits the angst button pretty hard, moved fast enough to leave lots of space for in-betweens, and the second half has some useful places to practice fluff while still indulging my usual angsty "traumatize those suckers!" shenanigans. My house is currently watching 8 too, and I've been challenging myself to try to do a 150-word drabble from Doggett's perspective for each episode. That man is just so earthy and reliable. 💕 Soooo yeah, I suppose if I were to write XF, it would be something like... *gestures broadly*... that. ;D

Huh. Now that I'm chatting about it I guess I actually have a lot. Maybe I'll actually post something sometime. 😂

#hey maybe if i manage to write john doggett i'll finally figure out how to write edgar reade 🤔 #that alone would make this splitting of attention worthwhile! #notes to self #this answer is overly complete...i'm using it to double as a 'state of my wips' for blindspot too xD #my s2/3 'jane's glow-up' piece is awaiting the red pen treatment and my 5x11 baby is forever in back of mind #i've been kicking around some snippets for season 4 #i oopsied my way into another epilogue too 🙈 #i know we're a tiny fandom and rewatch is winding down but i'm still milling in the background 💕 #thank you dear tiger for your asks :) you always find something interesting and i chatter too much 🙈 #but it's fun :D #fanfic stuff #nachos gets asked #p.s. i saw earlier that you've got stories up now too! :D congrats-i am looking forward to reading 💕

[baezdylan]

top huddy scenes and why? also they should been endgame and i will be forever bitter because of that the writers don’t like writing happy house

Listen, I've been trying SO hard to make decisions here and JUST CHOOSE, but I couldn't come up with anything too specific because every scene that I ended up choosing somehow made me think of another one. And that's when it hit me: that's the point. House and Cuddy are purposely written that way. More under the cut because this got looooong.

It's not your typical slow-burn because the evolution of their feelings and the evolution of their relationship (and by that I mean their relationship being officially regarded as romantic even though they've always been together in some capacity) happen in two different timelines. It's canon that they've both been interested in each other since their college days as confirmed in Known Unknowns and while their feelings do change over the course of time and their understanding of one another deepens and becomes more detailed (this mostly has to do with them learning about the other's life before they met, especially their family life, see: Family Practice and Daddy's boy), I think the progress that they make individually by the time s6 wrapped up has more to do with the way that they process their emotions rather than feeling something for the first time. This is precisely why there's not really a sense of "oh. they are together now" with them, if you pay close attention, because they've been in each other's orbit for far too long and they've always been not only fond of, but deeply understanding of the other person. There are these tiny ways in which their characters overlap and oppose each other. They wouldn't be able to be such perfect foils if they didn't have just as much in common. I really appreciate this little moment from Humpty Dumpty because it's! only! the! second! season! but these characters have known each other long before we as the audience encountered them for the first time in the pilot. One more thing I love about it is the physicality of it? And I mean it in a completely non-sexual way (even though there's obviously a layer of sexual attraction there too, but that doesn't particularly interest me) because the physical aspect of being is an enormous part of both House and Cuddy's characters and considering how this little moment takes place in s2, the same season House helps Cuddy with the IVF, I take it as a sort of foreshadowing for the bond that will form between them near the end of the season. I especially love how that relates to House's infraction because in that context, Cuddy made a choice that saved his life (a difficult one nonetheless) and him helping her with something relating to her body is his way of trying to protect her from the faith that he suffered. (not to say that infertility and muscle death are the same thing, but you get my point) But alas, ultimately Cuddy's body betrays her, just like House's betrayed his and there's an inevitable and permanent, a brand new form of understanding connecting them now. That's, in my opinion, why Cuddy reacts so strongly to House saying that he wishes he made a different choice back then in Help Me. For once he is verbally, though of course indirectly, but still it's the most direct he's been about it, acknowledging her medical decision and not only that, he's also accepting his reality as a disabled person (before that, House has been trying to deny the differences his leg made to his life which often led to bad outcomes and I think the show did a great job portraying his experience with that) and that's important to Cuddy. That's really how these two function, they will disregard their feelings if they aren't at peace with what their mind is seeing and for Cuddy to see that House has grown as an individual? That's a greater gift than anything he could ever do for her. (though the gifts he gives her are !!!!! and are always focused on her personality and her history, never on the relationship he has with her)

Another moment that isn't only a favourite, but that immensely intrigues me is the famous monologue from 7x14 in which House confessed that he would choose Cuddy over his mind. House and Cuddy are both Mind over Body type of people, the abstract, intellectual world is to be trusted with decisions, them valuing that specific quality in the other ("the most incredible man", "interesting lunatic", House trusting Cuddy with medical decisions regarding his health because he considers to be a good doctor which is saying A Lot from his perspective, "you see the world the way that it is", "you do make me feel funny" House constantly being intrigued by Cuddy with mystery solving being the literal driving force of his character) and their bodies are set on challenging that logic over and over again. (the themes of change and acceptance of change as a natural concept in house m.d. -> the essay I should, but probably won't ever write) And to have House say something that's basically an antithesis to the way these two characters function and walk through life? Cuddy's unreadable expression when he makes that proclamation? Insanity. Many many thoughts, none of them coherent and all of them associated with screaming. They are treating each other like consecutive medical mysteries (in House's case) or interesting school assignments (in Cuddy's case and that's So Big for her because that's the exact aspect of med school that she longs for and misses desperately) and their lives continually making the other person much more complex than those already complicated and challenging concepts, jdjdjdkdkdkd THEM LEARNING ABOUT WHAT IT IS TO BE HUMAN WITH THE ACCIDENTAL HELP OF THE OTHER AND GOING MAD ABOUT IT!!!!!

One last thing I want to discuss is the gender of it all and then I'm really done. House has been shamed for not showcasing traditionally masculine qualities by his father and Cuddy has been misunderstood by her mother due to not being conventionally feminine... Both of them working so hard to "make up for that" in adulthood, their subconscious desire to please their parents, the exaggeration of the typically masculine and feminine characteristics that they are able to find within themselves. (House being determined not to showcase his emotions, Cuddy's love for fashion that will hopefully "make up for" her being the dean of medicine. Not to say that she doesn't like fashion, just that there's a significant part of her identity stored in the clothes that she wears, some of it related to her mother) BUT this is why the "common is boring" conversation from 7x03 (?) is so important narratively and to me, especially from this angle. When they are together, they don't have to try to shove each other into these metaphorical boxes or satisfy the norm.

#house m.d. #house x cuddy #gregory house #lisa cuddy #interesting lunatic + girlboss #malewitch/femzard #restless wind inside a letter box💌 #sorry this got sooo messy and long #freakishly long. #sorry if i didn't answer this in a way that you wanted me to i just couldn't chooseeeee #oh and there's that little moment where house makes that remark about security lights that makes me feraaaal for some reason djdjdj #and obviously the symbolism of the jagger line but i talk about that too much on this blog so i excluded it #tried to not go too far with the medicine geekery here because i always lose track of things when i do that fjjfkfkf

[seilon]

the happiest ive been in any singular moment in probably over a year was a moment last week where my friends and i were driving to a campsite having accidentally taken a tiny insanely long and winding mountain road to get there, somehow i wasn’t carsick, the windows were rolled down, we were surrounded by nothing but woods for miles, and livin la vida loca was playing on the car stereo

#had a moment of like hm! I sure am glad im not in fucking socal right now slaving over art school shit alone and miserable! #yeah #idk it was a stupid little moment of time but it felt Right #this was a super last moment camping trip too so even more so of that feeling of like. maybe reasons to live can really appear of of the #blue sometimes. that you’d just otherwise never see comi #*coming #I just got really lucky. stars aligned or something #the random text from my friend going like ‘sorry can’t hang out cause im going camping with my dad. unless you guys wanna go camping’ #the weather being unusually cool for the time of year and thus really nice in the mountains during the day. pretty much perfect in my #opinion. #the stupid little road we took on accident that we didn’t need to take (there was another one going to the same place that was way simpler #and straighter and not nearly as winding and dangerous and whatnot) #fuckin. livin la vida loca. which was mostly only playing because we didn’t have cell service that far into the sierras so we were just #listening to whatever my friend happened to have downloaded on her phone #just. yeah. a lot of weird shit that lined up. in a good way #im glad nothing went wrong or anything cause it was so last moment #and I hope this lets me feel okay about being alive for at least a while longer #kibumblabs

[kazumahashimoto]

crazy thing is they actually got sean chiplock to play every single rito if you'd believe it

#i mean having him play revali and teba wasn't much of a thing cos like everybody but mipha and sidon were the same people #but they got him to play the sage of wind too? like okay! get paid more i hope! #maybe they did that for everybody though? not sure yet. either way it's funny to me

[todayisafridaynight]

@ father time can we run it back to june so i can make a joke really quick

#snap chats #sorry I Only Legally Go Here but still i have to make a pride joke. i blame vegeta. dont know how i just will #spoilers. for smile. i fucking guess #ANYWAY am i surprised that my theory was right No it was p obvious but still i liked how we got to the conclusion. anyways. #i was just fence sitting on smile the other day LMAO naw i liked this scene i really did #i feel like i have to make the strongest disclaimer ever as if anyone actually thinks this is about queerness and say the context is-- #tf it called when your parents have diff ethnicities ANYWAYS THAT. ITS ABOUT THAT. #but yeah no it can be about That too. i guess. if we want. lol #the show doesnt really focus on vito being filipino/japanese all too much. which is surprising to say and a lil disappointing #like its relevant but not overly so which. dont know how i feel about it yet like ig i get it ??? idk ill have to review later #but anyhow its why i like this scene i finally got to have my He's Just Like Me Fr moment </3 #unfortunately nakai's character isn't also filipino/japanese. no pinoy represent 2x. he's korean/japanese WAH SPOILERS #but still a lot of what was said in this scene resonated really personally with me #i wont get too sappy and sentimental about it i just appreciate. being validated in some way idk #its not a fair comparison probably but still its nice sort of seeing a character that has similar issues and thoughts to me #and i guess that can apply to both. instances. if we catch my cold LMAO dont make me say it #ok bye uhhhh i should probably watch the next episode #big trial episode..... then i just have two more eps... then garden of wind time...