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piracytheorist · 1 year

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1, 2 and 10 for the violence ask game? :D

1. The character everyone gets wrong

I'm having a really hard time finding an answer. I cannot recall a time that I looked up for a character interpretation and I couldn't find a considerable amount of people sharing similar opinions and interpretations to mine.

That said, I still cannot for the life of me believe there is a post out there which I think had about 600 notes or so that said that Damian Desmond from Spy x Family was never a bully. Like, again, I don't know what development has happened in the manga cause I don't read it, but I am most uncomfortable with the amount of people thinking he never mistreated Anya, or that Anya has to be relegated to an "I can fix him" role, or that the point of his existence in the story is to make a romantic ship between two six-year-olds. Ah, yeah, another thing I hate is the way you make a character have feelings for another and, especially when they're not reciprocated, fans swarm social media shipping them even if there's no support of the ship (romantically, at least) narratively.

So yeah. It's not only that I don't agree with the fandom's interpretation of Damian, it also makes me pretty uncomfortable and feeling like that is a part of fandom I don't wanna touch with a ten-foot-pole. Mostly because we have such wide differences in the way we see and analyze the text, but also because the idea of shipping a six(probably five)-year-old girl with the boy who is openly bullying her makes me, a former bully victim, very uncomfortable.

I have actually seen people who agree with me whole-heartedly. But there is a part of fandom that I'm like oh no let's keep our distances hun.

Answered 2 here!

10. worst part of fanon

The way all the SxF fanfic is written by people who read the manga and mention spoilers from it in the fanfics is a targeted attack at me personally

No I'm just kidding lol. That's my own choice to work through.

About the actual worst part, in my current fandom, that's probably what I mentioned above. I'm not a romantic person, I'm not into romance in general, and I feel very disconnected when I enter a fandom space and all I see is shipping. Like, when the narrative supports a ship, I get it, and sometimes I talk from that perspective too. And while I'm not into rarepairs, I understand their appeal for other people so I don't mind seeing that. But coming from a point of view with a lack of interest in romance I am more interested to see analyses of a character excluded from romantic potential, but that's very difficult to find. Add into that my past trauma from bullying and it makes looking through character interpretations for Damian pretty uncomfortable and almost irrelevant to me. Like, about the last episode of the anime, it's fucking obvious Loid manipulated the situation to try and push Damian towards becoming friends with Anya, not because he cares, but because it will help the mission, and not in a million years with a romantic interest in mind, and coming here seeing people talk about it from a shipping perspective... yeah. Not for me.

🔥 choose violence ask game 🔥

#I am actively trying not to be rude here lmao #there's so much I wish I could scream into the ether #but I know people see things from different points of view #and I don't wish to make them feel bad but yeah #fandom #anonymous #ask and ye shall receive

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justalittlebluetiefling · 7 years

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Chapter 39: Sometimes I Can’t See Myself

Rating: T Fandom: The 100 Pairing: Bellamy x Clarke Chapter: 39/? Word Count: 1150 Words

Chapter Summary: The one where Raven visits again and lets Clarke in on a secret.

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Raven Reyes Mar 25 at 10:00pm So excited to see everyone tomorrow!

Monty Green: What time are you getting into town? Raven Reyes: About 11 Octavia Blake: I’m going to be late for coffee. I’m sorry!!! Raven Reyes: I’ll never forgive you. Clarke Griffin: Jeez, O, so inconsiderate! Bellamy Blake: You can always take Clarke’s car to lunch at mom’s and then just leave early. Octavia Blake: No way, Bellamy. I’m not letting you get all the leftovers. No way. I need real food. Clarke Griffin: Thanks for volunteering my car, Bellamy. Your sister isn’t allowed to drive it anymore. Raven Reyes: Since when?! Bellamy Blake: Whatever, Clarke. Don’t be baby about that. It was just a little scratch. Jasper Jordan: Why don’t you let Octavia drive your car, Bellamy. And you can take Clarke’s. Clarke Griffin: That’d be fine with me. Bellamy drives like an old lady. Octavia Blake: You guys are so mean! It was just a scratch! It wasn’t even my fault. Raven Reyes: Hahahahaha, Bellamy does drive like a little bitch. Bellamy Blake: Hey! To both of you. Driving responsibly is NOT a bad thing. And I wouldn’t let O touch my car with a 10 foot pole, Jasper. Are you nuts? Octavia Blake: HEY

Clarke couldn’t stop grinning when Raven walked through the door of the café. She jumped up and ran to her for a tight hug. She had become almost as close with Raven and she was with Octavia. Almost. They had been talking via texts, emails, and social media since her last visit and it had been way too long since she had been in town.

“Octavia wants me to tell you, again, that she’s sorry she’s running late,” Clarke said as they sat at a table.

Raven started to chew on her thumbnail. “Actually, I’m kind of glad. I wanted to talk to you first.”

“Finn?” A lump rose up in Clarke’s throat. She still hadn’t told Raven about her encounter with him last quarter. She might be able to tell her, but it felt weird to admit that a friend’s mutual ex-boyfriend confessed his love and asked for another chance.

“Oh, no! Not Finn. Bellamy, actually.”

Clarke tilted her head. “What about him?”

“I just noticed you two have gotten a little closer recently.” Raven ran her finger along the rim of her cup, glancing up at Clarke nervously. “Is that a thing now?” Clarke was speechless. She could only stare at Raven, who went from nervous to confused in the blink of an eye. “Any time I talk to O and you’re not home, it seems like you’re at his place. I just thought he might have told you what had happened.”

“What happened?”

“If he didn’t tell you, I shouldn’t –“

“Tell me, Raven.”

Raven sighed and clasped her hands together on top of the table. “When I came to visit last time, we kind of hooked up after that party. I just wanted to apologize.”

Clarke’s stomach twisted, but she quickly pushed it away. She and Bellamy were closer lately, though, and she didn’t know why he wouldn’t have mentioned it. “Why would that matter?”

Raven stared at her blankly for a moment before speaking. “Never mind. It just seemed like…. Listen, forget I said anything. He’s Octavia’s brother and I like you and O too much for this to be a problem. I don’t want it to get weird, and I was worried it would come out sooner or later.”

“I don’t think it’ll be weird,” Clarke said, forcing away the new twist she felt when she thought about them together. “But I’m going to let you be the one to tell O that you’re hooking up with her brother. She’s scary when she’s mad.”

“Oh my god, no way!” Raven started laughing. “We are not hooking up. It was a one-time thing. One time only. I was hurting and he was there and hot, and I thought, why not? I’d only ever been with Finn. From what we talked about, he seemed like a decent guy for a no strings thing.”

Clarke reached across the table and placed her hand on top of Raven’s. “Hey. I get it.”

“You get it? So you admit he’s attractive.” Her concern seemed to melt and was replaced by a grin.

“Objectively, yes!”

“And nothing is going on with you and that Wells guy?”

“Oh my god, Raven, why do you need me to be hooking up with someone?”

“So, it is Wells.”

“Gross! No! Wells is like my brother.”

“Who just magically reappeared in your life?”

Clarke hesitated. It might be a good time to tell Raven. “Well, the whole thing with him was complicated. It was never romantic. We’d been best friends for years….“

Raven frowned and reached a hand across the table to grab Clarke’s other hand. “You don’t have to talk about it. If it’s not romantic, it’s not romantic.”

“It’s okay, Raven. Really.” Clarke smiled sadly and squeezed her hands. “I don’t know all the details, so that’s why there’s hesitation. Long semi-formed story short? I thought that Wells called my dad to have him pick me up from this party I probably shouldn’t have been at. That was the night my dad died and I blamed him. But it wasn’t Wells. I don’t know how my mom knew, but I know that Wells didn’t have anything to do with it. All I know is that she let me blame him for something that wasn’t his fault for years. She didn’t deny it when I confronted her over it either, so the Blakes let me stay there on breaks.”

“Oh yeah? So you bunk with O all the time? Don’t you ever need a break?”

Clarke felt her face heat up and hoped that she wasn’t actually blushing. “I actually sleep in Bellamy’s old room.”

Raven wiggled her eyebrows and Clarke rolled her eyes.

“You’re such a perv. It’s clean and Bellamy-cootie free. I watched him change the sheets the first time I stayed there.”

“All right.” Raven shrugged and threw her hands up. “If it’s not romantic, it’s not romantic.”

Clarke sighed. “Thanks.”

"And there are no secret ladies you're not telling us about?"

"No. I tried flirting a little with that girl in my painting class, but she wasn’t into me."

“Psh. You’re hot. Everyone’s into you.”

Clarke laughed. “Oh, if only.”

“But, hey! If it’s not romantic with Wells, and there are no secret ladies, can't it be romantic with—“

“Hey, hey, hey!” Octavia ran over and slid into the booth next to Raven with a quick hug, saving Clarke from anything else Raven was about to say. “Who are we trying to get Clarke to be romantic with?”

Clarke groaned and dropped her head to the table. “I don’t always need to be romantic! Can’t I not be romantic?”

#bellarke fanfiction #bellarke #modern au #sometimes i can't see myself #my work #erin writes

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