I've had my shower, I've had lunch, I've got my hot chocolate, I've my my fuckin Reese's peanut butter cups, I've got some other snacks, I've got the SM playlist ready
i need people who have never been anorexic or just straight up dont remember what its like for whatever reason to shut up about it forever because literally it changes the way your fucking brain works . when its really bad its literally the only thing you think about its wholly obsession literally the only thing you think about is your weight / measurements / how you look and how many calories your eating or burning and you literally cannot help but humblebrag about how your killing yourself and everyone is competition . and people act like youre just some bigot who hates fat people if you show symptoms or talk about it ever even if you were also a direct victim of fatphobia . i am not joking when i say they need to add looking at th*nspo or running an ed blog to the fucking dsm there is a reason its so widespread IT IS A SYMPTOM . and everyone acts like its just Disorder That Makes You Fatphobic and that its mental illness lite or mental illness only white cis women have when thats not even true and it is the mental illness with the highest mortality rate
in hs i had a PE coach who tested everyone's heart rates 2 like. Figure out the best pace for them to run the mile. and he had to test me several times bc he didnt believe that it read right the first time and then went "hey youre not allowed to run the mile because i don't want your heart to literally give out" totally normal