#i don’t know what this unlocked in me

[rat4women]

oh no mommy i was in such a blu and really still am just thinking about all the things you cant do to me and gosh im begging pls do something i just wanna lay there and be all pretty for you while you fuck the soul out of me. make me a mess mommy <3

also you know who i am? thats nice hehe♥︎

well goodness me, already so quick to beg so pretty for mommy <3? To show just how desperate you are to be under mommy, getting her full attention, and being completely at her whims <3!! It’s quite a sight, really <3~

and, well, if you’re already this needy, I can only imagine how you might react if mommy actually were to fuck you soulless on a strap, as you like to put it <3 if you’d let out the cutest little whimpers as whines as I stretch your hole, if you’d babble endlessly about whatever runs through your mind, or if you’d just go quiet as you take it all in <3 all fine by me of course~ you’d be just oh so cute no matter which way <3

and of course, I’d make sure to dress you oh so pretty before ruining you, basking you in a different kind of pretty <3 one that shows just who made you feel oh so good

#Yea #i don’t know what this unlocked in me #But also yea #i have my suspicions anon <3 #sapphic nsft #sapphic ns/fw #queer ns/fw #queer nsft #nblw ns/fw #nsft queer #ns/fw queer #mommy k!nk #<- realized I probs should’ve been tagging that #My apologies folks lmao

[crimsonscloud]

okay but who is going to write the johnshi fic where johnny still has his green glowy powers (yes, i know 1 took them out, shh) but only finds out about them when he sees kenshi in danger / hurt etc.

#mortal kombat #mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #johnny cage #kenshi takahashi #johnshi #yeah i ship it yall they got me. #i am simply not immune to the ‘character unlocks superpowers out of love / a need to protect’ trope #also. knowing this johnny he’d make a ‘don’t make me angry’ quip once he figures out what the green glow was about

[itspileofgoodthings]

I spent the last week mostly crying and healing old wounds and having revelations and also facing things I already knew on a bone-deep level but also I spent the last week reading Mark van Doren’s The Noble Voice and oh my gosh he’s so right the Aeneid really falls so much shorter of the Iliad and the Odyssey because Aeneas is a stand-in for history and the Weight of Rome not actually a real person.

#anyway I’m being cryptic so in the interest of being direct: #I went to visit the motherhouse of the order of Dominicans who taught me growing up #to see if it was right for me #(a decision that was a long time coming. a longgggggg time coming) #and I need things to settle and they have decidedly not yet because I cannot even explain the anxiety that this unlocked #but. because I do want to talk about it for a second #because there is nothing wrong with how I reach conclusions about things and I have to remind myself of that #I do not believe it is for me and I will most likely not enter #and the grief that unlocked has surprised me because it’s been a mental safety net for me for the last ten years #and underneath the pressure and pain (there was stuff that happened to me that should NOT have) #(in the form of people having decided opinions about my future and what it should be) #(another reason I had to go because it had gotten so tangled up and I was so bitter and hurt) #I have always loved this place so deeply #and I still do and being able to separate that from my present. To see that I could love it and to know that I don’t belong there #Has brought me peace (I think. the anxiety is still in high gear but I believe it’s peace underneath) and also waves of grief!!!!! #Anyway it was SO much and I am still reeling and also it was so good #One: because I was able to say that I had been hurt and it was wrong and then I was truly validated for that #Validated feels like a weak word #Because it was better #But the mistress of novices was so angry on my behalf #And tbh that wasn’t why I went. It couldn’t be. I had to have a reason that went deeper than that and that could stand alone #no matter the reception to my story (which I couldn’t predict)! #but it happened anyway and it was good #and then the other thing is this weird double-handed thing of having all this flood of intuitions and reasons and things falling into place #which my analytical brain LOVED and then God almost putting a hand on my shoulder and being like ‘it doesn’t matter’ #Not as in: I was wrong #Because. I was RIGHT. But there’s a secret third thing #And the secret third thing was just (is just) God saying: come closer. Come closer to me. #Trust me more. No—MORE #And it just. Whew. This is a lot but it’s been a lot!!!! It’s been so much!!!!!!!!!

[wibble-wobbegong]

#1 problem with some analysis is that people turn the narrative into something which supports their own beliefs rather than trying to understand the argument the show is making in itself, whether you agree with it or not

one of my teachers tells us constantly that it isn’t about what you believe but about what you can argue with what you’re given. whether or not you agree with the message doesn’t matter, it’s about understanding the message in the first place

#this CAN be true but. that’s not what they’re saying. it isn’t what they’re telling you #something that /can/ be true is more like a headcanon or fits into fanon #but that doesn’t mean it’s true in terms of the show itself #this is in fact about will byers #i don’t know how will fans do it man i really don’t #the urge to write the most argumentative insane posts about will byers is unreal #i need circle time with people who understand will please please please please please #i am numb to mike misunderstanding. not understanding will unlocks violence within me i have never experienced #i understand why people don’t get mike because there is so much room for interpretation but. but Will #head in my hands #not vagueposting necessarily. just in general

[fanficwriter284]

The song Sour Patch Kids by Bryce Vine just brings back such good times….So much nostalgia….Whenever I think back to the good ol days of being care free…Free from anxiety all my memories are so much brighter….GOD TIME FLIES

#Guys this song legit has unlocked memories for me #I don’t know what it is #It’s just so care free #I miss those days

[mabelsguidetolife]

me, solving problems irl by improvising with certain objects: tee-hee inventory puzzle :3

#I had to re-lock the side gate because i remembered that my mom went through there for some reason #and sure enough she left it unlocked and hanging loose with the key still on #it was really dark outside so i could barely see but the key was stuck tight #so i got a pair of old crappy pliers and pulled it out that way so i could properly secure the yard #it was a conveniently lit tool placed alone on a table too #my dog didn’t understand what i was doing because i was the one who went outside with her not vice versa #so she sat there kinda grumbling impatiently because it’s a warm night #but she makes me wait out there for her a lot so she has a modicum of her own patience when it comes to me #she barked a little after questioning what i was doing but once she saw i was messing with something important she got it #it’s odd how intuitive dogs can be #it’s not like she knows what a lock is but I showed it to her and she stopped being restless and waited for me to fix it up #that thing needs some liquid graphite #but i don’t believe we have any #haleylyfe

[foxgloveinspace]

Do you ever figure out your Type and you go Oh No cause it’s just 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

#very much so #haha i’m in danger #listen. big. full face coverings weather it’s mask do helmet I don’t mind. staff maybe. long cloak. mostly the mask though we gotta focus on #the mask/helmet kink ok? that the big one here. someone who looks like they can command a lot of power. and like has the confidence to just #dominate a fuckin room when they speak people listen. but they are kind and soft and pick up kittens #and maybe they hold your hand and they definitely wrap you up in their arms when sleeping #I have a size kink and a helmet kink. I don’t know what else to say ok #hold me big man. I am small and need of comfort #I’m tired. I’m trying to hard to get through this stupid af ow battle pass to get the new hero while also unlocking Ramattra cause I didn’t #start playing ow2 until like late last month. don’t wanna talk about this post is… well it started out cuase I was think of my current fav #characters and Ramattra is on the list so it’s k #ok. him. Vessel (he counts… they all count tbh). Tron. technically Vanitas but I don’t wanna uhhh. Be With Him. #hmmmm. let’s see who else. Daft Punk. they fall under the ‘just masks though’ category of this #I liked Mando at first but he’s just kinda everywhere now and it’s Too Much for me. #anyway. big strong man with a mask/helemt. to reiterate #but also like. if they have a dark aesthetic👀 that’s a major plus. Otay okay

[sadlazzle]

im sorry but elden beast rlly isn’t that great a boss. like i rlly don’t care if a huge arena and him making u chase him for the majority of the fight makes sense ‘for the lore’ it’s not fun and it just kinda sucks overall. it’s a final boss that makes u hate getting to the final boss

#i also don’t think i should hav to fight radagon more than once either #like once he’s dead that should b it. he’s the big lad’s sword now end of #it makes an already taxing and annoying boss battle even worse #cause like radagon’s not that hard. he’s pretty simple once u know his moveset #but after a while it jst gets so tiresome having to defeat radagon every time … #like can’t we get an item like velstadt’s helm that launches us into elden beast #or better yet don’t force me to defeat a boss ive already defeated multiple times #not be dark souls 2 brained again but they did that for the final bosses #watcher and defender only hav to be defeated once #same goes for nashandra if u went along with unlocking aldia as a boss #and i think that’s cool. i probably wouldn’t love ds2 as much if it forced me to face all three bosses every single time i attempted them #i jst don’t think it’s always a good idea to hav mandatory consecutive bosses #sometimes it can work and be fun and challenging. other times it feels uninspired and boring and a way to make something not that difficult- #-feel more difficult #and that’s what’s happened with elden beast i think #and it sucks too cause i think radagon’s cool as hell but bc ive been forced to fight him so many times #he jst kind of annoys me now #idk. i hav many thoughts that r likely incoherent #plum plays elden ring: mohg madness

[lukas-crowsong]

ready to go huntsman hunting >:]

if I can’t afford to buy the awesome autumn clothing in the game then I’ll draw my funky guy wearing them. problems solved

I know it’s almost winter but I saw those clothes and Knew What I Had To Do

#I don’t know what possessed me #I left and I’m back with improved art skills I guess #always happens when I draw Alexis though <3 #lighting because. it looked cool. Magical Powers unlocked: glow (tm) #evergray: I can’t see anything #alexis: I got this *starts fucking glowing* #ssoblr #star stable #star stable online #sso #sso oc #alexis cometshield #my art #my oc #sun circle ability maybe?

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

Day 474

a super serious tier ranking list of every support/semi support servant based solely off of how useful they are in buffing arjuna archer specifically

#i probably forgot someone. who care (me but let’s pretend) #hasarjunadoneanythingwrong #tbh idk how proto merin works either but allegedly she’s arts Merlin which would mean: crit stars if true #my post #anyway apparently jinako/nightingale/arjuna is a legit way to clear full strength kiara so #you all know what I’m doing whne that unlocks for free #i uh. don’t have nightingale tho. hm

[three-moving]

i wanna finish engage but i don’t wanna finish engage until i give someone lumera’s ring but i don’t wanna give anyone lumera’s ring until i see more a-supports and i can’t get more a-supports without doing more battles but i don’t wanna do more battles bc i just wanna finish engage

#it’s a problem #i’ve done like 10 auxiliary battles in a row and i still only have 3 a supports unlocked #and there’s only one left on the map #‘but three you can just give them gifts’ i don’t know what they like :// which i realize is entirely a me issue but i don’t wanna solve it #three plays fee #three o clock speaks

[howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen]

put midnight sun on a recipe/cookbook stand to read bc my wrists can’t take the weight and this makes it look way more important than it is

#the blocked out books are nothing bad it’s just lore you haven’t unlocked yet #they’re just distracting from the point of the picture #bc they are bright and colorful with faces on the sides #ok you know what it’s gonna bother me if I look at this post and don’t know what the books are it’s beacon street girls

[roundnfirm]

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#note to self #don’t hold your phone while frantically running around #especially not when it’s unlocked #bc you’re gonna open tumblr and send random posts to 4-5 people and who knows what else #if you received something from me or blocked or unfollowed you or whatever #I apologise #it’s been a rough day #also how are y’all doing lmao long time no see

[vespertine-legacy]

Finally finished the base story on GW2 on one of my characters!

#not swtor #trying to remember if I still had anything resembling a ranged weapon for dag for that last series of fights was rough #lol at a hammer apparently being a ranged weapon #it’s like when combat/carnage was listed as ranged in swtor #I can technically throw my weapon so it is technically ranged #I wanna do all the stuff to get the different mounts but like. #I don’t wanna slog through anything to unlock the different types of mounts #do you feel me? #like it has been satisfying to finish some of the puzzles with just my little raptor and my idiot self #watching people just. fly up past me or bounce up on springers #but there’s some stuff that it’s like. I just wanna know what’s up there! #or I just wanna dick around in cooler ways

[wibble-wobbegong]

things that will drive you insane part 66

#i get that el and will are the keys to saving mike but how does the garden of eden tie into that??? #what about the garden of eden do el and will need to unlock #does the garden of eden have to do with mike’s potential trance???? #maybe mike finds top secret henry lore while traversing his mind or smth #or it’s the max thing maybe? #the garden of eden is associated with the tree of life and knowledge and creation of man isnt it #also i’m pretty sure the st equivalent of the garden of eden is somewhere in the RU just bc religious imagery and the UD is hell and all tha #t #i don’t know bible lore and the bible is so fucking boring #that also brings me back to owens being the white chariot in s3 #i hate religious imagery im gonna tear my eyes out

[goldkirk]

geez. I want so badly all the time now to get back in contact with other people and apologize to my relatives and try to explain why I ghost everyone and apologize and explain what I’ll do instead in the future but I cannot even remotely get myself to execute a plan to do that

#i got a lot to apologize to a lot of people for #a lot of kids I’ve let down by not following through on things I said I’d do months ago #and a couple weeks ago #and i found out my birthday is only days away and I don’t want it and I don’t like that and I would rather be unreachable in the Arctic than #consider a birthday right now #i don’t know what I am as a person and I don’t considtently perform or feel the same hour to hour and I haven’t told anyone anything for #months and also I keep avoiding any and all medical care and if someone tried to make me I’d be relieved but also run away #it’s just fucked #I know I’m making rewiring progress but it feels like I’m locked in a claw machine #watching my external shapeshifter self secretly make each of her attempts fail #I’m back to feeling like I’m losing my sanity a lot of the time again #mostly I don’t know where to start. I don’t know where to start. #i thought getting enough sleep every night would unlock more than this #and getting set loose on food and gaining weight for once #and living in a safer place and having my ability to journal start creeping back #I’ve drunk the water I take the meds I build the safety I eat the food I care for the dog I keep myself calm I try to be aware of my body #i do the breath work I do the yoga none of it DOES anything I’m just STUCK #i keep having the same debates and the same sabotage and the same inaction over and over and over again #but if I let go of some control the little kid ‘I’m the center of the universe’ #part of me comes out and makes me go WAY too hard with see-sawing the opposite direction of normal #and it makes people uncomfortable and ends up preventing me from getting taken seriously ANYWAY #raps on head gently. please. i am fucking begging #either shut off the pride for a while so I can get us through the agonizing and mortifying shame stage while I get help or shut off the #self sabotage so I can get help while retaining pride #jesus h Christ #please #I KNOW I DON’T SEE MY OWNSYMPTOM SEVERITY CLEARLY U CAN’T FOOL ME BRAIN #I know what avoidant numbing is!!! i know what unaffected attitude and minimizing and laughing it off are! #I’m not gonna back off this time I NEED TO GET OUT OF DEBT AND INTO HAVING HOBBIES U DUMB BRAIN please for the love of god work with d #*me