#i gOT FEELINGS

[pineappleliar]

How horrifying it is to realize that your love of someone is the only thing keeping them human, and that if you waver in that love even a little bit they will slowly and grotesquely turn back into a frog. And the futility of trying to keep loving them if only to keep someone from such a terrible fate, but the very attempts to force such a love weaken any bonds that once existed (not to mention he’s not helping things by putting all of the executive work of both the relationship and RUNNING A COUNTRY on your shoulders).

So perhaps, you decide, it’s better to leave and fall out of love entirely, and end their slow, torturous transformation, only to realize that that is also not a fate so freely given either. If you could just not love him, then some other girl, one with less weight on her shoulders, could fall for him instead. In all likelihood he’d be happier with someone less burdened by more ‘serious matters’ as you are. But that doesn’t work either, because you remember that part of him that made you fall in love in the first place, and so the trap is set. Not loved enough to remain human, not hated enough to restart the cycle. Just, half-formed, grotesque, not quite a husband not quite a frog. Fuck me.

#dimension 20 #I got FEELINGS #neverafter #trying to imagine wtf Gerald was like as a frog #to warrant those two getting together #could just be a teen romance thing #like things were great until they weren't #could also see him just having some confidence or bravado that was charming in a frog #but less in an entitled king

[moresrush]

Okay, but. Seriously. DYWTYLM is one of my favorite fucking songs (Sleep Token as a band is insane, holyfuck?) and applying it to Osvald and Partitio made me love it ... all the more. Osvald has so many reasons to hold back when it comes to loving anyone or anything. He is on a journey of revenge and he sure as shit (in the beginning) doesn't care if he comes out of it whole. And then he meets Partitio Yellowil. Is there something you give that you will never receive in return? Do you know what it is? This is about Partitio, 100%. This man travels the world and gives everyone he meets a silver coin and Osvald watches this and understands that Partitio meets people and he gives a little of himself away to them. He adores them --- almost everyone he meets. Partitio loves to help people. He loves others so quickly and wholely that he wants to see them happy, he wants to see them thrive, even if it just means he pops in and fixes a problem and then goes off on his merry way.

And are you trying to live like everything is a lesson to learn? Can you ever forgive (YOURSELF?) Do you wish that you loved me?

Now it's time, obviously, for Osvald. Every encounter with this man is actually him studying; he is studying the world and how it works he is studying magic which is in everything, everywhere one looks. The answer to The One True Magic could be anywhere and Osvald is looking but in the process, he is also struggling with what happened. With his family. With himself. He wonders if Partitio wishes he could love him because ... at first it honestly feels like Osvald is the ONLY PERSON that Partitio has met and couldn't outright fix with a coin. Is loving him the way Partitio loves other people and the world even possible, given what he is? This man has such issues with self-worth, with needing to heal. He literally has his answers he just doesn't know how to find them.

And my reflection just won't smile back at me like I know it should. And I would turn into a stranger in an instant if I could. There is something eating me alive, I don't know what it is. Maybe not that you conceal your feelings; They just don't exist.

More Osvald. More of knowing he used to be a different person, he used to come home and announce himself and be adored and it's not there anymore. Something is missing and cannot be replaced. And oh, if possible, he would become nobody and fade out and be forgotten --- by this group of travelers but by Partitio especially. Something is eating at him. It's that FIRE in him he constantly talks about but he thinks that Partitio wants nothing to do with it, that he won't risk so much as singing his gloves where Osvald's hands have scarred. This whole song --- I COULD DO THIS TO THE WHOLE SONG. I just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. And you are gonna see them because I need to write them out or I will perish thank you.

#hux rambles #partitio yellowil #osvald v. vanstein #octopath traveler 2 #octopath 2 #i got feelings #i need to write a fic soon i know i do #osvitio

[oreocoffee]

Let no bitch ruin ya day, M.O.B ✋

#I got feelings #feelings are haram #writings #He’s not messaging me and it’s ruining my day damn why am I so lame 😒

[sanctissimx]

The spring air is surprisingly stifling at this time of year, even the light breeze that comes somehow cloying in its relief. Hua Xiangyi’s fan quickens its pace, the flutter of it the only indication of any discomfort upon the painted face that wears the smile of an enlightened one. 

The Empress Dowager is less composed in her suffering under the inestimable heat, leaning upon a cushion as her attendants fan her assiduously, wiping away any beads of sweat that mist upon her brow and nose, leaving patches of pinkened skin where the white makeup has lifted. 

“I’m sure she’ll be here soon,” Hua Xiangyi assures her aunt, fully aware of how mortifying it must be for her aunt to have to attend someone first after all these years in her seat of power. It’s in that moment that the Heir Apparent arrives, an entire house in attendance of their entrance. Hua Xiangyi rises, commits an artful bow, and smiles up at them with a genuine delight.

Li Jianting is not so adorned as she expects them to be. By all accounts, they are a studious and meritorious student of Xue Xiuzhou’s, but she’d still expected something between that and the upjumped strumpet of a girl her aunt had complained of in the quiet of her chambers. 

She’s fair, with a simple beauty, and a remote air that makes her appear delicately thoughtful, if a little wary. Hua Xiangyi decides that she likes the look of her, and waits for the eunuch to motion to the seat of honor. 

“It feels like summer,” Hua Xiangyi laughs, after a long awkward pause, wherein her aunt, as the host, ought to have begun the conversation and greet the Heir Apparent first. But she’s used to running interference for her capricious aunt’s moods. “I could have sworn I heard a cicada only a moment ago. It’s too early for them, surely. It’s not the season ...”

It’s a stupid conversation starter. She knows that full well. But small talk is the safest route, knowing the tension that exists between the Heir Apparent and the Empress Dowager both. But there’s one thing Hua Xiangyi prides herself on, and it’s subverting while conforming. So she makes an attempt. 

“I hear that gongzhu dianxia is a pupil of Xue Xiuzhou, a most esteemed scholar,” she says brightly, but doing away with that saccharine-sweet, simpering tone that sounds like deceit itself. It’s an effort to be less like a sycophant. More like a person. A person that would trest them like a person. “Are they allowing you any freedoms to attend cases yet? Surely a capable person such as yourself should be utilized in such precarious times.” 

@feiyuie — Li Jianting

#feiyuie #HUA XIANGYI. #fuck u im so excited let them bond and idk kiss maybe #HEY SORRY THIS GOT LONG #I GOT FEELINGS #u KNOW

[dumbgothbunny]

I'm trying my best not to open up my heart

It's been torn apart too many times

But without you I'd die, and I don't wanna die

Not today, not tomorrow, not tonight, I don't wanna die

I need you, I need you more than life

More than life, more than life, more than life

#Idek #I got FEELINGS #more than life #MGK #jonathan levy #Oscar issac #jonathan levy/reader #scenes from a marriage

[officialbabayaga]

sometimes i can pretend i’m normal i’m sooo normal but i just texted an entire essay to roo @bundlebrent comparing and contrasting the rob ingles vs the andy serkis audiobooks of lord of the rings so

#i got FEELINGS #spoiler the feelings are that they’re REALLY different and i love them #zoe stuff

[zitasaurusrex]

hiding my emotions over here like a goober because i’m shy but

whenever someone follows my halo blog it gives me a Large Emotion

sure i love being a curated fire hose of reblogs over here on zitasaurusrex but my halo blog is 99% me yelling into the content stream myself, and that makes it feel extremely personal in a nice way when someone picks it out of the pile and goes “yes i want more of this on the regular”

#i got feelings #zita posts

[pixiemage]

Please, for the love of god, please don’t be this person. No matter how long it’s been since an update, no matter how many unfinished stories are sitting on their account, no matter what - do not be this person.

Not only is it insanely rude, but you also do more damage than you think be being such a self-entitled ass about something someone created for free and for fun. “This author” can see what you say.

RIP decency indeed.

#Archive of our Own #Ao3 #Ao3 Comments #Writing #Fanfiction #Fanfic Writing #I wrote over 100k on that fic before burnout took hold #I poured my heart into what I did manage to finish #adhd’s a bitch that doesn’t always let me write what I want to write but I got that far #don’t make me feel ashamed because you didn’t get to see the ending

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire #'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem #the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted #also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out #so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my #notifs page cleanish lol #also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3 #secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because #of investors bankrolling everything #and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest #however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point #once again. so many murder dollars #so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction #anyways . love yall 💕 #origibberish #bigger gibbers

[cimicherrychanga]

Because i feel like i might be overestimating what the average is, i shall Conduct Research

This isn't about how many languages you speak, but how many youre able to count up to at least 10 in, since basic numbers are some of the first words you learn in a foreign language and sometimes you catch them without having studied the language at all

#shut up dave #cause like. i got 7 i think? #which isnt much ofc but i would assume its probably slightly above average #MY HYPOTHESIS. is that the average person on earth. can count up to 10 in at least 3 languages #hypothesis which i reached after a lot of narrowing down. so i have a feeling its correct this time

[nxmeolvides]

anyway if you need me i'll be in the corner, sad about ana and her grandfather and her grandmother and the way they both impacted her life while they're in it and how her grandmother Always wanted her to know she was a pretty girl that both had her entire life ahead of her and shouldn't be resigning herself to living a life so restrained so quickly

#i got FEELINGS #and some dms i really need to get back to. mental state has been all over the place as of late and i apologise #especiallyyyyyyyyyy uni!ana i've been feeling her out again to write with some ppl and her grandma and mother both trying to force it into #er that she still deserves experiences. and opportunities. and not to just let her parents burdens be her burdens for the rest of her life #gives me feelings. ily ana sorry for when i put you in another angsty situation

[hunter-rodrigez]

Accessibility tip:

If you want to automate your home a bit, but you don't want any "smart" tech, you can just buy remote controlled power sockets instead

They are a lot cheaper and easier to set up and use than some home automation smart tech nonsense

They don't need an app (but some models come with optional apps and there are apps that are compatible with most of these)

Many of them use the 433mhz frequency to communicate, which makes most models compatible with each other, even if they are from different manufacturers

The tech has been around for a long time and will be around for a long time to come

You don't have to put any fucking corporate listening devices like an amazon echo in your home

Models for outdoors exist as well

#accessibility #automation #tech #a set like the one pictured above usually costs around $20-$30 #I got like 7 of these bad boys and 3 remotes #I can control basically everything in my room with these remotes #I got one remote on my office chair one on my nightstand and one by my door #this always makes me feel a bit like I am in Arnold's room from Hey Arnold!

[killlerfang1]

Multiple protestors calling for a ceasefire interrupt Secretary of State Anthony Blinken during a Senate hearing in which he discussed giving $14.3 billion in aid to Israel (via NBC)

#powerful stuff man #palestine #gaza #my post #also it got A LOT more intense than this but i feel like this video gets to some key points #Free Palestine

[petscoboba]

I want Toby Fox three years after the last chapter to make a game where it's just the Fun Gang going on a road trip to the east coast to go fishing. They raid a gas station on the way to grabs snacks for the road (and the lobsters they catch). Happy April Fool's.

#deltarune #susie deltarune #noelle deltarune #noelle holiday #kris dreemurr #fishing momence #I have one more page I wanted to draw for this little idea #but i'll have to get to it at a later date when i've got more energy #in reality this idea started as a way for me to draw kris happy after highschool #i relate to kris' lethargy a lot-- so i wanted to see them still trying to make the most of it despite their depressive nature #(perhaps if kris can find a way out maybe i can too?) #it's hard. it's really hard when you feel like you've got really nothing to look towards to #but i hope they can find meaning anyways. i hope they smile one day and i hope it's a real one #pssstt! chronologically this post takes place after another comic i have planned in the midst. it'll take 10 years to complete but one day. #that comic. will not be a happy one #heeeheehoohoo

[allegedly-human-uwu]

Existing on tumblr the past few weeks

#i feel like i got 80% of the plot and lore already without ever engaging with the actual material lol #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #imma be honest #i dont care for 99% of manga / anime #i tried multiple but it didnt work out #but this one speaks to me #because of the autism #and the food #and the senshi panty shots

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative