#i just also dont think its a bad thing to talk about other characters in relation to it

[prosciuttoon]

Toshiro/Shuro is overhated

(mirror of my thread on twitter)

ever wanted to talk abt something so bad but u have so many thoughts so u cant even begin to organize a sentence. thats me abt shuro and its why i cant give my thoughts on him. i NEED to get this out of my system bc its takign up so much memory in my brain i need that space for thinking.

so i was really surprised to find so much hate for him even tho he seems pretty normal and rational out of the whole cast. ive deducted that its mostly abt his laios fight and that the ppl who hate him probably had bad experiences w social cues and relationships w neurotypicals bc of that. theres no way to avoid it bc its pretty much Right In Your Face that laios is ND. but thats not the only factor in why their relationship is rocky. its also the culture barrier. u have to understand toshiro was raised as JAPANESE NOBILITY ofc he would be a little conservative

also culture shock. idk if u know this but jp culture is very Mind Your Own Business like a lot of other asian cultures . ofc hes gonna be weirded out by a stranger invading his space. also his names not even Shuro. its just yt ppl not pronouncing his name right and settling for whats easiest.

img src: fan translation by savaralyn2 , i think its from the adventurers bible Complete Edition bc i dont remember it in the old one

ok you get the gist of the culture aspect of it. lets go into the ND/NT clash aspect of it. yes i understand its pretty hurtful to never be told when youre acting inappropriately. i am autistic too lmao. but you have to understand that shiro is one guy and he even does realize that repressing things is one of his fatal flaws. again. asian culture. non confrontational. that sorta thing. but these are genuine frustrations. if i were him id be annoyed too but id speak out about it. set boundaries. bc im blunt. shiros not. he was taught crazy strict manners (hierarchies, respect, politeness, etc).

his problem isnt ableism its a culmination of culture barriers, how he was raised to behave, and terrible lack of communication as thing caused by "all of the above" plus he just generally keeps to himself a lot which means repressing frustrations that will explode leading to a pathetic fistfight while hes starved, exhausted, and dehydrated. also. if he was ableist he would hate laios. he doesnt hate laios. at the end of the day, they are friends. NT and ND ppl can be friends u know. there will be rifts (like their fight) but you just have to communicate misunderstandings. theyre gonna be fine lol

anyways that was my whole spiel abt it. i think i got everything out that i wanted to? my head still feels a little full so i may add more later when i remember something

also i think its a little unfair to rule out the possibility of laios and him just being 2 very different kinds of ND bc its very common for misunderstandings to occur even then. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT BUT WE NEED TO COMMUNICATE TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER! but for the sake of interpreting the Fight as a commentary on NT social rules and ND frustration, ill say toshiros NT. will we ever know? hes so far in the sidelines... youd really have to dig in the extra content to see the intricacies of his character.... please give him a chance

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #toshiro nakamoto #shuro dungeon meshi

[mihai-florescu]

Putting a message i sent earlier under a read more, it has some thoughts ive expressed before tho. ES, of course

My thoughts as an EichiP... i view ! and !! as different stories in the way they're approached tbh, what i fell in love with enstars for was the character driven storytelling of one event seen through different perspectives, where you see the antagonist in one perspective become a protagonist in another story and can empathize with the entire cast like this. I fell in love with eichi's story of second chances, getting what you want and regretting your actions in the process, redemption, desperation, overcoming fate and asserting one's self into the story, saving a school in a dying industry that saved your life by giving you a dream; i consider it an arc fulfilling to the reader at the end of ! era. But we still had to continue... and it's not like we didnt get inklings of eichi's dreams of idol utopia, the idol soldier idea goes back to main story 1, but !! loses the charm of the original series through expanding the worldbuilding so much and shifting to a plot driven story that opens 10 cans of worms instead of offering resolutions. There's not really room to breathe if the stakes just keep getting higher and higher...

As for the colonisation plotline, it's been here since the beginning of ES2. The SS arc makes it obvious, but i remember even before, the talks about ES taking over from local businesses, trying to be seen as the standard, it was always the direction ensemble square as an institution would take. But the "antagonist in one story, protagonist in another" approach doesnt work anymore with such subjects. The guys responsible for this are your coworkers you share dorms with. I read the stories but cant empathize anymore, so i've been feeling disconnected from eichi for a while. I see enstars with eichi at its core but i didnt care for his center event, i read it, didnt like the ending, and overall felt off. Eichi becoming the villain of ! to attone for the war kind of loses significance if a year later he is a cartoon villain idol colonialist you can't even sympathize with anymore because of the magnitude of events. However i do think !! has done good things for some characters pushing them further or developing them in a way ! didnt. But for others...

I also have my issues with sci fi elements becoming the norm, even taken metaphorically or as hyperboles, when one of the central themes i love about enstars is humanity. Then again, i am a war era fan that relied on manipulating human desires and perceptions, and the fact that there were no monsters or gods, just humans framed as such, playing on people's fears and beliefs, it's a bit jarring to me to have them introduce AIs forming from escaped comatose brains (im minimizing the switch climax rn, i didnt even hate it as a whole, just this resolution im unhappy with)

It also feels like we've lost some of the meta aspects of the writing i liked, a certain awareness of being characters in a story and there being an audience. But im still struggling to word my thoughts on this matter. I felt it present in main story 2, even if it annoyed me at parts in its obviousness ("good thing we're not protagonists, no one would want to read about us" youre right aira you are not interesting to me. And yet i'll read your story to try and empathize nevertheless. I have other thoughts on aira too, perhaps for another time). I wish we explored a bit more what it means to no longer be the central protagonist, from trickstar's perspective...and brought back the successors topic. But i havent read every ts story yet so i'd be foolish to complain before really making sure i've checked everything. To me ! ended satisfyingly with room left for elaborations and imagination, but i dont feel like !!'s ending is really ending anything at all. Not necessarily bad since it's not like the game is shutting down, but overwhelming worldbuilding wise while underwhelming character wise...

Let's see... im not sure how to end this. Just a bit of a stream of consciousness as a ! fan who still loves enstars despite my critiques. Mainly, well, no one's gonna take away the stories that already exist that i do love and impacted my life greatly. And i do think !! had some really good things too it brought, or at least stories i hold dear too. Change is scary and i don't think it's always for the best, but it's also fun to see where it goes next...

#enstars

[ganondoodle]

im kinda glad i was a tiny child when windwaker came out and i only played it years later without having internet access for the longest time bc i would have NOT survived the hatred i know ww got when it first came out bc it wasnt what most people expected (ww is my fav zelda)

loving botw but not liking totk and seeing the vast majority praise the latter like its the holy grail while alot also discrediting and needlessly hating on botw for it is already making it hard to stay calm about :U

#ganondoodles talks #special interest go brrrr #sucks when you care so much about a piece of media thats out of your control and it does something you hate #i do not control the hyperfixation #it wouldnt be so bad if people wouldnt keep hating on botw just to praise totk more tbh #and before people say but arent YOU doing the same thing in reverse??? #welll ... its suppposedly a sequel yes? #direct sequels should build on the first title and totk does the opposite doesnt it? #again one of my biggest problems is that it was advertised and called a direct sequel qhen it really isnt #like at all #how some characters also made a weird turn in their personality it really does feel like it did a majoras mask thing without admitting to i #like majoras is GOOD #it was weird and kinda nonsensical but ultimately worked #can you imagine if totk just went with the whole other dimension thing properly and really went ham with it- #.... i am coming up with even more ideas for totk rewritten arent it.. #anyway i dont think im gonna get a collectors edition ever again given the risk of me not liking what its for #regret spending that kind of money on it after i calmed down my fears and in the end they turned out to be mostly right #;__;

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it? #he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun. #a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink. #he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes. #oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking. #he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it.. #hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting... #task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)' #funny fella. i love you.

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

i think ppl can and should project onto fictional characters. that's kind of what they're for a lot of the time. even if in the story they dont have the exact same experiences the audience can still find similarities with them and it's empowering to headcanon that, because of these similarities, the character has a similar identity to you. a lot of writers purposely give their characters experiences similar to marginalized groups to make those groups feel seen.

that being said, if you project your own experiences onto your blorbos you HAVE to be able to tell when the story is purposely making the character a metaphor for your experiences and when the story is. not doing that. just because you personally relate to a character doesn't mean the character literally is your marginalized identity. and it definitely doesn't mean that the writers hate your marginalized identity, specifically, if they don't do what you want them to do with that character.

#shut up pandora #this is about a post i say talking about how belos owlhouse has traits that if you squint could be seen as him having schizophrenia #and bc op thinks the show fumbled his character #specifically bc hes a Bad Guy who Does Bad Things and Is Bad #the shows creator is literally ableist and is a fake ally for otherwise depicting other instances of neurodivergence positively #the evidence btw is: #belos seeing hallucinations of the golden guards to represent his repressed guilt which is a trope that everyone on this green earth uses #and the fact that papa titan refers to belos as having 'delusions' #which in this context isn't being used medically but colloquially bc guess what! words can have different meanings depending on the context #and in this context he isnt talking about a medical delusion hes talking about belos's denial of his mistakes #which isnt a mental illness thing its an asshole thing which he is. thats the appeal of his character #the show has problems in general and belos character definitely has problems but this aint it chief #methinks someone was looking for a reason to hate on the queer show hmm i wonder why #even if they werent trying to do that op projected too hard on a character who the writers didnt expect them to project onto so hard #that they forgot that not everything isnt about them so when they didnt like where they went with belos's character #they decided that dana terrace just hated ppl like them specifically #terminally online bullshit #anyway moral of the story is not everything is about you #also dont try to look for this post or anything i dont want ppl to shit talk op to their face #im vagueing for a reason im not trying to start stuff #but anyway even if you talk about how the hallucination trope is universally harmful which i dont think it is depending on how you use it #and even if you think the word delusional shouldnt be used colloquially due to its association with a mental illness #there are so many other pieces of media that use that trope #and there are so many other instances where that word is used and all of its so much more offensive than fucking owl house #youre standing naked in a river in winter and complaining that your soup is lukewarm #oh how i wish that cartoon fans can get as angry about shit like south park as they do about shit like the owl house

[sonknuxadow]

theres something kind of annoying to me about how ever since the first sonic movie came out, when discussing potential additions to the cast the common default assumption people have for every single character sonic is friends with has always been that they would become sonics adopted sibling or cousin or something even if they dont have a family type relationship with him at all in the games. but almost nobody is even considering the idea of something like that happening with shadow and are saying that sonic and shadow are gonna fall in love or whatever instead and that this is gonna be the so/nadow movie etc etc

#Again this wasnt prompted by any one post in particular ive just been thinking about it for a bit #i dont really know how to explain Why its annoying though. it just is. #okay well actually part of it is the whole ''shadow cant show up in anything without people immediately making it about so//nadow'' thing #and also the ''we know nothing about their dynamic in this universe how and why are you already THIS invested in shipping them'' thing #but other than that idk how to explain why its annoying #im not saying that youre like a bad person if youve joked about movie sonic and shadow being gay or whatever but . idk #and im also not actively expecting shadow to be adopted by teh wachowskis either #its just the whole . the way people talk about shadow vs the way people talk about literally any other character thing . thats bugging me

[amvro]

ok guys i was thinking thoughts and i had a hyoga blog on the side bc i have a chronic illness of separating blogs for different fandoms it just feels so much better to me but now that i want to write for kn8 as well perhaps its time to merge them all

#its so bad u dont understand #but bc i never write for more than one character per fandom it feels so much better to just dedicate a blog to that character #bc at that point im not even multifandom im just. oh 8 silly characters i really like from 8 different pieces of media #(also i had a kuroda blog on the side but u weren't supposed to know that) #thoughts thoughts thoughts #would u guys mind if i started writing for other people too #but also AMURO TOORU I LOVE MY AMURO TOORU AESTHETIC #sorry no one cares my bad but this is such a big deal to me THE MORE I TALK ABOUT IT THE MORE SILLY IT SOUNDS BUT HTIS IS SUCH A BIG DEAL T #ME #PULLING MY HAIR OUT sorry guys #i will think #ok if i write more than like 2 things for hoshina i will consider but if not then there's like no point #sorry guys that was a whole dump of literally NOTHING #guys why is this such a big deal to me i do not understand #i wish it wasnt i really wish i was like normal #SORRY THIS IS A LITTLE TOO MUCH OF ME IN A PUBLIC SPACE THIS IS UNSIGHTLY #if it is distressing me this much then maybe it is ok to just keep my silly blogs separate like maybe it isn't harming anyone #BROSSSS #sorry guys this is not the self i wished to put out on this blog #but guys i LOVED MY HYOGA BLOG #sorry i will stop my bad

[mymp3]

i think its interesting how many fandom ideas of things just eventually get passed down as "fact" and by interesting i mean it's super annoying

#compendiumnotebook #canon names canon love interests canon “representation” canon gay canon bi canon lesbian characters canon choices and picks and #canon reasons for why things happen canonically Philemon is the butterfly all of the time canonically minato doesnt die at the end of the #manga canonically this and that and this and that #and its like at some point y'all are just passing down information that other people have said to the point that you think that's actually #what happens instead of experiencing said thing for yourself #and some of these things are just straight up not true!! lmfao #“oh the answer is bad and tedious go watch the cutscenes” “this is the DEFINITIVE ver of the game and this is the only reading thats real” #like.. #not to be all “reading comprehension” but also some of yall should just actually form your own opinions on what you're expierencing #you dont need to make a statement on smth if you dont have anything to say #i say this talking about persona but it applies to anything really

[arcaneyouth]

honestly its so disheartening to regularly see shit like kinning or shifting or whatever theyre calling that get so shit on by most people, or to have the meaning change to something more tame and palatable for most people. i believe in that shit in a spiritual/religious kind of way. but unfortunately other people like me can be real fucking annoying about it in an easy to make fun of way so i probably shouldnt express that shit unless i want to be made fun of as well.

like even if they're being cringe about it and even if theyre not doing it for spiritual reasons like me maybe dont? make fun of them? for being cringe? and going "stupid idiot doesn't know its not real"?? yeah i dont think these people should be insisting this is scientific when its very much not but also like hey leave us alone maybe

#negative #i consider myself agnostic but ive also have some very solid thoughts about how this universe and others work #and shit like kinning and shifting fall in place with those ideas and they make me so happy #no i dont think theres scientific evidence for it and i dont blame anyone who doesnt believe it #but its my personal beliefs?? and everyone who publicly shares those beliefs with me gets made fun of and its so 😰 #i feel like ive had to shove this shit down especially as im getting older and no longer have the excuse of being a cringey teen #but i do still wholeheartedly believe in this kind of thing. and it kinda just makes me sad im never gonna be able to really express that #because the vocal few being kinda annoying about it have given this shit a bad rep #also the shift in the meaning of kinning is so so sad to me because people talk about kinning and i go !! oh they are like me! #but no they are not. it is a list of characters they project onto and not #yknow. #so many people ive told about my beliefs and experiences have insisted on finding rational solutions to why im like this #including insisting i have DID (i dont) or some kind of psychosis (i dont.) or otherwise putting a label i never wanted on me #i dont believe my experiences have scientific explanation. its fucking spiritual to me. can we not leave it at that. #wow did not realize how upset i am about this until typing this all out #anyways no follow up questions unless you are being polite please goodbye

[alchemiclee]

do you ever feel like some people dont understand the difference between pity and sympathy/empathy? (people don't even know the difference between those two, to be fair) giving someone sympathy or having empathy for them is not the same as pitying them. someone trying to reach out and seeking or expecting sympathy from you or wanting empathy isn't wanting you to pity them!!!!!! dont mix the two up 😭

#if i had a penny for every time i was pitied or people claimed *I* wanted a “pity party” when i was seeking sympathy or empathy... #id be so rich that id pity THEM lmao #when you just want your feelings and exoeriences to be seen as valid and they instead throw pity in the open wounds #being cruel and unsympathetic is just as bad as pity imo #you dont need empathy to learn sympathy skills since it's not the same thing. but some people do want empathy and not pity. which is also #not the same thing???? what am i even talking about anymore. #this was sparked by a reply to my post about not understanding kavehXalhaithim. apparently one doesnt want pity but the other lacks empathy #so to me the one lacking empathy comes off as cruel. it looks to me like he thinks showing sympathy = pity in that case. no. #sympathy would be validating the others feelings and experiences saying its ok to feel that way while working through it and support them! #but yeah replies on here are too limited and i cant fit all that above on there lmao i dont even knlw if people see my @ replies to them #ive replied back a few times now and no one continued the conversation so why bother lol #but it does annoy me when people are instead annoying or cruel in place of basic sympathy. to me THAT feels pitying #perhaps i also just dont like people who lack empathy. i know its not their fault and just how some people are.... #but how i communicate is through empathy and exchanging it with others so i mever get along with people who lack it. #so uts hard for me to understand a ship that is an empath vs an unempathetic lmao it sounds annoying as hell even if it has reason fhdndndm #i think that storyline just felt way too close to home amd familiar so it got me as annoyed as the character i highly relate to there 😅 #idk what im rambling about now tbh #words #lee rambles

[netscapenavigaytor]

if i had a nickel for every time while headcanoning character dynamics that don't exist much in canon, i ended up making the fan-favorite yaoi pairing instead a worryingly toxic friendship that's only hanging on by a thread, i would have two nickels but it's weird that it happened twice

#error 0 #i have a migraine right now. i am not sure why having migraines makes me more likely to muse on tumblr abt random shit #anyway for the curious this post is about magolor x marx kirby #but also abt beat x yoyo jet set radio #and while i say ''its weird that it happened twice'' its. probably happened more tjan that and i just forget lmao #i imagine to some extent its just me being petty and contrarian cuz im not particularly shippy #and also tend to be a Hater at certain ships for very particular and nonsensical reasons #but... this specific result of that feels. very Bizarre and i dont know why its happened twice #in this similar a form (even if uhh one of these friendships is SIGNIFICANTLY more toxic than the other) #(finiteverse marx and magolor should stop interacting. for everyone's sake but esp their own.) #i dont have a conclusion here though. #maybe this is just because im obsessed with making emotionally inept deranged weirdguys #and so like 70% of character dynamics that creates are at least a little bit unhealthy JDJAKDJSJDJ #(maybe it is for the better that i don't care much for shipping.) #(alternate timeline ----- shipfic author: only writes fics that make you think ''oh god please break up IMMEDIATELY'') #HELP ACTUALLY WHILE TYPING THIS I JUST REMEMBERED #THE ONR TIME I CAN THINK OF THAT I WROTE A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP (WAS A CHARACTER STUDY NOT SHIPPING) #WAS LIKE HYPER TOXIC AND AWFUL AND WAS EXPLICITLY THE CAUSE OF EVERY BAD THING IN THE STORYLINE #(this isnt counting stuff thats like ''there was a relationship in the past but its over now'' or ''there COULD have been one but wasnt'') #(i am only talking specifically me writing the point in time that the relationship was HAPPENING) #welcome to netscapenavigaytor where love loses forever #i shpuld stop rambling in these tags. this is silly #can you tell im bored and suffering from brain pain soup. #and also perpetually want to talk about characters SO badly but never know how to start a convo or who to start it with #oh well

[maaaxx]

11 & 19 for the ask game ❤

ask game :)

11 has already been answered here

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19. "Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?":

Short answer:

From the time I could vaguely write I was writing "books" (or as much of a book a child that young can make)

I entered my first writing contest when I was 9 or 10 and I got 5th place in my school

A year later I started my first major wip that got me invested into writing as a hobby

A year after that I started another wip that most of my current wips are branches off of and also started posting bits and pieces on wattpad

When I was 14 I had my writing skills tested for early college admission and scored in the top 5 percent in my state (still very proud of this)

Entered and won a couple writing competitions besides that stopped writnig

Then a couple years later I started writing fanfiction

Currently pondering working towards actually publishing some books one day.

Long answer under the cut :)

I remember making "books" since I could write. Like I would staple paper together and I remember one specifically that had something to do with sea horses but i dont remember the plot.

My mom has boxes filled of these "books" with all of the words and even my name misspelled and poorly illustrated characters and stuff.

When I was in like 4th grade (9-10 years old) my teacher had an assignment to where we made up a story and applied whatever type of literary technique we were learning about that week to it. So like if we were learning about similes the assignment would be come up with 5 sentences that include similes that pertain to your story and include one or something like that. At the end of the year we were supposed to have 4-5 pages of this story. I think I finished with like 10-12 or something like that. She made me summarize it 💀

If I remember right I think that my story was about this set of twins where one was born with some type of super power that only the other twin knew about and the superpowered twin got kidnapped by some scientists that wanted to expirement on her and my story followed the other twin and this like 12 year old girl dedicating her teenagehood to finding the lost twin. I think I made it so the dad actually ended up hiring the kidnapper and the dad and kidnapper both got arrested. I want to find this again because I dont remember a lot about it.

That same year my teacher ended up having me enter a poetry contest and I think it was a tri-county thing. I didn;t like poetry (I still hate writing it, love reading it though) so I half assed it and I think I got within the top 5 (??) of my school. (just elementary school) so that was neat.

(This specific teacher was one of those really strict teachers that no one else liked but my little undiagnosed autistic self LOVED her because i always knew what to expect yk?? but is also the one who really got me into reading and writing and stuff and I dont think I'll ever not me extremely grateful for her)

The next year I started forming this one wip. Its definetly my longest and most elaborate and sentimental one because it opened so many different doors for me.

There was no plot but it pretty much followed this group of like 20 teenagers that had very different lives and were all really traumatized and during the "story" they're all like 15-18 trying to figure out how to move on from their childhoods and maintain healthy relationships with eachother and their individual support systems.

Some of them are neurodivergent and some of their stories are centered around that.

One of the characters name is Jack. Jack is bipolar and so is his mom and so because of his moms mental illnesses and stuff he was in and out of fostercare from like 5-13. Hes probably the 'main' character in this.

Hes also went deaf from a tmi from when he was like 9.

Then theres Allison who is autistic and she is your stereotypical 'gifted kid burnout' 'graduated at like 15' type of autistic. but this leads to a lot of issues with her and her main thing is kind of working through that.

Travis comes from a VERY religious (almost cultish) family and is develops schizophrenia at like 16 I think and he's also pansexual and his parents go through his phone and find some texts from his partner and kick him out so hes homeless and has to deal with that.

But like I said theres like 17 more of these characters and its very elaborate. It goes into the parents childhoods and deals with generational trauma and how mental illness can affect parenting.

The 'story' mostly follows Jack and Allison (theyre love interests) and everything is kind of through their pov and their relationships with the other characters and stuff.

But like 11 year old me started writing this out in composition books and between then and when I turned 15 ish and got a computer, I filled I think close to 30 composition books with this story.

But I started researching mental disorders and stuff for this story so I could make their stuff as realistic as possible and that kickstarted my spin on psychology, which led to me wanting to be a social worker which is my major. It also meant that I was really ahead in also my psyche classes. Im *technically* going into my 5th year of college and I started taking psyche classes my second year and I didnt start getting into stuff that I didn't know until the year that just ended so 11 year old me really knew what she was doing.

I remember making my mom buy me textbooks and those articles that are behind a paywall for birthdays and Christmas's

I'm getting off track

A year or two after that I started developing this other wip with kids with superpowers and there was a whole lot of worldbuilding and stuff to this one and its what got me into fantasy which is the main genre I write outside of fanfic. (my hecles wip is loosely based on this one)

(part of this one is on wattpad somewhere)

When I was 14 I took a test that determined whether or not I would be able to start college early and part of this test was writing skills. There was a fiction and a nonfiction portion and then they combined those two scores and averaged them out and my score was in the 95th percentile (top 5 percent) of everyone who takes the test (so on average like 17-19 year olds usually and then some outliers) so I see that as one of my biggest writing achievments.

(i scored shit on the math and reading comprehension portions though)

I stopped writing and stuff for like two years besides entering writing contests.

I've entered like 5 and won 2. One was tri-county and I got first place and the other one was a little bigger but it wasnt a state contest, I think it might have been regional but I got third place. I consider those both big accomplishments too.

And then when I was 17 I started writing fanfiction.

I think fanfiction is what actually got it in my head that maybe I could write an actual book one day. Like before I just saw it as like a hobby because I was scared of the commitment of writing a whole book but ive written almost 200,000 words of one of my fanfics and it wasn't that overwhelming and I think that usually a decent sized novel so why not give it a try?

Idk if that answered the question or if I got TOO off track but oh well :)

#you can tell when i start mildly bragging #im sorry im just proud of myself💀 #I think I mentioned before that everytime I get really into writing its to cope with something. #so that like 11-15 era and then when I was 17 I had a lot going on and thats always when i started really getting back into it #i also consider getting involved in fandom (aside from just writing) something like a milestone to my writing timeline thing #because its the first time I had a community around it #and that I can talk to other people who are passionate about their wips and works and whatnot #and compare writing styles and stuff #i also really enjoy getting immediate feedback #also being able to read stuff by people who dont get paid for it and who dont have to worry about writing trends and stuff is really nice #i think its really neat how much of my life stems from writing #like idk how to explain how different my life would be if this wasnt my primary hobby. #me choosing my career directly stems from a story i made when i was 11 #writing is also how i taught myself empathy #because i mention a lot that im a really low empathy autistic #and id always have trouble not being cold with people because i cant force myself to feel bad for them #so id make like side stories of my characters going through things people in my life went through #and if base what i say and do for them on what would help my chatacter #which i based on reading psyche textbooks #that sounds really weird now that im typing it out but oh well #im not saying im good at relationships but id be a lot worse at them if i didnt start writing #i liked this ask thank you anon <3 #idk if i actually answered it though 💀 #max thinks shes relevant #asks

[icewindandboringhorror]

utilizing all of my willpower in a daunting battle against The Fixations just to get basic household tasks done, i am very brave 

#currently in a 'pace around my house for 3 hours staright talking to myself making up character scenarios in my head' phase #which is good because often that is literally how I write and get writing ideas like things start as concepts #and are only fleshed out once I spend hours talking to myself in different voices trying out dialogue and noting down the words #and situations that are the most interesting out of my daydream walkabout freakshow improv acting session but #this is BAD actually when I have 800 other things to do #I couldnt even eat dinner I just wanted to go in the other room and walk around talking to myself #which just happens #I think it's part of the natural cycle of my creativity or what the hell ever like I just.. get Like That #once every few months I become obsessively fixated on wanting to spend all of my time talking to myself like.. idk #maybe just as a way of processing ideas and stuff that have been floating around in my head for a while or somehting #then after a week or so of constantly having to fight the urge to spend all day talking to myself it's like my brain has gotten it out of #its system and I can function again #but for those few days lol #yesterday I made free time to sit and watch a show that I like and I was literally like.. no... I cant even get into the show I dont #care about this.. I would rather pace the living room and act out imaginary people #Which I know some people daydream about exisitng media characters or like their ships or something like this explicitly is not that #it's like... not even anyone in specific. original characters but not even my pre-established cast of exisitng characters #from the various things I'm writing. I just mean I literally walk around having random interactions #Like I'm playing DnD and I'm the DM and also all of the players hiknjk #but also I'm up walking around acting everything out physically and speaking so its maybe more like LARPing #but everything is just random on the spot. like just testing things out. what if I were these 5 random people off the top of my head #in this random scenario off the top of my head. is that anything? huh? then I debate with myself if it is or not #also one of those aituations where having someone spying on you would be more funny than creepy like.. * throws a punch* *also falls on the #ground because I am both the puncher and the person getting punched* *quickly rises and dashes across the room bevause I'm also a third pers #on who's just a witness* * eating a piece of toast while frantically emoting towards a blank spot on the wall #* etc. and so on and so on gybjh #also sadly yes I have super aphantasia I cannot see shit in my head this is probably why I have to physically act out all imagined #scenarios instead of just visualizing them. rip to people who can silently zone out lost in their imaginations but I'm different (WORSE) #ANYWAY I have a ton of projects right now like a game being finished and the giant worldbuilding videos and costumes and all of this stuff #bad timing to get sucked into the vortex of one of my many evil wizard afflictions that manifests once every few months

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

not to be a smug asshole but its kind of rich how if you say you dont like a thing on the internet everyone who likes that thing automatically assumes you just “don’t get it” and tries to explain to you why the thing is Good, Actually. like maybe i already understand why people like the thing. maybe i have reasons to not like the thing that YOU are refusing to entertain. maybe i used to like the thing because of the specific reasons that you’re writing essays to me about. but then i realized that the thing sucks shit and the reasons why people like it isn’t enough to make it good for me again. maybe my dislike of the thing isn’t because im a stupid idiot who couldn’t put two thoughts together to realize why the thing is good. and maybe i feel belittled and dare i say offended when 12 people condescendingly explain to me why it’s okay that i don’t like the thing, but also refuse to stop explaining the same 2 reasons why THEY like the thing, or even let me defend why i dislike the thing, until i agree with them that the thing is good. all because i dared to express mild disdain on the internet

#shut up pandora #i don't care if people like things i dislike and tell me so but some of yall act like proselytizing christians about it #a while ago i had someone write an essay on a post talking about why a ship i dont like is totally canon guys theyre totally in love #and the ship in questions has not had any conversations in 10 episodes which was why i disliked it #but the argument for it boiled down to 'why does this ship between two main characters HAVE to have any significant onscreen development' #'why cant we just build up this ship based on longing looks like the TJLC ppl. its impossible for you to think thats bad writing' #anyway we ended up dming and i tried to clarify that i dont think its well written to build up a relationship on 'subtle glances' #without having them actually interact with each other. at least not a heavily focused on endgame couple involving main characters #at the end of the very frustrating conversation where they just repeated the 'subtle hints' thing over and over again condescendingly #it turns out they thought i agreed to the conversation bc i wanted them to convince me to like the ship! #so they literally didn't listen to anything i said except to hashtag destroy my points with hashtag facts and hashtag logic #and like. you think i haven't looked at all the 'subtle hints' before this conversation? this is a popular ship and i want to like it! #but i looked at it and thought about it and decided i didn't like it! i even said so on the original post! #the point of the post was 'i dont think having the ship longingly gaze at each other counts as a well written ship if they dont ever talk' #and their 'rebuttal' was 'youre wrong it IS well written! why? well because they longingly gaze at each other' #anyway i was just feeling annoyed about that again #also that time an mlb fan sent me a wholeass wordpress essay on why mlb is Good Actually #after i explained i understand why people like it. i was a fan actually! i just both grew out of it and realized the writing is really bad #so bad in fact that the reasons i liked it werent enough to redeem the show for me and it keeps getting worse #anyway yes im vagueposting about people but messaging strangers to restart a months old argument is more deranged i think #i hope the people who condescendingly hop on a strangers posts to write them essays on why they Dont Get It Actually #uhhhhhhhhhhhhh maybe stop that!