#i might chicken out again

[lemonadeslice]

(INSERT “WEIRD SCIENCE” LYRICS HERE)

#yeah oops i remembered this movie again have some of whatever these are #reanimator #re-animator #two of these are from december if u guess which u get a prize! #i kinda want to start posting more of my horror art bc i have been deep in a horror obsession for years now and i love making art about it #we'll see i might forget or chicken out but i feel like drawing BLOOD lately. ignore my last post about cartoon kitty cats i want BLOOD.

[togaki-kun]

Okay but if I wrote a “kid gojo goes to find kid nanami in his time” spin-off for konpeitō, what then? Huh?

#nanago #posting this on tumblr bc twitter feels like too big of an audience and i might chicken out #i reeeeeeeeeally want to write them as kids #gojo would wake up back in his time following the events of konpeitō then go ‘i NEED to find nanami’ not knowing where to even begin #but whatever he’ll figure it out. he has the gojo clan resources and a maid he’s willing to enlist and know won’t snitch #eventually through some magical means he finds nanami and gets a flashback to adult nanami #but this kid is SO different #kid nanami doesn’t have any clue what cursed energy is #kid nanami is also SASSY AF #he’s so sus of gojo and it takes multiple trips to this remote village on the harbor in order to get remotely close to befriending him #but for gojo—who has the memory of future nanami stuck in his head and who can already see the inklings of it in this kid—it’s worth it #kid nanami might not ever become adult nanami. gojo might never see that man again considering what he’s done to change the future #but he’s here. he’s alive. and gojo is fine discovering something new. something that’s /his/ for a change

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[unopenablebox]

ive never in my life gotten rid of all household chametz for passover and would not have said it was possible for me to have strong opinions on the enforcement of chametz but i recently got an email to sign up for a ~progressive passover seder~ the menu of which included. macaroni and cheese

#chametz actually on the seder table. is in fact too far for me it turns out. #and it's a fleishig meal otherwise because there's chicken! so why cheese! again ive never kept kosher in my life but like. come ON #i barely observe any of this shit but like. please. it's pesach. try to pretend that you think the mission of an ostensible jewish organiza #ion ostensibly observing jewish holidays might encompass jews who have any religious observations or traditions whatsoever. #box opener

[a-splash-of-realitea]

There is no such thing as unbiased reporting. Not only check your sources but check where they’re getting their info from and the other kinds of things they’re saying. Even if you trust your source because you’ve gotten it from a friend or youve seen it a lot check it. EVEN IF YOU AGREE WITH WHAT A SOURCE IS SAYING, CHECK WHO IT’S FROM. The next time I see a link that’s supposed to support palestine and click it and scroll for two seconds and see something like ‘down with Israhell’ (that phrase has been a right-wing antisemitic dogwhistle for many many years) I’m going to explode. We can protest human rights violations and push for peace without spreading misinformation or propaganda.

Please keep in mind that if you just started paying attention to Palestine on October 7th, propaganda and misinformation pre-dates your interest in this. Jews have been in what is now Palestine for thousands of years, and the current clusterfuck dates back much farther than 1948. If you think there is nothing complicated, that there is no nuance in the current conflict, you don’t know enough about it. You can (and should) condemn the IDF’s human rights violations and condemn that warmongering idiot Netanyahu and support liberation of Palestinians and protest the occupation of the West Bank and apartheid and all the horrendous things happening there WITHOUT spreading easily disproven falsehoods about Hamas or falling for old shitty propaganda that uses Zionist as a code word for ‘Jew’. If you feel the need to post about the situation in Palestine beyond the obviously good and necessary calls for humanitarian aid, pleeease do just a little reading up on it first. Even just a little. Read at least the Wikipedia page on the war of 1948, AKA the Nakba (the whole article, if you don’t branch out to other sources; Israel and Palestine have different narratives about it, as you might expect). Read the Hamas charter of 1988 and the revised one of 2017 where they changed their language to be more palatable to international support, notice what they leave out of the more recent version, how they claim indigineity solely for themselves while implicitly denying it to Arab Jews who have inhabited that land for thousands of years, how in the newer version they call Israel ‘the Zionist project’ and erase the fact of the British colonial experiment that got us into this mess and lay all the blame at the feet of Israel. Horrible shit Israel is doing is just as important, but given you’re on tumblr, I assume you already know all about that. Just make room in your mind for multiple truths: that Israel is committing horrific human rights abuses with a tremendous disregard for civilian lives; that the Palestinian people are suffering and in desperate need of humanitarian aid; that Hamas is a right wing extremist organization whose leaders proudly say they will repeat October 7th over and over, and who call their own citizens martyrs to their cause after using them as shields. Hamas is not Palestine, Netanyahu is not Israel, and you are not immune to propaganda.

#first and last time I post about current events #if anyone twists this into Islamophobia or antisemitism I’ll also explode #both are hugely on the rise and a huge reason for that is uncritical swallowing of propaganda #just. think about what you post. this is a public platform. #yes I am more emotional about this than would be politically useful #my family was threatened so. I’m upset. #anyway I’ll never talk about this again I hope #might chicken out and delete this anyway #anyway. explodes

[moonfromearth]

Finally changing my profile picture! 😁

#i've been meaning to do this for weeks but i keep chickening out #but i said i'd do it for the new year so i'm making myself do it! #😆 #i might change it again though because the photo is kind of small #text post

[gwekkuu]

Not gonna lie, I was thinking of opening up sketch commissions maybe soon

#only sketches though I don’t think I can do full blown illustrations for people ffddf #I still don’t think I’m good enough to do commissions but eh some extra money on the side doesn’t hurt #but this is a big maybe I might not and chicken out again lol

[zaddyazula]

not even funny how hard i was crying yesterday like jesus christ

#honestly might be the hardest i’ve cried (at least in a very long time) #like i was a MESS #and what was it at??? #jjk spoilers #jjk season 2 spoilers #NANAMI. AND MAKI. AND MEGUMI AND TOJI. #i was crying for like 4 episodes straight or something and then toji decided to pull that ‘not zenin? i’m glad’ EXCUSE ME SIR #also like toji’s alright he’s not my favourite but OH MY GOD and his eyes changed 😭😭😭😭😭 #i’d just finished crying over nanami getting barbecued and then i was off again #i got spoiled for him dying on tiktok spoilers are basically inescapable but oh my god #in the scene where miwa is crying over mechamaru like hands crossed in her chest leaning over that was actually me #i literally had my head parallel to my bed and my arms crossed to my chest like i can’t get communion or some shit 😭😭😭😭 #and i had to keep turning my head to look at my tv and just kept sobbing #because by the time he actually died i’d stopped crying because it had been like 5 episodes or something but i was sobbing #and it caught me so off guard when jogo got them i was literally staring at the screen going ‘WHAT?’ before i started crying my eyes out #the pipeline my camera roll goes through its pictures of nanami from like the first episodes of the season and then it’s me crying 😭😭😭😭 #i felt so ill about it all i literally couldn’t finish my dinner i ate like a birdseye chicken fillet and then had to give up #also keep in mind i dedicated my entire day to jjk like i watched the movie and then watched all of season 2 in like 9 and a half hours #so when nobara died i was so exhausted i couldn’t even cry i just sort of went ‘you what’ at the screen and had to sit there in pain #but it was so so good all the same like damn #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk season 2 #zad talks

[lucyvaleheart]

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#heyyyyyyy it's ya girl lucy back again with another vent poooooost #filling out some tags here so it shows up as a see more button #one more ought to do it. gonna be kinda heavy this time don't keep reading if you ain't got the spoons #anyway. man. I'm an emotional wreck #like. fuck. I keep crying so much if anyone is even a little nice to me #hundred reasons why it might be the case #frankly though? I don't.... Care #I just know I hurt. #....i... I just know no matter how often people tell me they care it doesn't stick #I know I feel like a faker #I know I feel like I've tricked everyone into liking me #I know I can feel some of them regretting it #a growing part of me wants to throw myself off a cliff #the rest of me knows I'm.ttoo chicken to ever self harm or attempt to end things #so I'm just stuck here #wanting it all to stop #unable to make it do so #and I hope I'll feel better having said something even to nobody #who knows maybe I will #I dunno. #..........i just...... #....... I just feel like a liar #and that shakes me to my core #cuz I don't lie. I can't. I won't. And yet..... #........anyway I'm cutting it here cuz I'm so tired #if you managed to read this far. Um. I love you. #.....i don't blame anyone who ignored it either

[fox-guardian]

Question for people who do digital art commissions: What payment app do you use, and if it's PayPal, do you have a business or personal account? What would y'all recommend?

#ramblings with major #quickly realizing redbubble really isn't good for me. im not the type to make countless Widely Marketable designs daily so. yeah #been thinkin abour doing commissions cuz one like. what do you call it. when someone has multiple commission slots open #is there a word for that? season is too long but thats sounds almost right. whatever. #one Group Of Commissions would immediately have way better payout than doing the same amount of work and putting it on redbubble #i just *clenches fist* need a payment app #almost got pp but the terms were. so long. i chickened out. but i might try again

[ncityzen]

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#hello ladies horrible pms hours is getting overly sad about the fact that you can't go to the cinema to watch the b*rbie movie because it's #100% one of those films you go watch with your friends and no one's invited you with them and you miss your friends back home again #because somehow you were only able to establish meaningful connections as a 7-year-old #erola.txt #i thought i might go with the girls at work but i don't think so now 😔 i should've asked them before #it's not even that i want to watch the movie that much???? i was never a huge fan of the dolls #and tbh the concept of living toys always freaked me out lmaodjfhns I didn't even like toy story i was a baby chicken #plus the whole capitalist nightmare side of it all #but it's the meaning of it you know....

[iinmysights]

wanting to take the dog to get a pup cup vs not wanting to risk explaining to the police why she ate an entire bin of baby chickens

#Ravage.txt #dl #i have to buy chicken food and she’s been wanting to go on a car ride the last few days but it’s hot enough that idk if i want to risk #someone calling the cops on me for leaving her in the car with the windows cracked open and parking in the shade #‘why not take her inside rav?’ great question! the answer is that she’s a 2yo german shepherd who hasn’t been in public since last year so #idk how she’ll react to seeing people again! she’s done great in home depot before but the chicken food place is an entirely separate #environment + i don’t have a supply bag to pick up any messes she might make #so now i either: 1) take my younger brother with me (not happy about bc i wanna play inappropriate music) #or 2) get the chicken food then drop it off then take her all the way back out for a pup cup #tbh might do the latter. really don’t wanna be in a car with either of my brothers AND a dog

[felteverywhere]

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#ughhhh i shouldn't be sad but there's a former partner i rlly liked writing with that ig i had a falling out with on my dash #and i am sad bc idk where we stand and i'm too chicken shit to message them #i don't know that they'd write with me again but i'd be willing like here or elsewhere bc it's kinda sad #but it might be just me that's like wistful n sad about it #she speaks #probably will delete #this is such a teenager-esque post to make but i have Feelings #deadass if they messaged me rn i'd be like ok i'm over it bc i LITERALLY AM #and i hope they are

[katsofmeer]

the more i reflect on the fact that wuvvy knew the whole time that rue WAS the one who broke up the apollo/gribalba engagement the more i need to take days off of work to recover.

#i’m so desperate to do a rewatch but school has me in its clutches!! #text post #so many reveals this season make so many moments WAY more impactful ahdkdijekfod #acofaf #wuvvyruehob #idk if my best friend who i was in love with confessed their love to the guy actively trying to hunt and possibly kill them i might. #also snap. #wuvvy was always right but she is soooo right my god #also - wuvvy True Villain arc is still turning over in my head like a rotisserie chicken #idk i just think she deserves to get a little nasty. as the saying goes #why would they put this mud out if we weren’t meant to roll around in it? #literally tell me that if rue confessed to being the sabatuer any episode earlier that hob wouldn’t have done what he wanted to do to apollo #and gone for rue. tell me wuvvy wouldn’t again make herself their champion to defend them. #fey are hard to kill and i don’t want them to kill each other. i just want them to viciously battle and ALMOST kill each other #wuvvy and hob have what brennan thought hob and andhera might have - bloody battlefield romance respect resentment💕 #let them unhinge their jaws and try to devour one another to rue’s shock and horror!! let it hurt before it heals!!! #hi boss i can’t come in today due to the preoccupation of my mind

[orcelito]

spilled gravy on myself today

#speculation nation #i also ate some creme brulee. extra toasty #i ate chicken. Twice. #still daydreaming about that chicken sandwich. it was the highlight of my day #uhmm. brown sugar shipment. dude was like 'this pallet is 600 pounds r u sure u have this?' #and me just rolling my eyes internally as if i havent pulled thousands of pounds to our storage room by myself b4 #yes i managed the 600 pound pallet without breaking a sweat. i was a lil winded but only bc ive been in bad shape today dlksjfdlj #went on a bike ride and sat out in the woods by the river again. i love going there & it was thankfully warm enough for it #and then i got food. chicken and mashed potatoes w/ gravy. thus the spilled gravy bc lol #wrote a little bit. might scrap a lot of it tho. im not currently statisfied with what i got for chapter 4 of Sentido #uhm. unfortunate things with my dnd group. we'll see how that goes though ahaha #anyways now it's time for me to continue thinking about trigun. toodles

[izzy-b-hands]

Thinkin' again abt Misfits tattoo guy from Grindr and how I literally almost hooked up with him last fall but then chickened out and he's still chatting every few weeks and exchanging Pics and Vids of a Certain Kind with me despite him being out of the state now and i just

i don't think I'd ever wanna marry the guy(there's like, a few celeb dudes i lust after i might sorta consider that with, but we gotta like. live together minimum three years to assess actual compatibility under various stressors lmaooo, marriage is Big & Scary & honestly if i do it it'll be less Big Romantic Show and more 'we care deeply abt each other and taking this step will allow us more legal rights to help each other if incapacitated or dead & i want to make sure I can be there for u & make sure ur wishes are followed'),

but I would love to fuck on the regular and get takeout and do movie nights with him. Why does he have to live in Texas.

(also idk if he'd not like me being poly bc we haven't ever talked abt that, so i would square that away before the above happening but. in my defense his dick is really pretty & extremely distracting so the convos do start like. small talk and stuff abt being queer in the middle of the country but we get distracted easily lmao)

#text post #posting abt this bc he msgd and said he's traveling again all over way late this year so #maybe i could fix my mistake and finish the hook up lol #I'll almost definitely be in ct and he might be in nyc for a bit but id wanna make sure my roomie would like. know where i am there #not that i don't trust this guy it's just. Grindr ya know? even after some time especially when they're from the midwest... #u learn to be Extra Careful just in case of the worst #eh let's be real here I'll probably chicken out again bc even tho i want to meet up badly #my brain and the Illnesses don't always make it easy to actually make it happen even when i push myself