#i think its a sign perhaps..

[taichouu]

hi im love you!!!!!!!!!!

ME WHEN MY KENDALL COMES TO SAY HELLO HI HEN <3

Have you experienced wonder and love today? Or eaten anything delicious !! I'm about to eat a really tasty sandwich on my lunch break so you should definitely join me and eat something tasty too.

#tai talks #strawberrystepmom #mutuals! #not to be cheesy but its been raining all morning and then suddenly when i opened this .. the sun BURST through the clouds .... #i think its a sign perhaps.. #my ask box has been so EMPTY lately i kinda miss when it used to be more active 🛌🏻 #🪤🪤 spspsp... #anyways i love you kendy stay safe today and protect your peace 💓

[vodid]

yall ever experience a love for something so great that it literally hurts. like it feels like your brain is gonna explode. screaming crying throwing up except it feels like that's actually going to happen. bc you're experiencing so much emotion

because that's me with bay jazz. again. help. he has an autistic grip on me

#i cant stop watching his scenes frame by frame #ive seen them all 40 times and yet #who decided live action was a good idea he looks so real #and its killing my neurodivergent maladaptive daydreaming brain #i'm holding his head in my hand. from the statue i bought. and i just can't stop Thinking about He #and i am just so upset that we didn't get more of him and won't #I'M UPSET HE'S NOT REAL #i feel like i'm a child fresh into transformers again #dreamy sigh #but on another note this might be a bad sign that the stress is getting to me too much #at least i'm trying to make something good out of it ? even if its. really just hurting me in the end LOL #anyway i really really truly love bay jazz #time to draw him! #........just in time for jazzy week perhaps?

[mtkanna]

jakob, rene and the narzissenkreuz ordo have connections to quite a few of the playable characters, which i think is. quite funny actually

j&r leave their notes in hangeh afrasiyab -> klingsor and the abyss -> klingsor's blood feud w/ the alberich family -> totally normal guy kaeya

j&r institute research -> samples of elynas, chasm mud, scarlet quartz -> elynas and durin -> albedo and the primordial human project

j&r establish the ordo -> neuvillette and a legislative response, probably

j&r learn about the hyperborea ~500 years ago -> childe is named after the same hyperborean legend and is now intertwined with the primordial sea

rene page 8 -> nahida, wanderer, and the idea of samsara

rene and the picnic at petrichor -> the hydro hypostasis -> kokomi

#genshin lore #genshin impact #i wonder if dainsleif ever met them #were they in hangeh afrasiyab after the sign of apaosha was sealed? i think they must have been #bc rene has notes on the five songs #the klingsor -> kaeya connection is kind of a stretch #but i assume that it exists. since klingsor is super invested in hadura's past and acting in their name #and anfortas was presumably an alberich (regency) #and the kokomi connection is here bc the hypostasis is on watatsumi #but its descriptions mention how petrichor is surpassingly pure #so perhaps petrichor's water contained or was part of the primordial sea? #tower of daffodils

[toestalucia]

anyway gamers hello i was confidently gonna say im gonna try my hardest to be here rather than on akira but due to a twist of fate i might prioritise my multi a bit. THAT SAID ill try to swap between the two. in an ideal world ill get like all of my recent drafts here done? mayhaps not the more serious stuff cuz my writing is rapidly declining (irl is stressful rn). the shorter things. the foolery. maybe i get possessed to write the longer stuff we just dont know. i truly do love gran i will fight my wizard (akira) obsession for them

#stardust speaking ! #me saying gran is my funniest muse vs thinking about akira every minute of the day #ITS SOOO DIFFICULT TO SELL AKIRA CUZ AKIRAS SSOOOOO NORMAL (despite when they. say. rly funny things) #guy who asked the worlds strongest wizard to turn into a cat ILL NVR LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOO HEEELLLPPPPPPP THEYRE SSOOOO #theyre way better at asking (sudden) questions than gran is but #anyhow....ive made this exact post before. we shall see how much i get done. perhaps a bit of everything. perhaps one full thing. we shall #see. hoping this wknd is kind. peace sign

[kirnet]

piff has kissed karlach shadowheart and now wyll and gale is like... ur breaking up with me? my friend i have never once flirted with you

#im being messy i know but argh... #piff and karlach is good. its really good. shes amazing i love her so much and theyre a good balance to each other #but i think wyll works so well with the backstory i gave piff... AUGH #i think i was supposed to have a scene with karlach the last long rest bc thats when i could finally touch her but the guardian came in and #cockblocked me. perhaps that is a sign to save her romance for another tav #ramblings #mina plays bg3 #i has abandoned wyll but then that dance cutscene happened... kicking my feet and giggling irl

[suncaptor]

I want to be capable of being met where I am!

#it's all over me I am not okay I can't make it okay and I can't make myself see things the way people WANT me to #I'm so angry!!!!!!! and everything that's been taken from me!!!!!!!!!!! #I'm not okay I'm a triggered hormonal mess but that doesn't mean I don't wish I was capable of well whatever!!!!! #(if you're like. but rem i am doing that. or trying. yeah my brain's fucked right now too so like. #don't take this as any type of sign you're failing but perhaps maybe that I'm in a state right now #where i need extra support or whatever) #i think maybe it's harder because i dont find joy in anything but i could PRETEND. im so good at that. #but also i just can't see things past what happened to me! but its so horrifying how am I supposed to right now! #delete #vent

[kyouka-supremacy]

doesn’t aku smile at gin? when we first see them together

I'm afraid he doesn't 😭😭😭

#I LOVE Gin / Ryuunosuke interactions I LOVE Gin / Ryuunosuke interactions I LOVE Gin / Ryuunosuke interactions I LOVE #I think about this page a lot. I like to think about it like it's a transition period right after Ryuunosuke hit a rock bottom– #(in his own personality and evilness of behavior ‚ to simplify) that went from when Dazai left the mafia to the Moby Dick fight #But the Moby Dick fight signed a change for Ryuunosuke. Starting that moment he began to climb up again from the pit he had dug himself #A start of his redemption which is slow and gradual and will have its climax in chapters 87-88 #Anyways the Moby Dick fight signed a change in Ryuunosuke's heart‚ something that had him slowly change in his behavior and approach #POINT IS I like to think such change started exactly from the way he treated Gin!! Because she's the person most important to him– #because she's the one he would never want to hurt and the onky person he genuinely wants to live happy #And he started by - who knows - trying to be a little more involved in her life and spend more time with her #And here- he looks STIFF and cold but he's still THERE and I like to think it really matters for Gin‚ she really cares!!! #She knows her brother is trying really hard to make up for something #- perhaps the time they've lost while he was following his selfish goals - #and that's why she smiles to him so warmly #So yeah. Them ❤️ #Went off to another tangent but yeah Ryuunosuke doesn't smile but he's. he's doing his best 😭😭😭 #(in the little world of my personal headcanon lol) #bsd #bsd ch 41 #people asks me stuff #I LEFT THE TAGS OUT suggestion: ignore that #This is SO embarrassing I'm digging my own pit

[leatherbookmark]

sometimes people are like wow lhk is so weird! he’s so strange! a total alien who doesn’t know how to human! he looks so weird and unsettling! and the dude in question is just   sitting there

#i think there's one person who also reposts kk stuff and their tag (tags?) for him are about how weird he is which. is not my business ofc #but i swear sometimes people are finding new 'reasons' to exclaim about how creepy and weird he is and its just. head tilt #he does have a history of saying confusing things but that's just his sense of humor and the 'mouth faster than the brain' setting that #i feel hasn't been as active lately (perhaps because his more current stuff isn't as popular and translated as cql bts lol) #and maybe i'm just overreacting! but man i am Not a fan of the way how for the last x years fandom has been very into pointing at a random #Anything about a character/person and going ISN'T THAT SUPER STRANGE AND NOT NORMAL??? WHO DOES THAT!!! LOL!! #you can play detective and try to figure out why! but i feel like it's rather obvious. and i've been... 🤨-ing the fandom with increasing #intensity For A While Now but it doesn't show any signs of stopping. OHWELL.JPEG #shrimp thoughts

[semiotomatics]

trying to understand the reasoning behind my anxiety "flare-ups" as if there's anything logical about an anxiety disorder

#personal spewage #this has been an original post #i just dont get it #ive been *fine* for days now #(well. fine by my standards. meaning ive been functional and havent had any anxiety/panic attacks) #then last night happened and its all been downhill from there #i dont think the nightmare caused it #i think the nightmare was a sign #an omen perhaps #i didnt even have any others!! i dont remember any of my other dreams except the one i woke up from last but it was normal #i do wonder if i can have bad dreams i dont remember but am still affected by #but still. i think the bad dreams are a symptom not the cause #i just wish i knew what the cause *was* #anyway im still not feeling better so i guess todays just gonna be a write-off #sucks

[flopity-flips]

idk if this is a hot take but honestly as fun as think dante/lucia is i honestly don't think they would or could work out- at least until dante sorts through his baggage. but even then, Dante is someone who craves his humanity so bad- going so far as to outright deny his own human blood while simotaneously insisting he's human. i feel like- were he not completely emotionally wrecked by his own existence feeling like a curse- he'd want someone human. someone as far away from the life of a devil hunter or devil. but by getting involved with him they become a part of that life- one way or another, tragically or not. it's part of the fact that he's just a walking bundle of contradictions.

#i also have no vested interest or bias in Dante's relationship given that i selfship nuh uh no i do not #but it's also part of why I don't dig Dante n lady either #i feel like their relationship is complex- like #maybe once a while after dmc3 they hooked up cuz they're both sad they're both repressed and they're both a bundle of emotions #what is this tension between us? but because they're young and dumb they don't realize until after oh wait this tension was shared trauma #but even then Dante keeps everyone at arms length its p clear that lady and trish rly only stop by when they need something or they're #bored. perhaps just a wellness check on dante if he's showing signs of a slipping mental state #but in general I love the sort of sadness behind dante and lucias relationship as is rn too #that sort of heartending feeling of rejection and Dante's fear of letting her get hurt or thinking no one can love him #it makes my heart hurt and I love that shit #idk I'm rambling i saw some light chatter abt dante/lucia #but im not looking to get into ship wars over it lmao im just tossing out my two cents on the two #but my opinion should once again be taken with a grain of salt considering i selfship hard with him. im cringe but im free #devil may cry #dmc #amanda rambles #i need a tag for dmc lore musings cuz im reading this over and it just sounds like rough notes lol #just an uninterrupted nonsensical stream of consciousness lmao #oh fuck i gotta schedule an appointment with a therapist lol

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#i cant help but think that were making a mistake in planning to do social/ppl work. in doing anthropology in the first place #ive never been good with people #i dont know if i ever will be #nor am i particularly fond of being surrounded by people constantly and infact i quite value my silence #... i can never seem to quite get the hang of interactions. of how to talk of how to move of how to speak #and while i have spend years pretend i do. it has only left me tired #... what am i to do exactly if this is what we go into? what happens if almost inevitabley it is me and not somebody else on a day when we #must deal with people - be it attempting to help or large groups of them or whatever it may be #.... i feel like im being signed up for a life of exhaustion if we do this. i am too quiet. i am too much of a solitary creature #.. what we should have done is gone to veternay school instead. which is what we wanted to do for some years anyway. still helping. less #people work though ... #. i could have done that so much more easily #...... it has taken me too many years of this life to stop hating humans all together. i can understand them. for survivals sake. but this #is all. i have yet to learn to trust them much nor have they given me much reason to nor do i see much benefit to doing so #i am tired. of the nonsencial cruelty. of all of it. #perhaps i do not wish to spend years trying to help beings which i barely trust #what happens if. as it happens at times. i end up being the one to front for days or weeks or months? it seems like a recipe for disaster #we truly should have just worked with animals instead that is something we can all easily do #. its too late now anyway #last year of college. there is no time or money or energy for another degree #my fate seems to be sealed and for months or perhaps years now ive been - i would say turning in my grave but i suppose im not yet dead - #over this.. and now it truly is past time #..... it was a mistake as well that we did not stick to horseback riding in highschool. no. instead we listened to people and parents and #family. do this do that you can do so much better et fucking cetera. those highschool years of academic insanity wrecked this body. wrecked #it. college was too much when we were so mentally and physically ill #.... life could have been different now #if we had stuck to it

[jamesmaddisons]

right. i know im constantly buying makeup i KNOW and i think i’ve had another makeup order mishap

#i bought the new nars palette #and its turned up #and i think 2 of the shades are exactly the same??? like one of the shades is wrong and they've put two of the same shades in #like looking at pictures of it its not meant to be like that???? #yeah looking again they've definitely fucked this up #kjdjshdkjsdhs #perhaps this is a sign to stop buying stuff but like ????? how do things keep going wrong #stacey speaks

[keeps-ache]

'why are you wearing a sweater if you're so hot' my shirt tried to kill me last night 👍

#just me hi #had a Bad Time hfhsh :') #every now and then anything that comes in contact with me makes my nerves explode or somethin idek lllol #this sweater is my one 'neutral' piece of clothing #not tight anywhere + the fabric doesn't get Bleugh on me out of the blue :> #the only downside is yea this thang gets Hot hrghsfh #+ also put on shorts. which made my brother go 'ohhh it's bad' LmaO #the wonders of the human experience !! #//anywho i am also trying to drag myself through finishing this page but it's very much like trying to get a tired toddler through an ikea #not very productive hfhs !! #csp did its usual crash and i took that as a sign to just stop Lol #prolly shouldn't have but man. i am tired ✌️-u- #i DO think it's inevitable that i finish this variation of the first chapter #is that fate or manifesting? can't leave it up to guesswork man!! i am yanking on the thread of time with not much other plan in mind hfhs #//i also have to get off rn. perhaps i shall draw. or think. or read #probably some mix of all of them while i mentally pace hfhshfb :> #//oh and i started watching the s4ndman ! #i like it a lot it's fun :D ~!~ #//okay but that's all i am going to go now hfsh :3 toodles !

[noisemachinedotcom]

i cant just post a link to every individual song on another green world but i have to stress it really is that good

#golden hours is pulling strings in me every track pulls strings in me #the passage of time is flicking dimly upon the screen i cant see the lines i used to think i could read between #perhaps my brains have turned to sand oh me oh my #i think its been an eternity #youd be surprised #at my degree of uncertainty #how can moments go so slow several times #ive seen the evening slide away #watching the signs #taking over from the fading day #perhaps my brains are old and scrambled #(incredible roundy guitar solo thank you) #(angelic choir) #(continuation of incredible roundy guitar solo) #tunes

[elldritch-horror]

Spicy-brained friends, I would like to propose an update to the very useful ‘if you hate everyone, eat, if everyone hates you, sleep, and if you hate yourself, shower’ mantra to live by

Have you suddenly become a petty, hateful little gremlin who thinks people should face the firing squad for (checks notes) leaving teabags on the counter, breathing loudly, or daring to exist in the same space as you? Perhaps mundane and reasonable requests like ‘hey, we agreed to hang out now, let’s hang out’ make you want to scream and move to a yurt in the woods.

You. Are. Overstimulated.

People talk a lot about being overstimulated, and the physical/mental effects of it. What I haven’t seen is people talking about what it does emotionally, and it took me an embarassingly long time to link up those nitpicky, resentful emotions with the state of overstimulation/meltdown/shutdown.

These feelings do not mean that you’re a bad person! They probably aren’t how you actually feel about the people around you. They probably do mean that your nervous system is at its absolute limit and any request/demand/stimulus is Too Much and taking you into fight or flight territory.

Go lie down in a dark room for an hour, or find somewhere safe and familiar to stim for a bit. If it’s happening a lot, schedule yourself regular low-stimulation shutdown time

Signed: someone who moved in with their nearest and dearest only to have a massive crisis of faith about Suddenly Hating All of Them. I don’t hate them, it’s just overstimulating living with people. If I can spare anyone else a similar 9 months of suspecting that they may actually be a bit of a shit person, then this post is worth it!

[biteapple]

genuinely cant tell if i made things worse by trying the kitty litter thing

#it LOOKED pretty bad when i first swept it and was like oh fuuuuck i gotta get this all up now #so i started scrubbing it all out and now it looks ... better than it did when i first started sweeping up the gunky litter ... i think #its hard to tell because its still wet. i cant tell if its just dark from the wet or if it looks MORE soiled now #it might just need to be powerwashed away #when i got out there i scrubbed a lot of dirt into my bucket up #but im not sure if its just the stuff i put down that im mostly scraping up. lol. #and then i dumped a bucket gallon of water out onto it so now it just looks sudzy and shitty out there #umm... hopefully its just par for the course. a ''looks bad before it looks good'' thing #maybe in the morning when its dry it'll look like it did before. perhaps hopefully even. a little bit better than when i started #i only let the dish soap and clay soak for 4 hours and most people who do this let it soak into the concrete for multiple days #but i dont think i could get away with the platform outside the apartment being caked with kitty litter for days even with a sign up #maybe overnight. or a day. but not much longer right...?