#i was also on my period the whole time lmao

[americankimchi]

god i wish they hadn't retconned maul's death. i get wanting to explore more of his character because he was, objectively, one of the coolest star wars characters to ever hit the big screen and didn't get much screentime prior to his death, but also his role was fulfilled perfectly within those constraints so i wasn't too upset by it.

but by retconning it and making it so he never died it's like. okay. what now? the whole point (well, to me, ymmv of course) of the theed generator fight was that it was the first ever fight between the jedi and the sith in thousands of years, and that in the end even though the jedi (obi-wan) won the fight, a jedi (qui-gon) and a sith (maul) still died. a master and an apprentice dying together to herald the start of a new age/the return of the sith. perfectly paralleling the way in rotj a master (palps) and an apprentice (anakin/vader) died together to herald the return of the jedi. in both instances, a father figure (qui-gon/vader) dies in the arms of their son (obi-wan/luke) as a sith (palps/maul) is cast down into the abyss to their deaths. (palps being alive in the ST and retconning his death in rotj is also annoying for this reason)

i mean i like maul. don't get me wrong. he's an incredibly compelling character and i enjoy seeing more of him... but there's always the thought hovering in my mind like "he should be dead though. he should 100% be dead. this wouldn't be happening if he was dead, but i honestly would rather it not if it meant that maul was dead."

like the tpm fight just doesn't hit the same knowing that canonically he's just. going to become a robot octopus at some point. (shoutout to palps becoming sith glados in the ST) it cheapens the moment for me. it was supposed to be a moment of triumph marred by the deep and soul-crushing loss of a loved one and it's just... not, anymore. or at least not to the same extent. AUGH i'm just. frustrated. wish star wars as a whole wasn't constantly reframing/retconning what's been established. just puts a bad taste in my mouth.

#personal #star wars is HUGE #there's a GALAXY'S worth of stories to be told #and we're always for whatever reason focusing on this ONE PARTICULAR TIME PERIOD #it's suffocating #this is partly why i'm so excited to see the acolyte #it's a break from the skywalker saga #i love the skywalkers. i love the skywalker saga. #but that's also why i want them to STOP ADDING TO THEIR STORY #sometimes a story has a beginning middle and an end and that's okay! #that's fantastic! #we don't need to see between the lines! or behind the scenes! what if we just LEFT IT ALONE #AUGH #anyways. i don't know. i'm just frustrated with the state of star wars as a whole #it feels so claustrophobic right now. just because the space is there and undefined doesn't mean it needs to be filled #this constant push to canonize the years leading up to an event with content is so frustrating #negative space in an image isn't a bad thing it just helps guide the eye to what's most important #otherwise it gets too cluttered. too noisy. too DISTRACTING. #this was supposed to be about maul being alive but it's really about my ongoing grievances with how star wars is cannibalizing the movies #i'm tired of it........ tired i tell you #anyways that's all. real old man yells at cloud moment rn lmao

[fennel-tea]

That Awful OTP Meme, or: my Binah/Hod manifesto

I originally posted this on twitter but while this is mostly tongue-in-cheek I actually have a lot of thoughts on these two that are generally summarized by [god DAMN I love the interplay of two people who are varying degrees of Terrible]

or just, like, a Hannigram meme.

#fennelart #project moon #binah/hod #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corporation spoilers #the thing is that binah has never had regrets. binah has never had the time or desire to let herself have regrets #hod on the other hand is Full of them. she is someone who is trying very hard to be a good person #but is going at it from an entirely selfish direction (circa lobcorp) and just ends up completely sucking anyway #which is honestly part of her appeal to me? #i like the idea of them picking each other apart which is a thing that is extremely one sided at first because. it’s Binah #but even binah is still human albeit an extremely fucked up one and I think if hod manages to poke her head out of her own issues she could #start to see where the lines are #also she (binah) is locked in a basement and bored as shit and will take anything remotely interesting at this point #hence where I put her on the devoted scale versus indifferent #could you call it romance? #it’s not healthy in the slightest but no ship with binah involved is lmao #anyway this whole essay in the tags is mostly to say I’m proud of myself for the black damage joke lmao #periodic black damage and a -50% debuff to your stats. its the give and take you know how it is #shoutouts to the person writing binah/hod in the ao3 tag like two years ago you thoroughly infected my brain

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fellow Psych enjoyer!! Im watchin psych at this very moment lol, i know its a tough question bc i dont even have a definitive answer but like, what's your favorite episode?

hmmm well i did very much enjoy the episode where Lassiter & Henry bond over fishing... i also like the episode where Shawn gets kidnapped & ends up on top of a moving car <3

#ive seen some episodes out of order #since my friend used choice ones to get me interested lol (it very much worked!) #but i only started watching it all the way through yesterday #so im only on season 2 :/ #i also loved the one i just watched - the counterfeiting episode! twas funny #but really since im binging the show they're all kinda blending together lmao #And its mostly on as background so there are some where i have no idea what happened or what it was about #rambles from the bog #tbh a lot of the time watching it #i find myself sitting here and going: man. if it was made pretty much the exact same way just with today's climate #it wouldve been even fucking funnier #bc obviously the humor in the show is kinda Dated! there's a lot of times where im sitting here going 'oh that was bad taste' #or 'oh that would Not fly today' #but it is a really good show #easier to enjoy when you understand the era it was made in & accept that there's gonna be unsavory bits #honestly its interesting! im on s.2 which was released in 2007 i think #and i believe i was like... around five years old? i dont really remember Living the time period! #so its interesting to see! its a whole different range of slang and american culture & tech! #all i really remember is the phones... i remember the awe when someone at school turned up with a touchscreen #they were pretty fuckin new so they were expensive & my parents could afford one #so my first phone was your average flip phone. it served its purpose! i loved listening to the ringtones! that was my spotify <3 #anyway wait fuck what were we talking about #OH RIGHT PSYCH. um. yes🤝 #i dont like shawn's dad! lassiter is probably my favorite! i may have a crush on juliet! shawn is the most bishrekxual man i have ever seen #gus deserves better & more screen time! the whole show is just really good #*old man voice* they just dont make em like they used to.... #said both positively and negatively. some aspects are good they're gone. other aspects... sigh

[dihalect]

my department is apparently no longer hybrid, but “on-site with ad-hoc remote work”. i’m just gonna see how long i can get away with ignoring that

#txt #i do have an accommodation that says i can wfh when i have a migraine. #but when i was asking for the accommodation i guesstimated that that’d intersect with my in-person days like once or twice a month. #i do absolutely need to have the option to wfh multiple times per week. #but getting an accommodation for THAT is going to be way more difficult. bc it’s not JUST migraines‚ it’s a combination of my various psych #afflictions and not-properly-diagnosed chronic pain *and* the complex whole-body rube goldberg pain machine that is my chronic migraines. #it’s not necessarily ‘i will be in unbearable pain if i do this’. #it’s ‘i will be perpetually drained and my low-level pain will be worse snd i will have no life outside of work and recuperating from work’. #it’s also weird that they’re ending hybridhood *now*. #it’s not like we’re at a particular milestone in pandemic recovery. although our admin did mention entering a ‘busy period’. #it’s not even necessary lmao. we get by fine. we get by BETTER when we’re not all there. #oh man. i just realized. everyone being on-site is gonna make the autism/anxiety so much worse. #i honestly think this policy shift might be related to me. #bc our program director started emphasizing the importance of being onsite on x days… shortly after i started working hybrid‚ but had to wfh #on some of those days #for disability reasons. #anyway. government pleeeaaase give my old lab more money so i can go back. pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaazeeeee #edited

[zeawesomebirdie]

Finally feeling better enough to read things that aren't fic or comics, and immediately using that ability to research horse stuff for a different fic >:)

#im officially negative!! #i needed to test negative multiple times over a 24+ hour period and i did #but im still sick lmao #so #not gonna get to go to the rodeo this weekend #(i gave my mom the tickets so shes gonna go with one of her friends) #(so at least it wasnt a waste of tickets) #but in the meantime!! #finally researching for that gunsmoke/d€u fic >:) #and also finally able to indulge in my wanting to learn *everything* about horses! #i still cant read religious stuff yet #my brain wont let me #so itll be a while before i can get back to the Bardo Thodol #but hey #baby steps!!! #and hey #i *also* finished another song *and* started two more!! #so that superb@t folk album is truly chugging along!! #ngl im pretty sure im gonna write the whole damn album #and then never record it lmao #but we'll see #i started playing banjo for this *exact* purpose so #and low key i kinda wanna get into guitar and mandolin for the same reason so 👀 #we'll see lol #(ill need to be able to play better before i can record) #(and ill also just need a better instrument first too cause like. nothing against my current banjo) #(but it is *definitely* a beginner instrument) #(and thats fine!! i paid $50 for it and it was 100% worth that $50!!) #(but next year when i go to that one folk festival im going to trade it in for something nicer) #(unless i can afford something nicer sooner)

[gamerwoo]

this week is not my week <3

#first the whole friends thinking i’m annoying thing #then my coteacher absolutely sucking lately and that whole situation making me so frustrated #and now i leave for work a half hour too early so now i’m a half hour early for work #i could’ve been home being lazy the entire time i was driving wtf #also accidentally forgot to flush the toilet after my shower this morning (i pee beforehand ok) and im on my period and uhhhh #somebody DEFINITELY found my tampon in the toilet and im scared it was my cousin who is a grown ass man lmao #anyway this week is not great for me <3

[todayisafridaynight]

Nooo the trans allegory is also a Big one for me in that song, but I know not everybody is about Trans Aoki so I figured it went well with his disabilities regardless. And like yeah blah blah basic whatever, idc y'know, I'm here to enjoy life so imma listen to music people don't like 😂🤣

But you're so real for the trans Aoki thoughts okay.... I love both cis and trans interpretations of the Boy bc he's fits very well in both categories. It's all just spice y'know!! You sprinkle some of this... Some of that... And tomorrow you make a new dish! Love moving head canons around for funsies

Anyway ty for validating my music choices 🫡 good luck charging your phone

i dont really hc charas any particular sexuality or gender since i always feel weird about it its called being BORING its what I AM but its the way i was playin y7 and just kept jokin bout it every time the game gave me a chance until the very last scene then i was just like.. hm... feels less like a joke to me now... its just what my eyes perceive at this point.. sorry...

but i got you covered with music choices man !!!! i like most music even if it can be considered 'overplayed' or 'generic' like idk man... if it makea me feel ima listen to it..

#snap chats #love how i forgot the Eyes lyrics to Body when it's deadass the first line.. STUPID ASS !!!!!!! #but anyways. yeah it been a hot year since i talked bout trans aoki LMAO #honestly if it wasnt for the fact i saw korean artists draw aoki with top scars (and specifying they were TS scars) then id prob just like #be quiet about it. cause most of the time i was just jokin like the whole injections bit and his voice being hoarse in eng #and nasally in jp... lol.... the jokes were being lined up for me... and then he went and changed his name #and got surgery that made him feel more at home in his body... LIKE THEY PROVIDE NON-TRANS REASONS WHY HE DOES THIS #I KNOW but thats why i just kept /jokin/ bout it cause i was like 'lmao' yk. Lmao congrats your accidental trans rep is republican #AND THAT'S WHY IT'S FUNNY TO HC HIM AS TRANS CAUSE HE SUCKS !!!!! i want more shitty people as trans rep #im p sure im the only one who 'openly' hcs him trans but not even. like i remember twitter was Allegedly mad at me for drawing aoki a lot #and they made a point bout me makin him trans but like... i never even 'publicly' made him trans.. #when i'd draw aoki without a shirt i'd give him scars but those were from his lung surgery.. lmao... #not my fault the scars look Like That... cause i like drawing scars leave me alone... #my DB followers know i was obsessed with drawing yamcha's leg scar from when his leg was broken #Truly just a coincidence but also not cause it Was lowkey intentional but anyways.. lol... #i remember the period where people were askin me bout the hc.. hehe... #My Apologies for going on the Trans Aoki rant i still do very much like to joke bout it with myself.... it was too real to me... #every time i think of The Specifics i start to get like 👁️👁️ because then it gets too real so i gotta stop before i start crying.... #it's not that the HC is personal or deep to me or anything it's just funny <- in denial for the bit #anyway.. i havent been able to be productive all day so !! time to start i have a really hectic week and its only getting worse (╯▽╰ ) #thanks for letting me ramble... and feel validated for being delulu... #lowkey funny that While True you said not everyone's about the HC Which Is True it's why i dont talk about it a lot #but like... Not To Be Presumptuous And Self-Important but i do remember being one o the first people to bring it up with other aoki fans.. #imagine me not being abot my own hc.. or at least one i stand heavily by... lmao..

[peskypescatarian]

mad relationship anxiety today i dont want it!

#you found your person! you can rest now #i know all the reasons why #actually i will list them: #1) i am on my period and my emotions go fucking crazy every time i get my period #2) im still in the process of changing my self view... so falling back on sad view of self is bound to happen every now and then #NOOOO I AM MID-TYPING THE TAGS TO THIS POST AND HE JUST SENT ME A REALLY CUTE SONG WHILE HE'S AT THE AIRPORT #I LOVE YOU MATTHEW #3) our first anniversary is coming up really soon and i'm still a little Long term scared that i'm Not Good Enough for him #so milestones are a reminder that this is a long term thing WHICH IS GREAT BUT ALSO JUST SCARY! #LIKE IVE NEVER DATED SOMEONE FOR A WHOLE YEAR WITHOUT FIGHTING THEM EVER #I'VE NEVER BEEN IN A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP ... EVER ... MUCH LESS FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR #4) our plans for after college are approaching closer and closer! i'm thinking more about traveling together #and living together and marrying each other so of course i'm a little scared about it not being forever #5) he's going to a WEDDING as we speak so OF COURSE I AM THINKING ABOUT MARRYING HIM #6) we're further from the honeymoon phase so i'm learning how to feel loved without being infatuated all the time. #i'm learning to build my confidence without too much reassurance AND communicate my needs #THATS A LOT #I'M DOING GOOD #mostly my period though LMAO #its just when im in a moment like this i just want god herself to come down and be like #but it's not that simple and love is an active choice every single day #and i know that in a good way but i'm still so scared of the future #i just gotta stick thru these anxiety prone days so i can make it to the days when i'm not as scared #both short term and long term #like in the short term i'll have my more confident days after my period #and in the long term i hope this anxiety is something i can handle better #IM ALREADY STARTING TO HANDLE IT BETTER #ok im done i think lol #time to go listen to the song he sent me #i love u tumblr

[cinnabeat]

i really like my seminar class tbh like i didnt think a class where i had to do readings every week and then discuss them as a class was gonna be enjoyable but im a fool if i thought discussing anything even vaguely literary was not gonna be my favorite thing in the world

#the readings every week are annoying especially bc sometimes i just dont have time/dont feel like doing it #but the readings are interesting and relatively small bites and its nice to discuss other peoples thought processess #and also criticize how it was written bc not a day goes by where im not being a hater abt something #and its just really interesting to discuss things like this like its making me actually interested in art history #or at least past art movements which is kind of the same thing but not really #idk what my past art history classes were doing but i wish it was more like this #maybe bc it was more like actual history (and architecture genuienly my least fave thing) instead of more art focused? #you cant separate history from art but like. theres only so many times you can go through the roman fucking empire man #that 19tg century photography class i took was genuienly the most interesting art history class i took and it was such a shame that it was o #on zoom if only bc it presents a barrier for genuine discussion #but otherwise i learned so much lmao #but going thru artists artist statements and interviews is really interesting in getting that actual real time perspective of art and the #movements that came from the time periods #its just a shame i dont know the art movements very well off the top of my head otherwise itd be a more worthwhile class #i mean its already worthwhile but its a little hard to understand when we start discussing movements as a whole but it doesnt deteact too mu #much #anyways #was talking to my brother abt the art critic thing and his response was basically yeah you WOULD do well with a job that requires you to cri #criticize #he knows me so well lmao <3 #michi tag

[alexa-crowe]

btw we ran out of time and had to pause the pilot right before mulder spills his beans to scully LMAO missed one of the best scenes of the episode...

#also the professor complimented me on my mass effect hoodie before class started #he is a fan of the show too. someone else asked him his opinion on msr and he was very vague though....... #he said it would take him a whole class period to explain his stance and i'm just sitting there like ok but the tldr is just yes or no!! #however i understand. i had to refrain from giving a whole breakdown when i was saying that the x-files was a bad show i watched recently #they were like but you said it's your favorite show... and i was like yeah but it's good and bad. it's both at the same time. it's got a lo #of misogyny in it but it's not obvious. except for the pilot where it's really obvious lmao #rambling

[hella1975]

LOVE how my laptop charger looked at the £6 in my account and the £70 of debt i owe and the mental promise i made to get taob ch40 done in the next two weeks and went ‘yessss now is the time to break’ like thank you bestie i needed that actually

#god I’m shaking my fist at you #tbf my laptop charger for weeks now has sparked at me every time I touch it #but I thought she was just teasing #I thought we were just have a funny little game #and tomorrow I have my first shift at work and it’s ALL online training #like pure 5 hours of it #and what do I need for that? my laptop #so I can’t even not buy a new laptop charger like I normally would rn #bc it’s not a necessity like I can live without my laptop for a bit #but nooooo I HAVE to get a new one with the money I have left lmao #I’m like not even mad anymore I realised it had broken and I just sighed #tbf im also very much on my period so my whole ‘life is cruel’ mindset might just be The Hormones #doesn’t make me feel better though so who cares

[just-jammin]

coding is somehow my passion

huzzah

#that was stupid #<= (a tag for me speaking) #idk anymore #<= (also a tag for me speaking) #>> —^— << #i've been learning python in my computer subject for my whole-ass Senior High School years #and this is the very last project that they gave us #we were split into groups of 3-4 to make a cashier system #i'm doing most of the work tbh #but it's alright bc 1. it's a deliberate decision and 2. coding's one of the other things that i can focus on for long periods of time #just me typing shit out while finding references every time i wanna add smth that wasn't taught in class... #it's somehow therapeutic tbh #i even wanted to make it look aesthetically pleasing despite almost none of the methods i use are taught in the subject bc y not #and i added a welcome pg and two functional msg boxes‚ which show separate msgs depending on the pg you're in #also yes python has a gui for some reason #not sure if it's easier or harder than html #buuut i can evidently manage :/ #so yeh coding is fun for me and i'm considering this as my fall-back if art ain't doin it for me or i just flop at the talent test lmao—

[ginalinettiofficial]

i’m gonna be so so real with you tonight tumblr. if this set list doesn’t change a little bit before my show in june i’m gonna be the teensiest bit devastated!!!

#d speaks #ts #taylor swift eras #it’s just that i was 14 when speak now was out i didn’t go to concerts #and when red was out i was too broke from spending my money on one direction tickets lmfao which i do not REGRET exactly but just #by the time i DID get to see her she was done playing speak now songs in concert #and i am ofc still extremely hyped to see her no matter what #but also i was really hoping what with the whole ‘eras’ thing that i’d be able to see her play one of my ABSOLUTE faves #cuz i’m a simple girl!!! mine is literally one of ny top three favorite songs of all time not just taylor songs but songs period #so to know that she just. basically entirely skipped speak now is VERY sad for me #anyways these are small time privileged ppl problems i’m having lmao #i just. was very looking forward to mine and dear john and such. mayhaps mean. anyways #goodnight taylor i love u no matter how few speak now songs u play even if it does hurt my feelings a bit lol

[thepixelelf]

oogh

#I don't spend much time in the explore page of tumblr #bc if I do I'll probably stumble across a fic posted 2 days ago with 1k notes #and it physically puts a weight in my chest lmao #I think I should just not go there anymore oogh oogh #as always when I say stuff like this: those people deserve the notes and comments! I support them! #((well. i don't support unlabeled smut fics only skinny people can read but that's a whole different story for another time)) #those people are talented and just because I complain about those posts having notes does not mean I think they shouldn't have them! #it's just that *I* would love as much recognition for the work I put in #and yes I know I don't post often or regularly or actual works and those of course factor in #and I am always always thankful for the notes I do have #I don't take what I have for granted #I just... sometimes it hurts to see people reaching heights you could only dream of yk? #b&n has over 1k but it's also over 2 years old #I know I shouldn't complain but... idk #the thoughts suck sometimes #anyw I know I periodically say this exact complaint over and over again but if you've read this far #thanks for listening! #reblog and comment on fics you like! (any fics not just mine!) #stickynotes.tpe