#i was supposed to go this year but it got canceled :(

[britneyshakespeare]

barnes and noble has been raising the prices of everything and further pushing for their premium membership option (which they raised the price of by 60 percent this year!) and then when they have big sales events, they're less than what they used to be.

last year at this time you could get one of their leather-bound book annex tomes for $12.50 (without a member discount) because of the 50 percent off all hardcover sales. but they raised the price of those tomes from 25 bucks to 30, and they decreased the sale from 50 percent off all hardcovers to 1/3rd off. so that same book that was $12.50 at last year's end-of-year sale is now 20 bucks. and that's supposed to be savings enough to induce me to walk into one of their stores this week?

i'm sorry but b&n has just gotten so greedy, even though their business has only been doing better and better in previous years. they do not have to be raising prices like they have been, and they can damn well afford to have the same savings events they used to. if you went to one of those hardcover sales a year or two ago, even if you lived in a less populated area like i do, you had never seen a b&n so busy in your life. things were flying off the shelves. they WERE making bank.

and as a company they've only been growing and growing (as much as the publishing industry has been, in recent years). but there are so many other ways to buy books. CHEAPER ways to buy books. MORE SUSTAINABLE ways to buy books. and since books and booksellers are doing really well right now, i don't see why barnes and noble is getting so greedy when they don't have to be. i dont like new shiny books that much. people buy books for the content, ultimately. sometimes we as consumers might make the choice that a new shiny book is worth paying a bit more for, but not that much. barnes and noble has just been demanding more and more of their customers' money for less and less benefit.

#kaily and i shared a membership account for several years but she cancelled it over the summer #bc of them raising it from 25 dollars per year to 40. i'm sorry but we just were not spending enough to make that worth it #the benefits for a member used to be 10 percent off everything in-store and free shipping online. #now it's 10 percent off everything in-store AND online with free shipping. which sounds good enough #but not for a 60 percent pricehike. and a bunch of other supposed benefits no one would ask for #like a free tote (geez. thanks. yeah i really need a free tote every year) and like. a free treat at a cafe on your kids' birthday? #i dont have a kid. #between the two of us. we were not buying 400 dollars worth of stuff at b&n every year #oh and it's also 10 percent off the in-store starbucks. but im pretty sure that USED to be a benefit they had #years ago?? like i SWEAR ive gotten money off at the b&n starbucks so i guess they got RID of that at some point #and gave it BACK when they HIKED UP THE PRICE TO 40 BUCKS A YEAR #text post #barnes and noble #it's a shame bc where i live. barnes and noble is the only like fancy bookstore #and i live in an area that my barnes and noble... is like. what a boston barnes and noble eats for breakfast. #it's two floors. there are plenty of books that it doesn't have. plenty of sections that are very small #like the poetry section is just pathetic. i look at it every time i go and it just makes me sad. #i guess a lot of the book annex stuff contains poetry but still that's not really enough to entertain a rich interest in the genre for long #i outgrew the limited selection at my own local b&n poetry section by the time i was twenty. i was like i already know everything here. #which isn't to say i'm an expert in poetry. it's to say that the poetry section is barely bigger than a shelf #in fact ive never thought about it before but I OWN more poetry books than you'll find in the poetry section #at my local b&n. lol #i have a lot of nostalgia for b&n even though it is a big company that does not love me. i have very few books i bought new #that are not from barnes and noble. i got so many books that changed my life from them #i guess it's like a childhood/teenage attachment at this point bc ive had more mixed feelings abt the direction theyve been taking #for several years at this point. #and no i dont mean that theyve been expanding to selling more toys/games etc. theyve literally always done that in my lifetime. who cares. #they still have books #as an adult ive been more capable of seeing how limited their book selection is and how i have so many problems w that. #and it ultimately comes down to them being a big greedy company

[dilfpassing]

Man this is the first birthday I've sat alone in my room and sobbed on

#this fucking sucks #my dad called me to say happy birthday and i started crying because i got so bummed out #he was going to come up and visit and we had to postpone because i got covid #and then 20 other things went wrong already this morning #and im sick and exhausted and sad #and then i got dizzy while walking the dog im pet sitting #and i got stuck behind bikers taking up the whole lane #and then behind a pickup truck full of mulch going 20 under #and i had to cancel my birthday party #and my mom is at the beach without me spending time with her racist loser boyfriend and bragging about it to our family #and this was supposed to be the year i finally did something for myself on my birthday like it was supposed to be different this year #and im alone in my room #tired and sweaty and sad and lonely and miserable and sick and awful #and i just want to hibernate until this is over

[bleachbleachbleach]

Once more in Library Mode--I appreciate your patience and answering all my questions very much--I am imagining how the awful mishmash of library items in the Library Space Station you mentioned works and it's a delight. The card catalog alone would be amazing, if perhaps something of a stream of consciousness after Aizen and Ukitake upended the place looking for clues. "Mission reports (Madarame and Ayasegawa)--cultivation of rice, pre-Gotei-13--soil analysis of Hueco Mundo--seed catalog (some seeds still in)." I bet they still have a card catalog. Also who do you suppose actually works in the library? Were they victims of Aizen? Is it a joint effort between Squads Nine and Twelve, and then the SRDI? Did Tousen and Aizen and Gin pretend to be librarians and give everyone the wrong answers to their reference questions on purpose? What a villainous act.

I would LOVE to watch a local news special spotlighting the stalwart work of the Gotei librarians! Like, can you imagine that interview. Can you imagine interviewing the head librarian as she explains the process of deciding what the taxonomies of knowledge are and what the map of subfields, overlapping categories, etc. are? And that's even before the interview with the head librarian emeritus, who was there when the deep magic was written?

It's not about librarians, but one of the anime series of all time is The Great Passage, which is based on a Shion Miura novel about a group of officeworkers and the ten years they spend developing a dictionary--THE dictionary. It's about the profound thoughtfulness required to ensure no word goes missing, even amidst employment changeover, the shifting needs of the publishing house, etc.--and to write definitions of things, concepts, ideas that speak to the true heart of what that thing really is. Imagine doing that for the ghost military. Imagine the kinds of things getting catalogued.

And YES to a seed catalogue with seed samples!!! A library of things!! The three- (or four, or five) dimensionality of the archive!

(lmao what if technically Muken is not a classified as a prison; it is part of the library system. It's a technicality, mostly--municipal infighting about property rights, the fact that the library and working at the library actually requires more training and expertise than working in a Gotei prison, etc., But after the Winter War, Aizen is not a prisoner; he is an archival object. And he has his own call number. There is a librarian whose entire job is to record, classify, and preserve, every memory and figment of thought they can squeeze out of him.)

#in the fourth grade our field trip to the train museum got canceled and i think this was probably a formative memory for me #i bring this devastating trauma up multiple times a year to this day #in march 2020 i was supposed to go to a seed library!! for indigenous seeds!! in oklahoma!! but then i didn't get to go for obvious reason #being that i've now been scheduled to go to oklahoma twice in my life and have still never been to oklahoma i feel like this is probably #going to be one of those formative absences of my life #seed library WHEN #asks #shinigamiology #bleach headcanons #bleach worldbuilding #no brain just bleach #i hope the gotei space station library is anything like the library of the clayr from the old kingdom trilogy by garth nix

[todayisafridaynight]

so. uhh. any rgg meetups at animenext this weekend or 🥴

#snap chats #GOOD MORNING IM CRYING #years ago i got tickets for animenext but due to covid the event was cancelled and i couldnt go #WELL I JUST. I JUST GOT LET KNOWN I HAVE TICKETS? FOR THREE DAYS AND ITS LEGIT? #LIKE I CHECKED EVERY WAY POSSIBLE AND YEAH NO. THESE ARE VALID TICKETS. WHATLKVJLEKJ #go to an event four damn years later OK..... idk if ill stay all three days since i dont have a hotel obvi but i could sleep in my car ig #i done did it before its fine 🥴 #anyway idk who to cosplay or if i even will cosplay #on the one hand i could do y2 daigo again like i did for animenyc #doing masato however would mean i wouldnt have to do as much makeup...... he also does not have any cheekbones like me 😔 #unlike daigo's gorjus face #my mine cosplay aint supposed to be ready til july so.... thats out of the window LMAO #eh. prob would be best to just do daigo actually now that im thinkin of it esp when no one even remembers masato ☠️ #idk thats something for me to figure out im still just laughing at this whole thing like jvlkvlkj

[mybrainproblems]

the thing is i'm hyperaware of the fact that i'm Weird About Andrew Dabb but it comes from a place of me realizing back in fall 2021 that i wanted to identify why exactly i didn't like him and deciding to do a close watch of his spn eps. and when i realized i was enjoying parts of it, i decided to see what i could turn up any of his non-spn work. (this is something i've always tended to do with creatives: tracking down older stuff for a more holistic view of their work.)

i was so stuck on how much i hated some parts of his writing (s7 dabb-loflin is horrendous) and couldn't get past that... then i found out independently that he was showrunning the upcoming netflix resi show (a franchise i both love and have complicated feelings about) which filled me with dread that the guy who co-wrote 07x22 would helm a show with a predominantly black cast -- especially with the ultimate villain, albert wesker, played by a black man (RIP lance reddick, you are dearly missed). i wanted to be optimistic but i was ready to be infuriated and was so nervous that i'd hate something i'd been looking forward to as some camp horror tv.

but then. oh. OH. it was everything i ever wanted from resi and never thought i could have. i could not conceive of a resi like this. a resi where women and poc are treated with empathy and as nuanced characters with interiority. where they are the central characters. the video games have their own issues but the movies are truly egregious when it comes to black characters. so to have a predominantly black cast (and a black female protag, no less!) and have them treated respectfully was amazing. this was a show that had heart and a somewhat diverse writer's room and bts crew (not saying it was perfect) and you could see that difference in how characters were treated and how the plot and direction was handled. (i think having female directors and producers in particular helped a lot.)

for those who have not seen the anderson/jovovich movies: there is always a token black character and they will always die by the halfway mark bc they make stupid decisions. it's non-stop tits and ass shots of jovovich (which feels super weird when the director is her husband). alice (jovovich) is an Action Girl who is frequently subjected to sexualized violence but unfortunately, i love the camp horror of it. it's complicated. the video games have their own issues with the portrayal of women and ada wong being DLC feels really shitty when she's so pivotal. women are largely either helpless or Strong Sexy Action Women.

like i really cannot express just how much 8 episodes of tv so wholly changed my opinion of a writer/showrunner bc it showed such growth. a showrunner is only one piece of the puzzle of a tv show but they are the ones guiding it and the ones who have substantial influence in the hiring and development/direction of the story.

it's like. i don't forgive dabb for 07x22 and the shit he wrote with loflin (or solo, tho he improved a lot without loflin), but to see how resi turned out and to read/watch interviews with him and the bts crew is like. oh, okay. i think this person gets it now. i don't think i can forgive and forget bc s7 makes my blood boil, but i can accept that growth has happened here and that's what we should want from people.

also i'm gonna say that when i look at how i am Weird About Dabb and take a step back, i can see that i'm about as weird about him as some folks are about other writers and actors from spn (and willing to acknowledge his faults). i just chose a weird writer to be Weird about.

sorry but i just have a lot of feelings about resi.

#it really breaks my heart that in interviews with the bts folks they talked about how this was *supposed* to be a diff take on the franchise #that both worked with canon but didn't require the viewer to have 20 years of plot stored in their brains #to see these ppl who were so passionate and clearly loved the franchise and wanted it to grow and change and then have it cancelled #then there's the interview with dabb where they asked him about casting reddick to play a historically white character #with his answer basically being 'he expressed interest. you don't turn down lance fucking reddick. we adjusted the part accordingly.' #'if you watch the show you'll understand the changes to wesker and why he's alive even tho he died in the games' #the answer was just 'this wesker is a clone' with zero acknowledgment of the race change. it was amazing. #i'm so so so SO sad that we lost this show after one season and i've cried over it but i'm glad we at least got one season #it was so 'this is everything i ever wanted and didn't know i could have' that idk if i can go back to the main franchise #resi

[hiveswap]

Guys hi I'm going to walk off the earth

#okay so when i first got into this series in 2019 i had a biig crush on a girk #i want to just say that im fully moved on. but the plan was that we would go to school together in a different city #and over the summer before we were supposed to both move into the dorm i got really into it. like really into it #because i was a recovering ex catholic and it resonated with me #and last minute she cancelled on me and went back home #i cried a lot and it took me years to love again #so like go to hell i guess #i was 15 ffs im going to eat my phone #and then when i feel fully done they drop this ending #like i feel nothing for her but still. im going to fucking die #in my mind she and i were like this. a lot like this. again i was 15 and wrapped up in her family drama and projecting like crazy #im not even distressed because of that. im distressrd because i know what this would have done to me at the time #i feel like the last piece of 15 year old me just died. some weird as shit closure i just got

[mylifeiscomics]

If Nappa Lived. (Pt. 207)

He deserves it.

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#If Nappa lived #Bulma #Nappa #Vegeta #Vegebul #dragon ball z #7 year gap #I was supposed to be on vacation right now... #but my son and I got covid over the weekend and then my husband got it so we had to cancel #not only was this a huge disappointment because it was our first trip in like 3 years and it wasn't even anything special #we were just going up to a resort within our own province like... we just wanted to have a little rest and fun #but I was even more upset that I got my son so sick... my poor baby boy #anyway we are both already coming around but my husband is still a bit meh #so anyway here I am #it is what it is now

[ionlycareaboutyou]

people are so kind and good and tender and my heart just bursts with love for them

#my fave coworker went to takarazuka and got me a photobook of my favorite actress and some cookies #cuz she knew that i rly wanted to see the show but i couldn’t go both times i was supposed to cuz it got cancelled #then my supervisor told me she rly hopes i live in japan another year #and said i’m a great teacher #people are so so so kind to me even when i don’t deserve it #personal

[menemosa]

Life really be laughing at me rn

#my dads unemployed again #its the 3rd fucking time in 7 years #he got a job less than a year ago and he got laid off #it was a good job too that actually was stable looking #but they yeeted his entire department so #ive been crying again #i fucking hate it hate it HATE IT #they canceled the car they were going to buy for me too #it was going to come in september as a birthday present goddamit #like i dont even care too much if i dont get a car but fuck i hate it so much #i thought we were actually financially stable this time but apparently not #and now hes coming back home and im going to have to deal with their arguments again #cause Financial Instability creates the worst fights #sorry sorry im venting #i cant even do work im fucking just #done with life #i just hope im not going to burst into tears in class or smth that would be embarassing af #fuck u 2022 i thought u were supposed to be better #yeah im just done #fuck everything #vent #just screaming into the void

[pawphin]

finally going to magic kingdom today and the reality is setting in so hard

#i was supposed to go with my friends in sophomore year for our orchestra trip #but it got cancelled last minute because of covid #and now im going with my family and by the time i get home ill only have one week left with them ☹️ #im going to miss them so fucking much they wont even be that far but im so sad #it still doesnt feel real #but im gonna try and enjoy my time here

[because-its-eurovision]

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#no need to read or react just needed to rant about my brain a bit #the next two weeks are supposed to be super exciting with BC giving us a new look and song and music video #it's umk week and my favorite for once has historically great odds of winning and a good chance to do well at eurovision as well #I'm going to see umk live with my dear sister and stay at a hotel so it's like a mini-getout and then I'm going to stockholm and oslo gigs #this is supposed to be best times of the year so far but my brain decided we can't have any of that :) #last year at this same time I got hit hard with depression and the anxiety I've always had got even worse #it got to the point that nothing made me happy or feel anything at all and I just cried all day for weeks #everything about UMK night was blurry and sad because I wasn't talking to my bestie who I've watched eurovision with for 10 years #I just started crying during the Dark Side/ Bad Idea opening and the results felt like nothing #I'll always assiociate Bad Idea with my depression because it was playing on the radio in the nurse's office when I got my meds #anyway I can feel that same darkness crawling back to my brain right now and I'm very scared #my brain decides I don't deserve to be happy and screams about how unloveable and ridiculous and embarrassing and ugly I am #it isn't helping that Joel keeps reposting the most model-looking tiktokers because I always feel a hot gush of shame run through me #and everytime I see a pic of any of their blonde skinny young gfs I just wanna kms #now it's gotten to a point that the voice in my head yells at me that I don't deserve Bc or their music and I should cancel my gig trip #because they wouldn't wanna see a disgusting cow myself being so near the stage not to mention ask for a pic or autograph #and I should just hide in my apartment forever #and everyone who has ever been nice to me is either doing that out of pity or making fun of me behind my back #I can't take this anymore #delete later

[variouspositions1984]

grief is fun bc you'll go for weeks or even months feeling ok and you think you're alright and then you see or hear or say or find something and the grief (which has been behind you the whole time btw) taps you on the shoulder and sucker punches you when you turn around

#i found a parking ticket stub in the car this morning and it was from last year. #when i was supposed to drive dad to a chemo appt but when i got to his house it has been cancelled #so we went to the zoo instead. #we used to go every school holidays when i was a kid so it was nice to go one last time with him #but uh. yeah. yeouch!!! oh no!!! fuck!!!!!!! ow ow owie!!!!!!!

[startingfires]

ya girl is seeing dodie today and i will not shut up about it and i am not sorry!!!!!

#that's what happens when you haven't been to a concert in 10+ years and the last three concerts you were supposed to go to got cancelled #and i think i look cute so i am happy

[perenlop]

this dentist thing isnt helped by the fact that i asked a lot of questions over email over my wisdom teeth surgery, they declined and said they would call, and then proceeded to call my landline (despite using my cell phone every other time). i wasn’t home so i couldn’t pick it up but that is raising more red flags to me

#esp bc i asked to cancel one half of the procedure #basically they were insisting i didnt need an orthodontist and they could do it easily right there bc ''mine are straight'' #and they ALSO wanted to put in invisalign like at the exact same time and kept pushing that theyd done it before and it was safe #but i got nervous and my parents made me more nervous over it so i went to an orthodontist and theyre like ''um get out of it NOW'' #''bc your wisdom teeth are fucked up actually and theyre not qualified unless people are coming down to do it #so im asking like. hey how is this going. is there a qualified surgeon doing it. am i getting put to sleep #and to me it seems like theyre trying to answer in a way that cant be documented...... #and this isnt helped by the fact that this office isnt run well in the first place like on my last visit alone #i needed 3 different x rays taken bc the first person apparently wasn't supposed to/didnt document it? #so they did it again and then LOST that file so they did it a third time #and it didnt cost any extra but it was weird #and then another time during a regular checkup i was left alone for 3 hours on end bcthey were moving around #they were short staffed but like... hello?? it was so bad that my dad went home in themiddle of it #and then i didnt go for 3 years bc i didnt want to deal with that again but couldnt findanother viable one in my area #so uh. yeah i dont think i trust them im gonna cancel for sure lmao #and fuck it i will do the hour long drive to a different office fuck what my parents say its better than this #echoed voice

[pu-butt]

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#once again going through the emotions of absolute and devastating anger about the way jeangu macrooy was treated last year #like the fact that europe wasnt ready for a black pride song was bad enough #but the way tumblr (which JUMPS at the chance to support any queer eurovision contestant whether theyre good or not) #just did not give him any fucking attention? #idk that still rings so fucking sus to me #this guy sang about black resilience and included lines in a language once oppressed #this guy was queer and an absolute sun ray of a human being #he was such a lovely person and he had such an important message and his performance was so full of joy and empowerment #and nobody gave a crap #holy fuck im still so salty about this #anyway #go listen to jeangu macrooy on spotify #his other music too is absolutely wonderful #he has SO many bangers #he was my most listened to artist of 2021 lmao #i was supposed to see him live in december but then it got canceled bcs or covid and i was in paris during the new date #still devastated and next time he's coming to my city i WILL be going goddamnit

[alteredphoenix]

Now that I think about it...Star Wars doesn't really explain how much if anything has changed after the Original Trilogy, does it?

#star wars #i've been watching SW critical analysis videos on YT #and saw the story trailer for the sw outlaw game #all these new shows and games coming out #but all taking place in the skywalker era #like there's the high republic and that's a good thing #but that's not set too far in the past #and the acolyte takes place on the tail end of that era iirc #there's the sequel trilogy but that's like 30 years in the future #and in a universe as big as star wars 30 years is not a very long time #and the Sequel Trilogy is...yeah. let's not go there #like. it has to move on from the skywalker era eventually #i know there are comics that take place farther out in the future but that's legends canon #and nothing ever comes out of those b/c they got cancelled when lucasfilms got sold off #like. how are ppl supposed to do sw fics set in the future if disney refuses to move on from the past?