#i wish that things had been otherwise.

[wizardofgoodfortune]

The white coat has said I’m ready, and I watch as a vulture Crosses over me, heading toward the carcasses I haven’t properly mourned or even forgiven. —Ada Limón, "The Vulture and The Body" in The Carrying

#its very do you love the color of the sky but you know what. It Works. and also its almost 4 am and i have to go sleep #the brainworms were just brainworming! had to create something to get me out of my slump #orpheus #dream of the endless #sandman #the sandman #sandmanverse #sandmancentral #* #*my edits #father? #yes. #i wish that things had been otherwise. #<- wanted to include those but i couldn't get it to look right. wanted to credit the author properly. so now itll just haunt the tags

[pixelgreen]

i know people are tired of thinking about it sorry but Those two smps could've absolutely coexisted and the coincidence in branding could've just been played off (i know both teams wanted to highlight how impressive or unique their hard work is, but is essentially copyrighting or gatekeeping something like language translation necessary? i mean cmon) and everyone could've moved on and enjoyed their own minecraft experience but no we live in a world where twitter losers control the narrative and everything must traverse through several layers of miscommunication and rage bait hell for no good reason whatsoever

#of course my stance on it is biased. but i think the entire thing all sides included were Too Much #two fan communities that were already having tension and dream mr fear of being misunderstood wanted to clear things up on the hell website #which of course never had a chance of being received normally #and then every small creator and their mother using the situation to get attention which just riled up people who otherwise #would not have even cared #i just wish the similarity in such an amazing concept of language translation could've been celebrated and not turned into a competition #ah. well. life goes on

[sonknuxadow]

they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it

#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags #nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk #anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes #but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ??? #and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal #overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks #and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun #its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles #and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus #and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend #because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3 #well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum #also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying #regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always #knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually #and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes #(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them) #and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something #overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain.. #my expectations also werent very high in the first place #so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk #and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more #like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this

[legoflowers]

#me after a full day of 'your daughter is so pretty she makes me wish i had sons' and 'your daughter is gorgeous i wish my sons were older' #you know whats kind of embarrassing tho #not the last wedding but two weddings ago there was this woman who thought i was nudge nudge wink wink really cute #and she was talking to my mom about me and stuff #well that day i was wearing a black dress and my mom was wearing a teal gharara #and for this wedding we were like its a little soon to repeat outfits but the crowd at this wedding is gna be completely different bc #the families of the bride and groom are from a different village back home #and we were right the crowd was completely different EXCEPT for miss wannabe potential mother in law #so this woman we never see otherwise sees me and my mom wearing the exact same thing as when she saw us last #i wouldve been more embarrassed but my mom said she was wearing the same thing too #anyway they were talking for like an hour #the woman has 3 sons and the one she want me for is the second oldest #i think he's in law school or he wants to go to law school or something #i couldnt eavesdrop too well the music was too loud #but he sounds a little older #anyway my matchmaker mother is not gna skip out on the chance to become besties w that woman bc even if i end up saying no to the rishta #(which is not a rishta yet btw just chatting atm) #a woman with 3 unmarried educated adult sons is like a gold mine in my moms eyes #her eyes were glazed over w the excitement of potential matches #hashtag arranged marriage tings

[boyjoan]

job interview.

#lies down in the shadow of my bed. #i want to contribute to society but i am also So Disabled #but also if i dont live away from home soon i will Die #anyway welcome to a nervous like a neglected dog edition of #partridge family breakfast!! #today i ate a slice of very shit white bread and a fistful of sandwich ham. im so sorry. i wish i could tell you otherwise #but today i will go out and buy mushrooms and avocados and other good things. once ive been interviewed #thank you for visiting my love. i hope you had a better breakfast than me

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

also fun fact. you can effectively punch holes in plastic glow in the dark stars using a push pin and a rock and just pressing it really hard into your carpet or something so it doesn’t damage anything once it penetrates the plastic. in case you ever needed to know that

#i hope all my actors come to the premiere because i do not think i will be finishing this shit by sunday when we stop filming #going to need to tell them i have surprise presents for them all and use that to make them come see my mid short film #i have to stop putting down my own film. it’s not going to be mid. it’s going to be good. perhaps not as good as some others in the class #but it will not be as bad as the annoying ‘men’s mental health story’ bs one group is doing #frankly i don’t give a shit about men’s mental health but whatever #actually it might not be bad as a film idk their skill levels. but i won’t care about it due to there being no women in there #actually another group is making a film with no women (except the firdged mom) but i think theirs will be good #they have a cast of two people it’s not insane that there’s no women so i’ll allow it #and also of course that guys script was very good and he was actually my first choice when we voted on who’s scripts to make #no i was not my first choice…. i was trying to be humble…. #also i wouldn’t have had to be director on his film. i could have been the bitchy production manager….. #i also would have had to go on multiple hikes due to the locations they needed. so perhaps it’s a good thing my script got voted in too #and i know i complain but i do actually like my group they’re great people to work with #even if the Annoying one and i clash sometimes. i like to think of our dynamic as Divorced Coparents #which sounds more sexy than it is. it’s not sexy at all. there’s no sex going on metaphorical or otherwise #i just mean. we clash sometimes but we also have good rapport. it’s like a tense middle school friendship #and the other guy. he’s great. cringe at times but we love him #i wish i’d known him before this semester so we could have had more time to become friends this timing kinda sucks #anyway. i don’t remember how this post started. #ok bye

[userastarion]

mailing a breakup letter to a friend who’s kinda treated me like shit for the last year. wish me luck, folks. i do not want her to text me about it ahflsjflshfl

#i have never done this shit in my LIFE #i’ve had natural deteriorations and been ghosted #but i’ve never actively taken steps to say you know what this behavior isn’t working for me #but i respect you too much to just ditch you #so here are my feelings and i love you and i wish you the best #but our paths have diverged. #im nervous but when it mails its out of my hands and im ready to be done with this. #i will have to accept that it means no more messages from her #but i never get any fucking texts anyway so #how different will things /really/ be? #i just HATED feeling like i was ghosting bc i wasn’t reaching out anymore #bc i hate ghosting and i think the only justification is if someone is abusive/extremely toxic #otherwise it’s just cowardice #and i will never do that to someone #b:personal #text post

[blujayonthewing]

humiliating to ask the guy at the liquor store if they have everclear 190 and even more humiliating when the answer is 'no, and also, it's not legal to sell in michigan at all'

#I HADN'T THOUGHT IT WAS BUT THE WEBSITE SAID YOU HAD IT IN STOCK AUGH... #wretched. feels so extremely shady kfjhkfdjgh like okay well now I Have To awkwardly explain myself to this guy #long story short I wanted to take some camping as a bit of a multi-use item but DRINKING is NOT. ONE OF THOSE USES #pulls double duty for wet collection of insects AND alcohol camp stove fuel-- AND can clean/ disinfect #AND is nontoxic (well. it's still ethanol gfdjhfdk but compared to denatured spirits otherwise used for all those things) #it's not a big deal idk if I'll even end up doing wet collection OR using an alcohol burner I just liked the idea of it #I'd have also probably used it in place of a lot of my current cleaning and/or arts n crafts uses for rubbing alcohol around the house #meekly asking the liquor store guy for potable lighter fluid when I wish I could have been trying to get it at a hardware store instead #about me

[nycorix]

still salty that Moroha gets to say "shit" multiple times in yashahime and Inuyasha, king of filthy mouth vibes and the guy her speech is deliberately patterned after, does not

#inuyasha #moroha #yashahime #moroha and the inu family are the only things i love in yashahime. even though i think it did them all dirty #but yeah anyways i wish inuyasha had been dubbed in a time where dialogue was allowed to include 'worse' swears lmao #inuyasha says 'fuck' all the time and you can't convince me otherwise. but i wanna hear it lollll #kase rambles

[izzy-b-hands]

I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented! #and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.' #it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just. #idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

[twicecut]

oh my stars wait also. diego's stutter when he realizes he's lost grace???

diego loves his android mom SO much. SOOO much.

he'll 1v1 anyone who treats her like anything less than a living, loving, existing person who was just as much a victim of reginald hargreeves' abuse as anyone else.

#i kinda wish they'd spent more time on diego wrestling with feelings of seeing the sparrow universe grace. and like. #how the sparrows treat her like a machine. how she's obviously not getting maintenance. how her sentience has been either stripped from her #OR the robot parts of her are just malfunctioning so much that she can't really escape and act on that sentience (if that makes sense?) #like oh what a horrific thing that would be. sentient but unable to control your body? your programming? bc ur robot body is breaking down? #it's not really clear to me which grace is in that universe since the kugelblitz kind of... drove her insane? which implies she #had gained some sentience? enough to defy her programming like that? albeit in a very scary way?? #i just. i wish. diego had been given the opportunity to sit with her in some capacity. #it isn't HIS mom but it's a version of her and i think... man i just think diego has not had any time to grieve. #he couldn't grieve patch he couldn't grieve grace... reg wouldn't even let them grieve ben or five. #and all that comes bubbling back up in the form of anger with no real direction and lots of guilt bc diego WANTS to save people. #he has to bc otherwise he feels he has no purpose or worth. and it drives me crazy. i want to shake him until he understands. #sigh sigh sigh anyway. rip diego. perhaps unpopular but you were completely bastardized after s2 and canon has done you so dirty. #diego deserves to grieve a little. #out of knives [ooc];

[fstbmp-a]

A friend inspired me with smth so I'm finally going to pop off and sound like the pretentious art college grad I secretly am

Writing canon characters is a farce. You're writing your character.

"Mirth what do you mean"

Thank you, strawman, allow me to elaborate. The second an author picks up a character, it is instantly their own. People put too much stake into fitting the mold, when really, you have ceased being a proper canon character the nanosecond you have initiated writing. You are writing your interpretation and, arguably, that cannot be considered the same.

You are INSPIRED. That's marvelous. That's fantastic, even. Your mind is fundamentally different from everyone else's, meaning this character, inspired by whatever take you enjoy most, is going to be irreplaceably unique. No matter what or who changes, that is a constant!

You're allowed to change and develop your character, unbound by whatever canon says or does. Roleplaying is a collaborative front and, frankly, you should be allowed to be as free with your muse as you wish. Get inspired by works, allow your characters to change and grow-- heck, if you get so inspired that it's so fucking different from canon it has to become an OC? THAT'S FUCKING INCREDIBLE!!! GO FOR IT!!!

You're a WRITER! Your work is irreplaceable because there will NEVER be another you and that's so freeing! You aren't held down by anything save yourself! If inspiration strikes, go for it! The entire purpose of this artform is to INSPIRE AND BE INSPIRED! So fuck around! Find out! That's the point! That's SICK AS FUCK!!!

Anyways, that's all! Have a good one, everybody!

#My Kingdom ;; OOC #I had more to say but really this was the main point #i've been around AWHILE and I always see people like #worried to branch out or worried that other people are going to replace them (i get that sm honey) #but! that's fundamentally impossible! everyone's vision of the world is so fantastically different #and you can write your version of characters however you wish because it will always be unique #and if you want to branch out all the more and just turn your version of a character into an OC? #fuck i've seen that once or twice and that's SO. DAMN. POWERFUL. #because that's just utter confirmation of this y'know? your take is so unique that it's become an entirely new thing #and that's just.. that's just SO fucking cool. never be afraid to be unique okay? #sure people might not like it. people may say otherwise. #but they're not YOU! they'll never ever know your take unless you! write it! #so write it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #okay i'm done now i'm going back to being busy i just. writing is so powerful... #and i'm always happy when i see people really branch out. #or get really sad when people find themselves replaceable because it's not possible imo

[statisticalcats2]

New favorite stupid youtube commenter was someone on a video with the big song scenes from both Hocus Pocus movies hating on the sequel for using a song that already existed and showing they have no fucking clue that 'I Put a Spell on You' is also a song that already existed before the original Hocus Pocus movie used it. I can't even be mad at them being an annoying hater, they're too funny, they really said that with their whole chest fgreiuhdslaj

#the only problem with the sequel's song honestly is that the scene got cut up too much #and they cut a bunch of the song too #and that sucks cuz otherwise that whole scene is SO GOOD #wish it had been an uninterrupted song like the first movie #i'm probably biased because i like brain control scenes though gfeiuhdw #although i'm also biased in that i like to enjoy things

[sorbet-and-gelato]

I LOVE LUCY STEEL!!!

#i don't talk about her a lot but she's on my mind often #i wish the plot was kinder to her #^ i feel that with a lot of jjba characters but i feel it so viscerally for her #i want only good things for her especially with the amount of awful things that happen to her #i wish mt tim had just been a friend for her because that would've been a lovely dynamic and she needs more people on her side... #but araki had to ruin it with giving an otherwise likeable character an absolutely abhorrent trait that ruins everything else #i wish she and hot pants got more time together too. they could've had a great relationship and give more character exploration for both #AND. i think steven and lucy's relationship is nice but the 'marriage' aspect did not need to be there regardless of if it was fake #they really could've just been friends. maybe a fake adoption instead of a fake marriage. idk just literally anything else would've worked #and most of all i wish more than anything that she got more time to be happy and connect with the other characters outside of the plot #she's 14. everyone leave her alone

[the-acid-pear]

today's prompts are spiders and self insert so i've been thinking of drawing nembone and a uh, bunger. but Im still thinking around the uh. ? i cant remember the word HELP the fucking COMPOSITION there.

#luly talks #i was thinking of formating it like a parody of a flash or mobile game where the character is like FEED ME x =D but i cannot find like #references. #btw another ideas i had was doing ONLY self insert and make a character select screen with my sonas #first i thought of a gif where you'd change selection making the border shine and the character change expression and get color #(otherwise they'd be greyed out) and then i thought of doing a more classic smash bros like character screen #but those two ideas would be too hard #i also thought of something more simple like just. my fursonas hugging yuri style #and then i was like no lets go back to nembone (my og idea as mentioned yesterday on the tags of my art post) #and i was CONVINCED today the prompt was path and i was gonna make a very cool scene with Nembone and Keabin sitting on a bar #and i hope yall know why i hope yall are tuned in with the completely neglected bugsnax oc luly lore but in case youre not first of all #shame on you but second its bc keabin actually is my save where ppl DIE #and i spoke in a post that i think is in my oc blog or maybe my self ship one either way im sure is crossposted on both but i spoke about #how fucking Low Nembone would be in a post Shelda's death path <- eh eh get it get it that's where the prompt plays!! #they'd also be saying something about wishing things could've been different or something #it'd have been a cool drawing and a great excuse to draw my guy keabin who has been borderline fucking retconned otherwise but hey #its not the prompt. so. #idk what i will do for tomorrow btw i dont have many complicated fits ocs juan has been in my brain for close to a decade or more #and he has never wore anything but a green tshirt and some pants #but ill figure something i might do Bloody #or i might double the fuck down and if i do bloody i can tie spiders to her and do nembone and keabin today #it is cringetober after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thebookworm0001]

I finished Baldur’s Gate 3

#might’ve been more satisfying if the ending I wanted wasn’t buggy #otherwise… it’s fine? I guess? #the heart of the game was absolutely the companions #and I sorta. wish they had more with them at the end? #the final scene feels rushed #and I didn’t get to have any sorta of last night heart to heart #or a ‘we survived’ celebration with all my people #like. I need the equvialent of the post-archdemon landsmeet thing in dao #let all my friends stand around so I can say goodbye