#i wont do it . im too embarrassed.

[crushedsweets]

hiii im kinda finished with my little au thing :9 LOL this was mostly just for myself but i figured if i spent time on it, might as well share

#creeped #chatterbox #mmmmmm do i tag ? do i do it guys ? ok whatevs #creepypasta #ticci toby #jeff the killer #jane the killer #homicidal liu #clockwork #natalie ouellette #ben drowned #eyeless jack #literally i hate tagging creepyopasta w mrble hornets or slendeverse i feel so bad flooding their tags #i wont do it . im too embarrassed. #sally williams #im NOT AN AUTHOR im really bad at writing guys forgive me. i draw thats it #may do this with the fantsy au but prob not but maybe will bc i enjoy these

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

goofy ass trainer couple red and jaide would like to battle‼️

#i told myself i wasnt gonna draw today but i saw the oras couple and dropped everything else #suddenly the art power came back #ANYWAYSS RAAGHRHDHDDFHF I USED GOOD PKMN BRUSHES FOR THIS I THINK IT LOOKS NICE #JAIDES HAIR IS A BIT TOO DARK BUT IDC I TURNED OFF THR PUTER #i love the idea of red refusing to lift his leg hes embarrassed hes not gonna let that happen #c'mon red you wouldn't wear matching luvdisc shirts with her and you wont LIFT YOUR LEG?? tsk... he still has a lot to learn..... #JOKES ASIDE I LOVED HOW THIS TURNED OUT ESPECIALLY REDS FACE SINCE. I DONT HAVE MUCH REFERENCES FOR HIS FACE BRRRR #if no ones making the canon red sprite art THEN I WILL 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 #~ art #anyways im hanging this on my wall #i really wanted to do that fake “wants to battle” shot but my resources are lacking and its 5AM #ANYWAYS IM JUST HAPPY I MADE THIS WHEHDHDHSJEJE #♥️ appleshipping #pokemon selfship #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #i also realized nero did this with my number one otp mikalei i am so dumb dumb #jaide (gameverse).insert

[milkbreadtoast]

ai is just so fucking bleak man it makes me want to end it all...

taking everything joyful about life... everything i ever wanted or loved or hoped for... and not just that, everything else too... no job is safe... the only way i can go on is to pretend it doesnt exist and just keep creating and trying as we always have done it haha but meanwhile it just keeps getting worse and im filled with sickening dread... the only hope I have is that people will continue to stick together and protect each other even as ai tries to destroy and take everything from us and our identity and our joy sorry to sound poetic and pretentious but i just need to get the vent out. its bleak man.

#im being vague bc im embarrassed to specify more but it just... the future seems so bleak bc of ai #and... this is just one small thing #everything about the current world and the future looks bleak to me #the only way i can keep going on is if i pretend everything is fine and the same as how it was #but the fact that i can even manage to do that shows my immense privilege #vent #delete later #sidenote i havent been glazing or art shielding my art (i never tried glaze) #because i just... i give up man. like im in denial. i want to just pretend like i can post it like normal and itll be ok #i want to blindly trust #its the same w me posting my art and blindly trusting that ppl wont repost #except ai is much worse than reposting.... #ha... the only meager protection ive been doing #is watermarking but not even obtrusively #and posting at a lower res (but ive been posting higher res on here...) #hhaaa... i want ppl to be able to see my hard work and tbe colors #and artshield makes tbe colors ugly #cries #unrelated but i feel like ive been estranged from my friends lately too #so thats prob also contributing to why i feel so sad #im too old to be having a tantrum like this but isnt this what blogs like tumblr r for? so i can vent here instead of irl... ha ha

[oatbugs]

she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so. #also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH. #I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE. #crushposting

[pepprs]

halfway thru my first drivers ed session. idk if i can do this aftually lol

#purrs #there’s like 30+ ppl in the class and most of them are high schoolers who already have like at least 20-30 hrs and i have 3. also the #instructor is really nice and means well but she is also a little clueless and she embarrassed me in front of everyone (or maybe i #embarrassed myself) bc she had us all introduce ourselves and say what we like to do and i said play video games and she was like oh are you #a bit of a gamer 👀 have you been to any of those conventions. LIKE 💀😭 NO I JUST PLAY SILLY LITTLE PET GAMES….. #but ajyways um. i don’t have enough driving experience to start behind the wheel lessons yet 💀💀💀💀💀 and we r watching videos rn and it’s so s #scary like istill have such trouble even maneuvering the car around how am isupposed to develop situational awareness and be driving on high #hihways and shit. this is so overwhelming. it’s like ‘every moment ur behind the wheel u and the ppl around u are at risk’ well idont want t #to be at risk or risk others lives. but also i need to move out. help 💔💖 #anyways this class has INSANELY long breaks (like 15+ mins thank god) and we might be able to end early every day too so. fingers crossed it #wont be that bad and i’ll actually retain stuff and learn to drive fucking finally. but im so scared #also on thursday we are watching a video depicting a graphic c*r cr*sh so. that’s just fucking great #drivers ed tag

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

also maybe im a teenager with a crush but the amount of line deliveries where i laughed

#'unless it was just mr fenslaw saying his name?' #'it wasnt that' #'it wasnt that.' #just constant honestly it was embarrassing #I DONT WANT TO LIKE HIM AS MUCH AS I DO #me 14: rip to rose but im different #me 23: rip to me im not different #me today: are you fUcking kiddin gme #im not doing this your charms wont work on me #maybe if you were scottish but you are not so #too bad

[menalez]

my mom pretty much set up laser hair removal appointments for me and kinda pushed it as a necessity. I've been trying to tell her that i can't afford it (we're arab and just saying that i don't wanna do it would probably direct us to a anti feminism & hygene conversation i don't wanna have) and that I'd rather spend that on driving lessons but it's pointless and idk how to escape from that.

is she paying for it then?? anon it might have to be time to have that annoying convo,, ultimately she'll find her way through every excuse. if shes muslim maybe u can argue its haram to alter ur body or sth, i know many muslim women dont remove facial hair for similar reasons so.. if all else fails, perhaps the religion route wont? but tbh simply saying u dont want to and its ur choice might be better than pretending to want to but giving excuses if shes pushing THIS hard

#my mom would do similar and id be like ‘ok sure’ #and just repeat constantly #alternative is u can be like omg id prefer to do it at home im so shy / embarrassed #and if she gets u one of those home laser devices #pretend to do it as long as u can lol and if she wants to see u can do it in front of her once it wont make a difference #perhaps play up the dramatics too like start crying and being like I CANT DO THIS ID RATHER KMS or sth idk #but again perhaps simply saying u dont want to and its ur choice is better than all that

[daryldixonsjizzrag]

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#ive been so incredibly tired and depressed lately #ive fail the past three years in school. like how do you fuck up that bad #my mum is on constant calls to the psych ward trying to get me admitted #they wont take me though because im apparently not mentally ill enough #the only person i can really go to is my fucking maths teacher from last year #literally everyone in my class knows about my sh and mental issues its so embarrassing #i hate living like this #i wish i could end it but i care too much #:(

[naenaex0xx]

maybe I'm comfortable with tumblr because I get to say things I don't usually tell anyone

#like how my day is? or what dumb stuff im doing lol #my “safe space” where i got to meet people somehow (and theyre very cool :3c) #well. im happy if i get to do it now #cmon nae! sympathy points wont do you any good !! #okay so. tumblr gets to be my little planner too cause i get to write things in the momoment #so im writing things im proud of! #brushed my teeth for more than two mins today #n i actually washed a lil! its embarrassing writing this here because i dont want anyone thinking im dirty.... since its gross #but anyways.. im getting better at putting my phone down at night! #that means fixing my sleep right? i just have to sort out the mornings since i lose track of time #and struggle to leave bed (its too comfyyyy >.<) #and oh. i want to start going on walks.. #itll be hard since the house is getting done n stuff but. anytine if the day. i feel like taking walks woukd be better for me #just to keave the house. my eyes always hurts when i steo outside #n thats not good :< #those are my goals for now. i do wanna get closer to my friends. and actually make friends! #ive had no friendships for nearly a year at college lol #its just been 'oh well' but i have actually felt lonely... oh well- #i guess i wanna get closer to people? #and.. talk to ny old friends too #i feel to guilty #im not good with this stuff. it drains me #but anyways. baby steps right? who knows #maybe ill make a friend on the trip! or next year too! that sounds good #ik nobody'll probably read this cause its word vomit lol #but basically yay yippee im feelin kinds alright #<333 #posts.nae/rambles

[aashiqq]

Even as someone who absolutely hates how the current hip-hop scene in our country works I must say I find it quite alluring

#so you just aint gotta be good at the singing part only you have to put on a show #become appealing to what the people find suitable to their aesthetic #i planned to dive into it by January but apparently ive only been dipping my toes sitting on the shore #cause im too much of a wimp and a huge procrastinator to do it #the wimp part because i cant sing for shit and even if i have 1% of the singing capabilites i *might* have inhereted from my mother #i still wont try to explore it cause “what if someone hears it and laughs?” #plus i absolutely hate how the voice in my head changes whenever i think about hip-hop it become african american bitch im indian stay desi #the indian rap scene is definitely different from the one in the us or other countries #and i should try to maybe sink my knees into it just because it actually provides a better outlet for rhymes than poetry i currently do #aint no one buying a fucking poem collection anymore #and im definitely not writing a novel with this amount of laziness that i have #i cant even fix my sleep schedule for shit #so yea #i cant sing i cant write i cant study #and i want to do all three #not just do i want to be the best #interesting how my dumbfuck brain works sometimes if i had only put so much thought into better things when it was needed #okay not diving into that train of thoughts its 4 am i have to sleep #goodbye shubhratri i hope you didnt read all of it its embarrassing #bye fr

[widevibratobitch]

im early for my doctors appointment so im just chilling on the bench outside. its a busy street so im listening to my special playlist for vibing on a loop (its just 3 songs), staring at people passing by and judging whose gender i want to steal the most. i need to do this more often this is great

#im obsessed with people who dress and do their make up in a Weird or Fancy way i want to kiss them all on the lips #and i want them to NOTICE ME too and kiss me back #got told by three different people that i look like a barbie doll today i love my life sometimes <3 #my playlist for vibing is just oh no and bubblegum bitch and good old-fashioned lover boy and those who know know and its embarrassing #anyway now im listening to teenager by mcr cause spotify just fucking decided for me and i just got teleported to my childhood my god #anyway cant wait to go in and say #'yeah im doing great can i get the meds prescription plz i prommy i wont accidentally overdose this time thanks' #and then immediately leave and pay 250 fucking złotych for this 2 minute long appointment #big old dog sigh #goddd i love this there's nothing more attractive to me than a fun fashion style i love edgy rebellious teenage girls so much #go queen i hope your life is fucking awesome

[brothersonahotelbed]

im so fucking embarrassed im going to have to hobble into work tomorrow and tell them i sprained my ankle tripping off a CURB and won't be in for a few days and it's going to ruin everything for both me and my coworkers i hate it here

#the only reason why they started hiring library pages is bc No One enjoys putting all the books away #cause the carts full of returned items get full so fucking fast and luckily im there to keep things moving and get items back on shelves #but if i cant do that then some of my coworkers are gonna have to take over till im better and im legitimately scared they're going to #hate me #I KNOW IT'S CHILDISH OKAY. but they used to have to shelve AND help patrons until i came around and the wont be happy about shelving again #plus tomorrow in the morning me and my coworkers are meeting with the library director to say hi and introduce ourselves and i was hoping #he would see how good of a job im doing and offer me more hours #but if im fucking hobbling in there like a pathetic freak???? WELL THAT DOESNT LOOK TOO GOOD DOES IT #GODDDDDD WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN IM MISERABLE OVER THE STATE OF THINGS RIGHT NOW #a sprained anke's really nothing severe but im just embarrassed and angry with myself for being careless and jeopardizing my job. whatever. #loquitur

[8aji]

im a lil embarrassed that most of the posts ive posted (duh) as of late were text posts abt me being sick LMFAO n it feels silly to write this but i think i may log out of this acc for a lil while at least on mobile <3

#not being able to write is making me feel a lil dizzy dizzy #a lil embarrassed a lil 'i do not belong' ya know??? #hm yeah i also need to get off my phone bc i start uni next week and i need to wake up early and im soooo stressed bc of another uni thingy #so...i will be deactivating 😔👊 #im joking im joking #ofc i wont deactivate i think my shrink would kill me if i did anyway /hj #she was the once that convinced me to make the writing blog #but rn the internet doesnt feel good to me and i need to be more present and more real and prioritise other aspects of my life #i wanna be more stable and journal and move my body and read books bc i like the feeling of the paper and and #i had the sweetest ask ever about my book recs and i was also a lil embarrassed to respond bc im not much of a reader but i try TT #anyway !! aside from this mildly incoherent ramble which i loved writing ngl #i havent been writing a lot and i think ive lowkey un-hyperfixated on tr and jjk so the inspo isnt inspoing #and tbh that feels a lil awful to say bc tr has taught me so many things and helped me grow and im so painfully in love with shin but idk #idk what happened i think i just hit a lil bump in the road of life and the stress has me focused more on real life and other things than #my darling beloveds. and im sure itll pass like most things in life i will feel good again #but rn it doesnt. i havent even caught up with the latest ep of tr :') but nonetheless writing is one of my truest loves as well #so i will comeback hopefully with a few stories mapped out including a lil gojo series and all that fun jazz :D #i have shin naoto izana gojo and toji in store !! and tbh im not ready to just leave them all behind #ANYWAY OKAY this' gone for too long LMFAO but thank u if u read till here i think i needed to rant #that means ill probably be less active than im already am but ill be back !! #still i dont think this exactly qualifies as a hiatus so i wont mark it down as such wait is this a semi-hiatus??? lmfao idk but eh 🤷‍♀️ #i love love love love love yall so so so much and forevever and always will #MWAH #<3

[lightthatibecome]

I have got to get visibly queerer I don't think anyone can tell I'm a fag by looking at me anymore

#i have to faggotize myself . im going to get a haircut and dye it or something idk #what about me compels men to treat me like im a flirty little sexgirl or something . I DONT WONT YOU I DONT CARE HOW HOT YOU ARE #i literally have the perfect most attractive fiancee and its not liek i dont talk about him All The Time #like no i dont wear a ring i will lose it #i promise i dont want you and plus you dont even know youre acting faggy by hitting on me #unless you do . then thats fine but i still dont want you #im going to start saying 'im gay' again when someone hits on me like yes im also engaged to a man. ask questions embarrass yourself by+ #digging into the mess of my gender identity and presentation. for real about to put my pronouns on my badge too idfc

[tendercoretroglodyke]

wasted today's allocated 45 minutes of productivity going to the store and thoroughly cleaning the litter box corner (bc my cat has Worms). and with each passing day, my dread over my quickly-approaching thesis deadline looms greater and greater ,

#its like i have anxiety on days when i DO manage to work on it #but then on days i DONT work on it that anxiety is like. tripled #help haha #its like i have recurring nightmares where im back in school and we have some big exam at the end that determines our whole grade #and i realize i never even found the classroom in the first place #and its wayyy past the time i can DO anything to get back on track #and im too embarrassed/afraid of getting in trouble to actually TELL someone i fucked up #bc theyll just tell me its too late to help me and theyll be so disappointed in me and my life will be over #when i think about my thesis approaching and how i have so little time to finish and so much left to do #i get the same feelings that i do when i have those dreams #i would try and force myself to work on it rn but i tried that last night and #trying to do any work on that after my meds have worn off feels like pulling teeth and doesnt end up getting me far #its like. if i cant hyperfocus on it theres basically no point in trying. i wont get far #fuck i didnt order any dinner. i guess its more corn chowder for me :/

[cryptidofthekeys]

even tho what im writing rn is not nor will it ever be close to canon and in character

...i am a sucker for certain scenarios...

#Chase's Evening Shenanigans #specifically even tho this will sound ooc #i am a sucker for a big murder mans falling for the innocent and soft characters and vowing like #. . . im going to protect them with my life #one thing i should note oh they absolutely still kill people #i wont even sugarcoat it and take that away- they fuckin MURDERLIZE people like god d a m n #but this one specific person is just... cute to them- adorable and they must p r o t e c t #...now will I ever post this? ...probs not bc uh well i'd feel too embarrassed for this one #...but ya know ... *points to dms* ...when you become friends with me i will say #you unlock like 90% more of the deets on what i write lmao #and of course 90% of the deets on ocs too all ya gotta do is ask really #im literally an open book who will jump at chances like that lmao