#idk i think too much about this little dude

[funnywormz]

I think this shitshow with Toshiro stems from the trend of people INSISTING that interpersonal conflict must be a moral failing. Like I think there's something to be said about how people afford so much less patience to people who are autistic in the "wrong" ways, but also Laios and Toshiro just clash on a fundamental level that has nothing to do with that. Hell, you could read Toshiro as autistic as well. People related to Laios' side of the argument but instead of getting any nuance out of it they started projecting their experiences with ableist people onto Toshiro.

AGREE AGREE AGREE. i think that Fandom Brain gets people very used to thinking of conflicts in terms of "who is the bad guy and who is the good guy", so when they encounter a more nuanced conflict they don't really know what to do. i don't think toshiro is a bad person at all, in his conflict with laios he's just exhausted and starving and has been pushed to the limit and from his perspective, laios doesn't even seem that emotionally affected by the situation. i don't think what he said was right and it was pretty cruel, but i don't think he's a villain or deserves to be permanently hated as a character just bc he fucked up this time lol

also yeah you could definitely read him as autistic, and i think that highlights an issue in the autistic community in general bc like....... a lot of autistic people have conflicting needs which can lead to conflict between them/make them unable to stand being around each other. and it's not because either of them are neurotypical or bad people, they're just incompatible. like autistic people who loudly stim vocally and autistic people who meltdown when they have to be around loud noises, for example. it doesn't mean either of them is bad or not autistic, just that they have conflicting needs

i 100% agree with the last part too. i disliked toshiro at first myself bc i had been (and still do ngl) projecting onto laios hard and the conflict they had reminded me of times when people have been mean or angry at me irl for social blunders i've made unintentionally, or when someone i thought liked me/was my friend turned out to actually hate me. it's a common experience for autistic people and that scene resonates with that! but i think it also helps to take a step back from projecting our own traumatic experiences onto the scene and just look at it objectively. laios isn't perfect either and he's the one who actually starts the physical fight by slapping toshiro (i feel like i don't see many people mention this lol). i feel super bad for him in that scene but he's not a perfect victim and has done things wrong himself too

as an autistic person i've also been in situations where i can relate to toshiro too lol, like where someone is overly physically and emotionally familiar with me when we don't know each other well and i've wanted them to back off but haven't been sure how to say it without hurting their feelings. this kind of conflict is far from just being a "neurotypical vs neurodivergent" thing as a lot of people portray it in the fandom

idk i just wish people would think a little more deeply about the scene and put their own emotions and experiences aside to instead consider the conflict with the added context of the individual characters and their respective cultures + the situation they're in. people don't have to like toshiro but i wish they wouldn't paint him as a villain or make up awful shit about him just to justify their feelings when he isn't even that bad of a dude in canon yknow 😑. also we literally see him at rock bottom struggling and freaking out and i think that's important to remember. in a different context i doubt he would have ever said those things to laios

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #toshiro nakamoto #ask #tysm for the ask btw!

[pickled-flowers]

Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus

#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok #and his two kids were screaming arguing #at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone #one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction #my guy something is seriously wrong with you #your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn #theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone #anyways #ive never seen smt like this #and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids #idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids #dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention #also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller #and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE #FRONT OF THE STORE #the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i #i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there??? #i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady????????? #i see lots of cute interactions of course #like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖 #i basically work in a book/toy store #theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it #idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing #like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior

[uselessgaywhovian]

how to bring up to your dungeon master that your character might be better if she got railed

#when you're also the person in the group who's usually least interested in doing a sex scene #listen i'm not saying sex will fix everything #but my formerly-oath-of-devotion paladin who has lived in a constant miasma of anxiety and is a highly pressurized bottle of emotions #is finally letting herself make (frankly bad) choices and letting her rage out and went oathbreaker and is trying to enter her bad bitch er #this is the ariadne who fucks and she should get to fuck one time 😂 #i keep thinking about this guy back in the city where her order's main temple is #who took over the thieves' guild because the temple wasn't helping the city and he was taking matters into his own hands #and god he's been stuck in her craw because like #you're saying the thing i've devoted my life to is shit #and i'm not sure you're wrong but i can't say that #and i hate that #and i hate you #and you're doing more for the city than my entire order is #and i hate that too and i hate you so much and why do i want to make out with you a little bit #god if we run into him again later in the game now that ariadne's not quite as tied up in her order shit might get weird #also: my notes from the session where we met him read “idk who this dude is but i'm gonna fuckin kill him”

[decembermoonskz]

update on flirty idiot that I may have a mini crush on bc I can

#izzy.txt★ #he invited me to hang with him for my bday (like on a discord vc) and we chatted a ton about random shit #he said happy bday to me and I just felt so relaxed laughing and joking with him #it was really fun and I also got to talk with one of his frens who I also really like bc she’s so fucking sweet #it was just such a nice chill end to my bday and even tho I said my bday was technically over bc it was past midnight #he was still like ‘well still happy bday’ and idk it’s so mundane but I was like >/////< #and I was like it’s my bday week and he agreed it was hhhh #and he was still his normal playful fun and flirty self and I wanted to kick my feet #he also said ily to me but it wasn’t like a deep one so it’s not a confession it was just like that playful love youuu~ toy of thing #and I said it back and then I hesitated bc I was like WAIT THATS TOO SOON WE JUST MET AND WE ARENT A THING AND I WAS OVERTHINKING #but like he didn’t mention it so I think he thought I was just playing too so I’m glad bc I wasn’t trying to mean anything by it rn HAHAHAHA #I was so nervous lemme tell you like WAIT WAS THAT TOO MUCH TO SAY IT BACK??? #anyways I sent him a ty for spending time with me and he sent a little hug gif and just ugh idk im a happy girl #he’s so fucking lame too like he’s just some dude but ugh I’m crushing I can tell #I won’t get ahead of myself tho bc it’s way too soon but like hhhhh it’s nice having a flirty experience like this

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[plexippusangel]

I either need to accept that I am just a way stronger person than this friend and can handle way more while still being able to engage with the world as a person, or recognize excuses as excuses, accept that I am not valued and be done or. Maybe both. Idk. It might be somewhere between the two. I am just sick of regular life stuff rendering him unable to spend any time with me, and of him being unable to bear any of the details of my life, when I would move mountains to rekindle our friendship. Though I'm starting to wonder if I still would.

#faer personal files #i just. really didn't want officiating his wedding to be our last hurrah of friendship even though i did kind of feel it coming #also i'm really sick of being infantilized for my chronic fatigue i am a grown adult and i know what i'm capable of #ugh. maybe i'm just being awful and not understanding in which case i'm too much of a rancid person to be his friend i guess #but i don't think that's the case #idk i'll never forget when i couldn't see this dude for a year even masked up outside for covid but when another of our old friends came up #from her job doing COVID RELATED CROWD CONTROL FOR THE FUCKING ARMY he went on a hike with her mask off #and i think that says a lot about what our friendship's been for years honestly. if he can't bear my company idk why i try #if i'm just an interesting prop for conversations and occasions but not a friend. i can't accept that #i am an interesting prop for conversations. the disabled genderfluid bisexual genius who lost everything bc of said disability #but i didn't lose everything i just have to fucking rebuild on new ground. and i am doing that. i whine on occasion but i am so strong #and i do know how to interact with people without traumadumping i haven't on him in YEARS but his concept of me crystalized at age 21 #or something like that i guess. idk it just breaks my heart #bc for a long time he was my person. he was the only person who knew the authentic me. more even than my sisters at times. #and yeah that was a little unhealthy but at the time he craved that!!! #and then i grew up and stopped needing him like that around the same time he stopped wanting that and it should have been fucking fine #but like. even senior year of college when i was sick it was already starting to fall apart #like i remember being on a small hike once being exhausted and jokingly being like you gotta carry me back and then being like #no really i might actually need an arm to lean on by the end of this walk if i'm gonna make it back to the car i really don't know if i can #and he said no bc he didn't want to look straight. who the fuck CARES??? i could barely walk i was stumbling my way back annoying him going #too slow. fuck. and that really has been what our friendship has been for years. the minute my house wasn't the most convenient place it wa #more or less dead idk why i keep dragging this horse around #idk why i keep letting him break my heart like this it's so stupid he's never gonna care about me like he did when i was quick and brillian #but never quite as smart as him in his view. fuck him. i'm smarter. just bc i was a little gullible or paranoid at times bc of the #FUCKING CPTSD doesn't mean i was dumber than him. the fuck??? there's something wrong with me i swear idk why i hang on #anyway i'm irritated. but i'm also reluctant to throw away somebody who's seen me through key points in my life. so.

[designernishiki]

hot take but. oda is honestly one of the most interesting prominent side characters in y0 to me. like. don’t get me wrong obviously i don’t condone his actions, but speaking as a character design guy, i think he’s got a whole lot of complexity to think about in his story and identity that people tend to ignore/overlook because he’s not a black and white “good” person. like no shit he’s morally fucked, that doesn’t mean his intense pining and crazed level of dedication to tachibana and the lengths all his guilt and repressed love for the man he saw as the best thing to ever grace his life drove him to aren’t interesting to think about– if anything it makes him more interesting. he was. really something

#people like to joke about wanting problematic queer rep instead of just good upstanding citizens all the time but then you get someone like #oda and suddenly all nuance dissappears and liking him as a character (for being a well-made character I mean) is equated to #condoning sex trafficking. like. no that’s not how that works #though I do think- regardless of him being a shitty dude- he does count as a victim of burying your gays #but that’s less about his death being narratively a bad choice and more that there could’ve been more queer rep amongst prominent characters #to balance it out (who don’t die) #though idk I’m always a little put off by the all too common Gay Chracter Dies For Their Tragic Love Interest trope #because it’s. too common. and depressing. but again I think it could’ve been balanced out if someone else was prominent and #canonically queer (also thinking like. nishitani seemed pretty close to canonically bi but. he. also died. so) #anyway. yeah on the other hand im glad they didn’t sugarcoat or morally sanitize him as a character for the sake of his queerness though #I would’ve really liked to have seen more on tachibana’s side about what he thought of oda and their relationship in general- cause they #knew each other for quite a while and were undeniably close. even lived together and whatnot. and all tachibana really got to say when he #found out oda was probably dead was just. well just that. that he’s probably dead. I feel like he should’ve gotten to be more shook by that #and/or more deeply conflicted and pained by the combination of his potential death for makotos safety and his responsibility for #trafficking her in the first place. that’s. such a deep well of complicated emotions to sort out and they really did absolutely nothing #with it. like. it makes me wanna write something that’s how much is There that was unused. so much with that relationship in general really. #hhhh….. anyway I should shut up now #jun oda #oda #yakuza #yakuza 0 #rgg #rgg0 #rambling #oh yeah also. hating him is understandable but you have to then apply the same judgement to all characters who have done some real shitty #stuff in their pasts to get by- which is quite a few characters- including lee who’s far more liked and was a literal hitman #(saying that as someone who also likes him as a character quite a bit and Likes that he’s in a moral grey zone) so. yeah. #yakuza 0 spoilers

[taikk0]

JUST SAYING ONCE I LEARN TO PRONOUNCE MY T'S PROPERLY ITS OVER FOR YOU BUTTNUGGETS

#IVE ALWAYS PRONOUNCED T'S WITH MY TONGUE AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO FIX IT ITS BEEN THAT WAY FOR SO LONG #BUT ONE DAY. I WILL PRONOUNCE MY T'S SO GOOD YOULL THINK IM A WHITE PERSON #WHAT SUCKS TOO IS THAT IM BILINGUAL WHILE ENGLISH IS MY FIRST LANGUAGE I SPEAK TAGALOG MOST OF THE TIME BECAUSE OF MY ENVIRONMENT SO I- #-HAVE NO PROPER WAY OF PRACTICING IT BC FILIPINOS PRONOUNCE T'S DIFFERENTLY BC OF THE LANGUAGE AND UNLESS IM IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING- #-SETTING THERES NO WAY IM GONNA BE ABLE TO PRACTICE CONSISTENTLY 💔💔 #even worse i slur over my words all the time. i have a stutter. i have VERY frequent voice cracks and when i try to suppress them i sound- #-ver odd. PLUS ADHD #idk if adhd might be one of the causes or of it gets added to the pile but dude i actually need help 💀💀 #but another problem is i dont think anyone would see the point in it #i communicate just fine its just that i have so much trouble communicating verbally (vocally?) in a way that isnt unnatural and in a way- #-that properly articulates what i want to say and how i say it. often i have so much trouble showing varied emotion to prove a point when- #-im referring or talking about something that isnt reactionary #LIKE DUDE WHY IS TALKING SO HARD 💔ALL PEOPLE CAN TALK WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH ALL PF THIS THIS SUCKS #which might be why i prefer writing what i want to say bc unlike talking the way i speak has nothing to do with it. i get given time to- #-think. and with an adhd brain writing what you want to say is so much better because typing it out involves the conscious decision to- #-type it all out and it acts as a filter #BLEFGGGH SORRY I KEEP BLABBERING ON THIS WSS SUPPPSED TO BE A SILLY LITTLE POST IDK WHY I WENT HAM IN THE TAGS #anyways umm yeah i dont like talking. i like communicating and maybe socializing tho. but not talking. does that make sense??? #there r also times where i straightup cant speak at all. i want to speak and i want to say things but my brain feels too busy or ig blank- #-but not empty and i cant form words or sentences and all i have are thoughts and feelings #anyways i think asl is neat and i want to learn it not just for my benefit but also for accessibility #also filipino sign language if im up for it #man there is something wrong w my brain 💀 #mikyomix rambles #yeah this one was a true ramble but only in the tags

[solarisposting]

Something about a hair bit too much caffeine + my adhd meds makes me feel nearly as out of control as I am when I'm drunk, but more productive. Will I interrogate how I often feel like my best self when I'm a little out of control, and will I make better choices in this regard? Not this week!

#this isn't an alcohol thing btw I Reckoned With That A Few Years Ago #stimulants certainly are A Thing though. i just feel so much happier when my brain has that boost in focus #and then coffee buzziness is just fun even on a bad day #the combo makes me feel more social and aso capable of nearly anything #(within reason - not in like a manic episode sort of way; think a Frat Boy's Overblown Self Confidence in myself) #idk dude i'm probably thinking about this a little TOO deeply #but im so bad about getting fixated on the good feelings some substances give me and i know addiction (mostly to alcohol) runs in the famil #i get worried about anything i like too intensely. especially when it affects my functioning in good or bad ways #most likely im needlessly pathologizing something but if im not doing that then im most likely dead. so! #ann with an ie

[frecklystars]

Ugh Charlie Puth’s music is SO GOOD!!!!!! I might be nervous about how sad I’m gonna be at the concert when I hear the songs that remind me of my MegaKeri ship (which is. almost all of them) BUT. BUT I’m trying to remember that I’m gonna see him FRONT row CENTER stage in just 11 days I’m gonna see him spitting and sweating in HIGH DEFINITION RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME BABY it’s gonna be awesome. [rattling my brain in my skull and yelling at it] it’s gonna BE. ENJOYABLE. I WILL HAVE. FUN. IF IT KILLS ME. I WILL ENJOY THE MUSIC AND NOT BE DEPRESSED THIS TIME OKAY

#woof #i just drove to get some food and played his songs #Megatron is somehow a little easier for me to think about #probably because he’s so down bad for me 💜 lmao #but I played some songs that are like… not ship related for me #and god his music is so fucking good. the dude is genius #‘I made this song using a basketball’ ‘I made this song using a paper cup’ WHAAAAAT #I’m hoping that 11 days from now I will be feeling a little less numb and more ready to hear my fave songs #I’m gonna probably stay completely offline on my days where my ptsd is super bad and keep anons off for a while #I’m not getting anon hate or anything but I don’t want to see anything related to my abuser Ever #I want to be feeling good enough to wear my bee and Puppycat pink skirt. idk it might be too soon #I have my gold bumblebee skirt I can wear instead #but I’m getting so much better with pink than I was 5 months ago #i rly think pink is gonna be ‘cured’ for me by a month from now. hopefully sooner. I’m doing so much better than I was in January

[lockawayknight]

[|87

#been burdening my friends and partner too much with bitching about life but talking abt it makes me feel better so. i’m here. #new job is awful. but in a weird way. #i’m learning things and love my coworkers and the location and clients and work itself #but my boss is. my god. #it’s a little local place owned by one woman operated from inside her extra home on her property #she runs everything #and she is nice but she is??? loud ig. abusively loud #she screams and cusses and berates and belittles everyone and like #they all think it’s silly. it’s just her personality. they laugh or shrug it off. it’s just how she is. but i can’t do it #every day i tear up or cry on the way home cus she raises her voice at me or i hear her cussing and screaming in the back about like #me fucking up. over silly things. like i took a message for her but didnt say it was urgent. #then i hear her in the back HOW COULD SHE FUCK UP LIKE THIS SHE SHOULD KNOW THIS SHIT THIS IS SUCH SIMPLE SHIT WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH HER #and i just cant handle it man!!! #and she is so nice and supportive and texts me almost every night to ask how i am and if i’m okay #and like fuck dude i guess?????? but im also!!!!! not!!!!!!!! #my partner and mom both said i should quit and i think im. gonna. #the other place that wanted me is still hiring. i’m gonna talk to them monday and see if i can take that job still #but fuck dude. i dont wanna tell my boss im leaving. i dont think she’ll blow up but if she does????? #idk #i just hate that things aren’t getting better. i dunno. i just wanna cry and sleep all day #hopefully i get the other job and my boss understands. we’ll see. #thanks for reading

[vcrnons]

realising today that not only was vernon trying not to laugh for the sake of the wider game, but he made it doubly hard for himself because he had a gob full of water and it would’ve given away his silly little joke. what a fucking. what a fucking guy

#shut up j #look the rest of u may have realised this several days ago but i Did Not #sometimes I think about him and realise that shit can’t be that bad. yk #he’s such a silly little dude. a goofy fella. and he makes things better IDK. #wrapping him in blankets. feeding him soup. bonking his nose. he’s too much #:( my bby

[jackals-ships]

love the intricate ways my brain engages in nonsense anyways no one look me i am feeling BASHFUL,

#jackals barks #ship: villainous things #ship: playing with fire #puppytime tag #i just think he should come looking for us bc we lost track of time and missed a meeting #and were both in little guy mode. and sendaks first reflex is to Get Upset but we both 🥺🥺 and he just #immediate caregiver mode has been switched ON everything is cancelled he has to take care of his lil guys #+ + i read a uhhh. vashwood (?? is that the ship idk shit about these dudes but someone recced it and i went huh) fic an #it has altered my brain chemistry + informs the way im thinking about this dynamic rn #he is sweet and softe for once when were just lil guys and also lets me throw an entire fit when its too much bc sometimes you have to have #an entire tantrum without being judged such is the way of things #anyways im calm

[chaotictomtom]

augh...saw on my mind how will these 5h of work go

#i both want to continue rewatching the saga (rewatched iv yesterday) #but also a montage of every goofy moments. i wish i could share my brainrot with anyone irl #that fucking scene... during the needle pit trap....... #“it would be like... finding a needle in a haystack.. 🤓 hehehehe” SHUTUPPPP😭😭😭 #that goofy slowed laugh is the only thing i can hear when he's doing that little laugh #mandyyy :'(( <3333 #omg it IS mandy monday after all... i legally have the rights to think about saw. #tomtom_is_rambling #also not technically a job but service civique is a too long to explain concept to write down rn </3 #basically a work i don't get paid as much as i should LOL but like. it's easier to apply than a work #but can only do one in a lifetime + gotta be under 25 #anyway #AUGH just thought again abt the scripts... adam screaming into the abyss/hoffman screaming into the abyss #wahhh #talking abt script. brba script jesse being introduced as. a dude. he's such a dude and i absolutely believe adam and him would be friend #idk #yes my bus is way early and i gotta wait to start work </3333

[icharchivist]

a bit of thinking out loud on my part but i’ve been thinking for a while know about constantly slamming stuff for “bad writing”, more in the sense of “no one talks like that” or “this sentence was so badly worded” more than “it didn’t make sense in the end” as if it’s a deal breaker makes me think that we really moved too far away from suspension of disbelief and not wanting to just, fill in the steps kind of?

Like, i’m thinking about how ff7cc has some of the cringiest dialogues i could think of and some characterizations suffer a lot from that. When i don’t play the game for a long time, i’m always coming back to it and laugh at how they overuse “protect your honor”, or everything about Loveless, and stuff like that.  but when i want to seriously play the game too, i want to give the game a benefit of a doubt. Of, okay, i find it ridiculous but you’re taking it seriously, so i’m going to try to take it as seriously as possible. What are you doing to do with that. And thanks to that i think i can properly experience some of the more visceral elements of the game, despite how much of its emotional core resting on this specific idea that i find cringe. 

And it’s just like, idk, i think constantly wanting something to be really well written and getting rid of the cringe completely is kind of trapping yourself into an echo chamber where you’ll only get to hear the same old things. Eventually to experience new things it’s good to go into horizons that you’d consider cringe and try to see if there’s something you can get out of it, if you take it as seriously as ever. And sometimes cringe is unfiltered sincerity, which has its place especially in emotional story telling.

I kinda feel like there’s an overuse of “wanting realism” in stories (again “real people don’t talk like that”), that it’s easy to just close yourself from anything slightly challenging what you’re willing to accept as realistic.  in a way i’m just refusing to think “realism” is the same thing as “immersive” and if something is unrealistic to me, i don’t think it specifically breaks immersion and i care much more about immersion than realism. But even so, Immersion often comes with just, accepting what the story wants you to accept as normal. you have to do some work as the person receiving the story for it to work.

Feels stilted and boring and it’s kinda sad how often i see it brought up that “bad writing” in term of, clumsy sentence structure and stuff, can take someone out of something this badly. 

I guess it’s just to each their sensibilities but, how dull....

#i've been seeing it a lot over different fandom i've been into #and often it's like 'i couldn't get into it because people don't talk like that' and stuff or 'they talk about their feelings too much' #and it's just. boring. #I think that there's an aspect of interreacting with fictions that isn't just about making stuff up to fill gap out of spite #but also just - as an audience - to be willing to say okay it's not working for me but let's see where you're bringing me with it #idk if it makes sense but this is like the 4th take i'm seeing on something like that this week #not even always on things i actually /like/ but generally it takes me out as in '/this/ was your deal breaker with this thing?' #like 'how could people be fan of that when the writing was this bad' #and like my dude the cringe writing is not the biggest problem here what #feels... snobbish but for the wrong reasons lmao #but oh well i also do tend to like things a little cringier than the norm anyway #and besides i never consume stuff in my native language so everything is a bit filtered in that sense #i do remember watching a game playthrough in english and everyone was talking about how 'no one talks like that it's so cringe' #and i was just yeah no whatever it's a bit ridiculous but it's nothing immersion breaking to me even if it's not realistic #but then i watched the same game in french and it was translated flawlessly #and i was just 'oh okay no this is cringe as hell help' #i still had a lot of fun though but i did have to pause sometimes because they really made me listen to the wildest string of words #but yeah idk where i'm going with it but yeah #(taking ff7cc as an example bc it's probably the least risky thing for me to dunk on) #(and besides the Old Ones here know that i used to have 'living legacy' in my @ in here) #(so me making fun of 'protect your honor' while it's full punch is in the same speech as the living legacy thing...) #(ya know how I Feel.) #ichasalty #kinda? #ichatalks