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elliespuns · 2 months

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I was wondering, would you mind introducing yourself a bit? Your age, hobbies (except for blogging of coure), music taste, your favorite movies, etc? I love the content you post and i love you and I don't even know you. I wanna know my favorite blogger.. lol. Only if you're okay with it

First of all, thank you for such a lovely compliment. I love you too and I don't even see your blog, mate!

To answer you; I was answering something similar once. This anon sent me questions and I filled them in, so if you allow me to just copy and paste those so I wouldn't have to type it all again (nothing has changed since then, honestly) then I'll be happy to oblige.

How old are you? I'm 30

Tall or short? Very short, I'm only 5'1 ft, 1,56 m

Sexuality? Eh, I don't like labeling myself but if I HAD TO, it'd say bisexual/demisexual.

Describe yourself briefly I'm an introverted dork that doesn't vibe with most people. I dig music, art, and I love a lot. I either love too much or not at all. I've been vegan for over 10 years now and I love funny people. Other than that, I'm just a very poetic soul that also loves to play video games from time to time and I write. I write a lot.

Something you like about yourself? I'd say it's my knowledge in English. I've been self 'learning' it for 9 years now (never been abroad) and I was able to learn the language to the point where it became a huge part of my life. Like I literally use it more than my mother language. That's a thing I'd say I like about myself.

Favorite hobbies outside your blog? I write; creative writing, poetry. Both fulfil my mind. Then I love reading (ofc). I also draw, play video games, work with graphic programs and I love taking pictures.

Something no one would guess about you I have a very high sex drive, lmao 🫣😂 and people would never say so about me, because I literally look like I have a ribbon buckled to my vagina.

Weird quirks you have Oh, god, I can't stand hand cuts. Like you can literally show me a video of someone having their throat slit and I'll be fine, but then you show me a vid of someone having their palm sliced, or simply just someone cutting their finger and I'll go all asdfghjklsdfghjk.

One talent you wished you had Damn, I wish I could draw from imagination. I can draw but I can't seem to draw anything just by trying to see it in my head. That's so fucking frustrating. And weird. Anyone else having this problem?

A word your friends would use to describe you Idk about one word, but my best friend says I'm the funniest person she has ever met, so does that count? Lol, Idk why she says this. I'm literally a potato.

Craziest thing that's ever happened to you Omg, trauma alert… when my boss (a 70 year old male) caressed the top of my head telling me I'm pretty.

Have you ever been in love? Yes, for over 10 years now (no, it's not a fictional character, lol).

What is your biggest fear? Fuck, it's hurricanes and tornados. I actually have a phobia, it's called 'ancraophobia' and it's a fear of strong wind. (I swear I don't fear normal wind tho, I'm not that weird, actually, ok?).

Why did you start this blog? When I came here one day I realized that there were only a few blogs that were dedicated to the game stuff. So I said why the hell not? I didn't expect to have an actual fanbase here, it's crazy. Love you guys.

Your favorite food? Lentils, that's the shit.

Least favorite food? I'd say meat.

Favorite TV shows? Okay, not gonna mention TLOU cause it's obvious, but the very first show that pops into my mind every time is Breaking Bad. I love this show to bits. Then I also love TWD, OITNB, Better Call Saul, Wentworth, This Is Us, Lost, The Killing.

Favorite movie of all time? My most favorite movie of all time will forever be Ginger Snaps (2000). I've loved this movie ever since I was 11. It's been 19 years ever since and I still love it to pieces. Aaaaah!

Favorite musicians? I love a lot of music, but my most favorite is Damien Rice. I love that guy and what he does. Right behind him are Cigarettes After Sex and Mazzy Star (just pure love). Then it would be Joshua Radin, The Hope Arsenal, Yaeow, The Paper Kites, The Smiths, R.E.M., Blur, BoDeans...

Do you have any pets? My chonky boi guinea pig.

#i guess i'll have to get used to sharing 'myself' with you guys sometimes #get to know your blogger i guess #the last of us #tlou #tlou blogger #the last of us game #elliespuns answers

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impunkster-syndrome · 6 months

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As another CSA survivor and psychotic person not everyone wants to read about graphic detail about trauma? I don't entirely disagree with hiding it away from those who look away from rudeness.

But that doesn't mean you have to make potential minors or people who are highkey sensitive to topics like that, who have even gone through similar, triggered. At least put it at the top of your posts.

I don't really mean this rude or passive aggressive at all.

Yes you should be able to talk about what happened to you, yes you should be angry and hurt and feel however you feel. But idk i think like. Minors shouldn't have to see Graphic details yet (or adults who have gone through similar shouldn't have to get re-triggered or flash backs from it). ?

Idk I'll leave you be i just think there should be Something.

There's a big difference in saying "I am a rape survivor and experienced rape from this person" and actual graphic details. One is literally no details. The other is more in depth. If you want any mention of rape, CSA, RAMCOA, or abuse censored that is on you to use the tools available to you through content and tag filtering.

I've explained this countless times. Details are what needs a trigger warning. Not saying "I have had x experience."

Honestly, you could have just blocked me. Do it if it helps you curate your content. Stop making strawmen out of stuff I didn't even say with thinking I ever said that minors should be exposed to graphic content. What I am saying is that if knowing someone else's lived experience triggers you to the point where you feel entitled enough to ask that they trigger tag their own life experiences, curate your own experience and fuck off since that does harm other survivors and keep stigma around abuse and rape alive with making it inherently triggering to even say you've had that experience. My life experience and existing as an abuse survivor and rape survivor should not come with an inherent trigger warning.

Also, DM me with a specific post or you're being a dick about this and still being vague. Show me what post has graphic content and does not have a maturity label. If it is actually graphic I'll add the maturity label to literally keep kids from seeing that because I do actually use them. Real telling that you're on anon and being so vague and expect me to know off the top of my head what post you're talking about.

#the blackbox askbox #fluffy para

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plothooksinc · 7 months

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👻 and 🤩 if you don't mind!

I do not! Sorry for the delay my brain has been kinda foggy lately

👻 What is your wildest headcanon?

Ahaha, I don't really have any that are wild. 😅 Mine are all small things like "Leo sometimes gets words wrong because he doesn't know them and sometimes gets them wrong because it annoys Donnie" or the concept of them all trying to give themselves first aid lessons when they were ten to... very limited success. All tiny things that don't really change much because I generally work with what a show gives me. Though I do tend to bow to popular fanon when I like it, I wouldn't call them wild either because everybody uses those. Etc etc.

🤩 What led to your interest in the fandom?

UHHH well. I was walking past the living room while my uncle was watching 4pm cartoons after school (he was 14, my age) and caught the tail end of one of the classic TMNT eps-- it was literally just a clip of April O'Neil for Channel 6 news walking through a destroyed wall and then doing a news report and it cut to the teetles arguing over who she was (thanking? winking at? Idk). She interrupted her own broadcast while they were arguing and said "Cool it, guys! If you must know, I was winking at Splinter!" So that was ...IDK season 2? They were still getting mystical crystals? Anyway, I love cartoons, I love redheads, and I especially love weird cartoons b/c I grew up on a bunch of dubbed anime, so I sat down to watch it properly the next day and was hooked. April was my actual first fave because I always latch onto redheads. (Represent, I guess?) Over time it switched to Leo. Largely because, hilariously, I decided poor lame 87!Leo needed someone to like him. (He grew on me more unironically later on.)

That's probably as far as it would have gone, except I really liked them and so was recording episodes etc, and then while I was at work one day at K-Mart I saw TMNT comics! Which were... actually the colourised volume 1 of Mirage TMNT in four graphic novels, being sold in the kids reading section (oh dear, K-Mart, you didn't look at those too closely, did you?) and so I bought them expecting MORE ADVENTURES OF -- wait, who the hell are these guys. Why are they all wearing red, holy shit is that blood wow they just gutted Shredder in the first issue ... :D :D :D (Oh look, they threw Leo through a window. bb's first blorbo covered in blood, there we go--)

Anyway, yeah at that point I was hooked. And checked the newsagency and found the Archie TMNT comic series, and then from there trekked into the city one day while I should have been at school to visit bb's first comics shop-- TMNT is actually how I got into comic reading, AMV making, and fanfiction by the by-- and, uh, solididfied hurt/comfort as my jam-- and I just kept going down that rabbit hole.

So. Shout out to K-Mart for deciding to sell bloody, gory TMNT comics in the kid's section I guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Thank you!

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gnael · 1 year

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hiiii <3 big ask big answer is what i'm expecting would LOVE to know your top 5/faves across various media that are new(in release or just new to you) this year! so: shows, movies, games, books, songs/albums, new artists you've discovered etc

tv shows:

the bear; you already know bc you put me and like a dozen other people on to this show lol - the chaos, the vulnerability, the rawness idk it's very realistic while being dramatic and comedic I'd like to see syd and carmy on my screen very soon <3

the endgame!! I watched it on hulu this summer and spent the last week trying to figure out what it was called. just figured it out and wouldn't answer this ask before I did. they cancelled the show after one season (and it's not on hulu anymore) but it's perfection nonetheless. storyline and plot is there. the characters are developed. two women go from enemies to acquaintances bc if they don't work together the us will quite literally fall apart (one is a prisoner and the other an fbi agent lolol). that sounds romantic but it's not. it's good stuff.

books:

do not go gently by judith smith-levin is intense and graphic, but the plot is there, the characters are decent, and I'm only including this book bc I was startled by the time I finished reading. I was stuck in the best way possible.

sugar by bernice l. mcfadden is sad and happy and hopeful. I have the sequel (this bitter earth) on my bookshelf simply bc sugar ended on such a good cliffhanger. it wasn't lazy or like the author just tossed it at the end, it was intriguing and woven throughout the story so well. I love all the characters involved no matter how annoying they are bc they felt so real.

movies: a woman under the infulence - a movie I had to watch for a film class but didn't regret it and it immediately came to mind when you sent me this! focuses completely on a woman and her journey with her unnamed mental illness. it's raw, maybe a bit too raw, it felt more like a documentary of sorts, and I wanted to hug mabel and her kids throughout it </3

ty imo!!! this was fun :-)

#<3 #asks #cheesehair #I haven't listened to a lot of music this year :/#idk #sort of want to consume more good media #good shows films books #yeah

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djservo · 2 years

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hiii it’s that time again! september wrap up and october tbr? do you go in for a particular vibe in the autumn/winter 🙇🏽‍♀️

IMO 🫂☕️📖 idk what came over me last month (especially since i was out of town/had nonstop plans for the past 2 weeks) but i got thru a lot more than i thought i would so i'm gonna put it undercut 💆‍♀️

black hole by charles burns

LOVED!! really cool body horror/concept - i really wanna try n incorporate a graphic novel every month bc i've enjoyed myself each time 🃏 u already know that i watched it follows the night of finishing this & it was simply the perfect wine n cheese pairing 🍷🧀

shoplifting from american apparel by tao lin

stupid and soulless LOL i went down the rabbit hole of alt-lit (like Theoretically) awhile ago & i guess this was my first real dip into it & it sucked ass but what else did i expect from a genre chock-full of pretentious pseudo-intellectual assholes from peak blogging era 🙄 IF i'm brave enough to sit thru sterile & self-important ramblings of alt-lit again, i'm sticking solely to women writers only ❌☝️

a carnival of snackery by david sedaris

his entries about identity/politics/the pandemic come off a little out-of-touch in a way i'm sure would put someone off completely if it was their first sedaris, but i was still struck by unexpected tenderness/introspection amongst the occasionally glib and smart ass sections - though admittedly, all of which are what got me to love & become a loyal reader of sedaris in the first place

happy go-lucky by david sedaris

i listened to an audiobook of this bc i'd never done that for his essays before & im so glad i did!! it's such a different & even more fulfilling experience to hear his voice/inflections/impressions and generally with essays/memoirs it feels more intimate, kinda like a friend recounting thoughts n memories to you. i need to revisit past essays, but i have an inkling that he's getting a little softer in age - particularly with how he talks about his partner (hugh) like i literally had to go back in book and reread an essay because i couldn't believe he'd gotten so sappy with no punchline 🥲

crush by richard siken

quintessential tumblr poetry moment... don't know what i could possibly say/add about this as it's already been beaten and gutted to death for years on here, but it definitely holds up beyond the more popular n quoted passages interspersed with like. gifs from supernatural or whatever else LOL

high school by tegan & sara quin

so cleverly done with each chapter alternating between them - for some moments i did wish i could've read the other twin's perspective, but i understand it'd probably be too repetitive. clea duvall is the perfect fit to direct this so i'm excited to see how things translate in the show!

the agony of eros by byung-chul han

i devour any ponderings on eros/desire/love/etc so this + a lover's discourse + symposium + a blunt... yeah

sigh, gone by phuc tran

probably wouldn't have finished this if i hadn't switched to the audiobook like halfway thru. kinda uncompelling and pretentious, maybe bc i didn't know of/necessarily care abt the author enough to justify delving into a memoir. i did love/resonate with the bit about his attempts to relate to immigrant parents, i just wish he'd reflected more on his own assimilation / muddled cultural ties rather than straining to connect everything to classic literature (which is kind of ironic now that i think abt it)

never be alone again by lina abascal

laughable... could've (should've) easily been a vice article or better yet a vice documentary (that way the interviews/references would've actually flowed nicely) but instead there are these clunky kitschy buzzfeed ass 'your bloghouse song according to your zodiac sign XD' chapters in between.... but whatever i had fun & gave it to a coworker who's equally & damnably nostalgic for this era 😐

natural causes by barbara ehrenreich

listened to the audiobook - morbid but necessary food for thought abt the wellness industry, moreso how 'wellness' has become so misconstrued to the point of infiltrating our basic understandings of life & death. healthcare myths we've been brainwashed to believe/never question, examinations of intrusive procedures/"cures" that do more harm than good - a little all-over-the-place, but listening to it made it absorb easier i think

corpus christi by terrence mcnally

learned about this play semi-recently thru a documentary (same name) about a theater putting on this play & the actors' experiences with religion/sexuality, THEN coincidentally came across david sedaris mentioning terrence mcnally in a carnival of snackery which was obvi a sign 📡 beautiful & heartbreaking in the way any/all religion&sexuality intersections hit - would love to see this live

+ 3 more since then but i'll save those for our october round-up (bc this is already so annoyingly long) :-)

i'd like to think i'm more drawn to fiction as the weather gets colder n i want something cozy, but i have a few theory books i really wanna sink my teeth into so we'll see how these last few months go 🤨

at the moment i'm reading the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde by robert louis stevenson & also checked out bath haus by pj vernon and the cabin at the end of the world by paul g tremblay (my sister and i saw barbarian in theaters & they showed this trailer & we were like 'omg let's read this together??' despite both of us not being big readers of horror or caring much about m. night shyamalan movies anymore LOL but i'm excited!) - so i suppose i'm doing a horror thing BUT it's also filipinx american history month so i'd like to incorporate that too! i finished up a jessica hagedorn book on my recent trip back home and i'm gonna try to squeeze in another, but i'll be out of town again the end of this month (🛌💤) so to switch up the tone i think i'm gonna take along global divas: filipino gay men in the diaspora by martin f. manalansan iv 🧳📚

#i feel like i watched a lot of movies this month too & i simply don't know how i made the time!!#this was such a bitch to type out on my phone my God don't let me do that again #asks #c speak #cheesehair #reads

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backshelfpoet · 7 years

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why didn't you like Seattle University? (sorry if this is too personal lol).

BOY get ready

My very first day of class, a professor made a lewd comment about my body, deadnamed me and every single other person who had changed their name, continuously talked about how straight he was, how much he loved women (especially young women), and how he didn’t understand how his son could be gay because, man, he just loved women so much! He was just the world’s biggest heterosexual, how could his son be gay? etc.

This professor ended up hating me because I corrected him about my name, then when he asked if he could use my deadname anyway, I said “that’s not your decision,” and he did not like that so I guess I was evil or whatever because that’s how he treated me for the rest of the quarter.

Same professor bullied me in class, publicly called me names, said nobody liked me because I was a smartass, and threatened to fail me because of my “in-class behavior.” Keep in mind, I went to his office hours a bunch to discuss my essays with him and he never brought it up there, where we could have a conversation like adults :)

Professors actively gave students wrong information in an attempt to erase queer people from the historical narrative i.e. I had a professor who refused to acknowledge that Sappho was gay.

When I approached the program leader about my concerns and desire to leave the program, telling him that my friends and academic advisor thought it would be best for me to pursue a different major, he deadass gaslighted me. He said those people knew nothing about the program and I couldn’t trust them, he was the only person I could trust to tell me the truth, and I had to stay in the program or else I would really regret it.

And that’s just the first quarter. I transferred from the Honors program I was in to the Humanities for Teaching program for the rest of the school year, where things were like …. different but definitely not better.

During my second quarter, my comp teacher (TW) used class time to talk about rape and suicide with absolutely no warnings beforehand. He also required we attend a showing of the play Titus Andronicus, which was in no way part of our curriculum and has a graphic onstage scene showing rape to the point of mutilation, as well as several onstage deaths and like … no warning. No “heads up, this play has death, rape, and murder, just FYI,” not even a brief outline of the plot. Students had to sit through that if they wanted a good grade.

Same teacher had class material that said Secularists are evil and he brought God and Jesus up constantly. When I mentioned that I was Jewish in class, he asked me “why I hadn’t accepted Jesus into my life.”

Same teacher bullied students of color in his class, also tried to use my deadname (and thought everyone in his class was straight? Like explicitly said we were all straight?), and completely dismissed students with mental illnesses and disabilities. I wrote a whole thing on how he’s an awful dick here

I had my first female professor this quarter, but only for one hour every week, and she was really transphobic and said a lot of stuff about mental illness that was blatantly false and very damaging.

Also in my history class, a girl said Muslims were evil and I tried to correct her and my teacher shushed me?????

When I approached this program’s coordinator with my concerns, she told me that I shouldn’t expect college professors to be good teachers because they’re not “here to teach,” they’re “here to be professionals in their field” and I’m like … ok but that doesn’t matter if they can’t take what they know and teach it to the kids paying hundreds of thousands of dollars for this education. She also actively invited me to leave Seattle U, saying “it’s very possible this isn’t the right school for you, and you would be more content elsewhere,” which was true but like. I am a very valuable student, I’d been on the Dean’s list for two quarters at that point and I’d received their highest scholarship and I was like … you’re not even going to think about fixing these things to try and get me to stay? And I wasn’t the only student considering transferring at that point, so this school was losing excellent assets left and right and they were still so stuck in their ways that they weren’t willing to consider looking into improving their programs. Literally, they have a 86% freshman retention rate, absurdly low, but they were super into their Jesuit teaching style, which included professors doing all this shit apparently.

During this time, I had one class I was taking outside of the Humanities for Teaching program, which was a Spanish class, and I ended up having this huge breakdown and doing really badly on a paper. The teacher pulled my aside and asked what was going on because he had had me during the first quarter as well and knew my work could be better, and when I told him I was really struggling emotionally with my other classes, he said it would probably be best for me to go to the U of O, because it was a really good school and I would be close to my family and old friends, and that was when I really started thinking about transferring.

During my third quarter, a protest against the dean of Matteo Ricci College, a college inside my university which included my major program, was started by a group of students of color who were advocating for the dean to resign and for the curriculum to drastically change, and the school fought the protest until the end of the year. Students were occupying the dean’s office, literally sleeping there, and like. Idk guys it was just wild, it made the entire third quarter totally crazy. I ended up hearing a lot of stories from people who were mistreated like I was, and it validated my suspicions that it wasn’t just a “me thing” like the program coordinator had implied.

Anyway, my teachers were slightly better during my third quarter, but at that point I had slipped into a really severe depression because I felt like my entire year had been a waste, I was frustrated by the limited opportunities the school was giving me for a major, I lacked any solid support system, and my self-worth had been drastically lowered by six months of constant discrimination from my professors for my gender, sexuality, mental illnesses, and jewishness. I was anxious to the point where I was almost constantly sick, I had nightmares all the time, my eating disorder re-surfaced, and it’s probably the closest I ever came to being suicidal.

Like … this school and the way it treated me almost killed me. My mom suggested I go back for fall quarter to avoid gaps in my education and I immediately went on Prozac, because even the remote possibility of returning to that place made my depression and anxiety twelves times worse.

And like, just kind of on top of everything, I’m an English major, like, there’s absolutely no reason for me to go to some private school for that when I could get just as legit a major at half the cost at a state school.

Anyway so long story short, I left because the teachers were shitty and discriminatory, I came home and was accepted to the U of O and now I’m here and much happier!

Thanks for asking, if you read all of this, you’re a fucking champ tbh.

d.a.s

#asks #anon #d.a.s talks #the college chronicles #d.a.s talks about school #discrimination cw #rape m cw #murder m cw #suicide m cw #ask to tag #Anonymous

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elliespuns · 7 months

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I've seen ppl answering these and I know you probaby don't do these but I thought I could at least try via ask. Anyway, you don't have to answer these if you don't want to. Love you dude, btw

• How old are you? • Tall or short? • Sexuality? • Describe yourself briefly • Something you like about yourself? • Favorite hobbies outside your blog? • Something no one would guess about you • Weird quirks you have • One talent you wished you had • A word your friends would use to describe you • Craziest thing that's ever happened to you • Have you ever been in love? • What is your biggest fear? • Why did you start this blog? • Your favorite food? • Least favorite food? • Favorite TV shows? • Favorite movie of all time? • Favorite musicians? • Do you have any pets?

I don't usually participate in these, but you being so nice and all... I can make an exception.

How old are you? I'm 30

Tall or short? Very short, I'm only 5'1 ft, 156 cm

Sexuality? Eh, I don't like labeling myself but if I had to, it'd say bisexual.

Favorite hobbies outside your blog? I write; creative writing, poetry. Both fulfil my creative mind. Then I love reading (ofc). I also draw, play video games, work with graphic programs and I love taking pictures.

Something no one would guess about you I have a very high sex drive, lmao 🫣😂 and people would never guess this about me, cause I literally look like I have a ribbon buckled to my vagina.

Weird quirks you have Oh, god, I can't stand hand cuts. Like you can literally show me a vid of someone having their throat slit and I'll be fine, but then you show me a vid of someone having their palm sliced, or simply just someone cutting their finger and I'll go all asdfghjklsdfghjk.

One talent you wished you had Damn, I wish I could draw from imagination. I can draw but I can't ever draw anything just by trying to see it in my head. That's so fucking frustrating. And weird. Anyone else having this problem?

A word your friends would use to describe you Idk about one word, but my best friend says I'm the funniest person she has ever met, so does that count? Lol, Idk why she says this.

Craziest thing that's ever happened to you Omg, trauma alert... when my boss (a male) caressed the top of my head.