#idk. idk

[decompforteenz]

rape and nonconsensual touching but it extends into the aftercare.

youre angry at them and scared and flinching and after what they just did to your body you can barely stand on your own but when you can you try to shuffle and crawl away from them. you dont WANT them to bathe you, theyre probably just trying to wash evidence off but youre weak and shaking, you cant really fight them off. they grab you by the crook of your elbow and drag you to your feet, hauling you into the bathroom while you stumble or even drag uselessly behind them. you curse at them half heartedly when they drop you into their shower. you sputter as the water comes on, too cold and unexpected. they set up a chair near where youre sitting and roll up their sleeves, take a handful of your now wet hair and drag you to them. you shake and flinch as they drag you over, hands covering your face like theyre going to hit you. instead they just start to wash your hair. you freeze under the gentle touching, struggle to connect this behavior with everything else thats happened tonight. the water is warm now and theyre cooing at you and telling you you were good, you didnt behave yourself but you still made them feel so good and youre such a good pet, or you will be once they break you a little further. you sit there dumbfounded and humiliated as they talk to you like a child or a scared animal. you dont notice your shoulders relax or how youve started leaning into their hands, but they do. they mutter vague sounds of approval at your submission, the first time youve behaved all fucking night. as soon as they finish with your hair they move to your body, gently lathering you with soap while you try to hide yourself. one smack to one of your bruised wrists is all it takes to get you to stop covering up now. the violence, the violation, the beating, the tears, and now the warm water, the whiplash, the soft touching, the confusion, its all made you so pliant. you dont say anything when they take extra care to wash your holes. you only shoot them a look when they say “good as new, like nothing ever happened.” they turn off the water and wrap you in a soft, fluffy towel. you look shell shocked and they cant help but laugh that now and only now is when you want to disconnect from your body. once it feels safe. they scoop you up and take you back to the bed you were just violated on. talking down to you as they put you in pajamas and bottle feed you water like a sick lamb, first manhandling your limp spacey body into some underwear youve never seen before (did they have that waiting for you? how long have they planned to do this to you), then a tshirt. they chide you when you dont move to help get it on yourself. clicking their tongue and telling you “arms up” like a child. you move sluggishly and hesitantly but do as they say. they put the shirt on you and kiss your head, thanking you for being so good. you feel sick. they maneuver you into their bed finally so that they can hold you to their chest. as you start to drift off in spite of yourself, they whisper “dont even think about running off tonight. you havent seen anything yet.” in your ear

#desire like a monster #corrupting soft things is very #idk. idk #…… #gravekeeper #nonc0n #kidnapping k1nk

[sheepstiel]

it's so discouraging to a fanartist to see ai art doing numbers in a ship tag

#idk. idk

[ghcstao3]

going niche with my AUs again but doctor!soap x bsl interpreter!ghost

soap has a new patient that’s deaf and requires an interpreter to be provided for appointments—so ghost is given that job. soap has worked with interpreters from the office before but he’s never seen ghost before and is trying very desperately to keep professional

which, of course, he does. they go through the appointment, soap does his best not to concentrate on the wonderful sound that is ghost’s voice when he’s relaying the patient’s questions and answers, tries not to focus too hard on the interpreter’s hands when he’s signing

all goes well, of course, it had just been a simple appointment anyway—but once everything is dealt with soap pulls ghost aside and asks if he’d like to get coffee some time because ghost is absolutely the man of his dreams and soap can only hope to see him again as soon as possible

and ghost agrees—though mentions it’s a bit of a conflict of interest with confidentiality, etc. if they were to date, so soap says ghost will just have to teach him bsl to solve that problem

(and ghost does. it’s an excuse for both of them to spend time together)

#do u guys like these. these specific sort of things #idk. Idk #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #ghost mw2 #soap mw2 #soapghost #ghost x soap #ghostsoap #ghoap #alternate universe

[neopuff]

#generator rex #rex salazar #genrex gifs #mygifs #idk. idk #its a good ep for everyone except six #its so stupid and funny when rex still thinks six is setting off the bomb. rex honey six is literally standing next to the bomb #and its going off in 2 seconds. do you think maybe he already shut it off

[rotzaprachim]

idk I kind of live in a bubble but to have a pretty antizionist gentile relative who grew up in a military dictatorship, took place in mass protesting, and also was at the receiving end of anti Asian discrimination from Ashkenazi Jews in her program - something we’ve talked about and had some complex discussions on - just outright say she doesn’t know how safe America is for Jews. It rocked me socked me knocked me over

#I don’t want to be paranoid but like. This was one of those coming from outside the communtiy things #I do think self aware East Asian Americans and Asian diaspora people need to be smart about the extent to which the #Mass backlash against a so called model assimilated minority can turn #Is something that might turn against other so called model minorities if politics become inconvenient again #But it’s also soemthing else coming from a gentile who isn’t white and who is very aware of racialization #Idk. Idk

[biillylenz]

i forgot abt this app again sorry

#jack krauser #major krauser #kreon #resident evil 4 #re4r #how do i re tag #idk. idk #sorry saw mooties

[draculagerard]

I forgot some people like. actually care about the canon status of a ship. And I’m not even saying this like a “oh I’m superior for not caring” way. I just genuinely cannot wrap my head around it

#like is it about the intention or…? #also I understand the hype of having your ship become canon. i was there on Nov 5th etc etc #but I don’t get like. disliking something simply based on the fact that it’s not canon… #idk. idk #moose blabber

[permanently-silly]

this isnt spiderverse but i thought i should post my silly oc thang

#artists on tumblr #my oc #oc art #little critter #idk. idk #whatever ! #for my 5 followers

[ocdhuacheng]

Okay obviously I want to get accepted into another school but ridiculously there’s part of me that hopes I don’t bc that means I will actually have to make a decision and that would be the most crippling thing to me bc I’m indecisive as fuck

#idk. idk #I got lucky for undergrad I knew immediately where I wanted to go #and I applied early decision so the choice was made for me #when I got accepted #it’s so much harder this time #.txt #bc I could see myself at any of these places so idk how I’ll decide if I get more than one acceptance

[fivevotesdown]

"humans are space orcs" "humans are the most universal form of intelligent life" "humans will be known for their adaptability"

humans are the spiritualists actually. humans are the religious, striving to reach enlightenment in all things by any means necessary. humans are the mediums and the fortune-tellers and the soothsayers, humans look to the stars for meaning and understanding. humans search for purpose in a universe crafted of pure chaos, and they find it, or if they can't, they make their own.

humans are the chefs with their sleeves stained orange from spices and fragrant broths, humans take the strange and dangerous plants their world cruelly gives to them and makes foods so wonderful and beautiful and vast that worlds of flavor live within the very air around them. they heal the sick, they soothe the soul with hearty bowls warmed by fireside.

humans are the storytellers, the skalds and the bards and the men sat 'round campfires with guitars in the dark singing hymns to their lovers, odes to the clouds. they tell tales of heroes long past and dangers overcome, to prepare their children for the obstacles and remind them where they came from, to foster adventure and honor and courage.

humans are the wonder and the music and the salt and the sugar and the heart and the soul, they are the spice of the universe. if there is anyone out there to be found, and i hope that there will be, we will bring to them pastries and curries and hope and prayer and we will teach them to tell stories, and they will use our teaching to tell their own children of our kindness and our reverence, of our bravery and freedom, of our spirit, should we ever be allowed to meet them.

or so one can hope.

#the human condition #space orcs #five speaks #long post #text post #idk i just think we should romanticize being alive sometimes eh? #it's so lonely up here at the top of the food chain #and all we really want is a friend. and I don't think we're that scary really. i think they would like us #i think our children would play together and i think we would learn from them and they from us and we would be together #finally someone to share with. someone to care for #idk. idk

[killerwithknife]

made me cry real hot tears for some reason

#I’ve listened to this song so many times I should not be crying #idk. Idk

[h0n3yk1tt3n]

Christine Canigula for the bingo??

Also hi I love your art dude :3

The girlie ever,, and thank you!! 💙

#me: doesnt want to armchair diagnose micha #also me: armchair diagnoses chrissy #in my defense Just Look At Her lol #asks #mj says shit #be more chill #christine canigula #much like with micha bway.. did things to chrissy. that i prefer hadnt been done #making her know what squips are makes them seem oddly well-known for Cant Even Look It Up On The Internet Shit #now im no master at statistics so im sure theres a non-zero chance that she once knew someone that had a squip #but would she really have *known* the kid was squipped? ie would the kid really have told anyone they had one? #idk. idk #that might just be a me thing

[fae-morrigan]

look, man. one of the things about preaching the importance of Community is you have to understand, you need to believe that shit and act like you actually care about the other 'undesirable' members of society. specifically in public. yes, even about children, teenagers. yes, even people with bad opinions on things. yes, even about people who are 'annoying' to you. because guess what? being Alive means you will be all 3 of those things at various points in your life, multiple times for multiple years. don't you wish others would be kind to you?

#thats just the way it fuckin is #if you say you want a supportive community it means youre going to have to step up and stop bitching about it #milas thoughts #idk i was just thinking about the trend of people my age who have seemed to have built their entire political stance on 'fuck you got mine' #none of us have Jack Shit until all of us do. btw. #im mainly mostly talking about kids in this post. it is a little weird that the response to like #the world generally getting more conservative #has been to Blame The Children #for falling for it when like... the fact We dont want to 'parent someone elses kids' means that SOMEBODY ELSE WILL. #idk. idk

[soldier-poet-king]

Stop thinking and wanting, it's never gonna happen you stupid idiot

#franposting #it certainly. is a monday #like usually when im feeling like this past 10pm sleep fixes it #if i WAKE UP still bad. well. then u know its bad #its not even like romantic pining. i don't GET crushes really. or not often #its like #pining after the concept of being loved and cared for and doing so in return #romantic. platonic. qpr partner. idc i just WANT #i mean. mistkis one good movie kiss does make a compelling point. and i am just.nobody on repeat #but its a broader want than that #anyway im metaphorically beating myself upside the head with a rolled up newspaper #STOP WANTING! its about duty and goodness. who care about your lonely soul we strive towards a larger goal. #gotta crack open the grief of stones again. i got distracted. lost focus. thara celehar is the only one that matters maybe #ughhhhhh #ok. i log out. i have to go to work now #idk. idk #a combination of things. but the comfort and kindness velasin received in a strange and stubborn endurance. certianly isn't helping #im early book vel. a false dutiful creature.

[end-orfino]

There was this one polish series/ARG once. It had similar vibes to Kraina Grzybów, at least for me, but it wasn't that. It was about a specific girl that went missing and later on in the story there was some group of people living in the woods? I think the girl's name could have been either Ania or Ola. I can't find the name of it, I just remember watching an analysis video about it. Please tell me if you know what I'm talking about please

#i'm gonna tag it as some analog horrors and args bcs i feel like people who like those might know that too #kraina grzybów #the walten files #the mandela catalogue #the sun vanished #crow 64 #petscop #polish horror #polish series #idk. idk

[koco-bean]

sniff sniff. what's that snell

#koco can speak? #idk. idk