#if any of these things are an issue for u then u may wanna unfollow but like

[crimeronan]

wait why do u want to be the problematic mutual

it's an authenticity thing i think. i'm famously opinionated about a lot of bullshit that does not matter plus a smaller amount of bullshit that DOES matter and if people think i'm the type to engage in reactionary shit, it means i haven't been open enough about who i am.

it's kind of like how the average queer person wouldn't really like it if a republican told them that queer people are corrupting The Children, and expected that queer person to agree, bc they don't look queer enough for the republican to hold their tongue.

i'm a former sex worker with strong opinions about sex work. i'm a horror writer whose horror writing often involves sexual abuse, sometimes sexual abuse of kids. i believe you don't need to have an excuse or to be seeking catharsis to read dark fiction, even tho my own dark fiction is very obviously based on stuff that happened to me as a kid. i like ao3 and think their policies are sensible despite disliking some of the work posted there. i appropriately tag my own work so that people can blacklist things they don't like. i talk a lot about how complicated abuse and abusive relationships are. i'm a big advocate of people doing whatever the fuck they want forever. i want there to be kink at pride. i have multiple partners, i'm polyamorous, i have a queerplatonic relationship that i treat the same as my romantic ones. i'm queer and engage in fiction in a way that's very upsetting to online cops and it makes me a little sad if people don't know that.

i don't go out of my way to cause drama because i don't like it, i'd rather people just listened to what i think and feel and went, "yeah, that's fair and reasonable! thanks for putting it like this, it clarifies things 💕"

but i feel like the kind of person who sends reactionary anons to an entire circle of mutuals should be able to tell i...... won't ever be into it, you know??

#replies #anon opinions mean literally nothing i just wish they knew how Particularly nothing the opinion is here u know #if any of these things are an issue for u then u may wanna unfollow but like #i don't post reactionary bullshit i'm not into ragebait. i think and feel the things i do bc ive reasoned through em extensively

[atiny-piratequeen]

Alright Everytiny, class is in session lets quick fire some hot takes just for fun, shall we?

Idols do not belong to you. You don't get to control their lives. There's a difference between minorities trying to get idols to stop appropriating and/or disrespecting their cultures and some of yall trying to control every waking aspect of their lives bc you've got it in your head that they're your "perfect, precious babies" or whatever bs you've come up with. They are not the same.

None of us are perfect. If someone comes up to you and tells you something you're doing may be offensive to them/some people, stop and listen before immediately taking that as an attack on your person

Literally everyone can learn and grow. Fandom spaces are full of people from all walks of life. Just because you have different opinions doesn't mean the end result of a conversation has to become volatile

If you're joining a net, read the rules before you do so. Not skim through for the key word to get in. R e a d the damn r u l e s

It is your job to curate your fandom spaces. If you decide you dont like someone's content/behavior, it is well within your right to block them to keep yourself from seeing them/their content/their behavior

This also means its not someone's job to write you an essay in MLA format, size 12 Times New Roman, double spaced on why they blocked you. Take the L and move on, there's more than enough other people in a fandom space to find different friends

Your friends are not your punching bags. They're not your yesmen. If you truly consider someone a friend, you need to understand that yall may have different opinions/views on things and this is something you should be able to talk about in a mature manner. If you expect your friends to just nod along to everything or if they expect YOU to nod along to everything, maybe look at that friendship again. No, you shouldn't be fighting all the time, but if you dont feel comfortable speaking out when you have concerns with a friend then.....?

Adults stop engaging with minors with nsfw asks and fics. Adults stop engaging with minors with nsfw content period.

Minors stop fucking lying about your age to sneak into spaces you KNOW are marked as 18+. Adults in those spaces are trying to respect boundaries and also be comfortable and if you cant see why a 15-17 yo lying about being a 18+ yo just so they can talk about getting railed with adults that ARE 18+ (especially if they say no minor interactions) is wrong, maybe you're not as "mature" as you keep telling yourselves.

Sending anon hate makes you a coward and a bitch and no one should take you seriously. Either say it in a post, off anon, in dms, or leave it alone because this anon hate shit is whack.

You can write whatever you want. Yes, even dark fics, but put a FUCKING trigger warning on shit thats triggering. You know DAMN well whats hard triggers.

Respect that people DO have triggers and make sure to mark works/posts accordingly.

You not having the same triggers as someone or not having triggers at all doesnt make you any better than someone who does. Don't be a fucking dick.

You don't have to fully understand someone's identity/culture to respect that they have one and that its different than yours.

Take scs if you feel you're being scammed/wronged. If you dont keep evidence of things being amiss, its very easy for someone to spin a story in their favor.

You arent less of a for considering fandom spaces too overwhelming.

You arent a terrible fan for not knowing every waking moment of these idol's lives. In fact, some of yall need to step back and give them more space

Its none of your business who they're dating. If its not an inappropriate relationship with an adult and a minor or an abusive relationship, leave these people alone

Stop??? Making them fucking uncomfortable by being inappropriate during fancalls??? You fucking weirdos???

You don't get to use your mental illness as an excuse to be horrible to other people all the time. That's not how that works. You don't get to inflict pain and trauma on someone and go "well i have issues so-" and think that's a scapegoat. If you can acknowledge you have problems that makes you lash out, you can actively find solutions to work on doing it less at the very least, not shrug and go "oh well". You're still a dick.

An author sharing their troubles in life is not an open invitation for you to try and bully them into "shutting up and writing, no ones here for the life story". Bitch??? You're on their blog, if they wanna vent for 3 months, post a fic on the 4th, and vent for 3 more, that's their business. The unfollow button is right there. Life is difficult, especially this year. Not everyone can crank out a fic every day

Say thank you when you request a fic and the writer does post it for you. Thats the bare minimum, yknow.

REBLOG!!! FICS!!! AND FANDOM CONTENT!!! YOU!!!! ENJOY!!! DON'T JUST LIKE IT, SHARE THE SHIT IT HELPS

Comments and feedback are wonderful. Do that. Your writers work hard, even something as simple as "i really love how this happened" or "i cant wait to see what happens with person a and person b" goes a long way

Be kind to yourself. If you couldn't meet your goal, that's okay. Work on plans a different way, ask for help, take a different approach. You're doing well in your own way, you can find a way to do better if you need to without putting yourself down all the time.

#fie vents #fie chatters #anyway good afternoon this has been in my mind for like 6 months and building up so here #long post

[twiceblackvelvet]

when you talk about writers that have chosen not to address the issue... i think i know who u mean. two rly big BP writers have remained silent about cis-het men on their blogs and it's more than a lil sus 👀 i don't wanna say names but i think you know who they are too if your recent posts are anything to go by

👁👁 i wish you could see my dumb ass trying to figure this one out but ANY writer who was active during that whole thing (and you can check by your following on desktop for anyone wanting to unfollow some cis-het bootlickers) is sus as fuck.

one of the ones in which i was talking about earlier i don’t believe is primarily a BP blog but they are very well known within the community for having defended cis-hets previously when this was a topic of discussion of the cis-het girl writing wlw content. so i’m curious as to who you’re referring to anon. drop me a dm if you’re comfortable and we can be shady together.

edit; i may be late replying if you do cause i’m about to sleep but i’m genuinely curious now lol.

#anon

[rwby-party]

RWBY’s becoming hard to interact with again.

I check on blogs that I either used to follow or they used to follow me and it just... sucks. 

Seeing so many people I followed and interacted with and enjoyed spending time with unfollow me just sucked. In some cases I was the one that unfollowed. It was all about the Fair Game issue. 

I still stand by with how I feel on Fair Game, that it was queerbait and BYGs and that it hurt me a lot to see it (You can check my blog about it here if you like) , even though I’m not a MLM myself.  It created huge trust issues with me and RT/CRWBY though as a WLW. But sometimes I wish I didn’t open my mouth so much about it. I feel like I alienated some good people from myself/this blog because of my “overreactions” to it. These feelings were hard for me to deal with though, and still are.

It kinda ruined Bumbleby and the other LGBTQ+ rep for me (on a personal level.) Practically everyone working on the show has practically confirmed BB canon. They’ve been flirting in the show and in the Manga. Nora even said “Wow u think they’re just friends Ren wtf.”

But things also feel real slow too. While I wasn’t expecting a full blown kiss, I was hoping for... a little more than what I got to be right honest. It makes me feel greedy but it’s the truth. I didn’t feel like much changed with them throughout the volume and frankly didn’t like some of their interractions. (I was afraid to talk about it because I didn’t want to come off like I didn’t like bumbleby but the clingyness bothered me a lot.)

and while I will admit this is more than likely paranoid. Seeing them support the ship doesn’t make me feel better/more comfortable about it.

I remember how one of the animators shipped Qrow and Clover. How much it was teased. I remember how miles said he didn’t make a character gay because others might consider it BYGs but “kicked himself” about it when he saw how much people liked him. How Eddy Rivas’ interpretation of Clover and feelings on his relationship with Qrow clearly clashed with Chris Wehkamp’s. 

I also think about how Even though we do have a confirmed Trans character she barely had any screen time. All the other lgbtq+ chars that were confirmed barely had any screen time with the exception of Bumbleby. and while I do really feel like it isn’t fair to judge those based off of one other one... I can’t help but feel that. They felt less like an ally after that. Suddenly I’m not as trusting. My trust in them has been damaged and it hurts.

and while of course I don’t want anyone shitting on bumbleby or that other confirmed rep because of what happened, I can’t help but feel weary and fear what they’re going to do with them as a WLW (well, Nonbinary Woman but still) because of what happened with FG. Once again, I know it’s paranoid, but its there, and I’m someone that has a “if you don’t like/respect one of us, you don’t like/respect all of us.” on situations like this. It really did feel like a break of trust. One I’ve never experienced in any fandom I’ve had beforehand. (Don’t get me wrong here, I know it’s happened before, but never in something I loved so dearly.)

Like, if a show with LGBQ Rep suddenly made transphobic comments or killed off a hinted trans guy/girl that a bunch of trans people felt were trans with little to no trans characters in it’s 6+ year run time, I’d be VERY weary and feeling this same pain. Same if it did it to Bi people or pan people or NB people or whoever, despite the fact that I may not fit into those demographics myself.

and like I said above, I don’t wanna shit on any confirmed LGBTQ+ rep, so it’s very hard for me to talk about how it makes me feel exactly without me feeling like I’m dragging those down and that makes me more sad that the issue’s even there in the first place. I felt like RWBY was a safe place for LGBTQ+ rep but I don’t anymore. I felt like I was lured into a sense of comfort and security only to be sucker punched. 

This whole situation kinda reminds me of how I felt when the Shane Letter popped up. Just a kinda... hollow feeling almost. Wondering how people couldn’t see my point of view when the loads of evidence I felt backed it up. finding it hard to interact with people. but at least then, I still was looking forward to RWBY and what was coming next, and I just don’t have that this time around. 

On top of this I’m not excited for any of the new stuff, and I can’t tell if I’ve just been into things too much lately or not. The Dnd thing kinda sounds cool but that’s about it. I’m happy for those who do enjoy it but I’ve been kinda. I guess scared to talk about it since I had such a negative opinion on it and everyone kinda felt like those who did were just... assholes. 

I love this show, the world, and the people I interact and stuff but Its becoming painful again. 

#Plus even though I like most of the writing it feels odd and not quite like RWBY. #I know it's because there are two new writers but still.

[dreamingswift]

benjamin button, bracelets, tea time 💫

benjamin button: what’s something you’re curious about?

Omg so many things...like anything that we don’t know about Taylor I’m curious abt of course. But generally like.. everything especially with psychology stuff like why do people go absolutely psycho u know? That’s why I watch a lot of documentaries about any and everything really. Mostly the crime ones though.

bracelets: what’s a mantra you think about a lot?

I don’t think this is considered a mantra but when I get stressed out about presenting a project in school (or something similar) I would just think a.) the other kids are stressed too so I’m not alone b.) they don’t deeply/really care abt ur project and therefore aren’t gonna judge you or laugh or whatever they’re probably not even paying attention. And if they are well who cares that’s their issue it’s not that deep!!!. No one knows what they’re doing (someppl just won’t admit it ) so it’s ok if u don’t either!! And honestly this applies to other stuff too just think abt something u get worked up over and you’ll realize it’s probably not worth the panic.

That “mantra” has got me thru a lot of presentations without having a panic attack before hand. Also I did not come up with it I just remember reading it somewhere a long time ago and being like yeah people are really focused on themselves a lot honestly so it’s like.. makes sense. Even if it’s not true for every person it’s what gets me thru stuff without having a panic attack.

tea time: share an opinion that may be unpopular

This is gonna make me probably lose followers but I’m tired of the s*lf r*blogging drama ( I do NOT wanna start it again please don’t I’m just stating my opinion it’s The only one I could think of. ) it’s a godddddamnnn website like yeah it sucks but just unfollow them if it annoys you. And like.. yeah Taylor is gonna like their posts Bc of what they do but there’s no getting through to these people. it’s just an endless negativity cycle with no solution unless Taylor says something herself which will never happen.

#asks #sorry it got long winded!!

[feraldavestrider]

Honestly when you started saying you need dysphoria to be trans I was this close to hitting the unfollow button but I agree with you. sometimes people say "I don't have dysphoria I'm just happier as this gender" and like ??? maybe you should consider how happy you actually were before whatever transitioning you did. Sometimes I feel kinda empty and don't wanna do things. I'm not sad and I can deal with it indefinitely but guess what, that's still depression. Not all dysphoria is obvious.

yeah!! ill be honest i was mostly frustrated and i just woke up when i wrote that stuff so i wont b surprised if i lost some followers who didnt get what i meant/thought i was truscum/transmed,,,, or if ppl just dont agree which is life. but im glad u got what i meant!

**edit i made before i posted this i say “you” a lot in this and i mean like a general audience you mostly pointed towards like. op and those that agree ok note over**

i by NO means am trying to police ppls identifies or suggest that all experiences w dysphoria are the same. or that u should ever need to share details on those experiences! you dont owe anyone anything.

my main issue is that “tucute”/mogai tumblr propagates this idea that you can just be trans without feeling any discomfit w ur agab, and the associated name, pronouns, ur physical form (ie some various forms of dysphoria). because then what are we boiling being trans down to???? saying youre trans/nonbinary just bc you may dress in a gnc/non conventional manner or because u act/talk/have certain hobbies that are gendered in a way that doesnt fit ur assigned gender???? if you genuinely feel NO issue with ur agab at ALL then chief... u probably arent trans!! and thats ok! a lot of ppl i know have ided as trans at some point in their life and actually realised they were experiencing something else, like body dysmorphia or internalised lesbophobia. 

like u said, dysphoria can sometimes just be... not bery apparent. it can be silent, but its still there. im very skeptical of the idea of ppl habinf gender “euphoria” without the dysphoria n using that to explain their transness but mostly bc i just beliebe those ppl r dysphoric without realising it, probably bc of mogai/tucute tumblr culture! i.e. i didnt realise how bad i actually experienced name dysphoria until AFTER i changed my name basicaly everywhere except legally and w my family. bc i was like huh! im so euphoric at being called gabe, but i didnt think i felt thay dysphoric at my birth name! but NOW when i get deadnamed, it like. HURTS most of the time. dysphoria can change like that w ur life experiences, and euphoria doesnt exist without the dysphoria, evem if u arent aware of the dysphoria in rhe first place! like u said anon, how okay could u be w ur agab/birth name/assigned pronouns/etc if being called different ones make u so happy. its just dysphoria!!!

! u just have been indoctrinated by this tucute v truscum war where both sides treat dysphoria as an all encompassing tragic, epic life long suffering. truscum act thay way in order to gatekeep who is/isnt trans, and mogais decided thay RATHER than go, “no dumbass dysphoria can be literally just. hih i feel Wrong abt my agab” even if thats a vague and complicated feeling, they went: ok then we dont need dysphoria fuck u! which i INDERSYAND but its just not right or helpful!

 often dysphoria can change w experiences and comes and goes, and sometimes parts of it are so hodden u wont realise it was there until years later in ur life! and thats ok. you dont have to experience every symptom of dysphoria at 100% tragedy pain mode to be a valid Real Transgender. all you need to be trans is... to be trans. which means dysphoria! bc being trans is being uneasy/unhappy w ur assigned gender bc u arent that! and guess what the definition of dysphoria is... being uneasy and unhappy! so being trans is just having gender dysphoria!

on that note, i think that ppl who DONT actually feel uneasy or unhappy w their birth gender but do want to experiment or explore different modes of expression w names/pronouns/dress style should! but just note tjay like... ur probably just gender non comforming, not transgender

i guess being nonbinary is a little more complex but id argue my point still stands. you are uncomfortable w ur birth gender. thats dysphoria. maybe ur dysphoria seems “”””weird”””” bc ur nb dusphoria but its not. its still dysphoria!  if ur afab and u still want to have long hair... thay dossnt mean u dont have dysphoria. if ur agab and you still want to have armpit and leg hair... thay doesnt mean u dont have dysphoria. whether ur nb or binary trans! bc. you WILL have some form of social/personal dysphoria that is what makes u go HM ASSIGNED GENDER BAD! 

ok im done for now im abt to sleep and then get on an 11 hour plane journey so dont expect anything gr8 from me now or anytime near in the future sorry for my big rants but i just feel like tumblr is so black n white on this issue when both aides are! stupid (obviously transmeds/truscum r worse but still!!! mogai tend to get me heated in a New Fun way). 

sorry 4 word vomiting anon bit thanks 4 ur ask i wasnt sure if anyone would get where i was coming from n im glad u agree!!! thank u fr for sending tjis in. habe a good noght/day/whatever 

#/discourse #the void it speaks #anon #answered #yea thanks for sending this in #i know seeing 'u need dusphoria to be trans' is usually like #a big red warning sign for transmed bullshittery #which i get #but like #im right #HAJDJCKDDKCKDKSKDKKCKD #and not a transmed lr truscum!!! teehee #i am... just cofrect #im so tired fim 2 pass out bye

[applecherry108]

first of all hooooooooolyyyy shiitttt

FUCK tungle. it took like 30 tries to log in on desktop. admittedly, i was using the wrong password at first, BUT, even when i remembered the right one it kept giving me shit. This is what i get for being L337 i guess... -_-

anyways, im only on desktop so i can add a readmore to say:

i just,,,,,hate voltron. okay? It sucked. it fucking sucked. i watched the first season and it was like, okay yeah, this has potential. and then s2 was like, okay yeah not as good but maybe s3 will pick up...

s3 didn’t pick up. it was just one long death spiral by the same idiots who fucked up the atla sequel. i hate their writing, i hate their story plots, i hate how they butcher any good ideas they have, and i especially hate their inability to have good character AND plot development happen at the same time.

I got swept up in storm of klance and that’s about it. i have soft spots for other ships but at the end of the day i don’t care. i just don.t fucking,,, care???

the fandom is a mess, the crew was a mess, everything was a fucking mess from the get go.

Like who tf is this show written for?? it has to be for like, 8-10 year olds. It has to be. Everything is just so....stupid. Nothing is ever properly explained, motivations never really given, everyone is just a 2 dimensional cardboard cutout of a trope. And that pisses me off so much bc like??? other shows aimed at young kids can still have great world building. they can have good world building and characters and overall story and still be cheesy and a lil dumb. cheesy and a lil dumb is completely fine!! but voltron is just so...godammn... BORING!! it’s like i WANT to like the characters but its just so goddamn hard when everybody is so fucking flat. by all rights, i should want to marry allura. shes everything i loved when i was little, from her color pallet to her princesshood to her white fucking hair!! i should LOVE allura but i don’t!! i kind of hate her. why?? i don’t know!! shes so...boring! and flat! and fucking PASSIVE! everything in this show lands so fucking flat holy shit.

pidge at matts “grave”? yikes, that was second hand hard to watch for like.... “oooh this is so serious!” but the buildup wasnt there...it was kind of funny tbh... and HELLA awkward...

don’t get me started on lance and hunk. bolin was my favorite look character for the first few episodes and then he got knocked to Comic Relief and had maybe two (2) importantish moments. he/they may be part of the main cast but they’re not main characters. they feel like background props to the Actual Main characters.

which brings me to keith.

FUCK keith.

that’s my reaction after every! new! season!! is just,, FUCK keith. god the show functioned SO WELL without him. he’s just so...idk. i also don’t care. what was his character arc anyway? it SHOULD have been about learning to love and trust others but we only get that in lip service and speed run character development (i hate the quantum abyss...so much... like yeah, who cares about SHOWING our characters mature, let’s just tell that it happened in afucking montage.) if keith were a properly developed character he shouldve remained PASSIONATE and idk, run support?? that boy SHOULD have piloted red, end of story. period. keith doesn’t need to lead he needs to learn to TRUST others and that insludes trusting other WITH HIS LIFE. i won’t rant about how we should have had black paladin lance, but keith should have never ever been black paladin. even after he “matures” he still sucks at. he’s this awful,,little,, Shiro 2.0. and I hate it. i ahte it and i hate shiro just a little bit. even though he was arguably the most likeable character, he shouldve stayed dead. or missing. or whatever. he didn’t need to come back and they didnt need to make keith a little offbrand clone of him. i ESPECIALLY hate that they aged keith up 2 years for no goddamn reason other than to make him the Adult (tm). keith’s dedication to others was gre4at, but it should have, and im failing for this word here so forgive me, climaxed? cresscendo’d? whatever. /resulted/ in him playing support. not leader. lone wolf keith doesn’t need how to lead his pack, he needed to learn to HELP his pack. to be a TEAM PLAYER. he didn’t want the responsibility of leading bc guess what?? some people hate leading!! there’s nothing wrong with wanting to be support! keith’s entire arc is a huge mess of missed opportunities and a grand illustration that he is lm’s and jds’ favorite, just like fucking mako.

i won’t rant about mako, but just know i fucking hate him and the special treatment he gets, and good LORD does keith take over mako. keith isn’t space zuko he’s space mako and it fucking SHOWS.

okay, i’m losing steam here, but like.... so apple, why tf where u voltron 24/7 if you hated it so much? because homestuck was over and i needed a new hyperfixation. and i really had to force it for vld tbh. and at the end of the day, it wasn’t so much about the show itself as the potential of klance (or sheith, up until s3). between the interviews, the coding, the fucking EVERYTHING--it really felt like it could be canon. i knew in my heart it was queer baiting but i had HOPE dammit. hope that this could be killer representation, hope that these characters would delvelopment into something incredible. again, there was so much POTENTIAL. and all of it was wasted. everything really came to a head during the fucking game show episode. it was like lm and lds giving everyone who likes lance the middle finger, really driving home that “no no, he IS just stupid. he’s the comic releif. there’s nothing deeper about him and no one will stand up for him bc they all think of him as such.” and that just....broke my heart. we were so...SO close to lance actually mattering but nope! bolin’d again! and what was his purpose in s8? why to be an accessory to allura of course!

i’ve seen a lot of people really divorce themselves from canon and live solely for fanon, esp fanon klance but like.... i can’t. i just can’t. it’s so fucking hard to work with these cardboard characters. you can only draw so much depth onto them, you know? until the very last moments they had potential, but then it all got snuffed out. but who cares about canon? why bother with it? because! we don’t have a solid consistent fanon version of them! no one sat down and delivered the ten commandments of “here’s what we agree k and l are actually like” it’s stupid and it sucks because everyone has their own little differences and its so so tiring to basically be interacting with minutely different ocs all the goddamn time. canon matters bc it gives everyone the same base to work with. like a cooking showing with the same basket ingredients, but now it’s like.... ya’ll don’t wanna use the mandatory ingredients (and why would you? those canon ingredients are like, a century egg and spoiled sardines, they’re awful.)

okay, and im at work and just came back to this and dont remember my train of thought so like... what really threw all this into sharp clarity was the recent steven universe episodes. they were so...GOOD. so fucking good. so much plot and foreshadowing coming to a head. it was such a wonderfully satisfying payoff that it made me remember what a GOOD show is like, how vld is so very very /bad/. the difference is fucking striking. where one is an intricately woven tale with excellent character development and clear story AND character arcs, that can progress AT THE SAME TIME, one is a hacked together flaming dumpster firing that constantly falls flat and doesn’t know where its going or why. and it s so BORING! like fight scenes can be amazing! they can be well coreographed and tense! and we as the audience can be anxious about the outcome! and vld just wasn’t that! it was boring repetetive action in the least exciting way. and where su set up a lot of potential, holy shit they DELIVERED on that potential. not just for rep, but for characters! for story! for plain ol simple character interactions! and then, again, two dimensional cardboard cutouts.

and now with this difference in good vs bad show so very clearly highlighted for me, i just.... i can’t, anymore, with vld. it sucks. it sucked and i can’t pretend or force a fixation with it that just isn’t there, and truthfully, probably never was. maybe that’s why i’ve been struggling to finish my fic, struggling ever since i posted the last chapter, ever since s7, which, again, that game show was really the nail in the coffin as far as holding onto any hope that this tire fire would ever pick up. like a physically feel ill trying to finishing this stupid fic bc i don’t care so hard. i don’t care and i just... really want to be over it. im sick of seeing it everywhere, im sick of the drama, of the Discourse. like all fandoms have their issues, but hold fuck does vld fandom have a massive Purity problem. like, god, let people ship whatever. who cares. die mad about it.

like homestuck, idk if i’ll ever fully ween myself off vld but i want to move on. i want to enjoy Other Things without having this lackluster weight on my shoulders. and more than anything, i want to stop feeling like im obligated to like the same shit as i did two years ago, or last year, or hell, last week! feel free to unfollow, but yeah i just.... really needed to let this out in a proper post and not in the misc tags somewhere.

#behold my loathe letter to vld #if you actually enjoyed the show and don't wanna read all my bitching then like...probably pass this post up lmao #apple talks #to the tune of spam

[blankflank-moved]

i might be jumping the gun by posting this but uhh i talked to a few friends and now im feeling confident enough to let out my thoughts about this in public. so. here we go: im.... Questioning.

i...might be a lesbian 🤔 which is a really weird and difficult thing for me to say because it's been years since i identified that way, and also, my androgyny is incredibly fragile. but there u go! it's out there.

but like... i really wanna stress that even if i end up identifying as a lesbian, it doesn't mean i would be giving up my identity as an unaligned genderless trans person. no, i really don't know how to explain why i feel compelled to identify as a lesbian despite not being a woman or woman-aligned in any capacity. but i also don't feel like i should have to explain, because i would be far from the only person in history to identify as both Not A Woman (or a man for that matter) and a lesbian.

so i'm still transgender, i’m still nonbinary, i'm still transitioning, i'm still taking T, i still prefer to pass as male to strangers, and i'll still get upset if you refer to me as female. the only thing that may possibly be changing is this one label.

so...yeah. if you have an issue with the possibility that i might be an unaligned nb lesbian, this is your cue to unfollow i guess. anon is off so don't bother even thinking about sending me some dumb bullshit, if u want to police my identity then u can show ur face while doing so

(if u read this post and would support me if i started identifying that way i’d...really appreciate u leaving a like or reply or something slkhKDHSLAK SORRY TO BE THAT GUY BY ASKING FOR THAT i am just. very insecure about this. u really dont have to. but i’d appreciate it)

#posting this is very Scarey #😬 #sry to be a special snowflake or whatever hldkfhdlkfhdlk

[pettyboy]

Keenan i have a toxic friend and shes killing me slowly but shes like everywhere in my life we have some of the same friends so ill still have to be around her no matter what i do

are u able to slowly detach urself from her life ?? and can u avoid talking/interacting with her as much as u can while u both are around ur friends?? & if it’s also a social media thing ‘unfollow’ her facebook posts (if u dont wanna unfriend !!), delete her on snap so you don’t see her stories etc !! 

or if u prefer, u can message her/meet up with her and talk about it & see if ur able to resolve any issues/differences u may have, or anything that contributes to the toxicity of the friendship. it’s a really difficult situation but stay strong & i hope u figure it out soon 💕

#speaking of facebook the new update looks ugly AF omg #sending u lots of love btw!!! #Anonymous

[xphenxmenalx]

Guidelines

General Bits and Pieces

Heres a warning before you roleplay with me! Not following these rules can and will lead to me unfollowing you. These are rules for a reason meaning they are to be followed as such. Don’t like my rules? Don’t like something I say? Delete me! Your negative comments has no affect here, only consequence. Plenty of other roleplayers, you can follow and roleplay with instead..It’s all about fun! we’re all here to have fun, so let’s make the most of it. I don’t like to be miserable and I would never purposely make anyone else upset or miserable either. so let’s have fun.

Interacting

I will never ignore you! If you send me a message and I don’t reply? It’s mostly because Tumblr is being a douchebag and ate it. If we have a thread and I haven’t replied to it? Please message me because more than likely, didn't see the reply, got distracted and forgot it or I lost it. If you decided you want to drop something between our characters, for whatever reason, please let me know, don’t just disappear and/or ignore me because I will assume the worst, so yeah please tell me. I won’t get upset, I will respect your reasoning behind it, and I’d like to know rather than being left hanging.

No Out Of Character Drama! No God-Modding!

Important! I absolutely can’t stand drama, it absolutely makes me sick, so keep your drama away from me. Besides I will not tolerate any ooc drama whatsoever. I come on here to have fun and roleplay and meet new people, I’m not here for all of the petty drama that comes along with rping sometimes. I don’t care to start drama, but if you start drama with me, then I promise its going to start a war with me. I can’t stand immature roleplayers, cry babies, or attention whores meaning I really can’t stand immature people acting like cry babies to get attention. Oh I do have a short temper and when I explode its never pretty. I will go off majorly and sound like a bitch only cause you deserve it for actually being a dick and starting drama instead talking your issues you have with me, in private with me. HOWEVER, this doesn't mean in character drama isn't allowed, in character drama is definitely allowed.

This is roleplaying essentials! Unless I’ve given you permission, I don’t want you to use my character and do things with them that I haven’t said okay to. Which means you need to understand that I am the one in control of them, not you so just don't try to control my muses and do not kill any of them. God-mod is never okay to do so please don’t do it here.

Relationships & Shipping

This blog Is Multiship/Multiverse! This means that they will have more than one relationship/plot going at a time. This does not mean any of them are cheating on anyone, unless we discussed it before hand. If you’re unsure of what this entirely consists of, please, google it before trying to get into it. I just want to make sure you’re informed. Don't force a ship down my or my muse's throat! That's absolutely not cool and fucking rude, so just don't do it. If you force a ship upon my muse and me, I will not be accountable for my muses actions towards your muse or you. However I will not allow them to kill yours, just let them be a dick towards yours and possibly allow them to hit yours. It will invertedly lead to you being blocked, I will not apologize because you are the one who broke the rules. I ship based on chemistry. Don't assume we are shipping without talking to me. Just because my muse kissed or had sex or flirted with yours doesn't mean we are in a serious ship.

My Muses Sexuality.

Alexa ➳ Straight

AJ ➳ Bisexual

April ➳ Straight

Jon ➳ Bisexual

My Muses Main Verse Relationship.

Alexa ➳ Single

AJ ➳ Single

April ➳ Single

Jon ➳ Single

Their relationship upon interaction unless plotted out is SINGLE which means they are currently unattached. That means Alexa is not engaged to Murphy, AJ is not married to Wendy, AJ is not married to Punk, and Dean is not married to Renee.

My Opts Who I Will Instantly Be Oki With Shipping With:

Alexa & Baron

Alexa & Allen

Alexa & Dean

Alexa & Randy

Allen & Dean

Allen & Alexa

Allen & April

Allen & Baron

April & Dean

April & Allen

April & Punk

April & Randy

Dean & Allen

Dean & April

Dean & Alexa

Dean & Punk

Dean & Randy

Dean & Baron

My Hell No Opts Who I Will Not Be Oki With Shipping With:

Alexa & Murphy

Alexa & Blake

Alexa & Sami

Allen & Charlotte

Allen & Natayla

Allen & JoJo

Allen & Renee

April  & Dolph

April & Daniel

April & Sami

Dean & Renee

Dean & JoJo

Dean & Charlotte

Dean & Natayla

Just because your muse isn't on the list, doesn't mean I wouldn't be okay with shipping our muses, you can always go ahead and ask me or tell me if you wanna ship just don't force a ship on me or my muses, for there to be chemistry between them first before a ship happens. Just remember I hold the right to turn you down for a ship I don't feel comfortable with.

If your muse falls on the hell no opt list and you want to ship then please talk to me and we can see if something can be arranged but remember I do have the right to turn you down. If it does happen, I will possibly only allow ONE ship of it, not multiples because I want to be comfortable on my blog. Tho same thing goes there has to be chemistry between them first.

I Write Smut But You Must Be Of A Certain Age To Write Smut With Me!

Yes, I do write smut paras and posts, yes sometimes I'll post smutty pictures. However I will not place them under read more tags, just because I shouldn’t have to. I'm sorry but if you have a problem with this then just don’t read my posts, its that simple. I will always try my best to make sure I tag them NSFW, no promises tho cause shit happens and I may forget.

You need to be 18+ in order to write smut with me, why? Because I'm in my twentys, which makes me a legal adult and I’m not going to jail if your mom or whoever is legal guardian of you finds our paras. It will fade to black before it even heads in that direction if you are younger than 18. Also if you are legal age and uncomfortable with writing smut then we can make it fade to black, I have no problem with that.

Smut however may be a rare thing that happens even if I have a sex driven muse, the mun is very shy and unexperienced in that area. I will however try my best but if it sucks then I am sorry, I just don't want to make promises or forbid it at all so I'm just gonna keep it at a rare thing because it can happen if threads lead in that direction or if a meme is sent or received.

Quick Facts & Rules

Make sure you read all G u i d e l i n e s and I n f o r m a t i o n accordingly before you interact with any of my muses

I am not exclusive but I am extremely selective and semi private so I reserve the right to deny any interaction between our muses. However that happening is rare since I am usually very open to roleplaying with anyone unless I have reasons of not wanting to roleplay with someone.

If I post a meme please don't be scared to send one in, even if we haven't interacted yet or if we already have other threads. I don't care if we have to skip ahead or a bit behind in the timeline, lets just build the story of our muses. I reblog them so we can interact and build a story. If you don't send one in occuasionally then reblog from the source and not me.

 If you send a meme in then please specify which muse you want! If you don’t then its either gonna get deleted or randomize. I get it that you may not care who you get but have the common courtesy to say ANYONE so I know its definitely oki just to throw a random muse at you and that you'll be oki with it.

If we are mutual following each other then please try to interact with me and I'll do the same with you, I may be a bit shy but the effort of trying to make it work is so much better than feeling invisible and horrible. 

If I post a starter call, please only like it if you plan on answering. I rather not waste my time typing up a starter for someone who doesn't even answer it. If it doesn't work for you then please tell me and I can try to fix it to where it will work for both of us. Also if you possibly like it to notify me that you received it and tumblr isn't being a dick, or I'm gonna possibly have a panic attack over worrying about if you got it or not.

I'm sorry but if you break any of my muses to where they are no longer happy outside of threads then I will literally go off on you. I don't mean to be a bitch but it has happened before to the point I almost lost a muse and I don't need to lose any of my muses. Try to understand it doesn't just affect my muse but it affects me too. This is my escape from everything I have to go through in real and when roleplaying starts hurting me too then something is in major need of changing.

Now I need to point out one thing, I aint exclusive means my muses will play with other muses of the same muse and possibly ship with them. But that doesn't mean you will be replaced or I like them better. No one thread will be exactly the same as others and I don't want to restrict my muses to having to miss out on others incredible writing and muses. I LOVE YOU no less. just remember that.

If I reply to certain threads faster than yours, its nothing personal its just sometimes I only have muse for certain threads. I promise I'll reply to our thread when I have muse for it til then it will be sitting in my drafts, unless I lost it or eventually ended up dropping it cause I had no muse for it. I'll mostly likely drop you a message saying sorry about dropping it so you know I did. I may ask if you received my reply or replied to our thread to see if it was lost. However it may be awhile before I ask that because its sorta hard for me to ask since I worry about annoying you, so either I'll just assume its in your drafts or the worst it was lost.

In order for me to even consider following you, you need to CUT YOUR DAMN POSTS, honestly this is my biggest pet peeve and I really don't want my dash to be a clutter fuck. If you’re entirely unsure of how to do so, please google it, I don't want to be rude I just want to make sure you’re informed. Honestly I know how hard it can be when you are on mobile but its not impossible, tumblr gives you an option to delete old replies. If you can then you can either have someone help you or start a new post after like 2 long replies or 6 short replies between both partner

If you want to turn an ask into a thread then go for it, all I ask of you is you move it to a new post. DO NOT REBLOG IT FROM THE ASK. I will not follow you if you do that shit, it clutter fucks shit also and its fucking annoying to see.

I don't care how many threads we have but do try to be a bit understanding, I'm not supergirl. My muses and I can only handle so much before we gets to the point everything is too much to handle. Which means replies may take a while to be answered and posted, hell some may be answered and place in queue that following night so I can keep up. I may start to limit the amount of threads each muse can have with a certain muse to about 2-5 depending on the length of them that gets posted straight away then the rest shall go into queue. I'm sorry but  I don't need my muses or myself to feel like we're drowning in replies and get stressed about not being able to keep up and get everything posted in a reasonable manner. This is supposed to be fun since this is a hobby, not a job.

If you tag me in a starter then please make sure my muses and I can understand it. If its too confusing for my muse to figure out how to reply to it and I can’t help them then its going to be in my drafts for awhile til it gets deleted. I’ll feel like shit about it cause it isn’t because I don’t want to roleplay with you, its just my muse doesn’t know how to answer and I can’t help them. Its not fair to my muses if I make them do something they are completely confused about and don’t even know how to answer.

Alright I’m sorry but this has to be said because right now I just can’t stress it enough. I’m a multimuse blog, which means that means this blog contains more than one muse on it and you know what, you may not see them all being active because a certain one may become popular. I don’t know why that happens but it does and I appreciate the love you are giving to that muse but it is unfair to the rest of my muses. They deserve a chance, not just one damn muse. I get it you have favorites but honestly its not fair that you don't even take a chance on the others, since you may never know what could happen there. Plus I don't need any of my muses feeling left out or unwanted because you decided to play favorites, it makes them want to disappear and I honestly don't want to lose any of my muses so please try to give them all a fair chance, not just one specific muse of mine. If you are unsure where you can find out what all muses I have then here let me inform you real quickly. I have a page that lists all my muses which you can find under the word my muses which is right next to the words Read First! You can click the link to the page underneath the gif at the top of my guidelines page or you know it states my muses faceclaims at the bottom of the guidelines page, it actually gives a list of everyone I have a couple of times through my rules so there is no way you could miss it if you are actually reading my guidelines.

Mun Notes

I have anxiety, depression, bipolar, mood disorders, and phobias. I'm sorry I can't control how fucked up I am but you are gonna have to bare with me. If I disappear without warning, its because my depression has hit an all time high and tumblr isn't helping me any. I always return tho and do my best to get all replies I owe done, even if it takes me forever. They will come I promise, unless I have dropped or lost a thread; in that case I will let you know.

I have a personal life and that will always come first, which unfortunately means that there will be times where I may not being able to get on and there may be times that I am online but to distracted to be paying attention to my laptop. There will be times when replies are fast as fuck and there will be times where replies are so as fuck but either way I will do my best to reply to you.

I will never ever send anyone any hate messages since that is very immature, I only send adorable messages to try to make one smile but its very seldom that I send anything because I am a bundle of nerves and shy as fuck haha.

I am a sweetheart til I'm pissed off, in which I must warn you that I have a short temper. Unfortunately you can say I truly am a nightmare dressed like a daydream.

Please don't assume shit, I hate that shit so much. I had that happen to me more than once and it hurts like hell. Especially when I am accused of something I didn't do, plus it is highly rude to assume shit without proof.

All Icons have been made by me, unless stated otherwise. Don't steal or use them without asking me first. It was hard work that took forever to do, I spent alot of time on them with the lil resource to make them. I do not own any of the gifs I use, unless I have stated otherwise.

I play my muses the way I want to play them, not how the show plays them, not how the actor plays them, not how others want me to play them. I shouldn't have to since I play them for me, and only for me. I play them so I can have an outlet away from stress, not to gain stress from the pressures of following canon perfectly. I will never follow canon and I'm proud of that, however if you have a problem with how I portray my muses then please go somewhere else.

I do not claim to be any of the muses I protray nor will I ever!

URLS

These are the urls I'm tracking.

Main ➳ xPhenxmenalx

AJ ➳ P1Stylez

Alexa ➳ lilxmissxbliss

April ➳ lxvebitesx

Jon ➳ xlunaticxfringex

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