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meetmeatthecoda · 3 years

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Okay so, I wanted to offer my two cents on that ask about Liz’s reaction in Luther Braxton: Conclusion. This is NOT meant as an attack on anyone—I find it 100% valid that the OG nonny (and anyone who related to them, including you dear Coda 💖💖💖) feels the way they do; they can’t control how they reacted to Liz any more than I can control how I reacted to that ask. Plus like, this is all fiction so no harm done? I purely wish to share my perspective, not ~present a counterargument~ or anything like that. :) Apologies in advance for how long this got. 😅😅😅

I get why you would react negatively to Liz’s screaming at Red, but I feel like?? That incident of all the times she’s treated him unjustly was (one of?) the most reasonable. Now, how she continues to act afterwards (regarding the Fulcrum but also, like, for the rest of the show welp) is 100% a continued bad decision in so many ways on her part and reflects terribly on her character, but her reaction in the immediate aftermath?? IDK, I feel the need to kind of defend her, probably because I absoluuuutely saw myself in her when she did that. I’ve (I shamefully admit) yelled, shoved, and even kicked at loved ones when they just wanted to comfort me but their attempts made me feel cornered and small. I’ve made logically unbased and ethically/emotionally unfair accusations against people who’ve done nothing but try to help me when I just needed something to get them away (literally or otherwise). When I just needed to attack something—take out my frustrations and confusion and fear and anger on someone. (And if Liz was like that, she might have latched onto Red as her target because he was the closest thing—physically, emotionally, and even in relation to the cause of that confusion and anger itself.) I have inflicted real harm on people while in an unsettling or unfamiliar mental state—harm that I couldn’t take back even when I could look back with a clear(er) mind and realize I never should have said/done any of that.

(Also, side note: when I first watched that ep and I saw Liz screaming at Red not to touch her?? I’d actually thought they were depicting her as being touch-averse due to the trauma and/or overstimulation, and I was?!! Like, call me badly coping but I appreciate seeing characters not being comfortable or straight-up being aggressive about being touched, even for just a moment, because that is me 24/7. Then of course a few more seconds and it turns out it’s not actually that?? Liz is just repulsed by Red’s Bad Guyness again apparently?? Whenever I rewatch the ep I still choose to see it as overstimulation though because, well… my heart is clearly very talented at choosing comfort characters for me. 🥲🥲🥲)

So speaking from personal experience, coming out of a trauma (or revisiting an unresolved one) is so stressful that it’s only natural to react explosively—even to the extent of unfairness and unreasonableness—in an attempt to protect or heal yourself, whether that attempt be justified or not. And honestly, I could even make the argument that for Liz, her attempt was to some extent justified. Of course Red would never hurt her, but sometimes a person needs breathing space. Like, literally needs. Maybe for the sake of her mental stability/health, Liz should have had her first moments coming up from her trance to herself. Does that make sense?? IDK if I made any sense there; I just know that while I never could have gotten to the place I’m at now without the EVENTUAL professional and personal support I’ve been blessed with, I also can’t fathom how much more mental anguish I would have experienced if I’d had people who knew me (or like, the “closest person” in Liz’s case) see me in the immediate aftermath of my trauma. Just… The state I was in? Yikes, am I glad only I saw myself pull myself together; I’d have had so much more to worry about with others seeing me like that. That might just be me and totally inapplicable to Liz of course, so I digress!

I’m not saying Liz isn’t responsible for her words/actions simply because they happened while she was in utter emotional upheaval and under mental and physical duress—Red definitely did NOT deserve that treatment from her. He did NOTHING WRONG. But with that kind of complex angst comes the inevitably mixed but nonetheless potent reactions of fans, I completely understand that. Everyone has different experiences and thus different viewpoints, and that’s fine and totally healthy in my book. Still, something about that discussion struck a chord with me—you can (and should) hold someone accountable for the harm they do while mentally unstable, but it’s possible and also healthy to do that without, yourself, harboring anger or resentment against them, you know? I had to teach myself (and those around me) that, so I guess I just wanted to put it out there. Again, I don’t mean to start anything and I’m so, so sorry if I inadvertently have. I hope it’s okay that I came here to explain my thoughts (and so wordily too, ack I’m sorry), and if not, I won’t anymore. Thank you for hearing me out this time though, I really appreciate it. :)

Dear anon!! 🤗🥰❤️ Firstly, I want to thank you for your kindness & respect for other's opinions!! This ask was worded in the sweetest, most considerate way & I appreciate it very much!! There's absolutely no need to apologize for having your own opinion & perspective, especially when you share & explain it so nicely, so never fear!! 😊❤️ Moving on to the meat of your ask - which is in regards to this previous one - you make such a good point!! When you look at it that way, the Luther Braxton Post-Memory-Unearthing Screaming Explosion is perhaps Liz's most justifiable negative reaction in the series LOL I guess looking back from where we are now - knowing all about & being completely fed up with all of Liz's awful writing & characterization in the subsequent seasons - it's easy to dismiss her reaction in Luther Braxton as something unreasonable & irritating & unfair to Red (which, to some extent - as you graciously allow - it is). But - as you generously point out - while that's a valid way of looking at it, it's also definitely worth examining from another point of view!! And I think your point of view (in everything ofc, but particularly in this) is so valuable!! I can relate at least on some level... I have definitely snapped at people, even those trying to help me, verbally & otherwise, when I lost my temper & just needed some space!! In fact, I think that's a pretty universal stress reaction & it's not necessarily something to be super ashamed of (but definitely something to be aware of & work on - a good reminder for us all!!) & it's definitely not a stretch to imagine Liz was going through something similar after being effectively water-boarded & having her memories so unceremoniously rifled through!! And, after all, Liz has one thing we generally don't... a perfect, convenient, willing catalyst for all the negative things in her life: Red (however undeserving of that title he may be.)

(And re: sidenote of touch-averse!Liz - Omg, I definitely thought about that being their angle at first too!! While I don't usually default to reacting that way myself [kind of the opposite for me usually LOL] I know that plenty of people do & it's 1000% valid as a coping mechanism & honestly??? A touch-averse Liz would be one of the more realistic reactions she's ever had 😂😭 especially considering the circumstances!! And hey, no shame about gravitating towards that interpretation bc it's 1) less painful for you & 2) you like comfort characters bc you 👏 do 👏 you 👏 but also?? I can't say anything bc the reason that I like that interpretation??? I love the angst of an overwhelmed & touch-averse!Liz unintentionally shattering Red's heart by completely rejecting his well-meaning physical comfort anddddd I'm not sure what that says about me tbh 😂😂😂)

Long story short, anon, you made perfect sense here, not to worry!! You were so respectful & cognizant of others' feelings, thank you so much for that, it doesn't go unnoticed!! You bring such a good point to the discussion with your perspective & outlook & I'm so thankful you chose to contribute!! I loved reading your thoughts & don't worry at all about the length, I appreciate your thoroughness!! (Plus, we all know I'm hardly one to talk, I never use one word when twenty will do 😂) Please don't hesitate to come back to my inbox any time to discuss whatever you like, I always love a little bit of friendly TBL conversation, especially since the show as we know it is so abruptly & unexpectedly over 😭 Yes, still grappling with that, in case you were wondering 🥲 Anyway, thank you again for your lovely ask, anon, I appreciate you greatly, & much, much love to you, of course, my friend!! ❤️

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celestianstars · 5 years

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Unrequited

Florian Munteanu x Reader

Warnings: angst, small crumbs of fluff if you look hard lol

For the anon who requested an unrequited love mini fic of Florian.

(I’ve also got a Viktor fanfic started so that will be done sometime soon btw!)

Sorry in advance for the sadness!

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Acting like you weren’t in love with the man you were sleeping with was the most difficult thing to keep up with.

Meeting Florian was a dream; one minute you were being invited to sit with him and his friends at the shisha lounge they always frequented, and the next you had a friends with benefits type thing with him.

He was just so easy to be around, the man had a charm about him that could suck anybody up and you felt lucky enough to get to be pleasured by him and feel safe and appreciated and understood along with it.

You just weren’t sure when that easy going, no strings attached situation had turned into you wanting more.

It shouldn’t have happened considering that he told you that he wasn’t looking for a long term relationship at the moment, his career was really taking off and he just wanted something casual and fun and in the beginning that was perfectly fine for you but now...it hurt you more and more to keep the secret.

He noticed the shift in your interactions with him too despite your best efforts to stop thinking about him that way.

It was only a suspicion when you held onto his waist as he was getting up from your bed after one particularly hot night together but he tried to write it off as you just feeling a little clingier than usual.

“It’s early Y/N, you should go back to sleep. I need to be at the gym soon.” he wasn’t cold about it, gentle as ever actually, as he pried your hands from his torso, tucking you back in bed.

Usually anytime he’d have to get up early you’d wake up from hearing him move around but would just wish him a good day and eventually fall back asleep but lately you wanted as much of him as you could get and tried to bargain with him for a few extra minutes in bed.

He got a confirmation of his suspicions when you kept asking to go with him to clubs or movie premieres to which he would always hesitate and tell you no. The fight that came after one too many “no”’s seeming to set everything straight.

“Why won’t you ever let me be seen with you in public Flo? Are you embarrassed or something?” you were trying not to seem irritated but in truth, you were.

Your body language gave you away, slight scowl on your face, arms crossed, leaning against the hallway of his apartment, watching him move between his room and the bathroom.

He was getting ready to go out with some friends he hadn’t seen in a few months and you decided to ask one more time because maybe this time he’d want your company too, only to get the same excuse of it being just a guy’s night.

“I’m not embarrassed Y/N, come on don’t be like that. I just know people would talk and there would be pictures of us everywhere and...” he sighed heavily, stopping to look at you for a second as he said it but you cut him off.

“Since when have you ever been concerned about what people say about you? You’ve literally always said that you know who your true friends are and their opinions are what really matter. So that brings me back to my original question, you don’t want to be seen with me do you? What, are you worried about what your friends are gonna say about me? That means you’re embarrassed!” you huffed.

“How many times do I have to tell you, I’m not embarrassed! I just don’t think it would be a good idea.”

“Not a good idea? What the fuck, Florian. Why is it a bad idea, please explain, is it because you think people will say I’m using you for money even when we both know I own a successful business and make a nice amount of money and can take care of myself? Or would people think I’m ugly and you secretly think I’m not attractive enough to be seen with your movie star self, huh?” you rolled your eyes at him, your level of annoyance going up by the second.

He stopped brushing his beard to look at you, not saying anything but just looking. He could see the secret in your eyes, you were falling for him, that’s what this entire thing was about and he knew for sure now.

“Will you stop? You know I don’t think you’re unattractive in any way and I admire you for being your own boss. I meant that people would think we were together, and we’re not and I don’t wanna deal with questions and rumors.” he frowned and went back to fixing up his beard in the bathroom mirror.

You weren’t sure what else you were expecting him to say because you knew it was the truth but it hurt you nonetheless.

There was nothing at fault with what he was saying, you knew this, but maybe you’d been holding out hope that he would admit feelings for you too.

How could you let yourself get to this point?

You knew what you were getting into the minute he took you back to his place the night you first met and now you were hurting and not sure what to do about any of it.

You were silent for a long time before speaking again, choosing your words carefully.

“You’re right, we’re not together but...maybe...we could...be together some day?” you could barely bring yourself to look him in the eyes but he wasn’t saying anything and you could read his face like a book so you decided to face it.

And there it was. The heaviness in his eyes mixed with a frown, his eyebrows knit together, revealing that no, in fact, you couldn’t be together in that way.

He didn’t want to hurt you, that was the last thing he wanted to do, he may be seen as a fuckboy to some but that wasn’t who he was and it pained him to see your hopes being dashed down because of him.

“I....listen Y/N, you would be a great partner, you really would but I can’t do that. I don’t think I’m very good at relationships and my attention is on so many other things...I’m traveling so much lately too...” he leaned against the hallway wall, trying to be more at eye level with you because now you really couldn’t meet his gaze.

The mood in the room had shifted completely, all your irritability at his responses earlier morphing into sadness.

You were afraid you were going to start crying, the lump in your throat making it hard to speak up despite the avalanche of things you wanted to say.

“F...Florian...even if it was hard sometimes we could still make it work. But you don’t feel that way towards me, I’m more in love with you and you’re...not at all.” you felt your hands shake and you had to squeeze them together, hoping he didn’t notice that you were really struggling to keep it together.

He was just a guy. You tried to tell yourself that over and over, he was just a guy that you got too attached to but it was going to be ok because there were plenty of others out there, right?

But it was all such bullshit. Sure he was just a guy and he had flaws like any person but he was the first person to have treated you right even though you were just casually seeing each other, he treated you right.

“I’m sorry...I wish I could fix this but yes...I’m not in love with you.” he reached out to touch you, try and comfort you but you pushed his hand away.

It would only hurt more if he touched you.

He could tell that he was already hurting you and it killed him inside. He wasn’t in love with you but he still cared about you, you were still close to him personally and he didn’t want to lose your friendship.

“I don’t want to make this worse, Y/N, but maybe we shouldn’t fuck anymore. Just be friends. I don’t want to make you feel even worse by still sleeping with you and not being able to give you what you want.” he backed off a little, giving you some space to process.

The levee had broken and your tears were evident now, not being able to stop them from coming.

Hearing the last thing he said was what did it because it was what you feared second to him rejecting a relationship. He was right and you couldn’t argue his point, but it hurt all the same because everything had come crashing down in a matter of minutes.

You nodded and wiped your tears away hastily.

“I’m sorry, I never ever want to make you cry but I know you want me to be honest with you.” he hated this entire situation, not attempting to physically reach out again but wanting desperately to comfort you and make this better.

“It’s...o...ok Florian. I get it. You’re right actually, we shouldn’t sleep together anymore and it’s ok I promise. Um...I guess you better get going then, you’re gonna be late to the party. I’ll get all my stuff laying around here and...leave...leave the key under the mat before you get back.” you hiccuped, still shaking but trying to put on a brave face, knowing that if you didn’t start cutting your ties with him you would break down even more.

“That’s fine, take as much time as you need. I’m sorry again, I didn’t want this to be so painful but...you’re still a good friend, Y/N. And you’ll be with someone who deserves you better than me.” he spoke to you gently.

His gentleness with you even when this was probably awkward for him sent a pang through your heart.

He wasn’t cold about any of this for a single second, listening to what you had to say and trying to find a solution without intentionally hurting you unlike so many before him.

He said he wasn’t good at relationships but you knew for fact that he was because he didn’t try and push you away or say something hurtful because your confession annoyed him and he didn’t want to deal with it, he respected you enough to deal with it maturely and be mindful of how you felt while also telling you his own feelings.

You wanted him more than ever now but this was ending and you couldn’t allow yourself to dwell on it at this second, later you’d fall apart but not in front of him.

He stuck around a few extra minutes, making sure good you were both leaving on good terms and alright with just being friends now before you urged him to go already, have fun with his friends.

He held out his arms for you to embrace him and this time you accepted his touch, knowing this was probably the last time you’d hug him like he was yours and only yours, his sturdy arms wrapping around you, giving you a small squeeze before letting you go.

Flashes of memories came to the forefront of your mind as he said goodbye and stepped out of his apartment, leaving you to walk around and collect every piece of yourself you’d left here.

You let the sobs rack your chest as you went from room to room, remembering days you’d spent here, endless conversations and moments wrapped up in his arms, your lips and body on his, now everything feeling hollow and distant.

No trace of you was left behind as you gathered all the items you’d left at his place and locked the door, sliding his spare key under the mat and heading back to your own apartment to call your best friend and sit with your grief for awhile.

He said you’d find someone who you deserved better than him but if you were being honest, all you wanted and felt like you deserved, was him, there was no other, better person in your eyes.

He was all you wanted and it was gone now.

You cursed yourself for opening your mouth about it, for not trying to dig your heels in and get over those feelings and focus on keeping it casual but of course you had to fall hard and tell him about it.

There was nothing you could do now but try and accept it for what it was.

You were miles apart from each other now but the tiniest fluttering little bird of hope in your chest told you that maybe, just maybe, you’d find your way back to each other one day.

#let’s just imagine this as a bad dream so it doesn’t hurt as much lol sorry y’all 😩#amalia writes #florian munteanu fanfiction #florian munteanu

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whitewolfofwinterfell · 5 years

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hey, shannen! regarding your last post about skins (effy/cook): it's really interesting to hear other opinions. Personally, I liked that that specific pair didn't end up together; I always thought their relationship was too dysfunctional and damaging to make a good fit! But I have to admit, I didn't watch all of the fire/ice etc episodes and maybe it's been too long to remember s3/s4 correctly haha;) just love to hear your take on it if you find some time! best wishes :)

Hey there, anon!

I couldn’t have recieved this ask at a better time, because I literally just finished re-watching seasons 3 and 4 of Skins yesterday!

Thanks for sending this ask, I always love to discuss these topics and I’ve never really had the opportunity to discuss Cook and Effy in-depth before. Strap yourself in, because this is pretty lengthy, but hopefully you’ll enjoy reading my take on it. :)

Cook and Effy are a very complicated ship for me, because part of me thinks they’re very toxic and that practically they could never work as a couple. However, the other part of me thinks that they were only portrayed that way on the surface, and that in actuality, there is no basis for thinking that. Cook and Effy absolutely could’ve worked together if the show had given them that opportunity.

Personally, I don’t think it was their relationship that was dysfunctional or damaging, but Cook and Effy themselves. As people, Cook and Effy were both deeply damaged people by the time they met in season 3. Having known Effy from seasons 1 and 2, we know that she suffered from some form of Selective Mutism and that she generally had a lot of emotional difficulties in regards to opening up to and connecting to others. Nothing describes that as well as her line in season 2 when she said, “Sometimes I think I was born backwards, you know, came out my mum the wrong way. I hear words go past me backwards. The people I should love I hate, and the people I hate–” In seasons 1 and 2 Effy was around 14-15 years old and she was already demonstrating reckless and self-destructive behaviours - regularly taking drugs, having sex with people she barely knew and generally entering into dangerous situations (e.g. Spencer in 1x08) with no regard for her safety or well-being. Also, at the end of season 1, she suffered the trauma of seeing Tony get hit by the bus, which we know hugely impacted her because she made reference to it in season 4.

As for Cook, although we never physically get to see his past in the same way we do with Effy, we know enough to know that his childhood was far from happy and that it deeply affected him. His mother was a neglectful and unstable alcoholic who was known for having sex with men for money and his father abandoned him when he was a young child (we also know he was a complete asshole from his appearance in the season 3 finale). He had an uncle, who was a bigoted drug dealer who not only supplied him with drugs but encouraged him to partake in it. Everything we know about Cook’s family suggests that he was neglected and it’s very likely that he raised himself for the most part, which explains why emotionally he was closed off, afraid to connect to others and incapable of maintaining healthy relationships (this was particularly clear with his friendships with Freddie and JJ).

So, to summarise, Cook and Effy are two people that both struggled (for different reasons) with emotionally connecting to people and that were terrified of opening themselves up to love because they didn’t want to get hurt. Their relationship for the majority of season 3 (up until 3x08) was a manifestation of that inability to forge connections and/or fear of it. It was a shallow relationship built almost exclusively on sex, and although some may perceive it as unhealthy, it wasn’t. It was a mutual understanding between two people whose reasons for being together were the same - they were using each other.

For Effy, her sexual relationship with Cook was all about avoiding and repressing her feelings for Freddie. We know this because Effy said in 4x05 that she knew from the very first time she saw Freddie he was the closest she would ever get to being close and in 3x07 Cook revealed whilst under the influence of “truth” pills that Effy was having sex with him because she couldn’t stand the fact that she loved Freddie.

With Cook, his reasons for entering into a sexual relationship with Effy were simply because he was attracted to her (which we know from the first moment he saw her) and that was what Cook did and was used to doing - he had casual sex with lots of girls. Cook’s perception of sex was a clear indicator of the complex emotional issues he had. His obsession with having sex was a result of him desperate craving intimacy whilst simultaneously being afraid of it. He had sex to attempt to have that intimacy with another person, but then labelled it as casual and meaningless to invalidate that intimacy and close himself off to it.

When looking at it like this, it might seem ridiculous that I then claim that their relationship wasn’t damaging, because it certainly wasn’t what constitutes a healthy relationship, but by the same token, it wasn’t bad either. From the first time they had sex, there was a mutual understanding between Cook and Effy that their relationship was just no-strings attached sex. There was no manipulation or coercion, it was all consensual and mutual. As their relationship continued, it became complicated because feelings got involved and both of them were hurt by each other, but it was the kind of hurt all relationships experience and nothing particularly awful. In season 3, Effy was hurt when she found out Cook was sleeping with Pandora but she knew that she and Cook weren’t exclusive and that they could both sleep with whoever they wanted. Effy’s reaction to that was much more about Pandora’s betrayal, as her best friend, than Cook’s. And Cook was hurt continuously by Effy’s feelings for Freddie and her relationship with him. Besides that, there was nothing that happened between Cook and Effy that constitutes damaging. In fact, I’d argue that Effy’s relationship with Freddie was much more damaging to her than her relationship with Cook was. What I’m trying to say is that Cook and Effy’s relationship was exactly what a friends-with-benefits or casual-sex-buddy relationship looks like, and therefore not dysfunctional. Even when their relationship developed beyond the casual type due to Cook falling in love with Effy, it was still what any non-reciprocated relationship is. Cook was heartbroken, he attempted to express his love for her on occasions and she made it clear that she didn’t return his feelings in a respectful but firm way (excluding 4x07 when she rudely told him to piss off after he told her he loved her, which always really bugged me because it felt so OOC).

Regarding your comment about Cook and Effy not being a great fit, I’ve actually always felt the opposite. Although they’re very similar (x) and the popular saying is that opposites attract, I think Cook and Effy worked together really well. I don’t think we got to see just how well they could’ve worked, because they were never truly together and most of their relationship was about the triangle with Freddie/Effy. Effy said in 4x07 that Cook was never good for her, but I never understood that because there’s absolutely nothing to support that claim. If you look close enough, you can see how good they were together. The two of them actually spent a lot of time together, although we never see it on-screen, it’s spoken about or hinted at. For example, in 3x08 Cook turned up at Effy’s house and was on a first name basis with her mom and had brought groceries to cook for her, suggesting he spent a lot of time at her house (and not always in her bedroom since he knows her mom) and also that they did do other things other than just have sex. Cook also knew that Effy’s favourite film was E.T. which means they either watched it together or Effy told him. At the end of season 3 they spent a significant amount of time (we can assume weeks, maybe even months) on the run together, only in the company of each other. My point is, they clearly got on well and knew each other too. Whenever Cook and Effy had scenes that weren’t the melodramatic angsty type that Skins is well known for, they were light and natural together (x). Throughout the whole of the season 3 finale (which is a very Ceffy centric episode), they worked. If you take the Freddie/love triangle drama out of the equation, they were affectionate towards each other, they had fun, Effy was supportive and protective over Cook when it came to his dad and Cook was making plans for his future with Effy (to get a job and a boat). Putting aside their individual issues (which I mentioned above), when Cook and Effy were together they were good together. Even if they were just having sex, that was okay, because it was what they both wanted. They knew how to have fun and be in a moment together, and that was what drew them together from the beginning, because they could lose themselves in a moment and forget about everything else. Also, for all their similarities, Cook didn’t have the same depressive tendencies as Effy and was able to keep her on an even keel more so than anybody else (this is particularly obvious in comparison to Freddie, who I felt fed Effy’s depression). That’s why I find it so strange that there’s this perception that Cook was wrong or bad for her, because firstly, Cook never actually did anything to warrant him being “bad” for her. He drank too much, did drugs too much, partied too much but so did Effy, so did Freddie, so did every character on the show (excluding JJ). Cook never did anything to push Effy to a dark place, he never did anything to hurt her or harm her in anyway. Everything they did together was what Effy was doing before she met Cook and what she did with everybody else. In fact, I sincerely believe that Cook was capable of helping Effy and reaching her emotionally more than anybody else. In 4x07 when Effy was in a fragile mental state, she trusted Cook (despite not knowing him because of some hypnosis bullshit her psychopathic therapist did to her) and later in on the episode Cook was the one that brought her back.

As for Cook and Effy ending up together, I believe 100% that they should’ve been together, even if they hadn’t stayed together. If I had been in charge of the show, I would’ve completely scrapped the Freddie/Effy relationship and pursued a Cook/Effy romance from the beginning. From my perspective, it made complete sense that these two damaged people that were unable to emotionally connect would strike up a causal sexual relationship and eventually come to fall in love. Obviously, it wouldn’t have been a straightforward road for them or a particularly happy relationship, but it would’ve been very interesting to watch their ups and downs. Cook loved Effy completely, she was the first and only girl he had ever loved, and that was significant for his character and to have her return that love would’ve led to development for both of them. Skins as a show is all about young love and it’s realistic in its portrayal of that. All of the Skins relationships have their problems and none of them last (because the reality is a lot of young relationships don’t last as their lives go in different directions), so I couldn’t see Cook and Effy’s relationship lasting and them staying together, even if they had been together in seasons 3 and 4. Season 7, however, is a completely different story.

I’m a huge Skins fan and have been since I was a young teenager, but I strongly dislike season 7 and the choices that were made. In my opinion, to bring Effy and Cook back for the final season and not have them interact was criminal. Regardless of Effy’s romantic relationship with Freddie, Effy and Cook were strongly connected and fans would have loved to have seen them reunite. Since you didn’t watch season 7, you won’t be aware of how Cook and Effy developed, so I’ll briefly summarise. In season 7, Cook and Effy had both hugely mellowed in comparison to how they were in seasons 3 and 4, whilst keeping their core personalities. In season 7, Cook and Effy as a couple would’ve just worked. It was a chance to explore their unfulfilled potential and finally make the most of Kaya and Jack’s chemistry whilst remaining respectful to the Freddie/Effy relationship. If I could’ve written season 7 I would have had Cook be on the run (like he was in Rise) and Effy pursuing him because she’s seeking answers about Freddie’s disappearance. I would’ve had the two reunite and have Cook fall to pieces, because it’s Effy - the only girl he’s ever loved - and she brings to the surface everything he’s been keeping bottled up. But I would have him suppress those emotions and react angrily to her having found him, telling her she was stupid for looking for him and that she should’ve let it go. I’d have Effy respond angrily telling him that she couldn’t let it go and that since he and Freddie have gone everything’s gone to shit. Eventually, Cook would tell her the truth about what happened with Freddie and the therapist, and then in their grief-stricken and heightened emotional state they sleep together. Afterwards, Effy is conflicted because on the one hand she’s still grieving for Freddie but on the other, her feelings for Cook are resurfacing and the fact that Cook loves Freddie and is grieving him too means that they’re connected in a unique way. I would then have Cook get angry at Effy (again, because let’s face it, this is Cook lol), tell her to leave and go back to her life and forget about him like she should’ve done the first time, that he deserves to be punished and on the run for the rest of his life for what he did. Then Effy defends his actions saying Freddie’s death was her fault, she was the one that brought the doctor into their life and when Cook killed him he was only defending himself. I would’ve had Effy choose to stay with Cook and live with him on the run because she feels she has nothing at home to go back for. At that point, they wouldn’t be together, but the implication would clearly be there. It wouldn’t be a happy ending and it would be open ended, but I think it would’ve worked perfectly. Not only would it have provided the fans (and Cook and Effy) with closure for Freddie’s death, but would’ve explored that potential of Cook and Effy and ended on a semi-positive note.

One final thing I wanted to talk about, is that despite the fact that I think Cook and Effy were a good fit and definitely weren’t dysfunctional, shipping Cook and Effy isn’t about happy endings or them being ‘good’ for each other or even ending up together. The appeal of the ship (for me, at least) is the messiness and realness of it. When two people have such complex and unresolved issues as Cook and Effy, it’s impossible to be in a healthy, happy, functioning relationship, because they’re not those things themselves. However, Cook and Effy show what love can be when it’s not neat or simple or easily defined. They also show that you can love another person with your whole heart despite feeling broken inside. Plus, Cook and Effy had such a palpable chemistry, history and connection that it’s difficult for me not to ship them and root for them to be together, even if only temporarily.

#answered #my meta #skins meta

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I FUCKING WILL (im so sorry followers)

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

Meagan

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I’m pretty outgoing

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Family again

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Depends if you have the same sense of humor as me. If we don’t, I can come off a bit strong. If we do, we’ll be just fine.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Lmao no

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

My type seems to be “can kill me with their pinky and has colorful hair”

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Who knows? Gotta stay positive :)

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

My friend Mandy :P

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not even a little

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Probably Royce over at @hero-of-pixels

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“fIGHT ME”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

The Dirt Whispered by Rise Against

R U Mine? by Arctic Monkeys

Looking Too Closely by Fink

Pedal to the Metal by Lazerhawk

Royals by Lorde (its old but fight me)

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

yES

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I believe that sometimes rare things happen for no particular reason at all.

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I moved to Edmonton!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Ye!

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I hold the popular belief that our known realm is so unfathomably big that to presume that no other instance of creation could result in life other than our own is unlikely and unreasonable.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

HELL NAH we’re nothing a like I only liked her bc she was quirky

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Hell yeah, I need to take more of those.

20. Do you like your neighbors?

The guy in the room next to me sings opera after 11 pm which was funny for the first week but not it really sucks.

21. What are you bad habits?

Biting my nails, coping in unhealthy ways, blaming myself for other people being dumb.

22. Where would you like to travel?

Europe, just all of it.

23. Do you have trust issues?

Yeye

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Getting home :P

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Chest

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Take meds and get ready for class.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

In the summer I get tanned to the same tone my dad is and I like the colour because it allows me to actually have people believe me when I tell them that I’m very native (which I am).

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

I really don’t know anymore, sorry.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Literally not one, not once.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Dude getting married would be so rad like being bound to someone you love n shit? Rad.

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Nah

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Eliza Taylor and Emma Stone probs.

33. Spell your name with your chin.

your name with your chin

also

ol8iuvfc

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I play competitive dodgeball.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV easily

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

ALL the time honestly.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

I’ll either say something weird to draw attention like “how many times would a dude have to fuck a soup for it to become a chowder” or say something obviously awkward like “so.....nice weather huh?”

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I like short girls, colorful hair, with a sharp wit and probably ten times smarter than me. A good sense of humor goes a long way.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Steam, Amazon, and DMV

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I am attending University

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

I believe if they have earned it and genuinely want change.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I am either very distressed or very uncomfortable.

43. Do you smile at strangers?

I do!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Launch me into space. I don’t even need a space suit just fucken do it.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Dedication and motivation to improve myself.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Being out of the loop or different.

47. Have you ever been high?

Yep

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Yep

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Not particularly

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Navy blue :P

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

I did, and do here and there.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

Appearance.

53. Favourite makeup brand?

I don’t use enough to give an opinion.

54. Favourite store?

I could spend hours in a boardgame cafe.

55. Favourite blog?

erudit0.tumblr.com

56. Favourite colour?

BLUUUUE

57. Favourite food?

I would sell my body for a good stir fry.

58. Last thing you ate?

French fries

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Subway

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

We won a dodgeball tournament earlier in the year.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

I called my religion teacher in my christian school a creepy racist sexist homophobic pig.

62. Been arrested? For what?

A friend of mine was in an ambulance and I covered for him for police (EMTs knew everything though)

63. Ever been in love?

I think so.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

We were drunk and she was hot.

65. Are you hungry right now?

I’m currently eating, but yes.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t really have any tumblr friends, but a couple people on here are super cool :)

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Royce, Mandy, Alice, and Max

71. Craving something? What?

Attention and validation, also stir fry.

72. What colour are your towels?

Gray

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Two

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

I have a distinct lack of stuffed animals.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Like one.

75. Favourite animal?

I’m a fan of Owls.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Gray

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Oreo

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Blue

80. What colour pants?

Blue jeans

81. Favourite tv show?

I’m really liking Brooklyn Nine-Nine

82. Favourite movie?

I really like Inception, Serenity, Rogue One, and The Grand Budapest Hotel

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Never seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

I’ve only seen 21 Jump Street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

The mom is Amy Poehler so that’s cool

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

CRUSH

87. First person you talked to today?

Alice

88. Last person you talked to today?

You, anon.

89. Name a person you hate?

Trump

90. Name a person you love?

My friends

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

A few, but I don’t resort to violence unless in self-defence

92. In a fight with someone?

Yeah.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

A lot cause I love myself.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

A lot cause I love myself

95. Last movie you watched?

Rogue One

96. Favourite actress?

I have a lot of respect for Ellen Page

97. Favourite actor?

Keanu Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeves

98. Do you tan a lot?

I naturally tan in the summer.

99. Have any pets?

I have a cat and a dog back home.

100. How are you feeling?

I’m holding up

101. Do you type fast?

Not as fast as I used to.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

I try not to, but yes.

103. Can you spell well?

I like to think I can.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

See 102.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yep!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Unfortunately I have

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Hell yeah

108. What should you be doing?

Homework

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

YEP

111. Do you have trust issues?

You already asked this

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Jon

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Toucey (pronounced Tukey)

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Ye!

115. Do you play the Wii?

Not often

116. Are you listening to music right now?

I am!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

There’s better soup

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ye!

119. Favourite book?

The Hunger Games

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

I used to be but I’m good now.

121. Are you mean?

I can come off as mean but I honestly don’t intend to.

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Only if the cheater is in a situation that it would be unsafe for them to be upfront.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Nah

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Nope, that would be lust

125. Do you believe in true love?

I do

126. Are you currently bored?

A bit, but I might go in the lounge to fix that.

127. What makes you happy?

Friends, creating, feeling accepted

128. Would you change your name?

Nope!

129. What your zodiac sign?

Gemini but like, but less than 2 hours from Cancer

130. Do you like subway?

Yes to both kinds.

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

That would literally never happen

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Answered

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“This one’s for the boys with the boomin’ system, top down AC with the coolin’ system”

134. Can you count to one million?

Probably? Never tried.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I’m not high

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed and locked

137. How tall are you?

6′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Curly :D

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Brunette

140. Summer or Winter?

Summer

141. Night or Day?

Night

142. Favourite month?

June

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

White chocolate!

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee

146. Was today a good day?

It was alright

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“ “Destiny guides our fortunes more favorably than we could have expected. Look there, Sancho Panza, my friend, and see those thirty or so wild giants, with whom I intend to do battle and kill each and all of them, so with their stolen booty we can begin to enrich ourselves. This is nobel, righteous warfare, for it is wonderfully useful to God to have such an evil race wiped from the face of the earth.""What giants?" Asked Sancho Panza."The ones you can see over there," answered his master, "with the huge arms, some of which are very nearly two leagues long.""Now look, your grace," said Sancho, "what you see over there aren't giants, but windmills, and what seems to be arms are just their sails, that go around in the wind and turn the millstone.""Obviously," replied Don Quijote, "you don't know much about adventures.” ― Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra, Don Quixote “

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

I’m not sure

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“The announcement from the Ministry of Plenty ended on another trumpet call andgave way to tinny music. Parsons, stirred to vague enthusiasm by the bombardmentof figures, took his pipe out of his mouth.“

1984, George Orwell

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THERE YOU GO

#long post #Anonymous

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