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walpu · 8 days

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walp walp hear me out

remember that trailblazer scene with firefly and how she just just gets stabby stabbed by the creature (memory zone meme i think)

and + Aventurine having access to the 'real' dreamscape, combine that with bodyguard! reader who will go through hell and back to make sure Aventurine will. Live.

reader follows aven during the entirety of the Penacony quest, including when Black Swan teleports the both of them to the real memory zone. (also, does anyone else feel like bodyguard! reader and Trailblazer would be besties... no, just me?)

now, keep in mind, Aven and reader have a... complicated bond. IPC workers here and there say their dating, the Trailblazer has straightup asked if they would just get a room (you get their vibe, you can go along with the secret assassin! bodyguard! reader req i sent in)

a little bit more insight on their dynamic (again, going with the assassin reader thing, its already known between the two atp, so this can be set after that period), Aven wants to love reader, wants to hold them close, and wants their affection, but dammit, he just cant bring himself to. Not when he's sure he'll just hurt everyone that comes close to him (his sister, cough cough)

and reader has the same mindset, they love Aven, as a boss, as that annoying but endearing friend, and perhaps as more. But they have blood, the lives of people that they've unlawfully taken, not to mention, they are 100% sure Aven would never love a person who killed just for monetary income.

now, here's where the real show starts. There's also another assassin (seriously, Duke Inferno should save his manpower) following reader and Aven. Safe to say, only one is making it out alive. How the assassin followed the two of them? No fucking clue, but somehow it does.

After i assume beating the living shit out of hordes of memory zone monsters, the assassin appears, and just when Aventurine's unsuspecting?? Boom, goes in for the kill.

Yeah, too bad. Aven's not dying. But reader is! Yeah, in a act of (cliche) protection, reader allowed themselves to be the one to suffer from the attack. (Bonus if they get decapitated, or just stabbed like how Trailblazer was by Cocolia). Aven will never forget the way that he just- watched reader's body fall, the light just gone from their eyes.

Anyways, he doesn't even get to hold their body. You just- poof into bubbles like Firefly did. The last thing he has left of his beloved bodyguard? Just a simple red earring, matching the one he wore. Nothing left.

Okay, im also going to cope here that the whole shitshow with Aven and Acheron did not happen, he returns to the room that reader had, and he just... stands there. He takes in the way that half of the room was messy, half of it was untouched. So much like them, unpredictable and just had a touch of the weirdness he loved so damn much.

(Bonus if you want a happy scenario, reader's alive and well, afterall, dying in the dreamscape doesn't kill anyone. Reader is probably smiling very awkwardly while they stare at a teary eyed Aventurine, then they make out /hj)

yay another rant, i had this idea for days, the decapitation part may or may not have been plaguing me (should i be concerned), anyways, thanks for listening to my word vomit, stay safe and stay healthy <33

feel like falling on my knees and begging to forgive me for taking so long this spring doesn't let me breath istg. I've got this request before 2.1 and only got to it now that's why Aven is ghosting me.

bodyguard!reader "dying" in the dreamscape to protect Aventurine

sort of a sequel to this but can be read as a separate work as well, the main thing you need to know is that reader was originally an assassin sent by Duke Inferno but they've changed their mind and stayed by Aven's side

notes - gn!reader, angst, unestablished relationship, no beta

You both knew the trip to Penacony would be difficult. You, in particular, knew that something big and very sinister is coming, judging by the way Aventurine danced around the subject, not giving you full information.

You may not know all the details of Aventurine's plan but you know him well enough to realize that he's planning on doing something extremely reckless and dangerous.

So you do your best to protect him. To shiels him from any possible danger, to keep him within your reach.

Of course Aventirune notices. How can he not notice when he already keeps his eye on you most of the time anyway. And just as you're trying to look out for him, he wants to looks out for you.

This mission already could be considered suicidal and he doesn't want you to be caught in this. Better to keep you in the dark, away from it.

Yet he can't help but selfishly enjoy your attention, your tenderness. You go out of your ways to make sure he's fine and he feels so undeserving of it. How can you be so kind when he's keeping so much from you?

You've seen him at his worst and you've stayed. You've proven so many times that you care for him not because it's just your job, not because of his money or status but because it's him.

He still struggles to believe in it sometimes. When he feels doubtful , he rubs his cheek against your shoulder in a playful cat-like manner and watches your reaction. Amusement you're trying to hide. Adoration you can't hide.

How can he doubt you? You're the one who should be doubting him.

He wants to melt into you, to be even closer than the two of you already are, but how can he love you without putting you in danger? Without draining your luck, without cursing you?

Sometimes he sees the same struggles in your eyes. When you carefully trace his face with the tips of your gloved fingers, your gaze sometimes lowers and you pull your hand away, as if you're ashamed.

But of what, of what? The blood on your hands? He has it too!

He wants to tell you this, to hold you tight, to never ever let go. The wish is so primal that everyone else can see. The memokeeper giving him a knowing smile as soon as she sees you two together, the masked fool taunting him about the only one willing to listen to him being his loyal dog ("though, judging by the way you look at them, little peacock, you're the one on the leash here~" she says. It feels like even a lower blow than the comments about his past. At least he expected those, but being taunted about his obvious feelings for is new), mx. Stellaron asking you two to get a room with a deadpun expression.

The worst one is the doctor though. Asking Aventurine to focus on the mission, then, in a softer tone, suggesting to tell you more about the plan. "It's foolish to keep it from your most trusted person, gambler. In the end, it may hurt them even more than your obsessive concerns".

If Ratio of all people gives you relationship advice you're doing soooo bad.

Yet Aventurine can't bring himself to listen to his words. He wants you safe and well, and he's sure (he's not sure) he's doing the right thing.

And yet he's wrong. He can't shield you, he can't. One of the richest people in the IPC, one of the Ten Stonehearts, the blessed one, yet he can't protect the one he loves no matter how much he tries. He's cursed, doomed, isn't he?

Damned Duke Inferno. He's dead, annihilated, and yet, somehow, one of his wretched dogs, his sneaky little assassin, finds you two in the depths of the memory zone. Such dedication to the cause!

There are two gunshots. Inferno's little rat and you strike at the same time. Them, aiming at Aventurine, and you, aiming at them. Only one bullet reaches it's target though.

It all happens so fast. You react immediately, covering Aventurine with your body. You move instinctively at the same second you shoot.

When their bullet hits you, you don't even feel it. Maybe because it's still a dreamland? The pain just won't come even though your back feels like it's on fire. You don't understand it yet but your body already starts disappearing.

All you can focus on is Aventurine's wide shocked eyes. His beautiful, beautiful eyes.

You smile weakly at him. That's all he can see before you're gone. He doesn't even have time to reach out to you, to hold you. As if he ever had the privilege of holding his loved ones in their final moments.

You just poof into the blue bubbles.

He rushes into the real world, in your room, praying to any deity that may here for you to be alive and well. It was a dream, not a real world. You can't die in a dream, not really. You weren't even killed by the memory zone meme, surely you're fine!

Yet you're not. You're not here, not anywhere in the hotel. You're truly gone.

He feels everything and nothing at the same time.

Of course, of course, of course he wasn't able to protect you!

How lucky he is, he has avoided death once again! His beloved died to protect him but he has survived! He's so blessed, truly, so blessed!

He finds himself on his knees, on the verge of hysterical laughter. The only thing you left behind is a small red earring he has gifted. And he clatches it so tightly his hand bleeds. Perhaps the pain is the only thing keeping him sane at this moment.

It feels like a cruel joke. It doesn't feel real, it shouldn't be real.

Wait... That's it! It isn't real. It's impossible to die in a dream! It was his theory all along, after all. It must be true. You just can't be dead, you can't, not you too.

His plan hasn't changed, he tells Ratio when he comes to check on Aventurine. He just needs to reach the real Penacony. To reach it and to find you there. You're strong and brave and so wonderful. You're out there somewhere, he just needs to help you to get back to the real world.

He holds into that idea like a madman. It doesn't matter how dangerous it is. It never did, to be honest. But now it's like he can't focus on anything else.

He hasn't feel so despaired in years. He just needs to find you, everything else is meaningless.

So when it's time for the final act, he gets on stage, fears not and doesn't look back.

He still holds his hand behind his back though. Clutching your earrings for dear life.

#i forgot if the bodies of those who died in the memory zone disappear #if not let's pretend the hounds took it for investigation #hsr #aventurine #reader insert #aventurine x reader #honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #walp's writing #no beta we die like sunday

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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months

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I’ve read through some of your old posts and I gotta say…I love me some angst. May I kindly, pretty please with a plastic cherry on top, ask for TADC gang with an S/O who abstracted a while back, but then they ‘respawn’ one day with a glitch affect about them, and their memory was totally wiped? Like it was their first day in the digital world? The glitch affect doesn’t hurt them or anyone like what happened to Ragetha and Pomni btw.

TADC cast x mended!reader

so funny story i was about to sit down and work on this about 4 hours ago but then my parents said they were going to watch the fnaf movie in the garage and i literally dropped everything and watched it so uh uh. the reason the grind stopped was because of fnaf movie and now im kinda tempted to pick up my fnaf fic again anyways! i did a similar post, here! jax and caines parts here will be short, really only focusing on the glitch aspect for them in this post, since the other half has already been written!

CAINE:

just got flashed with an image but you know that scene where the iron giant is trying to pick the boy up but hes like limp or something and the giant pulls back (ive never watched iron giant i just know this clip from a meme) i think it would be like that if he tried to poof your glitching away; but like. in an emotional way, if that makes sense. like its the same kind of carefulness and worry, i think... bonus if he does more damage than not

JAX:

honestly a little too scared to even touch you out of the deep seeded fear of getting all glitchy as well. like he knows it wont spread to him, but you know...

POMNI:

similar to jax i think she would instinctively avoid touching you even though she knows its fine... the whole hand thing making her overly cautious for future scenarios, you know? i think she would slip up and accidentally bring up something you and her did before you abstracted, or call you an endearing name before abruptly stopping herself and trailing off, sad stuff. grief makes her tear between wanting to find an exit faster and trying to make you remember/stay for you

RAGATHA:

poor girl :( i think she would genuinely try to make an effort to re/befriend you and try not to have her hopes too high for the two of you to get back together. if you hear about your past relationship and want to learn more about it, shell tell you what you want to know, but i doubt she would instantly start dating you again if you suggest the two of you trying to give the relationship a second shot... i think that would need some time

KINGER:

bro is gonna be going through it, first he loses his possible wife to abstraction and now he lost you.. got you back, but you dont remember anything. on top of that you look.. off.. sure it doesnt hurt you but it still looks like it would be uncomfortable, even if it isnt

stuck between longing to rekindle your old relationship and letting you go in order to allow himself to process this grief; the third option is potential abstraction for himself

ZOOBLE:

tries not to care. they want to forget everything like you did, they were finally starting to be normal after your abstraction. but now your back in a clean slate, mind wiped and memories gone. how does someone cope with that? as much as it hurts them they think it would be best for them to pretend you were a stranger again

GANGLE:

saying it again, poor girl. mix of pomni and ragatha here i think, like she keeps messing up and verbally reminiscing before realizing you cant relate to what shes saying anymore. will tell you anything you want to know about the past, but i think it would take a lot longer for her to consider getting with you again than ragatha. for both its kind of a "i dont want them to feel obligated to try because we were together once" type deal

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #digital circus x reader #caine x reader #jax x reader #pomni x reader #ragatha x reader #kinger x reader #zooble x reader #gangle x reader

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favvnsongs · 11 months

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getting into rvb is so funny you read all the meta, all the emotional posts, see all the fanart, maybe get a bit spoiled then you watch the first episode and your like.....this is it??! this is the show youre all going nuts over!!?? that cannot be correct, this is shitty machinima made in some dudes basement, and then 10 seasons later ur crying into ur pasta because the of worlds worst wife guy made an ai and it got sad.

me, thinking bout rvb tbh ;__;

no but like this isn't inaccurate lmfao. the first block of the story (s1-5) are so hit or miss for people. it truly is just some dudes fucking around in their basement. and it's hard to recommend bc like. everything About it is just some guys fucking around in their basement. it's very early '00s humor and without the benefit of nostalgia goggles (im pretty sure I first watched it in middle school?? '07 or so maybe??) it's reasonable for people to have that 'what..what the fuck is this' reaction to it

I forget who initially made this meme but it really is Like That lmfao. the sudden pivot into 'oh okay this is actually serious and part of a larger story than dudes dicking around in a canyon' and tbh I think once you get to season six and beyond, the first five become much easier to get through? because it's all laying the groundwork for characters and foreshadowing and junk.

and yeah like!!! it all comes down to the worlds worst wifeguy causing so much pain and trauma and suffering because he couldn't cope with the dead of his wife. like excuse me dr loser mcdeadwife, you still have a whole entire kid who needs you!! now look at her! jfc!

(don't even get me started on the fragments and the freelancers and asdfghjkl like. I think the sheer misery and drama and angst in the back half of the series - lmao for me rvb ended with s13 - makes the first five seasons all the more lightheartedly enjoyable)

Anyways♡

#rvb nonsense #nonny bestie drop into the dms im always so excited to talk about this fucking show

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yermes · 11 months

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Hello its night time for me so I hope all of you have brushed and flossed bc goddamn is dental work a nightmare

ANYWAYS I’ve gotten people asking me if im doing okay and IDK if I just changed as a person, im tired, need to get fucked (bc honestly at this point I might as well put my shit in a fedex package and mail it back to god) bad mental health, the horrors, etc. but I know you all can relate so heres a how am I coping with changing as a person while being faced with all this life craziness. 🧸

Pick a meme

Pick a card

Indolence 🐦‍⬛

Eight of cups, hod through water, Saturn 1. Pisces

Well I have bad news for ya. Its time to think about embracing the change. I know it’s terrifying start screaming and crying now bc I know I’ve been doing that shit. The shadow of this card has heavy insinuations of depression so of you need help look for someone to talk to this will be a rough adjustment and its hard to get through it alone.

The hanged man ♿️

Geburah to Hod, water, Uranus and Neptune

This card is representative as a turning point in your life. You need to take a step back look around you, look around at yourself suspended in air and unable to make a move without a plan. You are in a state of suspense. At this point you don’t HAVE to change but you are at risk of remaining stagnant and bitching abt it. Trust me Im a pro at bitching but take this time to make a next step.

Love 🫀

Chokmah through water, Venus 1. Cancer, Two of cups

This card above all represent duality, this card differs from the steady stream of one representing unity and represents a now unity within a difference. This could represent a friend and changes with people or a friend group. This could also represent needing a friend to cope with changes.

#suitlifeofgerm #askgerm #pick a card #daily card #pick a picture #magic #shadow work #PAC #tarotoftheday #nighly card #tarotofthenight

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mypunkpansexualtwin · 8 months

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psst i saw you reblogged a bg3 (which im currently 30 hrs in on, god what a game.) ask meme earlier but i forgot to like it to find it again. dealers choice on which numbers you'd like to answer. lemme hear about your tav & your playthrough

I did go and unbury that in case you want to do it too. Link there for anyone who wants to use it.

You're getting more Maya (although there's probably gonna be a Cat run soon, probably gonna roll her up, get off the nautiloid, then truck on her save once I'm done with Maya's since I'm solidly into act 3 with her. I should work on my other saves too but whatever.)

As far as dealer's choice, I'm gonna limit myself to 5 because I will be here for hours otherwise.

1) Tell us about your Tav! Name, class and subclass, race, pronouns, etc. Do you have a headcanon where they're from? Their family? Are they a Dark Urge? Did you choose an original character or an Origin Character? Was it an easy decision?

Maya Cutter, Vengeance Paladin, Duergar (headcanon is her mother was a Duergar and her father was a Gold Dwarf and that's why the grey complexion only shows as a vague ashy cast and as hyperpigmentation in her scars, and why her hair was lightly shot through with silver all her life.) She is indeed a Dark Urge, so there's some stuff I've adjusted in the backstory to fit with what we learn in act 3 regarding that, but for the most part it remains unchanged. Mainly that her mother was not exactly a good Duergar down in the Underdark and her father wasn't exactly a willing part of the household. Briefly had her own family, but Vengeance Paladin things happened that set her on a very bad path, so the memory loss was a nice hard reboot. Lot of tragedy, lots of death, because if you're gonna pick the edgelord background, might as well lean into it. Plus, I'm bad at letting the coping mechanism characters have a good time.

It was definitely an easy choice for OC playthrough every time, and definitely easy preexisting OC choices for both TDU saves; Maya for the "actually I hate this" and Felicity for Full Murder Hobo. I've got like 8 more not-TDU OCs waiting in the wings at this point and I'm only considering an Origin because I want Karlach and Wyll to smooch.

2) Was there something about the character creator that just couldn't capture your character? Please tell us about their hair, tattoos, piercings, disabilities, their trans or intersex body, or anything else you feel comfortable sharing!

A few things, yeah. First and foremost, Maya is a Tough Old Broad, but physically the cc only allowed for Tough. She's old and fat and happy with that, and while she's got a decent amount of muscle, she's not nearly as buff as the Dwarf character model. (That said, if female dwarves can have beards they should also get body hair. Unshave her.) Woman's built like a dumpling and, outside of the battle scars and edgelord coat of paint, looks more like she should be a cookbook mascot.

Another big one is a consistent thing for her between every au is she has a prosthetic arm. Right arm specifically, starting just below the shoulder, always lost in a fight against something significantly bigger and nastier than her because she put herself between it and someone who couldn't put up a fight. Probably skeletal in this case, reinforced with infernal iron, but it's kinda vague in my head.

Last bit is she's more heavily scarred all over (some of it so severe it looks like pieces of her had to be stitched back onto her body) and with some different stuff written on her face now that I know Larian used the actual Infernal alphabet. Probably slightly luminous scarring rather than just lurid orange face paint, across the face as seen here, as well as around the amputation site on her arm.

...I should dig out my tablet.

19) Did your character spend a night with a companion either the night of the party or earlier? Is it someone they have continued interest in?

Yes and no? She chatted everyone up and about half the party was sad to be shot down, save Lae'zel (already got shot down day fucking one after getting off the nautiloid), Wyll (having his introspective time that she left him to), and Astarion. Astarion immediately headed off any interest (that wasn't actually there, I misclicked) with the "it's not you, it's me. I have standards." line, which (headcanon) got a really good laugh out of her and a "careful there, prettyboy, keep that up and I might actually start to like your skinny ass." She likes a friend she can argue and be catty with.

As far as actually spending the night, she and Karlach did a lot of flirting and then uh. Thinking about each other after working themselves up without having a chance to properly fix the whole Too Hot, Hot Damn issue. Karlach has continued to be Maya's romance, but it is a tragedy she couldn't be poly with her and Wyll. (That said, if I were to replay another Maya save, TDU or not, I'd probably lean less into my own preference and more into Maya being an old slut before sticking with one of the Act 3 companions who's a little closer to her age.)

(I'm rolling these two into one question)

28) Did you recruit Scratch the dog? Did you encounter him at all? (29) Did you adopt an owlbear? Do you have a name for your child?

His name is Baby.

35) Has your character done anything that they regret?

*sweats in Dark Urge*

Aside from any TDU stuff, Maya was very conflicted about how she handled Mayrina's stuff after the Hag. Found the wand, regretted not snapping it. Instead, she used it, felt bad about it, passed it off to Mayrina, felt weird about it, and basically kept wondering on and off during quiet moments "was that...... was that the right call?" well into act 3.

(Even in act 3, it's basically "y'know what, we all grieve on our own schedule. Still weird tho.")

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #my ocs #maya acerbi #answers to questions y'all actually asked #ciadoodles #if folks wanna send more I'm good for it but again no promises #long post

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stinkbrat · 2 years

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This is too long winded to truly get into tbh but like I feel like.. a lot of my life I get stuck in this rotten little area where I figure something out (like being trans or autistic) just before the crux of the "so many people are this now, it's such a trend, it's detracting from ppl that are actually suffering" and every time it happens I feel like i personally am the problem and that i must be wrong and it holds me back from exploring or addressing things because im "probably faking it because im sure i would KNOW"

Like it just leaves me feeling like I have to either suppress what I now have access to and "bottle it up" or just know fully I won't be taken seriously, even in safe spaces, when i talk about it.

Specifically too though like... I am diagnosed with autism right I have my letter and accommodations (not that they get met) but like. Diagnosed! And yet the resistance of ppl treating it like it's trendy (it's not) and insisting that not this many ppl can have it (they can) instead of realizing it just means more ppl have been suffering from it and deserve the space to exist within it?? Idk my ass ends up seeing the angry ppl posting that ppl have to stop "treating it like its cute" and I get so flustered because I'm like "ur right I should have never sought out my psychiatrist and tricked her into diagnosing me with something that only other people suffer from because it sounded fun" when I'm one of the lucky few to actually get tested and diagnosed!!!! And if I'm still capable of performing mental gymnastics to villanize myself, then I know that younger ppl are going through it much worse and its gonna set them back 1000 years in their coping and recovering process.. Idk its not my responsibility but the conversation is extremely difficult between "I've suffered my whole life from this and always had the word to throw my hate and anger at so when you say you have it but don't seem pissed off or ruined the way i feel, I get upset therefore you all have to stop acting like it's a trend" and "I've suffered my whole life from this and since I wasn't diagnosed I didn't have a word to throw the hatred at so I just directed it internally at me being stupid and broken so I'm celebrating this thing that has largely made my life impossible and that probably seems pretty offensive to the ppl that had the opportunity to know what it was the whole time" without it sounding like you're patronizing the other group of people under your umbrella or acting like the other group is wrong or privileged (when neither are neither)

Idk It applies to so many parts of my life (ur not REALLY trans if your not trying to "pass" or have bad enough dysphoria) and I'm so so tired of seeing both sides without anyone bothering to represent the middle: some of the things are going to get cutesyfied due to the pervasive nature of social media and pop culture but taking it out on people that are fresh into discovering, exploring, growing, and/or learning about themselves and saying they haven't suffered enough to be able to talk about it openly is not the answer CHIEFS...

Tldr that one meme with the mirror about calling ppl ugly when it only affects the ppl around you, not the people that are going to do wrong no matter what you say. Ultimately There's no right or wrong way to suffer or to cope and you're always going to alienate someone when you try to talk openly about it but talking openly about it is all there is to do so....I guess we will just die

#5hats so many words ive just been #processing #i have unfortunately not been able to attend therapy anymore so i have to do this all on my own now

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skadream · 1 year

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Rudy's Book Reviews: You Will Get Through This Night by Daniel Howell

yeah thats right im gonna be a phannie on main for a second. this is the start of my book review series which i hope to actually folow through with lol. this one ive been listening to as an audiobook but i do have the physical copy as well cuz im like that! next review will hopefully be gideon the ninth so tune in for that, but for now, read this review under the cut:

this book is a practical mental health guide, honestly a lot of it is stuff that you can learn in therapy so like if you have a therapist that you like then maybe its not worth it BUT theres like slim pickins for mental health books that arent just anecdotal evidence without actually talking about what people did to help them get better, just "yea i was sad but then i got therapy ✌️" or books that are so couched in psychiatric jargon its hard for a layperson to get into OR just vaguely inspiring bullshit.

its all written with the help of an actual licensed psychologist person, so no bullshit, no just do yoga and drink water shit (although obviously exercise and hydration and physical health are talked about) and yes he mentions medication and LICENSED therapy if those end up being necessary steps to take with your mental health!!! which again, in the world of self help type books, tends to be rare advice which is DEPRESSING IN A DIFFERENT WAY LMAO.

ofc it should go without saying that a book can never be a replacement for therapy but Considering How The World Is, this book is good for like maybe stepping into learning some coping skills as well as figuring out a plan before, during, and after crisis mode. i would say the tone is more serious than humorous but dan puts a lot of his own natural snarky sarcasm stink all over this book which obv that can be a taste thing if youre not into brit sarcasm mode but as a One Of Those i like it lol

in terms of Dan And Phil™️-isms, theres a sprinkling of cute winks and nods and inside jokes that people who drew sharpie cat whiskers on their faces as teens would understand but Normies will not find to be out of place or anything, there's also some storytimes of like his previous tours or living as a dropout youtuber being stress-inducing and things like that but not a ton which i kinda prefer cuz it makes it easier for me to recommend this book to people who dont give a shit about Phandom Memes

theres an introduction which is kind of a short summary of who dan is, basically just summarizing his youtube videos talking about depression and when he came out as queer and all that fun stuff, if youre a psycho hardcore fan person like me you might find it to be a long and unnecessary read, but if youre someone who didnt know about this guy and are curious as to why he would even write a book like this its a pretty good synopsis.

the american cover has dan's stupid face on it, and as someone who is a big fan of dan's stupid beautiful face, i wish we had the EU version with like tasteful yellow stripes on it bc it looks so nice, but i mean i just keep it on my bookshelf with the spine showing which is just a nice yellow spine with the title and looks unassuming so its not THAT big a deal lmaoo.

in terms of the audiobook, dan's voice is quite soothing and there's all these like audio cues and fitting music which i really like. the only downside is, for example, he reads out this timed breathing exercise that is meant to be like a five minute exercise, but it's not actually timed? so like i want to do the breathing exercises along with him reading it out but he reads it so fast its kinda like bro slow down you said breathe in for five seconds why you going ahead two seconds later homie. thats my only criticism i think obv if you are reading it and not listening you can just do the exercises by timing yourself lol.

ummmm idk if im gonna give a number at the end of these reviews!!! i give this book a big thumbs up!! 👍 woohoo yeah baby i am very proud of dan's current life journey thing that he's going on and i think this is a great book for people who need help which is everyone alive today right now :)

#rudyreviews

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okthatsgreat · 9 months

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opddmh new chapter. i read it right after work then went crazy and then. 😴. but ive been absolutely plagued ever since

the two groups unite!! which is fun bc it's both amazing and good and wonderful to have a larger support network but absolutely none of these guys are in touch with both their situation or all of their emotions and we have alr seen how much tension there is revolving around the stakes of the hospital escapees...... so this could also end up the apartment version of a nuclear warzone

this chapter was pretty clear but god my curiosity about everything about the hospital has been building and building. obv a lot of it is spoilers but what's that horror house like past what we know.

maybe sometimes family is two girls on the blacklist of every local therapist and the four teenagers they're hiding from the worst game show management team ever. (the legality and government support of dr is another point of curiousity now that i mention it...... :3)

THE TWO GROUPS UNITE !!!!!! finally they can become the dysfunctional apartment unit of their dreams

talking about this fic! :]

the six of them being in one apartment is essentially that one meme where every single one of them are thinking "jesus these people are freaks. thank god im the only normal one here" but all of them are so damaged its insane. ur so right it widens the support system but at the same time there is a lot to be tense about! kirumi is unwell, rantaro and ryoma are in very clear disagreement, and angie is only going to further play into rantaros belief that there is a place such as niisei. youve got a pretty clear divide between the four people of season 53 that are in the apartment, with two people being so in denial that they are still unconvinced that they are fake, and the other two accepting that they are fake but not coping well with it At All. so! lots of fun to be had :]

THE HOSPITALLLL it connects to the overarching dystopian company that danganronpa is lmfaooo so first. i would like you to imagine a very large media company who is so massive that they can essentially do anything they want if they are able to spin it with some legal jargon. the public is almost entirely on their side, and they have millions of people supporting them, including some very powerful investors. they have so many employees signed underneath them that it is difficult to keep track, and there is clear favoritism involved within the company. they only care about what a person can bring in terms of profit and entertainment, and they're not entitled to make you completely better or care about your personal wellbeing past what you provide for them. AND, because most of the people working under this company have been frightened into submission, they aren't going to reach out to give further help because most of the time they don't think you need it. now i want you to imagine that very same media company opening up a private hospital .

danganronpa is a vindictive company (as we've mostly seen through makoto and akane's povs, if you fuck up they WILL have consequences, and this ranges from salary cuts to throwing you back into the simulator) and they know they can get away with a lot. they are incredible at keeping face and making the company seem appealing, and they are also incredible at silencing people. so whatever happens to you, you just gotta suck it up. the hospital is a clear reflection of danganronpa as a company. they pick favorites, they are vindictive (mikan mentions in her pov that they will go so far as to REFUSE to treat patients if they have wronged the company), and they are directly run by danganronpa executives, meaning they follow their orders (which is why they are planning on keeping season 53 stationed there for much longer than they are legally allowed to). they are understaffed and under-qualified for the patients they need to be treating, leading to many cases of people being misdiagnosed (which again, mikan mentions had happened to her when she stayed there). and considering how fucked up danganronpa is purposefully making these people, they need GOOD DOCTORS AND PSYCHIATRISTS. but they don't, because they don't NEED to have them, and the participants suffer because of it. there is maybe one good licensed psychiatrist that genuinely cares about their job in that building but they are overworked and never available

i love writing the company of danganronpa because its just sooo cruel. its cruel and nobody can see how cruel it is because the public is being painted a very specific and highly coordinated image. even those who are against danganronpa are against it for the "wrong" reasons (as seen in the grocery store scene when akane gets confronted by the cashier). people who are anti danganronpa in this universe are more so against the PARTICIPANTS, which is yet again another way that danganronpa has painted themselves as this do-no-wrong company despite the Everything. it is a money-hungry company that views the participants as vehicles for profit, and their worth entirely depends on how marketable they are to a wider audience. which is entirely gross, but so many of these participants are desperate to be liked because they are SCARED. they will fit into the box that danganronpa gives them because they don't know any other way to live. and quite frankly, there IS no other way to live. it's adapt or die, and they can't die.

n e ways excited for the six of them to share this apartment :] every friend group has the hotheaded emotional repression athlete, the worlds shakiest nurse, a false prophet, a girl who keeps passing out, dora the explorer, and ryoma

THANK YOU AGAIN SO SO MUCH 💥💥💥💥💥💥 MWAH

#kozuelovemail #ask lee #opddmh

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aris-ink · 1 year

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[In taeyang singing meme voice]

Ari~, I miss you so muUuUch~

Im glad to hear you are doing good🐻, the other day a saw this video of how famous people always say therapy doesn't work for them and what actually helps them is focusing on their hobbies/work (like ariana grande or Taylor swift have said in some occasions) but the girl in the video explain that thats basically what therapy it's for, that they had the privilege for x reasons from a young age to develop and find a way/place where they can express themselves freely and deal with emotions in a healthy manner, which is one of the goals of therapy . Then reading your update and made me think of that, maybe I'm reaching Lmao but knowing you are thinking about writing it's honestly amazing, like finding the energy once again to do something you enjoy.( I'm not trying to asume anything, sorry if this message feels intrusive.)

I Also wish there was some way to get motivated instantly, I been neglecting my college work for two weeks now and Idk how to get on track again haha, will need some tips on how to stop procrastinating bc it's kind of addictive.

Anyway, I'm happy to hear from you❤️.

-😽

HI ANGEL <3 I missed you too! I'm so happy to hear from you 💕🫂

that's very interesting 🤔 art is definitely one of the best and healthiest ways to express yourself and work through your thoughts and emotions, I can't imagine what I would do without writing tbh 😭 but also I really think it depends on the kind of therapy you need? sometimes self expression is only a part of it. apart from talking about your problems (which can be done through art), therapy is also there to teach you how to cope with stress, with your disorders and illnesses, and live life to the fullest despite being sick, and that is what I am aiming for ❤️ of course everyone is different and it might not work the same way for different people ❤️ however, at this point in my life, after last year especially, I really don't know how to function like a healthy person anymore and I need to relearn everything LMAO 😭 so I'm happy with where I am now, and I'm glad I made this choice 💕 it's hard, but it's my only option 🥹

not at all! ❤️ nothing about this message is intrusive, you're always free to speak your thoughts and ask questions 🫂 thank you so much baby <3

I'm so sorry to hear about your college work, that sucks so much 😭 take it slow! idk how about you, but what kills my attempts at doing anything is perfectionism 💀 it feels like there is just no point doing a task if I can't complete all of it, or do it perfectly. don't listen to your brain if it ever does that, it's just being mean and lying to you 😭 take it little by little, and make sure to rest and eat well! I believe in you and I'm rooting for you, step by little step baby 💕

sending you so much love <3

#asks #😽 angel

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incarnateirony · 1 year

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The fact that you addressed only the Anchor Baby part of the ask and nothing else (being wrong about “Jared” on the phone, wrong about Jake Abel, wrong about Misha, claiming some southern identity to hide the mayo) proves you know I’m right: that you’re full of it. And you did exactly what I said you would. Pretend to be intelligent, hurl insults that mean nothing, and deflect, deflect, deflect—talking about shit I didn’t even bring up. Meet and greets and TFW2P0 and other things you’re obsessed with and talk about at every turn just to distract from what I really said. And you can choose to publish my exact ask right now or not (while publishing others lmao). We both know.

no actually, you just sent 15 pages of nonsense and there's only so much garbage.

"WRONG ABOUT JARED ON THE PHONE". Bro. it was a shitpost that included "I wasn't sure it was him", and within about 30 minutes, was deleted. Because, unlike you, I'm not above or beyond reason, but I"m not sure how you're trying to connect "instagram prank misheard" as "PROVES YOU ARE AN UNRELIABLE LEAKER!!"

no dude i didn't declare nothing. i didnt say it meant shit. it was funny. Before you guys ran out of pocket doubling down how wrong I was, I deleted it, not because OMG IM ASHAMED, but because like you, I don't share misinformation at length. I'm also VERY FUCKING UNCLEAR WHAT PART OF YOUR MUTATED BRAIN FACULTIES CONNECTS THIS TO LEAK ACCURACY.

And? Yes, I already addressed Jake, at length, where you guys are dipshit lying pieces of shit that can't read the posts where I said... yeah, he was in austin too. Omg!!! {falls over dead, clutching chest} THE PAIN, THE PAIN OF IT ALL THAT {checks notes} He was in fact in austin like I said but never cared to check because nobody gives a shit about your shitty show? Like we're not mad. Dude we just don't care. what's not clicking. That's not a leak either. Walker doesn't have leakers because nobody gives a shit about Walker to leak it for or from.

THIS IS ALL YOU TRYING TO TELL YOURSELF THAT "FAN HAS REACTION TO FAN CONTENT PROVES FAN DOESNT HAVE ALL THE REAL PHYSICAL SOURCES THAT HAVE BEEN PRESENTED AND PROVEN TRUE TIME AND AGAIN WHILE WE SCREAMED AGAINST IT."

Maybe... just... MAYBE. YOU guys' malfunctioning cerebellums not understanding what is a *source*, what is a *shitpost*, what is *reality*, what is a *meme*, and other segregating factors is why you crashed out on that GIANT ASS LIST OF THINGS YOU DENIED AS I SAID THEM THAT CAME TRUE. Like, maybe if you stopped listening to fucking dumbfuck speculation and 2po's M&Gs he's been busted lying about and thinking they're sources:

you'd stop failing at spn

you'd stop confusing my shitposts with sourced leaks

What in the fuck kind of broken brained, jackshit insane logic is this. No really. I want you to look in the mirror and tell yourself you're okay, when you're literally screaming that I dared to delete an incorrect SHITPOST, and shows that I'm somehow an unreliable leaker. I want you. To go. Stare in the mirror. Look yourself in the eye. Say that. And then apply whatever self will is needed to not do self harm when you perceive how stupid your entire desperate spiral is right now while you deny blatant reality

What even are you trying to do? Is this your acceptance spiral that Destiel is happening and you're just trying to convince yourself I bullshitted all the details through the last 2 years? Is it you realizing all those times I said the crew sees this shit, and all your denials, that I might be right, but you can't accept that you've been clowning yourself while the main account openly retweets Destiel?

Cope. dumb motherfuckers think instagram stories count as leaks and sources, holy fuck, no wonder you guys can't hit the broad side of a barn.

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blightts · 1 year

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𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑.

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞. soap/soapbox

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬. he/they

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. definitely discord! feel free to ask for it, im up for giving it out in most cases. tumblr IMs you can reach me through but i’ll likely be hella late because i don’t get notifications.

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). basil from omori, most of the ocs on this blog (hyacinthe, arlo, rue, and spectre especially), adelle and felix. they’re usually bouncing around in my head somewhere. whether or not i write something with them though… usually depends if i have ongoing threads already or if im able to do things on discord. i do also have mitsuru, kazuki, and taiyo, all pokemon muses, that i write exclusively on discord and are even more active than the above muses.

𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞/𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 (𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐬/𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬?). i’ve been writing off and on since i was 8, so about 17 years? jfc it’s really been that long huh

𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐯𝐞 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝. neopets, iscribble, forums (proboards and such), deviantart, skype, of course tumblr, and more recently discord. i think i briefly used chatzy as well. might’ve missed something but i think that’s everything.

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞. it’s hard to say, i definitely used to be more active but i’m a lot happier now. i have good friends and my mental health has significantly improved so i’m going to say my current one.

𝐫𝐩 𝐩𝐞𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐬 / 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐬. naturally the stuff that’s mentioned in my rules are dealbreakers but otherwise i cannot with pushy or clingy people. if you rapidfire ims at me and/or expect me to respond right away and act upset when i don’t it will earn you a block.

𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟, 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭, 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭. i loooove both fluff and angst, but i actually lean more towards hurt-comfort so a healthy combo of the two. you will almost never see me writing smut unless you’re a close friend and we write it on discord. i’m hesitantly willing only in that case.

𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬. i’m quite happy with either, though i tend to prefer to send out memes. i’m not particularly good at plotting, but if you have ideas i’m all for hearing them out!

𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬. I tend to prefer short ones, they’re easier to match in length, but i’ve done and enjoyed plenty of longer replies as well. in the end, both are fun!

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞. on tumblr, whenever i’m on my computer generally. i don’t enjoy doing so, but i’m not exactly comfortable making uncropped replies. i’m trying to push past the discomfort and do more on mobile, though. i’m usually busy over weekends— more likely saturday than sunday but some weeks both. it’s easier to say when i’m not available than when i am unfortunately. i’m much more active on discord, usually during early afternoon.

𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). depends on the muse! i have traits in common with most of them, a lot of headcanons are because of ways i was in the past especially. i tend to project mental health stuff onto the characters i write. it’s a good way to cope with it.

tagged by: @silenthcwl ! thanks for the tag!

tagging: @cardplays oooo you want to fill out the mun meme vale ooOoooOoo. also anyone else who wants to.

#ooc. bubbles #dash games.

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