#im dead im dying im gone

[aroaceleovaldez]

It's honestly wild to me that ToA went through so much trouble to emphasize the fact that Will did not magically fix all of Nico's problems and was explicitly not Nico's only doctor.

Only for TSATS to have Will fix all of Nico's problems and have Nico be entirely reliant on him the entire book and literally helpless without him and LITERALLY have Nico's problems be magically removed.

#pjo #riordanverse #tsats crit #nico di angelo #solangelo #it doesnt make any sense too cause. in HoO we KNOW Nico was fully capable of handling himself in Tartarus #we already knew he was explicitly on his own. we know he had it worse than Percy and Annabeth did #because we are explicitly told that Nico saw Tartarus' true nature the ENTIRE TIME versus Percy only getting a tiny half-glimpse of it once #and Percy acknowledges that he would not be able to withstand actually seeing Tartarus more than he did without just dying on the spot #and Nico was down there for as long as Percy and Annabeth at least. on his own. flying blind and explicitly having it worse. #so it doesnt make sense to totally retcon Nico's ENTIRE experiences with Tartarus to make him sopping wet and pathetic about it #needing to be helped and only being down there for twenty minutes and crying the whole time #and then all of the book he's literally functionally helpless without Will for some reason. despite being in his element. #could not get more in his element than being in the Underworld. my guy literally lives there. that's his HOUSE. that's his YARD. #and he's still just totally sopping wet and pathetic in Tartarus the second time around #like im sorry. no. we literally have previously established canon indicating this is absolutely not the case #that is not something you can retcon. that is an entire major event. it was not glossed over. #unless you are doing time travel and it's a canonical retcon a la Homestuck im sorry the events of TSATS just could never occur #(not to mention Damasen is just never acknowledged in TSATS and him and Bob were absorbed by Tartarus the god and ergo dead in HoH) #(so Bob and Damasen are like. *Gone* gone. they didn't just die to be reformed later they got ERASED.) #(and Nyx sure as hell isnt gonna be the one to have Bob trapped for whatever reason. definitely not cause she hates light/change/whatever) #(nyx is literally the mother/sister [depends on version - sometimes a mitosis situation] of the personification of day? and sky?) #(and FRIENDSHIP? and the nymphs of sunset? sometimes also CHEERFULNESS? and THOUGHTFULNESS? and old age) #(ah yes the mother of concepts such as love/friendship and aging and. day. would HATE [checks notes] love/friendship changing and light) #(she INVENTED THOSE) < anyways thank u for coming to my aside rant in the tags #in parenthesis to indicate this is an aside/tangent rant. anyways i have so many problems with this plot. it just DOESNT WORK #on NO LEVEL DOES IT WORK AT ALL WITH ESTABLISHED CANON

[redyrmes]

ramon “if you dont hurt him and love him with your whole heart and take care of him” mc do you realize how much that line killed me

#and pac is just like yes #mate you are saying that you will love fit with your whole heart and take care of him and im dying im dead im gone this has killed me #screaming crying throwing up clawing at the walls ect #fitpac #hideduo #fitmc #pactw #qsmp ramon #qsmp #rambles

[traumxrei-archive]

LEONA KINGSCHOLAR ?? WHAT THE FUCK ??????

IM GONNA THROW UP AND DIE RIGHT NOW BC WHAT THE FUCK EHAT THE FUCK QHAT THE FUCKKKDHSJDJFJFJ

#/trau rambles #IM DEAD #IM DYING #IM GONE #GOODBYE #DO NOT LOOK FOR ME AGAIN #leona kingscholar

[ozymoron]

hes so hot like genuinely what the actual fuck

#⚠️ #personal #his big fucking eyes have captured my fucking soul #i actually might die i think #im actually dying #im dead im gone #ive been dead #girl just gotta say. he has very kissable lips what who said that huh

[measuresderepo]

Shakespeare girlies know the hype of getting your dream role in MAAN.

Shakespeare girlies know Verges, the dummy helping the dummy (aka Dogberry.)

But Shakespeare girlies do not understand the feeling of me getting Verges in my school play.

#IM DYING #IM DEAD #IVE GONE TO HEAVEN #AND GOD HAS MADE ME VERGES IN THE HEAVEN VERSION OF MAAN #AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh #much ado about nothing #maan #verges (omg I’m making fanart) #verges #dogberry

[jaeausten]

wow, there are so many source and period drama blogs going inactive on here 😔

#this place really does seem to be dying #im sad #where has everyone gone? #my dash is practically dead #😭😭😭

[orcelito]

the weird thing about when someone dies is that they're never truly dead in my head. when i think about my grandpa, my grandma, my uncle, i dont think of them as dead. i think of them as just... gone for a while. some longer than others. i think about my cat sammy and my cat cassy and i feel like i could still look over and see them there beside me. i can see the way sammy would always cuddle right up to me and lay his head on my shoulder. i can see the way cassy would swivel his head at me when he wanted pets.

they're all dead. they're all gone. but i feel like i could see them again, just like old times. all i need to do is give them a call.

#speculation nation #death/ #animal death ment/ #negative/ #i suppose. im not feeling bad exactly. just contemplating the psychological disparity. #even with my cats. i was there when they were put down. i saw them dead. i kissed their cold little heads. #i think about my uncle. how he came into my work unexpectedly a year or two ago. how delighted i was to see a familiar face. #i think of my grandma. the phone calls we would have. how supportive she was of me and my sexuality. #i think of my grandpa. his eccentricities. the way he rambled on and on about history or his own experiences #they are all alive in my mind. but years pass and theyre just Gone. absent from my life. little warning and little preparation. #i knew my grandpa was dying. my grandma was a very unpleasant surprise. #i knew my uncle was dying. but there were only six weeks between the cancer diagnosis and his death. hardly any time at all. #i knew sammy's time was running out. he was 14 years old. he was getting so skinny. and then he was gone. #cassy was a surprise. one week he was his normal attitude filled self. the next week he was dead. not even 2 years old. #for a lot of my life i hadn't known death. not really. i'd never closely known anyone who had died. #but i know now. and the odd thing is that Yes it hurts. but more often it's just strange. #someone can be in your life one day and out the next. and there's no true way to predict it. #hug your loved ones a little closer. i know i have been lately.

[bmpmp3]

every day my youtube recommendations are inundated with 40 minute videos titled "the rise and fall of ____" where ____ is something that is very much still alive and thriving 😔

#i like 20 min to 10 hour videos where someone talks about some random shit for a long time but i am PICKY #u have to take it seriously. jokes are fine and good and some things are goofy but u still have to take it as it is u know!! #like u cant just look at some niche hobby community that had like maybe 1 thing blow up a bit outside the community a few years ago #and say its dying just because nothing else has gone big in the mainstream. its a niche hobby community for a reason #i dunno im sorry to be pretentious but i am in a constant state of that clip from parks and rec where the dude is in the home depot #like. i know more than you. clicks the kebab menu and presses remove from recommendations #i dunno for real people are constantly obsessed with calling niche mediums and hobbies and movements dead just because they personally #havent looked much into it. its a tale as old as time but now we have the internet and u can just like look at a forum or something #and find a very alive community still around so its like. come on 😔

[nomaishuttle]

sry 4 being a girl with a special interest in death I just think maybe everybody should have more healthy exposure to death and maybe then wed all be a lot more normal about everything

#basically i think the fact that getting dead bodies out of view As quickly as possible has rly rly rly fucked up our relationship withdeath #i am not at all saying we should just leave bodies in the streets lol but like. i wish it was still commonplace to Care for the body in the #home. yk. obviously this is also a consequence of embalming culture and its all a consequence of the fear of decay. bc we want to think #that even when we die well Live on and we want to thjnk dying is a like. form of immortality..you die and then youre sterile and you stay #the same. and we treat decay like an offense Basically. instead of acknowledging that even though your body js dead there is soo #much life in yr body after you die. yk. i think basically that ppl should allow death 2 just like. be death. and acknowledge that things #change.. ik it isnt rly possible (in some states its illegal to keep the body in the home for more than like. an hour after death iirc) #i just rly rly wish ppl were allowed to be with the body and to take care of it bc i think thats always been SUCH an important part of the #grieving process. it helps you acknowledge that theyre gone and to send them off on your own terms #this is word vomit basically im crazy.

[ark1os]

I’ll keep you forever in my heart shaped locket necklace. I will show it to my grandchildren and tell them you’re the dead husband I lost in war

#i love you gojo #** #tbh if this was yuta id be throwing hands rn. im at peace with gojo dying and im sorry for wveryone whose fav is gojo #a loss for us all but a greater grief for gojo stans #omg i cant believe yuta wanted to join them hed be so dead hed be gone and it woudlve been such a bad sacrifice like literally for nothing #i wish every gojo stan a very i hope you’ll heal from this one day #jjk

[sunnibits]

full source here but THE WAY EVERYONE FUCKING SCREAMED PLEASEEAEEA

#HIS VOICE GETTING ALL ROUGH #IM DYING #IM DEAD #GONE #con o’neill #THE WAY THEY JUST KEPT SCREAMING LOUDER AND LOUDER AS HE KEPT GOING

[mothheart]

I need to create and not stop until I die I need to get as many of these stories written as I possibly can

#not to be dramatic or whatever but #im not afraid of dying but i am afraid knowing i wont be able to write all of my stories to completion in my life #like. i just know #and when im dead and gone they die with me #lays on the floor #miles rambles

[scrimblocollector]

Anytime I see Piccolo with old man Gohan/at his grave i simply melt inside

#im just. dying crying ecc ecc #saiyan also tend to have long livespan so gohan could easily live until 150 or smt #image mourning you best friend you have know and teached since he was a toddler to an old man is now dead #the best part of this century of your life is over forever and you are left alone for the rest of your semi-inmortality #the person who changed you more than you could ever knew has now gone to heaven #my post

[devotedlystrangewizard]

"being autistic is about being bad at reading social cues" "being autistic is about stimming & sensory overload" NO.

this is autism.

#its not even about like. the fact that theyre the imperial royal family. its completely separate from that #its about how utterly dysfunctional that entire family was. i need more lore about them. i need to know. #I NEED TO KNOW WHERE THE WOMEN ARE. #where are the galvus women. you cant say theyre all dead thats ridiculous and i wont believe you #personally i think emet-selch's ex-wife is living her best life. that is a lie but the concept of this 90-something year old lady being #in the game. is fun #'oh solus?? yeah he was a dick. sorry. i went on holiday and then he was gone and i never went back' #emet-selch discourse this emet-selch discourse that i want a little garlean great-grandma in law on my island #shes dead but wouldnt it be FUNNY. #shes an ex-reaper who got sick of solus disrespecting her reaper arts with the magitek & faked her death #its 12 am and i have had headaches all day do not mind me i am RAMBLING #my coping mechanism is hyperfixating on dysfunctional fictional families because every time my mom is being a bitch #i can just think about this dumpsterfire of a collection of blood-related people and be instantly comforted #like yeah my stepdad's a dick but at least my grandfather isnt an ascian so whos REALLY having a bad time huh? im doing greatt #im begging you to like. look at varis's story that man is a walking stack of tragedies it feels like im looking at my 13 year old selfs ocs #just aged up like 30 years #motherfucker lost his father and his wife his grandfather hated him and didnt even try to hide it his son is. a walking natural disaster #imagine dying to patricide not because ur child hated you or whatever but just because u were in their way #and THEN your body and memory get used to create one of the creatures you always wanted to bring an end to #this isnt apologism i am laughing at his misery #oh and also his childhood friend dies in service to him so theres that #'i would gladly die for his radiance' reggie bud thats really nice but that man is actively losing his mind & i dont think that would help #it feels like im watching my dog's chew toy. #i genuinely cannot for the life of me figure out what kinda bond varis & zenos had but im guessing uhhh none #but even still the whole elidibus zenos arc. also not something i think he was very happy with #i have held that rant in for weeks but fuck it. there you go. i like varis. he amused me.

[kingmaximusboltagon]

oh hey while i'm here i finished a Small Scene from the comic rewrite!! because fuck it, i had the idea, and i needed to immediately fix some things. under the cut for spoiler reasons, i guess, i'm kinda just taking random things i like and mashing them together at this point ?? WHATEVER here it is !!

Are you alright?

Maximus frowns at the question, and shrugs. “Oh, they were already prosthetics. I can rebuild it. Won’t take long, so don’t fret.”

But it hurts, doesn’t it?

“Not particularly.”

Maximus turns away to tinker with the broken parts of a gun on the table, still wearing the torn jacket, the edges singed away.

Blackagar takes the few steps closer to stand at his side, well aware of the half-truth he was being told. Maximus never admitted when he was injured or in pain, but he was his brother; Blackagar had known him almost his entire life, and he knew him well enough to know when Maximus was being truthful or not.

And he’s heard him grumble complaints and rub at his arms often enough to know that they did hurt. Blackagar hadn’t known, couldn’t have known - before Blackagar himself, Attilan did not speak of things like this. Attilan did not speak of many things before Blackagar. There are many things now that he doesn’t want to speak of.

If he had known how much it would affect Maximus, he would have tried to constrain himself more. Maximus was clearly able to live with it, but there was a lifetime of pain that Blackagar was responsible for now, that he couldn’t really do anything to prevent. A lifetime of different.

Blackagar himself was stuck in a lifetime of different. All he’s ever wanted was to prevent his family from being him, and all he’s seemed capable of doing is being the cause of their suffering.

“Your sulking is distracting me.”

Blackagar glances at his brother, who had stopped prodding at the contents on his table to look up at him. Blackagar tilts his head. I would sulk less if I knew you were alright.

Maximus scoffs, and makes a move to cross his arms, before belatedly moving the one to rest on his hip, instead. “Oh, go worry over someone else. I’ve already told you I’m fine. I do need to fix this, so go away.”

He turns his gaze back to the table, though he makes no move to mess with any of it anymore. Nor does he make any move to walk away.

They stand in silence for a long few moments.

“How is Medusa?” Maximus asks quietly.

Blackagar feels his lips twitch. Recovering. She’ll be strong enough to join in the fight.

“And Karnak?”

Focused on tracking down Vox. A lot has happened. I don’t know if he’s processed most of it.

Maximus lets out a humorless chuckle. “I suppose a lot has happened.” He taps restlessly against the edge of the table. “Have you sent anything out to Ahura and Luna?”

Crystal’s trying to get to them. She may leave for Earth. You are free to go with her, if you would like.

Maximus hums. “Of course I am. You wouldn’t keep me trapped here.”

I do not know how this fight will turn out. Ahura and Luna are fond of you. Perhaps more than they are fond of me.

Maximus meets his gaze again, and there’s an anxious glint in his eyes. “We’ve survived worse, brother. When this is over, we will go to Earth together.”

Blackagar can hope those words to be true. He wants them to be true.

“Besides,” Maximus says, waving with his arm as he trots off, leaving Blackagar to trail after him, “I do believe this is my fight, as well. My city was attacked, my cousin killed.” He digs through a charred box of half-melted metallic parts, before making an annoyed noise and dragging the entire box back towards a cleaner part of the floor, his only remaining table taken up already.

“And he killed Lockjaw,” Maximus says, grief finally seeping into his voice, as he turns an intense gaze to Blackagar, “I want revenge. I’m not running.”

Then I am glad we want the same thing.

“And it only took our entire city falling.” Maximus replies with a smirk.

#meant #am i actually going to go through with killing lockjaw? undecided #i'd hate to be a cop out like the source #but also like. doggy :( #at the very least if lockjaw does go out i want him to be with maximus as the first issue set up #and for the love of FUCK where are their kids #like. by the midway point the royal family assumed that like HALF of them are dead. WHY would they not talk to their kids #WHAT IF VOX HAD GONE TO EARTH??? they would have DIED and not even be warned?????? #medusa. crystal. please. #esp since at one point bolt is missing and presumed to be dead. medusa then puts all her energy into tracking down vox instead of like. #maybe warning her son to make sure even more of her family doesn't die #no. can comic writers remember when characters have children a little more often. like they even acknowledge ahura and luna IN THE ART #sorry im just ranting about this now. i firmly believe with how upset they're all to be (despite not really. showing that.) #about their family all dying that they'd at least think of those two maybe one time? #bb literally writes down the names of 11.000 inhumans he doesn't know and yet doesnt think to send word down to earth about any of this #i feel he should very strongly try to protect the few remaining inhumans left but he just. doesnt. #maximus boltagon #blackagar boltagon #medusalith amaquelin #lockjaw inhumans #inhumans #ahura boltagon #luna maximoff #crystalia amaquelin #karnak mander-azur

[kajiimotojiiro]

Ugh

#im going to ramble in these tags for a bit so that the potentially triggering tags #are located way way way down and no one will look at them i just #so uh yeah hows the weather anyone else having insane sinus drainage #i actually had a patient call me today worried because her nose was running and her head hurt and im like #well if it isnt getting worse and its only been a few days and you have no other symptoms you probs have sinus issues like everyone else #in this state but if youre super worried and antihistamines dont help please contact your doctor i appreciate your faith in a pharmacist #being able to diagnose over the phone but i actually legally cannot do that #are these tags long enough yet #possibly but who knows anyway if youre here uhhh tw animal death ahead #im a petsitter and have been for like. 10 years now and i share sits with my mom sometimes bc i work full time and cant always get there #anyway at one of our shared sits today she went in and one of the little cats was just #suddenly dead. like she wasnt that old and yet she was just. stiff and gone and we're both just so fucked up over it #like i wish there had been some sign and we could have saved her even though it was likely an unfixable heart defect #and her people apparently had taken her to the vet LAST WEEK and didnt bother to tell us that she seemed to be feeling poorly last week #and theyre just like oh we'll get a new cat when we come back #meanwhile my ocd has been going insane since then bc i have really bad intrusive thoughts centering on keeping my cats alive #like half of my rituals are specifically for my cats #and i just keep think about poor sammie dying alone and scared bc we werent there with her and her people had been gone since friday #and it just makes me so fucking sad my heart is breaking but i cant stop thinking about it and no distractions are working #rip sammie you were such a sweet little cat and im so sorry you had to go alone and scared