#it meant to much to us back in the day

[sleepynegress]

BUTTERFLY IN THE SKY trailer A documentary about LeVar Burton's Reading Rainbow

#LeVar Burton #Reading Rainbow #PBS #documentary #trailer #first look #I may have gotten a bit glassy-eyed watching this #it meant to much to us back in the day #*sings ABIYOYO*

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos...... #watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits! #i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

[elizabeth-dicewielder]

Having emotions about Naminé again

#kh #naminé #okay but. thinking about it #from the day you’re born you know you were never meant to exist #and you know the only reason people want you around is to use you #and they tell you that and tell you how horrible you are #and you find that the only way to get people to love you is to force them to love you #either by rewriting their lives and destroying their identity #or by creating a new person with almost no agency altogether #and with two people fighting over how much they love you you still are not truly loved #and one of them dies for you and the other asks to forget you #and how could you do anything but comply? you made him love you you destroyed him it isn’t real #and then you are alone again #and others like you come to you for answers and the only thing you can do is lead them to their deaths #in repayment to the boy you destroyed who was kind to you anyway #and you too die for the person the boy truly loved #and yes you come back #but how do you know anything will be different this time? #aaaaaahhhh #okay but now that i think about it with what happened to roxas and xion… #naminé… grim reaper… do you get what i’m saying #abby don’t look

[fictionadventurer]

All the tour groups in Springfield should be very proud of me for how well I refrained from sharing all my fascinating Lincoln facts.

#there were so many school groups! #a giant one came in RIGHT AFTER i entered lincoln's cabinet room #part of me was screaming 'children i NEED to tell you about all these idiots and their insane drama!' #a smarter part of me understood that would be super weird #so instead i regaled different individuals of my own traveling party after we had the room to ourselves #then at lincoln's tomb we lucked out in getting there during the ten minutes of the day when school groups weren't there #which meant we got a personal tour from a guide who seemed thrilled to have grown-ups to talk to #he and my dad chatted about fishing for a long while in the entry #it didn't feel disrespectful because it totally felt like the kind of conversation lincoln would have understood and joined in on #and then we went on our way but the guide then chased us down to share all the fascinating lincoln stories as we went along #(shout-out to lefty you were great) #and then a school group found us so we made a graceful exit #but outside a teacher was explaining to a different group about how robert was significant in his own right so he's buried at arlington #and the RESTRAINT i showed in not immediately informing them that he was present at three presidential assassinations! it was rather heroic #and then when we toured lincoln's house the guide (who accidentally made it clear he was a revolutionary war buff) #(which made it a bit hilarious he was stuck with lincoln) #asked for questions before we started and someone asked about lincoln's 1860 election campaign! #aka one of my SPECIAL NICHE AREAS OF OBSESSION! #you cannot imagine how desperately i wanted to tell him ALL ABOUT seward and thurlow weed #anyway it was fun to go back now that i actually know stuff about lincoln #but it was also a bit frustrating because now i know how much they leave out #(though there was cool new info and artifacts) #(the blood-stained piece of laura keene's dress was very morbid and very cool) #also it reminded me that i still have that book on the 1860 election i've yet to read and the hype is so real #presidential talk

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[simcardiac-arrested]

also yes i do mean it you are onw of my favorite posters that isn't one of my buddies i know personally<3 you are quite funny and also cool! and also i remember we talked a little bit in the rw server in the early days of downpour... (looking onto the sunset) ahhh the saint post-rubicon spoilers chat. an interesting place that was. but yeah that makes me smile because i'm like oh it's that cool guy i talked to once :-)

#DUDE THANK YOU SO MUCH SERIOUSLY???? AGHHHH #ALSO STOPPP I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE KNOWS ME FROM THE DAMN RUBICON CHAT #THOSE WERE THE DAYS I USED TO CHECK THAT EVERYYYY DAY I LOVED DISCUSSING THE IMPLICATIONS OF SAINT #OR LIKE WHAT THE ENTIRE CAMPAIGN MEANT. BECAUSE I WAS SO CONFUSED AND I WANTED TO SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THOUGHT #it was like the only channel i ever checked except for art gallery and sometimes art discussion #ok i cant find the messages bc discord mobile search SUUUUUCKS but like #you’re the real cream simcardiac fan. pat yourself on the back #You’re like a 2018 rw fan but instead it’s me. is this anything at all

[l-tora-l]

Hello (again :6) !!!

#hola soy tora #aaaaah it feels interesting to be back #almost been a whole year! #and wow it's been rlly hectic #but that aside #hello (again) !!! #and super duper big thank you to the new milestone reached!!! #you guys are awesome #hope y'all are all good!!! #it'd be nice to catch up with the people who I haven't spoken to in so long😭 #and also the biggest thank you to everyone who left me those sweetest comments you don't know how much they meant to me 🥹 #like seriously thank you so much they were very much needed and well received #I'm not entirely sure how to use this blog again I feel like a ton has changed but I *think* I'm gonna make more gifs? but I think it'll #take a while cause I'm rlly not up to speed in anything at all #today was my final day (and exam!) for first year uni! #can you believe that? :0 #anyways thank you so much for everything and I'd hope to be back gradually! #and upload my new pinned post! #I actually made a priv account here so I wasn't totally gone but that happened a good while into my hiatus ahahaa #lmk if you want in to the priv teehee #🫶 #OH I ALMOST FORGOT #I HAVE #A RECS BLOG! #it's @scaramwah #teehee #<- I'll rb the pinned if you wanna check it out! it's sparse rn but I'm on holidays now so I can fill it up more! #actually I have a billion blogs I'll make some known in due course ☠️ #( queued ) #<- I'll be back tmrw ! today was tiring :(

[cerealmonster15]

life is like a metronome sometimes I reread my fics and go “heehee silly fun times” and other times I can’t get past 3 sentences with out going “NO this is CRINGE and BAD everyone that has ever said something nice about my work is a LIAR and an ENABLER and just FEELS BAD FOR ME” actually that says less about life and More about My Issues I think 🤔

#go back to therapy challenge. maybe In the new year #no actual hostility towards anyone that is nice 2 me lol #I simply just feel Insecure 🧍 but that’s a ME PROBLEM!!! #I’m on my lunch break writing my Kalim fic (???) (Idk Hes Kinda the pov protag) in my phone #chapter 2….. lol I was outlining it the other day like general points I want it to have #and like I have a GENERAL idea of where I want it to go. kind of. #but I really am kinda going into this blind #it’s ok it’s not meant to be a long deep fic #just like idk maybe a handful of chapters #but like I said. I’m much more used to writing the jami/azu so that’s kinda been the driver of the story #so much that I keep forgetting the silver/kalim part lol OUGHHH #lads idk if I’m gonna be able to pull this off. but I must try 🫡 #it’s ok if it’s bad I do not have to make a masterpiece but hhhhhh #I will be embarrased if I forget to include key points HAHA hdjfvjdjdjdjfjgj #knowing WHEN to introduce certain parts is the toughie #cuz there’s stuff I want to happen and things I want ppl to say but #lol organizing hard…. pacing hard…. we’ll see lads we’ll see #that’s why we r doing this… we r learning by doing lol 😭 DONT LOOK AT ME

[horrorwebs]

why are men literally the fucking worst

#theres a guy in one of my uni friend groups who has a crush on my friend also from the friend group #and she feels so so uncomfortable plus she hasnt done ANYTHING thatd give a hint that she likes him back. bc she doesnt #and now she doesnt feel ok around because hes so attached to her and so so needy and its like. well. way to fuck it up dude. fuck you #he has been acting so strange lately and not in a good way. strange awkward and needy and like. possesive. #her and i also have another friendgroup where frankly i feel much better with and she does too. and its like. well the guy is always like #butting in but now really being part of anything? like its not like he comes over to the grouo to be with all of us hes just sort of . there #talking only to her or sometimes me but its like not nice its weird and annoying #ALSO HES SO PATRONIZING TOWARDS HER ITS AWFUL #AND hes like. a bit older.... where its not like. the weirdest age gap i dont think so. but it IS a bit weird considering some of the things #he has said. like the other day he made a comment about how my friend 'well shes so young like people her age sometimes dont get [x]' like? #if you think she is SOOO young and SOOO out of touch with people your age well why the fuck are you asking others if you have a chance w her #get away from her really #sidenote: today she was telling me and a different friend about this problem and my other friend said it was really uncomfortable and bad + #that he used to think the guy had a thing for ME BEFORE??? and i dont know if he also thought -i- had a thing for him but please god no. #even the hypothetical made me feel super uncomfortable. also i used to feel like that a bit like he might like me and it was bad and gross #so i dropped a comment that let him believe i was a lesbian i think? also got much colder towards him . like. thats what you get fucker #about the lesbian thing i meant that he told me about a friend of his that had it hard coming out as a lesbian and i said like oh yeah being #like that was hard for me also. finding out i was not straight was tough etc . #dont remember if i said the word lesbian i dont think so but i did say i like girls and i didnt mention boys at all so i hoped itd be enough #also people dont really -get- what being asexuas means + didnt want to tell him im ace + techically i Can like boys bc romantic attraction #is undefined to me but i was definetely not going to tell him that bc 1. im much more prone to like a girl and 2. not trying to get his hope #up. #so anyway it was gross to realize other people saw it too so i mightve actually not been insane to think he had a crush on me but it was bad #and also. i really need for my friend to be comfortable in class so i might have to kill him who knows. well see #spikeposting #personal

[yuriprince]

if i said i wanted to watch fionna and cake so i could f/o fionna…😳

#me considering waiting til the whole show is out so i can exploit max’s week long free trial #and binge the whole thing in a week #srsly tho fionna has meant so much to me ever since she was created #we were weirdgirl4weirdgirl even back then i’m telling you #you know how she has that one side bang peeking out from her hat #I USED TO DO THAT I USED TO PUT MY HAIR UP AND LEAVE ONE SIDE BANG OUT #BECAUSE OF HER. I THOUGHT SHE WAS THE COOLEST #and now you’re telling me she’s a hot unemployed 30 y/o in present day???? i need her so bad???? #tea time!

[ghostlyheart]

Being a lesbian is so good and so freeing. You mean I get to love women for the rest of my life??? For free????

#happy international lesbian day i love love love being a lesbian!!! #something really clicked for me this year this label is important to me and I'm not worrying as much about the ''what ifs'' of the future #just embracing how i feel now #i remember being like 15 in CCD and being so grateful that sex before marriage was a sin because it meant I had an excuse to use against men #wish I could go back and tell her she never ever has to sleep with a man or do anything she doesn't want to do

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[harmonizewithechoes]

It’s my middle child’s 3rd birthday today 🥺

3 years ago my partner was deployed overseas and couldn’t come home for the birth because the military didn’t want to spend so much time quarantining their soldiers. Fortunately I had help as my parents were watching my son (at the time just a month shy of 2) for a few days before my due date and we had moved across the street from my partner’s parents when we found out about the deployment. So I had his mom with me at the hospital holding up her phone while we got to have a rare video call with my partner as we welcomed our daughter into the world after a very quick labor. I then had two months with our two very little kids by myself before he came home. It was an incredibly hectic time and I’m still not quite sure how I was able to get through all of that but here we are with the sweetest little 3 year old (let’s call her C) we could have asked for 🥰

C loves to play dress up and she has specific characters she’ll play as where you can’t refer to her as her name or she’ll get mad. She’s not C she’s Dr C or Baby or Baby Kitty or Princess Bucket (this was her first character and yes she does put a bucket on her head as a crown). Her favorite game to play is hide and seek and she loves dance parties and drawing and she’s obsessed with her 1 year old sister. We love C so much and I’m so excited to see how she grows and changes and learns over this next year ❤️

#personal #tonight her and her little sister are sleeping in their beds in their very own room for the first time #they’ve had their beds in my bedroom since we moved in and very often just ended up in our bed #but I’ve spent the past few days getting the room we’ve used for storage ready for them #and they’re doing really well so far #I’m sure they’ll end up in my bed again at some point but this is at least a step in the right direction #our crib that we’ve used for all 3 babies turns into a toddler bed and as I was taking it apart and putting it back together in the new room #my son started crying because he didn’t want his sisters to be big girls in their own room #he wanted me to put everything back and make the 1 year old 0 again so she could keep being a baby #I should point out that he is also obsessed with his baby sister #I told him that’s not quite how it works and kids are meant to grow up #and then he asked yet again for a baby brother because he loves babies so much and then he’d have a brother just like him 😅 #he’s very sweet but also…. that’s not happening lol #I’m slowly becoming a person again and being able to focus more time on hobbies #and my partner and I now have our room back #all of that would be reset again with another baby not to mention another year of nursing and diapers and sleepless nights…. pass lol #I’m emotional about my babies growing up but I’m also so excited to learn who they’ll become as time goes on #sorry for rambling I get sappy on their birthdays

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

“A part of me still thinks we’ll find our way back around.”

I hope we do ❤️

I left the church a while ago and I don’t think I have any blessings I can actually give but the best one I can think of is that I hope you find a place for your art to go

#let me know if you ever make it and I’ll do the same #in a few years maybe I’ll find my way to the tiny seaside down where all I have to do is write #and maybe you’ll find your way to where your art needs to be #i left religion for a reason but I do miss it #and one of the things I miss the most is the sense of determinism #you’re just becoming the person you need to be to get where you’re meant to be in the end #I don’t regret being a lawyer #but a part of me hopes desperate that I’m a lawyer because the version of me that becomes an author needed to be a lawyer first #when I was little I used to bookmark moments in my mind #I’d be doing something random and think ‘I’m going to think about this in one five ten years’ for no other reason than I wanted to track #the passage of time. ten years seemed so far ahead looking forward but I knew it’d be small looking back and that always seemed silly to me #I remember sitting outside a dressing room on an unremarkable day for no other reason than I decided I wanted to remember it in a decade #anyway I don’t do that so much anymore #but I think I’ll remember this in five years #and I hope when I remember it we’re both where we want to be #I hope you find your way back around #I hope you’re happy where you go #and I hope you can create everything your heart wants to let out

[camptw1nk]

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#not 2 be like. negative but i just kinda got hit hard by the way my relationship w my best friend has changed #dont get me wrong i understand that her girlfriend will be super important to her esp bc she lives across the world and is only physically #here for another 2 or so weeks #but my best friend just got back from a trip to another city to see an artist she loves and as she came in i got up to go see her and ask hl #how it was but she was in her room w her gf before i could and thats fine i get it and like she hasnt done anything wrong i can not #emphasize that enough like i hold no bitter feelings to her she is excited to talk to her gf understandably #it just hit me that like. oh yeah. i have no one else that i go to about literally anything but she does #and its less ab her so much as its. its just hitting me that i dont really have? friends? #i have one or two people but like. i only have One Person thats my go to fave person always tell them everything #and i just. I've realized that its not reciprocated the way it used to be #and that i think is just like a part of growing up #i dont have a partner i dont have someone my life is intrinsically linked to #like a best friend is great but its not. relationships are placed to a higher level you know like its jusy more important #and i just. ive nevr Had a partner really. unless u count a like 2 month thing when i was 12 which i dont count #not to be depresso but i am just not the kind of person that people want or desire #and thats been the case long before i came out as trans but its extra complicated now since i dont. Fully pass #idk not 2 sound sad i just wanna be loved #and i think theres only so many times i can hear the most important person in my life come home and talk excitedly ab things thru the walls #and then never actually get told anything myself. not just ab things shes excited for but just in general #we were meant to go to a house viewing together a few days ago and it was only half an hour before it was happening when no one else was #home that i messaged them to check in and they were like oh yeah we're not going we have this and this going on #which like. fine whatever but i dont drive and getting anywhere fast is hard so it just. was stressful #but it just seems like i am constantly out of the loop. everyone i live with is in a relationship w each other and i am just here #in every aspect of my life i am Just There and im tired of it #not to sound desperate or needy but i just would like to. be noticed? or feel prioritized? or even wanted #idk this is. i just needed to rant i think im emotional bc my hormones r a bit wack #im due for my testosterone shot in a few days but i dont have the money or time to go to the doctors lately so its being pushed back #a few weeks and its just. i think its messing w me a bit #i mean i feel this way literally all the time but just the like. the being upset and emotional and posting ab it i think is bc of that #idk i needed to get it out idk it this will stay up or not