#it was an hour drive each way

[luvbug724]

obsessed w jeanee Actually. she drove hours in the middle of the night for him. she organised a heist for him. she blackmails a university for him. she was willing to break into the nest w brute force for him. she was willing to rob a hardware store to do it. she seriously contemplates climbing over barbed wire fences to get to him. she handles diversions and distractions with grace for him. she has the invasive curiosity to want to know all abt his little knick knacks. she resorts to violence when someone tries to stop her from getting to him. she prays for him. she talks to him softly when the only feeling in the room is rage. she pushes his hair out of his face. she checks his pulse obsessively. YEAH………… are we all seeing this rn

its so wonderful to me too because like this is RENEE. renee, who is a bad person trying very hard to be good. there was a post going around maybe a month ago how empathy for everyone circles back around into empathy for no one i can't remember any of the specifics but it rlly did something for how i see renee because shes a protector. its defensive. its safe. she knows the limits, she knows the point of no return because shes been to rock bottom and clawed her way up but she's willing to do whatever she needs to to get jean out of the nest.

there is a big difference between cradling allison when andrew hurts her vs actively threatening eau, going on the offense to make sure jean leaves safe with her. there's something insane to me abt how a few months of texting and calling jean could push her to that point, the point where she needed to be talked down off the ledge before the plan was more natalie than renee because this was something she absolutely could not fuck up. she knew that her efforts would be worthless if she didn't create a plan that couldn't backfire, because the punishment for jean trying to leave and failing (and i'm sure that message to renee would be used against him) or leaving and coming back would be 1000x worse than whatever they could do to him from a distance.

and then when she has him in his arms and she knows he's going to be safe, he'll be okay as long as she can get him to abby, she can let herself be kind again.

#IT DRIVES ME INSANE #like helloooooo?????? #i genuinely am not sure if this makes sense or if its just wordvomit but DO YOU GET IT #it may not be love yet but it IS something worthwhile. you know #they havent even known each other for that long!!!!!!!! #i said a few tags back that renee's actions arent lesser if theyre based on romance and like i know its been maybe 2 hours since i said it #but i still agree!!!! renee i think doesnt get her due diligence for her motivations. in the pursuit of like the strong independent #woman archetype i think we've neglected the fact that you know. a woman can be motivated by romantic feelings and it doesn't make her any #less strong or liberated #having a connection with a person isn't a weakness #feminism is so nuanced! there is no one size fits all! restating this idea for the third time this post but there is no weakness in love #even though misogyny has made it so easy to get reactionary with it and claim that any show of strength isn't motivated by it at all! #do u catch my drift. i can say it a different way a fourth time if necessary i dont think i can verbalize my thoughts well #hm ok thoughts to chew on! #back to my shitty hockey novels while i wait for tsc to drop! #jeanee #asks

[paellegere]

i like how dean's impatience to get through these trials mirrors both kevin's situation and his own inner desires. kevin really is, in a way, a manifestation of dean's current state: he's a guy forced into a life he doesn't want and who wants to get it over with so he can move on (to what? who knows).

the bunker was introduced at probably the perfect point then, because it represents a kind of stability dean has never had, and so it only serves to make him crave that alternate life more desperately. it feeds into his impatience and fucks him over in the end.

and on the other end of this is sam, who, like he says at the beginning of episode 8.14, is treating this life as a marathon, not a sprint. there's a marked difference between how sam is using the bunker and how dean is: for dean it's stability and home, an ideal he's never really had. sam, on the other hand, is largely indifferent to this idea of stability, represented in his indifference to maintaining his space (i.e. not caring that he misses the trash can when he throws out his wrapper) and his irreverence toward dean's lifestyle changes (i.e. mocking dean for "nesting" and cooking and generally becoming something of a homemaker). this is a running theme throughout supernatural... over and over sam completely abandons the idea of a normative life, even when he claims to want "out" so badly. he's more willing to give everything up, to avoid forming attachments, to simply not care about what he could have instead.

it's expounded on again and again throughout the show that dean and sam are opposites in this regard. dean has resigned himself to the hunter life, but he secretly craves normalcy. sam tries to get out of the hunter life, but he is more willing than even dean to commit himself fully to it.

and so the fact that this culminates in sam undertaking the trials is delightfully poetic. dean wants out, and so even though he wants to protect sam and take the trials on himself, he fails to rise to the occasion: his own impatience to leave this world behind, his desire to get out, becomes his undoing. sam, committed to this life for the long haul and fully resigning himself to everything that means, is the one left.

so in the end, dean fails to protect sam because of his own inability to give everything up. it's just another reason to hate himself. and how fucked up is it that despite dean going on and on about how attachments are liabilities, it's those very attachments, those deep-seated desires, that backfire on him thoroughly. he can't even live up to his own ideologies. in this way, sam and john are far more similar; dean is the black sheep of the family.

benny and the bunker both are great ways to set up this plot line and symbolize dean's inner psychology. it provides great setup and tension that's been building across the season, so that when the final hour approaches and dean fails spectacularly to protect the one person he's devoted his whole life to, there is a whole list of everywhere dean went wrong to look back on and regret. it's a perfect tragedy because it's entirely preventable, and yet doomed from the start—because how can you really blame someone simply for wanting something he can call home?

#liveblogging: supernatural #8.14 #i'm so happy they're playing with this again. it feels like early spn in the way they play with sam and dean's psychology #juxtapose them against each other and show their contradictions #feels good feels organic #especially after 2.5 seasons of beating myself with hammers #actually i could talk for hours about this episode #the first half and the second half play with different aspects of the same thing and it's driving me crazy #this was a really fucking good episode. thank you so much spn #.txt #the winchester gospel #spn posting

[silhouette-cosplay]

it’s Ice Castles shoot day woot woot 😎

#two hour drive each way but worth ittttt #I will be deaded but still worth it #hoping for some good pics! #first time wearing the Loki with hair and makeup so

[aahsoka]

torn between going up to my bfs house to surprise him and watch a movie with him in person instead of online tonight or if that would just make him feel stressed

#im like ok this is what I would want if this situation happened to me #but what does he want. idk the man is an anxious mess #hed be like oh no i have to feed u or oh no u need to be doing ur homework or whatever . #i could pickup food on the way 🤔 #im just thinking about it like he only lives an hour away that was really nothing when i lived in wyoming #wed drive three hours to places on a saturday and back home all the time #it is a busy time for him work wise so i dont usually stay over bc we wouldnt get to see each other #but like we are gonna take a break to watch a movie Anyways . why not in person #jordan talks #someone help me out here should i just do it lmfao #tbf i havent even started sketching my project thats due tuesday .

[shitty-check-please-aus]

what if I become a single-issue voter but my single issue is high-speed train service (& the associated infrastructure needed for it) between cities in the US

#it takes about 3 hours to go from Chicago to Indianapolis by car #about 1 hour by plane #and like 7 hours by train #and the train only goes eastbound on Tuesdays Thursdays and Saturdays #and it only goes back westbound on Sunday Wednesday and Friday #and it's only one time each of those days #and Chicago and Indianapolis are like major cities in neighboring states #it just feels ridiculous that my options are 'fly' or 'find a way to rent or borrow a car' #and ALSO the time I'm looking at is February #and I just KNOW if I drove there would be some insane scary blizzard #and y'know I haven't been driving as much living in the city #I don't know if I would feel comfortable driving in even a moderate snowstorm for that long #I think I might just not be going to this bachelorette party

[clueless1995]

american colleges are so scary to me. you guys have to share rooms??? on campus??? absolutely not i would’ve started killing too

#i don’t think i’ve been to a single uni party and i’m on my like. 7th year here #and the whole parents getting emotional sending their kids off to college is so wild i lived at home the first couple of years #my mum drove me to uni twice a week while i was living at home (VERY SWEET OF HER it was like 45 min each way and my classes were like three #hours long but i didn’t drive and the public transport system here sucks unless you live fairly central) #and now i Do live somewhere i can easily bus to campus i barely go to class skdhsjd #but yeah all of those scenes of college kids hanging out on the quad and going to mixers or whatever are so foreign to me #do not get me started of fraternities and sororities. the closest we have is like. the law society #or like. college newspapers??? #i AM jealous of college radio stations though i think i would be an iconic college radio host/dj

[flashlight-smallknife]

One thing about me is I have no fucking clue what the words to *equip sunglasses* are. It is my sixth most played song of all time on last.fm. I have listened to it 270 times since May 2020 and it was also one of my top tracks in 2019. FOUR YEARS of listening to this song HUNDREDS of times and I have absolutely not a goddamn clue what the words are. I can scream every syllable to every single track on WWIW after like a quarter of the plays but after four fucking years I still don’t know what Tades is trying to say with this one.

#dear diary #hot mulligan #seeing them live Sunday for the 4th time holy shit #first time I’ve ever seen them headline I’m so fucking stoked #also cats cradle is probably my favorite venue in North Carolina #more than a 3 hour drive each way but completely worth it!!!

[clowndensation]

the thing about soulsborne games is that everybody thinks they're difficult because the combat is hard. this is incorrect. soulsborne games are difficult because i get lost very easily, and nobody in those games gives you directions.

#need you all to understand i couldn't figure out my way from my apartment room to the laundromat (inside the complex) #for roughly 5 trips down there #i was playing soma and i had to stop because there was a chase sequence where you're supposed to backtrack to safety #and i forgot where it was. i tried for 3 hours but i couldn't rule out anything because i'm so direction blind i'd forget each time. #i once got lost as a kid going to my friend's house. the directions were 'walk straight for 10 blocks and then turn left'. couldn't do it. #her parents had to drive out to pick me up.

[treewithabark]

My mum met Juno for the first time yesterday and she adored her. Apparently she’d like to steal Juno, and honestly once her garden is secured and Juno’s a little easier to handle, I’d probably let her.

I’m just glad that she mostly behaved during my mums visit, she’s slowly getting better at settling in public. Juno is very good at first impressions, which makes me seem really mean when I call her a swine (affectionately)

#that lil squirrel was a gift from mother #seems like everyone brings her a little gift when they see her it’s very very sweet #i find it really hard seeing my mum because even though we’re only an hour apart neither of us drive #buses are an absolute pain and take ages #doesn’t help that we have to catch more than one to get to eachother #plus we both have health issues so sometimes spending 2 hours on a bus each way can be really difficult #i love her so much though and when I get my lisence I’m gonna take her on dogs walks with me

[munch-mumbles]

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?' #and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.) #etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh? #and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

[pinktwink]

Carly concert got rained out after only 3 songs but she did an impromptu sing a long at a tiny venue after and I was literally in the very front it was so amazing

#i did drive 4 hours each way so i would have loved the actual concert but it made me happy

[stars-inthe-sky]

🍁You are fabulous. Tell me something happy about this week, then pass this on to five more people. Happiness for everyone!! 🍁

My parents are coming to visit on Saturday!

I have some in-person professional networking-type coffee plans lined up because I live in a real freakin' city with other nonprofit people again!

I am playing hooky a bit on Thursday to see a matinee of the Moulin Rouge tour because I live in a real freakin' city with actual freakin' theatre!

The leaves have changed color and they are pretty!

We popped over to NYC for the weekend for Boyfriend's cousin's 40th birthday party and are still kvelling over how quick and easy the trip was!

#stpauligirl #ask me ask me ask me #longtime followers may recall i saw moulin rouge pre-broadway back in boston #but 1) that movie is an all-timer for me and 2) i'm curious what changes got made along the way #and 3) all the dancing and mashups were so insane i want to experience them again #i am also seeing a couple of other shows in the next couple of weeks #which means in about two months i'll have seen almost as many shows here as i did in four years of illinois #in fairness there was covid and a baby in the middle of that #but even so #anyway i also want to cry with joy that we didn't have to drive two hours each way to fly out of indianapolis at a weird hour #is this the real life?

[despairforme]

If he doesn't get milkshake today...

#[ SAY NO MORE SIR ] #[ hello guys !! i was v busy yesterday ] #[ had to drive my s/o to the airport ] #[ 4 hours each way t-t 8 hours t-t cry ] #[ and now i'm all alone for three weeks RIP ] #[ mah i'm gonna go and visit my parents today and stay for a few days ] #[ justttt gotta clean and tidy the house before i leave ] #[ i loooove leaving things neat and tidy uvu ] #[ i'll bring my laptop so hopefully i can do some writing 8) ] #[ i am 4k behind atm so GOTTA WORK HARD ] #[ hope you're all doing goooood ] #despair for me. ╱ in character.

[aroaceleovaldez]

variety in my canon-divergence aus:

Percy is successfully pulled into Tartarus during his quest to the Underworld in TLT (kronos!Percy)

Sally drives everyone home in her car after the beginning of TTC instead of Thalia driving the sun (8 hour roadtrip)

#pjo #au #aus #do not be fooled theyre both extremely silly #13 y/o Percy possessed by a Titan is still TLT Percy so he has Absolutely Zero Idea What's Going On and just wants his mom #and he ends up with a little squad of Titan Army kids who arent like security or anything they're just basically babysitting him #cause this kid could easily destroy half the continent but he doesnt even know who all the olympians are yet and he'd like a debrief #and also he spends half his time laying face-down in the pool on the deck of the Princess Andromeda #everyone's terrified of him but he's just having A Time #then the other is just. 8 hour roadtrip of hell #poor Sally's on no sleep and she's stuck in a car with like 8 upset bickering teenagers #its literally just the TTC quest crew + Nico and Sally. except jammed into a car for eight hours. #the rest of the Hunters probably just went about their business as per usual but Zoe and Bianca went with everybody else #Bianca's fighting with Nico. Nico's annoying Percy. Percy's fighting with Thalia. Thalia's fighting with Zoe. #Grover Percy and Thalia are all crying over Annabeth. It's 4am and Sally is running on no sleep stuck in traffic in the winter #and they have 4 big 3 kids in the car so they really have to book it back to long island #and meanwhile despite all the bickering everyone is in unanimous agreement to NOT PISS OFF SALLY #theyre all at each other's throats but Sally is Lovely and is being nice enough to drive them home #so theyre all trying to strangle each other in the Least-Disruptive-To-Sally way possible #feel free to ask me more about these aus cause i love them dearly

[iero]

One thing that I've noticed in myself that I really hate is that I no longer enjoy going on long drives. If you asked me even a year or two ago, I would have told you I loved doing long drives for whatever reason, if there was one. Now, I'm like, "If I have to drive more then 45 minutes or more one way? Kill me."

#personal #I don't say this for obvious reasons either like gas prices and whatnot. #I used to love going on drives even to just clear my mind. What happened to me? #When I got so mad at my mom one time I got in my car and drove all the way down to the Mason Dixon line which is like a 90 minute drive. #All because I was angry and I didn't realize it until I saw the 'Maryland welcomes you.' sign LMAOO #I used to have to have to commute 45 minutes each way for work when I lived with my mom and boyfriend back in like 2019 too. #And now my mom is willingly asking me to drive FOUR hours each way for a weekend in April... I'm like 'UH- Can we carpool?'

[whyisablog]

Had a dream recently where I was trying to get home from boston through the back roads (roads that obviously avoid the highway cause i hate driving on the highway irl) and driving through cities both kinda looked like driving home from work and walking through a mall/trader joes/omega mart, las vegas you know the one.

Anyway after checking a map, which was actually somewhat legible though was far too short of a distance to be plausible, me and my traveling companions passed through this coastal town that featured a salt water cranberry bog maze as it's main tourist attraction. Since we missed out on the local traveling carnival, we said fuck it, and decided to try it out.

The idea here was to go through the maze on your little paddle boat- imagine an innertube from a roaring rapids theme park ride but swan boat style -through the deep water with not only the bog spiders in mind, but also the cranberry dolphins that not only looked and acted like mini orca whales, but frequented the maze with the sole intent to terrorize patrons. Mostly because these paddle boats had open bottoms like flinstones cars and peoples feet looked like delicious, delectable swedish fish to these guys, but that's beside the point. (This was also, very much, a large part of the point.)

These dolphins immediately were the main concern over the bog spiders, as you can imagine. As soon as we found out about the dolphins, we paddled towards the exit.

The dolphins then capsized our vessel and we were forced to wade to the docks for safety.

My favorite part about this was not the burgandy psuedo orcas, but the little nature walk/dangerous jungle style signs warning us about them and the bog spiders, despite the spiders not even making an appearance, though the signs were kind of small and too far away from where the boats tended to travel to be great warnings... Also the cranberry bog looked more like an overgrown yet nicely organized saltwater marsh but taller and more jungle like.

#the visuals had me on the edge of my seat though #like the main voyage was immediately set aside for the side quest that was Cranberry Bog #also on the way to the city that had the cranberry bog there was a funhouse mirror style hall of elevators at this mall we stopped at #we were on our way down from the food court and had to use an elevator as you do #but for some reason the elevators in my dreams are incredibly fucked up #like sometimes they stop halfway or get pulled up when you want to go down #or drop through the ground instead of go a floor down like you wanted it to #anyway this hall of elevators was just #you know when you get to where the elevators are and there are like 6 elevators #there had to be at least eight on either side of this hallway and in each elevator the car was at varying degrees of stuck in the shaft #one of them was blocked off entirely because there was no car #a few of them the people inside them were stuck either half way up or halfway down and they were on their phones complaining #that they'd been stuck there for hours #this one lady said yeah I've been stuck here since 2002 i don't think you should use any of the elevators. #we ended up taking the stairs #which were also like a minecraft parkour #but im not about to get into that lol #also my dreams feature a lot of milkshake bars and im so totally into that oh my god #and driving to the grocery store #oh yeah there was also this one scene in my dream where i was walking down the street from this burger joint and i passed this guy #he was standing outside this pay to park car park selling free puppies for a dollar #and this girl walks past and she says oh i dont have any cash #just cards #and he says yeah thats fine it'll be 5 dollars. #he scams her out of 220 dollars leaving her with only 2 cents and doesnt even give her the dog #anyway haopy 2024 you guys cant wait to tell you more dreams #hey should i make a tumblr thats just a dream journal about my dreams? that would be dope #i know onetimeidreamt exists but thats not all HER dreams. im talkimg about a tumblr of just MY dreams #thats probably already been done but fuck it #sorry if the tags got a little long the dream itself had too many moving parts and i didnt want to make it too long