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renaerys · 3 years

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22. for reds 🤡

This is 100% not what you asked for (yet...👀), but I give you part 1 of what we're calling the Weird King AU. I'm turning this into a proper multi-chapter High School fic because I love you and I'd jump on any bandwagon for you.

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Like most young, conventionally attractive Supervillains, Brick had made a bit of a habit of failing upwards. It was pretty easy in a town full of simpering morons content to project their own narrative assumptions onto him, and who was he to crush their dreams when they made his life a little easier?

For example, dating.

“You can tell me, you know.” His cute date, Tracy, sipped her milkshake across from him.

“Tell you what?”

She softened and reached her hand across the table. “Your tragic backstory. I’ll listen without judgment, I promise.”

Brick tried to think of something tragic, but it all seemed pretty underwhelming as far as Supervillain origin stories went. “You mean like how I was born in a toilet?”

She made an oh shape with her lips. “We all have those days where we feel like we were born in a toilet, Brick.”

He’d dated Tracy for three months before she broke up with him out of the blue in tears: sorry she couldn’t fix his baggage, she just wasn’t strong enough to handle all that tortured darkness, but she wished him nothing but health and happiness. Brick deleted her number from his phone and spent twenty whole minutes staring at the toilet in his bathroom, wondering what the lesson here was.

But everything changed when Mojo got out of prison and moved Brick and his brothers back to Townsville, where he enrolled them in the local high school alongside their former arch nemeses, the Powerpuff Girls.

Suddenly, everything Brick did pre-supposed ill intent. These people remembered him as the pest who had graffitied their local monuments and blown up their cars and endangered their children. They held no love for him, and at best they feared him. This was not Citiesville, where he’d been a tall, cold glass of Voss water in a sea of recycled Dasani.

He found himself thinking about his birthing toilet again as he stepped into the cafeteria alone and the conversation quieted down as his new classmates watched him from the safety of their tables. His next moves here were critical. He was no longer at the top of the food chain, but fear and mystery surrounding his origins and character gave him a certain power over his peers.

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of social suicide, I will fear no cringe,” he said to himself.

The jocks were out. Capable though he may be, Brick was not much of a team player unless there was a blood contract involved requiring his participation on pain of satanic torture. The drama kids were also a hard pass, not because he thought drama was lame, but because they had barely noticed him walk in, and Brick did not have the energy to deal with people more self-involved than himself. Some of the unaffiliated tables could be safe, but without a good understanding of the nuanced social dynamics in the high school, he could be heading toward irreversible doom, and that was a risk he was not willing to take.

He saw his salvation just ahead. It was the only option, all else being equal. In an environment where he couldn’t be certain of his baseline status and potential for upward mobility, there was greatness to be had only by association and certainty only in the devil he knew.

Brick helped himself to the empty seat directly across from Blossom Utonium to a chorus of gasps and staring.

Blossom did not startle like her table mates had. She watched him critically behind a head full of bangs as she balanced her soup spoon in her hand. “Really.”

Brick unwrapped the burrito he’d purchased in the lunch line and brandished it before him. “Really.”

He took a bite of the burrito. It was not hot enough. The two girls to Blossom’s left whispered to each other about that bad boy and he’s hot, though.

Blossom daintily spooned soup into her mouth without spilling a single drop as she continued to watch Brick for signs of his imminent dark side transformation.

The guy next to Brick was brave enough to ask him what his next class was. Brick had a mouth full of disappointing burrito, so he passed the guy the printout of his class schedule in lieu of answering.

“Wow, all APs, huh? Hey, we’re in U.S. History together next period, nice. I’m Mike Believe, by the way. Brick Jojo, right?”

Brick didn’t answer him immediately on account of the burrito currently occupying his mouth hole, and Mike took it the wrong way.

“Oh, yeah, we all know who you are. Blossom sort of filled us in.” He winced like he’d inadvertently revealed a terrible secret.

Brick swallowed his food and washed it down with a gulp of water. “Saves me some time.”

Mike looked super relieved. “For sure! Hey, I could lend you my notes if you want to catch up. Gershwin’s giving a quiz on the Progressive Era on Friday, and she’s a hard-ass who definitely won’t care that you just transferred…”

Brick chewed on his lunch as Mike continued to talk at him about classes and other vaguely helpful, albeit uninteresting, information. But Mike seemed normal enough, a little chatty but not in an overeager sort of way. Blossom was no longer clocking his every move and seemed to be absorbed in her friend’s latest swim team cheating scandal, until Brick reached for his water bottle and she suddenly laser-focused on his wandering hand.

Her keen attention to him was honestly flattering, if expected. It was in his nature to be noticed, and in this narrow respect she was no different from anyone else whose head he turned. If she chose to feed her interest with the flames of suspicion, then it was no difference to him.

But if she was anything like him—and on a chemical level she was probably the closest to him that a person could get—he suspected it took tremendous effort to hold her full and sustained attention. The world they inhabited was as vapid and mundane as the humans that surrounded them, and even the most gracious of gods grew bored of worship. Which explained all the smiting and fucking and generational curses upon entire households in everything from Greek mythology to the Old Testament.

Brick was pretty deep into a fantasy of Blossom going full Ixion and the Wheel on the swim team when Mike tapped his shoulder. “You ready to go?”

It took him a moment to realize the bell had rung and he had a class to get to—AP U.S. History with Mike, apparently. Brick gathered his tray and his bag and followed Mike. When he looked back at the table, Blossom was already gone.

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That whole first week was painfully boring. No one bullied him, or pranked him, or picked a fight with him, of course. But no one really approached him, either. His brothers were more determined to make an effort. Boomer announced he was trying out for the soccer team because there was no rule saying a Super with extremely well documented ties to active criminals and the forces of Hell couldn’t kick a ball around a field. Butch had gotten himself invited to a midnight screening of Snakes on a Plane in some rich kid’s home movie theater, but only after that same kid had accidentally spilled milk on Butch and burst into tears in front of a cafeteria full of Juniors and Seniors. Brick declined the invitation Butch extended to him. He had that AP U.S. History exam to study for on Friday, anyway.

He shared all of his classes with Blossom. Even in the classes where her assigned seat was behind his and he couldn’t see her, he could feel her lobotomizing stare at the back of his head whenever she glanced up from her notebook. And while Mike’s notes were perfectly adequate and the friendly gesture counted for more than the content (a gesture Brick would not soon forget), there was a far more efficient way to accomplish his goal of murdering the class averages while also taking the edge off his loner doldrums.

“Can I borrow your class notes?”

Blossom rose from her seat and pulled her hair tie out to re-do her extremely long ponytail. She held the elastic between her teeth as she worked. Her teeth were very straight, he noticed. Some pretty nice girl-teeth, generally speaking.

“Which class?”

“All of them.”

He watched her wind the elastic around her hair with quick, adroit fingers. “That’s a lot of notes.”

“You’re the top of every class. No point in asking anyone else.”

She moved toward the hall. He followed her out. “Why would I help you?”

A legitimate question delivered without venom. Unlike her sister Buttercup, who’d “run into” Brick after school on Monday and told him to watch his back, Blossom didn’t have to do anything but maintain a general proximity to make her superiority complex known. Which was the kind of flex he could fuck with.

“Isn’t helping people sort of your mandate?”

They had arrived at her locker, which she opened with enough force to rattle the hinges. “I help the helpless. Are you helpless, Brick?”

Brick smiled at her baiting. Had she ever actually said his name at a normal volume before? It sounded good even in her baseline bitch timbre. “Critically helpless. I’m the new student who transferred in the middle of the semester, and you’re the only person who knows me.”

A couple other students clearly trying to get to the lockers Brick was blocking hovered just out of reach. They whispered to each other, but neither of them actually worked up the courage to ask Brick to move. He ignored them.

Blossom rummaged in her locker for the binder she would need for the next class. “Make friends.”

“Working on it.”

The locker door slammed and she faced him. There was something confrontational in the way she held herself before him that kicked him in the nuts back in time thirteen years to their more uncouth days when all he wanted to do was destroy her so he’d be the only one. Now they were older and wiser and he actually did need her notes to study, so destroying her was not high on his list of priorities.

“You want to be my friend.”

“We have so much in common.”

“So do lions and hyenas.”

“Both are apex predators, so.”

She took a step closer and peered up at him. Brick did not move, although he wondered what was so interesting about his face. She probably just thought he was hot. She was probably as bored as he was. She probably—

“You have lettuce in your teeth.”

Brick pulled back and covered his mouth on instinct. God fucking damnit.

Blossom was already walking away from him by the time he’d picked the food from his teeth. “I’ll expect my notes back in mint condition before first period tomorrow morning.”

Brick pressed a fist against the lockers and quietly fumed. “Dumbass…”

“Um, sorry, but do you mind…?”

The student who’d been waiting for her locker space to clear up had her palms up as if to assuage a feral stray. Brick pushed off the lockers, but his fist left a dent where he’d unleashed some of his impotent self-pity. He looked back at the girl, and she shook her head.

“It’s fine! It, uh, it happens sometimes.” She pointed a couple lockers down to Blossom’s, which was dinged up worse than the others.

Brick stared at Blossom’s locker, and then back at the girl. Her narrow, dark eyes were wide, but not out of fear. She was waiting for something, and like an idiot it took him a moment to catch up. “You’re trying to make me feel better about fucking up your locker.”

She laughed nervously. “I mean, it’s really fine! You just looked so miserable for a second there, and I just thought…”

Great, he was moping so hard he had an audience.

The five minute warning bell rang, and a flood of students rushed past them on their way to fourth period. Brick stepped aside so the girl could get to her locker.

“Hey, you’re the new guy, right?”

The new guy, yeah. How quaint. Except, she was waiting for a response, which wasn’t the absolute worst thing that had happened to him all week.

“Brick,” he said. But of course, she already knew that, and she was just being nice.

“I’m Kim. Kim Chan.”

“Okay.” He didn’t have anything else to say to her, so he decided to get his shit and get to his next class.

“Welcome back to Townsville, Brick.”

Brick shoved his hands in his pockets and stalked off. It didn’t occur to him until later that Kim was the first and only person who had properly welcomed him back home.

#powerpuff girls #powerpuff girls fanfic #blossick #ppg reds #ppg blossom #ppg brick #september fic prompts #weird king au #i have no idea what i will call this yet #but it'll make its way to AO3 and it'll be a Thing #i have to think of themes and shit now #i came here to shit post and here we are with another full on Reds fic

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nayarablueglasses · 3 years

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Duo x male reader

a/n: oh gods this is so. anyways this was meant for day thirteen of the @gundam-wing-pride event but certain circumstances have caused me to be unable to post in time for it. the tears prompt was kept in mind for this, i hope it suffices.

word count: 2,059

summary: horrific battles never made you cry, so how did a joke from Duo manage to do it?

warnings: reader is in an active war at first, brief mentions of reader becoming deaf to loud sounds after the battle, reader has a very dry way of thinking, i haven't seen the entirety of the show in ages so i think my timeline is a little messed up

reader pronouns: he/him but comes off as gn

How’d you end up here?

You’d woken up to the extremely jarring sounds of the space station’s evacuation alarms. Considering the immediate panicking masses of people that then flooded the streets, it wasn’t the best way to wake up. Especially when you factor in that your first evacuation drill since the ‘safe space’ had been rebuilt, relocated and refortified was supposed to happen next week. Though to be fair, there were absolutely no signs that you knew of that would signal a a war erupting on your colony.

Honestly? You never were impressed by the Gundams. All you knew about them was that they were starting a war with what a few of the colonies had begun to call the “colony rebels.” The White Fang. Maybe the White Fang had started the war, but you could care less. No matter who’d started this, the colonies- your colony- was caught in the crossfires now.

And it wasn’t like you could trust the Gundams, either. It wasn’t that long ago that Gundam Pilot 04 almost blew up an entire colony because their father had been killed. If that was how the Gundams handled personal loss, your colony could only speculate on the ways they’d deal with the political difficulties of a war. And unsurprisingly, it turned out that they handled it absolutely terribly.

The scariest part was the absolute absurdness of the whole war. Two sides that claimed to speak for the colonies. The White Fang pressed attention on the colonies, while the Gundams remained an absolute mystery. Plus, the individual power struggles claiming the colonies, the Treize Faction war against Oz that was reportedly occuring back on Earth... everybody was misinformed about absolutely all of it, and the best you could do was try to make sense of the chaos unfolding and hope it never touched your poor colony.

But wishes don’t always come true. And certainly never the wishes you make.

Like the wish you’d been repeating back to yourself for the last hour- to be able to come out of this unscathed. Your arm had some thoughts on that.

As it turns out, trying to run through an active warzone to the safe space you didn’t know the location of was extremely dangerous. So dangerous that your arm had been hit with a stray bullet. Right now the main dangers were the footsoldiers firing at each other, but not that far off in the distance you could see two of the Gundams fighting a swarm of Taruses. The fact that they weren’t close was anything but comforting, since you’d seen the speed of the Gundams before on T.V.

Oh.

“Hey- get outta the way! Ya try’na get killed?” A White Fang footsoldier shoved you to the side, presumably trying to help. Instead you stumbled facedown into a very large pile of scrap metal. Which very much hurt your arm and effectively trapped your leg as well.

Fun. “The fuck kinda horror movie is this?” You muttered to yourself. Of course, of course you ran directly into the fray. Because of COURSE that was safer than the opposite direction (which in all fairness had been covered in sharp-looking rubble). That’s fine. You could work with this. What did your uncle usually tell you- take inventory in terms of crises?

You hadn’t brought a backpack with you, so, all you could take inventory on was what was in your pockets. One elastic, a single outdated coin, and fuzz. Plus, a bleeding arm and the bullet you figured was still in there, a possibly twisted and hopefully not broken foot, ringing in your ears... and the clothes on your back. Ok.

So this is how you die? Fine. That’s fucking fine. You had plenty to live for, but fine. Who cares?

“Woah-hoh, what the hell? Hey- hey handsome, you awake?”

A very neon green light pierced your consciousness. Out of habit, you tried to raise your arm to block it out- and then an even more painful, piercing feeling jolted through your whole body. “Ahh-huah- ‘m. ‘m awake now. Ohhh gods. Yeah. ‘m- yeah. Fuck. Who’re you and are you going to help me or kill me?”

“Kill you? Man, I might be the god of Death and all but I’m not going to kill you! You related to Heero or somethin’?”

“Don’t know- ow- who the fuck that is. What’s up with that green light shit> ‘M gonna be blinded if I open my eyes.”

And there the light went. Nice. If this guy didn’t kill you, you might actually survive. Sans your arm. Nobody on your colony could help your arm. You figured that life would be interesting from now on. “Great, thanks man. Fuuuuck. You- you see my arm? Yeah- I’m taking your silence as a yeah. This bitch’s fucked and moving at all is very very painful. So hey random stranger. You strong enough to carry me to the nearest amputator?”

Apparently you were just being dramatic. Your arm would 100% be still attached and your foot would survive. Your ears were… fine. After waking up in a hospital on an entirely different colony station, you learned that apparently, there exists a kind of deaf in which it was hard to hear things that were too loud. Which. You now had.

No more concerts. Meh.

The most jarring of everything was when you discovered that a) you were likely to have either trauma or ptsd and b) the guy that carried you to the hospital in his Gundam- was a Gundam Pilot. 02. Duo Maxwell. He’d brought you to Colony 14 Blue and was now reportedly “chillin’ outside until you get discharged.” with the promise that he’d bring you to the Peacemillion afterwards.

Oh. And almost everybody you knew closely had “likely” passed away in the attack. The therapy for that was going to be interesting when you consider that nobody of your family was on the colony at the time of the attack. Honestly the way they were pressing for you to be evaled made it feel like they were planning to make an example out of your supposedly poor mental state. Unsurprisingly the hospital was being run by the White Fang.

Discharge went quickly. The ride back to Duo’s Deathscythe went quickly. The ride in Duo’s Deathscythe went far, far too slowly. And adjusting to life on the Peacemillion went poorly.

Every now and again, Duo would look for you and, if he hadn’t immediately come from a fight (he passed out on your carpet once due to blood loss after being in a gunfight. Zechs was less than appreciative.), he’d bring you to the nearest colony. Being able to enjoy a day out on occasion was a rarity you usually only got to experience with Duo.

“Ooooi, Duo. Check these out. Tell me these aren’t the coolest gloves you’ve ever seen.” You held up some black fingerless gloves for him to inspect. He’d brought you to a new colony, where apparently a special holiday (complete with fun sales) was happening. Admittedly, some of the people on this station were giving you and Duo some especially strange looks whenever Duo would tug on your shirt or grab your hand to get your attention but like. Fuck them.

“Hey, those look pretty awesome!” he grinned and bounced over, snatching the gloves from your hands to look for a price tag. “To steal or not to steal, that is the question.”

You raised an eyebrow. So maybe the crush you’d developed on this overgrown child of a thief was growing. So what? It’s just a crush. Everything’s going to be fine. “Is the price tag expensive or something?”

Duo shook his head. “Exact opposite. There isn’t one.”

“Let’s just leave ten gilla and bolt, then.”

“...wicked.”

Normally the rides back home were silent and awkward, but after the rather exciting day you’d had, you were feeling especially chatty. Which wasn’t to say that there weren’t still awkward breaks in the conversation. It was quiet, sure, but a lot of things had been quiet lately. Being deaf to louder things tended to do that to a person.

Duo drew you out of your thoughts with another tug on your sleeve and pressed one of the gloves into your hand. “Here. Figured we’d both look badass with just one glove. Plus we match!” He held up his gloved left hand with an air of confidence. He wasn’t wrong, honestly. Wearing his braid the way he did, he already cut an impressive figure, but the gloves really sold the look.

You pulled on the glove he gave you, flexing your fingers to test it’s flexibility. After all, if you couldn’t engage in you and Duo’s elaborate handshake, you might have to ditch the glove altogether. Luckily the glove fit you well- functionality and style alike. Ten gilla spent well.

“Not bad. Y’think Zechs’ll get jealous?” Duo laughed at the idea.

“Doubtful, doesn’t he have Noin to get him cool stuff? Plus, I think his mask and that hair are defining accessories, what else does he need?”

You shrugged. “What gay wouldn’t love these? ‘M already enjoying mine ‘nd yours look more worn in than mine do. Solid fuckin’ proof right there.” Not like you could confirm or deny that Duo was gay. Honestly, you didn’t really care for his specific labels, but Zechs was definitely gay so it just helped further the joke. With his demeanor and his lesbian best friend? Could the flags get any gayer.

“More like pansexual on my account. Good to know your take on gender preference though. This mean I’m allowed to openly flirt with you now?” He leaned back into his seat, throwing his feet up onto the table in front of you and resting his head in his hands.

You raised an eyebrow. “Only if you promise not to ‘no homo’ me afterwards.” Duo pretended to fall backwards, clutching at the nonexistent pearls and acting offended. You two giggled when Sally came in from the cockpit to assure herself that somebody hadn’t just gotten a concussion. To which Duo immediately pretended to have a head wound of some sorts (you suspected he was being purposely vague) in hopes of attaining the candy that Sally sometimes had on hand.

Once she left (leaving you and Duo with strong warnings against fooling around more, lest Duo’s “head injury” get worse; to which you had saluted and replied, “absolutely no promises, ma’am!”) you shared a look with the brunette and tried to keep from dissolving into a fit of laughter. To your chagrin, it was a fail. You were laughing so hard that your stomach was starting to genuinely hurt. Duo was doubled over on the ground, wheezing unintelligible words and trying to hand you the lollipop that Sally gave him.

By the time you had managed to calm down and breathe, Duo was getting into the chair beside you and clutching his side. “I think I pulled a muscle from laughing so hard.”

“Yeesh, ‘m crying from laughin’ so much. Aah, this is what y’do to me.” You joked, wiping away tears from the corners of your eyes.

“Y’know, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you cry before,” Duo paused to think. “like, at all! Now that I think about it, didja even cry when I rescued you?” You shrugged again. The battlefield was pretty terrifying and if you hadn’t found it in you to cry from fear… well, you were feeling a lot of emotions during the whole ordeal. Who could really blame you? “Pretty tough that a fuckin battle didn’t even make you cry. Hey- my bit musta been pretty damn good to make you shed a tear!”

“Yeah, don’t let it get to y’head. ‘S just because ‘m crushin on you.” You mentioned casually, testing the waters.

“Full homo?”

“Full homo.”

Well, would you look at that. Now Duo was crying. What was with you two and tears today?

BONUS:

“You’re so cheesy.” You muttered to Duo, who was proudly holding up your guys’s fingerless gloves- which he had sewn a rainbow patch onto the back of.

He smiled, tugging your glove onto your hand. “Mhm. You love it though.”

Sighing, you returned the favour and pulled his glove onto his right hand. “You’re right. I love it. I love you.”

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lovemesomesurveys · 3 years

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What are you most likely to do first in the morning; grab a cup of coffee, have a cigarette, or use the bathroom? Use the bathroom, then coffee.

What are you most likely to get in trouble with the law for; speeding while driving, being in the possession of illegal drugs, or getting caught stealing? None of them cause I don’t drive, do drugs, or steal, but for the sake of the question I would say possession of illegal drugs. It would be weed cause I would never do anything else and it would have to happen somewhere where it’s still illegal cause it’s legal where I live. Wrong place, one time type of situation.

What are you most likely to do when you are upset; talk to somebody you’re close to, cry yourself to sleep, or bottle it up inside? Cry myself to sleep in some cases and I often keep things bottled up inside. My first instinct doesn’t tend to be to turn to someone to talk to.

What are you most likely to do when you’re bored; go for a walk, read a book, or do some cleaning & organizing? Read a book, for sure. I truly love to read and do so for enjoyment. I don’t enjoy going for walks (not that I have the energy or motivation to do so anyway) and cleaning and organizing isn’t something I enjoy.

What are you most likely to do when you’re exhausted; take a nap, drink some coffee, or go for a run to get yourself pumped up again? Nap or caffeine. Although, caffeine doesn’t help me much in that regard anymore. That stopped long ago, unfortunately.

What are you most likely to do if you get drunk; pick fights, hook up with people, or socialize with anybody & everybody? Out of these choices it would be socialize. I did get more chatty when drunk.

What are you most likely to have done if your parents are upset with you; came home later than you were supposed to, didn’t do your chores, or ran up your cell phone bill? I was a homebody as a teenager as well and didn’t go out, so it wouldn’t be the first. I was just expected to keep my room clean and some other little things, like clean the bathroom counter or something as as far as chores go, but my parents weren’t strict about it and I was good about doing so for the most part anyway, so it wouldn’t be that. I also never ran up the cell phone bill, but if I had I’m sure they wouldn’t have been thrilled about it so I’ll just go with that. What are you most likely to have done if you’re late for school / work; slept in, took too long getting ready, or had car troubles? Slept in. Car troubles was the excuse used haha.

What are you most likely to do in the future; work at a restaurant / store, work in the trades, or become a doctor? >> Literally none of these??? These are all examples of things I'm least likely to do in the future. <<< Saaame, but fine to play along then I guesssss it would be the first choice. I have absolutely no desire to do retail or work with the public, though, because I just know I couldn’t handle it. I don’t have the skill for it that’s for sure. I have no idea what I want or could do to be honest. I don’t feel I have the skill or that I’m qualified for anything. :/

What are you most likely to do if you have a lot on your mind & want to sort out your thoughts; write in a journal, take some surveys, or talk to someone you’re close to? Well, for me taking surveys is like writing in a journal. Doing these help me vent and ramble when I need to.

What are you most likely to get really angry at a significant other for; lying to you about where they were, being too clingy, or ignoring your text messages? Lying about where they were, for sure. That’s sketchy.

What are you most likely to get a headache from; playing your music too loud, going too long without a cigarette, or dealing with too much stress? Too much stress, which I’m all too familiar with.

What are you most likely to pick if you got to choose your topic on a research paper; drug abuse, mental illness, or the death penalty? Mental illness. I have a real interest in that and plus my major was psychology.

What are you most likely to give up, if you had to give up one piece of technology; your cell phone, your iPod, or your computer? My iPod that I haven’t used since like 2012.

What are you most likely to do if you get into an argument with someone; allow them to give their argument then give your own argument, yell at them without letting them get a word in, or stop speaking to them for a period of time? The first one and possibly the last as well depending on how it goes. I’m willing to hear someone out and feel they deserve to say their side just like I am. I’m also not an argumentative person, so I’m not trying to continue fighting. Honestly, I tend to just shut down anyway. Then I need time to just think and calm down for awhile. I’m a forgiving person, but I also can’t just move on quickly. I know people who are ready to move on right away and quickly try to just go along as though an argument didn’t just happen, but I’m like no give me space I’m not ready to talk yet.

What are you most likely to do if you’re locked out of your house; find a way to break in, wait for somebody else to come home, or get your handy hide-a-key out of its hiding spot? Wait for somebody else to come home. I’ve had to do that a few times.

What are you most likely to do if there are no good surveys floating around at the time; make some new surveys for yourself & everyone else to take, bitch & complain about how there are no good surveys then take a survey you don’t even feel like taking (please take no offense to this option, it’s obviously partly a joke & partly an actual option!), or go find something else to do besides taking surveys? I don’t make surveys; I don’t have the creativity to come up with questions so that’s out. I’d likely jokingly complain and then try to hunt one down myself, ugh. haha. The last option is one I do as well.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

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readingsbylibramc · 4 years

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birth chart reading for @annaoop

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a seesaw shape. your life focuses on different ideals and interests, often constrasting between each other. from one side, this gives you the ability to be adaptable and find solutions easily. on the other hand, you may struggle with balance; for example, you might find yourself dedicating your life to your relationships, neglecting your ego or viceversa. you need to learn how to harmonize these energies.

your dominant planets are the moon, saturn and mercury. you're an intelligent and hard-working person with strong morals and beliefs. you're probably very witty, you like communicating and hearing about others' opinions, but you also enjoy your alone time. you're actually quite secretive, and you may also be quite emotional and moody.

your dominant sign is cancer. you seek emotional security in life. you need to feel grounded, you're most likely extremely cautious about the decisions you make. you're also very sensitive and compassionate of others, even though you could get slightly passive from time to time.

your dominant element is water. you're very intuitive and empathetic, you care a lot about others, and you may seem like a healer to people you know. in fact, you always try to help them if you can, almost in a therapeutic way. you're also very spiritual, and you're attracted to anything related to discovering your higher self and soul purpose.

🌍 ascendant in capricorn, 23° / 3rd decan ruled by saturn and mercury

the most intelligent and approachable capricorn decan. you're a vivacious person, yet your heavy capricorn influence may make you feel restricted to share your vitality with others. others' first impression of you is that you look like some sort of authority, someone who needs to be respected. even when you're joking, you still have this seriousness to your aura that is hard to go unnoticed. you care about your manners, and just your overall impression in general. you may take extra care of your clothes, your makeup, hair etc. you don't want to look disorganized, in fact you probably own an agenda or even just write your appointments somewhere. you have a cautious approach to the world, you're very responsible, especially when people you love are involved. you may have a resting bitch face, even though your jupiter and sun dominant probably help you mitigate this. generally speaking, you still have a serious look on your face that looks quite intimidating. you also look introverted, and you most probably are. you're very modest, and that's because you're secretly kind of insecure about your appearance. you always feel like you're not enough, and that you constantly have to improve yourself to be accepted. this gets better with time, though. physically, you're probably very beautiful and don't realize it! especially with your scorpio midheaven. you may have an amazing bone structure, with high cheekbones, a defined jawline and naturally straight, pleasant teeth. you may probably also have an amazing posture and walk, even though you may suffer from scoliosis or other bones diseases in your early years. also, since you have a cancer sun, you may have more rounded features than other capricorns, like a round face, plump lips, big eyes, etc. you may also tend to bloat a bit.

capricorn ascendant opposite capricorn mercury: you appear as a very intelligent individual, and people may even feel intimidated by that. you love interacting with others; even if you're not much talkative, you like hearing about others' theories and opinions. you could also do that by reading blogs, books etc. you may sometimes find yourself in conflict with others, as you’re very opinionated and hate it when others’ opinions are baseless. pretty much, you could seem like a know-it-all. on the other hand, you have a nice sense of humor, you're able to light up the room with your words, even though this quality of yours may be overshadowed by introversion at first. yet, since your mercury is in cancer, I feel like this may manifest more as a passive-aggressive behaviour for you. you may often pretend to be innocent just to avoid conflicts, especially since your mercury is conjunct your venus.

🌞 sun in cancer, 7° / 1st decan ruled by the moon

this is the softest, most affectionate and emotional cancer decan. even though you may not show it due to your capricorn rising's influence, you’re actually very vulnerable and sensitive. you may be a crybaby, as crying is a way to vent your emotions. you may even overreact, and be considered too dramatic. you’re extremely moody; you could be all happy and relaxed with your friends, then suddenly you get sad, or even angry. it’s hard to deal with this, especially because your emotions are quite intense. this could make you argue a lot with your peers. even though it takes you a while to find someone willing to stay, when that moment finally comes you’ll embody cancer’s best trait: that is, you’ll become a ‘mother’ to your friends, lover etc. you have a very nurturing soul, you have a knack for affection and care, and you could even get kind of clingy, even though you may feel limitated to give your love to someone else. cancer is a cardinal sign, hence you may be the one to take initiative, yet you do it undirectly. you’re probably the passive-aggressive type, especially since you have a whole stellium in cancer. you’re most likely also quite patient, even though you don’t forgive easily. once someone tries to take advantage of you, it’s over for them.

cancer sun conjunct cancer venus: you enjoy peace and harmony. you want your surroundings to look all neat and clean, and the same goes for the people you surround yourself with. you wish people saw you as easy to approach, even though you may sometimes struggle with your image. you try to be as formal and kind as possible with people you don’t know well, unless they start getting on your nerves by disagreeing with your opinions or being too bossy. you’re very feminine, not only in your looks and manners but also in the way you dress. you’re quite romantic too, and dream of having a perfect marriage. the downside to this aspect is that because you take so much care of yourself, people may mistake your self-love for vanity. also, your self-esteem may depend too much on others’ opinion of you; you may start thinking you’re ugly and unworthy of love just because someone told you you’re not their type, to sum up.

cancer sun conjunct cancer mars: with this placement, you may be more straight-forward than the typical cancer. you are very impulsive and honest above all, you say things as they are. you don't get hurt easily, you're able to be very brave when you want to, and even if you do get emotionally hurt, you know how to stand up for yourself again. you strive to achieve your goals and make your dreams come true, you're an hard-worker. some may call you impatient, and you may actually be, but in reality you just can't wait for things to happen. for example, let's suppose you're going to the mall to buy the playstation you always wanted. you'd start only thinking and talking about that playstation until you actually get it in your hands. you get easily excited. also, this is another placement that indicates that it's hard not to notice you. you have a very strong charisma that makes others stare. you strive to be the number #1 at whatever you do, you're a serious competitor and you'd do anything to win and achieve your goals.

🌙 moon in gemini, 0° / 1st decan ruled by mercury

the most intelligent gemini decan. you're very curious about the world, you always want to be informed about the latest news and everything that surrounds you in general. this could make you love gossip and journalism, for example. in fact, you're quite chatty, you love talking to others, and you're likely to have a good sense of humor as well. you live to fill up your mind with knowledge, and you love sharing what you learn with others. in some cases, you may even come off as a bit of a know-it-all. you're really practical and logical, even though you don't lack intuition either thanks to your heavy cancer dominance; this is good, as it's obviously a heavy mental work that makes you even smarter, and as a result you don't have the tendency to over-analyze your emotions. you're also quite moody, and you go from being full of energy and sociable to isolating yourself. I also assume that you may hide your feelings, even if you don't do it consciously. e.g, you may make jokes about them. even though you don't realize it, it's a sort of self-sabotaging mechanism, as you're literally exposing your weak points to the world and enhancing your flaws. aside from that, I still think that people perceive you as very likeable, especially when you feel comfortable in the environment you are in. you're naturally flirty and charming, and people take note of that.

gemini moon conjunct taurus jupiter: this placement makes you extremely likeable and benevolent. you're very open-minded, you hardly ever judge someone, you give off very positive vibes. you may be quite optimistic, or at least more optimistic than the typical cancer, you like looking for solution and at the bright side of things. you're probably quite lucky, you always manage to avoid bad situations somehow, even though this placement could be altered by the fact that your moon and jupiter also conjunct your saturn; perhaps, you may come from a more unpleasant background, you could lack confidence and hence you may not assert yourself when taking new challenges. yet, as time goes by and you become more mature, you understand how to approach and overcome those challenges. as a result, you'll probably start seeing this luck of yours later in life, and it may manifest in your future family with your spouse and possible children.

gemini moon conjunct taurus saturn: you tend to hide your emotions under a severe, strict mask. the way you approach others is influenced by your sense of defensiveness, making you lack genuinity. this comes from a fear of intimacy and dealing with your inner, deeper self. it's like you're hiding from your own emotions, so of course you will never be able to express them properly if you're not aware of them. to learn saturn’s lessons, you need to overcome your trust issues and possible introversion. find someone you truly trust and feel comfortable with, and then open up to them; it’s only a small step, but once you become more comfortable with someone else, you’ll start feeling much better. this placement can also indicate that your home environment could have been strict or even violent at a certain point, it probably wasn't much peaceful, but thanks to your moon being also conjunct to jupiter, a benevolent planet, you probably know how to detach from possible unfortunate events. in fact, those hardships probably made you grow up in the much more mature and responsible person that you are today.

🗣 mercury in cancer, 18° / 2nd decan ruled by the moon and pluto

you don't really rely on logic. you're very emotionally intelligent, and you take in consideration others' feelings when you speak. even though you may be impulsive and blunt sometimes, you don't do it with malice at all. you may actually feel guilty after you realize that you've hurt someone. you may be sort of manipulative, as you're very observant of others' behaviours. because of that, you may be extremely good at interacting with others, since you know how to speak to people when you don't let your impulsiveness get over you. you know how to persuade others, even though you may not even realize it. if you manage to balance your moon and your mercury, I think it would give you great social skills. you'd be able to stand up for yourself, while also being mindful and conscious of the effect of your words on others. you may get defensive quite easily, and because of that you may become a bit secretive. that's because, deep down, you feel the need to be understood to fully convey and express your emotions. you want to feel at home with your interlocutor, otherwise you'll just be awkward. on the other hand, you have a nice sense of humor, you're able to light up the room with your jokes. your voice may be nasal, but pretty much very gentle as well.

cancer mercury conjunct cancer venus: this placement confirms your struggles to open yourself to the world. you’re insecure that your thoughts and ideas may be judged negatively by others, hence you just bottle them up with your feelings. this aspect is mostly positive, though! you’re probably a good singer, or at least you have a very calm tone of voice that is pleasant to hear. you’re able to see both sides of an argument, hence you may be good at helping people making up. you could actually be suited for psychology! you may also earn money through your voice and thoughts, so you could be a writer, a journalist, an actress, a singer etc. this placement assures that you may be sociable, or at least that you have great social skills.

❤️ venus in cancer, 12° / 2nd decan ruled by the moon and pluto

when it comes to love, you're extremely affectionate. you need someone who connects to you emotionally, it matters way more than physical attraction. in a partner you look at their manners, not at their appearance, and hence you're probably not the type to fall in love at first sight. you most likely dream of building a family with your future spouse, you want to be a parent not only to your child but also to your spouse. you like nurturing others, you may be attracted to younger or even immature people that need to be 'saved' by someone to become mature, or perhaps you're the one who craves to be nurtured in a relationship. you probably love being called 'baby', 'honey', 'sweetheart'... this type of names that you find extremely sweet. you may also get clingy at times, as you're most likely very fond of pda and skinship as well. the downside to this placement is that cancer brings sensitivity to whatever placement occupies. that means that you get extremely sensitive when it comes to love, and hence you may be the type to get extremely sad, even depressed, after a break-up, or perhaps you could start caring more about your partner's feelings than yours, becoming quite accommodating, so beware of that now that you know it. don't forget to keep your individuality safe.

cancer venus conjunct cancer mars: you are very serious when it comes to love. you seek intense, long-lasting relationships, filled with both romance and passion. ironically, you tend to attract people that are the opposite, who are way too serious and almost boring when it comes to love. that could afflict your self-worth significantly, as you feel unlucky in love. loving you is an adventure; you enjoy fun, exciting relationships. you're the type who's looking for a risktaker, even dangerous partner. you hate boredom, and this may be your weakness regarding this placement; that is, once the relationship starts getting more serious, you feel as if it's going down, when it's actually the opposite. hence, you just run towards a new adventure. yet, since your mars and venus are both in cancer, I assume you don't like changing partners too often, you still want someone that feels like family to you, but that also knows how to make you step out of your comfort zone.

☄️ mars in cancer, 8° / 1st decan ruled by the moon

in life, you have the need of feeling grounded and stable. you want to feel secure, and that makes you think deeply about your decisions, you don’t rush them. you’re not much impulsive, you think deeply about what to do and / or say, you are very cautious. this sense of being careful makes you quite indecisive, especially since you also have your sun, mercury and venus in the sign of cancer. you may change your mind often, or perhaps it takes you a lot to finally make a decision because you kept changing your mind. you tend to try and be collected whenever someone is getting on your nerves, but your feelings are extremely intense to totally bottle them up. you either get slightly passive-aggressive, and hence you could get very sarcastic and call them out indirectly, or perhaps you just lose your temper and face them angrily. possibly, you could even be the type to bottle up all of your feelings, until you explode all of a sudden. that can also make you more furious than normal, as you have all these repressed, strong feelings inside of you that were screaming to get out. you’re also extremely protective of your loved ones, especially of your family.

🏡 houses, interceptions

your 1st house is in capricorn. neptune and uranus are both here as well. with these three planets here, you seem less intimidating than the typical capricorn rising. in fact, you may look more on the dreamy, reserved side. uranus also makes you stand out from the crowd, you’re very charismatic in your own way. your body may be more elongated, you may be tall or at least you have a prominent vertical line. with your first house in capricorn, you care a lot about your status and about your goals. you always give the best of yourself, and you want to be acknowledged and praised for your achievements. it helps boosting your self-esteem, even though you may have the tendency to think that the compliments you receive aren’t honest. you are most likely a very maternal individual. you probably love your family, or just the idea of having a family in general; you could be the mom friend of your group, as you come off as someone very nurturing.

your 2nd house is in pisces. your relationship with money may not be totally stable; you may get distracted easily, and you could lose your money around. you could be quite messy, overall, or in general, this is usually a placement that indicates sudden money loss. this placement also confirms that your self-esteem isn’t stable either; you could be quite insecure, and you may idealize a lot the way you look. for example, you could think that you have an ugly nose when it’s actually the opposite. same goes for your belongings; you may think that you have saved loads of money, you spend them, and then you realize you didn’t really have much. the ruler of the 2nd house is in the 1st house: you could increase your self-esteem through spiritual outlets. for example, getting to know more about your soul purpose, or even about your birth chart, can literally boost your sense of worth. perhaps, you may start loving yourself more even through sex and intimacy in general. you could also make money from yoga, meditation and spiritual outlets, such as astrology, tarots, etc. you may also gain more confidence from material things, and hence you could start feeling better when you're able to earn and spend money, or perhaps when you buy new stuff for yourself. even dressing up or wearing clothes that you like would do.

your 3rd house is in aries. when you communicate, you take a lot of pride in your opinions. you hate admitting that you’re wrong, especially since you’re a perfectionist. you could be quite impulsive, and you may speak with a naturally loud tone of voice. you’re extremely good at coming up with plans easily, and you probably manage to stick to them thanks to your stellium in the 6th house. with the ruler of the 3rd house in the 6th house, you may make money out of communication. hence, you could be a teacher, a therapist, a psychologist… everything that involves the use of words in some way. this is a placement that indicates that your future career involves not only communication, but also healing someone in some way. you could become a writer or a musician, as art can heal people in an indirect way. or maybe, you would also do well as a counselor or as a nurse, as they’re more challenging jobs where you need to communicate in order to help someone out.

your 4th house is in taurus. your childhood wasn’t very turbulent, but not perfect either. your parents were most likely quite strict with you, possibly even violentat times, and your home environment wasn’t exactly perfect. someone in your family may also be absent, maybe physically or even emotionally. you probably were a very artistic and creative child, and since jupiter is also located in this house you probably got to make a lot of experiences in your early years. you could have travelled a lot for example, or in general you do have childhood stories to tell. the ruler of the 4th house, venus, is in the 6th house: you may end up following your parents’ same steps when it comes to school and / or work, or even health. you could inherit a disease from them, for example. you might have also been a very active and healthy kid, perhaps you used to eat a lot and didn’t gain weight, or you’ve always done sport in your life. you could also find a job in your birth country / city, or perhaps you won’t move farther than that, I don’t see you going abroad.

your 5th house is in gemini. you feel able to express yourself and your creativity through communication and media. probably, when you were a child you used to love puzzles. your hobbies are quite different from each other, and they have the goal to stimulate your mind in some way. in fact, with this gemini energy here, you’re probably interested in anything that involves communication. you may love reading or even writing yourself, and perhaps you could also be talented at acting or at least voice acting, you’re very expressive. you’re able to convey your thoughts clearly in your speech, and you may actually be good at mimicking others’ voices as well. you could also be a talented singer. also, since your 3rd house, which is gemini's natural house, represents career in your chart, I’d truly recommend you to turn a hobby of yours into a job. hence, if you’re into acting, you should try becoming an actress; if you like singing, you may become a singer, if you’re into writing, you should become a writer, and so on. it’d be the most pleasant and suitable job for you.

your 6th house is also in gemini. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. you also have a big stellium in this house involving your venus, mars, sun and mercury: this venus placement indicates that you may be prone to procrastinate, even though I don't really think it's exactly your case since mars is also placed in this house. in fact, you may actually overwork yourself, or in the best case you manage to balance these two energies and give proper space to both your hobbies and work. your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working. side note, but this placement also indicates that you may often date co-workers. with mercury and the sun placed in this house, you probably thrive from being efficient not just at work, but also in your daily routine; you probably like having a schedule, a routine of any kind (like a diet or a skincare routine for example). the ruler of the 5th house is in the 6th house: this placement confirms that you would do amazing at a career that involves creativity and pleasure. you could be a writer, a singer, an actress, a photographer… in general, anything that allows you to be creative using your words.

your 7th house is in cancer. in marriage, you’re looking for an affectionate and caring partner who’s willing to nurture you. you’re also the type to like younger people to nurture by yourself, even though your heavy cancer dominance points out that you’d rather be in a relationship where your partner is older and / or can be the one to take care of you. you can’t have the burden of controlling someone else, especially if you have yet to solve your identity issues or problems with your self-esteem. your future spouse most likely comes from your same city or at least from your country, you most likely share the same religion, culture, language, etc. they’ll literally feel like home to you, perhaps you’ll have a more serene family with them rather than with your parents. also, in a partner you value feelings above all. you probably don’t have a high sex drive, or at least you don’t care about physical affection as much as your feelings.

your 8th house is in virgo. you use a practical approach when it comes to intimacy, you may struggle to let go around others, especially with your pluto energy in the 11th house that gives you major trust issues. you’re extremely secretive, you hardly ever talk about yourself, and you may even despise being too exposed. you’d rather stay by yourself, in fact you have a very mysterious vibe to your aura. also, with virgo in the 8th house, you may feel so tied to a schedule, to a plan, that you lack flexibility. you probably hate chances, but at least you don't lack intuition thanks to your cancer stellium. even though you may struggle to get closer to your spiritual, higher self at first, you're extra good at handling situations here on the earth. for example, you may handle money very well if you're well-organized. transformation in your life happens when you're able to stimulate your logical mind to earn awareness of your problems. to make it simple, you may often not realize your mistakes yourself, others have to let you notice, but thanks to your gemini moon's energy in your chart you're able to solve your problems by your own.

your 9th house is in libra. your beliefs and life philosophies were shaped by the outside world. that doesn’t mean you’re basic; you just don’t look enough in yourself, you prefer taking inspiration from others. in fact, when you realize that you don’t feel attached to a certain topic or opinion, you just leave it behind and seek other truth. you're easy to influence, and the fact that you're so open-minded doesn't help either. you hate being told what to do, you want to be free in the decisions you make. the ruler of the 9th house is in the 6th house: you may pursue a career that involves travelling, foreign languages, culture, etc. perhaps you may have to travel a lot for work, or maybe you’ll actually move abroad to pursue your career. you could have to interact with people from all over the world, and your career will overall allow you to open your mind even more and make new experiences. you may also work as a writer, a philosopher, or even as a teacher or professor. you could also be a trainer of any kind, like a personal trainer for example.

your 10th house is in scorpio. you may have a reputation for looking mysterious, as you’re probably not very sociable. you’re extremely motivated to achieve your goals, even though you may feel lost and confused due to your hard aspects and interceptions. you’ll pursue a career that involves looking for the truth, hence you may be a detective, a scientist, a poet etc. your career will give you a major change in your life, and you’ll finally be able to embrace your self-esteem and indipendence thanks to it. overall, once you find your true vocation, you’ll have no problems working, especially if you decide to pursue a creative career that is the most indicated for you, even though it may take you a while to find the right job for you due to your midheaven being in scorpio. I feel like you may receive and earn a lot of money that mostly comes from other people, like customers or even fans, but you most likely won’t work under a boss, you’ll be independent. you may even open a shop by yourself, for example.

your 11th house is in sagittarius. your friends may be very open-minded, and you might have met them in school. they could also come from a different cultural background, or maybe they’re directly from abroad. at first, you struggled to make friends, as you were very secretive. with time, you’re learning to trust people and to transform and grow up through them. you’re particularly fond of your friendships as they play a big role in your growth and fortune. you could get popular easily, or at least you’re so benevolent of others that it’s easy for you to be likeable and get to know new people if you try, even if you’re an introvert. this placement also indicates that people may admire you, and you may even be seen as someone wise, a role model. in fact, it’s a perfect placement for a celebrity, as you may naturally attract fame and fans to you. yet, since pluto and chiron are also placed in this house, it may take you a while to come in touch with this side of you. in fact, you could be very secretive and picky when choosing your friends, you struggle to find people that you can really trust. you may have high standards, or you just don't attract people that you consider perfect for you. probably, chiron here indicates that one of your friends probably did something that hurt you and that you probably still remember, and hence it could affect the way you approach others.

lastly, your 12th house is in sagittarius again. you’re particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. also, with sagittarius in this house, you may find luck and relief in neptunian topics, such as meditation, dreams, astrology, religion, psychology etc. you may have a special bond with your pets, you’re extremely intuitive, you could even be able to predict the future, perhaps through day-dreams or even through your sleeping dreams. I’d definitely recommend you to get closer to your higher self in this lifetime, as it’s the key for you to find joy and pleasure. to do that, you may get into spiritual topics like astrology, tarots, psychology, meditation, yoga, religion… anything that allows you to detach from your everyday life is the key for your soul’s ease and peace. the ruler of the 12th house is in the 4th house; you may have a very spiritual, religious family, or perhaps your relatives were a part of your past lives, and hence they’re your soulmates. you may also dream of them often.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract cancer, aquarius, taurus, gemini and virgo. your future spouse will most probably have taurus and aquarius placements, hence they’ll be very intelligent, imaginative and confident, but also very loyal and stubborn. they’ll be more of a homebody like you, and they'll probably prefer spending a date inside than out. you could actually meet them in your birth city, or perhaps they’re someone from your childhood or directly a past life. they could also be introduced to you through your family or friends. your children will be heavy in gemini/virgo placements, hence they’ll be very intelligent and talkative, maybe even too chatty. yet, they’ll be pretty ambitious, polite and serious individuals as well.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was very caring and affectionate with you, even though she could’ve been a bit too protective and/or strict, possibly even violent or overwhelming. she’s probably a taurus, a capricorn, a sagittarius, a pisces or a libra, or she has at least some placement in those signs or in the 2nd, 7th, 9th, 10th or 12th house. your father is more dominant than your mother, and he could be very scary. he’s very honest, and he may also be a bit possessive and controlling of you and the rest of your family in general. hence, he was the dominant figure in your house, but you may still have a nice relationship with him. he’s probably a scorpio or any other water sign. if you have siblings, they’re probably aries or scorpio. you might fight a lot for control, especially during childhood. you’re also quite possessive of your things, but overall you also have a deep bond. even though you may argue quite a bit, you still have affection for each other.

📊 career

you could do well at a variety of jobs to be honest! with your gemini in the 6th house you could actually work in different fields before sticking to one career, hence you’re pretty experienced. in your chart, I definitely see writer or poet potential, you have a lot of placements that point it out. you also have a stellium in your 6th house, which is associated to healing, fitness, health. hence, you could also become a therapist, a nurse, a doctor... literally anything in the med field. otherwise, you may also do well as a teacher, abroad as a translator or even in your natal country, as a journalist, as a singer... anything that has to do with communication, as well as creativity and healing of any kind. you may also do well as an actress.

👚 fashion sense, style analysis

your style is most likely very androgynous, you wear pieces of clothing that are literally suitable for everyone. you probably prefer wearing oversized fits rather than tight clothes, and you're also fond of sweatshirts, big cardigans or jackets, oversized t-shirts... anything that feels very comfortable, but that still has some feminine, classy energy to it. you may like softer, natural shades of colours like white, beige, black, etc. in your clothes, and you could also enjoy prints and graphics on them. you may also be attracted to vintage fashion.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on yourself. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general. you had to work hard and finally understand who you were to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be on the bonds you create with others. at first you might feel almost scared to the idea of marriage, or perhaps it's the opposite and you feel very attached to others; this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. with your north node in the 7th house, you're naturally lucky in love. there's nothing to be afraid of, you only need to take small steps and open your heart to someone, putting your worries and insecurities aside.

🤔 major transits analysis, october 5th

this year, your focus is on your persona. you might feel new, like you’re born again. you’ve probably gone through a few hardships last year that made you question your value, but now you’re back on track. this year, together with 2021, will be crucial for your self-esteem. even though you may feel pressured to always look at your best, you’re finally learning how to accept and love yourself. also, the north node is transiting your 5th house, and most importantly it’s opposite your pluto, so you may meet someone who can have a big impact in your life romantically! keep your eyes open, especially when you attend public spaces like cafes, libraries, parks, etc. I don’t see it being necessarily your future spouse, but they may be very helpful for your self-growth.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

with your water dominance, you probably have a 6th sense. you’re able to manifest what you want if you subconsciously predict it, even though it may be hard. you’d have to get in touch with your higher self to do so, and hence I would suggest you to light up some candles and meditate for a bit before manifesting, in this way it will be way more effective. you may manifest something while daydreaming, for example. or perhaps, you can also try listening to your own affirmations while you sleep, as you won’t be consciously aware of that. it’s probably the most effective way.

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ais-n · 6 years

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So...how do you know a therapist is for you? I went to my first therapy session and maybe it’s because i hate talking about my feelings but i couldn’t open up. Any tips from you or anyone please and thanks

Everyone else, please respond on this if you have any thoughts or feedback!

I’ve talked to a friend about this topic before. This friend said to give it one or two sessions just to have them talk to you, but if anything they say makes you uncomfortable, find someone else. Not every therapist will be a good fit. This friend gave an example of how they had gone to multiple therapists but there was really only one person who seriously pissed them off and they decided to not continue with this person. My friend said to trust yourself, and if what the therapist says is something you feel is wrong and does not fit with you, then you don’t need to stay with this therapist. They may simply not be right for you.

A real therapist will listen to you, try to understand you, and not make you conform to something preconceived.

I agree with my friend, who says a lot of the same things I would have. I have a lot more to say but I put it behind a cut for length. See below or click this link to be brought to the post if that doesn’t work.

For me, I’ve really technically only seen two therapists - I definitely need to find another one. The first person was my only option because it was during college and there was like, one therapist. I liked her, but the interesting thing is that what she helped me with the most wasn’t even anything verbal; it was more like, one of the times I was talking to her about things I thought were super casual and normal, the expression on her face (though she quickly hid it) made me realize what I’d said was actually super fucked up. Not fucked up toward other people, fucked up toward myself. I didn’t continue to see her super long because of various reasons but she helped.

The other therapist I saw was years later, and I was recommended by a friend who was already seeing her. I felt like this therapist was instantly better for me than the first one simply by point of fact that this was out of her home, and she had this huge shaggy dog who came into the office with her, and laid on my feet while I talked. Being that I’m a HUGE dog lover, this was a massive bonus for me, but of course if I hadn’t liked dogs she would have kept the dog outside. Eventually I stopped seeing her mostly for financial reasons, and because I didn’t want to follow through with her recommendations at the time (ironically, I realize in retrospect that she gave me super good advice that was proven to be true earlier this year). I continued to like her, though.

Now, I need to find someone else but have been putting it off (mostly for financial and time commitments) and I’m sure when I finally go, I will run into the same question as you.

I think there are a couple of factors to consider.

First, are you uncomfortable with this specific therapist, or are you uncomfortable with therapy itself?

If talking about yourself is what is making you unsure if the therapist is the right fit, then I would say give it a few more times. I’m chatty af and will tell all sorts of people all sorts of shit about myself, but even I get awkward the first few times in therapy, and suddenly have no idea wtf to say, or what’s interesting or important, or more. I start telling myself I’m wasting this therapist’s time, taking time away from more important people, that I’m doing a disservice to the world by being here, etc etc etc. Which makes it harder to know what to say. So if you aren’t naturally talkative like I am, I can totally see how it would feel even stronger for you at first. But in that case, no matter who you are with, you will first feel that reluctance. That’s totally okay. I suspect absolutely everyone feels that. Give it a couple of sessions to get more of a feel for the therapist. They should be able to give you some sort of guidance if needed… my experience is the first session or two, I feel like the therapist is pretty quiet to sort of feel you out, and see if it’s something where they should be asking you questions to prompt your thoughts, or if you’ll provide information on your own. This therapist you’re seeing may be doing that and you may find by the third session that you start to feel a little bit more aware of the dynamic, and from there can see what you think.

On the other hand, if it’s this therapist themselves who are making you uncomfortable or feel awkward or unwelcome or anything else, it may simply be this isn’t the right therapist for you. If they are making you feel like there’s something wrong with you, or that you aren’t saying the “right” things, then their approach may not be the sort of approach you would want or need. In that scenario, I would recommend checking if there’s another option.

If that ends up happening, another thing I think you should do is make sure that if you do have any special circumstances, this therapist is someone who ideally might be more versed in that. For example, a reason I’ve been putting off finding a new therapist is because I specifically would like to find someone who is LGBT-friendly, ideally also asexual-friendly, and who understands eating disorders and can help me with those issues. I’ve mostly managed to figure shit out with my mostly-former anorexia issues on my own, but I can recognize that some of my behaviors are still tied into that, and I think I need help. But finding a lesbian-friendly ED-versed licensed therapist who’s in my area, has office hours and a location I’m fine with and may be covered by my insurance is a bitch, let alone throwing ace factors into the equation.

What I’ve been doing is going on websites that let me search for those sorts of criteria, getting the names of potential therapists, looking them up on review sites, looking at the place they work and determining if it feels okay to me, and then whatever other research or review searching I can think of. By the way, if you didn’t already (I’m sure this was already covered but just being thorough), make sure the therapist is legit and licensed.

The biggest thing is don’t feel like there’s a right or wrong way to be in therapy. If you have trouble opening up, that’s extremely natural IMO for the first session or even first few sessions. It takes some time to get a feel for the person, and to determine internally if you feel like you can trust them with your vulnerability. There’s definitely going to be some inherent hesitation, in my experience, in the beginning. But the therapist also needs to not make you feel unworthy or unwanted or uninteresting. If you are coming away feeling negative about everything because of difficult topics arising and recommendations you don’t want to follow (not because you think they’re wrong but rather because you just don’t want to do it right now) then it could mean the therapy is working for you and it’s just going through the topics which are the reason you’re attending in the first place. But if, instead, the negativity is tied into you feeling judged by the therapist, then that is not the therapy you should probably be in and you may need to find someone who fits your needs better.

You, of course, will know that better than me… because it’s possible you do want a little bit of judgment, if there’s a scenario where that’s healthy for you. Example being when my first therapist had a visible reaction that I could have interpreted as her judging me, but it was the fact that a therapist responded that way after otherwise having been neutral and open, that made me really stop and dissect what I had said to get her to react like that. So in that example, a moment of possible-judgment was very helpful for me. But if she had been judging me the entire time, it would have been very bad for me because I was already feeling like I was really pushing myself to go in the first place. I might have come away with a bad connotation for therapy if my first experience had been different. I may never have sought therapy again.

The other thing I want to say is if you continue with this therapist and it seems fine enough but you don’t feel like you’re having any breakthroughs, you may still want to consider whether it makes the most sense to continue with this therapist or try someone new. I have gone my entire life thinking general practitioner doctors are fine enough, not hating my experiences but never really feeling that connected. I thought that was how it always was with doctors so I never switched. But this year, I went to a new specialized doctor and instantly, I realized there’s actually the capability to click with a doctor and have them clearly care about you, and even work hard to understand the things going on with you even if you have my personality of trying to downplay everything. I love her so much that I’m switching my entire network on my insurance as soon as I can for her network instead, because she’s made a massive fucking difference in how I view my health and feeling like I have someone who has my back. I don’t know if the same thing could happen with therapists, but just in case it can I wanted to mention that.

Ultimately, the therapist is there to help you get through the things that brought you in in the first place. If you end up there for many, many sessions and you don’t feel like you’re making progress, try reassessing. Are you actually making progress but it feels like you aren’t because you want things to go faster, but in fact you’re laying really good foundation slowly for the future? Or did you never fully click with the therapist and you’re both in sort of a holding pattern that can’t properly move forward for whatever reason?

For that reason, my personal view is that unless the therapist is someone who makes you feel judged and like there’s something inherently wrong with you because of whatever of your circumstances or responses, then keep going to the same therapist until you have been able to give both the therapist and yourself the chance and time to try to adjust to each other. That will give you not only a better view for if you want to stay with this therapist, but also what to look for if you decide to switch. You will now have more criteria you can search for in your next therapist, to try to get the right fit for you.

Regardless, you are super awesome for going to therapy in the first place! Really good job on that! Especially if it’s your first time! It’s scary to do it, and it takes a lot of courage, and you are absolutely a badass for going to that first session. You are a badass even more for then following it up with not immediately saying “this isn’t working for me, I’m done” and instead trying to ask others what their experience is, so you can figure out your way forward. For someone who finds it difficult to talk about your feelings or open up, you are doing a frickin fantastic job and whether or not this sounds dorky af, I just want you to know I’m proud of you :)

There definitely is the right therapist out there for you. Whether it turns out to be this therapist, or whether you find a few sessions from now it’s not, the person is out there who can help you. My sincere hope for you is that you don’t give up before you find that out or find them, because that would be akin to giving up on yourself. And I never want anyone to do that. We all deserve to fight our best for ourselves, to be heard and seen, and most importantly: to be understood.

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