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wienners · 2 months

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"dude its not that embarassing to rewatch some creepypasta stuff you liked as a teenager" the character i imprinted on like a baby duck at 16 was a demon from new jersey that acts like the humanization of every offspring song and canonically listens to scissor sisters. His favorite color is purple and his favorite pokemon is Gengar. He leaves people notes with emojis on them. He acts like a beetlejuice scare actor at halloween horror nights. His catchphrase is "feeling sassy?" Hes (allegedly) worked with every war criminal throughout history and been every serial killer. even the gay ones. he ate a baby. his animal motif is a rabbit. hes kind of based off donnie darko. he talks to his cats in a baby voice. he wears a white fedora that makes every video he wears it in feel dated by like 7 years. hes 5'3. he hacked a girls tumblr blog. he added a laugh track over a video of him killing people. he named a chainsaw rex. he torments people by playing frank sinatra at them. his name comes from an animal collective song. theres a canon blog entry where he makes the speakers blare rob zombie before he enters a room, then holds a guy at gunpoint to describe what he did to to him while "making sure to leave in all the cool parts". Hes like ten tumblr sexymen traits rolled into one. Sometimes his voice gets distorted and it makes him sound like Bill Ciphers first year on HRT. For some fucking reason i associate the song Cake By The Ocean with him. I firmly believe that if everymanhybrid didn't require a masters degree in creepypasta autism to comprehend, he would've caused more teenage stabbings than the slenderman incident and more kin war tumblr scenarios than nagito komaeda.

#slenderverse #everymanhybrid #emh #speakeasies #emh habit #habit everymanhybrid #habit emh #and the problem is that every new fan of the series is like #teenagers who like columbine #so i cant even make friends in those circles #because im fucking 24 #like im almost ten years older than some of u omfg???#so #he IS that embarassing and thank GOD emh is niche #okay so #he is embarassing but emh is not embarassing it is not cringe its oomf #emh is genuinley one of the coolest found footage diy low budget horrors ive ever seen #genuinely would love to make found footage bc of the impact it had on me #anyway i really did imprint on him like a babyduck #i was a baby trans guy that didnt know it yet rewatching the :D video with absolutely nobody to talk about it with #like huh hope that doesn't affect me in the future :)#it did #spoiler 17 yo me thats why you watched :D three times in secret #it's not because you're trans. It's because you're a sicko

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pocketwei · 5 months

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hii do you perhaps have any dofuwani fics recommendation. I've checked out the the ao3 but I really don't seem to like anything there after scrolling thru the most kudos'd works... I feel like you (and a few other artists) get them and I wanted to read things in a similar tone as your art and so far I'm in the trenches bleeding out. like obviously no offense to any of the writers it's just that all the like modern highschool loving dad croc and etc aus are not for me... OTL I hope I'm not sounding rude and thank you for your time!

oh anon come rest your head upon my bosom.... I got you anon..... as a fellow slave to canon-compliance I, too, know the pain of sifting through pages upon pages of AUs, not that there's anything wrong with them but I just can't imagine these sickos working a 9 to 5 in a suit...... thank you for thinking my vision of dofuwani is trust-worthy, this is vain on my part but it genuinely means a lot <3 OK rant over here are the goods, in no particular order (always mind the tags but I figure if you asked me for dfwn sacred texts you're probably a fellow sicko):

that was now and this is then. by ghostwit (M): one of my favourite ever, perhaps even my favourite. About a long relationship, about twisting each other inside the skin, about being formative to each other in ways so deep and intertwined that they can't seem to tear one apart from the other. And despite it all* (*the murders and the hatred and the irreconciliable flaws and differences of their Ego (philosophical) and the unbearable, unacceptable vulnerability of understanding), they are, somehow, unforgivably and incomprehensibly, in love. *smashes head against pavement, it cracks open like an egg, spilling millions of dofuwani thoughts everywhere

no better irony by ghostwit (E): shichibukai meeting sidequest...... excellent characterisation like everything Haze writes (it's just The Best dofuwani there is..... read everything he wrote please). I'm so fond of them in that fic in a way that's like. watching stick bugs in a terrarium. You don't understand them and they don't understand you but you're just happy they're having fun. You wouldn't join in for anything in the world though.

like i need a gaping headwound by ghostwit (M): loguetown era dfwn, Haze back at it with formative years and the fresh sprouts of insanity in these two. So so so good.

nothing in this world that's quite prescribable by ghostwit (T): the opening of this fic is perhaps one of my favourite scenes ever. Vulnerability and odd transparence that only drunken disinhibition allows. Which is rare for these two. Absolutely adore this one.

honestly you can and should read everything Haze has written for these two they're just so AUGHHHHHH

black & bloody & rotten & perfect by revolvermonkcelot (M): perfect capture of the fine line between (????love, perhaps) and insanity they walk on. Absolutely fucking insane about this one, the reverence and sacrality of their whole thing, the Indulgence:tm: and permission that can be revoked (for Crocodile is mercurial in his vulnerability), but that is somehow maintained in a delicate and incomprehensible equilibrium. + absolutely incredible undertones of wani (trans)identity crisis, the imperceptible yet meaningful and constant change of the Form... Head in hands

Just a taste by marimoes (M): perfect perfect perfect characterisation, little gestures that betray familiarity. Perfect on all accounts

Swallow by revolvermonkcelot (M): my roman empire. Absolutely perfect Wani characterisation, it's The Wani for me. Exploits perfectly the essential dfwn dichotomy of "one entity tumbling down and the other rising up, meeting halfway through in the eye of the storm, in a singular moment". Classy cannibalism that ties to the no-less essential concept of consumption, to be/become whole again. The reason why they somehow stick together is because of this primordial longing for something, for understanding perhaps, for beauty sometimes, for belonging. Fcuking hell I love them so mucj

A Bird and His Cage by doctornemesis (E): read this one a long time ago but it's in my bookmarks so I trust past me's judgment and tell you it's amazing

From Dressrosa with Love by Sibilans (E, on-going): incredible atmosphere, perfectly depicts the post-golden age rotting glamour of Dressrosa. They are particularly unhinged in this one.

i wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name by stealth-black-leg (Kiir_Bee) (E): I'm running out of steam for long meaningful comments but this one has top tier characterisation.

That's it!! Don't forget to comment and leave kudos to give writers the love they deserve <3

#mei speaks #fics recs #these are so so good #pspsps dofuwani enjoyers come get ur food.....

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crystalsandbubbletea · 4 months

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If you're gonna say transphobic shit then stay the fuck off the trans tags. You are not fucking welcomed here. I am looking at you TERFS and radfems who say transphobic shit and tag it as 'Trans'. We don't want your white supremacist shit near our communities you sickos.

TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN, AND TRANS MEN ARE MEN. THERE IS NO COUNTERCLAIM BECAUSE IT IS THE TRUTH. 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

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butchhamlet · 1 year

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to me romeo and juliet are Definitely t4t, if only for all the adaptations that style them with the upmost degree of trans swag, and the fact that i like them a whole bunch :)

also the whole kindred spirits finding a pure love within each other and being intrinsically linked through their feelings of otherness in regards to their families/companions, even though they love them, there is absolutely the sense that their view of the world/themselves is indelibly different (and this is all Very Transcoded To Me and my experience). ok stopping myself now before i dust off the english lit a level and write the essay in ur askbox lol

OH MY GOD MULTIPLE TRANS SWAG ASKS COMING IN... SICKOS YESSSSSSS

anyway you are so fucking right. i feel like i've talked about this before, but in case i haven't, i'm fascinated by the way romeo and juliet break and bend gender norms--romeo's the wistful feminine lover-not-a-fighter, even when among his friends, and juliet is the driving force behind so much of their relationship, with a directness to her that her parents discourage but that leaps out when she's alone. which isn't to say, of course, that being GNC automatically means you're trans, but god, there's already something so gaytrans about two young kids getting punished for breaking entirely arbitrary hateful social norms, and when i think about their gender transgressions on top of that... ough

anyway you are absolutely fucking right!!! feeling connected to each other and outcast from their beloved friends/family because they can understand each other in a way their cisgender friends and family just can't! they are Different! and they're different TOGETHER! anon your brain is so fucking enormous

#although id o think mercutio is transgender also.but that's not the point #asks #max.txt #romeo and juliet #romeo #juliet #i love those kids so fucking much btw. romeo and juliet defender 4ever #bottom bless thee thou art trans

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thedysphoriadiaries · 1 year

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Entry 28 - 14 March 2023, 1:20am

What should be, what shouldn't be, what must be, what mustn't be, what could be, and what couldn't be.

I guess this is the point where I sound really deranged now.

...

Why can't I just be normal?

What is wrong with me?

...

I was barely able to order dessert for my brother and myself earlier today. That's how little I've been interacting with other people.

I simply... forgot.

... yet, my friends (who don't know better because I don't tell them), call me ‘bro’.

... (massive rant coming)

...

FOR FUCK'S SAKE I KNOW IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT SINCE I NEVER TOLD YOU THIS BUT PLEASE STOP DEADNAMING ME AND CALLING ME ‘BRO’ I'M ALREADY SAD ENOUGH THAT I WON'T EVER BE A GIRL OR THAT I WON'T EVER SEE MYSELF AS ONE, SO AT LEAST STOP FUCKING DEADNAMING ME I DON'T NEED MORE REMINDERS THAT I'M JUST A CRAZY, CRACKED-OUT SICKO WHO NEEDS MORE SCREWS IN THEIR HEAD

I don't want to hear another butchered mispronunciation of my more masculine deadname.

just.

SHUSH.

AT LEAST GRANT ME THE FUCKING SPACE TO GRIEVE FOR A FUTURE THAT WILL NEVER BE

GRANT ME THE SPACE TO FEEL LIKE SOME SICKO MASQUERADING AS SOMETHING HE'S NOT BEFORE YOU EVER DEADNAME ME AGAIN YOU CUNT

AT LEAST GRANT ME THE FUCKING DIGNITY TO LET ME CONVINCE MYSELF THAT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME BEFORE YOU EVER CALL ME BY MY DEADNAME AGAIN

I'VE BEEN PORING OVER THOSE DETRANS SUBREDDITS TO LOOK FOR A SIGN THAT THIS ISN'T SOMETHING I'LL REGRET, OR IF IT'S JUST A PHASE OR SOMETHING, BUT ALL I SEE ARE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT DETRANSITIONING BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT THEY WERE TRANS BUT TURNED OUT TO BE CIS OR BECAUSE OF SITUATIONS OR BECAUSE OF REGRET AND I DON'T KNOW IF I'M LIKE THAT BUT I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED BECAUSE IT MEANS SOMETHING DEEPER IS WRONG WITH MY OWN MIND AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN FIX MYSELF

GRANT ME THAT FUCKING DIGNITY

... do you know why I stopped choosing Valkyrie as a Legend while playing Apex Legends? I couldn't stand the fucking HEARTACHES I'd get just from LOOKING at her because I'd want to be her. HELL I CAN EVEN SOMEWHAT RECALL WHAT SHE LOOKS LIKE JUST BY TELLING YOU THAT FUCKING EXAMPLE OF THE SHIT I GO THROUGH

...do you know what it's like to look at what you're going to grow up to become, and hating every single fiber of it?

DO YOU?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ENVIOUS OF YOUR SCHOOLMATES, (MARRIED/ATTACHED) COWORKERS, AND OWN FUCKING COUSINS AND AUNTS? DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THE MENTAL ACROBATICS I DO TO NOT THINK ABOUT THIS AND ALL THE OTHER GIRLS I'VE LOOKED AT?

DO YOU KNOW OF THE GUILT THAT COMES WITH LOOKING AT A GIRL WHO'S STILL IN SCHOOL AND WANTING TO BE HER?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO SEE THEIR FACES AND NEVER FORGET HOW YOU TREATED THEM, EVEN THOUGH YOU JUST GLANCED AT THEM AND HAD WEIRD FEELINGS FOR THEM FOR ABOUT A DECADE AND A HALF?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE WITH A PARTNER, ONLY TO GET THE WANT TO BE YOUR PARTNER, AND HAVE THEM LEAVE YOU AFTER THEY TRIED TO SUPPORT YOU EMOTIONALLY FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS BECAUSE STUPID-ASS YOU DECIDED TO TELL THEM YOU WANTED TO BE A GIRL? I CAN'T EVEN BARE MY SOUL FOR MY PARTNER, ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE I TRUST WITH THIS SHIT, TO SEE? WHAT THE FUCK.

... yeah that's right. you. fucking. DON'T.

next time you don't see me in that call, just think about HOW LITTLE I WANT TO BE REMINDED THAT I WON'T EVER BE A GIRL. I GET THAT REMINDER FROM THE WAY I ACT, THE WAY I DRESS, THE WAY I SOUND, THE WAY I LOOK, AND THE WAY I'M BUILT AND I DON'T. FUCKING. NEED. IT. FROM. A. CUNT. LIKE. YOU. TO. RUB. IT. IN. WITH. MY. DEADNAME.

... fuck off. or i'll just kill myself someday. whichever's easier.

...

rant's over.

...

Yes, all that because I couldn't get a single sentence out of my head (it's been living rent-free for a couple months).

“Accept the fact that you're a 20-year-old man.”

I bare my fucking soul to you and you say this? HOW MUCH MORE OF ME MUST DIE SO YOU SEE MY BODY SMILE BUT MY SOUL SHRIVEL UP AND CRUMBLE AWAY INTO NOTHING WHILE YOU SEE NOBODY HOME BEHIND THOSE FUCKING EYES OF MINE?

...

As for the one who called me bro...

How do I explain to a friend of seven years that I'm genuinely in pain from being identified as a male, when I DON'T WANT TO BE ONE BUT AM FORCED INTO THAT FUCKING ROLE BECAUSE OF THIS STUPID BODY I'M BORN IN?

How the fuck do I explain to him that I'll be me, maybe even more me than I currently am, when he's got a pretty... negative view on women (you know, how people view women who are a little too devoted to post-feminism)?

how..?

...

but can't cis guys think those too?

i'm just broken somewhere in the head, and I should probably sort this entire mountain range of tangled yarn balls in my head out before I even begin to talk about gender, because, my own suffering in my own gender role is, as exclusively seen by me, a first-world problem. Got a problem with that and me projecting? FUCK. OFF.

It's the safe option to remain presenting as a guy, but...

I'VE FUCKING LOOKED AT OTHER GUYS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE THEM I BARELY EVEN SEE MYSELF IN THEM

How the FUCK do you want me to go through life like that?

what if I don't want to be a guy, but I DON'T HAVE OTHER CHOICES?

...

I'm sorry. For being born this way. For not seeking help.

But no. I don't plan to seek help. Just... ugh... gotta get this off my chest.

... I'm so sorry. But that won't fix anything. Eventually, you people (and I) will have lives to lead. And... this blog will become just another distant memory, of a less... turbulent time.

...

As much as I'm sorry, I... need to know something.

will you forgive me? for being the way I am?

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thatheathen · 2 years

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Dear Transphobes

What's annoying to me about vile transphobes who tell us to die constantly (ex. "join the 41%" misunderstanding the statistic at the same time) because our existence triggers them so much. These vile bigots with their one trans joke whine endlessly online about how "woke" Netflix is, claiming Netflix is "forcing LGBTQ agenda!" onto people (yet Dave Chappelle's trash standups are still on the app, but whatever). Netflix and every other private business WANTS engagement, they thrive on controversy i.e. shitheads attacking trans people or black people. Profits over human rights; the Corporate media motto.

"THESE SICKO TRANSGENDERS ARE RUINING MY FAVORITE MOVIES!" Bruh, the whole world isn't you. You are not the world -- you triggered little transphobe. These same people will say how LGBTQ are ruining hollywood, but then turn around and call hollywood pedos. Pick a lane, Jesus fuckin Christ. Diehard bigots honestly make less of the population more than people may believe, but that doesn't mean there's no prejudice from others in the world. That happens. You'll never see my trans ass in Florida or Texas to then be surrounded by cruel fascistic bigots making my life hell. No thanks.

I feel for my queer comrades in those fascist states eager to exterminate them. I'd think about moving, or move near people that make you feel safe even if it's still in the same state that's trying to make being queer in public illegal. It's disgusting. Trans Genocide is a real threat these days. Ignoring that means you're not paying attention (I'm looking at you elitist Democrats). But I digress. My heart goes out to all the activists trying their hardest to protect trans youth and fighting for trans rights. I love you all and you're amazing. Arm Trans Women!

The vile bigots who hate queer and gay people on their TV assume Netflix's audience are all dumb, being "brainwashed" by the "woke mob" twisting the arms of Streaming platforms, and nobody thinks for themselves except the pissbaby bigots, fascist ghouls, conservative reactionaries, terfs, and creepy incels... They don't follow any common (toxic) ideology at all right? Hmmm....

All these trash people with their trash opinions are having massive meltdowns on twitter, facebook, reddit, or IMDb reviews ALL because a show has a few queer people in it. Regardless if it's done well or not, whatever the fuck that means, it always makes them breakdown into pure rage and start going off on "clown world" this and that. They furiously keyboard warrior out about how miserable gay people in a movie, tv show, or video game makes them. As if the cisgender heterosexuals are the real oppressed group who are forced to be tormented by homosexual media. Good. Please continue to suffer, I really don't care.

Our queer existence troubles these cretens to an extreme degree it's kinda funny sometimes, but also scary if they decide to take action on their extreme bigotry to any marginalized group that isn't harming them, but rightwing media will FORCE their views onto them, and tell these credulous bigots that queer people are harming society, and thus the next school shooter is born. Progressive values = tyranny. LGBTQ representation = pedophilic normalization. Civil Rights = forced diversity. Woke = communism. Antifascism = cultural marxism. All these rightwing dogwhistles that has roots in antisemitism and white supremacy are eaten up by miserable boomers and people who hate seeing change and basic human rights we fought for, but they believe we don't deserve.

"Free speech!" But not for us though. We leftwing queers can never go out of line and say anything to upset these vile mothersfuckers that continue to boil my blood beyond my patients will allow me to withstand. Simmer down rightwingers, you're not the main characters of the human story. We're a blip in this timeline. Why do we have to waste time on hating LGBTQ folk, Black & Brown people, Muslims, the disabled, and the homeless? Human nature makes us cruel? No. It's bad human behavior and I believe it all can be unlearned. But sure, believe that humans are naturally cruel and we don't naturally love and nurture. Godforbid if that were the mindset of civilization huh?

These fragile homophobes and insecure transphobes don't think that's what's happening to them, being coerced and groomed if you will into believing that trans people are the reason why their life sucks. Trans people are the go-to scapegoat for almost any rightwing grievances in rightwing spheres. The disaffected cishet white males feel like their ignorant violent thoughts are being validated by these far right grifters and far right media pundits that only care about money and ratings. They're all lying to them so much they don't live in our reality at all. Some are too far gone. Don't bother saving them.

Somehow all those lies about trans people from Steven Crowder and Tucker Carlson isn't brainwashing to the transphobic rightwing that obsess over genitalia and controlling people's bodily autonomy. They're "tellin it how it is" which is also annoyingly idiotic. No, they're telling you how to think. It's all opinions not based on any facts. Big difference. It's so easy to see, but they refuse to face reality. The "I think for myself" crowd who also tells you to "do your own research" as some profess they're not right or left, which is complete hogwash bullshittery and plain cowardly to dare to take a stance on anything. Believe in nothing they say.

So I have an unpopular solution for all the vile transphobes out there who have told me to kill myself and tell trans youth to kill themselves when you "simply disagree" with their existence, and don't want trans folk to exist period, while blindly supporting anti-trans legislation etc. Hey I know a really cool way to make the evil wokeness to stop:

#dark thoughts #rant #thatheathen

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pwurrz · 2 years

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I think a lot of the transabled stuff is sad because there's people behind it who are SO CLOSE to understanding. Like "I'm transabled- I don't NEED a wheelchair, it's just if I don't use one I'm in huge pain! but I'm happier with one and in less pain! I'm valid!" And it's like yes you're valid and! You DO need a wheelchair! You were already disabled! And you! Deserve to be in disabled spaces! BECAUSE YOURE DISABLED!

I won't get into syscourse bc you're a singlet but no wonder the communities of transabled and endos overlap. Half of the people are fetishists and half the people are victims being misled. ("I'm not traumatized I just had a horrible childhood and I made my system up! I made them up without meaning to and to cope with the stress I was facing from trauma but... Apparently I'm endogenic and willowgenic and stressgenic! I... Made them up by will! Right...?" And "I'm transabled! I only started noticing these traits after learning about the mental disability so obviously I never had it before hand! And... I don't REALLY need my cane but I'm in less pain with it and can walk better b-but I can walk without it so I'm transabled... Right?" Are just too similar to ignore. Plus a sizable amount of endos consider them self transabled or support "transabled people".)

I know people are just getting manipulated by the actual sickos behind the scenes getting off on it and .... Sigh... It's sad. You have to wonder how much happier these people could be and how much they could thrive if they were in the right community with the right resources.

yeah it’s all just. yeah. saw somebody say that transabled is similar to reclaiming then things that happened to you during childhood abuse (which i have my own feelings about but whatever) and like. that’s not the same thing?? do you realize what these people are doing??? their not romanticizing mental illness and disabilities as a way to cope with having their own struggles, they’re romanticizing mental illnesses and disabilities because they can. because they think it’s a fun game, another quirky personality trait they can add to their collection. they’re doing it for attention 100%.

it’s 100% ok to romanticize things like being trans and having mental illnesses or disabilities or whatever, if you have/are those things. because then you might actually have a need to do so, a valid legitimate reason that causes you less pain and makes it easier to live your life with your new unchangable situation.

it’s not ok to romanticize having autism, or being paraplegic, or being trans when you’re not. because you don’t understand what we go through, and you never will. because you don’t deserve to reclaim the positive parts of something that doesn’t even effect you to begin with. you’re not being an ally, your selfish attention-seeking behaviour is hurting the people you claim to be advocating for.

and then on the other hand it’s like. people who actually are suffering but don’t think they can ‘identify’ as disabled for whatever reason, whether it be internalized ableism or external ableism, or some other reason. but immediately these people jump to the most radical thing, which i just.. i don’t understand. the only thing i can understand is that a lot of these people are kids, who are impressionable and make bold decisions without thinking things through. but.. then again these kids aren’t like. 8. they’re 16. it’s harder to sympathize with them in that case. i don’t know

#sighs for three hundred years #long post #ableism /#inbox 💌

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