#its a shame its only in my head

[psin-314]

happy new year guys!! here's a little sketch with girl shang my beloved

i can take them both. original in a fight. fem version in a fight too. but our battlefield will be a bed. teehee

#mortal kombat #mk1 #shang tsung #ive been sick for 11 days #i hope i feel better soon cus i got super amazing nice cool spicy drawing idea #its a shame its only in my head

[nashvillethotchicken]

Thinking about Lestat seeing Louis’s eating patterns as a waste of his gift/himself while Armand gives Louis food that he literally can not enjoy or digest just so he has something on his stomach

#if i had to give each of louis relationship a theme loustat would be shame and loumand would be enabling #which are both really bad ways of “helping” a partner with an ed #lestats shame and anger tactics only make louis more resentful and less likely to eat #while armand having the little drinks and exotic animals and the human food dont actually deal with louis problem head on- #cus at the end of the day louis is still not eating enough #and i think they really exemplifies both of their trauma and abandonment issues #both of them came up chronically food insecure #lestat was put into the role of provider at a very early age and stayed in that role until he died/was turned #so for him rejecting what lestat gives is like rejecting lestat cus he doesnt have anything else to make him “useful” #and lestats reaction to rejection is anger and control so he tries to shame and control louis into eating more/human #while armand has been abandoned by literally everyone he loves up till this point so for him its like #ok i can make people dtay if i give them what they want and what louis wants is to not feel bad about eating and so armand does that #but it still doesnt get to the root of the issue which is louis having poor coping mechanisms for his grief and other emotions #like either way you slice it. louis is not meeting his nutritional needs. he eats drinks from one guy eats a fox or some other small animal #when he should be having like two dudes at least #and then he has human food which according to anne rice makes vampires vomit up their whole stomach content so... #louis imma send you to my therapist shes great #interview with the vampire #iwtv #louis de pointe du lac #amc iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #ldpdl #iwtv 2022 #armand iwtv #armand #loumand #loustat #like armand gives louis food he cant eat just so he knows theres something in louis stomach even for a short while

[icyheart-and-friends]

Please, for the love of gods, allow yourself to consume content/media uncritically

You can be aware of issues a show/game/movie/etc has but you don't need to be aware of it *all* the time, you shouldn't have to justify yourself liking it every time you go to talk about it.

You shouldn't have to feel like you're the worst person in the world just because you like something that happens to have problematic stuff in it.

And you're setting yourself up for failure if you go into something immediately looking for all of the bad in it, you're setting yourself up to be unable to enjoy it! And if you do manage to enjoy it it'll likely just feel wrong because of that!

I'm begging y'all not to consume *everything* critically and to sometimes enjoy things uncritically.

#its so fucking easy to end up demonizing yourself just because you like media thst isnt deemed “good” #i only just recently realized how fucking guilty id feel admitting i like watching helluva boss to other people outside of my circle. or #feeling thr need to warn people about the heavy racism in baldur's gate 3 for the fear of being seen as an awful person for praising the #game despite thst in it. fuck i even feel bad admitting i like watching law and order special victims unit bc of its content and how often #it just goes- *wrong* but like- i realized a lot of that is bc my brain and my ocd are constantly trying to take content in critically. #trying to always shame it bc its “bad” either bc of its content or its creators and thus my ocd has a field day of turning thst around to #meam that *im* bad because i enjoy it. which isnt fucking true. i enjoy iy #which isnt true. i can know stuff is not good/great for various reasons but i can still enjoy it without that inherently make me bad #anyway bc this is tumblr im already expecting people to try to twist my words and intents to make this seem like s horrible thing #idc atm bc my head hurts from trying to just exist and relearn how to enjoy stuff without fucking purity culture and my ocd shame watching #me lile a fuckin hawk #cant wait to see how freeing it feels tho once i stop giving as much of a fuck/worry

[itsbrucey]

Alright gayboy. You ready for the championship?

#if another. very similar post to this appears on my dash. ignore it. Brucey is having difficulties tonight #anyway the rough color made him slay. im quite happy with this #sorry that thisnis the only fuckinf wip im posting IT ALL. I HAVE. #You followed me. you read the sign. Brucey posts random bullshit over and over. #its 3 am so anything goes im a free man #working on his thighs and i dont want yall to see my shameful anatomy. im drawing FEET and im bad at FEET #might give him socks. to hide my shame. #mayhaps ill add fishnets. lets see whats sexier #also i made this 300 dpi in the unlikely scenario i make this a print you can buy but idk. watch out #fun fact. he doesn't have ears!! if i made him bald his head would be capital S Smooth. no point bc his hair covered them.

[polarpanda73]

hiii guys. im so ill...

(bonus HH sketch under cut)

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #ttcc insider #ttcc head honcho #insider #head honcho #ohhh my goood these two man #i only got into the game like a week or two ago but its quivkly turning into a hyperfix #super fun too #anyway if you are also ill about these guys hit me up #it is such a shame my wives are one month old #myart

[mblue-art]

Hi yes I would like it if you went insane over cross (publically on Tumblr dot com) thank you

(hehe hi catto i appreciate u 🫶🫶🫶)

today is not the day, btu. i really wish you guys could see through my brain, and look at the part of my brain that's responsible for simping for cross (DAILY) and see how fucking, weird it is, how delulu i am for him how ill i am for this guy

#/silly #ask #mblue talks #m rambles #i made it sound like its absolutely awful but it isn't. really #some others prolly have it worse than me #(and def understand the character more than me) #im just exaggerating it for the funnies #but if only you guys could see and understand what my brain thinks of cross #(the shame and anxiety is pulling me down sry) #(maybe there wont be a huge ass post but my thoughts will all be sprinkled under the tags of my posts like these) #(just the usual) #('mblue its called obsession' i Know /holds head in hands/) #(he's like- a frkin highschool crush a campus crush a guy id crush on in highschool type beat) #(he's the 'get out get out get out of my head /lyric' crush) #(i feel conflicted abt it sometimes; i guess that's where the tsundere came in lol) #(like. from all the way back to the initial cross simping art i made) #(im prolly just delulu;; and i like thinking of the timelines of the sona lore ive thought of as basis for silly au's and scenarios) #(and especially the dynamics) #(dynamics are so fun guys) #(it is embarrassing how much ive basically kept pairing up my sona(s) and cross (variants) like lil dolls together in diff contexts haha;;

[britneyshakespeare]

they just don't make men like gene kelly anymore

#no matter what happens in the hot vintage men poll round 2 when he gets his poll posted i need you to remember this #in my head i have decided that the only 3 winners i will accept (with the remaining contestants) #are kelly/olivier/poitier #these are the three men with the most talent star power and personal attraction on top of being most iconic and influential #if brando wins i won't complain i suppose but for some reason i don't see it in the cards for him #text post #gene kelly #im watching the pirate again and just goddammit they REALLY dont make them like him #on new years eve i made my friends watch the niña song and pole dance scene #THEY DDONT MAKE MOVIES LIKE THIS ANYMORE PERIOD #its SUCH a shame #the costumes also make me froth at the mouth #SOOOO BEAUTIFUL #one of my friends called one of the skirts one of the female dancers was wearing ugly #i was fuming i was sputtering angry #i was like HOW the fuck dare you #could i come near your beauty with my nails

[ohno-the-sun]

moon x monty??? 👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾

Hell yeah

If I could draw gators it would be over for everyone

#literally the only thing I ship #theres not enough good fanfic with them its such a shame 😔 #ask #also in my head I love the scenario where moon and monty are the absolute bestest of buds #but sun just Hates monty #and it causes drama #oooooo

[panspy]

hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i think this is an autism related thing #but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in #like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about #and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but #it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared #this is specifically in regards to working #like having a job. like going to work #i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating #in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience #i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared #like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW #and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start #im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant #not even a full year of working #i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms #and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go #i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have #ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow #i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed #and im talking about each micro step inbetween #what am i missing #and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being #supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING #jesus christ #manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe #i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves #around me. i know this #i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i #genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive

[toastsnaffler]

looking at taking some local evening classes in the new year + there's a lit one on magical realism as a genre in relation to economic & political oppression, run by someone who wrote her phd thesis around a haruki murakami novel... the reading list alone is 🥴🥴🥴🥴

#i havent studied literature since gcse bc i cant say its usually of that much interest to me.... #i liked some of the texts we did in high school but studying the ones i didnt like was like bashing my head against a brick wall #but i think this would genuinely enrich my reading bc a lot of my fave lit falls into that surrealism/magical realism niche #so itd be cool to give myself a better language to talk abt it with idk!! #only thing is id have to ask to change my work hours to 8-4 one day a week so i can attend. which they would probably let me do.... #ill think abt it. its also a lot of money to drop at once but actually considering it runs for 10 weeks its pretty fair #and itd be cool to have a weekly class to attend. shame its not in person tho id love to meet new people face to face #.diaries

[chaseisglitched]

im not planning to jump ship from this hellsite entirely because im too stubborn but i might not post art anytime soon :/

#chase.ramblings #just a heads up i guess #its a shame nightshade and glaze seem to really like to give my computer breathing problems #and of course there is only so much those can do #im just tired man i just wanna do art in peace and be silly idk #i was literally planning on posting some art this week and now I’m just :(

[nyarthru]

the fact that so many child abuse laws are like "its not child abuse unless it leaves a lasting mark" is so fucking crazy to me. You can hit a kid as long as your fists weren't closed and you hit them light enough

#It's actually so hard for someone to be convicted of child abuse. especially if what happened is under the guise of ''discipline'' #yeah the kid was fighting me so its not MY fault that he hit his head and arm on a counter and was also on edge of having a panic attack. #this is the proper reaction to a kid being guilty of talking back and being bossy - my uncle #also my uncle: I've never been found guilty under the law for child abuse. you are wrong. also you are the one needing to grow up bc somehow #I'm circling this conversation about you assaulting me over thinking something bad was happening to your brother back around to the fact you #are still living with me #its so funny to me bc even if I did try to leave my mom would try to stop me lmao. ''you're mom is enabling your lifestyle for some reason'' #my dude. my mom is ENFORCING this lifestyle. not to mention when you were shaming me for how old I was and still living here...you got my #age wrong??? do your research before talking to me. #literally told me I had no goals or plans for the future. lmao even. he only ever talks to me to tell me that he wants me out #quickly! name 8 interests I have that I did not have while in elementary school!!! #like I'm so mad. at least I can revel in the fact that my uncle was such a pussy you didn't commit to calling the police on me when he said #he would lmao. I can also revel in the fact that he fucking hates it here and tries to avoid being home. and that hes failing at parenting #his own children. I'm sorry brenna. I mean no slander. but you sneaking around and being found out about it and that all the adults knew #about it before he did thus making him look bad is so satisfying. its like watching him judging his gf and my mom for being bad parents #while his kids do much worse things (in his eyes) so fucking poetic #I'm sorry for going batshit crazy in the tags. I am. venting #tw child abuse

[violasmirabiles]

dear god im sitting on a gbu thought / concept / idea WHATEVER feeling foaming at the mouth level insane and cant even DO anything with it really. or even explain it in a way thats not just the fuckin iasip pepe silvia meme. thought the gbu/tuntematon sotilas crossover was bad but this is a new level of hey ali did you know youre really truly very finnish and this is relevant to no one else but you

#to put it simply theres a very well known finnish song called suojelusenkeli - guardian angel - #(yes i mean maan korvessa kulkevi lapsosen tie) #and something something the lyrics go on telling a child to never let go of their guardian angels hand #andthats simple enough i guess. yknow. guardian angel. you know who im thinking of #also im feeling emotions about the ramirez brothers again that i feel go very well with this song #BUT THAT ISNT ALL THAT ISNT ALL cos. theres this finnish crime series? miniseries? one season 12 episodes. that i love SO much. called raid #and its fucking Packed with dollars trilogy and once upon a time in the west references. soundtrack to certain shots to dialogue #to the fucking fact that the main character is effectively the man with no name but finnish. only known as raid. as in the insecticide. #cos his reputation is that he will kill you dead :) also he owns a harmonica and he literally watches ouatitw at one point. owns it on vhs #ANYWAY point is that the song. the guardian angel song. maan korvessa kulkevi lapsosen tie. is also prominently featured in that series #so yeah basically im just rotating gbu and that song and that series in my head and screeching internally <3 #unfortunately idk if raid is currently online anywhere. and if it is idk if it comes with english subtitles #and thats a goddamn SHAME cos everyone should watch it #...... is it obvious ive been having a. day.

[mephilver]

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#im very very against crying because it just makes my head hurt and my face ugly #but because im so against crying i havent been able to sleep in months because #i keep having dreams of myself violently sobbing but i have to be super chill about everything #im not allowed to cry im the only one who doesnt cry thats the value i offer to my dying brother #is that im the only person not visibly mourning him yet #i almost cried at the doctor because they asked me how many siblings i had #its so fucking stupid i know #and i feel so bad like i abandoned him but he was slipping farther and farther every day it was horrible having to arrange hospice for him #then he agreed to the third surgery he never wanted to have but insurance didnt cover it #but 3 days later the surgeon did it out of pocket and now hes on new chemo but im still not with him #i ran away and gave my room to his mother so she could be with her dying son and i could catch a break #but it doesnt feel like a break im still constantly on the verge of tears and even though he chose to spend his last months with me #i chose to high tail it to another state because i couldnt stand the sight of him #he wouldnt let me take care of him anyways because im his baby sister 19 years younger than him and its a pride/shame thing i get it #whatever im done now i will always have video games

[oscill4te]

I get so embarassed that im 24 but mentally act like a teenager/kid (impulsive/regression/general mannerisms) bc I am so used to being let down by adults who were stuck mentally at young ages due to their upbringing. (not their fault BTW. Just wish they didnt have kids though *coughs*). Like its not even a moral failing to be behind other people, but it just -feels- like it is yknow.

#like the brain is supposed to be done developing at 24 🧐 whats goin on here. *knocks on head* #people shame age regression so much. its involuntary for me. im just kinda stunted. hope ppl in my life dont mind it 😬 #gonna give myself credit and say I did mentally grow up a lot living on my own and stuff with only my own guidance. sooo. #i still socially am very stunted though #like I cant believe to this day that i was made a manager at my job when i still act like this. i regress at work sometimes. its embarrassi #g #txt

[kkoct-ik]

can any vn fans (danganronpa, ace attorney, whatever) following me go play paranormasight right now its on sale

its a horror paranormal mystery vn with a pretty tight cast (the characters are so. crushes them in my hands) and the atmosphere. particularly with the 360 view gimmick and gorgeous art style and ost. is really good

go play it i need it to grow a fandom. shoo

content warnings: jumpscares and disturbing imagery (the ghosts), violence (blood, death by burning, dismemberment, etc.) mentioned and depicted on occasion, common triggers

#kostik speaks #absolutely shameless promo. goodnight #it only took me 10 hours or so to beat and an extra hour to 100% but its worth it #tsutsumi is my favourite (hangs head in shame) but i like everyone from the main cast #especially the girls!! #i saw a lot of people praise how there isnt a single perverted joke in the game and like. the bar is on the floor. but its appreciated #i really did like it if anyone decides to play it please talk to me about it #paranormasight