#its literally never been seen before

[s0fter-sin]

i need ghoap frantically making out against a door finally taking the leap on their feelings. need ghost grinding against soap, expecting to find him just as hard as him, only to feel nothing

and in all his wisdom and experience, he concludes soap was tortured and never told him

he’s trying to think of a delicate way to say he understands, that he’s been through it and it doesn’t change anything about how he feels (and who the fuck touched him so he can hunt them down and rend them limb from limb)

meanwhile trans!soap’s just trying to find the best angle to grind his cunt on ghost’s thigh

just it never even entering ghost’s head bc he’s never known a trans person but he has met plenty of people who’ve been tortured - himself included - so of course that’s his logical leap

soap takes off his shirt and he sees his top surgery scars and ghost asks if he wants him to kill the one who did it and soap just hums like, “actually, man did pretty good, they healed real well,” and ghost’s just teary-eyes with awe at how well he’s coping, “looking on the bright side, that’s my johnny.”

imagine he thinks johnny was fully castrated but sees he’s determined to still have a sex life with him so he buys packers and straps to help him bc hell yeah healing and soap’s just like, “holy shit i’ve never had such a thoughtful partner before, such a sweet man, lt.”

#he a little confused but he got the spirit #its so good bc it can be super angsty of ghost really dreading whats been done to his sergeant and trying to make it right #or just go full crack treated seriously and have fun with it #i love just completely oblivious ghost #in any military context hes the smartest guy in the room #he always knows the play and has more experience than anyone #but stick him in the normal world? man is Lost #ghost just thinks hes had some kind of reconstruction surgery after being tortured and accepts thats what johnny looks like #bc hes never seen a pussy before #it takes years for soap to actually come out to him bc he just never thought to #hes seen him naked theyve literally slept together what else is there for him to say #then he shows him like a family album or something and ghosts just like ‘why arent you in any of these i only see girls’ #and he just goes ‘hang on a second’ #soap gets one of his sporadic periods one night and panics a little thinking it would weird ghost out or remind him that hes not cis #but ghost just thinks its a normal part of such a thorough reconstruction that hed bleed sometimes #and doesnt question it when soap grabs a pad out of his drawer bc ‘thats such a good way of handling the discharge my johnnys so smart’ #just really supportive ghost for the wrong reasons #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod

[peachcitt]

actually if goncharov were real it would never live up to the standards the insane tumblrinas have built it up to be. there is a triangle of homoeroticism, political commentary, and inevitably tragic in which any live, real adaptation would only conceivably be able to achieve two of to their fullest extent. added on to the fact that this is a film that supposedly is filmed and takes place in the seventies makes the possibility of it truly containing all aspects of what we have made it out to be even more far fetched. however, tumblr has been able to spin gold on far more real and disappointing media than goncharov through its analyses of media such as supernatural, sherlock, and a secret third piece of media that the subsequent creation and analyses of the ‘greatest mafia movie of all time’ goncharov is simply a natural step that tumblr as an ecosystem is willing to take. in this essay i will,

#goncharov #unreality #peach stuff #goncharov 1973 #someone accused me of being an english major (true) (god forbid women do anything) so this is also the natural step to take i suppose #anyway i do think i have a point in that we’re all already so used to performing in depth media analysis on media that simply. is bad. that #creating media from almost literally nothing and performing media analysis on it is just . i mean how can anyone be surprised #also before anyone says anything about it i didn’t mention doctor who in my list of bad media because well ive actually never seen #any episode in its entirety and i do know (as an english major) that science fiction is a fantastic way to deliver political commentary #ive also heard that the most recent season has been doing important work (at least from a meta standpoint) in gender politics #sherlock is. well. other iterations of sherlock holmes have certainly been better. and we all know supernatural is bad #i only listen ‘a secret third thing’ because traditionally it’s good to list three things to cite in your thesis. oldest trick etc #and anyway. that’s all my disclaimers. expect the essay never because im already overworked and underpaid<3

[sonknuxadow]

sorry would people get mad at me if i said idk how i feel about the idea of movie sonic and knuckles as brothers. like it already feels like theyre implying it so if they do officially state it in the knuckles series or third movie i wouldnt be surprised or angry and seething and trying to argue theyre not brothers or anything. id just accept it and move on its an alternate universe with different takes on the characters and doesnt affect the games so its whatever. but it does feel kinda odd because like. i love found family as much as the next guy but sonic and knuckles have never been so much as implied to view eachother as brothers in any game or comic or tv show or anything even the stuff that has them written wildly different from their game counterparts so its like . why are we doing this all of a sudden. if you wanna do it in fan content whatever but .. officially...? also i just like sonic and knuckles better as friends/rivals sorry

#i know this probably looks like im just mad because i like so/nknux or whatever but i promise thats not the reason #again the movies are an alternate universe its not the end of the world if they do things that dont match my view of the game characters #also i never even cared for movie so/nknux in the first place i just like it in the games and comics and some of the tv shows #if anything my shipping related concerns are less with anything sonic and knuckles are actually doing #and more with how movie only sonic fans/people who view the movies as an actual authority on sonic lore #would act about it. because ive already seen game so/nknux fanart get ''Ummm ... theyre brothers :/'' type comments .. #to be clear if they do outright state Yeah movie sonic and knuckles are brothers. then shipping them would be gross #im already weirded out by the idea of shipping them Now even when they Havent outright said that #but game sonic and knuckles existed first and for way longer and have never been implied to view eachother as brothers at all #shipping them in the games is literally fine .. ? #especially if theyr elike me and they liked the ship for years before the movies came out #and solely like it based on other content

[claratyler]

Do you ever think about how pets only live like 12-17 years, which is NOTHING, and somehow you're lucky enough to coincide and share those ≈15 years with your very own specific kitty or doggy? How wonderful is that. Out of the entire history of time, they're only here for a few years, and we have the honor to be there with them

#god its been over a week. im literally in shambles. thought i was doing 'better' #cause i didnt cry for like 3 days but now its happening again and i miss her so much #i miss her so much what i wouldnt give to hug her and give her a little treat #or hell even take her out to pee at 3 am #or be annoyed by her barking at 6 am because she wants company and my mom left #or give her her medicine which WAS SO HARD TO GIVE HER OMG #or give her the physiotherapy that the vet recommended literally the day before she died that we never got to really do on her #other than that very night #god i miss my baby so much :( she was a mixed dog #prominent type was chihuahua but god knows what other combinations were there #she was so unique literally never seen a dog like that ever anywhere #precisely bc god knows what combination of dog races she was #oh my baby :( #animal death #pet death #pet grief #she was with me since i was 8 years old #and now im 24 #i cant imagine never seeing her again ever again :( #please come back baby 😭

[lotus-lamps]

hey....hey..heywait a minute.....

(speculating in the tags instead of here because i am incapable of writing proper readable commentary my bad)

#not my art #theory #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fukuchi #bsd spoilers #look i know people have already been theorizing that the person at the end of the season finale is fukuchi #(and i've also seen theories that its the fusion of fukuchi and fyodor) #but like i literally never noticed this until now #there is NO way this is a coincidence that they have such a similar mask #its not the exact same #but i think its really interesting how fukuchis is the one that has lines running down the circles like tears or blood #also they sorta have similar hairstyles? #OH PLUS THAT SCAR LMAO #i did not look at the guy closely enough #“you cannot avoid death” #very interesting and fitting honestly #and they have the same belt thing :skull: #(not included in the picture sorry) #how have i never seen this before #anyways moral of the story they did a moderate amount of trolling #also cause he appears like right after fukuchi dies? #why would he come back though #he seemed pretty satisfied with his death #its probably not EXACTLY him but im really not sure why the guy is going against atsushi and akutagawa #also how the hell did akutagawa unvampirify and then get a whole bloodborne build in like two hours #major upgrade though lowkey #he kinda fine tho #/hj anime akutagawa is hard to simp for #manga akutagawa is much better what did they do to my boy

[theygender]

I've been trying to figure out and justify why I've been experiencing so much fatigue lately. At first I thought I may have developed anemia from my endometriosis making me bleed for 8 weeks straight but my blood tests came back fine. Maybe I'm just exhausted bc I had to work that entire time while actively sick? But I had quite a few days off to rest this month and I haven't been as sick recently, so what gives? Turns out I didn't need to look for an outside source. Apparently fatigue is one of THE most common symptoms of endo and it's just not mentioned often bc most doctors underestimate the impact fatigue can have on people's lives 🙃 The call is coming from inside the fucking house

#endometriosis #just decided to google if endo itself can cause fatigue and uh. turns out it fucking can! #one study im reading here had ~85% of participants with endo report pain. ~50% report heavy bleeding. and 100% report fatigue #that would make fatigue a more common symptom of endometriosis than the symptoms that DEFINE endometriosis #WHY have i never seen fatigue mentioned on any other resource before 😭 why did my DOCTOR not mention it #jk. one of the articles literally says that its under-discussed and under-researched bc most doctors dont think fatigue is a big deal #tell that to me sleeping through all of my fucking alarms missing class missing appointments and being late for work #rambling #at least i know now i guess #ive been having to explain myself to my professors and my boss and ive been correcting myself #to say 'fatigue from my chronic illness' instead of 'chronic fatigue' bc i didnt think this counted #but. looks like it fucking does. endo can cause chronic fatigue. fuck #can i just get this fucking hell machine taken out of me already #its not like im using it. and a month or two of recovering from surgery would be better than a forever of pain and gi issues and fatigue #menstruation tw

[wonder-worker]

people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?

#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen #no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?) #Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty #Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it. #obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't #But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!” #is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying. #Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status #her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier #the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all #siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen #Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her #that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do #like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her #and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented #no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard #(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..) #ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth #because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century #both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country #yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time #and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians) #Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers #who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression #queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status #yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this #so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties? #why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism') #after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support #and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.

[gilliontidestriderchampionoftheu]

Little detail that is never addressed or brought up again- when Jay first meets Julian Booker, she notices he has a tattoo on his wrist, but can't make out what it is. i wonder if he also made a deal with niklaus in the past?

#my post #jrwi riptide #jic julian is the gnome greaser from loffinlot lol #its literally never brought up again we never actually see it #i just. hmm #if he made a deal then it wouldve had to have been before the mayor did bcus thats when abigail disappeared and she wouldve seen him go to #nik. wonder what he wished for #my theory is he wished for his amazing hair #maybe he lost his courage in exchange. idk. #just something odd i noticed. im adding him to my list of MAYBE niklaus victims

[cupiare]

walking into work tomorrow for the staff training day after i got rejected for the job i was near guaranteed to get and didn’t find out the news from my boss who i was with the whole morning in TUTOR PLANNING DAY FOR NEXT YR FOR TUTORIALS THAT TUTORS WOULD BE DOING THAT I WAS BOOKED INTO WITH THE TUTORS THE ROLE I APPLIED FOR AND HAD A VERY GOOD INTERVIEW FOR i found out from a noreply auto generated email from hr that was sent out as soon as i stepped out of the meeting room :) and then got invited back to the meeting for the rest of the day where my manager repeatedly talked about taking my good ideas from my interview and implementing them into tutorials next yr. after i got rejected via generated email. How we doing guys 😆

#p #me personally. and not just me literally everyone else coworkers students anyone but my manager apparently was in my favor #like advocated for me #i got insanely good feedback from everyone #like that job is. mine already. i’ve done that job and my job and i did that voluntarily #no hate to the other candidate lovely girlie she is but being told my interview was great #and my teaching task was great and she’s never seen HER OWN GROUP OF STUDENTS so engaged in a task before #and then being highly praised for my vision and ethic etc #and me knowing this shitass school and system inside out and still wanting to be here and being passionate abt what i do #and STILL i get turned down. thats personal i take it personally #but bcs i know this place i wouldn’t have been surprised if it was just that #its the cruelty of how they let me know #this entire day was like being spat in the face #like thanks for all your hard work! bye now! you won’t be here much longer but we’ll take all the good things you’ve come up with! #i’m so shocked #i had a go at my manager and APPARENTLY the email wasn’t supposed to go out ‘yet’ but its a very convenient coincidence that it did then #isnt it #i’ve never in my life felt so disrespected ngl #like i still didn’t get a proper conversation about it ???? literally only got good feedback and a quick apology??? #how dare you and what did i do to you to deserve this like literally #my feelings are CRUSHED its essentially like getting laid off #cause i’m gonna leave soon anyway its like yeaaa we don’t want you actually #well then ! thanks for treating me like a valuable employee and person with feelings

[pansyfemme]

something about my father doing normal dad activities like falling asleep in an armchair terrifys me

#context: my father is a chronic insomniac and has been since birth. he was doing no less than three all nighters until around age 55 #he’s slowed down a bit the past few years anyway. but he got covid a year ago and it turned into long covid. he’s rlly slowing down and its #scary bc i literally have never seen my dad nap before this year #he drinks a ton of caffine all day and night and avoids things like chamomille and lavender bc he hates the feeling of being tired #but like. now he just. sleeps #and i know that should be a good thing but it makes me worried #bc its unavoidable how much older he’s getting. #my dad’s 62. im 18. i get worried a lot i wont have my parents around as long as most kids. and everytime they get even slightly sick i get #worried..

[taikk0]

OHOHOHO NOOOHOHOHO IVE BEEN REPOSTING MY ART ON TWITTER SCHEDULING THEM TO BE POSTED EVERY 3 HOURS AND I JUST REALIZED THAT BC I DONT HAVE MUCH OF A BACKGROUND OVER THERE AND PEOPLE ARE SEEING THEM FOR THE FIRST TIME THEYRE GONNA HAVE TO BEAR WITNESS TO MY KRANG SHENANIGANS WITH NO WARNING AND NO IDEA ABOUT HOW I FELT ABOUT HIM UNTIL THAT POINT PLEASE IM GONNA LOSE FOLLOWERS OVER THERE SO QUICKLY LAMSOJSAHFAHFSJSH

#ITS LITERALLY SO IRONIC CAUSE LIKE..OK UH #LISTEN IVE NEVER ACTUALLY FESSED UP BEFORE BUT ABOUT TIME I DO IT NOW IN THE TAGS BUT UM I HAVE A CRUSH ON LEO 💀💀 #AND UNTIL NOW IM SUPER HESITANT TO ADMIT IT #AND NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT IM LIKE... 'OH NO WHAT WILL I DO IF I ADMIT IT WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO MY REPUTATION!! ILL BE CRINGE!!' and like. #dude you have a crush on the krang your reputation was sullied a LONG TIME AGO WHAT DIGNITY IS LEFT TO BE PRESERVED 😭 #just the way that i always thought 'man having a crush on the krang is marginally less embarrassing than admitting i really like leonardo' #LIKE DUDE NO IT ISNT??????????? #they are both embarrassing but in different ways #LEOS THE TYPA LOSER THAT ID RATHER DIE THAN BE SEEN IN PUBLIC WITH #AND THE KRANG IS JUST WIDELY HATED WITH ASPECTS THAT ONLY I SEE AND IM JUST MAKING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF💀 #the mental acrobatics i go through is actually just so.. #I NEVER WORRIED ABOUT BEING JUDGED FOR HAVING A CRUSH ON THE KRANG BUT IM WORRIED ABOUT HAVING A CRUSH ON A TURTLE THAT EVERYONE- #-UNDERSTANDS THE APPEAL OF?????? LIKE HUH #sorry yall eyes have been opening these past few days 💀💀💀💀 #my own bf described leo as my 'turtle boyfriend' once LIKE I DIDNT EVEN LIKE LEO THAT MUCH BUT HE KNEW SOMETHING I DIDNT 😭 #MY BF DOESNT EVEN WATCH ROTTMNT #THAT IS NOT A DEFINING CHARACTER TRAIT #HE USUALLY CALLS THEM BY THEIR MAIN ATTRIBUTES OR THEIR BANDANA COLOR (EX. THE SMART ONE. THE ANGRY ONE. THE ORANGE ONE) #WHY DID HE CALL HIM MY TURTLE BOYFRIEND I DONT UNDERSTAND #I CRIED ABOUT IT (/LH) AND HIS RESPONSE WAS 'what? ✨polyamory!✨' LIKE DUDE PLEAESEEE 😭😭😭😭 #IM GLAD THAT I KNOW YOURE OPEN #BUT WHAT #good to know that my bf flat out said that he was okay with me being with leo apparently 💀 #idk whats wrong with him /aff #my bf not the turtle i know whats wrong with him #anyways um. #YEAH LETS NEVER SPEAK ABOUT ANYTHING I ADDED IN THE TAGS AGAIN #its classified info between the two of us you the reader and me the mikyomix CAPICHE?? #also no this does not affect sona lore whatsoever they r just friends #translation: i am a wuss 👍

[littleprincepaladin]

#ramblingpaladin #god i hate how im so easy to fall for arrogant evil men #its from the “i strahd memoirs of a vampire” fyi. im going insane over him today #funnily enough im not into #e.g ascended astarion or cazador (or gortash. but gortash is different here:) #i think it has to do with how Raphael and Strahd are just genuinely good at whatever the hell theyre doing #vain. arrogant. flawed? oh absolutely they're total jerks #but their so beloved patheticness for me comes from the fact that their weakness lies hidden behind their strengths #which can be both literal strength or can be an intellectual thing. tbf both have both. manipulative bastards that also can whoop your ass #and oh lord im about to get the worst ass whooping of my LIFE #while ascended astarion is honestly just sopping wet pathetic to me straight away. hes not really fun. but i get the fantasy ig #its been said multiple times i believe but as.astarion really just has the Vibes. not the actual thing #sure hes now some cool never seen before vamp. but hes broke off his ass and turns into a stupid lil bat #cazador definitely has his strength oh that's for sure but ultimately his weaknesses are wayyy too obvious #raphael also has them obvious but he has the charisma to make you forget hes got them #cazador is just sopping wet too #so really i believe its a matter of having the character be genuinely strong + ratio between weakness and strength #preferably the weakness to be more hidden. part of the appeal #im not putting gortash in together with as.astarion and cazador because hes also a good one imo #but for some reason im just. not into him. even tho hes literally my type #is it the anime ass hair? #its the anime ass hair. #this got long...

[wabblebees]

thought id update to say; i survived opening night!!! and not only that, it went REALLY fucking well, and people seemed to REALLY REALLY like it omfg... god this is so crazy

#i was literally holding the script in a bigass binder for almost the entire show (sparing only the parts where i had to BULLFIGHT) #(bc i needed two hands -- one for the cape & one for the banderilla.)(yall i had to learn how to BULLFIGHT TANGO & SWORDFIGHT. in TWO DAYS) #but the audience said afterwards it was like i wasnt even on-book; they hardly noticed it was there??!! #yall this is my real life rn. im failing my classes but yknow what?? #i can pull it together enough to emergency understudy in a highly physical show 2 days before opening even with a script ive never SEEN #and apparently we made people fucking CRY. HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT #this playwright is just. incredible. the script is INSANE. BEAUTIFUL & CLEVER & HILARIOUS & TERRIFYING & VILE & TENDER & TECHNICALLY PERFECT #and apparently our production is like. only the eighth time this show has EVER been produced. for real #but god EVERYONE should know about this playwright's work. fuck i actually think tumblr would really love her. holy shit. #maría irene fornés is her name -- she was a queer cuban-american playwright+director who made radical heartwrenching magical theatre #im so grateful to be doing this & SO fucking sad for the original performer im covering for... god. bc this is just such lifechanging work #this play is queer in EVERY sense. its off-putting loving repulsive peculiar passionate holy and GAY AS HELL. its real its farce its SO CAMP #((IRENE & SUSAN SONTAG DATED. SONTAG AS IN 'NOTES ON ''CAMP''' SONTAG. ITS FUCKING GORGEOUS.)) #its gorgeous its gorey its glamourous its also literally the first part ive played that i think might truly fit my casting type exactly lmao #which is INSANE. bc the character is literally just described in the script as ''ISIDORE: an androgynous clown'' LMFAO #but honestly what could be more homoerotic than 2 ''men'' locked in a room together dancing tango+talking abt beetles+stabbing each other #hmm. maybe its the fact that after i stab the other guy i call him ''saint sebastian'' and then we LITERAL ACTUAL GAY KISS #which is crazy bc we only practiced that ONE TIME before opening #and youd think this shit cant get Any Gayer BUT. IT DOES. bc my scene partner+the director are gay+together irl... and uhh. #ive literally been their third. like. more than once. #ISNT THAT FUCKING INSANE. THIS IS MY REAL LIFE?? THIS IS MY REAL LIFE #ANYWAY #so now im headed back out to rehearse more before we perform it again tonight lmao #i hope it goes as well as it did last night #that audience was fucking incredible i really hope the next two like it as much as they did🤞🤞 knocking on wood #so. if u read this far. u should go find+read ''tango palace'' by maría irene fornés. mwah okay bye #bee speaks

[ra-archives]

Its Tech week and I am so tired omfg. I had so many projects I wanted to work on, but I simply do not have the time or energy so this is probs all I'm gonna manage for like the next week or two

Anyways shitty quality screenshot from my insta from like two months ago to represent my feelings rn

But ALSO maybe maybe I'll be posting some of the LU writing I've been working on in my oh so precious spare time so we'll see

#art #shitpost #I was not told that being on Tech would be so exhausting god damn #idk what this post is but hi #circling back to that mention of the LU fic maybe #what if I just made a fic where the whole point was they got dumped in a random ass world with a bunch of monsters they've never seen befor #literally the only point would be that I could show off all the mosters I've made up over the years. and environment building too #might add that to the list of potential wips #update its only been another day and now I feel no picture can truely embody how tired I am

[todayisafridaynight]

So, Ichiban’s mom isn’t Janel Monae (as in she’s not black)? If so saaaaaaaaad and missed missed missed opportunity.

if we're real with ourselves there wasn't ever really a chance ichi's mom would be anything but japanese- im more surprised at the fact she's alive lol

#snap chats #it is going to make drawing akane awkward in the future. cause i will of course plan to do that LMAO #but yeah anyways. its not going to stop me from being mad interested in akane #but SPEAKING of biraciality or. binationality? biethnicity.. im on episode two of Smile (the jdrama i just posted bout) #real as hell that vito's named after movie characters jesus christ thats exactly what my parents did ☠️ #when bro was makin an origami pig i thought they were gonna reference lechon or like. Literally Any Filipino Food #idk how close vito is with his filipino heritage yet- he's never been to the philippines and i havent seen his parents yet i dont think #so idek if hed know filipino food.. #but god so far this jdrama is an encapsulation of why im scared of ever going to japan LMAO #LIKE OFC THE XENOPHOBIA'S PLAYED UP FOR THE SHOW but there's def truth to it #the wildest thing from this show is that one of the characters was like 'in japan there's no such thing as 'pure' japanese' #LIKE YES THERE IS LMAOOOOOOOOO SHUT UP so glad vito called out a sec later that there was #anyways... in THAT respect tho and back on topic.. it would have been nice if ichi /was/ biracial #when the plot of his game revolves around japan's less-fortunate members of society and those discriminated against #but oh well... i'll take what i can get with what they've given us #now back to this show one more ep before bed cause my head really hurts

[caruliaa]

also hi for anyone who cares omitb is sooo fucking good omg ?? like omg omg i watched it all in the last three days and its literally so incredible im so excited for the season 3 finale

#my MUM of all ppl reccomened it to me which is insane #but its literally so fucking good uhh !!! umm content warning murder and blood farily obvious lmao but like #if you like murder mysteries YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT RNN and honestly even if they arent usually ur thing #like its such a good and such a funny show tht like i reccomend it regardless yk #and i am actually a fan of murder mysteries. its funny bc i feel liek iv always like them but i never rly like. #enaged w them tht much despite tht? but i think i am going to now #i need to finally watch the knives out movies #its so dumb but ithink i kinda need this in a weird way #like obvs u shldnt be just defined by the media u consume #but i keep looking for who i am after this and like idk. murder mystery fan is someone i wasnt before but tht i can be now #and that i can enjoy being. idk its smth. esp since the outside of the media i enjoy well i defined myself by the thing i made to #but sm of that was also my relationships with and to other people and well. i just lost my biggest one. so yk . #actually thats not true. thats not true the biggest more core and most long lasting relationship i have with someone #is the one i have with myself. and it hasnt always been a good one but ill be dammed if ill let it end any time soon #anyway what was i talking abt. selena gomez is such a good actress omg i never rly new tht bc the only thing iv seen her in #is the princess protection program and like. tbh i mostly new her as a musican despite also not being super #familer w her music but shes such a good actresss omg #flappy rambles