Maybe this doesn鈥檛 need to be said, but Im feeling awful about it, so -- to any mutuals that might notice Im not following them anymore, I'm sorry about that. I've just seen too many posts on my dash that I have no way of blocking because they're not tagged in any way and they're distressing enough it's turning one of the only places I considered a safe space not safe for me anymore. So for my own mental health, I had to unfollow. I Will refollow in the future and I still love y'all, but I just-- I can鈥檛. Ive been noticing some very worrying stuff about my mental and emotional state and it's just too much currently. I hope it's at least an understandable decision, and I wish y'all are having a good day out there 馃挆
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god i wish i was the type of person who could just be creative for myself. but if i dont have people to engage with my ideas and/or multiple people to make things with in collaboration i just dont want to do it at all. and at this point in my life i literally dont know where i could find any more people like that now that ive fallen out with everyone i used to... its hard to tell how much that's what i miss and how much what i miss might just be being a kid with a big imagination. but like i just cant make things for fun anymore and it makes me so fucking sad because in my heart what i enjoy doing more than anything else is drawing and writing and thinking about characters and plotlines just for fun and having people to share my ideas with in a way that they can really engage with them beyond 'oh that looks nice!'
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Y'all I honestly wish I could send a message back in time like 3-4 years and tell Past-Becca who was depressed and stuck in crap retail jobs that in my mid 20s I'd be working a lab job that I absolutely love and genuinely enjoy going to, and that I'd be well-liked and thought of highly by my coworkers and management. There's a lot that I still need to work on, but damn if I'm not lightyears beyond what I could imagine for myself even a couple years ago.
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