#ive been working on this for 3 months already :(

[gorgojijijijito]

im gonma make bride of discord relevant againt i sweer

anybody else remember bride of discord (and daughter of discord) by that disneyfanaticbunchofnumbers on youtube? yeah i freaking loved it as a kid. still do now honestly, it was honestly one of the cornerstones of my childhood and it's my favorite thing to listen to while i work. i call it my soap opera.

that being said 90% of the morals are AWFUL holy shit. i still appreciate it because it's heartwarming as a passion project and comparably more mature piece of fanwork considering the my little pony fandom at the time; but the toxicity between discord and fluttershy? the homophobic undertones in the sequel?? the treatment of rarity as a character??? THE APPLESPIKE??????

that shit has GOT to GO. so im writing a fix-it-fic for my own self indulgence lmao. i'll be posting my progress and some tidbits here, but i'm not even halfway done with transcripting the episodes and planning out my changes, so it'll be a long while before the final drafts are ready to post. when they are, they'll be posted on archive of our own, but until then, everyone and anyone is more than welcome to offer changes that they would like made, or factors of the story they'd like to be kept. theres no guarantees that they'll be included, but it's still so fun talking about this thing with other people, and it's always good to engage with others in this phase of the process. below is a list of major to minor notes i've already got in mind.

I want to keep the serious tone of the story. By far I think the thing that kept me attached to this series for so long is how the mood differs from so much of the fandom back then. the stakes in the beginning were legitimately high, the conflict took itself seriously, and the production quality was through the roof. this is the audiodrama's hallmark, it's iconic and must be kept in mind when contemplating changes.

Many smaller changes must be made to the Fluttercord plot in order to make it healthier and more natural: the infantilization of fluttershy, discord's overbearingness and harrassment, literally nearly all of episode 9. red flags. i think the biggest issue is that the character arcs are based more on shipping and tropes than the actual characters. there's nothing wrong with this in moderation, but in this case, the relationship is unbearably toxic. the arcs in the rewrite will be a lot more character-focused.

Instead of applejack and spike being the secondary romance, i'm going to make it applejack and rarity. yes i do ship rarijack, but this decision was primarily made in order to get two birds with one stone with applejack and rarity's depictions in the series and its sequel. free my girl rarity and leave my boy spike alone :(

Take pinkie pie more seriously as a character. this isn't just a problem with BOD but also the actual show FIM. she just gets annoying sometimes and her lack of depth really irked me in BOD.

GET RAINBOW DASH AWAYYYY FROM SOREN GET THAT OUT OF HERE

i feel like fluttershy's "tragic" backstory explaining her hesitance as being adored is kinda underwhelming. so is her insecurity, her insecurity not expanding beyond the "doesn't know she's beautiful" trope just rubs me the wrong way, she deserves more depth than that.

discord. discord. the relationship is so one-sided to discord that i think i can only name 2 things he legitimately done for fluttershy's happiness (both of which he lowkey ruined not a day later. most of their "bonding" scenes are just him trying to distract her from her tragic reality and her desires by doing stuff he wants to do, which btw is a manipulation tactic so GET THAT OUT OF HERE)

theres quite a few weird undertones and stereotypes. the pedo and "nice girl" stuff with applespike is the most obvious one, but theres also some lowkey misogynistic quips thrown in there and, although this might not have been an issue at the time, zecora does fit the "wise black woman" trope that's been pointed out many times in recent media, so i do need to adjust how she's portrayed.

another problem that FIM also commits, but rainbow dash just feels so mischaracterized as an element of loyalty at some points. i want to make her loyalty more prominent, to the point of putting her career on the line because she couldn't abandon fluttershy or her friends when they were breaking down. that would be real sweet.

i dont know if im also going to rewrite daughter of discord, i might consider it after im finished with this one, though. also i promise i write way better than i do here when i try lol

#bride of discord #my little pony #mlp fim #mlp #fluttercord #rarijack #bride of discord rewrite #ive been working on this for 3 months already :(

[3am-cheerios]

i hopped on palia to help sister with a quest. that was 4-5 hours ago. i got sidetracked with the nicest group of players in bahari bay. we all just roamed and called out so much palium and multiple proudhorned. i haven't seen the rare stuff spawn like that since closed beta! i got FORTY palium ore in 2 hours! no proudhorned antlers dropped tho

#the lag has been BAD since switch launch #so i was real surprised at the lack of it while hunting #idk if it was just the time of night or stuff being worked on #but omg palia players are so kind! #theres already lingo and courtesies forming #like at midnight people search for the grove and usually chop at 3 #call out the rare mats like palium and dari cloves #its so neat #like in the months ive played ive never had a bad experience in chat #and i like helping others out too #but this was the first session i was part of a random group that stuck together for a while #but now im up super late lol #kt plays #palia game

[chanyoungies]

김준서 (KIM JUN SEO) 1st Mini Album [ECHOES of love] 2022.11.20 6PM (KST)

#kim junseo #wei #ouiai #DEAR GOD it's 10AM as i draft we have 6 hours to go until i post but oh my god im finally done i thought id never finish dear GOD #this is far from the best thing ive ever done. but it was an interesting experience #nd definitely took some time (not the most tho . nothing can beat paula's birthday set when it comes to that) but also .... surprisingly #less than i thought ? like longer but also shorter .? u know ? #this made me go insane i kept forgetting about my food and i also kept working in silence half of the time bc i would forget to put smth on #eri if i decide to do a second one next year PLEASE tell me to start sooner like if i start brainstorming into ur ear in like may pls accept #i say 'if' as if i wasnt already working on song choices for next year lmao #i was really excited for this and i think that made me not rlly think as much as i should have i think i can do better next year . if i star #if i start early enough #ANYWAYS #happy junseo birth <3 my prince <3 or smth idk #pls dont perceive the mcd thumbnail from up close i beg u #boy who's so important . . a boy so fox . . . nation's model (2) pretty boy with pretty voice . . whatever im not gonna start rambling more #but he's very important n i hope he knows that he is & that he's so very loved & i hope that he's happy today and always . etc #nd i love him or whatever . whatever whatever no one look everyone close your eyes #*mine #special thanks to eri as always my bewoved who has been hearing me talk about this for the past like month thank u for putting up with me #(re:this and also in general i love u)

[rillette]

Regularly scheduled halposting

#hal jordan #if ive already posted these before no i didnt <3 #one day ill post picture images for the other gls but today is not that day #everybody say thank you to craig Hamilton for the gay ass spectre fullbody #hes the guy that also drew those parallax spreads u know the ones #(the one that everyone crops bc of alans fucking weenor) #craig also drew one of my favourite ever pages from spectre 2001 its in the issue with the vampire guy #i should post panels from specific artists sometime like to highlight their work #OH YEAH. craig also drew that one picture of spectre hal sitting down in a chair thats been driving me insane for months

[nixotinix]

fic update!!!

alright you little rascals!! i've mentioned a couple times here that I'm working on a new Jackson Jekyll/Holt Hyde centric fanfiction. Well, it isn't done, not by a long shot. But I am proud to report that it is my longest by FAR. Just chapter 3 is longer than Mortify Curiosity (my prev fic). So, to hold you fiends over, I'm posting a little bit of info about the fic here so y'all can decide if it's a good read for you before it even comes out!!! Said info will be below the cut ^^

Starting off with the basics!! Here's a screenshot from the AO3 draft with the title, tags, and summary.

Like with Mortify Curiosity, my other chaptered fic, I'm finishing this fic COMPLETELY before posting. I know the sting of an unfinished fic, and I wouldn't do that to you.

For some other info: chapter count and chapter titles, plus word count if the chapters are finished! -- -Chapter 1: What is sought is most often found, if it is truly sought -- Word count: 5,141 -Chapter 2: You know all the right moves; use them -- Word count: 7,411 -Chapter 3: Keep in mind the deadline is closing in -- Word count: 12,968 -Chapter 4: His affections, like ivy, were the growth of time -- Word count: ??? -Chapter 5: Confront what frightens or offends you -- Word count: ??? -Chapter 6: That child of Hell had nothing human -- Word count: ??? -Current total word count: 27,739 Just warning y'all, do not expect the other chapters to be as long as chapter 3. I literally do not know what possessed me to write an almost 13k word chapter it just. kinda happened. Chapter 4 is currently sitting at a cool 2,220 words, and I haven't really gotten into the nitty gritty. So it'll probably be a long one too.

Finally, just for you guys, I'll give you a little excerpt from the opening. You'll probably have to click to read, but this is the first 550-ish words. Enjoy ur little snack hehe

i'll reblog this post when the fic comes out so yall can find it huehue

#monster high #holt hyde #jackson jekyll #monster high g3 #nix fanfics #ive had literally so much fun with this fic!!! #i have the basic outline p much..... now i just gotta WRITE it #i really hope this will be worth the wait OTL #my jobs got my ass workin tho.. so we'll see how the fic goes #just got out of a minor writer's block #so im hoping to get around 1.5k-2k words per day but thats VERY optimistic #id be happy with just 1k tbh #but im a slow writer QAQ #hope yall assholes are patient because this one could be a while #it's already been in the works about a month..... #plus all the other stuff i wanna do #we'll see when it comes out #whenever i rb this post :3

[soldier-poet-king]

Reading James Baldwin essays at work and just. Tearing and biting and weeping.

#anyway....my favourite essayist of all time ever??? #honestly probably #both race and justice and politics AND faith and institutional hypocrisy and queerness #yes i am reading at woek #this has been the longest most boring 3 month project that is almost ENTIRELY downtime #im working with reels and so it's a lot of sittinf. waiting for old ass machine to process stuff #make sure old ass barely functional machine does chew up extremely old unique r2r tapes before digitization #and so. i read ebooks. #goodreads is like..how tf has this btich read so many books already #JK A THIRD OF THEM HAVE BEEN ON THE CLOCK #and while that is nice #i also want work to do again???? #like i feel guilty #and also i fear my actual professional skills will atrophy #and ALSO i think ive been extra moody bc i have no sense of accomplishment #yes i work and commute TOO many hours for a good balance #but i do genuinely psychologically need SOME degree of labour i enjoy and am good at #to give me a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment #i dont dream of labour but i DO dream of satisfaction at a job well done #if that makes sense????? #anyway. this project should be done in the next few weeks #i will inevitably complain about whatever is next and wish i could go back to soing jackshit #THERES NO BALANCE #god i wish i had a hybrid wfh situation and not a paid hourly directly supervised situation #yes yes paying my dues as a contract out of uni employee #ans my workplace is tbh VERY lenient #but also. i am trying to CUTLIVATE MENTAL WELLNESS and the 2+ hr commute and boredom isnt helping

[combeauferre]

.

#there's rly nothing like seeing someone else on social media describe their first day of adhd meds being like #this kind of eye opening experience where everything feels Immediately Different #and they're wired and awake and aware of their surroundings #and knowing that ive already been fucking around w my meds for 2-3 months and had barely any positive effect #even more frustrating when they're taking the medication i was told was on shortage so i couldnt take #it's just #sighhhhhh #like it's not their fault obviously #but there's just this displaced kind of. idk. heartbreak ???? seeing someone else doing Rly Well on medication #that hasnt done anything for u #like. god i just want my meds to be great and fucking lifechanging i want to Not Be Like This any more #im Tired and i just want this shit to work #sighh #incoherent rambling #ignore me

[kirnet]

are yall impressed with my actium progress *cries*

#i feel like im working on it non stop and then i actually see the amount of progress... girl #behold chapter 1. see if you can glean anything from it #ive fucked both of my wrists up pretty bad already and im just ignoring the injury which is not helping me pick up the pace lmao #my goal is to try to get in a rhythm where i can get 5-10 pages done a week depending on my day job and shit #chaps 1 to 5 are completely scripted panel by panel so i know exactly what im doing for them #and if i release about 10 pages every other week i should have about a 9 month buffer to keep working and scripting the rest. which seems #like enough?? i can always speed up the upload schedule if im really ahead but i dont see myself being that ahead lmao #act 1 is gonna have 14 chaps which are already plotted out and acts 2 and 3. wll #i mean i have most of the ideas lmao im sure itll all come together as i get closer rip #anyways. anyways #im learning to be faster but my focus has just been shot so hopefully i can double down and finish this chap #at this pace im hoping to release maybe in april/may? hopefully earlier? maybe later? #but def this year! #anyways i just needed to get all of my thoughts out lmao goodnight. im gonna rest my wrists #ramblings #actium posting

[ribbonpinky-art]

oh neat, it's those Heiwald Loophole guys

#the heiwald loophole #heiwald loophole #indie horror #the link leads to the game's steam page #gotta be my fav indie horror #i have not played it myself but conceptually and from what ive seen- its gotta be my fav indie horror ever #i just bought it :3 i will play it sometime even if i already know what happens #i love this game sm. its so cool and i love the characters #this has been in the works for months technically- just never got around to finishing it #like since may #thought it would be fun to draw these characters since they're ps1 styled goobers #my art

[mg549]

2023 year in review

previous years

#art review #year in review #2023 art summary #2023 art #art meme #my art #yaaa....this whole year ive been kinda dreading putting together this comp cause i feel like i havent been putting out much this year #but. i have been #its jst that i deemed 2023 would be my 'year of big projects' so i had a lot of Very Good Very Intricate Posts all within one month #[mermay designs plus making my own tail from scratch in may; lvweek+artfight in july; designing 3 outfits+7 fancy lined charas in oct] #then in the months between those i. did not have energy or time to do Impressive Art bc i was working on the Big Projects so theyde be read #i have a few Big Projects for 2024 planned but theyre in feb [good chunk finished already] and may [already working on it] so im hoping to #aybe Chill the rest of the year and specifically Have More Fun w it #cause the Stress of having to put out art 4 times a month and 1 vid a month #while also Secretly Working On Big Projects To Post All At Once hasnt been. the most enjoyable workflow fhdbghdf #oh well i like how the piece i Just Did tonight looks lineless from a distance did a new technique of Shading Over Lineart&i like it

[kingtankgirl]

i know i say rhis constantly but wow i am so at my breaking point

#my grandma is about 2 die so my moms mental health is gonna tank so hard. which is already is #and i cant help her cuz i dont live there anymore but god this holiday season is going to fucking suck #my chronic pain is getting worse. ive been barely eating for the last month cuz i just have no interest in food basically at all #broke down sobbing yesterday because it hurt so bad just trying to put my laundry away cuz my job is tearing my body apart #idk. i thought i wld be able to quit in a month or two but now i cant. #i dont have a light at the end of the tunnel at this point. nothing makes me happy im always hungry and in pain and fucking sad <3 #so i guess ill just sit here and cry and then go work for 8 hrs and think abt kms the whole time like i do most days

[miafeystits]

god this fic is so close to done it's genuinely excruciating

#a good 90% of it is like. basically perfect. just needs a once over to check for errors #and then there's like 3 paragraphs that need to be completely reworked #which is the only thing keeping me from publishing this monster immediately #ive been working on this thing for like 7 months! i need it done and out of my brain!! #i feel like a mother bird pushing her kids out of the nest #go spread your wings and fly already for christs sake

[vouseofwolves]

ugh moment

#i hate expressing my mental state on here #but fucking god #im so genuinely burned out i have like 0 will to keep going anymore #i have to pull through another 3 months but it seems so impossible i am so exhausted #ive never been more disappointed in myself #i already gave up on trying to get into uni this year but i still have to finish school #i have a spanish final tmrw and im so fucking stressed i dont remember anything bc im #so burned out i cant study anymore #i stare at my notes and cant even read them #i always loved studying and now mere thought fills me with so much dread because its the only thing #ive been doing for the past 3 years with no brrak and it won't even pay off bc #my mental health doesn't allow me to keep on going like thie #even if i miraculously got into uni id probably drop out because i. need.a break. #yeah whatever #im just really disappointed and heartbroken that things turned out that way #but mostly tired #i still have to work my ass of each day just to pass and it wont even matter because i have to get a gap year #vent #ignore

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im back in my apartment. and im rather sick. just a cold but like woke up feeling ok and then over the course of thr 12hr travel day #i was increasingly feeling worse and now im like 😵‍💫 its probably worse bc 7hr jet lag and my hormones r fucked #so im a bit recked. im supposed to go instruct undergrads tomorrow doing a procedure that fills me with rage even when i dont feel terrible #well see how awful i feel in the morning. i also have v lil food here bc ive been gone so long ugh #so much i gotta do. and do i feel better than when i left? not especially. i still wanna fucking quit working here. my dad is like #prioritize ur stuff bc u gotta move in 2 months and hes right but its gonna b real hard to stick to that #ugh. i feel so awful. i dont wanna work tomorrow. #i also watched that salin4 gomez doc on her brain stuff and it made me cry. and i was like weeping as i drove back from the airport bc a #lotta thimgs. but whatever itll b a 3 day weekend and im gonna try to b better abt doing as lil work as i can manage #so i dont like die. ya kno. but whatever. 2 months left. then i move. the process of getting #permits for sampling has already begun. ill b outta the desert soooooon. the light is there #unrelated

[the-kipsabian]

5, 11, 18, and 27 for "Like it Matters, You Can't Escape"

5. What is the perfect environment for you to write in? anything thats calm enough but ever so slightly busy in the background so that my brain doesnt wander but its kept stimulated. like i often have both a single song or a short enough playlist on and put a very few hour simple scenery background video on my big screen (currently been using this cause its moving enough but the transitions are slow and the changes very minor so i can see something moving but its not distracting) and i can keep going for as long as i have inspiration lol. just anything thats not too loud but not too quiet, both visually and audibly

11. If you could only write angst, fluff, or smut for the rest of your life, which would it be? hooonestly probably angst? i dont do smut anyways and i feel like theres so much well done fluff already out there that i contribute very little to it lol. and angst has always been my cup of tea anyways and its a good way to work with my feelings so. yeah that one lol

18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene. OKAY SO. theres the part in second chapter of immortal fears, the last bit where oc runs into kip. admittedly a lot of this was accidental until i realized what i had done with it, but the fact that kip emerges from the shadows in a very similar way than he did in the first chapter to confront cassidy was just like. yeah. again, accidental, but the moment i noticed the repetition was like 'okay yeah yep this is gonna be a thing now OKAY'. i just love that part a lot anyways, cause theres also a good amount of foreshadowing in it with how they talk about each others friends and relationships in that short bit, and how kip is showing general concern towards cassidy and whats going on with him - again repetition from the first chapter, but also a good groundwork for the future of how this (at this point still hateful) relationship will develop as kip tries to get under cassidys skin. i just really loved how it mostly accidental came together like. after having not really written a lot of stuff in a long while at that point, it just felt SO GOOD to realize and look at it happening. god im so proud of that second chapter tbh

27. If you were ever to do a sequel to [x fic], what do you think might happen in it? hmm. now that i think about it, theres potentially two options for that. one being a role reversal, so its more or less a similar situation (or one that can be viewed as very similar through the parallels) but instead of kip having the breakdown, its cassidy, and kip has to help him pick up the pieces (both physically and mentally). or, alternatively, we do a similar scene, but show kips improvement and how he would handle the situation now after hes been cared for a lot more and he has learned to more or less handle himself again. time doesnt heal it changes you etc etc.

fic writing questions ~

#thank you for asking! <3 #midnightpretenders0 #can you tell i love talking about immortal fears amsndkjasnjkdnak #i know i dont have to justify myself about that but its just been so long since ive had a long term creative project ive enjoyed this much #and that ive put so much love and work into already #i know three chapters in like a month and a half isnt a lot but it is to me cause like. yeah #but anyways. thank you dear 💜💜

[passionatememes]

me: hello faculty of arts at my very big university can i a) get into any classes at all and b) be taught some form of technical skills so i can improve my art and do the things i want to do better and more coherently

my faculty of arts: YOU want to get into classes???? lol. also who cares about technical skills those are for losers. just do whatever you want nobody even thinks about basic skills. anyways that will be 2000$

#no joke i emailed a professor to ask if i could get into his class because i want to do comics professionally #and i havent had very many chances to get actual meaningful feedback on the comics i do #and how i want to work on my skills in a structured setting so i can improve in meaningful ways #and he. wrote back like #'technical skills arent important and you already have the ~passion~ to do it on your own. also get fucked the class is full' #LIKE. I KNOW THAT I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN #I HAVE BEEN DOING IT ON MY OWN #I WANT TO BE TAUGHT #I WANT MY SCHOOL TO TEACH ME #this is the attitude of literally every arts teacher ive had btw my animation program was 3 months of learning how to animate and then #theyre like 'go make a film have fun' #im biting and killing and violence if i wasnt 2 years from graduating i would drop out #why is it so hard to get taught in my UNIVERSITY CLASSES