#just normal bathroom stuff

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[silenthillbunni]

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#1st ​my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner #so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively #nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way #but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop #i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together #nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done #then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth #when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?' #'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting' #i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room #but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive #so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner #she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to #but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything #she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of #idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone #and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao #i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden #nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd #like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library #i wnna show my mom what books i got #it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality #why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks #anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to

[noirandchocolate]

Dear Diary,

Today with my day off from work I: 1) deep cleaned my bathroom; 2) deep cleaned the kitchen; 3) vacuumed the whole house including cleaning dust bunnies and stuff from around the baseboards; 4) hung some pictures; 5) baked cookies for two get-togethers; 6) made needed changes to my D&D character to reflect a new level, so he’s ready for tomorrow’s game; 7) washed the couch-covering blanket and put it back on; and 8) played with Penny outside so she enjoys enrichment.

And there’s still time to do more!!

#kidk says stuff #I was going over all the Tasks I’d have to do to prepare for this weekend and normally I would’ve been like hnnnngh oh no #but since bast had to go to work overtime today instead I just felt like I was being very helpful to do all the things! #one nice thing is I don’t have to cook dinner tonight cause we’ve got leftovers of my bombass chicken meatball spaghetti #((ps cleaning my bathroom doesn’t just benefit me; I take the bathroom guests use too!))

[fisheito]

OMG. that means... Cloaca Crew........

WAIT.

✨C l o a c a C r e w✨

#is there a way to turn someone's tags into regular text or must i continue turning words into jpgs like a savage? #blade walks into the bathroom too and goes “oh?? u talking about the stall??” #“it's great! my voice bounces around while i'm in there so singing is super fun. here lemme show u” #cut to scene where it's blade crowding eiden/yakumo/rei into one stall and making them sing to test the bathroom acoustics #blade wears a hard hat while swimming in the shark tank #does it make sense? no. but blade does not want to be left out of the hat game. safety first! #did i go down another abyss of articles about owl and shark anatomy to confirm cloacas before i drew this? yes. #the tags tho #olivine (ever the caring coworker) tries to stop edmond from gorging on sugary carrots but edmond will outrun him #or stuff his face so fast that olivine cannot stop him #several hours later u just find edmond curled up on the ground in the rabbit pen #bc of tummy ache. #he is under a mountain of fluffy potatoes (bunnies) trying to comfort him #olivine knew this would happen so he's out there gently extracting edmond from the pile and coaxing him to rest properly #i wonder what the staff room fridge looks like. #WHO PUT AN ENTIRE KING SALMON ON TOP OF MY SALAD #anyway. they can probably eat relatively normal humanish food. #or maybe that fridge is just a decoy fridge (and a place for edmond's full 3 heads of lettuce) #and the real lunch fridge is in the back with all the “animal food storage” #u open it up and it's just a pixellated blur of gore #blame all the carnivores working here. they demand fresh meat. #zookeeper au #yakumo #eiden #rei #blade #edmond #olivine

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#shout out to crying quietly in a bathroom stall before u have to go teach a room full of 18yo children #my face is v splotchy and if anyone asks if im alright i might burst into tears #y bc i got here at 7am. so i woke up at 5.30 and i teach from 3 to 5 normally #but the person who teaches 5 to 7 is sick so someone needs to substitute and i knew as soon as i saw the email it had to b me #bc no one else is prepared to teach on the 1st day of the week. so i get to do a 12hr day with basically zero breaks #and i have SO much that needs to get done. all the other TAs have all their stuff graded or at least made a start #and im gonna be here until its dark outside. and i probably made everyone feel bad bc my voice was shaking when i volunteered myself #and im not mad at them or blame them. im the obvious choice to do it. i also just so happen to b having #some sort of breakdown so ya kno. not ideal but so it goes #itll b fine. its the topic i study so it should b fine #unrelated #thats thr other thing. its beautiful outside and im not gonna b able to run bc itll b too dark when i leave

[vulpinesaint]

absolutely unreasonable over this coworker that i rlly like rn. thank god i don't like men or i would have fucking Lost it by now! as it is i don't even know what has me so dkfjghsdf about him i'm just sitting there with my head in my hands going "he's so normal about trans people..."

#he's a like. fr nerd guy which i don't know if i have a value judgment for but! it gets me points cause i can pull out nerd shit too #thought he was Significantly older than me but he is only four years older than me and not the estimated six. so it's not that bad #once i'm twenty in like three months it really will not be that weird for me to be friends with people in their twenties. #YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS. HE'S NOT NERDY HE'S GEEKY. DIFFERENT VIBE BUT DEFINITELY MORE LIKE ME #like. ordered a working spiderman mask online but also likes my alt radio station. y'know #and he wants to be my friend too!!! we talk nd have similar senses of humor #and he says hi + bye to me every time he sees me AND says my name every time which i think is a like. positive sign #when people take the time to say 'hi [name]!' i think that's a like. 'i'm invested in being friendly with you' thing #AND AGAIN!!! HEAD IN MY HANDS!!!! HE'S SO NORMAL ABOUT TRANS PEOPLE!!!!!! #went 'wow. it's the ignorance' when one of the kids asked about my dead name (kid obviously did not know what being trans entailed) #and when i went 'i mean adults ask me that too' he went 'what??? fr??? people are so uneducated :/' like a little disgusted ab it #which. dude. what a fucking world. so normal about trans people that like. not being normal about trans people is a foreign concept #not EVEN transphobia just not being educated on what's decent to ask a trans person!!! NOBODY knows that stuff!!!! #except for skye my best friend skye apparently. this dude is so fucking normal about trans people #laughs at my jokes about being trans!!! consistently!!!!! is rlly cool about it!!!!!!! #made a joke about using my dual citizenship to go check on the girls who were taking a really long time in the bathroom #and he found it as funny as i did and like. that's a kind of joke u'd usually have to share with other trans/queer people... idk... #would also make that joke with my coworker who is gay. but he's also really chill about me being trans haha #anywayyyyyy i don't know if he's queer or anything (strikes me as straight) but it's. god. world-changing #AND HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. WHO HE TALKS ABOUT A NORMAL AMOUNT. VERY POSITIVE THING #so i don't have to worry about things being weird at all :D #and he knows for sure i'm 19 and is chill about it. which. i was the only one making that a big deal but it's a relief all the same haha #asked how old i was (talking about graduating from college in a year nd a half) and gave me a FIST BUMP when i told him. #A FIST BUMP. WHO DOES THAT. #straight people. that's who. guys who are just guys. #guys who make me go 'oh so i DO want guy friends who are my friends in a 'we're both guys' way. those other guys just suck' #which i don't really want but ALSO. he's normal about trans people! so he recognizes me as a guy no matter what i look/sound like!! #my like. supervisor's supervisor made a joke about him being childish and like. girl. #idc frankly that's skye my best friend skye you can't tell me shit about him we listened to the radio while driving the kids to the beach #valentine notes

[arrowpunk]

Brain too full of useless thoughts cannot wind down and sleep might go crazy and do the dishes about it

#ramblings of an arrow #they would be useful thoughts at any normal hour of the day #but I cant exactly do anything about art planning when my wife is asleep in the room with my desktop #cant clean the bedroom when my wife is sleeping in it #might fuck around and deep clean the bathroom and do the dishes #its just annoying because its the opposite of helpful when I know I wont be fully awake during the times where I can actually do this stuff #because brain wont stfu and let me sleep #wants to do them now when i literally cant #so chooses to keep me awake about it instead

[elliebartlets]

so much shit is going on with all sides of my family and I’m feeling very overwhelmed

#my grandfather is probably going to die within the year #and I walked in on my mom crying the other day about it #which made me sad and made it more real #cause it feels like it was a long time coming but also feels like it happened too fast #my great aunt has really bad problems with her hip and can’t get it replaced because she’s so old and had a stroke #so there’s a risk of putting her under anesthesia #and not only is she in so much pain and can barely move to eat or go to the bathroom #but she lives alone and her daughters who live near her won’t visit her!!! #she has a granddaughter who visits her the most but she’s also busy with work and her kid and stuff #I truly don’t know all the details but they’ve always been weird like the one daughter always accused her husband (her stepdad) of #“playing favorites” with the other daughter. and it’s like? get over yourself #I’d understand if my great aunt was a horrible mother or something but she doesn’t seem to be #plus she raised her granddaughter (one of her daughters kids) so the least that daughter could do is fucking visit her #idk I just feel so bad for her and hope she’s ok #plus there’s stuff going on with my brother which I’m not getting into on here #it’s just like all of this was slowly building up and it all crashed down at once #oh and my uncles mom died (not my grandmother or blood related to me at all) and my aunt will not go to the funeral cause my one uncles #sister is a total c u next Tuesday #like I met my uncles 2 sisters once 20+ years ago when I was in my aunts wedding #so I don’t remember them but everything I hear about them reminds me of the sopranos family #stereotypical new jersey Italian family that hates each other #like down to the siblings too. one sister who is insane and starts fights (Janice) and the other who is more “normal” who I don’t #hear about as much (baraba) #then you have my uncle who is very hot and cold like Tony soprano. plus possibly involved in the mafia or mob or something #I’m not overwhelmed by my uncles family/mom dying btw #it’s just some family drama that’s adding fuel to the fire of stuff happening #ANYWAY #breakdown/vent over! back to my assignments! #personal

[impossible-rat-babies]

actually no yeah I’m still bothered by The Things but several Other Things Aren’t Helping

#socializing. bad #I had an alcohol beverage. not great #slept bad last night due to the heat. will sleep not great due to heat #I miss my cat and dog and partner and my box fan #me crying I miss my wife tails #I miss 14 #I’ve been unfocused due to sleepy #cannot get art done. anxious about parents seeing art stuff #the neurodivergencies are winning #oh it’s also 1am. so the night time mental illness is just. Lurking #the issue w my partner remains and I’m glad I sent them another message #because boy Howdy #it’s gonna be one night of Uncomfortable and then I’ll just. readjust back to normal by tomorrow or the next day #reset will hit in 14 and I’ll have Tasks to Accomplish in Video Game #i am going to clean my bathroom tomorrow or the next day. i will win the routine #I will Manage My Mental Health #I’m just gonna be a weepy disaster for a second #owen talks

[girlwithfish]

they were trying to get me to skip lunch to cover naptime for infants like be fr

#lmfao #they asked if i was comfortable doing it i said no ive never been alone w infants before 👍 #lmaoo #management is being such a pain. my coworker is sick asf and theyre like u just habe to let it run its course #like fuck off literally everyone in this center is sick w diarrhea LMAOO #this place sucks #And then threatening to fire us bc no ones listenjng to the no phone rule like we arent already short staffed asf always lol #boss saying she wont put up w disrespect like plszzzz u literally do not respect us by.making us skip lunches and #the minimal bathroom breaks too #whcih arent a problem for me bc i literally do not use the bathroom at all at work but im realizing im just not normal lol #bc a loy of ppl habe to use the bathroom nd its just rly hard to coordinate bc if u have to leave the room at any time u need #someone to cover for u bc of ratios and stuff sooo #and they dont give a lot of bathroom breaks lol #and saying we cant sit in the shade outside is so bs fr like

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

had moments of complete insanity and true clarity overlap and somehow ended up with all chores done and feeling okay??

#I was really angry earlier but somehow shit worked out #things cancelling each other so I’m just normal #except I’ve been sitting on the bathroom floor for at least half an hour but that’s okay it’s comfy here and I’ll eat something now #my stuff

[detentiontrack]

Not to alarm anyone but I'm having normal thoughts that like. Normal people have? /srs

#i'm at a coffee shop and I had to pee but I had already got my pastry #and secured my table #but instead of being like 'i cant leave my table. someone might steal my stuff and poison my food while I'm in the bathroo #bathroom* #I just! took my bag with my laptop and wallet to the bathroom with me and left my notebooks and my food?? #I didn't have ANY paranoid or delusional thoughts?? #I just had normal people thoughts w a normal amount of caution #me when an antipsychotic takes away my psychosis: :00 #my dopamine and serotonin levels are SO modulated now

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I had a dream last night that I went to the (non-brain) doctor for something (which makes sense, I haven’t scheduled a checkup and I should) and they looked at me using my phone and were like “you should get one of those pop things for the back of your phone. You’ll mess up your hand like this” and for some reason either my mom was with me or there were two of me (it wasn’t really clarified) and they said “do you really need one? It can’t make that big of a difference” and main me held out my hands and said “actually, my right pinky has been kinda bent weird, maybe I should” and the other me was like 😳😧 while the doctor nodded and then i said “it might ruin some of my cases’ aesthetics though” and the doctor looked at me with disapproval before the dream changed.

One of the weirdest parts now that I’m awake is that it wasn’t my doctor, I see a woman doctor and have done so for years. This was some random man. I went into an unfamiliar doctor’s office just to have my hand judged apparently, and I’m pretty sure the appointment was about keeping track of my vaccines. This doctor just looked at me and went “your hand is fucked” and the appointment ended???

#emma posts #the appointment I need to schedule isn’t even about vaccinations #I’m fine as far as those go atm #but the combination of needing to schedule something and looking at my pinky these last couple days and thinking ‘is that normal’ #made me have this dream I guess #the rest of my dreams were pretty normal #like the one where a glacier melting in glacier national park made a mini rockslide #that too out the shower in a cabin and nothing else #before I went to go buy something for my mom #and someone had a dog named bakugo and I accidentally informed the kids parent about the name very likely being from an anime #I accidentally outed this fourteen year old as a weeb to their mom #who didn’t mind. I was just embarrassed about the kid who had been in the bathroom while the conversation happened #and then Garfield was there and blah blah dream stuff

[fantasy-costco]

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#Tmi #Vent post #Kind of #Me. Unshowered. Teeth clenched. Wearing a hoodie. (cringefail) (I only wear when I don't have the energy for a binder or sports bra) #Gripping the sides of the bathroom sink like a pathetic man in an art film. #'I bet miles Edgeworth from the hit murder mystery video game ace attorney also got worse ptsd symptoms during December and he got through #Law school so I can definitely go to class today. Writing 1500 words in two days is probably way easier than law school. I'm so #Mentally healthy that's why I'm contextualizing my very real mental illness and trauma through a very fictional lawyer. I'm so normal.' #I'm fine its fine I have health insurance again so I'm going to call a therapist today and set up an intake appointment #I'm just exhausted rn #'Logan why are you posting mental health stuff on the internet you hate when people do that' yeah yeah #This is safe though because none of you know my actual ptsd triggers and even if you did I can literally just log off #Anyway I need to put on jeans for class now because I'm at a low but it's not a 'batman pajama pants in public' low. I'm not 19 anymore. #(other people can wear batman pajama pants in public it's just not my thing personally) #(also my symptoms literally only include depressive episodes during December and I've never learned how to handle them so if idk #You have tips on getting through depression finals week™ and your comfortable sharing I'd be happy to hear. Don't feel obligated though #It's not my business)

[millialani]

You know what I find the Most funny about depictions of aliens or supernatural beings being so disdainful of humans is that people take that as fact now. It's become so common that people rarely write them any other way and so many people I've talked to speak of that trope like it's a known fact of the universe. But like, we made that up. That's humanity's own self hatred, who here has actually had a conversation with a 5000 year old tree spirit and had it tell them humans are despicable creatures that must be eradicated for nature to survive bitch that's just you read an ecology book

#That especially is one of the dumbest things I've heard bc anyone who understands ecology outside of their doomerism would get that the idea #that humans are a virus or a plague among nature is dumb as shit. Humans ARE a part of nature. #Yes humans do things that negatively affect the earth tahst why we're havinf a climate crisis #but removing yourselves from the equation isnt the solution #anyway i think supernatural beings can deal with humans in a normal way #i think it says more about how humans themselves view an existence different from them #than any idea that humans are inherently despicable and doomed as a species #anyway this is also why i love tumblr making supernatural creatures just kind of silly guys #yes you Can coexist wifh the thing that lives in your bathroom and could tear youe mind apart if you looked at it directly #it wants you to buy more cornflakes btw #idk species existing together is far more interesting to me than the 'what if there was racism against humans and we deserved it' stuff

[butmakeitgayblog]

I'll rescue you, I'm an atheist but I read the Bible (and other sacred books) for fun.

In the Bible angels have banquets in Heaven, they eat and drink and according to Christians, when we die, we go to Heaven and, between all the things we will do there, we will eat and drink together.

But Heaven is not a place above clouds, it's a place where people will transcend to and we will leave our flesh and bones behind, so our "bodies" will be made of pure energy and we will drink and eat just for the pleasure of doing it (Heaven, in other words, is not a physical place).

So, angels (and demons in Hell as well) have bodies, of course, but they're not made of flesh and bones as we are, they are made of pure energy even when they look like us and we can actually touch them.

Or at least this is what the Bible says but again, I'm an atheist that read things just for fun, so, I could definitely be wrong.

Hey anon you wanna meet somewhere and kiss?

No? Ok fair enough

But seriously listen YES, this is basically (albiet a much more eloquently put and explained description outside my initial "oh what in the gay hell" reaction) what I hc'd. It's just not an issue for Lexa. She eats and drinks for pleasure and things like creating waste don't effect her because her body isn't human. Trying to ascribe human functioning to a non-human body just isn't what's going on here. Yes she has things that make her passing things that were created to make her more soothing/enticing/comforting to humans, but those are basically all smoke and mirrors to the reality of her body.

She looks human and sounds human, but she isn't.

#anon #demon!lexa #and before anyone goes nuts and is like well what about sex and her getting wet #there were angels that once got into a lot of trouble for banging humans so it's not a new theological thing #listen I always said there's A LOT of lore to this story that just never really gets brought up #and while I didn't think the subject of taking a shit would be the impetus for it #there's a lot #like for example #Lexa shines incredibly brightly in pictures #that nude she sent Clarke? #was taken in her blacked out bathroom #and then she darkened it to make it look even passably normal #clarke said herself that Lexa practically glowed in the picture #there's a lot of stuff like that