#like i could NOT stop writing i have so much more to write abt this too lmao

[primrosebow]

HEYY!!! i love your art soo much!!! Your post abt the hazbin hotel women 🩷🩷 its so GOODD!! As Vaggies #1 fan i love how you wrote for her and drew her! I love how you added little details like the night dress(id fuck her in her night dress too she looks so cute:3) but i was wondering if you could maybe do some rosie x reader nfsw🙏 PLSS she barely gets any love and your writing(and art but yoy dont have to draw her if you dont want tooo) is so good!! Anyways could i maybe be 🎀 annon? i hope you have a good day!!! Bye

Hey I'm back from trying to find out how to be a good artist

I did not figure it out 🗣📢📢📢💥💥 also we're on strike.

❣️_-->Rosie x reader

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!Content warnings!: nsfw, rosie being rosie (she bites you fr), uhhhhhhhh the usual??? I still don't know how to do content warnings, gender neutral reader because I didn't specify anything, good luck reading my handwriting (every day it becomes less readable and becomes more like a doctor's. I am transforming. I am becoming the doctor.)

Guys if I don't buy the skulls on a string I'm going to die. I need to buy it.

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One may be surprised to find that in my opinion she doesn't hold any regards to who is "topping" or not- little of that matters to her. What really matters is how close you both are- she is all about the intimacy when it comes to this. Talkative all the way through, she will be affectionate with the sweetest words she can offer you. She uh... really doesn't make much of an effort to be understood by you if you are unfamiliar with the 'slang' she tends to use- you can ask about it later, after she is done with you.

Another thing she does, something much more predictable: is that she tends to bite you. There are no intentions of hurting you when she leans into your body and digs her teeth into your skin, it goes without saying that you will of course bleed, and, afterwards she earnestly and truthfully showers you in apologies for harming you! it's just.. your taste is truly intoxicating to her- you need to understand! She has said it herself in the unfiltered delirious state you both get to: she'd most definetly eat you, you tasting so perfect the way you do- if she wouldn't miss you so much if she did. Your company brightens her days, makes every little moment worth it, she wouldn't be capable of existing in a world without you now; sometimes she wonders how she made it so far without you to begin with.

Any compliments you may give her are met with shy looks to the side and comments for you to "oh stop it- you're much too sweet..", being truly invitations to get you to do it further.

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Stupid little edit I made of her with the creative liberties I took :-]

@bigfatbimbo as usual

Somehow despite typing with numbers between my words to shorten everything I still manage to not sound completly unhinged and like a severely brainrot infected individual

Moral of the story is: delete tiktok

#hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel smut #hazbin hotel rosie #rosie x reader #hazbin hotel rosie x reader #uhhhhhhh hh h h h h ... .. . . yeah🫡 that's all the tags???? #🎀 anon＼(^^)／

[sweetsweetbumblebee]

unrelated but i DO kinda feel guilty for my little crush for reasons i will not explain. but. yeah its wild over here tonight

#🍯 #sfw #like he casually mentioned being glad he can have friends who dont expect it to become anything more and i felt ill #so. ill stop having THOSE feelings immediately lol #but i genuinely DO love him as a friend #n he said i was one of the first ppl he felt comfy writing with #and i. am soooo emotional 2night #my friends r so important 2 me and im never gonna say SHIT bc i love him as my friend wayyy 2 much #sorry im saying this here we r just mutuals on my main so. akdhsk #also we were talking abt potential meet ups the other day and i HATE living where i live. everyone else is soo far away #one of my friends is coming 2 the states soon n i will be a 10 hr drive away. thats fuckign miserable #the guy this post was originally abt and 2 of our other friends live close enough that he could drive 2 them. and its the opposite side of #the country #i wanna get 2 meet my friends so fucking BAD #like. i cant put it into words but i wanna give them hugs and see their faces when they smile and akdbdn #when is it MY turn to meet my friends irl #my shark

[celestial-toys]

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts… #Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!! #picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!! #anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations! #and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped) #(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’ #‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’ #like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for- #like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’ #‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’ #*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

[fourteenthz]

A whole lot of 6.55 spoilers on the tags !!

#im about to be so normal about thancred rivalry vibes you guys need to understand this. so normal. #do you think the senior scions will go with him like maybe its us vs urianger + thancred + yshtola AND NGL.. KINDA SAD ABT G'RAHA BUT MAN #I don't believe they are letting him so so easily. maybe he will show up by the end of the expansion #can we.... have the scions fighting or like... genuinely being rivals ad competitive pls square... square pls... can we 🥺 #estinien going too is just so fucking funny. for no reason. hes going to see krile walking around tural and flip his shit #I LOVE HROTHMOTHER THO she is so sweet I looove the pretending to be strong vibes #and all of graha this patch is just so nice. im so happy likei really don't think hes going to do nothing this expanc HE DOESNT #DESERVE THAT But im 90% sure hes the one that will help us with that second part of msq idk #also him and krile.... bestest of friends.. i love this and MAN... I CAN'T WAIT TO LIKE WRITE RANDOM GEN BTS FICS ABT DAWNTRIAL #seeing more of erenville is making me sooo unwell he is sooo thesa-before-the-twins coded #he is so done. absolute beloved. also NO ONE TALK TO ME ABT THANURI THEY ARE SOOOOO AUAGSHSH #that ending thancred is genuinely the most charming xiv man ever existed im sooo silly abt him #being excited by this. I WANT THEM TO BE COMPETITIVE SO BAD SQUARE PLEASE I BEG U #also uri being supportive he is so. the fact we had 0 yshtolla tho man WHAT WAS THAT. anyway i had a feeling dawntrial was like #a lil thingie so we could genuinely start the new xiv theme on like 8.0 or so now... im unsure #mostly bc i was afraid they didn't give much attention to the scions so i was like 'they are letting them go' #and now than being all over this expansion im like NOOOO ITS A GOODBYE SCIONS NOO #sorry im traumatized abt my favorite media killing off my faves. anyway ill stop overthinking now #THE LAST CUTSCENE THO.... FUCK YOU EMET #THEY KEEP BRINGING THIS BACK AND MAKING ME CRY FUCK YOUUUU SQUARE :) #the wol cares................ so much..... throwing up. #now if you excuse me i have a gifset to finish bc I may love all of xiv a lot but I'm easily thancred distracted #and then manderville gunblade MY BELOVED LETS GO #kelly says #kelly plays xiv

[silverislander]

if someone else shows more than two indications that they like a thing that's a good, normal way to tell they like that thing, which is normal, because people like things. but if I have more than two indications of liking a thing that means i am irrevocably obsessed with the thing in a way that deserves mockery actually. this is a worldview that makes sense

#i do. a lot of mental gymnastics to internally justify my anxiety. and its fucking exhausting and i hate it #levi.txt #i talked about carrie in One class Once mentioning i was writing my essay on it. i made a halloween wallpaper w a still from the movie #bc i like carrie! its an interesting story. its not smth ive ever become completely hyperfixated on but i do like it #but i couldnt use the wallpaper for more than a week bc i was like 'people are going to think im obsessed' #like. i cant show any interest in smth or else it becomes 'people will think youre a freak about it' #were going to watch tlou in class on halloween and i just know its going to be difficult #bc whenever smth i love is mentioned i have to put a lid on my emotions to the point that it barely looks like i care at all #bc me being excited is so often 'too much' (both in my mind and historically from the perspective of others) #i am IN the 'obsessed with stories' major and i wont even let myself be visibly into stories. make it make sense #just. aughhhh i dont hold literally anyone else to these standards and its tiring! and i wish my brain would stop torturing me w it #i wish i could just be excited and passionate abt my favourite things without feeling guilt or anxiety abt it #im working on it. im doing it anyway and its improving its just slow going

[nomaishuttle]

sry i also started thinking abt how great my life would be if i was trapped in a timeloop again. i meant again as in i thought abt it again not as in I was trapped in a timeloop and id love 4 it 2 happen again. never been in one unfortunately.

#id be so awesome in the timeloop dude. you guys dont get ittt id slay in the timeloop #id memorize every single thing that happens nad itd be awesome id write a book abt everything that happens even. and id be able to sleep so #much and therd be no consequences for anything (aside from. what. me being stuck in the timeloop longer? DONT MIND IF I DO!!!) #and like if itsba 24 hour timeloop. dude i can do anything in those 24 hours. i could go across the world PROBABLY #like i could just empty allll of my savings and book a same day no stops flight . and then id just like be somewhere else. ajd i wouldnt #even have to worry abt getting back bc timeloop my guy!!! #sighh .. yk. every day alreadh feels all the same due to depression so mayyybe everyday feeling the same due to timeloop wouldnt actually b #awesome but i think it would be avtually bc the reason every day feeling the same feels Bad is bc i know they shouldnt.ik theyre different #im justgoing through the motions every day and i hate it. if every day actually was the same ? dudeee i wouldnt be sad abt every day #feeling rhe same bc it straighr up would be. i wouldnt feel like im missing out on something... And idbe able to DO different things bc i #wouldnt have to worry like Omg what will happen tmrw if i do something reckless today.. omg i cant spend this money bc rent is due next #week. omg i cant go do thus activity bc i have 2 work today.. Brother nobody has to work in a timeloop!!! #and all id have to do is like. kill somebody every so often so the time god or whateber doesnt think ive learned my lesson. and itd suck to #kill someone yk id feel badd. ig rly i could just rob a bank and not have 2 kill someone #well yk. some ppl. i would murder. mainly bc i think itd be kiiinda funny. but i shant go into thay more #Dude i could literally learn every language and read every single bookkkkkk god i wanna be in a timeloop so bad id thrive in the timeloop

[seventh-district]

man. how did i get here. i just wanted to write a lil fic abt an unkillable idiot of a man being madly in love w/ me and now i’m on wikipedia reading abt the heat death of the universe

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #🧷 Matt 🔨 #Jimち ASMR #i’m so serious why am i like this #i’ve been editing this fic for days cause i keep adding things to it #i can’t stop myself it just doesn’t feel complete yet. it needs more detail. it needs more emotion. it needs more blood. #the fic had gone thru like five different titles and theme songs at this point. i just know the end notes on this one gonna be long as hell #i have so much to say abt it #and no one will read it cause no one knows who tf Matt is but that’s okay #this is for me. i have to write this or i’m gonna explode #and then i had to listen to Francesca by Hozier for the first time last night and ohhhhhhh boy #how did i write the emotion of that song into this fic before i ever even heard it??? it fits so well??? #well. at least it does in my eyes. but i’ve got so many brain worms for Matt rn that i could probably perceive any song as being applicable

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#bro. if i could fucking read or focus for longer than like 5min id be so powerful. i could learn so much #its so annoy bc my brain is like nah every 5min u have to stop what ur doing. start doing something else and then immediately go back to #what u were doing before. its so annoying. unless the beam of my attention actually sticks to something and im sitting there extremely #focused for like 6hrs. i wish i could do that for writing papers but i cant read so its hard #if i could read id be like: listen up science bitches. the way u ppl talk abt photosynthesis in extremophilic soil communities is fucking #stupid and boring. ill tell u what the fuck is up. #and then id tell them. but now im like uuuuhh fucking this is stupid but i cant express why #its bc theyre looking at it from a different frame of reference. from a more land management and like community centered way #like trying to be useful and im over here like i dont give a fuck about usefulness i just wanna talk abt how cool cyanobacteria r and #understand how they work. and i think that's a better mindset to understand whats actually happening #but whatever i cant read so it doesnt matter bc i cant back up my options in any substantial way #unrelated

[netscapenavigaytor]

if i had a nickel for every time while headcanoning character dynamics that don't exist much in canon, i ended up making the fan-favorite yaoi pairing instead a worryingly toxic friendship that's only hanging on by a thread, i would have two nickels but it's weird that it happened twice

#error 0 #i have a migraine right now. i am not sure why having migraines makes me more likely to muse on tumblr abt random shit #anyway for the curious this post is about magolor x marx kirby #but also abt beat x yoyo jet set radio #and while i say ''its weird that it happened twice'' its. probably happened more tjan that and i just forget lmao #i imagine to some extent its just me being petty and contrarian cuz im not particularly shippy #and also tend to be a Hater at certain ships for very particular and nonsensical reasons #but... this specific result of that feels. very Bizarre and i dont know why its happened twice #in this similar a form (even if uhh one of these friendships is SIGNIFICANTLY more toxic than the other) #(finiteverse marx and magolor should stop interacting. for everyone's sake but esp their own.) #i dont have a conclusion here though. #maybe this is just because im obsessed with making emotionally inept deranged weirdguys #and so like 70% of character dynamics that creates are at least a little bit unhealthy JDJAKDJSJDJ #(maybe it is for the better that i don't care much for shipping.) #(alternate timeline ----- shipfic author: only writes fics that make you think ''oh god please break up IMMEDIATELY'') #HELP ACTUALLY WHILE TYPING THIS I JUST REMEMBERED #THE ONR TIME I CAN THINK OF THAT I WROTE A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP (WAS A CHARACTER STUDY NOT SHIPPING) #WAS LIKE HYPER TOXIC AND AWFUL AND WAS EXPLICITLY THE CAUSE OF EVERY BAD THING IN THE STORYLINE #(this isnt counting stuff thats like ''there was a relationship in the past but its over now'' or ''there COULD have been one but wasnt'') #(i am only talking specifically me writing the point in time that the relationship was HAPPENING) #welcome to netscapenavigaytor where love loses forever #i shpuld stop rambling in these tags. this is silly #can you tell im bored and suffering from brain pain soup. #and also perpetually want to talk about characters SO badly but never know how to start a convo or who to start it with #oh well

[noxtivagus]

i shld sleep oh my god

#🌙.rambles #i am somehow not rlly sleepy despite barely having sleep but my head does ache slightly. but just a few more stuff left in this week n #i'll properly rest for a bit ! bcs next week even though we're gna have a break ofc there's like.. prom n then that vacation right after T_ #gna be fun but i'm. definitely gna be rlly tired. n.. nah i need to stop overthinking abt sm stuff #just. anxious that i might end up being too shy. usually in social events like that i realize i #end up pushing myself a bit too much n then it ends w me just putting on a strong facade #i'm worried too i think bcs two of my friends haven't.. reconciled yet? so. yeah it is possible i may have to deal w some stuff during prom #fuck. i'm just. worried abt a lot of things in general. but i'm mostly overthinking it. everything. #sigh in general i'm being too harsh on myself again. wtf maybe it's the sleep-deprivation or smth bcs ik i'll manage it all #i believe in myself n know i'm capable but. it's just.. overwhelming rn i think. n it. hurts bcs it's like before in a way..? n like my wol #i wonder. what we'd all do if we were hypothetically given the chance to be able to do whatever we wanted in a day n have whatever we want #without changing the reality we have now or yeah no consequences at all. just a lil day in an alternate world we could control #if you were to choose for yourself n only for yourself what would you do? #sob ig i relate w rinoa too bcs of that strong facade part. i wrote that for my wol too #but like even w all that in the end uh. every time i read these sort of stuff it comforts me deep down #bcs i remember back then when i rlly just had my family #that.. loneliness. i write abt it a lot huh. not that i'm exactly seeking for something. maybe before bcs i didn't talk w my friends anymor #but now i suppose it's just something painfully constant. but not really too #i can't.. put it into words rn n i'm low on sleep. but i rmb just daydreaming to myself back then of my wol's development though #from heavensward.. sorta hiding herself n having to be strong for others. though she so desperately just wants to let her guard down #n be free yk. a break from all her responsibilities n rest.. she's young after all. but while i do relate with that it's still #yk particularly w the context of my wol being yeah the warrior of light in ffxiv. but. i rmb writing of how then that was being strong for #her. n.. yeah she was healing from stuff then. that's hw. but in stormblood ooh i wrote here that she put her emotions to the side #bottled them. became more serious n i tied that w being a samurai main back in stb w duty stuff help this connects well but it's funny #hesitant in heavensward to trying to do things more on her own in stormblood to.. accepting it all in shadowbringers #shy/quiet was more in hw while being serious/calm was in stb. raghhh i rmb my notes well in 2021 but i'm so afraid to look at like #the stuff i wrote last year 💀 but. oh my this is embarrassing but i do like how i even just dump my thoughts. it's bittersweetly beautiful #maybe i'm trying to accept everything at once or yk putting too much pressure on myself to improve holistically. #like.. i want to write before i grow older than my fav charas yk? n then just think of lots of stuff too n. #be productive. study. n idk just more more more in general but i could be less harsh on myself. yeah

[aroace-genderfluid-snake]

Kdj and yjh swap au where WOS is a game that only yjh could grind and inside of the Fourth Wall is like. Stardew Valley

#just to be clear kdj still knows way too much in this one #he’s actually one of those tutorial characters. except he makes fun of u #no one else could finish wos cause they couldn’t grind it out #took yjh 1863 tries to finish it only for kdj to show up and laugh at him and tell him he got the worst ending #yjh immediately tries to harm kdj when he sees him after the first scenario still #kdj like. a god so he can’t do jackshit #he’s ancient dream in the sense that he can separate timelines at will at the cost of his age and he can’t actually do anything except offer #info. also hsy is there writing the whole thing out for when kdj inevitably forgets again #also kdj knows abt wos from the beginning cause it’s funnier that way and I think he should still get to know everything #and the reason yjh gets pissed at him on incarnation island is cause kdj keeps making new timelines of him and he finds out cause someone #actually bothers to tell him abt kdj (mass producer) #except he can’t do jackshit to kdj so kdj’s just like if I give u a mini me to either kill or take care of will u feel better? and yjh says #yes then immediately kills it only for kdj to repeatedly replace it until yjh stops killing it #relationship goals ig #look this is a really in depth thought I’ve been having since I’ve found out abt secretive plotter and went. hmm #secretive plotter still exists btw he’s literally just yjh’s avatar from wos #kdj doesn’t know at first but figured it out pretty quick #Anna Croft’s a programmer who made a rip off of wos lmao #except it’s actually a rip off cause I hate Anna croft #look there’s more but it’s four am and I’m tired #night! #kdj #kim dokja #yjh #yoo junghyeok #orv #orv novel spoilers #kinda?? the tags definitely but- #omniscient readers viewpoint

[clericlost]

lately i’ve been feeling so much like. cheering clapping applause to be here with y’all but all the enthusiasm is stuck in a snowglobe that i can’t figure out how to break cause it’s made of fear pain agony because social anxiety every time i log on :/

#out. #negative // #it sucks to experience but honestly it sucks more than like. i know people are here to have fun and often write better when #they can actually get along w their writing partner? #and i hate that this Thing is just in the way of me and everyone else but idk how to get rid of it #it's just Paralyzing like i just get stuck and it feels impossible to shake myself out of it #and then i feel anxious about THAT lmao so. wondering if i need to just throw the towel in instead of doing this to my partners jdskfs #like i logically know it's not That big of a deal but i also know it can feel so discouraging to be excited abt smth and not feel it back #but it's not even the feeling it back that's the issue! it's just talking w people idk why my brain just flatlines over it but it's so bad #lately. when i'm in a good headspace i'm the exact same way and LOVE when i can iron down my interactions to ppl i just Enjoy being around #but when i'm in a bad headspace it's so hard to do anything other that hide in ic replies indefinteily #even with people i'm so so comfortable with cause it is very much a state of being that stems from Me not anyone else #idk. i just feel shitty for ghosting but then i feel too shitty to fix it :/ #wish i could psychically link w all of you so u could know how happy i am to write with you #idk why it's so hard to translate ooc one on one #idk why it's like there's an actual physical wall in my brain stopping me most of the time #social anxiety fucking sucks i guess lol #yeah....... killing it w my mind #i know it's probably just made worse by my recent caffiene addiction but it'll probably be a while before i can kick that shit so #idk if i should quit while i'm barely ahead or just. try to be okay with ic replies #but i Hate that cause it feels like such bad rp etiquette like. i don't wanna rp like that lol #but idk how else to while i'm like this :/ #which probably means i should take a break!! but i selfishly don't wanna lose more writing partners than i already have but then #i guess either way i might lose some people but at least if i took a break it'd feel like less shitty of a reason #ugh...... #too much to think about on a sunday afternoon

[traaanskimkitsuragi]

sometimes i take on a hobby thats meant to be relaxing but then i end up building a strict schedule around it bc im a fucking idiot and then i stress about it to a point where ill give myself a full on panic attack bc im not progressing as fast in the thing as i wanted to progress in it and the 32719832 different ideas i want to do with it are overwhelming me all at once and then i take a step back and procrastinate until my brain stops panicking and it magically resets me to normal

#i think years ago i read a really good post or article about how avoiding your phobias makes them worse #bc ur reinforcing ur brains stress response #and that is very applicable to me and stupid workaholic brain #when i get passionate abt smth it causes me to devote all of my free time to that One Thing #until i inevitably burn out and stop enjoying the thing #so recently ive been trying to combat it by procrastinating when i feel anxious #and only working when i dont feel rushed anymore #and its really hard bc like. im still having to sit there extremely stressed out #but while its more painful in the short term its much nicer long term wise #hello this post has been inspired by me stressing abt not being able to do 50 fic chapters at once #i started that fic specifically FOR myself to give myself smth i could focus on/look forward to #and ive gone back and forth on whether or not i wanna upload it bc its so sloppy #specifically bc im being v loosey goosey and self indulgent on purpose #and while i was looking at my notes for it my brain started panicking at all the things i still want to write for it #and i freaked myself out rlly bad dsjhjdkshdjks im still v stressed over it tbh #but im gonna force myself to take some time away from it until my brain calms down #i have literally zero deadlines or any grand plans for it so i really dont want it to become another source of stress for me

[theghostofashton]

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#i keep thinking about that post from yesterday abt like someone using a ratio of 1 kudos to 10 hits to decide if a fic is worth trying #the notes are full of people criticizing that method (rightfully) #but i also think there's something to be said about the critiques writers get for caring about stats #yet at the same time people admitting shit like this #like how can you scoff at writers for being upset their fics have low hits or kudos or whatever #if that is how people decide what fics are 'worthy of their time' #as someone who for a period of time had such an unhealthy relationship with stats #it really is just such a vicious cycle like you always want more and you keep increasing the number in your head #you're aiming for a certain number regularly until that number becomes consistent and then you want more #it just never stops and you find yourself focused more on that than anything else #there was a point where i was writing whatever i could rushing stuff out in like an hour because i was so desperate for comments #i'm so glad to have let that mindset go but like #if we want to let it go entirely as fic writers readers need to also not be saying shit like this #if you don't want stats to matter stop insisting that they do #there is genuinely so much that goes into why certain fics get more popular and others don't #having so much to do with what's going on in the fandom or what happened in the media or what the fic is about #it's variable and inconsistent as fuck and that's why tying your self worth to it is guaranteed to be upsetting #sometimes just the way people go in on fic writers for......daring to want people to read stuff we worked hard on is just so. beyond words #it is natural and normal to want attention on something you've created when you share it publicly. there is nothing wrong w that #idk idk what my point is here just. be kind to fic authors #read fics with 'low stats' #read things that look interesting remember every person posting fic is just someone who loves the thing they're writing about #so much that they wanted to share it with you #don't lose sight of that #neha rambles

[arolesbianism]

I have such a love hate relationship with Ellie. On the one hand I have my petty grudge against her, but on the other hand shes so sillyyyyy being Jackie's lil lackey did her so many favors in my mind she's not only a lil shit but also a lil teachers pet I love her

#rat rambles #oni posting #honestly my only genuine nit pick with her writing is that shes almost Too much of a presence #but thats just me being the guy who's favorite rw character is sliver of straw and favorite oc is the one that doesnt exist in universe #I love how theyre all varrying levels of just some guy who fell in too deep #as much as Ive been loving learning abt them and would kill to know more abt them the vagueness is like half the appeal to me #anyways to be clear abt ellie shes not like a huge suck up or anything shes just jackies lil errand boy #I like to imagine she and nikola's beef extended beyond the food stealing incident #the jackie lackey duo out for blood until they slowly realize that everything is so fucked #I like to imagine that ellie started cracking pretty bad towards the end as by then she rly couldn't keep playing dumb #especially when it starts reaching Her circle of scientists. whether joshua knew or not thats a scary situation for your bestie to be in #I doubt she like. did anything abt it. at least not without getting caught. but maybe she at least tried who knows #this might be giving her too much credit but Im choosing to believe that her care for joshua would stoke the flames enough #also her job as the numbers guy means that she likely at least could make an educated guess on the temporal bow situation #but yeah I like to imagine at some point ellie stops fucking with nikola and then stops showing up at work entirely #and nikola is just sitting there quietly freaking the fuck out as he realizes that everyone who was hired to help with this stuff is being #picked off and that there are absolutely Not enough people to manage how severe the situation is #also tbc I do in fact have a timeline in my head and it does not end well for anyone involved #but Im trying to refrain from going too into scientist hcs until Im sure Ive read everything #tbh Im not sure how Ill get the stuff Im missing but Ill certainly try

[exopelagic]

I shouldn’t have to do ANYTHING ever again I’m done with doing things I’m retiring

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I got one of my two presentations (the important one) to a standard where I can present it. #I just. now have to write a whole other one by Thursday 2pm #I finished the presentation at like 4pm today and I was like oh cool!! I’m done early!! #so I went to the shop and walked home before it got too dark out thinking I could start early on cooking and do some work tonight and sleep #and proceed to spend THREE HOURS making ticking STIR FRY #it was a good fucking stir fry I’ve never had so many compliments on how my cooking smells #it didn’t taste That great but food you make yourself never does :/ #this was meant to be quick meal. I didn’t even have all the normal ingredients like my broccoli went slimy #anyway! am done doing things now no more things I’m done no more things #I was out from like 9:30-4:30 today mostly working and shopping and goddamn #also god mr fucking GUY comes in right before the lecture and sits behind me AGAIN even though today was empty #and I had to hear him talking non stop for 2 hours bc it was kinda a coding class thing #i didn’t turn around much bc he was. right there. but when he was moving around in the break and before leaving he was once again looking. #and I can’t tell if he’s trying to catch my eye or not but he made no fucking effort to talk to me despite being sat Right There this time #so like??? what the fuck am I meant to do with that??? #I don’t have time to make a point of talking to him about This Bullshit so this is just Happening for the foreseeable future huh #god the thing is if I DO try talk to him abt wtf man I wouldn’t put it past him to just blatantly lie abt it #what no I’m not looking at you #subtly ​make out that I’m making things up or I’m not over him #maybe this is being uncharitable again but goddamnit dude what’s UP with you #I’m kinda scared that I AM making things up but. it’s happened kinda a Lot and I know that things are still weird between us #I might ask my friends to keep an eye out just to verify I’m not actually losing my mind #anyway!!! fuck you mr guy I don’t have time for this <3 #I gotta work on presentation 2: electric boogaloo #this time with waaaaaaay more mushrooms #or not I guess bc I don’t think mycorrhizal fungi make mushrooms? t potentially no mushrooms but significantly more fun guys #also obligatory fuck you also to Sinclair et al (2023) you’re so annoying #we all know nitrogen use efficiency is important but maybe other things exist too <3 #luke.txt