secret crush on you was made by people who hate me specifically in order to permanently damage my psyche. this is a targeted attack
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Happy Sunday, it is the way that intimacy is so impossibly rare with Veritas due to his pickiness and the nature of his discomfort with excessive touch, particularly when already overwhelmed (for the prickling sensation can grow too much, crawl up his throat and become painful — it is no doubt an issue that lies in anxiety and his tendency to overthink). Touch should be brief, you haven't earned the right to touch him with any more than a handshake, he doesn't like you, do not dirty his skin or clothes.
...But should you find yourself in a space that he has carved into his heart specifically for you, should you find he, eventually, grows accustomed to your hands and the sensation of your fingers against his skin, should you find him seeking out your touch, you will find that Andreas is a very curious and attentive lover, and though he still may be very particular in the way he touches you and wants to be touched, his eyes and hands will roam, not out of lust but of an appreciation of you and a desire to dedicate every curve of your body to memory. You will find him in a quiet, contemplative mood, mapping every divot and line of muscle with his hands and regarding you as he would one of his statues — and perhaps that's because he's already thinking of replicating your likeness in stone, immortalizing you in the way he adores most. Isn't that funny? Would you find it funny, as he trails delicate fingers down your stomach, for this spark, this flame, this Icarus to commit so much of his time to marble? To you? (Will he fall for you like Icarus, too?) And maybe he's not a worshiper of Aeons, but his lips on your skin and the calloused hands cradling your sides certainly feel like worship nonetheless, and maybe under the weight of his devotion you now become overwhelmed, because there is so much of Andreas and so much of himself being surrendered to you, in faith, in loyalty, in love.
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living with people is just so loud jfc I need to move out again, I just get so weirdly irritated when everyone's home 😭
this is why I didn't live in a dorm in college and rented an apartment instead, couldn't fucking do it fr
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