#like that's its own statement right

[stonyponyofficial]

i love seeing how much paratext i can fit into the tags. read my footnotes boy

#violet originals #postposting #like that's its own statement right #and then i come down here and tell u everything i was thinking about it #like i just made a post where i put some non organization tags on it for fun as a fun reference #but also it helps clarify the original statement in a less committal jokey way i can have a little fun with #so i start thinking about all that and i get the hilarious original idea for this post and i think abt those tags #but it's only available to those first people who see my original post as it was made #not reblogged #someone can screenshot those tags but they aren't necessary to understand #but they don't add to the post itself just elaboration that isn't really needed #and they aren't all visible at first bc u have to hit the button to see the rest #so my extra little thoughts are there for anyone to see but ull probably wanna see them more if u know me a little through online #but mostly i thought it'd be funny to make this kind of post and then just let the tags run wild bc that's what the post is about see? #do u like all this extra clarification or would u rather i have just posted the post #or nothing at all #or put these tags in the post #bc that could make sense but the original text of the post is to be shared around and 'related to' by other Tumblr users who do the same #so it can't be too long but i need to say all my thoughts about the subject or ill explode and make another post or reblog a comment #so it's all down here instead where it's optional and i can just kinda say what im feeling without feeling like i have to funny it up #i should probably read house of leaves #idk is that related i only have a tiny idea of what that book is but it seems related somewhat #umm #hi :3 #kisses u with tongue #adds tags to this later bc im silly :3 #hi char hi io #the two people who will probably read this far now lmao

[iclimbtreestofeelalive]

okay i'm gonna say something and you all have to give me a chance. ready?

we need to stop making fun of poor american southerners who distrust the government. it's real easy to call them all conspiracy theorists and dismiss them, but half the time, its built off of a genuine feeling of being abandoned by the infrastructure meant to keep them safe.

in appalachia, a lot of people lost their homes because of coal mining operations. a lot of people worked in those mines, and then when the mines stopped being profitable, they got tossed out with the bathwater. a lot of appalachia is poor, malnourished, and i don't blame them for not trusting rich politicians who dismiss them as stupid and lower class.

if yall actually listened to half the things poor southerners say, you'd realize that a Lot of common leftist complaints are virtually identical to the rural grandma who doesn't hold with electronic money and politicians. it stems from a genuine feeling of abandonment and ostracization by the people who run the country. functionally, someone living paycheck to paycheck in the city in a tiny apartment has infinitely more in common with someone from rural appalachia than a politician. high rent, high taxes, food insecurity, feeling lied to by those in power, a general sense of frustration. it just sounds fancier coming from a city mouth than one with shitty teeth and a southern accent.

tl;dr stop dismissing southern people as stupid. they're absolutely right not to wholeheartedly trust politicians, because they've been fucked over by them time and time again, and honestly, id rather talk to a southern person who openly distrusts their representatives than someone from the city who wholeheartedly believes that Frederick Jamestown OldMoney III genuinely cares what people think and can be convinced to change his ways.

#appalachia #gettin real tired of this #hot take: southerners were right when they said never trust a politician theyre the devil #its easy to laugh but jesus christ are they wrong?? #those in power rarely came to power through just means #there i rephrased it fancy will you listen now #jesus christ #some people genuinely were never taught the fancy words to make people pay attention so you have to pay attention anyway #please note that i didnt mention race because thats an intersection im not qualified to talk about and would very much like to hear about #but jesus christ. have you all considered that maybe. just maybe #southerners arent stupid. trump was fucked up and awful and a piece of shit #he won because he at least Appeared to be sympathetic #leftists so so rarely try to actually understand poor people they dont like and its gonna be what fucks this country over #edit: hey terfs reblogging this 👋 #fuck right off unless youre prepared to include trans people in this statement #poor trans southerners exist!! i know an awful lot of them!! #im trans and southern and if you touch my post you acknowledge that trans people are breathing thinking people #with our own rational thoughts and opinions and live complex lives and face similar issues

[dawnssummers]

— i never liked that ending either. more love streaming out the wrong way, and i don't want to be the kind that says the wrong way.

buffy the vampire slayer, 5.07 fool for love + 5.18 intervention + 5.22 the gift / richard siken, litany in which certain things are crossed out

#litany again. GUYS WHO WOULD LOVE LITANY IN WHICH CERTAIN THINGS ARE CROSSED OUT!!! #btvs #spike #btvsedit #no but litany is so. it's about being stuck in this narrative of doom/tragedy whilst trying to shape it from within but u Can't. you're you #it's about regret (especially that but i should've known) its about forgiving yrself (dear forgiveness quit milling about and come inside) #most of all it's about being the dragon and wanting to be the princess or the hero but you're not #and that's why you want a better story. WHO WOULDN'T? sure i sink the boat of love but that comes LATER #idk man what if u fell in love with ur destruction ie that which killed you the first time #what if you continued to life what if you were a vampire and there was a hero. what if u fell in love with ur destruction again #what if you were a fool for love even as you revelled in causing pain and causing destruction of your own #what IF you were trying to heal your lover but then the slayer was there. what if your lover pushed you away bc she knew your destiny #what if love for you was like a religion all along... litany makes me crazy wazy #^all why the expression RIGHT after 'til the end of the world' is in here i did oscillate on including it bc it Looks innocuous #so much converges there.. it's a grand statement And it's real And it's a (promise of) love through/bc of/despite the world ending

[sky-daddy-hates-me]

Does no one else check to see when posts were vaguely posted? Especially when they relate to dates or "trending"? Am I going to have to start putting little datestamps on my posts?

#its fucking insane #the amount of zionists and pro israels in my notes trying to “own” me #by saying shit like #ha the israel tag isnt even trending #well it was #like a week ago #when i made that post #i know its not trending now #also does no one check the notes before commenting on relatively small posts? #like is it just a me thing to see if anyone else mentioned what i was going to say and see if op responded? #im probably just expecting too much from people who support genocide and refuse to do basic level fact checking #side note #biased isnt interchangeable with jew/zionist #saying someone is displaying a bias doesnt mean that theyre automatically a jew #or a zionist #saying theres a bias within tumblr staff isnt antisemitic or anywhere near a 'jews control the world' conspiracy #its a statement of fact #gods im being driven insane #between zionists pro Israels fucking swifties and vegans/animal rights activists #and also the jw friends of the family trying to lure me back with the promise of not havinf to wear a dress

[gammija]

iiii dont think im gonna post much amagaday about this arc, because i don't enjoy the interpretation that jon was completely innocent in taking live statements, nor do i think basira or especially melanie were irrationally upset at him, and i know a significant amount of posts at least read as if people vehemently disagree

#look it wasn't completely his fault either but i think tma is fundamentally ABOUT this question of control #over your own actions and participation in perpetuating harm #but it's so juicy that Jon didn't tell anyone. that's a choice he made. was it a fair one? maybe if he'd told them immediately after #the first or even second they wouldn't have reacted as poorly or could've prevented 3 4 and 5 #but its also fair that he was scared to tell them. with how vehemently Basira was fighting monsters. dealing in intel. not people #but he did do it. #he didnt say 'help Basira hold me back! I'm being taken over by the Eye to take Floyd's here statement!' #also i cannot believe it took me seeing that fanart i reblogged to consciously consider the lens of #3 women confronting their friend/coworker/fellow hostage about a complaint from a woman that he harassed her #not that thats the only lens it can or even should be viewed through but #just felt like. oh. duh #also why I've been kinda dreading s5. since thats the one i was actively in the fandom i also actively remember #The Discourse #[dun dun duuun] #funniest post was the one that called tma fake queer representation a full 10 episodes after jon had said 'i love you' to martin #joos yaps #(and also finally... hot jon rights) #(i have a lot of thoughts but i dont want to get too worked up and portray things unfairly so this is all yallre getting today)

[urostakako]

anime fans prove for the 1000th time they are incapable of not being racist for 2 seconds

#its insane that these ppl dont think microaggressions count as racism #literally saw someone say 'racism should only count when its a NEGATIVE thing not ignorant statements' like my guy where do you think #the ignorant statements come from. its insane that ppl are still saying that stereotyping can be positive LIKE ITS STILL FUCKING RACIST DUDE #we know what this is about. probably #its not character assassination either like yes it was handled weird not to mention gege just threw his own microaggressions right after 💀 #but you guys are way too quick to accept and excuse bigotry and ignorance esp when it comes to your favs 💀 can yall grow up #the fact that fans are being even more racist trying to justify it than gojo was like get out of here 💀💀 #hanancouldyounot

[ark1os]

.

I didnt know the tags woulr be so much i shouldve just wrote a long vent 😭😭😭 rip

#lol. there are still times where my brain goes omg what if you’re really a narc #and then i go out of my way to make sure my friends are as comfortable as possible and thati meet all their needs and i apologize every few #minutes for something silly or for maybe hurting them unintentionally and then i remember of #every fallout w people in my life where i was always taking responsibility for my actions n for my role to what led to the fallouts no #matter how toxic the person was and i remember all the times i geniunely apologized to my siblings for my mistakes (without them pointing #out i did smth wrong) and i remember all the tomes someone told me i hurt them and i owned up to it and apologized and then i go #oh ywa. maybe not ? #bonus: all the times i helped someone out in secret to bring some ease in their life without ever telling them or bragging eith it or #using it against them or reminding them that i did x y z for them #and then all the times where my guilt ate me up at nights and i cried and the times where i brought out the best of people because my love #is Nuturing. yea #AND I GUESS THE FACT THAT MY EX BEST FRIEND TOLD ME IM A NARC AND I STRAIGHT UP WENT OMG YEA! PROBABLY! BECAUSE I WOULDVE BELIEVED HER #ANYTHING 😭😭😭😭 BECAUSE INWAS SO SURE SHE KNEW ME BETTER THAN I KNEW MYSELF! 😭😭😭 #BECAUSE I HAD LOST MYSELF COMPLETELY IN THE FRIENDSHIP 😭😭😭😭 NOT VERY NARC OF ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #but yea. i guess abandonment issues apathy and lack of communication skills (which leads to passive aggressivness) will make you look like a #narc i get where she came from! but still. if i ever see someone diagnose other people i will simply tell them to shut up #especially based on sentences taken out of context. not very sexy #and also very stupid. #rationally seen i shouldve kicked out the thought that im probably not one when my therapist told me theres no chance i am but. when you get #treated like a freaking mondter from the people you’ve trusted deeply. it does something to you >.> #also when my therapist said that she has No rights to make Any diagnosis or statements about other people because whatever i tell her its #going to tell her more about me than them. i shouldve just dtopped believing it honestly. like freaking sideeye to those therapists thst #told my ex friends im a narc. and a big fat kiss to my therapist for being such a beautiful empathstic underztanding patient beautiful and #kind person #alhamdulillah ^-^ #kicked out the thought thst i am one * #and also a big fat sorry for being hsving no empathy. my communication skills are getting brtter and im working on my abandonment issues #(sfter being abandoned by my closest friends and family hello this is so sexy of me) and im soooo much more st peace w myself n i like and #care aboyt myself ^-^ even just writing a list of positive things ahout me is smth i wouldve never done two years ago #(also my family took me back alhamdulillah eheh)

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

When British writers come up with an American character’s dialogue and give them the most painfully British things to say with their American accent and inflection and it makes the actor come off as stiff. :P

#The Oxford Murders (2008) #I mean it was a very well-done movie visually (that flowy choreographed camera work in the beginning WOW) #The plot was apparently hard to follow and it’s not just my lack of spoken dialogue comprehension and attention working against me #I always have to check reviews to make sure I’m not the only person having a hard time following a story #because I’ve been trained through life not to trust my own mind due to its faultiness… #Anyway: When Seldom said something like “…only mathematics can be proven. Basic statements like two plus two equals four #are the only things sure in this world” I— 💀 HELP no no no… one of the previous characters you played #would like to kiss this new character of yours on the mouth for what he just said— ashsisksnsksjjsjdjdmsksk #That is until you elaborated on it and then basically took the side of his persecutor… THAT sucked #And I know my speech right now does not come off as naturally as it once did (or is it) I have no idea #if this is my real voice or the absorption’s afterglow causing me to speak in such an uptight manner #but I don’t mind it #but I do mind it #because no matter what combination of words I use it doesn’t sound or feel as if I am the one speaking — I stitch together what I hear #or have I only been conditioned to think the way I speak isn’t natural because nobody in my immediate life speaks like this #Who says stitching together words into a gigantic quilt isn’t natural for me? #But that still leaves me with no soul. I’m Pete the Parrot. Or Bumblebee. #Maybe I shouldn’t speak or write; maybe I need to master visual telepathy #or a language comprised entirely of touch and eye movement #I always feel the need to create languages so I can express myself without falling into cliches and dialects #I want to be free of stereotypes #I’m tired of speaking this language… EXHAUSTED #I speak in predictable patterns and when I think I’m not using a pattern by being unpredictable; the unpredictability becomes a trend

[freebooter4ever]

btw if anyone is watching the cold war documentary on ntflx? dont bother. lamo this is the dumbest doc i have seen in a while. it leaves out too much stuff, it presents things as true that are blatantly false if you give more information, and it states 'theories' as facts. some facts it just plain gets hilariously wrong. there is an agenda in this documentary that it isnt stating outright, that i am highly suspicious of, and i would be curious to know who is funding it.

#jrnlsht #ah i looked up the producers and now it makes sense -_- #this is a good reminder to always check documentary sources if the documentary itself is almost entirely secondary sources #its also worth nothing that it doesnt look like any reputable history journals reviewed this doc #disclaimer to my own statement: i know very very little ru*ssian history #but i know waaaaaaay too much about us imperialism in south america and the middle east and the doc kept getting that VERY WRONG #which tipped me off to start questioning the rest of it #like seriously every time they would start to explain what was happening in the us and south america i would be like wow red flag red flag #another sentence another red flag something is up #on the surface it all is very believable and there is some valid information but be cautious #i think my biggest fear for the united states right now is that teenagers in school are not taught how to think critically #especially with stuff like this

[backtochicago]

maybe that duck finally realized that running a minecraft server with a massive fanbase including performative chronical online fans and functioning it as a brand business paying salaries to the employees are never as easy as what he thought and only collecting leasons from following someone shadow footprints will never make you realize how risky it is until you are in their shoes.

#like do i feel bad when he almost had a mental breakdown right in a livestream ? not really but soft of #but at the same time do i feel he doesn't deserve all of those oppression ? no #he made his own bed he legitimately invited himself into this mess which could have prevented in the first place #he was the one cutting the relationship with the rest of his former friends #he was the one hiring all of the mod volunteers he was the one making those “ there is no war in ba sing se ” rules #he was the one functioning this Minecraft server as a business company not a passion project #he was the one building up this fanbase - the oppressed fans willingly doxxing and threatening ccs and other fans #he cannot pull out ' i barely caught up anything ' when it comes to paying salaries to other mods #because he made the damn principles applied to every mods how tf he can forget ? #not to mention he (used to) study laws ?? commercial laws ???? #and when he fucking cried and talking about wilbur and sobbed about he was no longer in the server #yet none of supporting statements toward to shelby were made like okay bro im sure being a blind-eyed man must be tough for you last year #like what he even expected ? this is what happened if you silenced your voices and permitted your fucking fandom swept all of its issues #either he need to change or the damn server will go down to the pit hole #/neg

[stars-in-our-skies]

h8 it when ppl say "um thats not a symptom of this disorder" and it's like. Something that has a lot of fucking overlap with other disorders

#like with the whole 'mania isnt a bpd symptom' thing #there is so much wrong with that statement #first off. bro. you do understand that sometimes the dsm is Wrong right #and even so that sometimes disorders have a lot of overlap with each other #and at the end of the day diagnosises are used for the purpose of treatment #it's like. symptoms are a thing all on their own and THEN youre given a diagnosis based on what ur closest match is #and sometimes there is overlap bc not everyone is going to perfectly fit a diagnosis #am i wrong? is that not how it's supposed to work? #i would imagine if it was the other way around (diagnosis and THEN adressing symptoms) that things (treatment) would be worse #it's why things like adhd and autism overlap a lot lol #because theyre both sensory processing disorders. and spd is a thing on its own too! #so what im saying is that if youre mentally ill. they tend to come as a package deal. #and even if you only have *one*-- #--theres a good chance you have other symptoms that arent 'technically' a part of ur dx #you should be addressing the symptoms and not the disorder itself. #esp when it comes to stuff like autism or adhd or anything else youre born with #us mentally ill people have a lot more in common than you think! #u might not think it bc we've been told that we're all 'different' kinds of fucked up but thats Not True. it overlaps! #and the classifications of things like dissociative disorders vs personality disorders #is more or less to help doctors find out whats wrong with you #than it is to say that you CANT EVER experience stuff outside of that #etc etc anyway. Yall are gonna give me a stroke w ur misunderstanding of mental health #my posts #ok that was a rant. Leave me alone

[minarcana]

#ok guess what fuckers youre going to be on another tag ramble adventure with me #ive been afflicted with the same images in my brain tumbling around and the only way to free my brain is to write them out #and anyways i have been contemplating wol au uri for a bit due to various reasons (he came up and then i got this image and couldnt be free #shb with uri as the wol is. after killing vauthry. he is SO fucked up that raha STILL wont just let him die #he was supposed to have raha send him to the rift with the light and let him die there but now that he cant stop him rahas taking it himsel #and theres the whole. 'no we really cannot have the wol die.' thing. #that makes it infinitely worse to uri. him just yelling through blood to let him die! let him have his turn! he WANTS to die! #the idea of bring told that the wol CANT die makes it so much more unfair to him #'you wouldnt know what to do if i died? i didnt know what to do for years after louisoux died! i still dont know what to do without moenbry #da! papalymo can sacrifice himself and everyone adapts! shtola has thrown herself to the lifestream twice! minfilia died! i had to stay sil #ent and let ryne choose her own path if she died or not! i cant tell people that i would be lost yet everyone gets to tell ME that? #do you think i am better than them do you think them worth less why do they have the right to die and i do not!' #he is SO SO SO much worse as a wol and it falls out in one outburst after hes quizzed as to why he thought he could sacrifice himself #but he also realizes that its really fucked up to say that aloud so yknow. yknow what. yknow. #hell bottle up all his feelings and then one day hell either die or start crying and it looks like he aint allowed to die! #he still takes the aid from ardbert at amaurot with the statement that #'if i dont try and save who i might then ill never be able to face moenbryda' #anyways cannot stop thinking about me giving uri the echo like 'this will be funny!' and hes just 'my life has become infinitely worse' #HEAD IN MY HANDS

[divorcemotif]

"oh hey a real person followed me, I should look at their blog"

soon

"...perhaps I should listen to Eskew."

oh boy you caught my blog after an exciting weekend lmao

I absolutely recommend eskew! I don't have a lot of coherent thoughts, since I got into it over a very physically and mentally draining summer job and have yet to relisten, but it left an impression for sure. I will say what there is of an overarching narrative felt a bit jolty to me in places, for lack of a better term— I think you get the vibe of a show that’s figuring itself out somewhat as it goes, however the ideas are very interesting and I could make a long list of moments that really really affected me. my recent posts probably give a good sense of what I liked most abt it; david ward is just. endlessly interesting as a character imo. the writing’s good— there's a kind of.. ironically humorous edge to a lot of my favourite episodes, something I’d have to relisten to properly articulate. there's a tic of referring to one-off characters by a title instead of a name— the correspondence editor, the architect, the witness— that scratches something in my brain. in contrast with the slimy fleshiness of much of the horror, the sound design is just nice, actually— the rain never stops in eskew and the tone of the narration stays pretty level no matter what’s being described. there are only two narrators and I found both of their voices pleasant enough to close my eyes to on the subway after a long day. very solid show

#ask #eskew #I don’t usually post this much abt eskew but that jonathan sims vs david ward most sopping wet podcast man poll awakened smth in me . #got me itching to write like 1000 words abt how it’s ultimately an unfair comparison #but I havent listened to either podcast in A While so I don’t trust myself to be like. right. abt anything #I’ll just say. #eskew has its narrator in the middle of the horror right off the bat. it’s more immediately immersive and far less grounded— #early episodes you have rlly no guarantee that anything david is perceiving is real or what ‘real’ even means within the rules of his world. #even later on it’s p ambiguous how many of the people he interacts with are actually people and this uncertainty gets exploited a lot #basically. in tma the world looks broadly like our own and is being affected by outside forces where in eskew the setting IS the horror #if I were writing an essay abt this I might make it abt the ways each show plays w humour and absurdity— #the caricature of jon’s initial presentation is a grounding force at the start #where eskew consistently uses absurdity to unground you and keep you uncertain #ofc the initial security to this divide between jon and the statements gradually dissolves #but tma just has a lot more structure the whole time w both the epistolary kind of format and the world.eskew gets. abstract . #what I’m saying is david is infinitely wetter and more miserable bc his story both requires and allows for it. tonally. #and because the rain literally and metaphorically never stops. #david never gets a fucking break even when he gets a fucking break bc he can never KNOW if he’s really getting a fucking break #or if the city that loves him soso much is about to turn on him #(also hes far more chaotic morally I think on account of just being. further out of touch). #at least tma has enough supporting characters who are definitively real people by the rules of its universe #for you to have found family expectations it can repeatedly subvert. #david is a half drowned rat. #. however jonathan sims has more fans and could never lose 😔

[killmebythebeach]

Just listened to 118 and jesus FUCK. How do you like. Be a person after that?

#spoilers in the tags dont read tags unless youve listened to 118 #anyway. statement begins #obviously ive known about martin arson for a while cuz ive been interacting with the fandom #but i was not really prepared for how like. funny that was. #martin taunting elias and talking about his own crush on jon to stall. call that fear-baiting. #anyways this MOTHER FUCKER ill kill him i dont care if melanies like infected with the skaughter shes 100% right about killing elias #and sir are you implying you have a specific memory/feeling chosen for every person in the archives?! #he said something about 'what i have prepared' like sir fuck you?! he is great villain inspo though i want to make a dnd bbeg based on him #and i hate him to hell and back as a person but love him to BITS as a character #okay. 117 has me really scared for tim. ive been spoiled and i know he dies but i just. #i miss 90s movie best friend flirty guy. hes so bitter now which of course makes sense but its heartbreaking to see him #and the whole time theyre in the building is just TERRIFYING like it isnt wax?! #the beatles? ARE THEY GOING TO GET SKINNED ON STAGE? #i forgot how lowkey scared i was of nikolas voice. makes my skin crawl every time. #and is that what the unknowing does? cuz daisy doesnt recognise jon for some reason after opening the door #anyway. ill finish s3 tomorrow hopefully. but like. heh?!?! #the magnus archives spoilers #the magnus archives #tma

[thermesiini]

trigun is like. i dont really know how it will play out with the idealogies it has going on with vash vs nai peace vs violence. like. vash is kind of milquetoast he needs to get on the same page as his insane extremist brother.

#its introducing this world where humanity is living off the exploitation of these engineered organisms because theres 'no other choice' #and they colonized this planet and are killing the original inhabitants for food and are set to make a ruin of it as well #and it seems like its wants to make statements about mankinds treatment of earth and all #but then we have the peace is always the answer guy for a protag #and the guy who actually wants to do something is (through the lens of the narrative) unequivocally wrong #because oh noooo he kills people #idk ill read the manga and see where it goes though #like. the idea that mankind should not exploit other organisms just to survive. is right. thats right. so what is trigun trying to say #with all of that hmmmm contemplative emoji #feels like its going in a very uhhh weak centrist direction is all #but like i said i dont know the story it could very well be countered #considering the entire mercy killing thing thats going on as well #and like. the guy who looks like anime heisenburg and has a hispanic name #going in order for humanity to survive they must become inhuman and being unequivocally wrong for the right reasons #ALSO the entire peace thing is a cop out for vash's own guilt. #I DONT GET TRIGUN. WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH TRIGUN

[sailorsuit]

.

#personal #no ability to stand right wing politics #i feel pretty demoralized by ppl at work lately #its not anything someone personal did #more like the general system #of people hating enby people #and I have to try and educate/stick to my morals while also not getting ousted at work #i hate being a palatable gay #i want to be myself more #i code switch so hard that its enfuriating #and they dont get that #they believe the right wing shit they see online #they dont notice the cuts that are made to make the person (insert guy who makes stupid arguements fucking OWNED statements here) look good #or how the person they are talking to is almost in tears #i just #i love my enby people and i love my community #and its so frustrating to hear strawman arguements about them being upset about misgendering #bipoc queer and woman and any mix of that are not allowed to be angry or feel anything #i am tired of educating others rn #its just #hard sometimes