#madi speaks

[jake-and-johnnies-slut]

news

I’m going to be disappearing from the blogs for at least until Wednesday… im getting wisdom teeth out on Tuesday, and I’m taking a media fast so that I don’t say anything crazy while I’m high on anesthesia

-Madi <3

#madi speaks

[madi-writes-things]

POV

it’s been a week since you wrote, so now you have to reread the whole series to make sure that the movie in your head before bed actually fits the cannon

-Madi <3

#madi speaks

[shelbyskirin]

also if ANYBODY has little college-age hcs for our boys and girls pls feel free to tell me abt them, i’m looking for Cute Little Tidbits™️ to put into this fic and i am very fond of the idea of having potential readers involved 🩵

#ships as well #the only ones set in stone for me are obv rafkirin and then dotin + shoni #maybe henrivan #but other than that pls feel free to throw literally anything at me i wanna hear your thoughts <3 #madi speaks #the wilds #fatin jadmani #kirin o’connor #shelby goodkind #ivan taylor #rafael garcia #henry tanaka #scotty simms #josh herbert #leah rilke #toni shalifoe #rachel reid #nora reid #martha blackburn #bo leonard #rafkirin

[game-grumped]

Had the random urge to draw Arin in my style so uh

#game grumps #arin hanson #madi speaks #traditional art #pencil drawing

[lostinthelxghts]

sat down to watch sg1 tonight and somehow ended up watching two episodes of supernatural

#i tried a few months ago to watch it but i couldn’t get past the pilot #now look at me lol #my brain is a funny thing #madi speaks

[mally-jane]

I’m gonna try to get back into using tumblr more often, I think the part that’s upsetting is twitter genuinely has one of the better systems in place for replies so it makes interaction with people super easy

but on the other hand… tumblr does NOT have a function that works like twitter’s QRTs and that’s ultimately something that benefits me as an artist because QRTs are pretty much a watered down repost

and Instagram can suck my ass

#madi speaks

[raidbossmadi]

Not me wanting to write  a short Ellie/Ian ficlet of her caring for him in the visitors center after he breaks his leg.  I just live for Hurt/comfort of these characters and theres not enough of it in the tag 

#Madi speaks #Lol I say this like I dont have like seven wips Im working on right now #I LITERALLY do not have time to write something unrelated to Edge of Chaos #Ellie/Ian

[supercomms]

#someone gives him his star every season

#stranger things #stranger things 4 #st4 #st4 spoilers #steve harrington #eddie munson #mady speaks #FOR REAL THOUGH every season someones like HES NOT SO BAD!!! #he never WAS my guys keep up !!!!

[ace-with--a-mace]

pls tiktok is playing with my feelings wdym jatp is coming back

#i think theyre clowning around too but also im holding out #cuz app kenny ortega returned to paradigm and tagged jatp in his insta bio #and charlie i guess has his lule haircut back?? idk i only keep up w madi and jadah #but we will see (PLSPLSPLSPLDPLD BTING BACK THIS SHOW OMG PLS) #julie and the phantoms #jatp #l speaks #shut up l #no unfinished business #clowngate #jatp clowngate

[rocks-in-space]

"We're all villains in Nassau. Don't think because you're new you're any different."

[Image ID: 5 photos from Black Sails overlain with text. The pictures show Silver and Madi kissing, a close-up of Madi's face in the dark with Billy's hand holding a knife to her throat, Israel Hands and two other pirates holding the open chest of gems on the deck of the Walrus, a close-up of Madi's face looking hurt with Silver in the background in her room in the Maroon camp, and Silver pointing a gun at Flint. Text reads, "Do you have a wife? How do you imagine she would feel if she were told you were suffering some awful, degrading abuse and that the only way she could end it would be to betray your trust? How do you think she would feel if she betrayed you, knowing she likely lost that trust forever? 'And no one was harmed.'" end ID]

Photos from fancaps.net

#making myself sad with parallels again #black sails #john silver #madi #silvermadi #sam speaks

[sameteeth]

in s3ep2, eleanor tells mrs. hudson she doesnt come from privilege, which mrs. hudson immediately denies. but i think its SOOO telling of eleanor's character! she sees herself as a woman in a world full of men, which she is, but she completely ignores the class and racial divides she obviously benefits from. she claims she has no privilege to mrs. hudson, who comes from no money and works as a chambermaid to woodes rodgers, leaving behind her beloved children to make sure eleanor has clean clothes and to empty her chamberpot. eleanor had power on nassau, power she wielded for her own benefit and to the severe detriment of others. obviously she experienced misogyny, but she was never forced into poverty, never forced into sex work, never forced into service of any kind, because her father was wealthy and she was born into a higher class. her experiences of misogyny and oppression are vastly different than mrs. hudson's. but for her to tell a chambermaid she experienced no privilege? it's laughably untrue. eleanor oversaw and directly profitted from the trade of hundreds if not thousands of slaves on nassau, was raised by "chattel property of the guthrie estate" mr. scott, who is never even given a name in his own tongue (on screen, at least), never showed kindness to anyone but those who put money in her pocket because she was born with that money and that trade empire already in the guthrie name. she had to fight to get it, and fight she did, but the fact that those things were so close to her reach just by virtue of the circumstances of her birth? that's privilege, whether or not she sees it that way

#eleanor is a character i love and hate - shes so INTERESTING analysis wise and im still chewing on her motives etc but i dont like her as a #character within thr story - shes selfish and deceitful and shortsighted (max i could treat u so good baby please-) and she makes me mad lol #BUT. thinking abt her in relation to mr scott and madi ? VERY interesting... writing a piece on this now actually! #i also think shes so White Feminist - recognizes injustice wrt her experience and hers alone and discwrds any notion of intersectionality #because while she can recognize oppression and injustice she cannot see the whole picture and thus only thinks of how it affects her #billy is similar i think but my thoughts onthat havent quite coagulated into anything coherent yet #canis speaks #black sails #canis watches black sails

[jake-and-johnnies-slut]

I’m venting here, so you don’t need to read

it’s so fucking frustrating losing friends… like I hate you and I’ll never forgive you, but I still look to see if you texted me good morning.

I miss your dog, and I miss your sisters, and I miss you.

and it’s always the smallest things that get me upset. It’s realizing that you won’t come to my birthday party. It’s hearing a song that you showed me. It’s the books at target that you begged me to read. It’s realizing that you won’t ever explain how to download sims cc when I get a laptop. It’s the notification from my calendar telling me it’s your birthday. It’s wanting to tell you about the show I just finished, even though you never watch the shows I recommended. It’s changing the name of a playlist because I know you listen to it, and I hope you see it.

what’s the most frustrating is that you helped me grow into the person I am today. You told me I was enough, even when I didn’t want to hear it. You told me that I deserve better, and that I shouldn’t have to change myself to make people like me. You taught me how to love myself… and now I realize that none of it was true.

maybe you did love me, and you just have stuff going on… but I really did try to help. I did reach out. I did ask if you were okay. I even texted your sister to make sure you were okay when you stopped responding.

I feel like an idiot more than anything, everyone told me that you weren’t a good friend. I defended you. I threw myself under the bus for you. I begged others to be nicer to you, because you were like a sister to me. I unfortunately assumed you would do the same for me.

Instead you twisted a lie that you created in your own head, and used it against me. I don’t mean that to sound vindictive, it’s just the truth. You decided that I did something, even when I showed on multiple occasions that I would never do something like that.

I’m so tired of giving so much, and never getting it back. I have two people left in my life that I trust, and that isn’t only your fault… but it’s not helping things. You knew how much i fear people not liking me, and faking it for some cruel joke, and you did the same thing.

I still love you. I still want you to be my maid of honor when I get married. I still want you to be the aunt to my kids in the future. I still love you… but there’s no coming back from this. Unfortunately I have grown enough to know that what you expect, is the exact mindset that you helped me break from.

I wish you the best, unfortunately that doesn’t involve me.

goodbye.

#vent post #personal vent #tw rant #tw vent #fake friends #madi speaks

[madi-writes-things]

There is a wrong answer, and two right answers…

#madi speaks

[shelbyskirin]

fantastic news, besties, i am finally feeling a touch less mentally ill, which means i may or may not be starting the rafkirin history crush au outline very shortly <3

#madi speaks #rafkirin #idk if anybody remembers the original little plot post but EYE remember it and that is all i care abt #nobody get their hopes up ok i haven’t written a fic since highschoolskfhd >:|

[game-grumped]

I stopped checking tumblr for a bit on principle after seeing the shoelaces they are selling.

#not game grumps #Madi speaks

[lostinthelxghts]

Well this weeks ep felt like filler build up. However the part of my brain that doesn’t like unfinished business is very upset we still don’t know what’s happening w/ jack and what’s behind the door 🤷🏼‍♀️

#picard spoilers #madi speaks