#materials of mourning

[yourbuerokrat2]

Claudia finds out about Aaravos apparently viewing Sir Sparklepuff as his and Virens child and, much to Virens horror and Aaravos' amusement, immediatly asks if that makes Aaravos her step father.

#Claudia would ask this in such a happy almost giddy tone #because considering how she speaks of Aaravos #especially to Soren #she really must think Aaravos is great #especially if she and Aaravos manage to save Virens life a second time #and it would also mean that her family has grown a bit #Viren says a very clear 'No' the exact second Aaravos says 'yes #even if you don't shp viravos #Aaravos could use Claudia seeing him that way as a way to further get her to trust and listen to him #and it would also give him just a bit more emotional material to hold over Viren #'Oh come on Viren it makes your well 'our' daughter so happy #I thought you wanted her happy after all these years she mourned over you' #viravos #claudia the dragon prince #aaravos #aaravos the dragon prince

[vaguely-concerned]

in hindsight the funniest part of the recurring cow jokes is that john says he built the wall out of cows and a bunch of sheep, and no one, not a single soul, seems to have spoken up on behalf of the sheep at any point fjsdkfhsajk. why the livestock sympathy inequality. why the cattle bias. I recognize that sheep are -- to be fair -- quite annoying to deal with, but if you prick them do they not bleat etc., it doesn't seem fair for them to get forgotten in the middle of all this

(the description of 'it was at this point that he had the grace to look embarrassed (may we even go so far as to say... sheepish)'... god stop being the funniest bitch in the world john I'm mad at you)

#do not sheep watch sunsets. do not sheep exhibit mourning behaviour for other sheep. #if you turn them inside out do they not make a grotesque yet effective building material #the locked tomb #nona the ninth #the locked tomb spoilers #nona the ninth spoilers #ntn spoilers #nona spoilers #john gaius #tbf this is a painfully accurate portrayal of how a certain kind of internet discourse tends to calcify #and also we're only getting the parts of it that annoyed john most consistently and he is... how do you say... a bastard #he forgot to put in air holes at first and didn't listen to G--'s engineering advice fhsdkfhaskjfhaskjhfaskj #yes. yes his friends WERE saints actually #'why is everyone treating me like I did a big crime just because I did a huge crime :'(' the john gaius story

[willosword]

ummm one of my capital B Blorbos from another fandom just died :(

#havent kept up with the source material in a while but like #im talkin obsessed-with-them-for-several-months-straight levels of blorboism............. #i still have his pin on my backpack and everything....................... #hashtag Mourning............................ <- she is grieving in a totally cool and ironic way #willow whispers

[obstinatecondolement]

I wish I could go back in time and convince my past self that I was not morally obligated to give my time and mental energy to listening to and thinking about the things people who constantly spoke to and about me in disparaging, angry ways had to say about social issues and that constantly feeling miserable and obsessing over how I was Evil was not only not a vital prerequistive for moral growth, it was actively making it harder for me to make moral choices.

But, I mean, these things take time. I guess. Sure would be nice if it was possible to just wave a magic wand and not have harmful core beliefs anymore that you knew on an intellectual level weren't true and were harmful to you, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#I am happy that I've gotten so much better with a lot of my Stuf in the past few years but also like #it's hard looking back at how much of my life I'll never get back that was ruled by this crap #it's really really hard knowing that I did My Best which was very very bad #and that I'm still doing my best which is still not very impressive #and that there are so many things I won't be able to do because of all the time I've lost and the ways I've been held back by brain weasels #even if I 'recover' I can't get the time back #and I can't achieve the greater independence and material security I would already have if I hadn't been so unwell for so long #I feel like I'm always going to be mourning what illness and ableism and abuse have taken from me

[hellonearthtoday]

i physically can't even read anything where johnny and dallas are dead anymore like I could at the start but I genuinely just start tweaking now. I read a fic where they were ghosts and it was so well written it ruined my life forever so I can't do it anymore.

idk like they don't even have to be important in the fic I just cant handle the fact they're dead 😭especially johnny I don't like thinking about that. They're alive to ME and that's POSSIBLE because this is FICTION.

#the outsiders #dont get me wrong i really do like the original story but i think ive mourned enough #time to be happy. god speed #I appreciate the source material i just feel so empty inside w/o johnny sassmaster cade

[autisticbabayaga]

Watched this mourning dove walk on top of his partner to feed her like 15 times. My dude that is so unnecessary. Just land on the opposite side of the branch.

#he just stomped all over her back like my dude my guy #there is an easier way to put a bug in her beak #he was a very good partner though and brought her lots of food and nesting material though #mourning dove #birds #farm fresh

[craybii]

Surely it’s unofficial canon that Daemon, Rhaenyra, Harwin, Laena and Laenor all had a fivesome at some point, right? And I need someone to do a fanfiction about that ASAP (and who did what lmao)

I needed the friendships, the affairs, the orgies in the show. Leaving out the 1x05-1x06 inbetween is HBO’s biggest crime... right after S8.

#hotd #house of the dragon #game of thrones #daemon targaryen #rhaenyra targaryen #harwin strong #breakbones #laena velaryon #laenor velaryon #ideal fanfiction material #prompts #smut stuff #yeah I know I'm a thirsty hoe #still in mourning #1x06 #someone write this please

[notwiselybuttoowell]

Make sure you vote in the [checks ballot] cemetery district commissioners election today!

#I say that like I'm joking but one is invested in promoting green burials and is using 18th century mourning iconography in their materials #so I am all in

[vulpinesaint]

the sheer number of incredibly intricate worlds and characters that i have created with people who i am no longer friends with so that i can no longer talk about those characters or use those settings. i only got half the dog in the divorce do you know what i mean

#i have all these characters but they're missing their FRIENDS and their ORIGINAL CIRCUMSTANCES #people will never understand roleplay with original settings and original characters. #imagine if you played dnd purely by talking about the characters and their relationships with each other and their themes and motifs #and did all the little roleplay scenarios but wrote about it. and then made a bunch of supplementary material for your characters. #and then like. instead of one character you've got like three of them and they're all Part of this collaborative world #mourning the group of like. dkjfghs. nine friends from a fantasy world. i only have claim to like three of them #the rest... again. only half the dog #i WILL use prydwen elsewhere. because i'm in love with him and that's important in a character. he's literally my silly rabbit #but GOD i want to get my fucking hands on people's intellectual property sometimes #i was the ONLY one doing cool shit with the fantasy sci-fi world this one person created and i WANT to do more with it!!! #and like. how am i supposed to use zephyr without stealing the incredibly specific circumstances that they were created out of #anyway. frustrating. at least i have prydwen. hugging him like a teddy bear #yeah girl i have ocs except i don't talk about them on tumblr i'm in my little roleplay servers that i created the ocs for dskfgh #honestly i have probably talked about faedren more than any actual character of mine from like. Writing. #also my fault for not having any actual wips. long form or even short form fiction is not my strong suit nothing rlly sticks #WHATEVER. feel like shit just want her back (all of the characters that are inextricably intertwined with someone else) #valentine notes

[japannkenn]

The fucking Luca deleted scenes gives me heartburn 😭😢😖 /pos x100

#the Luca/Alberto/Ciccio trio? golden cinematic 3rd wheel material right there #giulias whole shtick? #stunning #I mourn the loss of it everyday #it feels so much more widescale and elegant #this is not to say AT ALL that I don’t appreciate smaller scale storylines #I think the smaller scale storyline of the final version is actually one of the main reasons I love Luca so much #it’s just crazy seeing how different the two versions are #I would write a whole chapter fic based off the deleted storyline but…. #would anyone even read that #alberto scorfano #luca paguro #ciccio luca #giulia marcovaldo #pixar luca #luca 2021 #luca #disney luca #fanfiction #luberto #Youtube

[silverjirachi]

Bringing up Astor and Exile//Vilify again and how I think he’s one of the poorest written villains in the world reminded me of how I basically write things out of a weird mixture of reverence and spite.

Like, with the exception of Archie and Maxie, my two longest fics are

Exile//Vilify, which is about a villain who I think is the writing equivalent of wet cardboard

And Ophelia, which, while not released yet, is pushing 120k about Pokemon Gen 5, the lore of which I also hate

This isn’t even getting into my master’s thesis, the entire premise of which was developed out of spite. It’s like I look at these things I think are awful and go,

“Oh. Allow me to make that better for you.”

And then just have absolutely no chill about it

#i also say reverence because it’s like #i deeply love and wonder about these characters that are shafted #like i MOURN for the loss of potential in Astor as a good villain #and the question of why Anthea and Concordia are called GODDESSES plauged me so fervently I had to find an answer #it’s like i look at things and wonder what’s there #or what COULD be there #and i don’t rest until i find out #it turns things i hate into things i deeply love #even if the source material never changes #because then they mean something to me

[obiwan-kenobabe]

I miss having passion for things bro like wtf

#im looking at my old ghost hunting material and boy #i really really had a passion for history and old cemeteries #and ya girl LOVES keeping a binder when she really cares about something #the past few years i have been supremely fucked up #dont mind me #im just mourning having any sort of drive to do anything and be excited about things

[theood]

Gonna be entirely honest from what ive heard abt New Soupernatural it honestly feels very unfitting for Dean to go around actually saving his mom. Like. Im SORRY to say it but the way John raised Dean and how John shaped him to be Sams Protector to be There For Sammy to raise him with the burden of "you may have to kill him for me, Dean. You're going to need to watch Sam and I need you to promise me you'll shoot him if he goes south" is really fucking integral to why Dean is Dean.

YES, we see Dean multiple times wanting a white picket fence life. We know he doesn't want to hunt. But for him to completely rewrite time. Alter a timeline feels. So disingenuous to who his character was.

Dean didn't deserve to die how he did, but what he's doing in Heaven is no better. Deans story should have ended differently yes, but not how it's going in The New Show

#im.not gonna tag this bc from what I've seen its an unpopular opinion but 8/ like. idk I ( #Know Dean. And I think like truly as much as I love the show we DID stray from what he was. WHO he waz because og #John. Because he lost his mom #There was always a split between him and Sam bc of his mom. And we know Dean early on got the role of protector thrust on him #and he viewed himself as killing his mom. I don't think its right he finally gets to fix that. It doesn't feel right. #Dean is. Narratively a tragedy. His happy ending is happy but his true wants aren't fufilled but by the end he should have learned #to let go. To mourn truly and wholely and properly. Family doesn't end with blood. He can cry. #idk. I'm being preachy over the show I didnt watch bc it looked kinda shitty and I really didnt care for #follow baby boy john b4 he abused his kids and blamed them for mommys death #But I also really fucking hated Marys return on SPN it felt so dumb. Its such a dumb fucking arc to me #IDK. Hashtag Castiel kinnie has feelings on his source material but like man this ain't it #spn posting

[artheresy]

Started to make a post ranting about wanting to see an indepth look at Chuuya’s grief over his life in a fic and how they overlap etc. and I think I just came up with a fic idea through all of that ranting h mm

Going to,, keep this post up to save my thoughts in the tags dont mind me

#i need an exploration of the prolonged grief in Chuuya’s life so badly #and I will write it atp #i wanna write him grieving his life with the sheep as the years go by #mourning what he had even if it wasn’t nearly the best #a more in depth look at his mourning of the flags #BC GOD #There is so much angst potential #asagiri shouldnt have told us Albatross would always be loud above Chuuyas apartment and drag him places in the middle of the night #that exact scenario of Albatross having a huge prescence makes for wonderful grief material in his absence #A fic where admist all the grief and his other thoughts Chuuya sometimes still mourns Murase and what could have been if he had survived #Hell throw in there #an exploration of his grief after Dazai left that actually feels like Chuuya #bc I need an interpretation of that #that actually feels like Chuuya #I dont see him being like utterly depressed crying ocer that #that doesnt feel like Chuuya #give me Chuuya who after Dazai is gone feels a strange lack of emotions about it all #not like hes ‘calm’ but hes strangely stoic about it #like he’s numb more so than calm and there’s a strange hollowness in his life where Dazai was that he can’t help but notice #no matter how much he doesn’t want to #bsd #chuuya nakahara #bungo stray dogs

[fierykitten2]

I don't want to accidentally start an internet war or anything but I do want to put the point out there that the Pretty Cure fandom's reaction to the Glitter Force sub-fandom is basically like if I'm like "Hi, my favourite Animal Crossing villager is Megan, I think she's pretty, I love the colour purple and she has a great personality. Not the best personality, but her personality is cute so she's still number one in my heart" and someone responds with "*Candy"

#idk why I've been thinking so much about this #but like chill #the source material I watched taught me it was emily kelsey lily april chloe maya rachel clara mackenzie and natalie #not miyuki akane yayoi nao reika mana rikka alice makoto and aguri #though I accept there was no reason to change Clara's name #but I think I prefer the name Clara to Alice anyway #also the dub's purpose was to get people into anime and Glitter Force was my first anime so it served its purpose #I will always mourn the fact that the next two series couldn't become Glitter Force's #guess in the dub universe megan hilda harriet (my dub names for megumi hime and haruka) and the others never became glitter force warriors #but at least we got these guys #also I prefer glitter force to glitter force doki doki #like gf made me feel something nice that gfdd didn't #I need to go back to making Glitter Force crossover fanfics #is it weird I have crossover ships for emilyxmaya chloexrachel and lilyxclara purely because of their colour schemes #shoulda pointed this out sooner but this is not an attack on the general pc fandom #I just want them to know that there are people like me who unironically love the dubs #the nice feeling in gf was especially in series 2 #haha chaotic tags lol #glitter force #glitter force doki doki

[solradguy]

Every time I see a Sol cosplayer mentally I'm like *pushes them out of the way* show me the sword please show me the Outrage Fire Junkyard Seal Dog II III I'm begging you

#textpost #It's been 3 months since I got my 3D printer if I can't start making Outrage parts soon I'm going to go feral irl #Catch me in the backyard gnawing on mourning dove bones mumbling about z-axis and e-step calibrations #After doing the Junkyard Dog emblem zipper pull print last night I realized that if I do prints in the Overture PLA- #-with 80-100% infill I could probably make pieces durable enough to stick on my jackets #That is... I could rip the handcuff models off the Strive Sol 3D model and print it and put them on my red jacket #The 'hard' part then would be fabricating the leather straps that hold them on but that'll be easy #Basically the Outrage is by far the hardest part of a Strive Sol cosplay #If I have that I'm 90% of the way there and with a 3D printer I can do damn near anything lol #Who needs EVA foam and Warbla when I can materialize parts with corn goo heated to over 500 degree Fahrenheit #Actually back up for a sec. The wig is the next hardest part. I have no idea how tf people do his ridiculous hair #UGH 2009 me wouldn't've needed a wig lmfao