#my insurance loves me rn lmao

[lemonadecabaret]

Pneumonia kicked my ass and then my wisdom teeth kicked my ass. Lemme just dust the cobwebs like I didn't just up and disappear...

#🍋out of lemonade #my insurance loves me rn lmao

[stealingpotatoes]

askposting: imagine a creative title here

you know the drill bestie. feat. a lot of jedi survivor and some other star warsing

the more you think abt this the funnier it gets. like it means kanera are declaring their income which is absolutely stolen imperial credits to the empire, means kanan went and got a SSN/national insurance number or smthn for his fake identity, and that these ppl who live on a ship ie have no fixed residence are somehow still paying taxes to somewhere. 10/10

@engagemythrusters TUMBLR IS A FUNCTIONING WEBSITE!! i too love when he sit like a people

@finwe77 well now i want to see luke cooking for HIS mando and din being a brave soldier and saying no he's totally fine and then putting the helmet back on to cover his tears and sipping blue milk thru a straw

im like 60% sure thats that aussie dog show but i dont think im qualified to answer this

@stars-are-watching ohhhh nooooo what a shaaaame!!!!! you just HAVE to!!!!!!!

also dw i won't be going on THAT aggressive a cal kestis lockdown. i mean... i imagine you're gonna be seeing a lot of him here for a few days but--

i have to say cal's basic bitch bracca poncho, legally

--- SEVERE JEDI SURVIVOR SPOILERS BELOW!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE TO START!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN I SAY ALL OF IT???? EVEN IF IT EMOTIONALLY DEVASTATED ME??????

it's probably the cute mantis fam scene before everything goes to shit. theyre all being so domestic and adorable and MERRICAL!! KISS!!!!!!!!!!!! MERRICAL!!!!! cal deserves nice things even tho for the entire cutscene i was thinking "this feels exactly like a scene in another game where we're meant to be going to the final location tomorrow but then my allies betray me" AND WELL.

even if it emotionally obliterated me i also loved the entire bit after bc SO MUCH. HAPPENED. like???????? thE SHOCK OF BODE even if i was getting a bit sus of him after the dagan fight I STILL DIDNT SEE IT COMING AND I WAS SO UPSET AND THEN HE WAS A JEDI AND THEN PLAYING AS CERE!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??! I WAS GRINNING SO HARD BC OMG COOL EVEN IF CAL IS LIKE. MAYBE NOT OKAY RN THE FUN OF PLAYING AS HER WAS TOO MUCH. AND THEN. HOLY SHITTING FUCK I HAD NOT EVEN THE SLIGHTEST INKLING VADER WAS GONNA SHOW UP. I GASPED SO FUCKIN LOUD LMAO. IT WAS SUCH A GREAT FIGHT, VADER IS SO SCARY, AND I LOVE FIGHT SCENES W HIM BC YOU KNOW FROM BOTH A TACTICAL AND NARRATIVE STANDPOINT YOU CANNOT WIN AND GOD. THE LIGHTSABER FAKEOUT. DOES RESPAWN KNOW THEIR MEAT IS HUGE.

i am a big enough person to admit i cried twice and the bit after this was one of those times <3

BUT YEAH probably fave bit is the cute pre-emotional obliteration moment

#thanks for the ask!

[xplrvibes]

ive decided i will commentate this one but it likely won’t be as long as the others bc like i dnt feel good. anyway…

im starting this commentary 4.5 minutes in so here is where we start.

this is the snc era where i loved both their fashion styles so much 🙌🏼

Ooh they meet steve and dylan here. i rly like them 🥰 you can tell dylans a cop bc of the way he stands back and watches everyone lol

this house is stunning

I thought colby had a little yellow rubber ducky on his belt and i didnt even question it… my brain is not braining (update it was his phone)

steves hot. there’s no denying it. that man is a man.

I got distracted looking at steve and now colbys in a casket what on earth ☠️

I dont get the fear of bats… why are they so scared of bats? I love bats… 🦇

I just realised they never said “whats up guys its snc” sad sad

i was gonna say snc need to start using pelican cases foe their gear but actually i hate moving pelican cases so props to them for risking thousands of dollars of gear on a camera bag 🙏🏼 bc honestly same. i carry my personal kit in a $5 backpack 🤷🏻‍♀️

i blissfully almost forgot the other one was in this video for a while bc he wasn’t making much of a presence. shattered.

i know theyre tripping out but thats an awesome pic of josh tbh

the ghost wants to talk to them in heaven? that’s fk up

“are they trapped somewhere?” “yeah… help” 😳

“borden… awful” they said it not me

dude i wanna be a petty bitch and not believe seth rn but he genuinely looks freaked out.

josh is really really good at estes. like damn…

“im coming” relatable when colby’s in the room

this is getting insane wtf

steve could tell me santa claus was real and id believe him 🥺

steve saying this is their first time experiencing such a drastic change in activity at this house (and theuve been here over 50 times)… again, further proof of snc being in the psychic realm bc this stuff always happens to them. always. and its bc colbys the psychic and sams the guide. fk

lmao steve and dylan being like nah dudes we dipping we got work in the morning lmao

k done - aussie anon

Oh, if you like Steve and Dylan and you haven't already done so, check out the prison video they did with them and Nate, Our Horrifying Night in Haunted Prison (as seen below, cause there's two prison episodes right near each other in the lineup):

This one is good for some "Colby just casually does psychic things" moments, too.

But yea, I enjoy Steve and Dylan quite a bit.

And omg, honestly, I'm just glad they finally got a regualr suitcase a couple of years ago, at least for the airport part of the travel. Prior to that, everything went into backpacks and duffel bags. 💀

But they must insure their shit (or they're just that rich lol), cause when all their crap including their new camera and light got stolen that time they were able to replace it like a week later, so I guess they figured as long as they protect the SD cards they can figure the rest out. 🤷‍♀️

And yea, this happens a lot cause of the energy these two are creating with their very presence, but what the hell do we know 🤣

#asks #aussie anon

[lucysweatslove]

I got a notification that a claim for my ADHD neuropsych testing was approved.

I wanted to write up a whole thing about how absolutely ridiculous this is. But it’s honestly too much effort. (Edit, lmao I proceeded to write up a whole thing anyway)

I have incredible insurance. We have BCBS through my husband’s work, and they have amazing benefits. Like, “not possible to get a plan this good on the marketplace” amazing. The best plan on the marketplace rn is like $1130/month for two people, with a slightly lower PCP copay but higher deductible, OOP max, AND coinsurance. Can’t remember how much we pay in premiums, but it’s like… a couple hundred?

So, I’m not super mad that I have to pay $360ish to the neuropsych for the testing. I know it could be worse.

And that’s part of the problem. Sure, I have Cadillac insurance. I’m LUCKY. Incredibly fortunate or blessed or whatever. And maybe my state’s Medicaid would pay out for this too, but I don’t know. What I do know is that there is a significant care gap ALREADY for rural and low-income people here. What happens if you don’t qualify for Medicaid but can’t afford good health insurance? What if you can’t find a neuropsychologist in network? What if you end up responsible for the original $2,580, or even “just” the $1,330 allowable for BCBS? People can’t just afford that here, and this particular office won’t release any reports to you until you have paid. Meaning if somebody requires this service for a diagnosis but can’t pay- highly likely because ADHD can make holding down a job difficult- they’re SOL. They can’t get treatment.

I had to see a total of five people to get to this point. To be frank, I don’t even know yet if the report will corroborate my loved experience. I still don’t understand the point of this testing to begin with; I’ve had three people in the sphere say it’s likely, two of whom (a PhD and a therapist who specializes in neurodivergence) formally diagnosed me with ADHD. But this wasn’t seen as “good enough” for the third (a psych NP and PsyD) to fully diagnose me to prescribe me anything. I’m considered a “complicated case” because I was good at school growing up, have a trauma history, and have a history of depression, an eating disorder, and likely autism (also diagnosed by the same neurodivergence specialist, but that wasn’t good enough I guess to have it on my medical record). But here I am, having spent thousands at this point in copays, therapy for behavioral interventions, medications to treat other issues to “rule them out,” and various assessments. Thousands most people don’t have. Thousands that could be tens of thousands for the uninsured. And this most recent assessment? It involved a test that literally CANNOT differentiate between ADHD and other forms of cognitive and attention deficit, such as depression.

ADHD is a clinical diagnosis. I don’t mean that there is never a place for neuropsychology, but in the psychiatric world that my family is part of (note: dad is a psychiatrist; sister is in residency to soon be a board certified attending psychiatrist too), it’s not a hard diagnosis to make based on a structured clinical interview. (Even my therapist, the PhD, who has not just taught but been a DEAN, agrees- she is frustrated with me).

Why are we gatekeeping this diagnosis so heavily? Why is there such a strong assumption that people malinger to get an ADHD diagnosis and access to the scheduled drugs they need to participate in society? Why, when we have research that shows that ADHD is a huge risk factor for actual illicit drug use, abuse, and SUDs? You know what happens when you treat individuals who you clinically diagnose with ADHD? Rates of illicit drug use, drug abuse, and SUDs go down. Not up.

I’m just mad about it all.

#personal #adhd

[meatballerino]

hello mutual to keep you from dying of boredom please tell me something i wouldn’t otherwise know about you that you would like to share

ok hell yeah let's go i live in montréal je suis bilingue i go to clown school i wrote a communist agitprop play and got to tour it lmao i also write edutainment for kids to pay the billz im working on a novel and it's going so fucking slow but it's about the value of art in society/working in the entertainment industry/it's also blatant gay communist propaganda. god came to me and told me to be meatball three summers ago i'm a leo sun and leo rising and sag moon and my social insurance number is 948-215-783

thank you dear urchin i hope you are having a lovely day whatever timezone you are in rn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#thank u hugs and kisses i love attention and i love talking about myself #bonus: i posted a DE fic anonymously and when it's totally finished i'll come out of the closet and claim it on here

[onsunnyside]

HCV SIMS🌝🌝

day 1 in the arcadia phi frat house, let’s go!

[again, lily rose depp is the face claim just bc she was at the top of my gallery! but just pretend it’s you, the reader😌]

day 1:

10 seconds after unpausing, ransom is already going to yell at the reader😭, steve is going to chat w ari, and andy is on the computer “trolling forums”🥲

curtis is in reader’s room looking around while she’s not there🤨🤨

LMAOOO ransom just lit a fire in the house and reader is just standing there watching. okay ransom is now also on fire.

reader is now extinguishing him/the fire

everyone is running into the room, curtis snatched the extinguisher out of reader’s hands glaring at her and is now extinguishing ransom😭

LMAOOO steve was in the basement working out so he just came up in nothing but shorts like “what’s happening🧍🏼‍♂️”

steve and ari are now assessing the damage. ransom better pay up.

okay no worries, they got an insurance claim 😌

andy is yelling at ari😳 ari is now mocking andy lmao

aww curtis is washing the dishes. now he’s making drinks?? okay slay

curtis is obsessed w making drinks and mixology now 😭

ransom is freshly bathed, now going to talk to reader

steve and reader are talking and getting along!

steve & ari are talking a lot #besties

reader is now going to talk to ransom. ransom talked to her for 2 secs before walking away to talk to andy 😭

omg now ransom is embarrassed bc he walked in on ari pissing LOL

curtis & reader talking on couch! nvm he’s gone to make more drinks

OKAY WHAT IS HAPPENING everyone is now asleep (except for steve working out in the basement lol) BUT ARI KEEPS GOING INTO PPLS ROOMS AND STARING AT THEM (in his underwear!). he went into andy’s room about to get into his bed with him, then he just stared at him and walked away. he’s doing the same thing to curtis rn 😭 okay he finally is going to sleep in an empty bed

steve has finally gone to bed at 6:05am 😀👍🏻

OMG LMAOO KARMA WORKS QUICK, THAT'S WHAT YOU GET RANSOM 👹 STEVE IS LITERALLY STANDING EXACTLY LIKE 🧍‍♂️

this also reminded me that andy is the former arcadia phi president, perhaps that's why they're yelling at each other 🌚 curtis better get a job with that mixology love 😤 ahh what if he opens up a restaurant ?? OMG RANSOM WALKED IN ON ARI ?? KSKJ I HAD A SIM DIE FROM EMBARRASSMENT ONCE !!

ari sir wtf are you doing ?? creepy underwear man 🤨 I am betting that steve is going to live in that gym

hey bestie... house tour soon pls 🌚

#st3rgirl<3 #hc ask #hcv sims #long post #hcv sims ask

[kaibaswifey]

Responding to a very long anon ask

yeah you're probably right about the outside stress thing, I've just never had it affect me like this before. It's weird.

Thank you so much for sharing and typing all of this. I appreciate that and will consider your advice. I think right now my goal is to just finish this big commission and be at peace with how it turns out lol. At least have the commissioner be happy with it. When I've finished that I can decide what I really want to do from there...

A new job is... not really in the cards. i mean I could probably easily get a job in the food industry or even possibly go back to my last job which paid well and was full-time but... The job I have right now is much easier. Even if I can't stand it still lol. I'm the type of person who does their job really well and ofc management always expects MORE out of ppl like that. It's so frustrating to do my job well and be around ppl who fucking suck and don't try and yet I'm the one getting shit on bc I'm not pushing past my limits. But at least at my job rn I don't rly interact with co-workers or customers. I just have to listen to their inane bullshit without responding lol.

I've thought about getting a second job but I don't rly want to work two jobs in one day and no one rly wants to hire someone who can't work like 24 hours or more.

I just wish I could find a job that I don't hate. I loved working at sonic, but that was because my co-workers were so great (plus i was awesome at being a carhop lol) but yeah i happened to leave that job at just the right time bc all my coworkers were leaving and there was new management... I think it's a once-in-a-lifetime kind of thing and I'll never find another job like that.

Ok no what I REALLY wish for is to not be a wage-slave. I learned that term "wage-slave" from this lady Emma in this video. I'd like to live like her some day, (except with electricity n running water lol) but it feels impossible or too far away.

my partner has applied for some jobs though and that's put me at ease a bit.

Food stamps is also something I've considered but ugh I've got to re-apply for my state insurance when I apply for food stamps and I'm afraid of somehow fucking it up and I REALLY can't afford to not be getting my meds for free. But I should probably just go ahead and do it I mean how can I possibly fuck it up idk I'm being paranoid. It's just fucking daunting.

anyway I don't rly mind if ppl pry into my real life lmao. I'm surprisingly not that private of a person.

again, thank you. <3

#auds talks

[izzy-b-hands]

the idea of the crew having to essentially parallel park the Revenge has hit me and like

that's not. to my knowledge. really a thing?? (aka i will look it up to find out but later because i still feel crap rn lol)

but it's worth it to imagine Ed on the dock trying to give directions so the ship isn't fucked up, both of them barely able to really hear each other which is Not Helping of course

Izzy will end up off the ship next at Ed's insistence, asking him to figure out why this isn't working, they've been at it for fifteen minutes, this port usually isn't this busy even!!! and his fave restaurant here closes in an hour, Iz. Help, Iz 🥺

So Izzy stands there and attempts essentially what Ed was already doing, except now he's directing and critiquing Stede's ship parking attempts while Ed directs and critiques Izzy's directions and critiques lmao

Cut to the ship where no one is making fun of anyone being seasick rn because jfc the back and forth and back and forth aaaand they bumped another ship again (Lucius is rapidly writing notes to affix to said nearby ships with their insurance info because y'all didn't think i was letting that silly hc die did u ajdnfkgn)

Buttons has, several times now, offered to take the helm for Stede. As has Fang, and literally anyone else who's been behind the helm of the Revenge once or twice and not immediately fucked it up (most of them, but that's another fic idea for later maybe)

Stede refuses and Ed is shouting at Izzy and Izzy is shouting at him and he's shouting down at Ed why THE FUCK ARE SHIPS SO BIG ED. WHO DID THIS TO US ALL. WHY DOES EVERYONE HERE PARK LIKE A FUCKING IDIOT

In the meantime Olu sighs and has Lucius take down food orders for the restaurant Ed wanted to go to, because if they take the food to go they can absolutely get it before the place closes and be back just in time to see three grown men continue to fail to move a ship in an efficient manner

Jim is left in charge (will stab anyone who starts shit rn because look at this situation. we do not need More Shit going on. We were just gonna stop for fucking shopping and dinner!) while Olu and Lucius take a dinghy and make landfall like. max twenty feet from the main dock.

Lucius walks straight up to Ed and Izzy who are so invested in getting the ship to sit nicely without crashing into the two beside it that they don't even blink at him being there. Flat out does not register that they could definitely anchor the Revenge away from the dock and send everyone to the port via one or two dinghies and this whole thing would be over! It isn't even their only option to choose from!!

They return with bags of takeaway to the saddest two captains and first mate ever seen (the other ships' captains showed up and are Not Satisfied with the notes Lucius nailed to their ships, and there may have been a small battle. Note, Ed and Izzy and Stede aren't sad abt that, they're sad they didn't end up getting the ship parked correctly. Covered in blood, with Stede now on dock beside them after leaving the ship to help Ed and Izzy fight, bemoaning not the gore around them but how they could have done it!! Olu, could you have Buttons bring the ship back around and let them try again!?)

And yes, within that time, the helm was handed over to Buttons, who parked it successfully at one of the dock areas further away that was completely open. Yeah, they'd have to walk slightly longer on the beach to get to the main path, but like that's not the end of the world unless you're three lovely but entirely too stubborn pirates who insist that they can make the closer spot work, give them two minutes!

Two minutes.

It is not lost on any of them that they are sailing away, nibbling at their dinners, while the fucking sun sets.

Two. Minutes.

#text post #ofmd #this is dumb but i checked the box of mini tacos i was gonna finish #and it turns out there is green weird fuzz all over them!! I think i gave myself food poisoning a bit #don't heat up and eat food without turning on enough lights and inspecting it more is the lesson here for me #so i needed some silly #the lads however may not have learned anything abt their situation but we won't know until they face this again #will they just park farther away and/or hand the helm to Buttons or will they do this again #...i mean i can guess but i want to think they'll at least not waste as much time on being stubborn the next go around lmaooo

[nerves-nebula]

Oh wow, that sounds really cool that you're in such a prestigious school! Especially since they paid you to go too, that's really great. If I could help with research I would, I love learning new things :]

If this isn't too odd/big an ask (and if it is, don't worry about answering!) how do you get to a point where a school would pay you to go?

I'd love to go to college or university, but I have to work rn to try and save up and something like that might be the difference between going broke or not. Alas I haven't anyone that'd cover the charges, I've been encouraged not to go to school actually. I graduated high school with a (grade 12) 96% average if that means anything?

most of my projects aren't super research heavy, except for a history class, where I've gotta research a Japanese designer called Tadanori Yokoo. But I'm focusing on other stuff right now. Got a lotta poster presketches and drafts due next week.

I'm from the USA, so this might not be any help at all if you're outside of it. Which you might be, since you called it "grade 12" and I don't think I've heard anyone in the states call it that.

Anyway, here's my wayyy too long ramble about it:

short answer to how I personally got money from art schools is that I had a good portfolio and got accepted. But really, it ultimately depended on the schools financial aid budget.

I got accepted to every art school I applied too, and most offered me some money, whether that be a scholarship or in the form of financial aid. But like I said before, none were enough for me to actually go, since my family is kinda poor.

BUT the school I'm going to right now is rich enough to basically give any students who are poor but got accepted a huge discount on tuition. Or just completely drop tuition entirely and only charge us for room and board, as well as some other fees like health insurance or w/e.

But you also have to take out student loans, because the school doesn't just wanna give you money for FREE.

And that all depends on how much money you or the person supporting you makes. And even then, they expected my mom to be able to contribute way more than she was able to.

Actually, I don't think she helped pay for my first year at all. That's why I worked at McDonalds for a while before school started, so I'd have at least the first few payments ready. I ended up having to ask my dad for money (he doesn't give my mom money to spend on us anymore cause she can't be trusted LMAO), as well as using all $2,000 of an outside scholarship I won exclusively on monthly payments. So "expected" contribution is still a pretty rough estimate on the schools part.

this is all to say it was a really annoying process and I'm currently racking up a ton of debt. Which I might not have to worry about cause my girlfriend gets paid a lot and said with her salary she could probably pay it off in no time.

So let it be known that despite my struggles I am in an extremely privileged position by having someone who I can reliably have help me with college payments.

and that's not even touching on non-art focused colleges. I have NO idea how they decide who gets what money. As far as free/low cost college goes, I think most people's only chance is to get some kind of scholarship, take out a lot of loans and commit yourself to debt, or see if your states community college has more affordable tuition. I mean, if your lucky your state might even have FREE community college.

#nnstuff #asks are sweethearts #art college #sorry this was kind of a long and elaborate way of saying idk how to help you #I know there are a lot of scholarships out there in the world #but youd have to apply to a lot of them #or win a really big one #for the money to even help that much #also this REALLY isnt financial advice!! I am bad a finances!! #ask

[sugawarassoulmate]

Omg sister wives!?!? I married Sebastian too!!! We just had a kid a boy v excited. I’m finally starting to get the hang of it. I’m trynna get into more cozy games and make some friends cause it’s so hard

Very excited will Be awaiting this Mattsun piece gives me more reasons to not run off into Central Park to never been seen again lmao. I can live amongst the squirrels.

Honestly I’m not a real adult but tell your job like “hey do you know who I am you have a star amongst the group. I am the creator of Toxic Haikyuu boys give me health insurance pls”

🍄.

i could write essays about sebastian, i love him so much. i've clocked about 500+ hours in stardew on four different farms(i started playing right before the pandemic)

i've been a big cozy gamer all my life! especially farming games omg i remember going to heckin' blockbuster with my dad to rent copies of harvest moon for my gamecube 😭 rn i'm playing story of seasons and it's really cute omg

the mattsun stuff is a bit away 😭 but i think y'all will like it! and lmao imagine "yeah i have a lot of followers on the internet can i please have vision and dental thank you??"

#asks #💌 #🍄 anon

[cookinguptales]

Love living out here in the forest, hate having to drive two hours every time I need to have blood drawn lmao.

Today we have to drive to the nearest town with a LabCorp because I need a lot of bloodwork done, which means I have to go on a long car ride without any food or electrolyte tablets (my love) in my system for about 12 hours. I have a whole host of chronic illnesses, so lbr, this is gonna fuck me up. Good chance I’ll be very iffy the next couple days. If you really need me, send me a chat or an ask so it doesn’t get lost in my notifications and I’ll get back to you when I can! I promise.

I say this because next week I am going to be even more iffy so just in case I don’t feel up to talking before then, I’m not dead! I’m just gonna be hooked up to an IV for several days lmao.

[cut for personal stuff]

I haven’t been talking about it really in-depth because frankly, I doubt people really want to hear the gory details of my personal life but like. Things have been pretty bad for the past eight months or so. Health-wise. I mean, they’re always pretty bad, but things have been... worse. I always joke about oh, I can’t see today, oh I can’t keep food down, oh my body sounds crazy today but like. Honestly speaking, it’s been really hard. My work has suffered, my writing has suffered, my mental health has suffered. The brain fog has been absolutely unreal. I can’t tell you how frustrated I’ve been with these stories in my brain that I can’t seem to draw out. I want to show you them so badly and I’m running out of time... Sigh.

I digress. I was in the process of getting signed up for ketamine treatments before the pandemic hit and I’ve finally gotten an appointment to get started next week. Again, I don’t really talk about it much in detail but like. Yeah, I’ve had MDD since I was in elementary school and there have been some very dangerous periods in my life. It’s extremely treatment resistant and if we’re being entirely honest, dark thoughts are just kind of the cosmic background radiation of my life and have been since I was too young to even understand what I was thinking about. It’s been even harder to push through lately, but ketamine has been shown to help in a lot of SSRI-resistant situations... idk. They say it should also help with the pain, but I guess we’ll see. I’ve sure heard that before.

(At least if no one else is having a good time, I’ve sure given some doctors a puzzle they enjoy...)

I’m kind of scared, honestly. It’s a daunting set of (somewhat experimental) procedures anyway, but also like... I’m scared that it won’t work and this will just be my brain forever? But I’m also scared that it will and I’m going to have to figure out how I’m going to afford this going forward. It’s not covered by my insurance. 🙃 So my brain’s kind of all over the place, but some of that is also that I’m hungry and dizzy as hell but I won’t get to eat or consume salt for another *checks watch* 4-5 hours. ;;

(Why yes, I’m sure I do sound very scattered rn. Don’t worry, I’m not the one driving. lmao)

idk, just trying to keep my head up. We have to drive all the way down to freaking San Francisco next week and I’m not looking forward to THAT drive, but I’m hoping I have the energy to do some grocery shopping down there. Again, love the forest. Hate the food selection out here in the middle of absolute nowhere. lmao

I do not know how the ketamine is going to affect me just like, frankly speaking, I usually don’t know how fucking any medication is going to affect my weird-ass body. I could be fine and happy as a clam posting about vampires next week! But I could also be out like a damn light and totally uncontactable. So heads up either way.

OH BUT SILVER LINING the doctor did say I’m allowed to take my motion sickness pills before we drive down today, and if you’ve ever been on the roads up in the far northern part of California, you will know why I about cried with relief lmao.

#just me #my notifs have been kind of a mess lately with DD #so if I miss any replies or anything I'm sorry ;; #asks and chats go to a separate inbox so that's a more reliable way to get my attention #look man I know this is a ramble but it's not like LJ still exists so you'll just have to put up with me

[ennaku-sirri-da]

Jimbit (Jimothan X Habit) HCs courtesy of me and Mika [Part 2]

OK so

@zeromet FOR YOU!!! (AGAIN YAY) [Plain text: For you!!! (Again yay)]

Also clarification here that sometime Kamal and Habit ‘open’ their relationship and Trencil is generally OK with his partner having other romantic partners AKA OK with polyamory. I guess they all worked it out ha

--At the end of a really good spaghetti western

Habit is doing the celebration stuff and so is jim and he straight asks jim if they can kiss ( I guess Trencil and Kamal would know by now that these two are gay for each other. They don’t really do anything they just let it happen naturally)

And Jimothan is so caught up in the moment he says yes and they kiss for way too long and then the credits come on and they panic

Habit immediately drives home with sleep-deprived nightmare-moon Kamal

Jimothan immediately offs all the lights and rolls into bed at 3 AM 

---Damn spaghetti western night goes on late!!

Imagine Jimothan and Habby watching the sun rise...sleeping on each other.

Habit uses Jim like a pillow so that he doesn’t squish him. He’d be so gentle with Jim because dude’s a noodle. Thats also just how Habit is and it flusters Jimbo!!!

--Anywaysss somewhere after The Kiss(TM), Jim and Habit just admit they like each other and then they date because they’re both straightforward like that ha.

--When Jim and Habit just start out as a couple its real awkward but they both have patience so its fine. Lotsa awkward laughs and scares. Maybe kamal and trencil needed to help wingman a little.

--Habit purpousefully loses their arm fights to Jimbo just to see the joy on his face and hear him laugh

--Jimothan calls Habit Tamil nicknames( My HC is that Jim and Pars are tamil like me!!) BUT[plain text: But] He doesn’t tell him what they mean or tells Habit a very unsapped version

From Kanamma to Kanmachan...

Kanamma means a woman\girl who is the apple of your eye! Machan means brother-in-law, but it is also casual slang for calling your guy-friends. 

Kanmachan is an entirely made-up mashup by me LMAO Machan of my eye.

Habit calls Jimbo his yeehawty

--They go on horseback riding dates( Borrowing Lulia’s horses cuz that girl is rich!)

old guys helping each other up on horses....🥺(pleading emoji)

....AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE HORSE OMG [Plain text: And there was only one horse omg]

(Lulia lies and says the others are too tired rn so theres only one they can ride)

(I owe you my life Lulia)

Habit is huge and Jimbo is short so Habit has to lift Jim up but only after Jim tries and fails himself

Jimothan almost falls and dies BTW but Habit catches him

[ Gif description: A man catches a woman in a dip like a dance. end GIF]

Unfortunately both Jim and Habit’s backs start hurting because of it and they roll around in the grass a bit for pain relief

Its incredibly romantic

the horse rolls its eyes but what does it know of romance hm?

--Habit: "bay-bee our loaf defies the lawls of physics 🥺(pleading emoji) " [translated: baby our love defies the laws of physics]

Just like a Kollywood movie!!

[ GIF: Scene from a movie. A guy drives a cycle and a big truck swerves to avoid him, bumping off of something hard and flying away at the end. end ID]

Big Habit X Jimbo vibes. I bet Jimothan has a big decorated truck. Its like his third kid( Nat is the second because Bloody Mary--Jim X Trencil are married! )

Habits like Jimothan can I😳(flustered emoji)sit beside you in your truck (*Pushes Parsley away)

Parsley is buff as hell so he could probably beat Habit up but he’s too tired so he just gets thrown to the back anyway.

[GIF: Scene from a movie. Police guy gets out of a moving car in slow motion and points a gun into the distance. end GIF]

Jimothan doing stupid shit to impress Habit^ 

‘‘Look I am a ‘Bad Ass’ like the Kids say’‘

Habits clapping and giggling and cheering for him while Pars already has his insurance on the phone.

More Jimbo stunts.

#headcanons #jimbit #jimothan botch #dr habit #my friends hcs #flashing tw #police mention tw #jic! #gif #s4m #smile for me game

[hollandorks]

SHELBYYY HAHAHA

yes! camp ended july and a lot happened between me getting covid and the end of camp, but those are many stories for another time! it was exhausting but i miss it in my bones, my body absolutely misses it too and it’s coming out in poor sleep and worsening periods and i just can’t wait to get back out there again</3

and yes, this is my last year!! i graduate in the spring, and i have to start applying for jobs with usfs next month for a position in spring/summer which is CRAZY to think about how close i am to being a full-fledged adult and i hate it LMAO it’s such a weird feeling and kind of (extremely) daunting

and 3 beach vacations??? DESERVED! different beaches or same, and with the same person/people or different? and YAY for less work but same pay!! what do you do again? i remember something about a medical office of some point and working with your mom….?

anyway. still haven’t caught up on motn2 (cannot remember the title for the life of me rn LMAO my brain is fried) and it’ll happen sometime SOON but i’m just not prepared for it to take over my life again HAHAHAH but i miss talking to you and screaming to (at) you and i want to talk to you more and more because i MISSSSS YOU

hope you’re doing well now! love u dearly and i’m hoping your day has been going well❤️❤️❤️

Aw I love that you miss it so much 🥺 glad you had a good time!!! Feel free to randomly drop by with camp stories whenever, I love them! Also sorry that your body misses it and has decided to punish you 😂 that sucks

Wow your last year!! That's exciting!! I totally get it though, I graduated 4 ish years ago and it's still daunting tbh like am I really an adult?? Are we sure???

Yeah 3 beach vacations!! The first was my first trip with my husband's entire family (his parents, his siblings, their spouses, and our niece) to Florida--even though we've been together for almost 12 years we've never vacationed with whole family. The second trip was 3 weeks after that with my mom's whole side of the family (20+ people) for a family reunion! We went to the beach we always go to (it's in South Carolina 3 ish hours from where I live). The next beach trip was two weeks after that, our annual trip with my mom, aunt, and grandparents--we booked that one before the family reunion was planned & we couldn't get a refund so we went anyways!

I work at an allergy doctor's office with my mom yep! I do administrative work. So I for one thing run our social media etc (very easy), I'm in charge of specialty medications (scheduling patients and filing with insurance), and I work at our front desk/ reception on Saturday mornings now! And fill in as necessary.

By the time you get to the sequel maybe I'll be done and you can binge!! I look forward to hearing your thoughts whenever you do read it 👀

Hope you're doing well too and not too stressed by school etc!! ❤️ I'm great other than my looming wisdom teeth surgery but whatever, life is good otherwise 😂

#asks #rosie 🌹 #I need a tag for these chatty asks like #shooting the shit #or something idk

[flightless-icarus]

saturday august 27, 2022

so yesterday i had apartment inspections and my landlord kept complimenting my apartment bc it was so empty LMAO and it made it easier to check outlets and stuff. i have such a headache right now, but im awake because i had a really late dinner and now i have indigestion bc of it. im sitting here feeling sick as HELL since i ate so late- and i know that happens, but i cant skip meals rn, i literally can’t afford to skip my meals right now, weight wise.

ive been popping nausea meds like its candy lately to keep my stomach frrm getting so upset lately. it was even fucking testing me tonight but i just tried to breathe through it. i didnt want to take another one, because they give me headaches lol, which is frustrating bc i have one

im super sleepy, but i cant go to bed until i get a shower, and i dont wanna get in the shower until this indigestion goes away. i need some water, but im procrastinating it.

i just got some water.

things have been tough lately. im all hung up on my ex friends messages to me. i know what she said was bullshit- she called me selfish and a liar. If putting myself first, and taking care of myself and setting boundaries is selfish, then i am absolutely selfish. and i dont recall ever lying to her about anything aside frorm my feelings towards her. (her and i lived together at one point and i was very fake-nice to her while we lived together to keep the peace because when she decided she hated me [typically for ableist reasons], she was really mean and verbally hostile and it made me stop eating and get sick, so i was fake with her for my own safety and health, and then i was convinced to give her another chance and regretted it shortly after because i realised she very much hadn’t changed, and was gaslighting me and telling me I had problems when she was the one causing issues.) but anyway, she kept telling me my “karma was getting me for being such a bad person” which has me… confused.. even after talking to it with some close friends.

i live alone, my bills are paid (things are just financially rough for 1 more month, then after this month, ill be pretty set money wise), my apartment is my own, im in an okay area, i have the best friends ive ever had in my life, i THINK i have a crush on someone who feels mutually- like this is the closest to having a partner ive been in several years, i have a therapist, i have health insurance and im getting answers to my health issues, i get to spend my days doing the things i love (art), and im separated from my parents. fully.

i am literally the best ive ever been (aside from trauma stuff coming up, but that comes with the territory of being alone with ur thoughts all day and night) and im in the most stable living situation ive ever been in, and shes gonna tell me MY karma is getting me rn while shes working at target and trying to solve all her health problems with essential oils???? (she is anti vax)

im just so deeply confused. she said “have fun with your lame ass life and 5 internet friends and being selfish and living in a terrible neighbourhood, karmas a bitch now bye”

i dont place my value in how many friends i have, or how many times i go out. ive tried to tell her SEVERAL times that im very content being a homebody. i enjoy spending time alone and have fun with playing video games or watching youtube, reading, writing, and creating art. i like being inside. ive explained that to her more times than i can count and the fact that she just never once listened to me and is calling my life lame lmao. 4 of my 5 friends live only about an hour away and could visit if I scheduled with them a time to hang out, and my neighbourhood isnt bad. Yes there’s gun violence around here, but its… florida… of course there is. she thinks its some big dangerous neighbourhood bc its a predominantly black neighbourhood and shes racist as hell. this neighbourhood isnt more, or less dangerous than any other neighbourhood in my city. plus…… she tries to use ‘karmas a bitch’ at me as if i haven’t told her many times that i dont believe in karma. i believe in consequences to your actions. good & bad is subjective (in non-extreme cases), this situation specifically- i think shes awful and she thinks im awful. Does that mean we both get bad karma? no. it doesnt make sense. karma would only make sense for r^pists and ped0s and m^rderers and ab*sers. People like that.

I hope she figures out how to treat people who are different than her. she gets in this “i can fix them” mindset and then gets mad when they dont accept her “help”. She would always tell me how she. only wanted to help me, but anytime i came to her with my issues, i got ridiculed, questioned, ignored, and made fun of. I told her about my deep, personal shit and i was met with her asking me the most vile, invasive questions ive ever gotten about that issue in my entire life. i told her about something as silly as my water heater breaking and the maintenance man freaking out about it because it was so aggressively dangerous and unsafe to even keep turned on and i had to get an emergency replacement because of it- i told her about that and she didnt even acknowledge it, she just said “damn, anyway did you listen to my voice memos”

also she wants to claim i dropped off and never checked in with her…. i just moved into a place oN MY OWN *one month ago*. ONE MONTH AGO. I ***JUST*** GOT SETTLED IN THIS PLACE THIS WEEK. Im finally getting used to handling cleaning and cooking for myself every day, and im getting used to being alone and finally getting over my nighttime paranoia and im dealing with a lot of trauma stuff that i clearly cant go to her with- and shes gonna accuse me of just dropping off because i didnt talk to her for a couple of weeks, when i have friends i can, and HAVE dropped off from for YEARS and we picked back up chatting like nothing ever happened.

Biggest example is this guy i was friends with in 2020, one day i just quit replying, and he did the same, and i just reached out to him literally 3 days ago and he still refers to me as his friend and we were chatting and talking shit with each other, and he told me about how he still plays music and hes been putting most of his energy into that. Same with a different guy, we didnt talk for a year and now we’re updating each other on our lives and chatting again, and he told me all about how hes visiting his girlfriend in a week and im really excited for him, especially bc theyre moving in together next year. and yet she couldnt handle 2 fucking weeks while i was adjusting to living alone and unpacking by myself and trying to take care of myself during this really big adjustment?

she also tried to tell me that my ex friends told her about how im such a liar and how im so selfish and i asked her to tell me what i have lied about, because she has a history of just calling me names (ableist, a liar, a manipulator, etc) just because she “Wants to piss me off” and she “doesnt actually believe that”, because ive called her out on calling me names before and i would say ‘show me how im being X’ and then later id call her out and say ‘idk why you said this, you never told me how i was being xyz’ and she’d say “oh well i dont actually think that, i was just mad” so i plan to tell those ex friends shes so close with that she either lied about them, or threw them under the bus :) either way, shes about to meet her “karma” aka: consequences to her own actions. once i get my laptop back from them and pay them back, im telling them about her either lying on their name or throwing them under the bus so they know shes a rat. idk why she would use their names tbh lmao, considering her and i were actively fighting.

call me petty, but id wanna know if my friends were throwing me under the bus.

i dont need her. i dont need anyone like that in my life. i dont want to be friends with people who will spin false narratives about me because im taking care of myself, or lying out of self preservation because you make me feel unsafe. i dont want to be friends with people who dont make me feel good. ive had enough of those. i didnt even let my family treat me poorly, what makes you think im gonna let random people treat me badly.

anyway, its 4am and i want to get in the shower, my stomachs feeling a little better, and maybe now that ive written about this, ill shut the fuck up about it. i keep talking to a friend of mine a bout it and im sure ive annoyed the absolute fuck out of them (though they agree with me and ive told them everything ive written here)

[ablednt]

So I’m trying to get genetic testing done for Turners Syndrome and like this guy is asking me questions to try and see like, other than my obvious height, what might lead me to think I have Turners and anyway developmental disorders are connected to turners ig so he’s trying to ask if I’m disabled but because he was I guess too scared of just asking me straight he had to first ask about my school history and I had the fun experience of having to once again clarify that no, I did not go to school, no I never got testing done I’m uneducated lmao and only THEN did he just ask me the initial question of like “do you have a learning disability” and then I had to be like yes I have multiple but they’re self diagnosed <3

So anyway that was fun/s but at least I’m getting tested soon

#if my insurance covers it anyway #anyway God I hope I have Turners just Please PLEASE just for once let something in my body fucking make sense lmao #I feel like every time I get testing done I'm completely wrong about everything AND they don't tell me what I DO have wrong with me so I #just have all these terrifying symptoms and they're like lol not our problem go cry about it to a therapist or something we don't care lmao #so now im just hadifogudfgi p l e a s e just give me this god #Speaking of learning disabilities tho I really should drop that class I am now entirely ignoring adfgdigdfgiretuortu #(dw i got it for free bc im on state insurance so im not wasting my money but hidougiofdugjdfijgij aaaaaaa) #I need to get a GED so bad but I just can't do it rn and I'm realizing that #as much as I want to get into the grind and actually make an income I can't do that when I can barely sit up in bed most days #so it's going to have to wait #but god it's so humiliating being disabled like this and stuck depending on the family #maybe it'd hurt less if the family wasn't also fucking awful but it's not like most disabled ppl aren't being abused to hell and back anyway #so I guess I'm normal in that regard. it's so tiring though I'd fucking love to be able to rent my own place and buy my own groceries and #stuff like that but rn that's a total pipe dream and it sucks so bad lmao #it's so hard not to just give up trying entirely and accept that I'm going to die here with these ppl because I can't get the tools needed #to actually support myself #but rn I'm just still planning to try creative shit online and hoping to get lucky enough to actually make a living off it but that's #not a steady thing to rely on anyway #sorry this turned into a whole disabled rant but ig that's what this platforms for ultimately

[zombiesama]

anyway if youre one of the people who checks in on me when i post depressive bs I love you and pls know i would die for you

#rice rambles #there 1 (one) person who does this nearly everytime and that is why hes my best friend lasjdjkf #im f i n e its just a lot of venting bc otherwise id just sit here thinking abt things and thats worse than posting jokes abt feel bad #if i think too long without making jokes ill cry so we gotta keep things fun in this house #i have my first proper check up with a doctor in 2 years (insurance kept us in no-primary-care purgatory for 2 goddamn years) #tomorrow so i will definetly mention all my mental issues bc damn are they bad #i should. make a list. #main one is the suicidal bs that comes once a month (u can guess why. love having a uterus. its great) that is getting Really Bad and is #probably part of why this is So Bad rn #but theres also the fact i am 90% sure i have bipolar depression #even tho im medicated i want that to be diagnosed lmao #and i Will mention the fibromyalgia #like i KNOW no one is gonna do anything but I AM gonna make it known i am constantly in AGONY #my mom says its pointless to say but this doctor seems to actually give a shit so i can and will try to get him to hear me out