#no time to do anything memorable

[beatcroc]

pest control TWO!!!!! heres the first one

adn heres the obligatory bonus bc i can't help myself :')

#i already threatened that little basard twice in these i may as well make good on it #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #the noise #fp ''oh god wait that is not a real rat and also tastes awful'' moments. he doesnt actually have any interest in eating that thang ok #even if seeing a small scampering little guy like that WILL activate his prey drive without fail #peppino loves it he thinks it's the funniest shit in the world for fp to go after noise. so he is always encouraging this. #but anyway yeah. fp is *really* not the one noise should be worried about. #arting #pizzaposting #i still have lots of tag room thjis time so im gonna do some tangential nonsense rambling. e #fp gotta be like crazy good at hunting i think. not just for strength and predator instincts but also bc like #he doesn't have much in the way of a scent or body heat or anything that would give him away as an alive thing #not to mention he's uh... not particularly organically-shaped a lot of the time #so esp. to smaller prey that don't like... memorize a landscape; if he holds very still he's like completely undetectable #total ambush king. though i'm sure hes also very good at #persistence and pursuit hunting since he has peppino's speed and no way of getting muscle fatigue. ultimate beast #fortunately he doesnt care that much and doesnt really need to eat so hes not devastating the local ecosystem or anything #except for the rats.

[puppyeared]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it?? #maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc

[subway-boss-jericho]

Guys this may come as a surprise but as it turns out i just might need ADHD medication. Like. Badly. shocker, i know

#this is supposed to be read in a joking tone. sarcasm mostly. #Because if you've been following this blog then it is SO OBVIOUS #but yeah who would have guessed that looking at people who can do tiny doodles every day and going 'i could never do that' isnt normal #or the fact that posting on social media takes multiple hours of scripting in my head and the same amount of spoons as taking a shower #so the concept of regularly posting on a blog (hi there blog reader. this is the blog) is so cosmically far away for me that i literally #cant imagine all of the fandom people i love not being literal deities of the internet and algorithm conquerors who always know what to do #I HOPE THIS IS PUTTING IN PERSPECTIVE HOW BIG OF A REVELATION FOR ME THIS IS #I LITERALLY COULDNT COMPREHEND HOW PEOPLE COULD JUST “POST STUFF ON THE INTERNET” WITHOUT CAREFULLY CURATING IT AND THINKING ABOUT IT FOR #WEEKS AT A TIME BEFORE SHARING. MEMORIZING ALL THE TAGS TO PUT ON IT FOR PEOPLE TO SEE. How people could just post anything at all. #without wanting to give up before you even start #damn so. executive dysfunction sure fuckin is huh #i hope this helps give insight into the struggles i'm facing writing steady tracks or sharing content of my other aus online in the middle #of college/now having a job. its been hard but i havent been able to justify why until right now #so every time i post #please assume it is a cry for help 🤣 #Tag Ramble #Not Submas

[juniperhillpatient]

my hobby is watching those “top most disturbing movies” “goriest movies” “movies banned in some countries” etc type lists to add to my ever growing watch list (I know… my hobby should be actually watching the movies on my watch list… it’s complicated. anyway.) & hostel 2 is on a list of most disturbing movies & im cracking up ‘cause that’s a comfort movie to me I always forget some people find it horrifying

#it’s about a girlboss winning!!!!!!!! how can you find that disturbing ?? #god forbid a woman do anything #(cut off a billionaire’s penis) #hostel 2 #I have that movie practically memorized it’s such an all time fave I’ve seen it so many times ahhsjdjdjd #I love u Beth Salinger

[potatoesandsunshine]

i get why not everybody loves it as much as i do but i love oblivion so so much. easily on my list of top ten favorite video games of all time

#'oh playing it now can kinda suck—' correct. there are flaws. but i love it all the more for them. #the writing is SO! it makes up for everything for me #i have played this game enough times to memorize the layout of each random oblivion gate so when i go in i just already know it #i'm not a skyrim hater or anything like many people that was my elder scrolls intro and i love it dearly #but oblivion has the crown in my heart. i love making awful spells i cant use. i love when the enemies just keep doing the same things. #i love the arena fights and the questlines and the feeling of endless exploration (interrupted by bears) #and i can cry about martin septim any day of the week given a few minutes to think about him

[lynaferns]

School is draining any small motivation I had for art

or creativity in general

(tw: I got pretty much depressive in the tags but I needed to dump this somewhere and this may not be the best place but is where I feel better talking about my problems or insecurities, so feel free to ignore)

#vent in the tags #tw vent #i'm tired #and I hate that I'm tired #everytime I try to finish education is worst than the last time. my head can't take any sort of information from the class #no matter how many times they try to explain me or how many times I read and reread the same text #I can't focus. I can't memorize anything. I'm just sitting there in the classroom waiting for the 4 hours to finish to go back home #and spend the rest of the night just doing nothing. staring at the walls or doomscrolling till I have to go to bed and wake up again #for another day of fighting against an stupid anxiety attack in class because I'm going to fail this again #I hate school. I fucking hate it. the most boring stressing overwhelming way of learning #having the teacher talk for 1-2 hours straight and the student listening the whole time not saying anything is stupid #it's so fucking stupid they only want them to be mindless sheeps that only listen #because if you say anything 'no. you're wrong. I'm the teacher and I know better' fucking bullshit #this system is bullshit #and how am I supposed to study a whole school year of history. biology. math etc in less than 4 months?? #everybody was like #'oh it's just 4 months and you'll be out of school!' 'in 4 months you'll get the education!' 'you can finish this in just 4 months!' #I fucking can't! I can't do this in such short time! I can't. focus. on 6. subjects at the same time. my brain can't! #and it's so fucking depressing. I have 4 opportunities to finish this. the longest it could take me is 2 years #I could just focus on 1 or 2 things each time but if I fail too many times I won't have another opportunity like this ever again #and I won't be able to finish highschool education and I. just. can't. #I'm tired of giving my biggest effort and not being enough. I'm tired of getting no satisfaction from any achievement I get #I hate so many things right now #and I have a lot more things in my head right now but I better shut up #you don't have to comfort me. it's ok. I'm not searching for confort. I just needed a place to dump my frustration or something #idk #you can ignore this #I might delete this later

[unproduciblesmackdown]

blade gunnblade !!!!!!!!

via eliza simpson:

There are no words for this true warrior. They kill me. MMM: went in for a post show hug. Me:"ow!" Asia: "oh sorry, that's my bullet necklace." 😳........ 😍

#blade gunnblade #asia kate dillon #kapow-i gogo #eliza simpson of [angel & others in the mysteries] & [the mother line story project] & [saw ak dillon in triptych yes we're jealous] #& [princess cloudberry in kapow-i gogo] #here we also see stephen stout in the 1st pic but going ''!! surely our dear cherished blade gunnblade's back. hair's long though hmm'' #only to have that cleared up by the 3rd pic thank god ='] #i guess at some point blade gunnblade has blue hair & i do love that for them #i believe they're in part 3 but i have all the less information about that plausible appearance #(and of course still no info on [asia perhaps doubling roles with the longer black haired wig & ultracorp jacket in that one pic?]) #one thing that would be fascinating & fun is if part 3 blade has more of part 1 kapow-i's look. the bright blue hair #looks like pink lipstick. Pure Speculation but i know the like [this is reaction to You Know How Media Is] element discussed like #part 1 thinking most [sat. morning cartoons experience; the legend of] part 2 is like when these series get sequels or just some #ep or turning point that upends its own previous established conventions. Darker more Serious / Mature Themes etc #part 3 like well sequel to That which adds yet another layer of the same factor there lol #i'm not really that versed in All This Media directly b/c i'm not that versed in / familiar with much of any media directly but #i am also not completely at sea & also one thing i could think of is like. blade is our revenge vengeance tragic anti antagonist lmao #what if after that they get to lighten up in delightful contrast to the torment & tragedy. turn more optimistic moral support bestie etc #but like i said utter speculation based on ''oh this is a look they have?'' & comments on [comments on material commenting on itself] so #could be anything! or nothing! except that it's Something enough to have been photographed a couple of times. thank god #oh hang on also we can see that that's stephen stout's character in the pic of Wearing A Black Longer Haired Wig & Ultracorp Jacket #who's to say it isn't also: yes that's blade disguised or something. underneath they have this bright blue shorter wig & Blade Outfit lol #i would cheer for that. compelling #(also noting that it didn't preclude a doubling of roles instead but; that figure Is wearing blade's necklace. makes it easy to switch to #Blade Mode backstage; makes it easy to switch to Blade Mode onstage....) #which: noted! bullet necklace! makes sense lmao. sort of #also pic 2 ft. director kristin mccarthy parker fyi. and the typical blade hair length i.e. simply asia's own. #''😳........ 😍'' soooooo true ''MMM:'' standing for ''most memorable moment:'' and also sooooo true as well #blade gunnblade is everything to me. if they died in part 3 i'm blowing this whole building up. they have bright blue hair now

[southern--downpour]

for some reason my brain has very strong opinions on the music tastes of marble hornets characters & bc of this i cannot listen to almost any playlist for em cause theyre all Wrong

#tim listens to the combo of early 2000's dadrock and country/folk music #(bro owns a banjo. no normal person who doesnt listen to country music owns a banjo.) #scene kralie is very funny to me but also not far off #alex listens to early 90's emo and is VERY opinionated on it #he will rant at length about what does and does not constitute as emo music and does not care if you are listening #jay listens to 90's/2000's hardcore and just tunes out whatever the fuck alex is talking about #also like. the type of indie music that sounds like it was recorded in a garage and mixed on a toaster. #brian just listens to whatevers on the radio and doesnt think abt it farther than that #anything that wasnt like top 20's pop and country radio he got from tim #(they all however have the top 20's country songs at any given time memorized. only brian has them memorized willingly) #shut up virgil #i cant make a brian playlist cause id be laughing to hard listening to it #cause its just the Worst mixed bag of music #also me saying all the playlists are wrong is an exaggeration. do what you want lmao i am just very particular abt character playlists #id comment on like. jessica's but i have to read the comics to know more abt her #not enough info for my brain to grab hold of in the og

[maskyartist]

add this to the list of goofy ass personal aus for me and me alone

au where everythings the same but Ozpin's blind thats all

#masky says #again its called SELF indulgence for a reason #im simple i like blind characters who use their blindness to their advantage #ozpin wouldnt be able to rely on ozymandias or any other past lives for sight since they'd need to use HIS body's senses to detect anything #no one can see. its a new experience for almost ever life i'd imagine #but ozpin's grown up without his sight so he knows how to navigate the scary world #hes not totally blind. he can see...vague shapes. very vague. #but thats it. #long memory works as a normal cane and ur usual blind cane #hes memorized beacon's halls along with the usual rush of students and which way they'd come and go to classes so he doesnt get lost in the #-rush if hes ever goin from one place to another alone #glynda usually sticks by his side to act as his guide if hes goin somewhere super crowded #tho i mostly like it cause the vibe of ozpin bein one of those characters who keeps their eyes closed all the time is a VIBE #hes still a top huntsman. hes still the headmaster. hes still one of ozma's many lives #but hes blind. thats all that changes and it changes nothing and also everything #qrow acting as a seeing eye bird when ozpin asks for his help #sitting on his shoulder and cawing if oz nearly bumps into a wall or someone #i know its not real evidence but i do like ozpin memorizing the feel of qrow's facial features #the scruff of his beard the way his skin dips in places where scars linger #he likes touching people hes very touchy. its the best way he knows to see in his own personal way #he wouldnt notice ruby's silver eyes. he'd need to be told later. glynda probably mentions it making ozpin interested even further in her- #-progress and acceptance into his academy

[disdaidal]

I don't want to brag or sound too optimistic about it, but after three weeks of training at a private college, I think my lessons with this one particular immigrant student (who has serious motivational problems lemme tell ya) are finally starting to get through and there's been improvement.

Only slight improvement so far but I have spotted some, so maybe not all hope is lost yet.

Remains to be seen I guess.

#personal #so in case anyone's still wondering i'm studying to become a tutor/instructor/guidance counselor etc. etc. whatever it's called in english #and currently i mostly work with immigrants with language. sometimes i help high school students as well. but mostly immigrants #and there's this one immigrant student who's been there since last spring. and he still barely even knows the basics because he's 'given up #according to him that is. he told me this at least three times yesterday and i told him that's a problem #so i've been trying to hammer it through his head that he can't be sitting in classes and using his phone when he's supposed to be learning #or expect me or teachers giving him all the answers when he also needs to show a little effort and help us back as well #and that he needs to participate in pair and group activities in classes because we're a team and we need to work together #so basically he's been asking me to either teach him or then find someone who can teach him #i told one of our teachers this and she answered that he could also participate in evening activities at the college but he's not doing tha #and according to him he doesn't 'mingle'. so i told him maybe he should once in a while. get out of his comfort zone. at least try #to my surprise he actually showed up to one of the evening activities that i hosted. didn't do much anything there but sit but still #that was effort. he did exactly what i said despite it making him a little uncomfortable so that's improvement #so then yesterday he asked me about teaching him the language again. i told him i host a homework club at tuesdays & thursdays @ 3:30-4:30p #he showed up there yesterday and was the only student. so i had time to teach him basic greetings. weekdays. months. things he shoulda know #and i thought it's all probably in vain but i tried. so today. he was in their class and actually doing pair work and reading stuff aloud #and even translating some stuff when i asked. calling it easy. and that he's trying to use his phone less and memorize this stuff instead #to which the rest clapped at and cheered him on for. and i told this to the teacher afterwards when she asked me about him. and she gave #me a thumbs up and looked a little surprised but also delighted. because he's been a popular subject amongst ourselves for a reason #so i don't want to get too optimistic about it. because he still has an attitude problem. but he's tried a little at least. so there's hope

[puppyeared]

i have to say its a strange experience taking classes on branding and marketing while being vehemently anticapitalist and scorning the economic system

#i shit you not ill be in class and theyre talking abt how to make brands memorable and use words to describe their tone and feel #and at the same time i see starbucks endorsing genocide and greedflation and AI techbros scheming us into extinction #its extremely fucking dystopian. and its even worse when u have teachers telling u to use chatGPT and midjourney for #placeholder text and images. like damn. this is really the industry im going into huh #i feel complicit doing this because i want to pursue graphic design but its chilling to see ppl get really worked up abt branding #do u not feel used?? doesnt it feel like youre giving a faceless entity a mask to gloss over the ugly parts?? cuz i do #i get excited at the design and UX aspect of things like how people think and how design and user interfaces are planned around how #we think and act. but when the endgoal becomes marketing or doing it for companies it just feels like a waste #like i think this is what bill watterson meant when he didnt want calvin and hobbes to be commercialized #i dont want to do anything else unless it comes to that like i change my career path somewhere down the line. but fuck dude #im just gonna keep using unsplash and lorem ipsum as much as i can because i sure as hell dont wanna add to the problem if i cant solve it #yapping #vent

[lover-cook]

Sometimes I forget how evident it is the types of characters I gravitate towards f/o wise like. Romantic, Platonic, Familial, no matter what their are certain characters I tend to feel that connection with that tend to have a visualization or connection to one of four things You've got The Sun/Day - Sun, Gojo, Jackie, Nemona, Astrid, Luffy, Shanks, Wukong, Mari The Moon/Night/Stars - Moondrop, Cassandra, Howl, Stardust Cookie, Moonlight Cookie, Stardust Cookie, Luna, Nebula, Carol, Jim, Arvin, Silver, Giovanni, Mihawk The Fire - Sanji, Red Son, Axel, Capsaicin Cookie, Ember, Mei, Ace, Toriel, Asgore The Neurodiverce - Axel, N, Metal Sonic, Thistle Whistle, Link, Robin, Hifumi, Penny, Tails, Sunny/Omori, Mihawk

Like. I can't complain but it's kind of funny how frequently these kinds of characters are ones I look at and have interest in sknglkndsk

#ollie musings #☀️sunnyside up🌈 #🌥️a world of our creation🩵 #🌸smile so much our cheeks hurt🍫 #🌕moon and stars✨ #💎i love all the light that is within you⚔️ #🌟looking for you in every universe💖 #🪻all that glitters💫 #🌙dream a little dream of me🍪 #✨i fell in love with the mare in the moon🌕 #🚀the equation of love💛 #🌟you're something out of a dream🎆 #💕a dish made with love🥘 #🔥spice of life💕 #❤️i've got you memorized🗝️ #❤️‍🔥eternal flame baby💀 #🌺you set my heart ablaze🧡 #♟️you’re as strange as me🎡 #💙jumpstart my heart⚡️ #🪁you make me just a little bit braver🎶 #platonic #🏆battle buddies #🎇unmapped stars #🥪come on now we found every herba mystica we can do anything! #🐉dragon horse bestie #💣besties through time #🌷 for the record i trust you #🖊️my go to muse #📱more in common than you'd think #familial

[flash-from-the-past]

Hapland

#hapland #flash #fuck this game. #not only was it one of those point and click game where the only way to figure out anything is trial and error #it was very easy to screw up #and the game wouldn't tell you. you would just have to realize it's time to hit start over. #also at the end there was a timed section with a dog chasing a stickman #and if you didn't do it right you had to play all over again. #hell on earth. so of course it's one of the most memorable flash games for me and i remember replaying it a bunch of times #just to click random shit and never actually finish

[razzipree]

i love being insane

#every single time i help people go over blocking at rehearsal #or write it down #anything really #i get the urge to draw beetlejuice doing it too #like #ohhhh the blocking for lipstick on your collar is soo good #i should draw bj in these poses #oh! the motion at can’t you go okay robin hood #with somebody else’s HEAAAARRT #is WONDERFUL #yknow who’d look wonderful doing it? #beetlejuice. #catch me memorizing every single persons blocking entirely on accident bc i just draw bj doing it so much #i am going to create a niche so random #50s pop girl group songs x beetlejuice

[hecksupremechips]

Teehee I got hugged today 🥰

#the klock keeps ticking #it was literally like 2 seconds but idk im like WOOOOO #like it wasnt long enough for me to be all satisfied touch wise nah im so starved itd take all night and day man #and also this particular person is uh. very special ahem. and it was like #i wrapped my arms around them best I could and i could just feel their hips and like their body squish under my hands #cuz theyre so squishy and sturdy at the same time it felt safe and its like. thats really scary actually #ive never ever felt safe hugging anyone this kinda thing is brand new to me #touch in general is new to me. at least consensual touch that i wanted and initiated #and i just felt really nervous cuz like i really love this person but sometimes its hard cuz like ‘guys’ dont hug each other often #or at least not in a case like this where we’re friends but theres this sorta avoidance around anything romantic #cuz we’re both very awkward and also uh. trying not to cross certain boundaries just yet we need time #but unfortunately im so aaaaa rn and touch starved and i was like im just gonna bite the bullet and ask if we can hug LIKE A DAMN GAY ASS #its like fuck i may as well propose marriage and get on all fours while im at it aaghhhhh why am i like this #but it was fine they werent weirded out or anything. not visibly anyway. and they hugged me!!! #me! of all people! im like so happy we got to hug but im also really pissed cuz it was really brief and i didnt get to memorize how they #felt and now im just like grrrrr. fucking tease why must i be so tortured i get the smallest taste and then poof its gone #i just wanna cuddle and hug them for hours and pull their hair and feel their body all over and uhhhhhhhhh #ahem. i may be getting too gay here huh. damn itttt. fuck me. how do you ask your mate if you can explore bodies #in a way that definitely isnt platonic without making things weird

[the-trans-dragon]

What’s the appropriate way for me to respond to customers handing me religious pamphlets/cards? I’m not worried about getting fired btw.

#sorenhoots #I was considering eating the pamphlet but that isn’t fun in practice. only theory #I considered crumpling it up and throwing it in their face but that might count as like. attacking lol. #like I have so much to say. maybe I should just vent at them about how Christianity left me broken and hopeless and [redacting details]. #not for their benefit. just to drag them through my incredibly painful emotions. maybe to make them suffer with me. maybe just to vent #without worrying about how my vent will impact them. #the first one took his card back when I said no. the second left his pamphlet and the TONE he used when he told me to read it. THE TONE. #was like a parent telling a toddler to eat their vegetables. ‘we’ll give it a try. it’s good for you. it’s got good stuff in it’ #god I wish I had facial recognition so I could refuse to check him out next time. #the first guy has a memorable appearance so I’ll never check him out again. #but that fucking second one. ohhhhh I was so mad. I went on break and went straight to the warehouse #to break down boxes for the bailer. exercise is very regulating for me! I felt much better afterwards #BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING NEXT TIME. either funny. or scathing. or rude as all hell. or anything. #anything that will let me feel like I have some control over the situation. I can’t make them take back their pamphlet… well I could. lol. #Sir do NOT leave your trash here. I am not a trash can. you can throw it away down there #where our trash can is located. #anyways another guy tipped me $2 so that was real nice