#now I’m aloneeeee

[foldingfittedsheets]

I was gonna say I’m being so brave about going to the doctors alone today but I’m not. I’m dragging my feet and very anxious.

#ramblies #I have to get a stupid pap and I really don’t want to #already got stabbed full of needles on Tuesday for the allergy testing #and my betrothed and I had it scheduled for the same day so we could go together but then our stupid periods ruined that #now I’m aloneeeee

[francisforever2014]

guys all she gets is hate and 13 grammys and near constant news coverage and billions of dollars and a private jet :(

#LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE #all i get is annoying people in my notes and people telling me smugly that a woman i barely cared enough about to make a singular post #about bc she’s literally inescapable ‘lives rent free in my head’ and where’s my pity . #okay boycott starting NOW!!!!! i deeply regret this post already god i really don’t care #but clearly i do care bc ur being annoying enough to make me care and i always rise to the bait which i why i regret saying anything like w #just need to do a total shut down #and from now on i’m doing my part o7 no matter what stupid shit i’m forced to read

[fisshgutss]

literally woke up this morning and within an hour i was thinking to myself “he fucked me over to protect his ego”

#fish rambles #like leave me ALONEEEEE THOUGHTS LEAVE ME ALONE #high chance they’re right so now i’m just pissed off #😝😝😝 and yesterday was very chaotic and honestly i think i’m just upset because i want a lot of time to myself and i am not currently

[rotzaprachim]

if I had a nickel for every time I rapidly came down with COVID or COVID adjacent symptoms on the final day on a single annual visit out of my island and it coincided with the surprise release of a season of the bear. Well

#Is the bear always going to be associated with randomized nausea for me now #Once in Bulgaria once in Puerto Rico dear gd #I have some local contacts I really trust and I speak English and mediocre Spanish which are all things that didn’t happen in Bulgaria #But there I had my mom and here I’m aloneeeee

[dumbseee]

rumours, part two.

part one.

jude bellingham x influencer!reader.

fc: nailea devora.

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groupchat: it girls 💕

larray:

ain’t no way you’re dating jude fucking bellingham and haven’t told us

y/n:

larry istg i’ll cut your hair in your sleep if you keep believing those DUMB rumours

oliviarodrigo:

girl

he’s hot asf why don’t you shoot your shot?

y/n:

with a footballer?

hell fucking no

these guys don’t know what being faithful to one person means

and i’ve heard plenty of shit about this jude guy

larray:

yeah me too tbh

y/n:

i’m not getting involved with him, period.

larray:

okay but what about his teammates?

y/n:

larry.

larray:

DO IT FOR ME

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y/n: girls night 🥂

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fan1: JUDE LIKED???

fan2: is she lying to us?? bc why would he like her posts now?

fan3: I JUST CHECKED AND HE’S FOLLOWING HER NOW TOO

fan4: maybe she lied to protect their privacy?? that would make sense tbh

fan5: you look so good 😍

fan6: she’s such a baddie omg, jude i get it now

fan7: didn’t know who she was before the whole jude drama but omg i love her

fan8: LEAVE JUDE ALONE YOU FREAK

fan9: petition for jude’s groupies to leave y/n alone

fan10: MOTHER

fan11: y/n please do another grwm i’m obsessed with your videos

fan12: how to be like her, she’s hot asf and has THEE jude bellingham at her feet

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insta dms:

y/n:

wtf is wrong with you?

i told you to tell your fangirls to leave me alone and what are you doing? you LIKE my posts and you follow me now?

leave me alone, jude.

judebellingham:

you looked good

you always look good*

are you free, tomorrow night?

y/n:

can’t you READ?

LEAVE. ME. ALONEEEEE.

or i’m pressing charges on you hoe.

judebellingham:

so it’s a yes?

i’ll send you the tickets and my jersey, someone will come pick you up, what’s your address?

y/n:

wtf

what do you mean?

judebellingham:

we’re playing against sevilla and i want you to come

y/n:

we don’t even know each other tf??

is that how you get all those girls to get obsessed with you?

that ain’t gonna work with me, boy.

judebellingham:

hm, i like you already.

y/n:

well, i hate you.

judebellingham:

haha

turns me on, love it.

y/n:

i am BLOCKING you

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i hate him. i fucking hate him. who does he think he is? making me come see him to his stupid game, what am i, his mother? seriously i could’ve stayed at home, binge-watching the twilight movies like i do every year. now i have to go to his fucking football game, it’s going to be so nosy, damn it. and before you ask me, YES i am getting ready and i am wearing his jersey. not because i want to, but i know that i won’t hear the end of it if i don’t do it. yeah, i’m doing it because he’s forcing me, no other reason.

like jude said, someone did pick me up to take me to the bernabeu stadium, and i can’t believe i’m doing this. the venue is full of fans wearing either their real madrid jerseys or their sevilla jerseys. i can see men, women, kids, elderly people, they’re all here to have fun and support their favourite team and i have to admit that it’s a cute sight. let’s just hope that they don’t kill each other’s at the end of the match. i’m quickly escorted to the vip section, where friends, family and important people would seat for the game.

"oh my god, is that y/n?" a voice called from behind, i closed my eyes shut, fuck, and walked faster, i should’ve wore a mask to hide my face. if anyone picture me in this stadium with that motherfucker’s jersey on, it would end my career and i’m half exaggerating.

thank god, the vip section was secluded from the other people. the game started and i had to admit that it was fun to watch when you weren’t really supporting anyone. no stress, just having fun watching men run after a ball, just like dogs. jude was actually good, i never looked him up on the internet to watch his performances, i just knew he was the internet’s favourite whore and girls were thirsting over him. he was good looking, of course, no one could deny that, but more than anything he was annoying as fuck. i surprised myself, cheering for him when he scored a goal, what was wrong with me.

real madrid was actually leading the game with two goals against one. jude’s teammate passed the ball to him and he scored his third goal of the match. okay now, why did this motherfucker just point at the crowd, more specifically towards me? people turned around to see where he was pointing at, but thankfully they couldn’t see me. my heart definitely sank when he did that though, seriously what is wrong with this guy! it was a cute gesture, yes, but we weren’t dating and i promised myself to never date an athlete, tried it once and promised to never doing it again. jude was everything i hated in a man, he was reckless, cocky, full of himself and he knew he was hot. nothing worse than a guy who knows he’s handsome.

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"how was i?" he asked, this big smile plastered on his face, i wish i could tear it off his face. "fine, i guess." jude made a weird face and put his hands on his hips. "fine? y/n, i was more than fine and you know it, scored three goals and they were all for you." he blew me a kiss and i swore i was about to knock him out. "yeah about that, someone could’ve seen me!" i said, slapping his arm, making him laugh. "darling, that’s what i wanted." okay, the way he was looking at me may or may have not made my heart skip a beat. "jude, i’m starting to believe that the fans gaslighted you into thinking we’re already dating." he laughed, making my cheeks heat up just a bit. "i just want to give the fans what they want to see." he shrugged and put his arm around my shoulders to start walking out of the changing room. i imediatly pushed his arm away and speed walked in front of him to hide my red cheeks. of course, the bitch was laughing at me, running to catch me and poking my cheeks to mock me. "aww, you’re blushing? i thought you hated me, darling." i put my hands on my cheek. "fuck you! it’s just hot in here!" "it’s literally minus two degrees, y/n."

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y/n: maybe football isn’t so bad 🙄

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judebellingham: like the view? 👀

y/n: shut up.

fan1: SHE POSTED JUDE???

fan2: Y/N DID YOU LIE TO US???

y/n: WE’RE JUST FRIENDS GUYS OMG

judebellingham: for now* 🫢

y/n: jude istg…

fan3: OMGBSJSOSLSLMDMSLZ WTF

fan4: i am literally shitting bricks what the FUCK

fan5: i love the banter lmao they’re fun

fan6: i ship it tbh

fan7: y/n being a wag for 2024 omg

fan8: i love how she’s fighting it but we all know how it’s going to end

fan9: Y/N NOOOOOO NOT A FOOTBALLER

oliviarodrigo: well, well, well 👀

y/n: please not you too

larray: will you look at THAT

y/n: LARRY SHUT UP IM BEGGING

fan10: lmaoo even her friends are ratting her out

fan11: #savey/n

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insta dms:

y/n:

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

DID YOU REALLY DM POP BASE TO TALK ABOUT US???

judebellingham:

mmh, i don’t know what you’re talking about

y/n:

jude bellingham.

judebellingham:

okay maybe i did

BUT I DIDN’T KNOW THEY’D RAT ME OUT LIKE THAT

y/n:

FOR FUCK’S SAKE

judebellingham:

anyways it’s not a big deal tbh

are you free tonight?

y/n:

no.

judebellingham:

nice, i’ll come pick you up at 9 <3

y/n:

are you BLIND?

i said no bitch

judebellingham:

suddenly i can’t read.

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y/n: get you a man who eats his spaghettis with his hands 😍

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judebellingham: i wonder who is this gentleman 🫢

y/n: yeah i wonder too 🙄

fan1: pls not jude carrying y/n’s purse

fan2: they’re so cute stop

fan3: my favourite couple

fan4: PARENTS

fan5: lmao i bet jude is the one who begged her to be his gf

y/n: yes.

fan6: JAISOSPXLD’´S

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#football x reader #football masterlist #football au #football #jude bellingham x oc #jude bellingham x you #jude bellingham fic #jude bellingham fanfic #jude bellingham x reader #jude bellingham imagine #jude bellingham #bellingham #jude bellingham fluff #fluff

[sovksluv]

GTYU2K - static chapter 1

✰ . pairing - ex!Luke Castellan x italian!fem!singer!reader smau

✰ . summary - dating an ex-frat boy was definitely not the best idea, but now that you’re only a girl he used to know, you’re making tons of money off him and his lying, cheating ass, iykwim 😉

✰ . includes - badassness, italian singer but no specified race, cussing probably, sad luke because he regrets what he did

✰ . series taglist - @sluttysammyy

✰ . pjo taglist - @perseus-jackass @niktwazny303 @st4rzl7

✰ . now playing - GTYU2K by Alexis Munroe

✰ . a/n - im not really sure how artists like talk about their new albums and stuff so taylor swift is my inspo!! also PLEASE if you haven’t, GO LISTEN TO Alexis Munroe (aka princessbri) ALSO!!! pictures do NOT depict the reader!!

✰ . series masterlist

y/ny/ln u make me sick

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larueclarisse FUUUUCK HIM !!! U DONT NEED HIM 🫶🏽❤️‍🔥

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln ridding myself of allllll the bullshit

ׂ╰┈➤ user09 ATE

missbeauregard soooo excited !!! and so proud of you lovie 💕💕

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln ilyyyy mwah mwah 💋💋

seaweedbrainbaddie um where’s my photo creds 🤨🤨🤨🤞🤞

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln no

ׂ╰┈➤ seaweedbrainbaddie yes

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln no

ׂ╰┈➤ seaweedbrainbaddie YES

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln FINE. 📸 creds to @seaweedbrainbaddie (stupid name btw)

ׂ╰┈➤ seaweedbrainbaddie thank you and FUCK YOU

ׂ╰┈➤ annab3th LANGUAGE.

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pipesqueak drop the album alreadyyy!! i’m dying waiting 😫

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln coming soon i promise ml 💋

ׂ╰┈➤ pipesqueak not soon enough :(

iamchris_h can’t let bro know i fw this 😣

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse don’t even know why ur friends w such a loser

ׂ╰┈➤ iamchris_h we all make mistakes guys

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse his dad definitely did 🥱

ׂ╰┈➤ missbeauregard CLARISSE.

hater77 she’s just obsessed with her ex like if it’s so bad why make a whole album about him LMFAO

ׂ╰┈➤ user54 ur just mad she’s making money and u aren’t 🤣

larueclarisse GIRLS NIGHT ‼️🥂❤️‍🔥 tagged: @y/ny/ln @missbeauregard @pipesqueak

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pipesqueak i had so much fun !!! 💕💕

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse WE ALL NEED TO GO OUT TOGETHER AGAIN?!?&:8

ׂ╰┈➤ pipesqueak YES !

y/ny/ln holy shit i’m so hung over but at least i look good 🤷‍♀️

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse only Y/n Y/ln can get full on shitfaced and still look good 😫❤️‍🔥

seaweedbrainbaddie omg guys why wasn’t i invited :(((( 💔😖

ׂ╰┈➤ y/ny/ln you’re a boy. it was girls night.

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse you’re like 8??

ׂ╰┈➤ missbeauregard you would probably just complain the whole time

ׂ╰┈➤ pipesqueak you can’t even drink

ׂ╰┈➤ annab3th you’re annoying.

ׂ╰┈➤ seaweedbrainbaddie babe you weren’t even there ??

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itslukecastellan she looks so pretty

ׂ╰┈➤ larueclarisse boy gtfo

ׂ╰┈➤ iamchris_h Luke i can’t even defend you anymore 🤦🏽

y/ny/ln just posted a new story

view reply from larueclarisse:

larueclarisse YESSSSS IM SO EXCITED 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

y/ny/ln my biggest supporter 💕

view reply from missbeauregard:

missbeauregard DISSIN HIM AND MAKING MONEY!!! IM SO PROUD OF YOUUUU

y/ny/ln thank you babyyyyyy <3333

view reply from cast311anbackup:

cast311anbackup i miss you

y/ny/ln leave me aloneeeee how many mf times do i have to block you.

y/ny/ln i’m not the girl that u used 2 know🤷‍♀️

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© sovksluv 2024, please do not repost or translate my work!

#𖤐 . rue talks #𖤐 . rue’s world #pjo series #pjo show #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo fandom #pjo spoilers #pjo tv show #pjo disney+ #static #alexis munroe #alexis munroe static #luke castellan #luke castellan x reader #luke castellan fluff #luke castellan au #luke castellan imagine #luke castellan story #charlie bushnell imagine #charlie bushnell x reader #charlie bushnell #charlie bushnell story #static alexis munroe #princessbri #princessbri static #alexis munroe static story #book luke castellan #luke castellan smut #luke castellan pjo

[natalynsie]

Hi can you do a part two on Turqouise Hearts (Tomco Oneshot). I hope it's not too much to ask

Since @artqueens-stuff asked, here's chapter two. Glad you liked the first chapter babe. I hope this isn't too short, I've had a lot of homework recently. But anyways, enjoy.

Chapter Two

Marco looked up a bit more, just to blush harder and bury his face in his knees again.

“Oh my gosh, really?” He asked.

“Yeah,” Tom admitted, sitting by a wall next to Marco. “I think it started while we were fighting Meteora. I didn’t really notice for a while though. I didn’t tell her, but it’s part of the reason I broke up with Star.”

“Wow…” Marco voiced, looking back up again.

“Don’t leave me hanging like that. You need to tell me when you started liking me.”

“Well, uh, I think it was a little bit before you did. I didn’t want to get in the way of you and Star, and I hadn’t come out either way.”

“Why didn’t you come out?” Tom asked.

“I don’t know, it just never felt like the time was right. Now, why didn’t you come out?”

“Honestly, I thought you knew,” Tom laughed. “I’m pan. I guess I just never felt like I had to tell. We don’t really do the whole sexuality thing in the underworld… so…”

“Oh.”

“Yeah.” Tom sighed. “But, uh, if you like me and I like you, do you think we could… date?” He reached a hand out to Marco and loosely grabbed onto his wrist.

Marco blushed and slipped his hand into Tom’s. “Yeah, I’d like that. Do you think we should tell Star and everyone?”

“If you want to. I kinda want to show you off.” He gave Marco a playful shove.

“Stop, you’re killing me. But yeah. I’d like to tell everyone. Should we text them to tell them it’s over?”

“Star told me to call her, so I’ll do that,” He pulled out his mirror, clicking on Star’s contact. It rang for a few moments before Star picked up.

“Heyyy, are we in the clear? Or are you calling us because Marco escaped? Please let it be the first.”

“We’re in the clear. Now hurry home, we gotta have a talk.”

“Oh no. On our way.”

She hung up, and it wasn’t long until a pair of dimensional scissors opened a portal into the living room.

“Star! Did you take my dimensional scissors?” Marco asked, angry.

“Maybe. It was just in case!”

Marco grumbled and stood up.

“What happened, anyways?”

“I wanna know all the juicy details,” Janna declared.

“Shut up Janna, this is serious.”

“Nothing bad happened,” Tom said. “Actually, something pretty good happened.

Marco folded his arms in front of his chest in embarrassment, and Tom nudged him. A silent way of telling him to come out already.

“Um… I’m bi. And we’re dating now.”

“I knew it! Now give me the juicy details!” Janna demanded.

“You knew?” Marco asked.

“I know everything about you, I thought you knew this.”

“Ughhh, I forgot how annoying you are.”

“I’ll always be here to remind you, Diaz.”

“Really?” Star finally spoke. “Wait. What did Marco do to get this to happen?”

“He was acting pretty gay when he got out of his room,” Tom stated. “But I didn’t know he liked me until he accidentally admitted it afterwards.”

“Aww, that’s so cute,” Star smiled.

“Kill me now,” Marco mumbled.

“About time,” Janna deadpanned. “But anyways, I gotta go. It’s taco night.”

Janna waved and walked out the door.

“I’ll just leave you two aloneeeee,” Star smiled, running up the stairs.

Marco grabbed the back of his neck, and Tom turned towards him.

“Well, I have to get going too,” Tom stated, and Marco frowned a bit. “But– can I have a goodnight kiss first?”

Marco blushed for the third time that day, and turned to Tom. “Yeah.”

Tom gently held his face and bent down slightly to place a small kiss on Marco’s lips.

“See you, Diaz,” He said, stepping into a portal of fire.

“Bye Lucitor,” Marco waved, walking up to his bedroom.

#natie fics

[milliumizoomi]

y’all my delusions are catching up with me at too much of a fast pace,,

I had a dream that I had a bf and I’ll tell y’all that man was so down bad for me it was horrendous,,

I’m talking like walk him like a dog down bad he wouldn’t leave me ALONEEEEE

And now I want a man🧍🏽‍♀️ and y’all know I don’t need one,, I promise my head is working against me🗿

#it’s like unreal how realistic it felt #like dear god pls take the wheel 😭

[nach0]

death thrice drawn liveblog except i'm just gonna post it all at once @deathricedrawn your fic gives me brainworms

under a readmore bcse long + spoilers GO READ THE FIC (i reblogged the link a few posts ago)

love gem being too introverted to leave her tower even when she's evil and murdery and all that

side note that reminds me we haven't seen much of xornoth this fic hmm. wonder where they're at

yeah those statues are like. they're definitely people she just turned to stone right. that's what she did there. what happened to their faces.

YEAHHH GEM PIANO MAKES AN APPEARANCE

*points* gayasses

(btw alice i did see your reply to my comment! read it all and no coherent reply just yet but yesyesyes you put so much thought into this fic and i love it)

"Now I’m starting to regret sending my advisors on a paid vacation.” GEM???? 'paid vacation' IS THAT WHAT WE CALL STATUING PEOPLE NOW????

gem you can't talk about sausage's name your brother is literally fail whip

ALSO!!! CALLING PEARL MOON AS A GAYASS NICKNAME!!!! YES!!!

TWO SENTENCES LATER 'MY DEAREST MOON'

SWEETHEART!!!! MY HEART CANNOT TAKE THIS!!

also pearl ily but you're a dumbass how did you forget about your One Job

fwhip. fwhip stop playing with gem's toys

STOP BULLYING SHRUB LEAVE THEM ALONEEEEE

(also they/them shrub my beloved <3)

SAUSAGE IS FOURTY?????

fellas is it gay to make the person you're cosmically connected with a ring to save her from dying

gah when will someone speak to me like gem speaks to pearl here YOU'RE MY SUN MY MOON MY EVERYTHING.....

fwhip nooooo don't fall into the endless all consuming pit of rage and revenge

just like. go to therapy man you need it more than the ACTIVELY EVIL ONE

a few final thoughts:

gem says she's not a mind controlled mess like sausage, and it's true she doesn't seem to be actively controlled, but there's almost definitely at least an influence of some kind.

like in Sweethearts Never Met when she gave the egg to fwhip she was scared. something was happening to her, she couldn't control it, and she didn't like it. Now she's waxing poetic about the corruption (and she's damn good at it too i was like 'yeah ok that sounds pretty beautiful' at points)

side note. i love stars. i love the night sky. i love this whole thing being set against a meteor shower that's SO PRETTY

i think they should kiss. not even in a romantic way necessarily but like. evil style.

pearl is definitely a gem and now corruption sympathiser but i'm not sure if she's going to go all the way in like gem has

everyone's an unreliable narrator! no one has any ubiased thoughts about anyone!!! girliepops just talk to each other also stop being mean to shrub >:(((

on that note i really want to see a fwhip and gem confrontation or even gem and sausage from gem POV. we've gotten a few raw and honest moments with her, but for the most part everything has been carefully chosen words and actions designed to get the reactions she wants.

gem if you would step over to this dissection table and let me peek in your brain rq much appreciated

what is GOING ON with her i have so many questions

this might be longer than the actual liveblog so ima cut it off here EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU ALICE FOR AN EXCELENT VERY TASY CHAPTER

go read Death Thrice Drawn it's good for your mental health. i mean unless you go insano mode like i have but oh well. enrichment.

#read the chapter first before you read this please! #i have SO MANY THOUGHTS and not NEARLY enough words to articulate them #i did my best tho

[subconsciousmysteries]

Musings on 4 vs. 8

I have many musings on the topic of 4 vs. 8. The deeper I’ve gone into enneagram the more I’ve realized these types are so similar in presentation and so often confused.

both types feel that they were thrown out of heaven, and their complex circles around that.

4s feel that they suffer uniquely, because they have these idealistic, utopian visions they want to communicate with the world that nobody understands (4 -> 1). It’s not only this. Life is not worth living if it is not lived in the utopia / heaven. The super specific, super unique utopia that the 4 envisions. So the 4 suffers, crying out for heaven, trying to communicate their vision of heaven to the masses, trying to free themselves (4 -> 2) from the torment of their vision that can’t be made real, through self expression.

8s also feel like they were thrown out of heaven. 8s are also a “fallen” type. It isnt an accident that the Devil is always typed at 8. Heaven for 8s however, is not some hyper specific, unique idealistic vision with specific details of perfection, like it is for 4s who are trying to integrate to 1. Heaven for 8s is whenever we are FREE (Holy Freedom, ideal of 2) from paranoia to be loving, proud souls who have the capacity to give and receive unconditional love (8 -> 2). we long to be an open fountain of love, pouring out love and sacrifice to those around us, but then we are pulled down by the dark void (8 -> 5), into all this paranoia. And then we are angry. Angry angry angry that we cannot be our beautiful loving selves because there is so much darkness in the world pulling us back. we Blame the world for our misery, it’s the world’s fault we are miserable, the world’s fault for not being paranoia-free enough to let us be our special proud 2 selves… we are not realizing ofc that the paranoia and fear and darkness comes from within ourselves.

8s disintegrate into a hiding ninja 5. 4s disintegrate into an expressive 2. So, 8s know they can hide this dark world from people and LARP as normies to blend in. LARPing as something you’re not to get your way — a concept which is alien to 4s, who feel the need to expose themselves, and feel like “why live if I can’t be myself, if I can’t die for my idealistic vision” — is unfulfilling. It leads to a lack of satisfaction as you become numbed out to life. But 8s have such a persecution complex from 5, we do not see that hiding is unsatisfying and the answer is to embrace our true self publicly and proudly like a healthy 2 (and like a 4 properly using their 2 line). We sink deeper into the 5-ish paranoia idea that the world is full of hostile controlling people who wouldn’t be able to handle our real self because they’re all pussies and cowards, and receive our satisfaction from anger / lust (anger is burnt up and channeled into lust. Mmm I love going deeper into the void. Mmm oh my god it feels so good. Drown me drown me daddy, consume me). 8 to 2… well, proper 8 -> 2… is about overcoming this arrogant self-importance complex (the world should be ready to handle me and all my dark weird shit, just becuz I am needy!). 8s must acknowledge that we live in a world with people who we need to be considerate of. 8s can work hard to find a way to combine sharing our true dark angry void self with being considerate of others.

Now those of you who are still typology Neanderthals will come @ me like “omg you are a 4 because you are emo, talking abt your alone dark void self” and make me want to bang my head against the wall. someone once thought I was a 4 because she saw my tumblr blog where I was posting slowcore music and whining “I’m so aloneeeee”. Feeling isolated and alone and emo doesn’t make someone a 4. Basically any type can be emo, isolated and emotionally self indulgent in different contexts, but it is most common for disintegrated 8s to be this way frequently, esp. on anonymous social media. Anonymous anger / emotion / lust expression is part of the 8 -> 5 hiding complex and I have observed it in every 8 I have known, not just myself. Anyway. Feeling alone and isolated is a 5-ish sentiment. Disintegrated 8s are walled off from other people like 5s and they live in their own world of emotions and theories and persecution complex like 5s do. an edgy loner who is whining about how alone she feels, is probably an 8.

4s don’t feel generically “alone” so much as they feel like aliens lost in a world they don’t belong to. 4s feel like they only belong to their hyper specific, special, perfect 1-ish heavenly utopia, but they were tragically thrown out from it. Oh god, the agony. 4s love their friends in this world, but still feel they don’t belong in this world. This is where the “special snowflake” complex that 4s are so infamous for comes from. To be a snowflake means far more than to self-pity — something 8s, 9s, 5s, 6s and even 2s frequently do. being a snowflake means actually thinking you’re from another Origin to others. And therefore no matter WHAT, they COULDNT understand your pain. Your pain is otherworldly, beyond the comprehension of their species. this sense of not belonging in the same world as their friends causes inner conflict for the 4 because fuck. “My friends… do they actually belong to this world? Am I being selfish and taking them away from this world into my own fantasy world? But also… how dare they come visit my world then not live in it and stay in it! How dare they not be one of me?” I’ve known 4s who felt fear / conflict / guilt about sucking their loved ones away from reality. 4s struggle with taking too much unearned Pride (4 -> 2) in the fantasy / utopia, and neglecting their moral obligation to do the hard work to bring this fantasy into reality, where it can truly be shared with others (4 -> 1)

When it comes to expressing emoness, 4s are more likely to be found telling you about their idealized fantasy utopia and/or telling you the detailed backstory of their life, than telling you how they actually feel here and now. Going “I’m so aloneeeeeeee” “I’m so seperate from other people” “I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl” and plain self pitying like this with no attempt to be spectacular, is probably an 8 or a 9. or a 5 or a 6, their disintegration points. There is no 4 -> 1 idealism or 4 -> 2 seeking to stand out in any of this generic self-pitying that so many of you people think is 4.

8s and 4s get confused perhaps because of their shared line to 2, because 8 and 4 both want to stand out, since 2 is about standing out, and because of the misconception that self-pitying emos are 4s when actually they are more likely to be 5s… the disintegration type of 8. Remember that 4 disintegrates into 2, meaning that — although you wouldn’t get this from mainstream ennea where 4 is a wet noodle and 2 is a dick-sucking people pleaser — 4s cope with stress by becoming more expressive, melodramatic and attention seeking (like 2s). Whilst 8s cope with stress by hiding, getting lost in their own solipsistic emotional world, and becoming timid (like 5s).

final note: 8 cores need someone to share all their 5-ish stuff with, so they will find someone to talk about their inner world with like 4s will, or if they don’t find someone they will find a rage-based outlet for the pain and angst they feel about their isolation. You must pay careful attention to the difference between an 8 -> 5 inner World, And a 4 inner World. The 8 -> 5 inner world is untempered by superego, actually it can be understood as an escape from superego, as the 8 runs away from 2 and runs into 5. and therefore the 8 -> 5 inner world comes off as much more chaotic and random than the 4 inner world. The 8 -> 5 inner world is not a clear story or message. It is a disjointed series of thoughts and beliefs and speculations and insights from experiences, which put together, probably make no sense. Like all my posts on this blog lmao. NOT refined. Now the 4 inner world is caught between two superego lines (4 -> 1 and 4 -> 2) which make it refined, refined by intellectual idealism (1) and refined by the idealized free self (2). Even if it’s completely detached from reality, it is refined.

#4 vs. 8 #4w5 #4w3 #3w4 #5w4 #7w8 #8w7 #8w9 #9w8 #enneagram #typology #enneagram 8 #enneagram 4

[sleestakkk]

ban horror movie ads. i’m being so fucking fr right now. i’m not trying to induce my anxiety at one in the goddamn morning cause the new nun movie is coming out. LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE.

#i’m not even scared of it in the daylight #morning #or whatever #but fuckkk #it gets me every time when it’s late at night #or i’m suffering and have given up tryna sleep #i hate it so much it’s CRAZY #i’m just tryna chill #i don’t wanna see this new #piece of shit #mediocre #mid ass #part number 43 to the conjuring movies #LEAVE ME ALONE #I’M BEING SO SERIOUS RN #horror #i’m so tired man…

[hoonvrs]

she kissed him twice maybe 3 times i think? 🫣 eyes r twitching FR.

when we found out my friend went to go and confront her bc that’s fucked up?? and she kept trying to play dumb like she didn’t know she kissed this guy

the next day was when she texted me that utter BS and i was like ‘icl don’t have a lot to say to you but if you have something to say then be my guest…’

and she responded w ‘Urmm I don’t think so honeslty idk what u saw or heard but yeh aha’

💀💀 does she think i’m fucking dumb ?? does she think i don’t know or what 😭 why in fucks name did u want to talk to me then like ACTUALLY go fuck yourself . so glad we’re going on easter break bc i don’t think i could actually look at this girl without insane anger boiling up in my chest

THIS IS THE SECOND TIME SHES PULLED THE SAME SHIT 😭 LEAVE MY LIFE ALONEEEEE I WANT PEACE PLEASE IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASKK

so u wanna talk about what happened but now u don’t have nothing to say😭 dpmooo

please tell me this is party boy and not ice skating boy or i’ll lose my shit CAUSE WHY DID HE KISS HER THREE TIMESSS

DOES HE NOT KNOW SHES A FREAK LIKE

#inbox — new msg! #ri ! #iix — moots!

[hyunverse]

yes i do! i grew up in boston and ended up getting a rly good scholarship at a school here in nyc so i live here now :)) it’s not too bad. tbh it’s pretty much the same as boston just a little bigger. andddd what’s ironic is even tho i’m from two of the like most known cities in america, i am terrified of rodents 😭. i see them quite often in nyc but not as much in boston. no matter how many times i see them i’m still terrified of them and i am fortunate enough to not be rodent infested 🙏🏼🙏🏼. also yep teef in the muscles is the best way to do it. i want to eat minhos thighs. like chomp is an understatement for what i want to do to those thighs and i have no shame in explaining. the gods ddu du ddu performance …. that’s all i need to say

omfg what is even the point of dating someone like that ?? it’s exhausting. i agree with just wanting to do your own thing. when i was younger i always wanted to date but now i just want to be aloneeeee. i do miss aspects of being a relationship but tbh i’m fine w waiting to experience that w someone like every day yk ?

hey man technique is technique 😏. also yes hyunjin and felix hand comparison makes me crazy. ngl i’m big on size diff and hyunjin just does it for me. so tall and lankyyyyyy he’s just my type. like no joke he is my exact type all around but especially physically. nothing better than a feminine man with so much androgynous energy and duality. like it makes me insane. when i get home i want to measure my hands so i can compare mine w everyone’s. im sure it will be drastic so i will keep you posted ! how tall are you?? im 5’1 .. 😟 it’s bad ik

watch me cry at how sweet you are rn 🥲. u make me blush 🙄. i did take some earlier this morning and i’m trying to drink as much as i can (maybe i’ll purposely forget to do all of this just so you can come here but you didn’t hear that from me 😇😇😇). CONGRATULATIONS THAT IS SO AWESOMEEEEE!!!! you should be so proud of yourself and know i am very very proud of you as well <33 that is literally so amazing, hard work pays off my love 🫶🏻 that’s so awesome. if we happened to not live all the way across the world from each other i’d treat you to a delish meal but i guess our lives failed us on that one >:|. what’s ur fave food btw ? sending hugs back to ur sweet self 💗💗💗💗💗💗💕💕💕💕💕 and a happy heart attack bc u deserve it hehe

- 🐈‍⬛ much love from ur g <333

that sounds nice!! honestly, from experience, moving from one state to another is quite tough. i’ve been living in the city my entire life, but had to make an entire 180° for university life ‘cause my campus is in a village! like an entire village — on the way to my campus, there’s a sign that says, “welcome to ***** village!” good god u can imagine my terror 💀 the facilities are not bad but definite different compared to the city </3 okay i sound like a brat, don’t i? anyway! bae, i’m dead terrified of them nasty rodents too. i feel like puking at the sight of them </3 so i 💯 understand you honestly.

CHOMPING ON HIS THIGHS YEP YEP. minho needs to drop the workout routine cs god his thighs are. . . sighs dreamily. love em. wanna bite em. talking abt that performance. . . lee yongbok. i will never forget that signature ab showing move tbh. gonna show them to my kids being all like this is ur uncle felix! (get it? cs imma marry hyunjin frfr! yes pls entertain my delulu pls pls)

RIGHT i feel like my past experiences and friends’ relationships are the cause of me not wanting one </3 scared me off legit. i think imma stick to writing 🙏 why experience it rn when i can be delulu with u?

UR TYPE AND MY TYPE MUST BE THE SAME THEN CS I LOVE TALL AND LANKY MEN MMM EAT THAT GENRE UP ALL THE TIME! when they’re 90% legs and have big hands? call me up. call me up‼️that is my type right there.

yes keep me posted with the hand comparison, baby. tell me ur hand size too so i can compare with me 🙏 i’m 5’2 so we’re both not that far off HELP. short gang ig 😔

PLEASE DONT FORGET 💔 MY ANGEL I AM TOO BROKE TO FLY TO AMERICA 💔 ONE DOLLAR IS ABOUT FOUR MYR 💔 PLS TAKE CARE OF URSELF 💔 AND THANK YOU BABY!! means a lot from u hehe. i have sm fave food dang. . . it’s hard to choose. i like steak, and ramen and this malay dish u call tomyum! very yummers. also loveee hotpots. i could eat hotpot everyday of my life. and donuts!! what about yours, darling?

you make me blush too ^__^ kisses to u frm me!!

#rin’s lovemail! #🐈‍⬛ anon 💌

[hella1975]

I’m so hungover and we’re watching spiderman nwh later this really feels like the kind of experience that’s going to rewire my entire psyche

#the way I ate sunday lunch today… laughable #my mum the entire time was just being sarcastic #‘hurry up and eat :) anyone would think you’re not feeling great :)’ leave me aloneeeee #literally was in the bathroom beforehand like chunder now or forever hold your peace #but it’s NEVER that easy <\3 #I’m gonna be fighting for my life in the cinema besties wish me luck

[sawthetruthinme]

TODAY HAS BEEN A GOOD DAY!!!!!!

#finally worked up the courage to text my boss abt having a consistent schedule again #and she was like #‘​yes that’s perfect timing bc i was going to reach out to you!’ #which is so good bc i was so anxious that i would be overstepping #plus she gave me the saturday shift which one of my friends from dance also works #so i won’t be aloneeeee #AND ALSO ITS SPRING BREAK NOW!! #so i’m just happy and warm

[statticscribbles]

Sleepover

Summary: Liam Dunbar/Reader, they have a sleepover and reader gets bored and tries to cuddle/distract liam from his video game

Liam Dunbar had been a mystery to you until the moment he wasn’t. Which to say was you’d been tagging along with everyone, Stiles had insisted he needed your help with something and then Liam had brought you pizza and refused to give Stiles any, you and Liam sharing it instead. Which had started Liam bringing you things to spite Stiles, at least that's what he said he was doing. Spitting Stiles had turned into taking you places while there wasn;t any actual research happening as an excuse to stretch your legs. That had led to another not date, eating lunch over the weekend, then watching movies and sharing lunch at school. Which led to passing notes in class and texting back and forth, and then spending time after school together.

All of those not dates had accumulated into an actual date, flowers from Liam and an assurance that the two of you were exclusive, and then a hurried explanation to you that Liam hadn’t seen anyone else anyways and he wouldn’t want to.

You’d laughed at that and planned your first night together. Despite Stiles and Lydia’s comments about the two of you getting up to more than just watching movies and attempting to make cookies.

”Liam, are you winning?” You hum from where you’re stretched out on the bed, Liam’s eyes don’t move from where they switch between the screen and the controller in his hand.

“Liam?” no response, you poke at his leg and he huffs pausing his game and turning to look at you.

“Yes?” 

”Is the game good?”

“Well I wouldn’t be playing it, if it wasn’t.”

“Liammmmm.” You whine when he hasn’t moved from looking at the tv for almost an hour.

“Aren’t you hungry?” You try to tempt him with pizza but he just blindly reaches for it until he grabs a slice, fingers digging into the cheese to lift it to his mouth and take a bite out of it sideways.

“God really has abandoned us.” You laugh when Liam pauses his game, looking in horror at the pizza slice.

“This is why you should take a breakkkk.” You nod eagerly and Liam smirks.

“You’re just saying that cause you want to cuddle.”

“Well yes, but also you’re going to lose your wolf vision staring at the screen.”

“I don’t think that’s how  it works baby.” Liam smirks when you crawl  onto his lap and kiss his cheek.

“So you do just want to cuddle.”

“Of course, I missssss youuuu.”

“Y/N, I’m literally sitting next to you while we’re on a sleepover date like we’ve been doing for the past what, four months? You really miss me that much?”

“Yes you’re just so focused on the game, and i’m sitting here all aloneeeee.”

“You’re half on my lap Y/N, that’s the farthest from being alone.”

“I'm emotionally alone.”

“Is it?” Liam laughs, pulling you in for a kiss and you sigh into it.

“You do realize you could just ask to kiss me right?” Liam asks after you pull back from a small makeout session.

“I know I could ask but it’s much nicer to cuddle and kiss and not have to ask.”

“Do you just want me to stop playing the game? You can also just ask me to do that, you know that right?”

“It’s no fun to just ask you! I wanna make you notice me.”

“You’re aware that I notice you all of the time.”

“Well clearly not if you’re just playing video games the entire time we’re having a sleepover!!”

“What would you rather do right now? Sleep?” He laughs a little and your face lights up when he catches your eye and smirks.

“Oh I think I have an idea of what you want.”

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